#not only that but i cant even have peace. i cant even go back to sleep after being woken up at 7?! i cant even enjoy my free time becausr

[fictionkinfessions]

I've seen enough asks on here about the topic, so I just want to say:

If you identify as a system, GO GET THERAPY. Being a system is not a "normal" human thing and it definitely means you need fucking therapy. You can't just call yourself a system and call it a day. You cant just say you're KINNING, either, because the kin community goes back decades and it is bigger than some teenager on tumblr picking up kins from your mutual's posts. My honest, genuine opinion is that anyone with 100+ kinds or alters IS NOT ACTUALLY A SYSTEM. You are just young and impressionable and the world is in shambles right now and theres a sense of comfort in being someone else. Everyone wants to know who they really are and you will NOT figure it out until you're in your 40s. If it brings you comfort, fine. But go get therapy so they can tell you how to ACTUALLY cope with the real world instead of using "escapism." Escapism is not the answer to your problems and you still have to deal with them.

I say this as a person who felt inhuman since before I was 10yo. I even told my dad about it back then. And I've been watching the way the "community" has changed over time. You are not a polyfragmented system if you have 100+ kins, you are just trying to find an identity that fits you. Kinning nowadays is a good FIRST STEP. But I cannot stress enough that CPTSD, autism, and ADHD mix together to cause dissociative episodes. Maybe you should all look into it and find peace with yourselves before adding a new kintype to your list

All of this being said, yeah I do think having a bunch of kintypes is fine. It's okay for one alter to kin a handful of different people and shift between them. But you do not need individual listings for each separate one. You do not need to make a new proxy with pluralkit. I see people confessing to only seeing a character ONCE and kinning them. It doesn't work like that. Take some time to think about it. Its IMPORTANT to figure out if these similar kins are actually just the one person instead of assuming they're someone new. If you actually had 100+ kins (that you treat like individual alters) you would not be functional

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#fictionkinfessions #fictive #ableism cw #gatekeeping cw #ageism cw #fakeclaim #mod party cat #documentary anon getting outshined??

[puppyeared]

When you backread through a fun conversation you had with someone for hours an angel gets its wings

#I was talking to my brother about Norman doors and I had fun in my UX class and he was telling me about demon cores and the trolley problem #in his class. AND I remembered to take my meds today so I can feel every cell in my body. i can feel the neurons rubbing together #and yesterday I infodumped about the specialists bullseye chart to crow and how it ties with witch hat atelier #WHICH I MANAGED TOGET THEM TK READ IM SO HAPPY. I MAKE SQUEALING GUINEA PIG NOISES EVERY TIME THEY TELL ME WHAT THEYVE READ SO FAR. AHH #i might not even be scratching the surface with witch hat there are so many themes i could not possibly fathom or go over my heasd #and thats what makes it so exciting there are so many spaces in between that you can fill with your thoughts and i. i #waves my hands around manically #for anyone interested in my insane ramblings. the bullseye chart is from are we all scientific experts now by harry collins #in my own words its basically saying everything we know about anything is a game of broken telephone #and it discusses how information gets lost in translation between experts and laymen including things that arent in control #one of the main points was how things that happen between experts are complicated including debates and findings #that you can only really understand thru research and experience in that field and cant be smoothly shared without it being reworded #and risking some of those key points. or even concepts that are hard to understand that cant be shared at all #like if you tried to tell me about how DNA works using words scientists are familiar with but i am NOT- i risk missing concepts that i need #to understand to know how it works on the level you understand. or i risk having it reworded and understanding it but not on that level #AND IT DOES TIE TO WITCH HAT THE WITCH AND NORMAL FOLK COMMUNITIES I PROMISE. ITS SO INTERESTING #anyway i spent hours reading back thru that conversation and i might as well admit it goes for almost every fun conversation i have #and it might be the 20mg of adderall in my body but i am in such a state of peace and love i have to verbalize it. ahh #yapping

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

So yeah avoiding my phone didn't work and also meant I sat on the kitchen floor staring into space for about 3 hours before Alfie woke up but hey at least I didn't break anything

Them being around is helping a little but they're also struggling and it fuckin sucks bc I know we're both just. Rotating money stress in our minds

