Laughing Queen
In school, I was the quiet one. With my head down, I wasn’t really one to draw anyone’s eye. Nor did I see the point of being popular. I suppose you could say that I was more a wallflower than anything else. Even among the circle of friends at high school, I was somewhat on the periphery. My interests were always a little niche. It’s not every little girl that likes to pretend play Neopets or Zoids or Dragonball Z and gallop around the playground. And in high school, I suddenly found interacting with the boys that were my own age just wasn’t as fun as it used to be.
So, it’s been a little strange that as I’ve entered the workplace, I’ve seemed to adopt the persona of a ‘social butterfly.’ I say this with quote marks because I don’t really consider myself a social butterfly. Rather, I’m curious about the lives of those around me and want to foster a sense of camaraderie that seems lost now that my life is on such a different trajectory than those I might have considered close friends in the past.
In fact, I’ve become such a ‘social butterfly’ that I’ve basically become the office clown - joking around with my work colleagues or deadpanning with perfect timing about something deprecating because my humour seems to skew towards the black. It’s made me wonder if maybe I should take up stand-up comedy.
Would I be any good? I certainly make people laugh in the office and sometimes through my blog. I’ve had friends or workmates send me sentences I’ve written followed by the laughing emoji face. That means they think it’s funny...right? RIGHT?!
Honestly, one of these days, I need to get past my fear that everyone around me thinks I’m nothing special and secretly hates me. What happened to the debonair child that didn’t care what others thought and who marched to the beat of her own drum?
She’s gone. Crushed by the weight of anxiety and depression and the impending destruction of the planet.
That aside, I don’t feel like I’d make a good stand-up comedian. First of all, I’d need good material. The only things that immediately spring to mind would be talking about my experiences and probably leveraging the racist angle. But that’s not always everyone’s cup of tea. My worldly experiences are quite limited. And my jokes aren’t truly jokes but observations said in a funny way because I haven’t thought too hard on how I should phrase things. Sometimes it’s just me perpetuating a stereotype that I’ve adopted. For example, heightening my stalker tendencies by reciting whole addresses or birthdays.
Other times it’s me just remarking on the stark nature of our reality and dropping truth bombs. And in these times of great distress, if we don’t laugh, we’re crying. So, why not laugh to bleed out the tension?
Maybe one of these days I should actually attend a comedy act. Get a feel of what it means to stand in front of a crowd of people and simply lay out the tragedy of our lives to them. It’s said that the best comedians are the saddest and loneliest people on the planet. So, yes. Perhaps I’ll play up the misery that came from attending a competitive high school or use the intergenerational trauma that has trailed me for years as fodder.
Life is full of ups and downs. Rainbows, sunshine and roses might be how the optimists of the world like to see their lived experiences but it’s the realists and (more importantly) the pessimists that bring out the laughs when the glass is half-empty.
So, should I pursue a career in comedy?
Maybe.
But probably after I’ve tried out proper gainful employment, make a living as a YouTube/ Twitch star and then falling back on becoming the next viral TikToker. For a Millennial that’s about to hit the big 3 0, it’s the only viable pathway to success. My suffering shall be the fuel that lights the fire the world over! And when I tell you all to LAUGH, YOU WILL OBEY!
This is Kyndaris, signing out.
*cue uproarious applause*
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wait hold up did everyone suddenly become OK with saying anything about Heckuva Badshow that isn't completely unearned praise/did everyone only start mocking viv's mind-numbingly juvenile writing style WHILE I WAS GONE???
