#maybe in few days ah

[sar3nka]

From the hike today :DDD

#kopieniec + nosal in one hike yasss #but i fucked up my knees so. tomorrow i wont be walking :(( #maybe in few days ah #sar3nka.jpg #<not really me but... flex

[girlboyburger]

hi i'm alive i'm just struggling my way to happiness & productivity

#but i swear i AM going to achieve it 💪💪💪💪💪 even if my main strssor rn is being so behind on work again 💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪 #comms comms comms #wheee #tomorrow is my bday but today is CRUNCH day im gonna spend 6 hours minimum @ work and then maybe more #this year im gonna get medicated for my adhd but so help me god in the meantime i am going to try with my whole heart to use schedules #and planners and reminders and focus apps and music to put myself in a no distractions cube #AH #RAUH #who needs addy when i can just smoke a bit of weed and ignore bodily functions for a few hours while i work #wweheeeeeeEW #my art #furry #oc: cow #fursona #cowmic #sortta #idunno. an update comic #bc i feel like ive been leaving everyone in the dark and it feels Bad #also sorry one last thing. #FUCK paypal. fuck paypal forever and ever.

[lesbianbanana]

genuinely how was Dakota born? Does Bacchus sometimes come to life while Dionysus is at chb and randomly go reproduce because he's not confined to Zeus' rules? Did Bacchus just think the kid into existence Athena style? Was he just really fucking drunk one time?

#can just imagine dionysus/bacchus missing from camp for a few days and chirons like ah yes bacchus must be roaming #zeus watching bacchus roam around knowing he cant trap a roman god in a greek camp: oof #OR MAYBE HE DOES TRAP BOTH BACCHUS AND DIONYSUS THERE AND THATS WHY SOMETIMES HES EXTRA SALTY AND SOMETIMES HES RANDOMLY ACTUALLY NICE #chiron: kids stay away from mr. d for a while #bacchus: MR. D??????? BITCH CALL ME MR. B??? *CHUGS DIET PEPSI* #the campers: ???????????? #honestly when they learn abt the romans i bet half of them were like ohhhh now everything makes sense #don't even get me started abt liber #pjo dionysus #dionysus #bacchus #bacchus pjo #pjo #hoo #dakota pjo #camp halfblood #camp jupiter

[skitskatdacat63]

Hey, do you remember that really homoerotic scene from Skyfall? No? That's okay, here's a Vettonso version of it :)

- explanation & w/o text:

Hi hello, finally my weird psychosexual relationship with Casino Royale has come to fruition. Yeah this is directly based off a scene from Skyfall, but I def envision the vibe as being more like Casino Royale hehe. I can't believe I made that inspo board for this AU almost 4 weeks ago, and then ended up drawing a four panel "comic" about it. Ahhhh proud of myself, a bit, a tad. I think this took 20+ hours across the span of a week? God. Anyways I digress! The AU!!

First of all, their Bond song would be "My Way of Life" by Frank Sinatra. It's so toxic, codependent and obsessive, I'm in love with it. And it really suits Fernando and his motivations and outlook in this AU. Basically, MI6(in the context of James Bond) in this AU is an analog for Ferrari. It picks theses guys up, tells them that they're Ferrari MI6's most special boy, chews them up, and then spits them out when they're finished extracting all their talent and skill and life force.

Much like with Ferrari, Seb in this AU replaces Fernando after Fernando loses favor and becomes undesirable. Now Seb is the new golden boy, and Fernando has turned to a life of crime! Fernando resents Seb for this of course, but also becomes obsessed with him and the idea of him , and how they are connected. It's weird to watch someone else basically go down your exact same path and unknowingly make all the same mistakes(buying into the mysticism of it all too much, being overly cocky, having naive beliefs and goals, etc.) He is caught between wanting to doom Seb even more but also wanting to "save" him, by corrupting him and convincing him to work together.

Basically: He's both a Bond girl and Bond villain.

