#my brain is lighting up rn

[swan-orpheus]

I am going to spend the next year and a quarter-ish microanalysing the living shit out of the Andor teaser and whatever else we get fed in the meantime. Don’t mind me.

xoxo

#star wars #andor #my brain is lighting up rn #the amount of footage #alkfjlafjajlf;;; #ANDOR IN SUMMER 2024 #I am LIVING

[swordmaid]

a girl who is a noir detective man and a guy who is a femme fatale

#jaime x brienne #jaime lannister #brienne of tarth #mine. #just a quick sketch... i miss jb..!!!!!!!! but this is the most i can do rn 😭 #and also this concept has been on my mind and im thinking of this film noir murder mystery au #where joff has been murdered in an engagement party .. or tywin.. idk some lannister died #important thing is jaime was one of the prime suspects but he gets proven guilty then he ends up helping bri solve the mystery ok #also he looks beaten up + corner of his mouth bloody that's his equivalent of the femme fatale red lip #this pose is based on this photo i lost the ref for it 😭 but it's like a promo photo of a movie.. anyway.. brain rot over bri lighting his #cigarette.. its kinda giving lana west coast idk

[julykings]

have not felt like myself lately … ☹️

#these last couple days especially #today was bad like I feel like I misplaced my brain or something #forgot my phone at home when I went to work #forgot to pay for parking so probably have a big ass ticket waiting for me at my car rn #fucked up while trying to help someone at work and had to try and fix that for 2 hours #just feeling like mindless dumb bad UGH #going to go make stuffed mushrooms with my bf and watch survivor ….. a light at the end of the tunnel lol

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb

[andi-o-geyser]

And the results have just come in, folks. Ally Beardsly has rolled a *checks notes* Hat 20

#it is 4 am i have watched the finale 3 times at this point and i am going insane (affectionate) #nothing on the brain but “HAT” #my soul has left my body #meet me in the denny's to fight by the growing light of dawn #not for any reason in particular just cause its a vibe #also maybe so that the sleep dep can be physically punched out of me #throw ME into the all-consuming book oblivion to be eaten by pages #it sounds like at least a 7 hour nap minimum while floating in the void of death and storyless-ness #which would be real cozy #anyways these tags are barely lucid but neither am I so this is the best we're gonna get rn #y'know what? the manic energy fits with the vibe of the finale. this is my rationalization for staying up so late i can see the sun rise #d20 #dimension 20 #neverafter #neverafter spoilers #neverafter finale #dnd #nat 20 #ally beardsley #timothy goose #andis thought geyser

[simcardiac-arrested]

do you think wayback would be a dom to ns' subconscious sub. i think that if ns experienced being a sub he would begrudgingly like it

#this is literally killing me from the inside i want to say you’re wrong but i would be lying #You are doing some ipad baby shit to me rn with this ask it feels like it is melting my brain through the blue light #like srsly the worst part is you’re not even wrong …. :/ What can i say #he’s constantly obsessed with doing things his way and keeping everything in control but i think letting go for once would be good for him #ur right he would like it🤷‍♂️ U are winning the court case against me right now #cramswering #im not sure if wayback would be a straight up dom too but i guess he would enjoy having control for once🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ #MAN SHRUGGING EMOJI #everyone’s gonna come into my dms like omg cream what are you posting right nowwww IM SORRY IF IT MAKES SENSE CHARACTER WISE IT’S NOT MY #FAULT

[wimbledon2008]

i'm this 🤏 close to rereading captive prince

#for the *checks watch* dozenth time? i stopped counting about five years ago #frankly i've run out of tennis fanned fictions to read #and without another immediately compelling interest #i need something else to light my brain up #that doesn't actually require much thought #in the past i reread the series about every year #but it's been a while #and with my job being as slow as it is rn i can read my kindle editions on my work computer 👀 #it might be time #captive prince

[ilovepedro]

new replacement tangle came in the mail!!!! 🤸‍♀️

of course i got the pink one idk why tf they thought i wanted that fugly green and orange one it made me sick just looking at it 🤢

#the fuzzy one feels so good omg #it lights up every synapses in my brain #stimming so hard rn #nini shit posts

[sky-is-the-limit]

I am honestly so curious abt this 😭 if you had to rank your fav hotties from 1-10 how would you rank them? I have a feeling Arthur is going to be #1 and honestly YES.