#like. i went out earlier to get bread #just bread bc we cant afford anything else #got just enough in the bank to cover the work thing but since management stjll hasnt gotten back to me on HOW to pay it its like #our electricity is already in debt lol it has a thing where you can go £10 into debt before it switches off #and it usually wont switch off over weekends #presumably bc all but 1 places nearby thst we can top it up at are shut on weekends but anyway #so we're like. okay. it MIGHT last today and if it does thst SHOULD mean itll last till monday. #but then itll be at least a tenner in debt #then we only have to last till thursday but its. do we keep this money thats for The Thing that is once again unclear on how urgent it is #or do we spend it on the Soon To Be Immdiately Urgent thing #and thats not even CONSIDERING food lmao we. i got 2 loaves of bread so we can at least survive on toast for a few days #we got 3 maybe 4 meals worth of stuff still in the kitchen #like...at this point i dont even care if i have to go a few days without eating at all to make it to thursday but its. #its so fucked up those are the terms im thinking in #and this isnt asking for more donations i really cannot take that today im at the fuckin bottom of my barrel #and already feel hopeless and useless and an active drain to everything around me #but its. like. how. why. why is it still like this. why is it looking extremely unlikely its ever gonna change. #whats the point if its all for a few scattered handful hours of actual peace and comfort never mind happiness #tldr yes i am once again suicidal but small s #like in the sense of i would feel immense relief if a truck came at me on my way to work tomorrow and would not step out of the way but #dont have it in me to actually consciously act upon

[skyland2703]

…ok so I got inspired <3

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Thesis in the tags

#OKAY SO HEAR ME OUT #Amelia is probably the most jealous person to ever relationship. #but it comes naturally ONLY for Javi. she never got jealous while dating Ollie or any of the previous partners. #but when she started dating javi—something flipped a switch in her and BOI OH BOI DID SHE GET. JEALOUS. OF EVERYTHING. #which kinda sucks because Javi is a music sensation and POPULAR 😭 #and she’s Horny. SO. so. SO. horny. like. maybe it’s the Rafkonian biology but if he wakes her up in the middle of the night #saying ‘babe I’m horny’ she just. fucking. would go down on him. then and there. #LIKE SHE WOULD SEE HIM TAKING A PEACEFUL BATH AND GO ‘i wanna fuck you slide over’ #and the exhibitionist kink 😭😭 don’t even get me started on that. #Javi was always a mama’s boy so he is THE best at cooking. his mom is even better. (typical desi mom Rina 😭👍🏻) #and so he makes them food. and she does the dishes because his prosthetics don’t let him do watery work good. #Amelia isn’t good with lovey dovey words. Javi is a POET. #HE TOLD HER HE LOVED HER BY WRITING HER A SONG #AND TELLING HER ‘you are the very oxygen i breathe’. #and he waited for her confession for three years 😭 for her to fall in love with him and for her to tell him she loved him #and like #idk man #also she steals all of his clothes. #Javi got vvv annoyed once realising she doesn’t have ANY super loose sweatshirts and comfortable things to wear. not even pyjamas. #(she used to prefer sleeping naked) but ever since she discovered Javi’s oversized hoodies… that fit juuust perfectly. theresno going back. #ever #anyway thank you for coming to my ted talk :D #they’re sooooo in love your honor I cant~ #power rangers #power rangers dino fury #amelia jones #Javi garcia #cosmic fury #power rangers cosmic fury #dino fury

[inhumanfuckingdogman]

If i had to pick (and lbr you do) between either roman or tomgreg being canonically gay and explored in the series id pick roman 100%. Tomgreg going canon would set gay rights back by like 40 years

#like its still a big tv show they can only have one gay person on it #succ #i think tomgreg will always be reaching new insane heights of whatever the fucknis wrong with them #but roman. roman. #the gerri thing was completely a mommy issues deal #roman ‘for reasons of … we dont know why i cant pee next to other men’ roy #i enjoy watching his torment and quite frankly i cant think of anything that would turn him inside out with misery #quite like the slow tortuous realization that everything his father is disgusted by in him #are the things that make him feel happy and at peace and loved #i hope his interactions with mattson are confusing and scary and addicting and he keeps going back #mencken works too but im sorry that more boring.2 me. ohhh hes into it bc facism bad but he likes when thing bad we get it. #thats the same thing hes been doing tho #now imagine: rome but hes in a relationship with someone whos a little fascinated by him #this dettached deadeyed weirdo who doesnt roll his eyes when he speaks #and instead seems to listen to every word and remember what he says #and who maybe. just maybe. even cares about him #like mattson would definitely treat him like a bug under glass but roman ‘dog cage and chocolatte cake’ roy #would easily mistake that for love #idk not articulating it well. might write a fic abt it. we’ll see #tomgreg canon truthers btw no hate i lov the ship sorry if this shows up in the tag #but theyre definitely going to be in weird limbo forever & ever #i think at best tomgreg will become canon? (audible question mark) #i think they could fuck nasty and weird on screen and tom would start gaslighting greg into thinking it didnt happen #because nothing like. nice or good happens in the show its about misery #i want tomgreg to stay on ao3 so i can read abt tom healing after leaving waystar #anyways! #chatter