Fernando is in such a weird place in this AU. I think he's just very dramatic. Seb is just casually living his best 007(005?) life, and Nando is watching him with binoculars, whispering to himself: "DOESN'T HE UNDERSTAND THAT WE ARE NARRATIVE FOILS!?" Yeah he hates Seb, but like the song lyrics say, their lives and dreams are inherently tied up together. He would feel lost without Seb, because Seb basically, unknowingly, destroyed and then took over his life. Maybe he'll feel satisifed if he manipulates Seb into going down the exact same path a bit better.

About the drawings themselves. Still can't believe this scene is a real thing that actually happened, insane to me. But in this AU, after the events of these drawings, Fernando definitely kicked all his henchman out of the room, and fucked Seb in the chair. And then against the wall. And then on the floor. Hey man, Seb is already looking mighty delicious with his unbuttoned attire and being tied up.

I think the general plot would be that Fernando keeps trying to seduce him to the dark side, and Seb keeps making him think it worked, only to escape at the end of the encounter. Leading Fernando to just come up with increasingly more violent and kinky traps. Seb goes along with it(read: enjoys it), leaving Fernando satisifed, only to somehow escape and wink and make kissy faces at Fernando in the process. (Fernando smoking cigarette in bed: "How do I make him stay. Sigh.")

I like to think though that Fernando does win in the end, by realizing, ah wait shit I do need to actually explain my motivations to Seb. And Seb is so worn down by his job, not Fernando, and how he's being treated, that he listens, really actually listens, and realizes Fernando does really have valid reasons. And then they become evil crime husbands yayyyy. Wow you thought this was a espionage AU? Well it is, but just not the outcome you'd expect.

#ah well this was certainly a project.... #rn i feel like im devolving into illness so im glad i could finish this up before it possibly gets worse #this is my magnum opus as of rn. just bcs ive not really drawn such a longform thing for them!! happy w it :) #i think i def like the first one the best #it made me suffer so bad but i think i soften on my own art after a few days #like i finish it and know its 'good' but cant help but critique every little thing #but ive had that one done for almost a week so now i look at it and really love it #i was originally just going to draw that one only but then realized i really like the full dialog so. might as well. #generally i liked this though bcs even if it ws difficult. it was nice to have really direct and clear reference #like ah ik where im going w this rather than it being an image in my head that i cant represent the way that I want #ah anyways all my vettonso aus tend to be just wanting to explore specific dynamics of theirs #and this one is basically how i feel about their mutual relationship to the institution of ferrari and how it affects their dynamic #basically: THEY'RE MIRRORS!!! #there's always something to be said abt nando being resentful abt seb bcs of 2010/2012/etc and then seb taking his seat at ferrari #but then witnessing seb basically go thru the same trials and tribulations and failures at ferrari #and realizing huh wait maybe he's not who i was villianizing him as. maybe hes at my level too. maybe he's not infallible. maybe hes like m #a very bitter nando who has to fight btwn his impulse to ruin seb further or to relate to him and start to like him #so yeah that's ^ basically what i want to portray in this au(just like all AUs tbh) #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #catie.rambling.txt #catie.art. #vettonso #bond au

[icewindandboringhorror]

finally finished all of one character's entire quests/optional dialogue/questions/etc.... 100,000 words... .... aughhh

