#manifesting may not work with me

[126dvtn]

am considering writing for hxh and mystic messenger but every time i say i would do something i never do it so we'll see how it goes

#MDHSKFHM #manifesting may not work with me #%! chats

[sylvieserene]

Fixing history using the power of editing and my editing skills!!

For today we have, New Titans (1980) Issue #100

✨ Wedding Special ✨

@robstarblog @robstaryeah pinging yall just in case so that this doesn't get lost in oblivion (It'd be painful since I worked 5 hours non stop on it lol)

I think the most time was taken by the final panel and adding in the finishing touches since I pretty much had to change everything to the pixel level, quite literally lol (I'm serious, I did)

Welp I hope the results were worth it! And with that, another one gets a good ending!!

I kinda didn't add sleeves in the first two panels of the final page because it didn't look good and looked janky with how I was editing it so yeah please ignore that-

#teen titans #robstar #dick grayson #koriand'r #starfire #dickkory #Changing history #using the power of editing and my own skills! #giving the good ending to characters who truly deserve it #it took me 5 hours to complete all the editing to the miniscule level #i paid attention to every detail to match each panel #it took a lot of effort but it was worth it!! #but damn man there have been so little dickkory content that I really had to search hard to get myself a suitable pic to edit out of #we have a lot barbara content with dick but barely much with Kori honestly #anw hope this is nice #self editing #also #Donot remove my watermark while reposting otherwise I'll consider it as stealing >:( #dont steal #that damn priest took so much time to edit like holy cow #I really went above and beyond to get all the details right and consistent throughout #I let my perfectionist nature manifest #but yea #now Dick and Kori can have an uninterrupted happy wedding <3 #im so happy #I may try another one of these fixie thingies if I find anything^^ #this was really fun to work on #i fixed canon #but fuck the actual canon #cuz most comic writers cant even do just one job right

[seventh-fantasy]

galaxy-brained mlc take of the day: mlc is wuxia, yes and maybeee not exactly? it very much is a wuxia aesthetically, but it's actually - conceptually - xianxia story in the core. (this is different from suggesting that it is a xianxia show.) however xianxia can (or should) be considered a subgenre of wuxia, not its own separate distinct genre despite the idea of 仙 xian being fundamentally at odds with the idea of 侠 xia, because they both stem from the same belief. (as seen in mlc, it works with the conventions of traditional wuxia aka li xiangyi the sigu sect leader, to get to the real bits of xianxia concept aka li lianhua's story.) so, mlc is wuxia through and through, inside out. send tweet 🫡👍

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ok wait I can explain

so, this must be premised on the understanding that any discussion of "仙 xian/deities" in this context is only as its abstract idea of living a life distanced, detached from worldly, human woes instead of the possibility of immortality existing in mlcverse. (if you think about the deities in xianxia stories being basically human beings who have cultivated themselves into immortality.)

this is the explanation of xianxia as a wuxia subgenre (古仙武侠) in the baidu article of wuxia genre:

武侠中的侠，是脱胎于墨家“以天下为己任”的使命感；而仙侠的侠，通常是传达着“能力越大，责任也就越大”的朴素精神。侠乃入世，仙为出世，道教阴阳的无情大道（无情指寻求自我的不断体悟，以达精神的成仙，非没有感情之意）与武侠江湖的有情众生，即是矛盾也是循环，象征着太极之道，这也就是为何古仙武侠也属于正统仙侠流派的原因。

rough tl:

the xia of wuxia is born from the mohist ideal of bearing a sense of responsibility for the world

while the xia in xianxia focuses on the idea of "with great power comes great responsibility"

the idea of 侠 xia is secular. the idea of 仙 xian is beyond the secular - it is to pursue a life of suppressing/taming your own emotions (it does not mean to be completely removed of the ability to feel. it's a pursuit of self-realisation that makes one attain the status of a "deity" spiritually.) 仙 xian is then inherently at odds with wuxia jianghu's deep empathy and connection with the secular world, but it's also connected back to it. this is why 古仙武侠 is considered to be a part of the wuxia genre.

the relationship between xian and xia is conflicting because the former is all about distancing yourself from worldly issues while the latter necessitates an active effort to do something about them.

