#mostly good intentions

[hgduo]

Season 2 c!Quackity you will always be a legend

#he was SO iconic and honestly the most slept on c!Quackity era- #I mean every era is equally iconic but season 2 c!Quackity is SO slept on imo #you got Nlm Secretary and later VP- Butchers Army- El Rapids #his Doomsday pov stream! #officially getting engaged #eating his dead ex's heart in both a scene that in the moment is very funny and comedic #but from an analysists pov is both powerful and gut-wrenching #motivated both by personal desire for power and love for others #he has good intentions but is willing to do bad things to get it #mostly good intentions #he hates injustice so so much #he wanted to kill Techno Dream and later Ranboo as well for treason #his strength with words is shown so well during this season #he is emotional and logical #he is just so!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #when c!Quackity's arc is like 'Officially' done I need to just rewatch every little bit and piece of it I can find I love this character so #so so so SO much!

[stuckinapril]

Growing up w no Instagram does SOMETHING to a bitch like I really get taken aback by how second nature it is for people to whip out their phones and take pictures of the most mundane things. Not because I judge them for it but bc apart from selfies, pictures w friends, and obligatory pictures on trips I literally forget to take pictures of my life period

#I’m not the kind of girl who’ll be studying at a cafe and thinks to snap a picture of my cute latte art #I’m never somewhere and go Ohhh this would be a good angle…. Like I just don’t do that #At first the way I rationalized it is I don’t wanna stress myself out taking aesthetic pictures but now I’m like #Compared to other people I don’t rly have proof of cute little tender moments #And one day I’ll be old and decrepit and I won’t have many of these diminutive memories still #So I rly wanna change that by being more intentional ab taking photos #And maybe sharing some of them SPARINGLY bc I want it to mostly be for me #But just making it more of a priority to capture little things I’ll look back on when I’m older #I think taking more pictures is part of my 2024 resolution anyway I just haven’t implemented it thus far

[kaltacore]

no but essek's abnormal behaviours in the last arc and especially in episode 140 are my roman empire. which is ironic because aeor is something of a roman empire itself. but in all seriousness, it was the episode that made me realise i love essek and his development so much and it kinda summarised it even before caleb's epilogue.

and i mean the "it's not fair" scene specifically. it's like, an epitome of his whole character progression from a person who put An Objectively Important Goal above all else without hesitation to someone who can't help but care for people around even more than his goal, no matter how big and relevant it is.

the mighty nein - and he alongside them - pretty much saved the world and freed an ancient city from thousand-year-long suffering. they defeated nine extremely powerful menacing entities who managed to stay out of everyone's sight for years and were so close to achieving their goal and dooming exandria in the process. they did the impossible and became heroes and somehow, they survived, even though they had bidden farewells a couple of hours ago because they had already understood what they had been facing. and nevertheless. they made it.

and none of them was celebrating.

mighty nein are basically essek's only friends. he knew them to be very unusual people, to put it lightly, loud and stubborn and completely inescapable once they consider you to be one of their own. and they showed him so much kindness and put so much faith in him, they were here playing the most atrocious music ever and digging clay in his backyard for a spell they invented just to help one of theirs and asking him if he could bring them pastries the day after they found out he was lying to them and had started a war. they were chaotic and weird and sometimes unbearable but most importantly they were carrying so much hope with them all this time - a hope they could end the war, a hope they could stop the angel of irons cult, a hope they could get better, a hope he could get better, and now, finally, that they could save their lost friend.

and that hope shattered, just like that, the moments after they'd already made the impossible. they saved so many souls - and then could not get back just that one.

for essek "my intentions were never good they were important" thelyss it just. shouldn't have mattered. they won. it could have been worse. people die and when they die they rarely come back. they should've been happy everyone else barely made it alive.

but for some reason, mighty nein being so defeated after they saved the world exposed him to that overwhelming feeling of injustice and unfairness. and i mean, there were many things essek considered to be unfair, but when i watched his first appearance and his interactions with mighty nein later on til their reunion in aeor arc, i wouldn't dare to guess that one of the things on that list would be something that personal. and personal not even to him.