[infizero]

great now im thinking about sa2 again. it always circles back to this

#specifically thinking about eggman and tails' conversation at the very end. that shit is so insane i NEED more stuff like that #there is something about sa2's story that has never been replicated exactly again. and i think a part of that is just how much #the end of everything there seemed to affect just about everyone involved. #sonic and rouge were both saddened by shadow's death. and from the way eggman talks about it in shadow the hedgehog when admitting #that shadow isnt actually an android. it seems like he was also kind of shaken up from it. even tho of course most of it was his fault #like sa2's end just had this feeling of being So crazy and serious and a huge threat. theres been other times that the whole planet was #at risk of being destroyed. but i think what separates it and makes it feel so much more impactful is the aftermath #like not only did everyone including eggman have to team up to stop this threat. which already ups the stakes #but afterwards. that brief moment of peace. im constantly thinking about that ending cutscene #everything was so serious and impactful that after it was all over. they couldnt just go back to normal. everyone involved had to just. #take a moment #the fact that eggman just stands there. and speaks very genuinely to TAILS of all people. about his grandfather and how he idolized #him as a boy. i cant recall any other scene in the whole franchise where something like that happens. where for a brief moment #they arent fighting and eggman just. chills there with them. and speaks to them as if they aren't heroes and villain #they've had other alliances sure. but nothing like this where they just. coexist. #ive always been so obsessed with it. god #serena.txt

[widevibratobitch]

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#vent post uwu havent seen those in a while have we <33 #looks like a depressive episode again #aw shucks #:/ #laid in bed all day. did absolutely nothing. slept for 18 hours. #havent washed my hair since saturday. havent taken my thyroid meds in three days so idk that may have sth to do with this too ig #my flat is a total mess and im ignoring all uni groupchats (uni itself as well) and non-groupchats too. #only pretending im Normal to my best friend even tho she explicitly asked me to tell her when im feeling Bad and she does reach out to me #with her problems but i just cant bring myself to talk to her about mine #also i miss my ed so badly i need it back desperately. and i mean DESPERATELY. #anyway. something is seriously seriously wrong with me rn. like fr. #and i still haven't found the earring kms #had a bit of a ✨strongly suicidal✨ moment yesterday like it really made me go Wowwwwww girl hold yer horses cause yeah. #we havent seen that one in a while either #(no matter what my evil poll tags might have said lmao). anyway. absolutely horrible last two days. #and i once again feel like the worst and most useless and most disgusting person in the world. #my body is trash and there's nothing in this world that i hate more than it. i wish it would just. evaporate. whatever. #i hate it with a passion. peace and love.

[toastsnaffler]

parkour was fun btw even if my hands are ripped to shreds now..... also one of the community leaders (who I admittedly have a baby crush on.... any pronoun dykes unite!!!!!) said he'd get me a free pair of lesbian flag laces for my trainers by the next jam <3 😭😭

#it was only 4 of us this time.... theyre planning the next sesh for the weekend tho so hopefully more ppl can join #i need to dig some vegan baking recipes back up cuz I keep forgetting how many of them dont/cant eat dairy #and i like baking things to take w me hehehe #at least it means i have a lot of brownies leftover so i can take them to the climbing social on thurs >:) #pray for my muscles to recover by then.... today was abt explosive movements so it was INTENSE #I keep forgetting that im a bit of an extrovert like I always feel SOOO energised and upbeat after hanging out w them #who knew isolating myself and barely leaving the house or talking to anyone would make my depression Worse. #I hope I can like. keep reminding myself of that and keep pushing myself to go to social things like this bc I do rly rly need it #and itll become even more crucial over the next few months with the seasonal shit kicking in too..... #I love calling w friends online too but im a very physical person I need to interact irl w a lot of ppl regularly to stay sane yknow #anyway water tank should be hot by now im gonna go shower and then watch smth peace out ✌️ #.diaries

[wrdn-tabris]

am i a ‘mary and warren had another baby to fix their marriage’ truther. maybe so