but it also means that both wuxia and xianxia acknowledge this weight of human emotions and connection to the world. it's just their respective responses and the outcomes they want that they differ in. what is the ideal person? wuxia says it's to be someone who can propagate and execute the ideal of doing something about this weight of your connection to the world, while xianxia says it's to learn to be at peace with that connection, and it's ok to not do anything about it actually - which might even be harder than trying to do something. (and focusing on your own cultivation can be a good thing for the world, in fact.)

with this, I hope it sounds less absurd that I'm connecting mlc's story to the concept of xianxia. lxy's life was a traditional wuxia archetype. (I've already harped on enough about how he fits into the quintessential mohist model of a xia leader.) what happens after, aka his journey as li lianhua, is the real story of mlc. it's a breakdown of that quintessential wuxia hero. it is a story in which the main conflict faced by the protagonist is to struggle with all the worldly woes including his own past and the cases' victims, in defense of the serenity he has found in the past 9 years. it is a natural battle to fight for someone such as llh because as long as you're still human, you will face the implications of human connections and the innate feeling of compassion and urge to do something about it (part of this, I guess, manifests physically in bicha breaking him down and the resistance to cure).

and relating that to an excerpt from an article discussing xianxia in relation to wuxia:

武侠剧的精神内核也是仙侠剧的精神内核，而“仙”实际上是实现新形式的“侠”的手段，由此扩展了“侠”的深度和其实施的时空范围。武侠之中的侠义精神，可以强调其自在，更强调其是自为的，前者是需要逐渐成长和觉醒的。然而对于高于人的仙而言，作为上位者的“侠”之精神，则应该是内在自觉且自为的。

rough tl:

the spirit of wuxia dramas should also be the spirit of xianxia dramas. xian should in fact be another way to bring out and explore the idea of xia.

the spirit of xia in wuxia can be an emphasis on the spirit of freedom, and even more so, the idea of agency and autonomy. the former is gained through growth and awareness. but for xian aka people who occupy a realm above the people on the ground, the xia spirit they embody should manifest in their inner awakening and agency.

it goes without saying that nobody is a deity in this show, and never will be. only in ep 40.5 it came so close to possessing that otherworldly, surreal edge, but that's all to it. deities do not exist in the mlcverse.

but but. it's interesting to point out in the ep 3 flashback when lxy walked through town in the aftermath of the sigu sect vs jym battle, commoners were heard describing it as 神仙打架 百姓遭殃 when immortals fight, commoners suffer. of course they didn't mean it literally but figuratively, that those people of wulin jianghu are high above, detached from the people on the ground. which is. contradictory to the idea of 侠 xia to begin with. so... it could even be interpreted that li lianhua living the spiritually "immortal" life embodied the xia spirit even more deeply than he did as li xiangyi the sigu sect leader, the "immortal" in the eyes of the commoners. actual immortals do not have any real attachment to the people, but a cultivated "immortal" does and is destined to feel and learn to deal with it over and over like llh did. it all comes back in a circle indeed.

#莲花楼 #mysterious lotus casebook #lhl #lhlmeta #my posts #dear diary it's (only) day 45 since completion and the symptoms are getting worse #i can imagine at this moment someone putting a hand to my forehead and ask me if i'm ok #not sure if this conversation about wuxia/xianxia genres is welcomed at all but ANYWAY. i just have a lot of feelings about cn stories #i'm discussing the genres in what i think are its barest forms rather than referencing to the ways they've manifested in popular fiction #esp since i'm not as familiar with many of the classic works on a personal level #AND there are so many other elements in play in these genres!! #personally not a fan of that definition of xianxia being 'stories about mythological figures like deities monsters demons etc' #just having deities monsters etc does NOT make it xianxia. that's just 玄幻/神话 fantasy/mythology(!!!) #an interesting distinction i learnt is that mythologies like 后羿射日 and 沉香救母 could be considered as proto-xianxia #simply based on the idea of xianxia being about deities + a sense of heroism #but they would still very much be classified as mythologies instead of xianxia. there's just a lot of overlaps i guess? #went down this rabbit hole a little and just word vomitting as I go. i may not be 100% right or accurate in my interpretations so.