the thing is, essek didn't even know who that guy was. why mighty nein cared about him so much. he had an idea, i guess, that he was their friend once, or someone in that body was. it was also a person who wanted to unleash a terrifying horrific aberration onto the material plane. it was a person very dedicated to killing essek and his friends - and they still didn't take any pleasure in fighting him. essek didn't feel strongly about lucien or molly, because he never knew them.

i don't think he mourned his death and failed resurrection. he mourned mighty nein's hope, the one they put in him when they had no reason to, the one they offered yasha in the cathedral and the one they kept after the spell for veth failed and the one they carried til the very end because they wanted it to reach molly. they had saved people with this hope. they had saved nations. they had saved the world. but they ended up feeling like it hadn't even been worth anything.

how desperate would it feel, witnessing people who for some reason always saw good in you when they absolutely shouldn't, who made literal miracles out of nothing, who ended wars and fought gods and tricked the hags and freed cities from horrors beyond anyone's comprehension purely because they thought it was the right thing to do and also loved their friends this much, silently crying over a dead body they couldn't bring back to life? how desperate would it feel to realise that with all your knowledge about time you dedicated your life to and threw away any principles for, you can't undo this? no one can. some things are left to fate alone and this time it wasn't kind to them. no matter how much good they did, they still got slapped in the face.

and it was, i think, such a genuine moment of empathy. like, essek is the character who prefers to put up a facade and act distant and self-composed but this time he just. walked away unable to watch this. the could only say to fjord that it wasn't fair. even when he was caught off guard in nicodranas he was able to explain himself and his motives to an extent even though he was a nervous wreck whose extra important plan went to hell the second the only people he cared about appeared. this time he had nothing to elaborate on. it just wasn't fair. it wasn't fair his friends didn't get what they wanted the most. it wasn't fair he couldn't do anything to make it right.

it is such a sad and beautiful and even cathartic scene because it is about person who started a war that destroyed so many lives - and then met this ragtag group of weirdos who saw a lonely stand-offish guy and said "hey, let's be friends!" and didn't even wait for him to answer. he saw them being serious and calculated and he saw them being ridiculous and extremely stupid, he saw their mistrust to outsiders and their loyalty to each other, he made spells with them and paid a visit to their hot tub, he ate their stale pastries and drank their hot chocolate mixed with whiskey, he was welcomed amongst them and in their wonderful home, both in xhorhas before they even found out what he had done and in the tower when they already knew - and then, he saw them mourning their loss, defeated and helpless, and he, a person who believed there were things more important than whole nations, let alone just one life, couldn't help but share the pain they felt. a pure display of compassion from someone who detached himself from it, who didn't believe he could grow into a better person capable of it again, but became one nonetheless without even realising it

#sorry. i cannot shut up about this. this scene stuck with me the moment i saw it and i just couldn't get it out of my head #i mean. i liked essek well enough. i just got attached to other characters more. but then 'it's not fair' happened and it sealed the deal #it was just. so beautiful. so sincere. so important for a character who just started to learn how to care about people #his reaction wasn't intentional. it didn't change anything. but it showed how humane he had become. how deeply he cared #mighty nein are no joke pal #they're gonna make you feel all these unknown emotions like sympathy and love and affection even when they're incredibly painful #essek experiencing closeness and attachment in all their forms. as something beautiful and something aching. is so important to me #they saved him because they had good hearts! and these good hearts sparked so much joy around them! #but if a good heart grants you an ability to experience joy so profoundly. it makes everything else feel like that #you get it. i hope you get it. anyway e140 did so much psychic damage on me i probably will never recover #in a good way mostly <3 but yeah. yeah. it makes me feel a little insane #the mighty nein #essek thelyss #critical role

[markscherz]

would you eat bug 😲

I have and do eat bug, on occasion. But I confess, I try to keep my goblin son from eating bug whenever I can, mostly because bug is not so tasty raw, and he has limited faculties of logical thought.

#about me #bug #technically I mostly have eaten orthoptera and lepidoptera #and the hemipterans I have eaten were NOT good and NOT intentional #but I suspect that anon was not trying to be technical #so #also for clarity: my son is currently 17 months old #I very much hope that his ability to discern whether or not it is wise to eat bug will increase substantially in the near future #though recent behaviour leads me to doubt #toddlers gonna toddl I guess

[bonefall]

Bramblestar being really proud that he came up with Spiderbite as a dishonor title, up until he realizes just how into it Spider is. It gets on his nerves to the point he also takes his dishonor title away early, this time everyone supports it

Bramblestar: "It is time to forgive the sins of the past, and I think Spiderleg has proven his devotion to the clan, so I will grant him his name back, any objections?"

