#my brain only knows pain

[lady-of-the-cunts]

Never thought this would be how I return to this side of Tumblr but hey, missed me?😂

Idk how big the intersection of people who watched the Witcher and ship Calanthe and Eist and the people who have watched the new kdrama Tomorrow is but here me out.

The story of Joong Gil and Ryeon but it’s Eist and Calanthe!!

Spoiler warning for Tomorrow below the cut for the people who want to know more but haven’t watched the drama yet.

Ok so the basic plot of Tomorrow (copied from google cuz I’m lazy):

“Choi Jun-woong (Rowoon) is a young job seeker who is unable to secure a job. Through an accident, he meets the grim reapers Koo Ryeon (Kim Hee-sun) and Lim Ryung Gu (Yoon Ji-on) who have the task of preventing suicide, and works with them as the youngest contract worker in the crisis management team of death angels.”

Now for the story of Ryeon and Joong Gil:

Ryeon and Joong Gil were married to each other in a past life but she killed herself, which lead to their fate strings getting severed. Which basically means they will never find each other again after they get reborn. Both end up as grim reapers and while she remembers who he is, he has no memory of this past life and therefore also not of her. So they dance around each other for 200+ years basically in constant pain. Him because he has nightmares regarding his life he can’t remember and because he can’t place why he feels so weird in her presence. And her because the husband who she remembers as a loving and gentle guy is now cold, distant and doesn’t recall who she is. (When someone gets reincarnated they are not 100% the exact same person they were before) So he looks and feel like her husband but he is in fact not the husband she knew back in life. And as his memories slowly start to come back she has to confront her fear of getting rejected by him because she was the one to abandon him by committing suicide.

So take that and replace the backstory with the canon storyline of Eist and Calanthe. That’s it. That’s my thought.

I realize that you probably have to have seen the drama to understand why this would have any appeal. (Since it’s basically just angst, yearning and pining with a side of more angst) But damn I can’t get this concept out of my head!

The idea of them dancing around each other for centuries is too fucking tempting! Also Eist in black turtlenecks, menacing coats and clean cut suits with leather gloves????!!!!

It would basically be canon compliant but also modern AU at the same time, since the actual plot would take place in a modern version of the world of the Witcher.

It’s basically lovers to coworkers to enemies to allies to lovers 👌🏼😂

Any thoughts on this? I’m willing to draft and elaborate on this idea cuz it’s really all that has space in my brain rn. BUT idk if I’d have the time to write a fully fleshed out story cuz this would have to be at least 100K words long in order to reach its full potential 😅

#the witcher netflix #eist tuirseach #king eist #himbo king #queen calanthe of cintra #calanthe #calanthe x eist #mbc tomorrow #k drama #koo ryeon #park joong gil #angst #so much fucking angst #my brain only knows pain

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

when you mentioned in your tags that there was hardly any laughingstock i didn't believe you at first, but holy shit ur right. YOU AND @krasytoonz MADE ME INTO A LAUGHINGSTOCK BELIEVER. I WILL PAY TRIBUTE TO THESE SKRUNGLY FUCKERS SOON, MARK MY WORDS *shakes fist into the void*

no yeah Seriously though its just us out here, fighting for our lives in the fucking Trenches. in ten years someone is gonna use the word 'laughingstock' casually in conversation and im gonna have War Flashbacks