#Given some of it IS lines of code and stuff but like.. minus all that it's still probably at least 85 - 95k words hhhhhh #AND I have to do this for another 3 characters. Then a few partial quests for 3 others. THEN the other random misc stuff in the game #(like there are public areas in the city like a park and a forest that you can go and do a few things at. and chat with a few random #townsfolk that aren't actually full characters or anything. And there's a community board where you can #browse some of the random job advertisments or silly things that happen to be posted around #and also pick up a few odd jobs of your own to help earn coin to buy gifts for the npcs. etc. etc.) #Originally I was thinking like 'ah I'll make a short little game just to try it out! :3 It'll take maybe a few months!'' #haha........................hee hee........................................hoho #Also evil that it would have been done already if I didn't totally drop itand stop working on it for like 5 years randomly #i could have made 5 years of steady slow progress gradually. instead of like 'one initial idea dump + about a month of art and writing' #...... 5 year break..... 'sudden mad dash to try to get probably 400.000 words written in a year or less' lol #I just really want to be done and have something out there already so it can lead to doing other things in my world..!!!!!! T o T #Like this can be an introduction and then maybe from that I can make other games. or short story anthologies. or other such things #But there needs to be some initially not very complex easy to interact with starting point first I guess... if that makes sense #That's part of why I stopped posting worldbuilding lore dump stuff as often because its' like.. massive walls of novella length #text are much more inacessible to engage with than like.. ooh a game! and there's characters! so its more approachable! and theres #visuals! oo! and the text is broken up in small bits line by line with other things in betwen! oo! etc. etc. lol #Not that THIS is even very accessible. I think dialogue heavy interactive fiction/visual novel type stuff is pretty niche and considered #boring or tedious compared to something with more ''gamplay'' like where you can actually move around in a world #and shoot things or whatever lol. But its an inbetween point. something SLIGHTLY #more accesible for now. Since i just dont have the budget or means or ability to make some skyrim type thing obviously LOL #Though maybe if theres any interest in the visual novel that could lead to making other things too. or at least I hope. I have a VERY cool #idea for a more ''gamey'' type of game that is a super fun concept and etc. but I would need to hire at least 2 people to make it.. ough.. #I could do all the writing and probably half of the art. But I think I'd inevitably need a 3d artist and someone who can Code For Real hbjh #the system for ren'py (the thing I'm making a visual novel in) is not that complicated if you stick to just simple dialogue and stuff. #Making a whole moderately sized 3d game with minigames in it and a bunch of quest features and etc. would be out of my simplistic scope #''just learn it yourself!!' ... i barely manage to eat and sleep reliably every day lol... i do not function well enough to spend months #learning that many new skills. I already have a lot of of things I'm good at (not in a braggy way but just factually like.. i already have #a wide variety of different things under my belt).. at some point I have to just be happy with what i CAN already do and focus on that #and admit I need to get outside help sometimes ghjbh... NO more new skills/hobbies!!! ... ANYWAY

[gentlethorns]

holy fuck. i'm on my last scene

#she bork #novel 2024 #hit my 2k for today so i'm stopping but damn. still planning on probably finishing like tuesday-ish bc i close tonight work tomorrow morning #then work an overnight sunday into monday and then work early tuesday morning and ik that stretch of workdays is gonna suck ass so i don't #anticipate getting much done. but damn girl i am truly almost finished like i got one more day. sitting right at around 100k words. insane #worried the last few scenes are barebones but i'm like that catfish director in bojack horseman that's like 'ah whateva we'll fix it in #post' lol i'm like i just need to get it DONE and then i can spiff it up in edits. insane cannot believe i almost have an entire first draft #like genuinely just a few more pages to go. like maybe ten more pages max. never thought i'd do it tbh

[bangcakes]

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#personal #i think that like... the dam's broken. for lack of a better term #or i guess the ice ???? idk man #either way. been messaging back n forth with him like crazy for the past few days #i just decided that like.... whatever. if i feel like saying something i should just say it to him !!! #and i think me being open has led to him being open.... #god its so hard when both ppl only really talk when they have something to say JFJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJJD #like... i cant even make up a reason to talk to him. i cant pretend to be dumb n not understand anything. he'll know its bullshit NDJDJDJDN #n e way...... defs met my match here lmao. but really its been so nice just being able to talk to him when i want. bc waiting until being i #person was getting so !!@@@ long !!! like god. i didnt know i could miss someone so bad...... its so !!@@@@@@ #gah !!!!!!!!!!!! #n e way. things are goin in the right direction #and hahaha !!!!!!@ i have a game plan to make sure we stay in touch too !!!!! me n one of my other friends promised to keep in touch with #each other and i was like oh should we invite everyone else. and she was like oh !! maybe ____ so i was like !!!!!!!! #so true !!!!!!!!!!@ #gosh im so excited i really like them both so much we're all similar temperaments so ya..... ive wanted to make sure i keep them JFJFJFJD #n e way. we still havent asked him but hopefully he says yes !!!! bc he always sits behind us n im just like !!!! ik you wanna sit with us #so just sit beside us istg !!!! but ah ... i think hes shy #god hes so cute #and shes like not competition btw. like..... she has a bf. she knows i like this guy now (i spilled. i couldnt hold it in 💀💀💀). and ya !! #hopefully exciting things coming!!!