Spiderleg: "Well I-"

Bramblestar: "ANY OTHER OBJECTIONS"

Bramblestar was SPEEDRUNNING through undoing their Dishonor Titles. Not a single one of them worked. Stupidhead was wheezing. Spiderbite liked it too much. Shredbloom, EXACTLY as Squirrelflight predicted, just felt even more ostracized.

Complete and total backfire. In general, Dishonor Titles for Dark Forest Trainees didn't work because they didn't actually address the underlying problems that drove these cats towards training there. The "true believers" in Tigerstar's agenda died fighting for it-- most of these cats survived BECAUSE they turned tail.

But by the time Bramblestar was backpeddaling, the damage was done. Blossomfall fled to join The Kin in BB!AVoS, along with several other cats who found the cult's message of true family and unity appealing.

Like mice into open jaws.

#BB!OOTS #BB!AVOS #Better bones au #I see a sentiment around sometimes that TBC following OOTS would have made more sense thematically #And tbh I do agree. The idea that the response to the great battle would be code strictening and a supernatural threat #Worrying that starclan was displeasured by the trainees being accepted and that their wider sins and misconduct-- #--brought the dark forest upon them #BUT. I can make it work as-is. And I plan to do it by making AVOS mostly about Breeze and his redemption #And play with the sentiment of this generation that things are broken and need to change (and theyre right!) #But. Their good intention and justified anger was exploited. #Dishonor Titles

[madderruz]

#my art #scooby doo #this whole comic is bcause of that shirt lol. sorry #she stepped up what can i say.... #ALSO JUST WANT 2 POINT OUT BCUZ IT WAS INTENTIONAL- she tied her scarf into an ascot :> #i rlly liked her be cool characterization can u tell. hehe #i like her in general but i think that added a little flavor that is good. they all need to be a little weird imo #also! i will be making my way back on all of these and adding alt text - mostly just barebones what happens in each panel but still there!

[aloeverawrites]

If you want to learn math, no amount of good intentions and warm feelings alone is going to help you understand math.

If you want to learn science you can’t just sympathise with a biology textbook without reading it.

If you want to learn another language you can’t just smile at the text until you understand it.

So if you want to learn how to be an effective ally, you have to learn about the people you’re trying to help and the bigotry you’re trying to fight.

It’s a nice attempt but you can’t purely affection your way out of the bigoted teaching that the dominant culture taught you.

You’re going to have to do some studying.

#you know how well intended disability allies will say “your disability is so inspiring it’s good you don’t let it define you #or how white allies will say “wow you’re so arcticulate! black people can speak properly. #about aave #if you don’t unlearn the bigotry you’re just going to keep spreading it but with good intentions and in a nice way #which is sometimes more frustrating #so you have to learn #human rights #disability #anti racist #antisemitism #trans rights #lgbt rights #intersectional feminism #today I was reading a post and poitingoit to myself the antisemitic state said by someone with good intentions #and then I read a Jewish poster explaining how it was antisemitic #the guy had good intentions but you have to study. me and him were both taught the same things and we have to unlearn it #and I have a lot of unlearning to do #you don’t have to study in a way that’s difficult if you mostly read posts follow people in a minority group that educate about bigotry #and get more resources from them #google if you’re confused #you can do it

[fox-guardian]

people are so fascinating. a person will be dressed weird and other people will just be like "GUYS GUYS GET THE CAMERAS NEOW. omg can I touch you. what do you mean I can't touch you??" like did you briefly forget that I'm a human person and not an attraction set up for your entertainment. I'm Literally working retail do you think they pay me enough to put up with that.