#no please get out while you still can #once you let them in all the way They Will Not Fucking Leave they are There Forever #the inside of my brain is just me huddled in a corner while they make out in the middle of my skull #BUT YEAH THERES BARELY ANYTHING #trust me whenever krasytoonz posts them i am instantly there to ravenously devour the crumbs like a rabid pigeon #they are my only outside source of barnaby/howdy #them and the side plot in Stamps by Indigopoptart on ao3 #oh the side plot my beloved.... im still starving but sometimes they trick me into feeling like im Feasting.... #and that one tidbit in Beautiful Boy Its Only Love by ImaginatorOf Things - also on ao3 ofc #and thats IT thats ALL I HAVE. all We have #shoving my entire fist into my mouth and biting it off while sobbing. screaming. etc. #oh the pain and joy of rarepairs... its been a while since ive been so taken with one... #who knows? with the power of friendship and this gun i found maybe one day it wont just be viewed as a crackship by the masses #rambles from the bog #gotta be honest. krasytoonz also converted me all the way #like i was tenuous about it at first... #it was just a Thought yk yk #i was like 'oh thats cute but like. as a side thing. a background thing. they dont have much going for them' #i think that was because i had nothing to enjoy outside of my own brain #i liked the very rare very jokey crumbs from a couple of clownsuu's posts #but it wasnt enough to make me go Theyre Mine Now #then i stumbled upon krasytoonz and one scrolling session later! i was fully hooked! just like that! #laughingstock went from a nebulous interest to a Permanent Fixture In My Braincase! #but yeah uhhhhh glad i could contribute to passing on the Illness #if you ever get free i will envy you #and to future me: if youre free i envy you as well. but i also pity you bc theyre so so good theyre so cute whats wrong with you- #i hate them & i love them & theyre nothing & theyre everything & they wont leave & ive locked the door

[jackshiccup]

something about the way book 10 begins with hiccup being the loneliest he’s ever been. an outcast, a hero on a quest, a wanted boy on both sides of the war. with only three dragons as his closest companions. windwalker, wodensfang and toothless as sole witnesses to his growing up for an entire year - how evident that all three of them tried their absolute hardest to protect and take care of hiccup given the dire circumstances of being on the run.

and something about the way it ends with hiccup's own little ensemble of a group, dubbed as 'the ten companions of the dragonmark' - consisting of his most loved humans and dragons who would now undoubtedly follow him anywhere. finally having the chance to laugh freely and exchange stories and to breathe a little easier, even if just for a moment. and even if worry and guilt seem to weigh heavy on him, the wodensfang is there to remind him of his youth, to 'leave these worries to us old creatures' and that hiccup is no longer alone.

#httyd books #httyd book 10 #how to seize a dragon's jewel #jackshiccup text #man.............. #book 10 was a fucking emotional ride #can't even begin to articulate my thoughts on it #they're swirling around and around in my brain #despite the pain it was worth it to see all the ppl that hiccup loves explicitly display their support for him #god only knows how much he needed that #after a year of isolation ... pls my heart was just continuously breaking throughout the story #everyone say sorry to hiccup or i will be in ur walls #anyway book 11 ..... i fear you will be worse.......

[what-is-it-to-be-pk-esque]

I am so... empty and happy and idk... experiencing withdrawal after that baldur's gate 3 epilogue yall

I can't get over everything around the endgame scenes with Karlach and Astarion (and I mean the "good" endings!), I am literally still processing it days later 😭

Plus Gale being a professor, free of the orb?? Shadowheart being at peace, finding herself and able to adopt the Owlbear?? Her visiting Gale and Tara for tea??? Making her own cider and wanting to do a reunion party every year??? Being invited to lecture Gale's students and bring Astarion too and also stay and chat in his tower??? Halsin gets to be a dad like he's always wanted with all the orphans??? Karlach has hope for a new engine and may return home and might be more than friends with Wyll??? Lae'zel raging her dream, riding red dragons and learning to be more diplomatic? Jaheira being Jaheria and Minsc visiting Astarion much to his dismay (and somehow when he's not with my Tav in the Underdark or looking for a cure lol)?? Just... everyone living their best lives??? All of the hugs!???? My heart is so full the more I think about it but I also want to see it in the game and not my head 😭

Only issue is who gets Scratch??? Where has he been the past 6 months and where is he staying afterwards?? Did I miss this detail??