#cara speaks #im a ‘mary and warren were friends and got into a relationship and had a baby and then that baby started looking nothing like him despite #marys claims hes the only one hes ever been with and that bitterness and resentment bled over despite him loving his son as their marriage #started failing and mary gets oregnant again so they think ‘maybe we can do this for the baby’ but no they cant and it jusy cements #something going on behind his back even tho he loves the kids who might be his sons and that affects his relationship with them especially #terry and it causes a rift and terrys subsequent acting out and then arrest causes them to split and terry knows for a fact his parents #divorced because of him’ truther #ANYWAYS I HAVE OPINIONS ABOUT WARREN i think he genuinely loved his sons and his family and made peace with mary after their break up bc he #still had a job to do for his kids and their relationship was better after the divorce #anyways can u tell i come from a family where my oarents should have split up haha

[1roentgen]

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#can't find my headphones going insane #need... music....loud... #back from that meditation retreat/course thingy btw #thank god it wasn't that bad #i think i've made peace with going girlmode essentially full time again #as they say. c'est la vie... i will never win but the idgaf war wages on #other than the whole compulsory aspect of it the mandatory white garb was not so bad : P #observing the 8 precepts for only a few days is basically nothing... v ez #a lot of the lecture/sermon content was pretty legit and imo applicable to my daily life although i had issues w/ some topics discussed #i don't fuck with thought crime/'sin' and I'm pretty resolute about this #i have ocd and if i believed every time i had a horrible thought i let myself think it was reflective of #my inner state and/or karma stats or whatever i'd probably actually shoot myself #ok the relevant #buddhist theory is actually pretty complex but i don't want to misrepresent anything and #i cannot explain. i actively interact as little as i can with this kinda thing. even if you make me to take a course lol in my head I'm #wily and u cant get me. this is my turf and i'm like a ferret #i do beleive i have said my personal philosophies are undoubtedly highly influenced by Buddhist thought #but i can't be all gung-ho about this 'ending suffering' forever business #as nice as that sounds #i don't want to be told the meaning of life like I'm not gonna perservere my entire lived existence to fulfill some grand objective pre- #determined by someone else no matter how well-regarded they are by however many people #I'm rather attached to the things that bring me comfort and joy and meaning...as shallow or illusory they may be #i don't like that i'd feel threatened into trying to escape samsara bc its 'uber rare' that i was born into the right species #in the right religion and right place and time to get chance to do that #like in that one poem #i would like to touch the world with bare hands even it burns you know what i mean? #stop trying to save me; stop telling me to let go of the world #i try to stand my ground you know but I'm aware this is really important to my parents right now #i know people get more religious as they grow older #maybe i just am not forced to reckon with mortality in the same way that they are and therefore am not at a stage in my life where i can

[crazyw3irdo]

just lost all my gear in my minecraft world im normal

#in other news i hate piglin brutes now #there were THREE in a VERY SMALL ROOM and i was 6000 blocks away from my base in overworld terms #and id only gotten to where i was in the nether via repeated ender pearling #id luckily set my spawn nearby but because the piglins kept killing me every time i came back i wasnt able to get my stuff within 5 min #and the stuff i was able to recover proceeded to get lost when i fell in lava :3 #i have. set my world to peaceful for the moment. #im just. raiding this bastion with no threats now. cant even mine the gold blocks cause i dont have a pick #oh and my ender chest was one of the items that got lost :D #so all my emergency supplies are inaccessible :D #so there goes my 3/4 netherite armor + diamond helmet all of which were fully enchanted #as well as my fully enchanted diamond sword; netherite pick; netherite shovel; and bow! #oh and like 30 something golden apples too! #oh and pretty sure i had a piece of ancient debris in my inventory too :3 #im having a good time #oh so fun #crazwaz posted #im prob gonna trade all the gold im stealing back with the piglins and hope they get me enough stuff to get home #i have like 4 stacks of diamond back at my base so i should be good #but god i gotta go netherite mining again;;;; ffs

[convxction]

[ slides cash to the dash. someone write mustafa. come on. do it. i give u love. sorry no cash i lied but i give love lol. cash love come on. pokes.