[airbrushfather]

please manifest for me to be able to go to tunbridge wells

#i wanna go see j for one day while he isn't working because i am so lonely and i need something to look forward to or i will simply go insan #e #it may not be attainable based on factors on his end so pls manifest it all working out for me

[thedeadthree]

-ˋˏ .·:·. ⊱ ❦ ⊰ .·:·. -ˋˏ

i need to add colorings and things to these tissaia screenies but LOOK AT SHEE !!

#oc: tissaia thorm #*leg.ocs #leg.txt #GALEE wizard boy is the LUCKIEST thats baby thats babiee!!!!!! #i was looking through my screens and things that ive taken and these are SO GOOD shes so baby I MISS SWEET PEA #tissaia urchin of last light thorm gods (other) favorite princess <3 #ty ty mods bc she looks to the LETTER how i picture her *screams* MY BABIEE #aanyway off to either the balding gates or s*kyrim haunting my headspace again ORR attempting to strong arm my mods to work in d*ao hehe <3 #THE TRAILER HAD ME MISSIN MY DRAGON GAME CLOWNS AGAINN JKSNDKJ i may try a different mod manager for d*ao mods? #the usual manager i use was like YIKES on working with them so we'll see hehe <3 #or workin on some edits or MAYBE. MAYBEE !! write something ujdiaj *wheeze* #leg says they’ll write like a liar 🥀🤡 #*ahem* staring at my blank document manifesting the words to appear IS actually writing ty 🥀😤✨😌

[harapeveco]

Your gal just sent the worst curriculum and portfolio ever while applying for a shitty job that will probably go nowhere but hey! Maybe if I get on my knees and pray in front of my evesou shrine the utaite gods will smile upon me 🙏🙏

#manifesting #it’s so hard being the unemployed bestie #actually this may be a bad idea bc my mom doesn’t want me to work while I’m studying #but interships start on May I need a place secured #what she doesn’t know doesn’t hurt her uwu

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#me for forever: i probably have ocd. that would make a lot of sense. psychologist: u seem to meet the diagnostic criteria for ocd. me: >:-O #so yeah. i officially have ocd. shocking. i know. its only exactly as i suspected #i did not expect to get so much investigation into bipolar tho. checked a lot of boxes on a bipolar checklist sheet #and like yeah this issue probably goes back to hs but like its not that obstructive. i mean. it is but like. its not that bad #and yes. the fact that i had a fucked up reaction to Lexapro may support that diagnosis. but like i dont really remember what happened that #well. it could just b how ocd and anxiety along with whatever spectrum problems i have manifest. it could just b pmdd #i do have recorded spells of high energy outside the expected phases of my cycle. but like ya kno #it would just truely truely shock me if i was bipolar #but what i described was apparently fucked up enough that my counselor was like hm have u looked at a physical medical issue? #and im like. ive not been to a doctor in 6 years. so i have a doctors appointment next week lol #yeah. so interesting so far. this does mean exposure therapy which im gonna hate but i mean #its the thing that works with ocd and i wanna get better so lets fucking go i guess #unrelated

[perenlop]

Playing through Explorers of the Spirit and catching up to where I was... and I'm sorry I mean no disrespect, but it really comes across like the modder never got over their beef with chatot from 10 years ago and is using the opportunity in the game to vent about how much he sucks and why the guild is bad actually