#ramblings with major #9/10 times someone says something about my tail its positive. But That Tenth Time. #but yeah today was mostly okay but The Above Scenario Occurred and i was anxious almost for the rest of the shift #they left soon after but jesus. god. why do people think that's okay #no i dont want you to take photos/videos of me. i don't trust you have good intentions with that

[cabinetduo]

underrated cabinetduo era was them during new L'manburg, not that anyone was unaware of their dynamic at the time but good lord were so many people annoying abt it

#the speed with which so many people pinned ctubbos morally dubious actions onto quackity and fundy but mostly quackity was astounding #u guys were missing out on the juiciest dynamic 4 some apologist discourse #like it was post Manberg and nobody was over that shit but they had to be and it was the same cabinet but you know who was dead #and quackity is trying to make pulls and moves for power but also very obviously cares abt tubbos wellbeing #and tubbo is a child president haveing the most hellish winter of his life and rapidly losing his ability to gaf abt politics and also his #will to live #its like if the evil advisor whispering over the young king's shoulder had really good intentions actually but ykno how the road to hell is #paved so #🤷‍♀️ #cabinetduo

[pjharvey]

i’m very much not a well person and i never have been but it’s really annoying that it feels like every year i get worse off and develop some new thing and i feel like my sister is really the only person giving me the actual kind of support i need. i’m always afraid to confide in my parents because i hate being pitied and i love them but they do a lot of that and i think a lot of my friends think i’m either too needy or that specifically with my ex bf that was on some level my fault.

#my therapist is mostly helpful but i wish she’d told me to break up with him #and not trusted me when i said i thought he had good intentions

[wordsgood]

i've seen some posts about The Gender Of It All Or Lack Thereof in the mars house and started to respond but it felt dickish to disagree on someone else's post when their take on it is as equally #valid as mine is so, my feelings, briefly: i don't think the genderlessness was done perfectly by any stretch, but i also don't think that this was a book that was meant to Solve Gender, or even take steps towards it. i don't think we're supposed to assume that tharsis is better for "abolishing gender." the thing is that while i wouldn't call her books "romances" natasha pulley writes books that are primarily about relationships in difficult atmospheres - no one Solves Colonialism in the bedlam stacks, no one Solves Homophobia And Racism in watchmaker, and i didn't really go into the mars house expecting them to Solve Gender. gale being a senator does place more stress on the idea that these people, in particular, have the power to make changes and help people, so that may be why there's more frustration with the story than in bedlam stacks (where tbh merrick's involvement with the EIC bothered me a lot more than gale's political stances did).

again, i don't think it's wrong to not like how pulley dealt with gender politics; at the same time, it feels like a lot of people who did the bad reviews think that tharsis was supposed to be gender utopia, and i just. don't think we're supposed to assume that. there's so much else wrong with tharsis that i see no reason to think gender is the one thing they got Exactly Right. it's a "what if?" world, not a "here's how it should be" world - the people who built tharsis saw a deep wound throughout humanity's long past and said, "how do we deal with this?" and came up with an extreme solution for a society in extreme conditions. like.......they think it's weird and gross to have kids biologically, why should i think they have perfect ideas on anything???

tl;dr i read the Gender Abolishing as a flawed, wounded, but well-meaning and sometimes beneficial reaction to millennia of gender-based suffering. by no means do i think i was supposed to go "yeah, let's do that in the real world!" after reading the book, nor do i think it's a problem with the book itself that abolishing gender ended up not being as great at solving problems as they thought it would be. people will be people! they try to fix things and sometimes cause as many problems or more as the ones they fixed. but people try to fix things anyway.

#'my feelings briefly': 3 paragraphs of Nonsense #like... it's a book ABOUT Good Intentions Vs Practical Outcomes #but mostly it is in fact a book about a dancer and a senator doing the love thing #the mars house #again i absolutely must stress that i am NOT trying to absolve the book of anything #nor trying to tell people with different ideas to like Not Have Those anymore #just!! offering my view #source: i'm agender #oh boy i want to delete this So Bad already

[shoechoe]

I forget how much of a little asshole Giorno is at the start of Vento Aureo. My friend watched the beginning and told me she didn't really like Giorno because he was "kind of a dick" and I see why. I guess it's like Josuke being a delinquent and Jotaro getting into fights and stuff