#⚔ooc.⚔ (faty speaks) #[now i cant stop thinking about the ending... #[like seriously #[ the man could not defy gangshit because of his family and his men #[what happened to his family when he died ;A; #[i feel like chrom might have forgotten about them because of how fast paced the events were but i strongly believe it was one of the first #[things he had done once he won against gangrel #[literally just ok guys you do this and i go find some people and just took off to find mustafa's family and the other men's families #[the least he could do honestly #[i bet he lays his life for them because in a way he had a hand in their deaths #[had he not let anger get to him perhaps there was a way to get things better #[there is always a way..somehow #[had he was not seeing red at that moment maybe mustafa and the others were alive #[just maybe. dont forget they are working under gangrel who like...did not care that much he wanted chrom dead in any way #[even if he send everyone to their death #[now i remember M/ajor scene when goro hit gibson and told him to give him his father back #[i magine this for chrom and one of the kids maybe mustafa's and chrom just ..i cant. im sorry. he's dead. had i known a way i would have #[brought my sister back... im sorry. the only thing i can do is protect this peace your father had died for. peace for you and for everyone. #[[baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa DONT TOUCH MEEEEEEEEEEEE #[lays on my tears...

[jonny-b-meowborn]

Christ I hate my living conditions so much. I live in a dorm with a roommate, and come back home for the weekends to a tiny room I have to share with two people. I get pretty much no privacy and my brother hates me for some reason. I'm so tired

#i know we cant move out yet. i know we have to love like this for at least a couple more months #the issue isnt even how i have to live with my mom and brother in one room #these conditions are far from perfect but theyre liveable #at least they would be if my brother wasnt a complete asshole #when i come home for the weekends our mom usually sleeps at her friends to give us space #but my brother just. sits the entire weekend at *my* desk and doesnt go outside #and the thing is!!! he has places to go!!! his dad lives literally on our floor. my brother has his own room there #or he can visit his grandparents where he again has an entire room for himself #and they all make more money than our mom so my brother always gets some for snacks or shit like that #he doesn't even go out with his friends #he gets our room for himself most of the week and when i come home for just over two days he still sits there #again. at *my* desk. i dont even get to use my desk unless he leaves #at dorm i dont have a desk either #so i just have to sit on my bed with my laptop on my knees #which not only hurts my legs and back it hyrts my laptop #like its old and stupid anyway and when i have to sit like that it overheats more easy #which means i cant play games for too long and i cant even draw for long #and like. i have work to do. i have drawings i wanna do but also i do have commissions to do but just. #hvaing to draw in these conditions is such a pain in the ass #and not only i dont have any privacy i dont have any peace and quiet either #my roommate is fine but he can get overwhelming sometimes and the dorm generally is never completely silent #and then theres my brother loudly playing games with his friends screaming and swearing #and hes just so rude whenever i try to talk to him #like. yesterday i just wanted to tell him that Subnautica is on sale and he was too upset at me for whatever reason to listen to me #i dont know why he hates me so much. i dont know why he doesnt visit his family over the weekends if he hates me so much #im just. im so tired of feeling like i dont have a place in my own house. #bee buzz

[amandacanwrite]

Halsin Headcanons For When He's In Love With You/Tav (Ungendered)

I ACCIDENTALLY POSTED TOO SOON

Generously Requested by @cryingoverpixelsetc I can't tell you how much it means to me when people actually WANT to hear about my bg3 brainrot because this game has been my escape lately and also, just a nice little break from the freelance work I have to cram to get done.

(PS if you like these, I am also a writer of my own original stories and I have some WIP's you may like.)

Quick CW|| Some graphic depictions of violence, particularly puncture wounds and viscera, intentions of heavy violence also referenced. In Battle

He trusts you, perhaps more than anyone else, to handle yourself. He doesn't hover, but he always has an eye on you as you tear into the fray.

He always seems so gentle to you that you sometimes worry about your own brutality in a fight. Especially when it leaves you covered in blood.

Because of this, you tend to keep your distance after a fight, too frightened to look into his pretty hazel eyes and see any measure of hesitance or disgust with you. Not that you've gotten used to it, you cant bear the thought of him not calling you 'my heart.'

This is only a fear for you until you got pinned down with a particularly nasty bhaalan cultist. Astarion had already been taken down in the surprise attack, then you were toppled by one of the many in the ambush.

The scream you let out as they sadistically drove their daggers through the palms of your hands was shocking even to you. You felt like a moth pinned to a board--it was too painful to try to break yourself free, even as the assailant wielded his next blade like he was about to field dress an elk.

You'd never felt fear like that.

But it didn't last long. A great cave bear launched through the air and into your attacker, wasting no time before ripping into the soft flesh of his throat and tore it out.

The smell of fear on you was strong, he knew you couldn't fight like that, so he simply stood guard over you, tearing to shreds anyone who got close from what small parts of it you can remember through the utter fear.

It was the after math of that fight when you knew you could never let him go.

He cups your face in his large, warm hands.

"Look at me, dear heart. Look upon me and remember that you're alive. There is no more threat. There is no one to hurt you. I would never let someone take you away from me before nature deigns it so."