[shatterthefragments]

This is literally the only concert I’ve ever been excited for merch so I’m kinda hopeful I can get what I’m wanting (and also hoping they’re sold out of some stuff by the time I to my turn bc there’s too much I want) vibrating

#not enough to just like up early though. I need to EAT. #like fuck. I really need to eat. I haven’t had a Proper Meal aside from maybe breakfast at 5am? #but I couldn’t finish. so it’s just been snacks. and my matcha latte. and I’m waiting on my food. sandwich should be quick to prepare?? #ah and I think I’ll want to pop up back to my room to re spray nasal (for covid prevention and also bc the smoke is killer here) #and maybe mouthwash bc I want to keep my tongue clean as it heals but idk if I’m mouthwashing too often ah well a few days probablys fine #at least I am vaguely familiar with the metro to get there #(seven years ago is not current but I recognize the line change anyway$

[noodleblade]

;__; I need to pack but what if I wrote kobd instead?

#ITS BEEN YEARS IT FEELS LIKE (ignore I wrote and posted fics for them last month it’s not the same) #rambles #haha #I can write really quickly right?? MAYBE??? #doubtful #I saw one piece of fanart of ko and went Ah I haven’t written him in a few days now I must

[non-un-topo]

"It's not dysphoria" I say as I write an entire assignment on my own invisible queerness and gender identity, and as I feel like tearing my skin off and crawling into a cave forever

#i love that this seems to happen every october sdfghfd #those who have been here long enough know the pattern by now #but what am i gonna do about it? nothing probably. idk maybe something when i'm 45 #i would be more okay with all this if i wasn't fucking 5'1 with the biggest girly baby eyes ever #god when cis people say 'but you're so pretty' all sad like it's a shame i'm not dolling myself up. #maybe i can pass as an 11 year old boy. and maybe passing isn't the point. but i would at least like a CRUMB. #....ah. that's why i'm so messed up rn. probably this assignment / research topic i'm choosing #and also having to keep my partner's transition a secret. it's not hard i just worry that someone in the family will find out #that's probably why i've procrastinated working on this assignment for so long lol. it's too personal. #i also had one of those days yesterday where i felt like everyone was scrutinizing me. and maybe a few old men actually were #but i mean who cares? but still can't queer people just exist without being a spectacle? #without cis people constantly trying to 'figure them out'?

[dead-lights]

Had to go out of state for a few days and will be away from my computer - I'll be slow responding but in the meantime here's some out of context Morgyn and Elle!

I was not expecting to have so much fun with Elle. She fits in so well with the reality tv format. Even if it means we've got L-with-an-L and Elle-with-two-Ls.

Morgyn, Elle, and Wolfgang are paired up for the first challenge, by which I mean Morgyn and Elle stand around making intense/silly/intensely silly faces at each other while Wolfgang actually gets shit done.

#yes morgyn gets a countertop cauldron instead of a stand mixer lmao #i'm trying to push through some gnarly writers block tbh #maybe spending a few days away from the computer will help #this is pretty typical for me tho #ahdh ruins all my stories ahahha #ah well there's a reason i'm trying something super formulaic #evil iris #gobc #morgyn ember #elle devampiro

[thecherrygod]

currently thinking about lighthouse keeper hdb and ship captain kim kitsuragi................

like.. look. hes in the lighthouse. alone. only company his skills and some alcohol to also keep himself warm in the winter. most interactions he has are the people that he gets stuff for his own survival. dora's been out of the picture for a looooooong time now, he wasnt around often, the pay isnt relayable, and every time she met him he was worse, so she left. all he has is himself, and the lighthouse.