you bastards
i have a STOCKPILE of burns i thought i'd never get to use because too many people were still willing to roleplay as mr burns' hounds on her behalf or simply report back to base camp so she could scream SICCEM before insisting she is but a tender wee lamb who needs protection from The Haters while turning on her white woman tears and calling her connections demanding they not give someone a job bc they didn't laugh when she spent an entire workday following them around going
PENIS! PENIS! PENIS! FUCK! SEX! PENIS! ASS! FUCK! PENIS! HAHAHAHA! GET IT? PENIS, the FUCK ORGAN, lol, PENIS EXIST! REMEMBER? IT'S FUNNY BECAUSE PENIS! You know, like in Sausage Party? the best comedy film ever made? the one i made a nazi oc for? wait what huh who said that was it the wind shut up anyway PENIS PENIS PENIS Poor Person Supremacists Are Real and Just As Bad As Bad as Aristocrats Who Strangle Their......... Indentured Servants Bc Their Wife Is Being Bitchy PENIS PENIS PENIS COCK WANG DICK SCHLONG WILLY WANG WONG WOMEN ARE STUPID WHOOOOOOORES AND FAT PEOPLE ARE DISGUUUUUSTING! LOSE WEIGHT OR YOU ARE GROSS! THE BAD KIND OF GROSS, UNLIKE THE GOOD GROSS OF SKINNY CIS DICK DICK PENIS PENIS HORSE WEINER SEMEN! YAOI YAOI YAHOOOOOOO oohhMy Cartoon Dad is Sooooo Sad..... so sad, he is like Bojack, only instead of Herb being a total bitch, he and everyone else magically instantly forgives MY bojack without him even giving a proper apology, so he's like, an IMPROVED Bojack, that's how good MY writing is..... so good... so genius... genius like Penius... maverick, more like... maver-dick.... yeah that's it... i'm such a shakeup in the world of Mature Dialogue...
Cocktopus... Lesbian Named Vagina.... Clittorissa clit slit penis jizzlord squirt.... oh man Look at my Sad Cartoon Dad Again... Look How Sad he is... Please Say You Want to Fuck Him... Please Fuck My Cartoon Dad.... While I Watch... Let Me Watch You Fuck My Cartoon Dad..... With Your PENIS! LOL! PENIS PENIS PENIS PEE-
hey yeah okay this is turning into a rough draft of bit in and of itself already huh i should stop and dig out the Good Stuff vs just doing a bad viv impression that still manages to be funnier than an entire season plus of scripts combined
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yet another oc that only exists because i wanted to write something very specific
(middle is a little older, hence her scar healing. i like to think she gets a glass eye at some point)
anyway this is mira! (they/she) since that wip is almost 20k words and counting i won’t give away too much but long story short she’s the result of meta going “one last time, i promise” and adopting yet another kid
also galaxia kinda indirectly picked the name :)
i’ve mentioned before that i headcanon that pretty much all astrals are autistic and this is just kinda an extension of that. whereas meta tends to suppress his emotions and conform to others, mira…doesn’t. she gets uncomfortable and upset and lashes out at people easily, and working through their emotions is no small task.
the main reason i chose to write them that way was for the sake of narrative but i’ve grown attached to it because there’s a lot of ideas there i’d like to explore. stuff about navigating emotions and relationships when existing is so suffocatingly uncomfortable. it’s not something i could center around Kirby himself, but i think it makes sense with a post character development meta knight.
they are very loved (omg oldee cameo???)
kirby was definitely very excited to have younger siblings after being used to being the youngest in the room for so long!! (with the like. one and only exception being gooey.) he’s super affectionate with both of them and wants to have a close relationship one day, but for now mira is pretty unappreciative of that fact lol. they don’t like being pestered for hugs
everyone else is okay tho
(i know that’s hard to read. oops. “obvious bite marks”. siblings being siblings.)
mira also has a very love/hate relationship with the egg kid, being so close in age they kinda Have to get along but in typical sibling nature they also fight a lot. sure it’s probably rough for a while but i think in the end they’d be good buddies. maybe not as close as Kirby and Bandee but still.
anyway i have a lot of thoughts and am very busy but. i’m really enjoying writing about all this lately it’s been fun ^^
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You can stop capitalism and the attention economy from sucking the joy out of art for you right now*
*at the small price of, perhaps, your hopes and dreams.
Commodification and competition only suck the joy out of art when you buy into them. If you want to make art for fun and not worry about attention economies and algorithms then literally just stop worrying about them, and accept the consequences of that.
What are the consequences? There are artists who have successfully risen to a living wage off posting their art online, and in the shadow of these prominent but rare figures it is difficult not to dream of having even a sliver of their luck. And this is to say nothing about the social and emotional fulfillment of sharing art with others, but I'll be focusing on the economics here.
It's luck. Commercially successful artists who seem to have "gamed the algorithm" are prone to survivorship bias--it's impossible to know how many artists have tried the same tactics only to get nowhere. And most will attest that every step of these attention-economy-appeasing rituals is demoralizing and exhausting. Many--even those who succeed--give up or take a step back.