#i mean. yeah hero is meant to be an asshole and all and they get consequences for their behavior and its all meant to be uncomfortable #but im told the chatot stuff doesnt really improve. and like. im sorry he would not fucking say all that #free my man he did do things but not all that #idk i feel like people miss the point of chatot's character? hes a ball of anxiety that manifests as anger and deflection #and he tries to cover it up with pride and it only works like 5% of the time. also hes not the one behind the money rule #hes like. a higher up thats stretched super thin and is managing a lot at once and he has a shitty bedroom sldfldsf #hes under a lot of stress and it pushes him to do terrible things #but like i said earlier- its not terrible to watch because hes not seen as awesome and perfect for this #the apprentices still respect him but they make barbed comments at him and even wigglytuff is like ''ew hes lame'' during the expedition #he has consequences for his behavior! they know hes an ass and they lean into it. and thats better than nothing to me #idk. hes a complex and flawed guy. i find him compelling. i get why people may not like him tho #but its definitely weird to be like. ''oh hes a horrible man he lies by omission to manipulate you into joining the guild- #-and hes super lazy and he pawns off his work onto you and hes ruined careers and hes PROUD of it and he giggles over it-!'' #you did not get the point of his character. by ''pawning off work'' you mean delegating tasks which every apprentice does #also not to victim blame or anything ig but like. damn its not his fault hero joined the guild on a whim sdlkfjsdf #idk. it comes across as really hollow to me like the author just wanted to stick it to chatot after all these years #and it makes the whole thing as like an epilogue au thing to the canon story feel less authentic to me #idk its just a mod but i feel like this is just a common thing ppl push on chatot. he sucks but not like that #echoed voice

[pepprs]

i guess im starting a tradition of double ventposting lol but the last thing i’llsay (maybe) is like… all of that has a caveat which is that my emotional object permanence has been absolutely OBLITERATED by 3 yrs of covid hell and it is really doing a number on me. clearly

#purrs #this manifests in how not normal i am abt reading / responding to messages btw ♥️ i love depriving myself of evidence that i am loved #also somewhat ​relatedly (and i may have already said this but): covid also destroyed something that has always already been hard for me whi #which (ironically given how important it is to the work I do) foresight. i was not su*cidal growing up but i simply couldn’t imagine what li #life would be like after high school. it felt like the show was supposed to be over on graduation day. and everything that’s happened since #then has seemed a little fake to me… and then covid happened and it felt even more fake… and now i graduated college and WORK THERE full #time. and it’s like.. at any given moment i am about 30-40% convinced that the things that are happening to me aren’t actually real or that #they’re not supposed to be happening bc the show ended on may 30 2017. and i don’t think that’s a healthy way to experience the world lol #unreality tw #ask to tag #like ofc my day to day life is real and the week to week stuff is real. but there’s some twilight zone-ness to it. like its happening to #someone else who looks exactly like me butim in her body and not mine and not controlling anything. idk. that’s not the right metaphor its h #hard to explain and im so sleepy. but the best way i can describe it which i keep doing is like a tv show that should be over by now but is #dragging on fro some reason. like we never finished watching it but it’s like the office continuing after michael Scott left. it’s just #weird and wrong and fake and doesn’t feel real. and the fact that it actually is real but i feel that way is a very big problem

[crackshipguardian]

So you know how in Fnaf World he player is setting up the clues that are used in the Fnaf 3 mini games to get the happiest day ending?

It’s told in Fnaf world that “Everything that happens out there, has an effect here”, which is why to get the happiest day ending and free the main five animatronics’ souls in the spirit realm there needed to be some sort of input from the real world. That’s why to activate the second parts of those mini games the Fnaf 3 player character (basically confirmed canonically as Michael Afton) had to do something like insert a code in the wall keypad or do the arcade game.

Assuming that the Fnaf 4 Crying Child (also called Evan/Chris Afton) is the player in Fnaf World (see: the Universe End ending + head explosion) that’d mean that CC was sending his older brother clues to do what he couldn’t do in the real world to free those kids’ souls. If CC didn’t have faith that Mike would go out of his way to help free kids’ souls, and instead just walked away or actively sabotaged the effort like Mike would have done when he was a teenager, then I don’t think CC would have even bothered sending those clues, it would’ve been a waste of time and clocks. Maybe it was something about the persistence Mike had shown in uncovering his father’s crimes, tracking down ol peepaw Afton to Fazbear Frights, and having tried to burn the Fnaf 1 animatronics to free the souls that convinced CC enough to trust him with this, and low and behold Michael did pull through there, letting CC finish the job and deliver the cake in the spirit world.

I interpret this as the point where CC sort of, halfway reconciled with his brother who killed him by offering Michael a chance to help (likely not fully from how CC did it in the most cryptic way possible. Like imagine seeing Mike struggle to interpret those clues the people in the fandom were in the days following Fnaf 3’s release. CC definitely did that on purpose) and also where Michael made a biiigg step in his character arch and taking it that chance and help the kids literally without any benefit to him whatsoever. By now Michael has become a very changed man, and this is where that progress is really recognized.