there are times in which the light will reflect on the fog in the ocean, and he will see her in there, as if she was a guardian angel with long blonde hair who would take any ship coming nearby into her hands as toy boats, and she could decide if theyd make it to safety, or if shed just drown it on a whim. all he can do is manifest her with the lights, but her actions are her own.

and then theres kim, the diligent captain of a ship that has all the love in his heart, something he can use to move through fog and pale alike without losing himself to his surroundings, always ready to make sure him and as many as his men survive what the sea has to offer them, but he knows its dangerous, all of them do, everyone is ready to lose their lives if it comes to it. storms and tides and an inavility to see through the weather, they are all ready to manouver the ship or die trying.

thankfully at the worst times, theres always a helping hand, a guiding light helping him move in the right direction, making sure hes able to keep them as safe as possible even through the worst storms and the densest of fogs hes ever seen.

#my posts #and for organization so i can find this in my blog one way or the other: #disco elysium #hdb #kim kitsuragi #harrykim #the.. harrykim is mostly implied. i. dont know how id make them meet #also... hi i love including his fucked up relationship with dora in everything i can like i find it so interesting so its always there #ah and this au while it could work the other way around... look at me. harry being the one guiding and saving kim. is just.. #very important to me.... #maybe once they meet depending on how it could be a mutual thing but #yeah idk #i think that if i knew how to make the specific details for my ideas i wouldnt just post them like this id be writing fics lmao #tho idk the only fic i wrote was like.... this year its gonna be ten years since i havent tried to write sdiugdhsgu #ah whatever im calling this guiding lights. idk. hopefully ill remember and find it if i want to lmao #guiding lights au #but... yeah....... #also silly detail this is bc a few days ago i was drawing kim as a captain and harry as a sailor but. more like a costume with a skirt #bc well. i have that and i think hed look good on it. i havent finished it yet but ill get back on it at some point #and well its been on my mind but also i saw something about a lighthouse and automatically i thought #'.... oh no. harry du bois as a lighthouse keeper.....' and i wrote this just now and im not gonna check if it makes sense lmao #im just going with the vibes i may think about it later again and properly get an idea but like.. yeah i wrote this in 30 min #the details are for another time if they have to happen dughsgdsgh anyways!!!!!!!

[minglana]

yeah im definitely telling my parents i need noise cancelling headphones......

#the fact that i have to GO OUTSIDE FOR TWO HOURS at night after supper just so i can have a few moments of peace and quiet is like. terrifyi #terrifying. maybe this is the only-child in me needing to be independent or whatever. but i cant stand this much noise all the time #like genuinely half of my bad mood is bc i cant have quiet time for 90% of my day #and when it gets colder and my allergy starts acting up more i wont be able to just. chill outside for two hours #well technically i WILL chill. but not in the good way. my feet are already freezing. and i forgot to take my allergy pill. whoops. #im also gonna complain to SOMEONE. but the fact is that i complain about everything so idt theyll take me seriously #last yr my friend complained bc she couldnt study and they just told her that ppl need to socialize <3 #and its like. ah yes. a student dorm where socializing is prioritized WAY above the right AND OBLIGATION of the kids here to study!!!!! #z xarre

[toastsnaffler]

wheres the "why is it so saaaad" image with the cat with big sopping watering eyes ouauauuugh how I feel is the embodiment of that