#rambles #giorno #vento aureo #giorno is interesting as a fairly static character in terms of morality #jojos usually start off as bad/flawed people and the parts tend to do different things with them #like how jolyne was pretty immature at the start of stone ocean and had her fair share of jail run-ins #and had to learn and grow throughout by gaining responsibility and protecting her loved ones while fighting a bigger threat #giorno straight up steals shit without feeling bad about it and doesn't really change or grow in his viewpoints #mostly because everyone in the mafia is worse than him. lol #i do find it a little annoying how giorno is established as a sort of moral authority with the ''you're a good person'' shtick #(with him even saying that to koichi... dude you robbed him.) #it gives him a very presumptuous air i don't think is intentional. i don't find giorno ''annoying'' per se but i can see why people do #what can you do though. middle schoolers are just like that #shoe watches vento aureo

[prettyboykatsuki]

do you have an onset of anxiety or concern when you're not incredibly depressed or do i just have problems

#aristotle.txt #for all intents and purposes i am a mostly happy person #but i have chronic depression and have had it my entire life #so im generally rather demotivated. im like eeyore #but ive been. very happy lately. #like life is bad but ive just been very glad to be around good people and stuff and know that people can care for me even if things are #not the same #its really nervewracking though like foreboding #like......... what does that mean for us

[re-reclass]

I'm a little over halfway through The Seven and it's interesting to consider that it's probably taking place concurrently with the upcoming Junior Year season.

#having the Seven mostly be away from Elmville for their series was a good choice and probably intentional #I don't expect them to tie together in any meaningful capacity but I'm interested in what sort of references there may or may not be #dimension 20 #fantasy high #the seven

[soldier-poet-king]

This is extremely mean but I'm just. So tired of my family. Tbh

Oh AND my aunt was talking up the j*m c*veziel child trafficking movie yesterday at new year's lunch to my mother. And like I get. That my mother and my aunt are each other's best friends. And my aunt has been Going Thru it wrt her health and is suddenly extremely like. Into not thinking critically and being superstitious wrt faith and touchy feely and talking about the shack and randomly making broad acclamations of faith in the middle of conversations all that. But also like. God. God have mercy I do not have the self restraint to deal with this anymore, it's one thing from my elderly Nonna who never went to school and who's only engagement w religion and faith has been that kind of folk religion. It is another thing entirely to see my cool fun UNIVERSITY EDUCATED AND YOUNG aunt be like. Ah yes. I've forgotten how to think about anything beyond vague warm feelings about religion. Also the most fuckin incorrect discussion of theodicy in my life I was sitting there sipping mimosas so I didnt start screaming. Theology?? Reason? Logos? What??? HER HUSBAND HAS A DEGREE IN CHURCH HISTORY AND RELIGUOUS EDUCATION like I don't always agree w him and I think he's very much lacking knowledge in the hellenistic + philosophical side of things which makes it hard to really grasp early church theology tbh. But like. He has a head on his shoulders at least.

Just gonna fuckin start. Throwing intro to Greek philosophy + Augustine at everyone who insists on making these assertions without knowing literally anything I don't even LIKE Augustine. I love him and hate him. We're worsties ❤️. I am kissing him on the mouth. I would fistfight him in a heartbeat. I wrote my masters thesis on him. But like. YALL. CMON. CMON YALL. WHAT IS THIS KUMBAYA PROSPERITY SHIT I would rather a rigid interpretation of Augustine founded in his philosophical roots than this. Or literally. ANY school of thought. The key here is THOUGHT. THINKING. THE THING WE ARE MISSING. My funny but often irritating Trad leaning analytic philosophy cousin is better bc yeah analytic philosophy sucks and is often soulless imo but STILL

#how can i politely explain that this is a self aggrandizing propaganda film #that fits the western white male christian saviour hero complex ideak #and not at all remotely like what working w irl sex trafficiking is like #and just fuels this evangelical sense of lone man heroism #which effectively does nothing to help anyonr #and often actually casues harm despite mostly good intentions #not to mention like. the fuckin. the fuckin propaganda element of it all. dont get me started abt art vs. like. whatever the fuck that was

[andro-dino]

do u think they had a situationship

based on this one shot that made me explode

#beyraiderz #armes navy #task landau #I just think these two should stare intensely into each others eyes with homosexual intent a little #it is. so hard to make task’s hair look good #on the other hand armes’ was very fun to draw #at least from this angle #I seriously cannot stop thinking abt them #mostly bc I’m thinking abt the potential their relationship could’ve had if they weren’t trapped in beyraiderz with 13 eps #and also their designs are just really nice to look at next to each other