Basically that epilogue is so so wholesome and hopeful. Got me feeling like this once again

#Karlach's speech after Gortash and the brain battle.... pain #Astarion basically experiencing true happiness in only 6 months... pain #but good pain lol #and im going out of town for a week wtf am i gonna do without this lovely game and these lovely characters to distract me from real life #cant start a new game til mid April 😩 #this game has consumed me fully for 2 months and then crushed me at the end #how am i going to talk to anyone about anything else lmfao #probably not helping that I'm tired af trying to change my sleep schedule for a new time zone #also I would love to see Astarion try to teach anything magic-related lmfao #in my game the man only knows firebolt and dance macabre #wtf is he going to be doing there in that classroom while my sorcerer tav is teaching lol #he'll just be there causing mischief in the apparently already not very studious class lol #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 spoilers #bg3 spoilers #Astarion #halsin #shadowheart #wyll #gale #jaheria #minsc #Karlach

[parkeryangs]

hi i think we should talk more about cane user mike walters (please) (PLEASE)

#yes it was only temporary no i dont care #he's always taking up like 20% of my brain space i know him carnally #the segue into sam's chronic pain mikey headcanon too... DOES ANYONE EVEN GET IT #finch chirps #woe.begone

[perelka-l]

ever ever ever ever ever. Bc I can't write lol.

Overseer Talloran and Omega-1 Draven :)

Alas, it shines very badly after hairspray treatment so it was really hard to take a photo. The pain! The pain!!!

#researcher james talloran #researcher talloran #draven kondraki #Scp #Talloraven #Kinda #Why isn't draven alpha one well one I wanted pain and two idk doesn't fit draven #Also I have a very vidivid image in my brain of draven being like #Hey I got into the mtf that specialises in neutralising foundation personnel and clef be like #You know what I can see why #I have elaborate hc in my brain don't look at me #Fun fact I only did this bc I wanted to move into new palette so had to use what I already had #So. It was a bit painful but also fun I love gouaches you have no idea #watch me and my fail art #overseer talloran #I can't guns pls have mercy I just went bling bling ok #There is so many mistakes but i like everything else #Scp foundation

[glimblshanks]

I rewatched the season two final recently and Mariner literally like,,, slides up to Ransom while telling the bridge crew about Freeman's transfer and steals his drink and sips from it and he just takes it back like it doesn't even bother him, he doesn't seem grossed out by it at all. Is this just normal for these two? Are they really truly 'share drinks without asking' levels of comfortable with each other? It's making me insane

#lower decks #beckett mariner #jack ransom #marisom #someone had to CHOOSE to animate that you know? #I mean I'm sure whoever included that in the show #meant it as a like 'oh look at Mariner being a pain in the ass and taking his drink' sort of thing #but I'm sorry if my Platonic Coworker I Didn't Like Very Much came over and took my drink during a work function #and drank from it in front of me #I would be Having Words About That #and I certainly wouldn't be taking the fucking drink back afterwards #like what are they doing? #this is not platonic coworkers behavior #also the way she sits right up against his side #and he doesn't move away #but he does kind of aggressively remind her that he's her commander before taking the drink back #like it gives 'these two people are keeping a relationship on the DL and she forgot to put on the act for their coworkers for a minute' #idk I KNOW I have shipping brain worms #I know I'm reading into this too much #but I didn't catch this scene at all my first time watching it and it's making me crazy #like hello??? I can't be the only one seeing this right?

[meirimerens]

i diont even know who theses;people are man

#pain makes it so i can draw but not write because the part of my brain used for imagery metaphor and subject-verb agreement #is taken up by a rabid dog so instead odf wiritng i distract myself in other ways #can:n you tell my painkiller worn off #stepan. pavlik. aleksey;btw(who gets to be there twice bc i only have closeups of him in his painting overalls. but his swag too different #neigh (blabbers) #when i start simposting i'm talking from thetrenches by the way. i know i just said i wouldn't let the rot consume me. however comma

[8rujaa]

i feel so happy i have the urge to get on my hands and knees and worship something