#ow....... my heart 🥹 #im not even really sad about anything specific its just been such a long week. and probably the comedown is enhancing it #i just want to cry snottily into someones shirt for like half an hour and maybe ill be okay #its just so haaaard. and i think the meds do help a bit but it still takes effort on my part too. and it sucks a ljttle bit that theyll- #take a while to get used to and maybe therell still be some side effects anyway. and also they could be stopped by shortages at any time #i guess it just scares me a bit the idea of depending on smth like medication just to get a little closer to being a functional human #i wish that came with existing already.. but no point lamenting abt it. the cards have been dealt and its not all that bad really #i just want to be happy.... not all the time but maybe a solid 60-70% of the time. if thats not too much. dont we all girl!! #ah my life is pretty good as it is though and i have a lot to be grateful for. but im allowed to want a little more... right 🥹 #im going to go to beddddd. hopefully ill sleep better tonight and tomorrow will be a nice day. at least i dont have to work yayy #ahhh. also its my birthday soon and it always makes me sad coming up to and having a birthday i dont know why.. #i dont mind getting older but i guess it makes me feel quite reflective and sometimes its hard to think about the past/future #i want to be able to celebrate birthdays and let people be nice to me and have fun about it! and i say every year ill try better at it #but i never manage to get there it always feels like too much to ask for and too much to take.. ah. well its okay really #ill make myself a cake and do smth fun. and have a good cry at some point but thats just part of the day #not for another few weeks anyway.. okay 10pm lights out zzzz #.diaries

[pyrriax]

hi everyone remind me to never look at deviantart again

#haunted ecosystem #probably jsut take this post at face value tags are if youre really curious 👍 #i was trying to find something. immediately got blasted with a person who i did not want confirmation was out of prison is out #if im weird the next few days this has been an un-fun experience 👍i just wanted to look for some furry bases ok not. dread. #i just wanted to work on beest & saturn </3 #actually feel nauseous ah this is going to be fun im going to go. draw things. do something. i need to get rid of this dread #why did he fucking follow my new account there? why? didnt he get enough? didnt he fucking get enough god i. #sorry chat im feeling things and if i remember this later i'll probably delete these tags but i need to just put this somewhere #im not a kid anymore i can handle this i shouldnt be this scared but fuck i am. maybe it wasnt just paranoia! joy joy joy oh joy! #tomorrow will be better tomorrow i'll forget about this and i'll move on like i never saw it and i'll continue being happy #i have people that love and care about me and that i talk to every day i have people that i trust and know i can rely on #i don't have to be scared anymore i don't need to worry i'll be fine and that has to be true because things are better now

[icewindandboringhorror]

........creachure

#cats #his eyes are always so big and weird he no longer looks like a cat anymore sometimes.. in a way... #it's hard to understand.. complicated vibes on this boy #his summer sprawl (laying flopped out on the floor weird because of the heat) #I AM still trying to get some costumes done and also post another poll advtnure so I can finally finish it lol #the weather this month has just been soooo.... There was the heat wave and then after like 2 days of coolenss where I was like 'ah! finally #I can be productiv!' but just as soon as I had recovered from the heat.. it got hot again ghhhh #currently sweating inside. I actually had to leave my doctors appointment early today because I was just so so warm from #sitting in the car and the fac tthat half the buildings still do not have their air up very high and etc. and I felt so nausous #and flushed and started to get back and stomach pains for some reason.. Which I guess is good in a way to further confirm to doctors that #I Have Something Wrong With Me lol (most normal people should not be this heat sensitive I think) but is also still a little stinky #because I still payed a copay for the fulla appointment time but cit it short by leaving 15minues early.. grrr #ANYWAY. It seems like recently it's just hot all the time but it will ocasionally tempt you with a cool day of reprieve BUT don't let your #guard down! because as soon as you start to think 'hey things are getting better! :0' the sun will be like NO actualy. scalding temperature #be upon ye.. #Which of COURSE. I would rather have hot weather with little breaks in between than just constant hot weather. 100% definitely. #but it just always makes me sad because I get my hopes up lol.. JUST as I've recovered from the past heat and am So Ready To Start #On All My Things now That I'm Not As Sick And Hey Maybe It's Even Cool Enough To Do A Costume! .. my hopes are dashed #.. woe and so on and so forth. . Which I am stil managing to get a few things done but just.. not the things I really WANT to do (costumes. #sculptures. edit videos. etc. ). #anyway.. look at son.. If nothing else I still have lots of cat photos.. my sole productivity offerings to the internet online world