On another note, do you remember CC’s foxy plush in Fnaf 4?

Well…

I think we found that Foxy’s head in Fnaf World.

#Fnaf #my post #this may be just really badly written and explained but I really just needed a place to put this idea #because guys What If there was a point where CC and Mike reconciled and worked together and it was Right Under Our Noses??? #this is giving me Feels #I really think that the theory fandom was fooled by Scott saying that Fnaf World was completely outside of canon #because it is a GOLDMINE of lore #like if this is CC’s experience in the spirit realm then this game is a literal manifestation of how the afterlife works in Fnaf #if Old Man Consiquenses was in UCN and that that William’s afterlife then Fnaf world is CC’s afterlife #excuse me if how I’m referencing stuff isn’t exactly what it is in game because it’s been a long long time #but I swear it’s -hopefully- close enough to accurate to get the point across #my Fnaf bullshit #Fnaf world #Fnaf 3 #crying child Afton #michael afton #my theory #if you’re wondering that last pic is the foxy.exe thing

[welcometogrouchland]

I will feel so tired that it's like my atoms are coming undone and I'm being made unreal...and then I will have a little chocolate treat and for 15 minutes I am whole and present again. Then the horrors

#ramblings of a lunatic #i remember feeling like this at the peak of my burnout and fatigue before #(also the same burnout and fatigue that took my interests and creativity and ground them into dust) #so I've concluded that i will just try and make it through the next two days as best i can (I GET FANCY RESTAURANT FOOD ON WEDNESDAY) #and then I'll just try to let my mental and physical health recuperate while finding excuses to hang w/ friends #cause that'll stave off thr madness of isolation #i wanna watch my shows and movies too and I'll finally be able to w/o guilt after the last exam :cries: #anyway. if you've noticed an uptick in me just sayin shit recently (in a way that may or may not be cause for concern) #it's bc I'm so close to getting out of the mines that having to wait any longer is driving me clinically insane #i wanna downplay the problem bc it's truly not that big a deal in some ways #but then i remembered that this is a) the longest I've gone w/o seeing my pals in like. nearly a month #and I've been at home doing the same stuff everyday for nearly a month too #and also IT'S THE FINAL EXAM I'M EVER GONNA DO BEFORE COLLEGE. IT'S A BIG DEAL MAN #so actually. yes I'm a bit of a drama queen but my slice of life problems have a place for mediation and bemoaning #but it's fine. bc we're gonna kill it #I'm gonna do sooooooo good on this test (<- manifesting) #it's. a little high pressure bc the last time i did a test for this subject (that I'm generally very good at) i majorly beefed it #but I've learned since then and I'm hoping. praying. also working hard but mostly hoping and praying #anyway. I gotta sleep soon bc i got so little sleep last night bc of the heat that i almost started crying at breakfast #LET'S GO LESBIANS (the lesbians are me. it's just me talking into a hall of mirrors)

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

RAW TARTALADON ITS SO RAW

#okay i might be falling into the spy x family community but its just me manifesting an au LMAOOO #IT WORKS SO WE WITH CHILDE BECAUSE HE CAN BE SO DAMN SCARY IF HE WANTED TO #~ rambling #DO NOT MESS WITH THEIR TOTALLY LEGITIMATE K I D #off topic i may or may not think loid looks kinda...bgbd FUCK #i definitely did not feel anything in this screenshot haha its totally nothing #also me makes it my discord pfp dont look at me HAHSHAHAHAHAHA #♥️ tartaladon

[sakhafa]

it’s so wild to write a journal entry ab how ur spiraling and don’t know what ur doing in life and then read the last journal entry u wrote and it’s all ab how ur grateful and full of hope and what not

#I’m trying to be all ‘yea all of my grad school applications turning to shit is a sign to go back to plan med school’ #but like I cannot be delusional…dua and manifesting don’t work if I don’t put in the work #but I just already feel so drained and burnt out before anything is starting? #my journal entry from last month was ab how I was excited for what’s to come and ofc I didn’t expect this and it’s just so…tiring rly #if I don’t have a proper career then I’ll b fkn miserable lol #it’s just. things make no sense but at the same time they do but at the same time they don’t. i just feel so lost #may Allah guide me fr bc idfk what is going on

[raspberryspace]

It’s been one year, I miss those memories still.