The blades, you wept, the blades would hurt to remove.

"They will, but only for a moment, my love. Just a moment of pain before I heal you myself and carry you back to camp."

It's Astarion who removes the blades from your palms and frees you; he has the steadiest hands. But Halsin wastes no time in cradling you close to him, holding both of your hands in his own as he quietly whispers the healing word. You watch as your flesh and tendons weave themselves together. Then he envelops you and comforts you as you cry. Just cry.

How lucky it is that he is so at peace with every expression of you. He takes you as you are at all moments; whether you're bloodthirsty, joyful, or terrified. He basks in it all.

At Camp

Always touching you. Always. To him this isn't a public display of affection. It's not awkward. He loves you, why should he not touch you at every moment he can?

Sometimes it's a small thing, a broad hand on the small of your back as you discuss travel plans with Wyll. A little touch to remind you that he is there, like a tether to safety.

Other times your bodies are a tangle of comfort. Like he's looked for every way he can weave his body with yours. His fingers in your hair, your arm over his shoulder, your leg betwixt his, his wide chest lifting and falling with his sleepy breaths. This is often how you wake in the mornings with him.

Perhaps your favorite, though, is the nights by the fire. He doesn't even ask most days, just places himself behind you and offers himself as your seating arrangements for the night. His arms up behind him as he reclines against a rock or a felled tree, you sitting on his lap or between his lazily bent legs. His husky laughter tickles against your ear, the little hairs on the back of your neck. His rough voice rumbled against you as he regales the camp with yet another story of his youth.

He's a bit of a night owl. You fall asleep long before him most days.

He's also a bit disheartened by how difficult it is to find clothes that fit him in your travels together. Karlach as generously offered to share her clothes with him of course, but...something about her taste doesn't really seem to quite suit him.

(A disappointment to you, considering how nice those legs looked in infernal leather.)

He's the one who does much of the hunting for the party, along with Astarion. Halsin's a shockingly gifted fisher, though most of the fish he brings back to camp have bites in the flesh.

It was unnerving to gale at first, but he learned to live with it when he once brought back a salmon the size of a deep gnome.

When You're Alone

Rarely fully clothed. Not shocking, of course and certainly not something you would ever complain about. He usually just takes his tunic off, he says it feels restrained by it. He feels like he can breathe a bit better when his chest is bare.

No pun intended, of course.

Funny thing though, you always feel its much harder to breathe when he's shirtless.

There are no chaste kisses with this large elf. He seems to not have the restraint.

"I love the taste of you, my heart. It's the finest ambrosia. How blessed I am to have free reign to sate my appetites with you."

He likes to braid your hair and you're not sure why you're surprised at how good he is at it. Braids are a common hairstyle for elves, after all, and the man is a few centuries old. It soon becomes your favorite part of any day.

"I love how long your hair is getting, love. These times with you, my focus lost in your tresses...they have become some of my most treasured memories."

He compliments you often and freely.

One day you tell him about how you worry that you're too brutal to be with him, that you're concerned you'll scare him off one day for good.

"My heart, I spend more than half of my life in the form of a cavebear. I know I have told you how I received this scar. I may treasure the thriving, living of nature but that is only one side of the coin. Nature can be as brutal as it can be miraculous. In you, I see the beauty of brutality. I do not fear it, I admire it."

In Intimate Moments

Potential NSFW below, proceed with caution.

TW|| Mentions of consensual rough housing before...well, you know.

He is...proportionately sized...if you like.

(You do. You like very much.)

You sometimes have to remind him to get his pleasure with you. He is so pleased to be with you in this way that he forgets to indulge himself, even when it would be a moment of shared pleasure.

He loves every iteration of making love with you. He loves to take you fresh after a battle, covered in blood, to remember what it is to live and be alive.

He loves to take advantage of the vulnerability of a bath in the rivers and lakes of Faerun. Seems to particularly enjoy the sounds that come out of you as he thrusts up and into you, the sounds of your bodies muted by the water so he can hear every whimper and hitch of your breath.

He loves to hunt you. More than once you've stolen away into the forests and he gives you a head start. It's some of the most thrilling experiences you've had being intimate with someone.

This is no simple game of hide and seek, it is a true pursuit.

He always finds you quickly and he is fast, but you are faster. It's always a struggle for him to catch you. When he finally does succeed in his quest, you are so lost in the thrill and challenge of the pursuit that it becomes a struggle.

This part he always wins though. Sometimes because your desire for his body takes over your desire for besting him.

