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corvidshipping · 2 years

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my personality traits for my Brand New Guy so far are:

he may be hot but he really doesn’t think of himself as A Hot Guy. that is to say he’s not rly a womanizer type, doesn’t rly preen himself particularly, doesn’t use his appearance to get what he needs (like information) even when he easily could. he does dress well and he does put effort into his appearance, like he does his hair and makeup and outfits the way he likes, it’s just not rly for anyone else’s benefit or to specifically look nice, he just likes how HE looks in things. it’s not that he’s unaware of how he looks it’s just rly not something that’s anywhere near the top of his mind or his priorities. he’s kind of an effortlessly cool guy but without the effortlessness cause again he does dress good on purpose but just bc he likes how it looks. it’s the confidence what makes him so hot i think. imo

very dry, sarcastic, ironic and at times dark sense of humor. in his life he had seen some Shit so he definitely developed some true gallows humor to deal with it, but he’s not the type to make fun of other peoples difficult situations. a lot of ppl don’t get his humor and think he’s being serious about things at times or think he’s just saying like actual nonsense/nonsequiturs.

generally a chill and laid back guy but nowhere near the way deacon is. deacon is chill and laid back in like a dad way, a cool dad who drives a car and is aging incredibly gracefully but is also constantly making the dumbest jokes you’ve ever heard and supports his adoptive daughter/charge almost TOO loudly (like the dads in the football stands who bring an entire giant sign to support their kids on like a practice game). my new guy is chill in like an uncle j.esse from f.ull h.ouse way. i imagine. i have never seen f.ull h.ouse. just picture like a guy who’s incredibly popular and cool in school bc he’s attractive but he’s not a dick about it and is pretty generally nice and keeps to himself and his surprisingly small group of close friends. would be fine if he wasn’t popular at all. nice to everyone unless they’re an asshole to him first. respectful. but most importantly again very much keeps to himself.

very private fellow. doesn’t like sharing information about his private life openly. this is something he and miss moon agree strongly on, which is interesting because miss moon probably knows more about him than anyone else who is still in contact with him (his old friends probably know as much or more but they don’t even know he still exists bc of muse rules) and miss moon honestly feels like she knows Way Too Much about him. she’d be fine with it if all she knew abt him was that he’s a guy, he’s a muse, and he used to smoke. and tbh? even the smoking thing is a little too personal to her.

ppl think he’s some kind of stoic bad boy often bc he’s very quiet but honestly he is quiet bc he doesn’t have a lot to say. he is always listening though. he’s one of those ppl who ends up knowing everything abt everyone because he sits quietly and people just start talking abt things with each other that they wouldn’t say to anyone else while he’s around bc they just assume he isn’t listening bc he’s not saying anything. this is not something he rly cares abt one way or the other bc he has no real use for it cause he really doesn’t care what other ppl do unless it’s something thts completely fucked and harmful, but it becomes useful when he’s partnered with miss moon to investigate the disappearances. he doesn’t even mean to eavesdrop he is just a perceptive and attentive person and most ppl talk way more loudly than he’d prefer they do.

you might assume from how cool he is that he takes his coffee black and bitter bc he’s so cool and edgy and he can handle it but no. no. a million sugars and creams for this guy. he does like the taste of coffee (so like he doesn’t want it to taste NOTHING like coffee) but he is so easily swayed by a fancy lil mocha frappuccino with double extra whip. definite sweet tooth on this dude.

his major flaw is sometimes he is so laid back and not bothered abt what’s going on outside his circle that he’s Too laid back and apathetic. part of it makes sense if you consider his life was so incredibly difficult growing up that he kind of had to learn to push all the other shit away to be able to deal with just his shit and not be distracted and actually survive, instead of worrying about everything that’s happening and overwhelming himself and getting dragged under. but it’s not a good excuse and he can be very apathetic with some pretty morally grey things. when trails go cold he gives up way easier than miss moon simply because he can’t be assed to care about why it went cold and he figures they should focus on finding new leads and continuing to move forward instead. it also can make him seem pretty emotionally unavailable to others bc if you aren’t close to him and you share something that’s personal and troubling you, often you pretty much just get a “that sucks dude”. because apathy and having learned to focus on his own survival + his laser focus on privacy and boundaries and feeling like much more than superficial knowledge of someone is just too much fucking information (but not as much as miss moon. nowhere near her actually). he is not an easy person to get close to honestly. bc part of getting close to someone IS sharing personal things and trusting them and he is just not interested in knowing that. or trusting others