Whenever someone asks me a question like this one, I completely forget every single character I like 😭

Unfortunately, sweet anon, Arthur is not first BUT let's narrow it down to the top 3 video game characters I'm obsessed with.

(I obviously have a type)

No.1 Abby Anderson. No one and I mean NO ONE will ever compare to the shock my body went in when I first saw that woman. The day a character surpasses her in hotness is the day I probably got brainwashed by someone cause I honestly cannot explain in words the hold this woman has over me. I would never give the first place to anyone, let alone a man when she exists looking like THAT.

Her fucking nose, her freckles that look like paint splashes, her gorgeous blue eyes, fucking hell, all her feminine features complimenting her defined masculine body that has me salivating quite visibly every time??? Those arms?!?!? Her fingers???? HAVE YOU SEEN HER THIGHS?! And she's so fucking beautiful, I could write ESSAYS.

No.2 You were right and I can't believe how quickly this man took over my brain chemistry and climbed over every single fictional man I've ever seen when it comes to wanting to get dicked down, gagged and absolutely ruined, Arthur Morgan.

God, are we even surprised to be here? Where do I even start, his fucking gorgeous green eyes???? his jawline??? His HANDS?!?!?! Even his body hair, I'm not okay. The broad shoulders and big arms or his fucking southern accent that has me turning into the fucking pacific ocean? There's something so fucking raw and manly about him in the most attractive way possible that makes me go fucking insane. He's a MAN. Setting feminism back 50 years.

No.3 and to be expected, my favourite CoD character, the DILF of Dilfs, another MAN that fucking screams masculinity and dominance in the most non toxic way possible, Captain John Price.

His voice alone could make me finish in my pants let alone him being a fucking bear of a man with those big thighs and arms screaming through his uniform that only adds to his fucking sexiness LORD. I'm not usually into men with beards like that but fucking hell would I bleach the fuck out of it. The authority and dominance that this man carries with every step??????? I would BEG to lick the sweat clean off his body, yes I do the cooking, yes I do the cleaning SIR.

#i have more but i just woke up from a nap and my brain can only do 3 rn #i legit have a type holy shit #light brown hair and blue/green eyes who are masculine as fuck and twice my size 😭 #ask #abby anderson #tlou #arthur morgan #rdr2 #cod #captain price #bisexual

[girlwiththegreenhat]

nobody talk to me this is literally all i am going to think about for the next week

#deltarune #deltarune spoilers #deltarune chapter 3 #queen #rouxls kaard #GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOINGGG LMFAO #BOTH OF YOU??? ?? #THAT IS THE SILLIEST STRAW IVE EVER SEEN #WHY ARE YOU JUST CHILLIN LIKE THAT HOW ARE YOU COMFORTABLE #FUCKED UP WOMAN!!! SHES FUCKED UP I LOVE HER SM!!!!! #ALSO!!!! POINTS AGGRESSIVLY THEY ARE STANDING IN THE SAME ROOM TOGETHER THIS HAS SHORTED OUT MY BRAINCELL #rouxls is almost surely a lamp because queen is bullying him or perhaps he thinks hes being sneaky #but ill take what i can fucking get they are hanging out this counts in my stupid little brain my faves are Hanging Out (no they are not) #theyre in the same. room together....... #WHERES LANC ER #my brain is vibrating so hard its about to clip out of my skull and slam into the wall at terminal velocity #im actually insane rn. for many reasons. DID YALL SEE TASQUE MANAGER AAAAAAAAAA #AND TWO THIRDS OF SCC AND MORE LIGHT WORLD SHENANIGANS WITH KRIS AND SUSIE YEAHHHHH AAAAAAAAAAA #liz blogs

[famewolf]

been saving Mass Effect 3 to play after going to the mechanics as a treat, and my appointment is tomorrow. so im going to drop my car off and come straight home to jump into ME3 .... I can't wait ...