But if these rituals are so awful, why perform them? To potentially increase the meager chances of economic success as an internet artist? To see your engagement numbers go up?
I don't want to tell people to give up on this dream because I believe it is impossible. Instead, it is possible, which is the trap. And when the entire economy and job market are so dire, it's difficult not to dream of that lottery ticket.
I do believe we can live in a world where we can survive and make the art that brings us joy--Through significant effort and numerous systemic changes at every level of culture and society. And in the meantime, there is a huge grey area of economic sustainability--if you make even a little money off your art, that's more in your pocket.
But hobbyist artists have been making and continue to make art out of joy and curiosity regardless of how popular or commercially viable it is, it's just harder to find them on common online platforms. They're in your neighborhood, at work, in your family and probably among your friends, sitting at the library leafing through a "How to Draw" book or signing up for an adult beginner's class, if they have the money. And when we promote the idea that art is fun for everyone, we make more space for people to enjoy it.
We have a finite amount of time and energy every day. Our capitalist economy saps us of both such that we have very little left to devote to our passions. But we fail to realize how much more we lose investing in an arbitrary and fickle economy that is, in fact, entirely optional. If you work a day job with clearly defined hours, you may spend several hours miserably--and that is a problem that needs addressing--but your day ends. Meanwhile, the work of a professional internet artist is never done--You are always on the clock.
I feel heartbroken when I see artists lamenting how joyless, soul-sucking, and uninspiring art has become for them in the midst of our current circumstances. I think they are correct in identifying that the attention economy saps them of this joy--But they are not seeing the forest for the trees.
It is the difference between the expectation of success and the reality of disappointment, rather than the disappointment itself, that leads to such a depressing state of affairs. Let go of the idea that sufficient effort scales with reward in a system as arbitrary as ours. Save your energy. The best way to win is not to play.
Art is as beautiful and life-affirming as it ever was. Realize what it has to offer you, and realize what you need from elsewhere. We still need food and a roof over our heads. We still need friends and community. If we want art to occupy a joyful space in our lives, we need to rely on other parts of ourselves to get through the sometimes boring, tedious, and depressing work of living our daily lives.
Our capitalist system and its associated attention economy deserve every criticism they can get, but if we fail to question their fundamental assumptions, we will never truly move past them. We have the autonomy to untangle capital from our artistic lives, if not completely, at least to a more manageable state.
So, believe that art can be fun again. The things you want to see in the world are waiting for you to make them.
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julissa! hold up! stop the car! shut the doooooor. were you... by any chance.... cat's freckles and baby curls anon OH MY GOD??
see, the thing is that i've been around and been away, on and off. so i never really connected the two of you!!
wowww! not to be dramatic but this is like an unsolved mystery getting solved in my eyes
anon! hold up! yes i am, that's me!!! 🥹
i was a little lurking goblin back then. just reading and appreciating and loving and dropping into inboxes nearly daily haha and @iansfreckles is beautiful bright sunshine! she really humored me and my silly thoughts. so much so that i became freckles and baby curls anon 🥺 then i wanted to actually get involved in the flailing, so i dropped into her inbox as me, heymrspatel, and was all "hi it's me hi!" 💙
and well, it's been a beautiful ride!! 🥰
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Sometimes I need to remind myself there's a lot of writing styles and different writing choices create different effects and if that's the intention then it's okay to do it differently from say X other person, since that person's style choice may not be to create the same effect as another writer's
Like. Haruki Murakami and Stephen King are not doing the same things, not trying to accomplish the same things. There is a reason one writer may intend to let dialogue do the heavy lifting and leave descriptions absent unless utterly necessary, only the most vital pieces written such as core actions. While another author might revel in pages of description, the setting they place their scenes in being its own character and such a tremendous influence on the point of the story. The author who picks to make time feel unreal and hard to grab and plays with time skips and back and forth for a particular effect, and the one who is much more concrete about time and the when's (perhaps for a murder mystery where the facts of the case are critical). Just because your writing choices are not identical to the choices of those you may admire, does not make them wrong. Your own particular piece of writing, in that moment in time, has its own goals that need to be achieved in their own ways.
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