Sometimes you are still fighting when he gathers both of your wrists in a single one of his hands and carefully locks your legs beneath his.

He is careful though. He would never do anything without your express consent, without your enjoyment. He may be lost in the moment but he is old enough and wise enough to keep his head.

"Do you still want this, my love? Does your body still burn with need? Or has the pursuit run away with you?"

When you tell him you want this; you want him. That brief tarry into gentleness vanishes. He smiles sharply and turns you over, taking you as an animal in the wild might. Rough and unrelenting.

His hands dig into your thighs, your hips. His fingers tangle and pull your hair.

But when all is said and done, the kisses are soft and sweet. Peppered over your shoulders, down the path of your spine.

He collects you in his arms and soothes you.

"Have you pain anywhere? Is there anything I can get for you my love? You have been so generous with your body this night, it is only right that I take care of you for the remainder of it."

He likes to discuss your intimacy at length. He wants to know what you liked, what you didn't like, what he should change. At first you didn't like to critique, but he pressed you about it once he started to notice changes in your demeanor or reactions in the act. It's gotten much easier for you to discuss these things with him over time.

He simply loves discussing the potential of a family with you. Sometimes enough to be ready for a second round. But that second round is much gentler and more loving than the first. Like he's dreaming of a future with you.

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[lycheeemolala]

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#it's so weird having an irl crush again #like I've had a bunch of crushes that make my heart smile just for a split second not too long ago but this one feels different idek why #its a guy i work with and i guess im crushing on him because he makes me feel seen #he always jokes around with me (innocently) and i with him (yk in that subtly flirtatiously mean way) #at first i just thought he was cute but there was one incident that made me realize it was a crush crush and not just attraction #we were working late and he and some other guys went to get pizza from a nearby pizza place #he made sure to get part of the pizza as only cheese pizza because he wasnt sure if i ate meat and this made me so senti #like i didnt even ask him to get me some and i assumed it wasnt for me anyways because i was leaving before the rest of the people working #so although i wanted pizza I'd made peace with the fact that i wasnt going to get any #lo and behold when he brings in the pizza box he tells me he got some of the pizza without anything (meaning no pepperoni) #because he wasn't sure if i ate meat #i of course thanked him for thinking about that (thinking about me) #but it really made my heart bloom when he said that #i educated him that i could eat meat just not pepperoni bc i didn't wanna go into a tangent about what i can and cant eat #but i thanked him again #then i continued working without eating #so he and some other guys went to eat the pizza #and when he came back and we had a lull in activity he told me to go eat #and my heart melted because he cared for me even if only in that moment #and when i went to eat the pizza there were two pieces if cheese pizza left so i happily ate it #there was another guy eating the pepperoni slices and when he saw me about to eat my second cheese slice he panicked #because he said that my crush was saving the cheese slices #but then i said he was saving them for me #(oh i forgot to mentiom that while i was working i heard my crush telling people to not eat my slices 🥰🥰) #and it made my heart smile again when i realized he was really stressing that people not eat my pizza #so yeah basically he made me feel cared about and it just made my night #he always includes me in conversations as well (im not good at inserting myself into convos so) #and now whenever i have to work a shift without him im sad #and i havent seen him in a week and i miss him (a lot) #lychee's rant

[batfamluvr]

BATBOYS FAV POSITIONS

Dick Grayson is a bit of wild card. But walk with me, Dick is a doggy style kinda guy (Dixon's run). Face down and ass up is how he loves to see you. He definitely runs his hands up and down your back, subtly deepening your arch.

I can see it now: Dick has you bent over, a vise grip on your hips, and he's going at a punishing pace." Baby so whining just for me," he'd groan out. Be prepared for Dick's hands to snake up into your hair. It doesn't matter what length or texture, his hands will be in your hair. He may even pull it if he's feeling kinky and in one of his moods.

he half-moans as his hips smack against your ass." Do I feel that good, love?," he'd ask with a smug and knowing smirk. Then he'd bring your back flush against his chest and wrap his hands up in your hair." You're gorgeous when you cum around my cock," he'd whisper in your ear and speed up his already impossible pace.

Consider that star imploding, sun draining orgasm one of many he'll give you. Dick has got master stamina, and you'll go round after round until you tap out. Even then he'll go," hmm? Cant do anymore? I fucked you that dumb all you can do is moan and tap on my thigh, huh?"

Jason Todd is a man who loves to be ridden. I believe it's called the cowgirl position. He's usually tired from striking fear into Gotham criminals, but he knows you want sex and he wants to please you--or you mutually want sex.