#i’m emotional because i feel like recently i’ve been actually like genuinely happy #i thought i was going to feel broken forever. i thought i was going to feel like half a person forever #i’ve made so much progress #looking back i don’t know how i got through certain things i really don’t #i was being traumatized while also being severely tortured daily by my body pain #i hadn’t talked to my family or friends in months #i lost my mobility and i lost my independence and i lost everything i worked hard for #i felt like a dog and my nightmares still make sure to remind me how terrible it was #and the healing journey afterwards was somehow even worst because i was reliving it constantly. i feel like i fought so hard for my peace #i know i thought about offing myself multiple times #i don’t know what kept me alive… #i think i stayed for all the wrong reasons/people…. but either way i’m glad i stayed #i’m struggling with letting myself be happy because life has a way of taking everything from you just as you were getting comfortable #and i know bad things can and will happen wether i worry or not so the only thing i can do it try to savor and enjoy these beautiful moment #as best as i can and maybe these moments are what will keep me alive in the future #this year i don’t ‘want’ anything per say…. i just don’t want to lose anything…. like god i don’t ask for anything else…. just don’t take #anything from me that i love please 😭😭😭😭😭 #brain vomit

[disenchanted-youth]

Why would you end it there?! Why?!

They already died together in each other's arms. Let them be happy oh my god. The first part was full of sweetness, but Tharn's desperate plea for help at the end will haunt me.

That scene when they ran in the opposite direction at the swamp. The moment Tharn ran back without seeing Phaya walk deeper into the forest my heart dropped.

#loved the fight scenes between the cgi naga and garuda #the blurred grading thing was very much not fun for my migraine prone self #but it was definitely entertaining to watch #just here waiting for those gifs of them dying and then Phaya looking lifeless in Tharn's arms #listen we all know he's going to be fine #but it was very painful to hear tharn's screams #also the preview pissed me off #give me more info there's only like a few eps life #the sign #the sign the series #i have a lot to say about this ep but it's like very late here and i only have enough brain power to say this much lol

[sunny-prongs]

What if the sorting hat was having hesitate between Gryffindor and Slytherin for Regulus?

I mean, Regulus is brave in a way, not the brightest bravery but still you need bravery to go against the world you always knew like he have done when he have go search the horcruxe

Regulus have a part of honesty, even if he can speak like a snake to have what he want or in the society he still globally say what he think

Don't tell me Regulus is not stubborn like a Gryffindor we all know he is

Gryffindors are proud, again don't tell me he's not

His name is literally about a star of the lion's constellation (+ I headcanon that his animagus form is a melanistic lion)

So fuck yes I'm sure the sorting hat could have doubt, especially since I'm sure little Reggie would himself doubt

When he heard the hat hesitate it was probably confusing for him so he tried to think about the possibility, if he was going to the snake house he would make his parents proud and? That's all no? But if he go in the lion house he would be with his brother, his brother who never looked more alive than when he was speaking about his house and his friends

Reggie truly felt desire switching his stomach at this idea but still, when the hat asked him if himself would prefer one of the two, knowing perfectly well the answer, Regulus choose to go to Slytherin, because it was his role to go there and make his parents proud, it was what he was born for after all...

#i will never say it enoug Regulus need a hug #i dont know why my brain do that to me #I'm sobbing #at this stage I'm gonna drown in my tears one day #at least i will have something in common with Reggie #if only my brain was good to create fluff gosh #85% of my ideas/headcanons are angst and pain #I'm tired #anyway #marauders #slytherin #Slytherin Skittles #regulus black #Regulus #Gryffindor

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

of course my Welcome Home oc was gonna be a dragon. big ol plush dragon. Derry my beloved <3

#no idea what their 'role' is yet #all i know is they live in a cave in the forest and hoard things. and also Will Happily Eat Anything #also they're so so sleepy. all the time. #and theyre Big. theyre a Big guy bc dragons are Big #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #welcome home oc #GETTING THE COLORS TO MY LIKING WAS HELL ON EARTH #character design is a pain in my Ass #and im not entirely happy with the shirt/socks #i want to change the socks.... #the only thing im worse at than character design is Outfit Design #my brain is not wired for fashion #im living proof of that #BUT YEAH THIS IS DERRY AND I LOVE THEM. #i was gonna put them in the fuckin. welcome home intro template #But They Didnt Fit. also i dont have much to say about them yet