Time doesn’t heal everything - it’s okay. I’ll carry it through. Im happy to see how far I’ve come.

Keep at it future self.

#photography has been such a beautiful outlet for me #I hope to get some work published #goals for the year #manifesting good rolls #don’t really know what else to say #so much on my mind but so little comes down to pen and paper #it’s always been this way #Unfortunately #I’ll just keep taking my silly little pics #I haven’t posted a lot of my adventures here to my picture blog #I may go through the backlog or not #I love looking back through it all though #it’s my big journal #been enjoying being present #mindfulness is such a blessing

[fromevertonow]

Suzanne Collins is one of the few contemporary writers who realizes the importance of names in her stories and the significance they bear. They add so many layers to the story, additional meanings that otherwise would not have existed.

The original trilogy:

Katniss: named after a plant of which you can eat the roots. Her father taught her where to find it and told her that “as long as you can find yourself, you’ll survive” (quote may be a little bit off, but it’s from one of the early chapters in THG). Additionally, the leaves are in the shape of an arrowhead, referencing her skills with the bow which her father also taught her how to use.

Peeta: literally bread lmao. But bread is one of the basic nutritions humans need, a little bit goes a long way to keep you alive. Peeta’s presence in Katniss’s life also kept her alive, literally and figuratively—the burned bread he threw her in the flashback and their complicated relationship.

Primrose: a plant with medicinal purposes, even more significant in light of her work as a medic in Mockingjay.

Gale: literally means “strong wind” and considering that in every encounter with Katniss he’s caused some reaction, he pulls her into directions she maybe initially doesn’t want to go in. Additionally, his name also represents his determination and steadfastness in his beliefs.

TBOSAS

Lucy Gray: named after William Wordsworth’s poem “Lucy Gray” which is about the titular character of the poem who got lost during a blizzard. She literally got lost in snow. Rachel Zegler sang this poem in two parts on the original soundtrack of the movie. When Snow asked who the girl in the song is, Lucy answers that she’s a mystery, just like her.

Snow: aside from the obvious snow references, I think his name is most significant in relation to Lucy and the poem. The only one who knows what caused her disappearance is Snow. He is the reason that Lucy is gone. But her traces in the snow are still visible. He will always remember her because the memory of Lucy has manifested itself in every part of his life.

Coriolanus: named after the Roman general (and also the titular character of Shakespeare’s play), Coriolanus wanted to attack Rome and become its ruler. He was scorned and celebrated by the people, only to be later exiled from the city by them. In TBOSAS, Coriolanus is the star pupil at the Capitol’s academy but sent into exile to the districts after he won the Games with Lucy through cheating.

Volumnia: Coriolanus mother who played a part in his ascent to power. In TBOSAS, she almost serves like a mentor to Coriolanus, teaching him how to think in terms of power.

(Edit) Sejanus: a roman soldier who was betrayed by the roman emperor Tiberius, just like the future president betrayed him.

(Edit) Plinth: got this info from here, but it was too good not to include here. A plinth is a base for a statue or vase to stand on. After Sejanus’s death, all of the Plinth fortune was given to Snow for being such a good to friend him. It was this money that skyrocketed the Snow family from poverty to filthy rich. The Plinth money was the foundation upon which Snow built his power.

There are so many other names that have historical (mostly Roman and Greek) connotations—Plutarch, Seneca, Cinna—but also regular names like Trinket and Beetee bear meanings that represent the character beautifully.

Names are important. For any lover of literature or (aspiring) writers, please look closely at them. They can shape your story into something unique.

Feel free to correct me if I’ve said something wrong. I know there are many names missing, but I can only add so many examples ✊🏻😔

#tbosas #the ballad of songbirds and snakes #the hunger games #thg #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #gale hawthorne #lucy gray baird #coriolanus snow #suzanne collins #literature