yeah he has some trust issues. he mainly relied on himself growing up. his family was supportive but they couldn’t help him any more than they could help themselves bc they were all in the same situation, so he knew it was kinda useless to ask them for much bc wtf are they gonna do about the same issues they’re unable to help themselves with? he did have a set of close friends in life, but that took a while to even happen bc of his hangups and he’s still kind of stuck in the mentality of that circle being closed and tight knit, he’s not really ready to bring anyone else into his life even if he doesn’t know them anymore. it’s like he has a lifetime maximum quantity of trusted ppl and he’s already hit the cap.

kind of proud to be honest, in a way that is a hang up for him. never liked to ask for help from his friends even when they could have helped him, and even when they offered it he always turned them down and felt like he could never accept it. he’d feel like he was indebted to them and he hates owing ppl. he pays debts and repays favors as quickly as he can bc he hates feeling like he’s getting something for free or out of pity. big on the idea of being even with someone. part of it is bc he had so little in his life that he felt like the last truly meaningful thing he had was his dignity and integrity, but he took it too far tbh. big on earning things for himself. hates feeling like he didn’t work hard enough to earn something, which happens more often than he’d like to admit because he often struggles with insecurity involving this and a pervasive fear that things are given to him out of pity or charity. doesn’t really speak about it though. whenever he feels that way he tends to go quietly do some more work to feel even on it. (like if he felt he was being congratulated or celebrated way more on a solve than he deserved, he wouldn’t openly tell anyone but he would just kind of quietly go and like… anonymously send any victims some help to keep them extra afloat, or start on another case like immediately)

also to clarify: it is not that he isn’t a nice person and wouldn’t help ppl out of the kindness of his heart when they are victims he just honestly usually feels it’s not his business and kind of assumes Everyone feels the same way he does about being indebted or given favors. to him he’s doing a nice thing by solving their issue and leaving them alone bc if he did any more it would be A) way too personal for his comfort B) an invasion of their privacy as well and C) potentially embarrassing to them bc it could be interpreted as him implying that they’re not capable of supporting themselves.

in his life he grew up extra poor in a pretty broke area with a lot of crime. but the school district he belonged to was filled with a lot of rich kids from neighboring areas that were a lot wealthier than he was. in primary and years like 6/7 through 8 he wasn’t really notable at all, not super popular or conversely not super bullied or anything kind of just an average kid who no one noticed outside his group of like 3 or 4ish friends. but in year 9 and especially in the rest of secondary school he kind of randomly underwent this whole transformation where he suddenly became very noticeable and ppl considered him very cool for his chill attitude. honestly he blossomed the most noticeably in year 10, like all of a sudden over the summer he completely changed how he looked and dressed. despite being poor he dressed very well, mostly by A) trawling through thrift shops B) customizing everything he has (his mother was a tailor and a seamstress so she was able to fit a lot of his clothes specifically for him) and C) just generally… not caring about fashion trends or what was considered cool or if people thought he looked stupid and just doing his own thing, putting effort into his appearance for his own sake and not rly anyone else’s.

also in year 10 he definitely started borrowing his moms makeup a lot. he didn’t do like huge glam looks or anything but there was definitely concealer and lip tint and eyeliner involved. not rly something he hid bc he didn’t rly care if anyone knew but didn’t rly openly talk abt it bc #privacy.

ppl in his school definitely remember him as a very chill, nice, kinda quiet cool guy. just a decent fellow. generally positive opinions abt him. it’s not like anyones like oh my GOD where is he now and constantly actively thinking abt him, but if you ask about him ppl are definitely gonna be like oh dang i loved that guy i hope he’s doing good now! if he ever showed up to a reunion there wouldn’t be a single person who wasn’t happy to see him again and say hi, but it’s not like he’d like. be getting followed around or anything. which like good for him. he values his privacy. good for him that ppl respect that.

loves his fruity drinks. not a beer guy in the slightest. if a drink does not at all taste alcoholic and just tastes like a juice or something but has like 75% abv he’s into it. not a lightweight at all though. big fan of daiquiris especially frozen or blended. like i said, a sweet toothed motherfucker

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