He'd definitely let you take the reins. Jason would smile as you pressed his chest and laid him down on the bed and climbed onto his lap. His cock would jump at the feeling of heat radiating from your cunt." Fuck, so wet and pretty...'s all mine ," he groaned.

Soon enough, your cunt was squeezing and milking his cock. He had his arms wrapped around your waist and his head buried in your tits as he whimpered and moaned." P-Please keep going." Jason would also rub your clit as you rode him. He prefers to see you orgasm more than anything--and he knows the sooner you cum, he can too.

I'm also a firm believer of Jason enjoying you overstimulating him. Maybe him projecting (even though that's lowkey what HCs are) but I think Jason likes being pushed past his limit. He'd love for you to keep riding after he's already came. His thighs tensed and quivering; his cheeks plump and cherry kissed; white strands of hair sticking to his forehead from sweat. He'd have a grip on your biceps and be fucking you onto his cock like a toy, just listening to your dazed and incoherent babbles as you both use each other past your respective limits.

Jason moans and whimpers as he cums. Walk with me: Dick is a grunter, Jason is a moan/whimperer, Bruce is silent but you can tell from the way his abs tense, and Tim is a speaker. Damian (way older obv) is a cusser, I feel.

Anyway, back to Jason: he's does aftercare for you both. Depending on how hard you used each other, the aftercare is different. If Jason and been traveling and you hadn't seen each other, so y'all REALLY fucked each other silly, like thigh trembling, hardly coherent silly then he'd wrap you in his arms and y'all would go to sleep. But if it was normal post-orgasm feeling, then he'd run you both a bath.

Ima need y'all to really walk with me on this one: Jason would wash you. Not in a creepy way, but in a loving way. He's showing affection, not control or dominance, but love. I truly believe he'd buy your beauty products even if it cut into his budget. Jason would love to massage the soap into your skin; he'd feel at peace when he ran the shampoo through your strands of hair, ensuring each lock was wiped clean of the absolute debauchery y'all had just gotten into.

Tim Drake from what I'd read gives me a 69 kinda vibe. He thinks it would kill two birds with one stone. You both get off, you both are happy and it saves time. Not only is it efficient, it also ensures that he doesn't tire out and embarrass himself with his lack of sexual stamina.

I may lose y'all with this one, but Tim is not that good of a fucker, but his true gifts lie in cunnilingus. He can out-eat anyone, especially with the right person--you. Tim would have you moaning around his cock, back arched and thighs trembling. He'd have his arms locked around your legs, just sucking on your clit and tonguing your hole. And he wouldn't stop until his lips and nose were slimy and soaked.

Tim tries harder than any of the Bat-boys because he feels like he has to prove himself. He feels like he hardly won you over as it is, so the least he could do is please you. I also think, no I know, Tim has a praise kink. When y'all do go P in V, I think he'd stick to missionary until he felt comfortable enough to try something else." You make me feel so...so good," in that moan-y voice will have Tim unintentionally blowing his load and then feeling embarrassed about it. He'd also get a rag to clean you up. And his version of aftercare is eating and watching movies if you're up for it.

Bruce Wayne prefers it when you're both lying on your sides and he can hike your leg up and fuck you deeper. He'd have a hand in your hair, and his pillow-soft lips would be laying kisses on your sweaty neck. He can't get enough of your scent. Being with you brings out the primal side of him, the wild and carefree side.

I truly believe the sex would have little spoken words. He's not big on praise or degradation. Though he does oh-so adore your moans. He'd liquify your sweet sounds and inject them into his blood stream if he could, to get high on you. That's one addiction he wouldn't mind having nor would he be rushing to kick.

He's also very iffy on the aftercare. Sometimes he's the pinnacle of aftercare etiquette. Other times he's cold and stand-offish when he feels he's slacking and shirking his duties as Batman. He'll retreat into the Bat. And even as he yells and insults, he HOPES you won't get tired and leave. He HOPES he can shut himself up before making an irreversible mistake. Hope is a big thing for him. After all, he's a man of facts and statistics.

Even if Bruce can't be there in the flesh, he still ensures you're taken care of. Bruce ensures you have the best and warmest meal. Whether it's Alfred's making or the fanciest restaurant in Gotham. He'd have wardrobes and glam teams flown in from Paris and Italy to personally attend to your appearance. Not because he feels you need it or he'd rather you look a certain way. He'd love you if you wore a plastic bag. No, he's doing it for you. You want clothes and shoes. You want makeup, and he wants the best for you. So premier glam teams it is.

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