#[static] #also im being So Normal about taking my car to the mechanic to get something fixed lmao #i keep going 'im 30 i shouldnt give a damn about this' and it works mostly #i also think 'its like buying upgrades in a video game' and that's true too and makes me feel better #i think it's because it could potentially be nothing to something pretty wrong makes me hella anxious lmao #but at the end of the day it's an older car but i got zero issues with its performance and it drives great #so i highly doubt it's gonna end up being a serious issue at least rn cuz it was a year ago that my mechanic noticed the leak #and ive had no problems whatsoever not even a single light on my dash #i just got that great ocd and my brain has been so compulsive with the thoughts about this stupid leak that even my mechanic was like #'ya its real tiny it took me forever to figure out where it was coming from so you dont need to worry about it' #instantly makes my brain worry about it LMAO and obsess over it every time i get in my car #it's like im wrangling a monster in my brain every time i gotta drive lmao im so strong

[hatchetmode]

Thinks about renfield: good movie :)

Thinks about how it's also objectively deeply flawed as a movie and could and should have completely axed the cop aspect of the movie: ehhhhh not the best movie ever but I still enjoy it for what it is :)

#IM NOT GUNNA OVER SELL IT #but its such a good movie to turn your brain off to and just enjoy wet violence and bug eating #when i first saw the trailer i was soooo disappointed to see the cop aspect #was just talking about it with my roommate and she also agrees thats why tumblr isnt eating it tf up rn #but genuinely its such a fun time #the sets are amazing and the world is so fun to look at #i defo wanna redraw scenes from within the hospital and do lighting studies #its just a good time of a movie!! #had so much fun #renfield is mine now hes my guy i kiss him muah

[spotlightstudios]

Can someone tell my paranoia to eff of please?

#light's spot #context: #my youtube feed is full of horror content cuz it's my favorite background sound #I'm trying to vibe but I'm alone at night for the first time in ages #my brain keeps going “But oh no. what if analog horror face #number 27 pops up in my room“ and it's rediculous #I've never been so consistently paranoid in my life??? #it's fine tho #had a good nap earlier. just complaining about rn cuz it's midnight and I have no sanity istg

[stockholmgf]

what i would give to get my brain to shut up for just an hour straight

#this is gonna sound so dumb but it’s genuinely so overstimulating when my brain is going 100 mph 24/7 #i just physically cannot relax EVER it’s driving me insane #i can swing back and forth between being in the most light headed euphoric headspace possible #right back to the hyper paranoia and/or depression #all day every day i really just want to find the middle ground #literally even when i’m asleep my dreams are so vivid and distressing that i have to lay awake for a while in bed to regroup afterwards #on the bright side i think i’ve grown accustomed to it to a degree but #times like rn when i’m just super tired but can’t sleep because my brain won’t SHUT UP #i h a t e i hate i hate i hate

[velvetandfreckles]

Day 3: Class swap / peacock

Diversity loss! Your favourite bisexual clown is a genshin character

I've taken the prompt very very loosely lmao

#mollymaukweek2022 #mollymauk #critrole #digital art #genshin au #genshin #hate to admit it but genshin is my main interest rn and honestly its pretty fun #i wish i had the brain power to clean up the lighting and icy eye thingies in the background but i simply #do not #and thats okay #my art

[imwritesometimes]

help! I can see the scenes so clearly and with frightening detail in my mind's eye but I cannot make myself actually write

#😞😞😞 this HAUNTS me abt fic like. I have very specific ways I imagine scenes. intricately detailed as if they were movie sets in my brain #down to mundane drug store wall colors like my brain mocks it all up. ALL OF IT. no detail left unimagined #and the thing is. other cannot see this! they cannot see the scene I have pictured no matter how much I try to describe it #every fic would be longer than moby dıck. there are 5 other ppl in the diner rn. one is smoking. the waitress has a stain on her apron. #the walls are baby blue. the shades on the windows are all half pulled. the sunset is spectacular and happening at 6:33 pm #it's 60° and the woman walking down the street in the background is wearing jeans and jade green sweater LIKE #I could never impart all of this to an audience #let's not even TALK abt more small intimate scenes where it's just like. the blorbos. and it's a quiet moment #I want to describe the lighting and the way I can imagine the shadows falling and how their hair looks in the light and what they're wearing #and what the whole room looks like I can see it! I know what color the walls are the floor what kind of couch or table and it's like #no one else can see all this! they might imagine their own but they can't see *this* and I just want someone to see *this* #there's a lot going on up here *taps temple* #erin explains it all