[bobmckenzie]

just found out seasonal allergies can cause exhaustion and the last month makes SO much sense now 😅 i've been like this ⬇️ since mid-march

#i feel kinda stupid to say i didn't know that LOL but i never used to have allergies and i only knew the bare minimum #i havent gotten tested but i'm almost positive i have them now... so sniffly SOOO sneezy... random ear pain... and so freaking GROGGY!!! #my brain feels like a bunch of cotton balls most days 😴 I WANT TO EEP. #that pic of bob is so useful for all the sleepies in the world... <3 #caitiechat

[burnt-cheerios]

I am, once again, sobbing screaming pining over the silly minecraft men

#life series #trafficblr #grian #double life #mcyt #the traffic light series really just scratches the specific itch in my brain for that hunger games type of content #where you get attached to all the characters and their different dynamics and stories #and you want all of them to win but you know there can only be one victor and there’s going to be a lot of heartbreak and emotion #. #I end up falling for a different group of characters in each season #and they break my heart every time and leave me sobbing on the floor #3rd life was scar and grian (obviously) #last life was etho and bdubs :( #(when bdubs killed lizzy for etho and didn’t get a life back #literally tragic. my heart was in pieces) #double life was the ranchers (my babies ohhh my god my babies) #(the boat boys too </3) #and limited life was the bad boys #THEIR CURSES 😫😭 #my baby boy jimmy solidarity gaming. the actual pain and disappointment in his voice when he was out first again #and joel doing everything he can but it still not being enough #weeping. art. tragedy. gives me emotions I haven’t felt in years #but just :( everything about the series is so good #so good and yet causes so much pain

[ionlytalktodogs]

I see a drawing with a mobility aid in it and I just kinda stare at it in awe for like twenty minutes or so. Sometimes I just forget that other disabled people exist and I’m not a total freak.

#logically I know I’m not the only disabled person ever #but my skittish little lizard brain says I’m different from the people around me so therefor there is No One Like Me Anywhere #and then I see that someone took the time out of their day to draw a disabled person #and I’m reminded oh! I’m not the only one! #disabled #disability #mobility aid #wheelchair user #wheelchair #physically disabled #chronic pain #cane user #cripple punk #cripplepunk #my ramblings

[skydigiblogs]

y'all bandai themselves is assigning me with the apocalymon autism

[ID: A photo of a someone holding a copy of the parallel art of Apocalymon from the Exceed Apocalypse expansion of the Digimon Card Game. The alt art depicts Apocalymon's humanoid body with an intense expression. The card itself is in a gold sleeve.]

we only bought four packs (the first time we have bought packs since 2021) and this was the last card in the last pack

we're getting the whole pizza with this one fellas

#sky talks #digimon card game #yes i know apo is a restricted card #but i have that apocalymon autism real bad right now so even though i barely know shit about DCG #i'm like determined to make it work #also the dcg tutorial app is really good for what it is but. god damn. #i am remembering why we stopped playing card games in college because worrying about interactions is a pain and a half #one game takes me like 30 minutes minimum even with the app making the flow easier for my brain #anyways #when i tell y'all i screamed #i could not chill for about an hour after this #he came home fr #now i feel like i HAVE to find a FLGS that actually has people playing digimon lmao #(as if i wasn't already gonna try to) #ALSO having not played card games since like? 2018? #(and considering the only card game we really played was MTG) #i am losing my mind over how pretty and intricate foil cards are nowadays??? #like i also collect pokemon cards and YES there are some very gorgeous older pokemon foils #(there's this one pidgeotto card with starburst sparkles that is dazzling) #but the intricacy of the pattern work in some of these foil cards is nutty #i have to wonder what kind of tech goes into making card art do that #anyways uhh #i'm going to bed now that i've spent 6 hours riding this high #download the DCG tutorial app