#or dont post them if you cant/dont want to learn

[gammija]

boy, i do love seeing a post full of unsourced art in the tma tag with an amount of notes akin to an upcoming artists/s. especially when, after being called out, just two sources are added in the alt text instead of in the body of the post, even though most if not all of the artists have tumblr accounts themselves

#but tagging them would notify them. and then maybe they'd have thoughts about their art being reposted without permission #i know. 'its from pinterest i found it unsourced its not my fauwt uwu' fucking learn to find the source. its not hard. #or dont post them if you cant/dont want to learn #joos yaps #if the artist could put in the hours to actually make the art you claim to love so much the least you can do is #take the few minutes to find them and ask permission. or - radical idea - reblog their original post #btw i mean upcoming in the sense that i know my art would not be getting the amount of notes it does if i didnt have the momentum #from 10 years of slowly gathered followers #not a judgement on anything qualitative of the hypothetical art itself

[b4kuch1n]

dip pen ink comm batch 4 complete! for Ezechiel, @ohwwhuv, and Leo :]

#bakuspecial #commission art #the grayscale for these were done on a train with my laptop track pad fksdjhf it was! manageable! but not desirable condition #that was before I got my new current tablet too... thank you my old huion. you served me well. Im so sorry I chipped ur paint to shit #ngl the texture on the new one's better off the bat. the grip's better and it has good kinetic feedback #too bad abt the touch buttons tho... I was confident I could make use of them but alas #things need actual feelable buttons again please I can Not tell where anything is when Im drawing and cant look at the tablet #my eyes are on the screen!! Im bad at gauging distance!!! please give me buttons I can find in the dark. please #even the old huion which has actual buttons I still couldnt use them. bc theyre not raised #theyre flat to the tablet's surface. you know what I shouldve tacked raised stickers on them I was stupid there #well! the more u learn. the more u learn #I'm happy with the current tablet tho!! buttons stuff aside it's nice to draw on. and thats what important. wrists dont hurt no more #almost said ''I miss the wacom eraser end" I don't. not really. every time I used that thang I was like wow you are so imprecise and blunt #litcherally why would you want basically a mappable stylus end but it's 50 times the size of a normal nib and you cant see where ur drawing #especially on a screen tablet. the dynamic there makes absolutely no sense #I can really do the same thing now by mapping one of the stylus buttons to swap foreground color to transparency #anyways. this has been my testimonies on tablets. in the tags of a dip pen ink post lmao #well! this is a late post I shouldve posted this before art fight. thank u again to that anon who reminded me #have a good day lads! we can answer emails together. hands in professional hands

[arcaneyouth]

having a chronic illness/disability and also having medical trauma is a bitch for obvious reasons but also like. being part of the disabled community n stuff. like yeah i want to show my love and support for disabled people and i dont want to be uncomfortable when they talk about their experiences. if they talk about specific experiences i will stop breathing while the panic hits me like many bricks

#negative #sorta kinda #a lot of disability posts are like 'if you are uncomfortable with (disability stuff) you need to reexamine yourself and #learn to live with it' and these posts are true and i do have biases i gotta be aware of #but theres also stuff i just cant become comfortable with. ive tried. ive been trying for a decade #it is simultaneously true that i should be allowed to avoid my triggers and that other disabled people shouldnt have to be aware that #im triggered by them existing #i dont feel bad about that i just feel bad that i am apart of this community too but theres spaces i just cant be in #its the same kind of thing with like. so you'll never find me putting my ocs in a medical setting #i could potentially do it since i know exactly what triggers me and what doesnt but its easier to just avoid it in my stories #but the thing about my chronic illness is its. an invisible illness #and a lot of the things i could bring up for my readers to understand they have My Illness are. things that trigger me #and again. i have tried so hard to be more comfortable with these triggers #its not happening. it is likely i will panic about this stuff the rest of my life #so now theres a disconnect between me and my ocs that are like me because i cant make them like me without freaking out #its just. man what the hell. #my disability that gave me medical trauma is preventing me from participating in disabled spaces i want to be part of #what the fuck dude

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

my hands are so fucked up i cant type correctly for my tech class and i think thats kinda mean :(

#camera talks #in a like. this society has ways we are supposed to conform and if you cant do that you Fail #well. sorry i jammed my pinky fingers so bad i can no longer use them to type :// #(true story i actually dont have the nerve ability to do much with my pinkies and i can't reliably press keys with them) #and my general joint pain makes it hard to type the way they want us to type (homerow keys and stuff </3) #(also yes i learned this in elementary school but we have to relearn it in a mandatory class rip </33) #ALSO. i lied 1 more post #Now i can go to bed probably

[brightokyolights]

Why is being a living exisiting human being so very confusing 🙃

#my brain is genuinely the worst place on planet earth ahaha!! #anyways the story that is bringing this on is actually nice i suppose but im exhausted so. let me just get into it and perhaps the dilemna #will make itself more aparant. #basically i hate interacting with people. its exhausting. like genuinely just takes so much brain power and social battery from me. even for #simple things. anyways so im telling someone this in my usual jokey way “im being tortured and kept outside of my home where i could be #chilling with a book“ so the other person is like oh you cant stay inside forever and ever. but then goes on to say from interacting with me #theyd never have guessed that i have such a hard time with talking and hanging out with people. that i never make someone feel like im tired #them or dont wanna talk to them etc. and internally im screaming because like. that is something i stress out so much about because i strugg #le so much with my responses and tone etc etc. thats why its so exhausting for me because im just constantly focussed on what im Supposed to #be like. the other part of me was kind of pleased in a way because i feel so painfully awkward that it stresses me out that people can see #right through me and think that i hate them when its not that i just. hate human interaction because its so tiring. so hearing that was like #oh so no one can even tell and i am stressing. for nothing. dw though this info will not help my brain learn to stop stressing out though #lmao. anyways final point i suppose is that the person also says that even if i am 'awkward' i sort of use it to my advantage and it doesnt #come across in an unsavoury way. anyways idk what to do with all this info. because the way i feel on the inside is so. and i worry a lot #about people seeing that on the outside. but part of me sort of wants it too because i just feel like absolutely no one fucking knows me? #and while i guess that was maybe my goal i also hate it? i shall rb a quote after this. anyways. idk what im saying. i dont fucking know. im #just so tired. so fucking tired. #le text post

[britneyshakespeare]

genuinely also curious from other ppl who have drawn from live models. whenever i talk about this experience ppl ask me if the models were all attractive and young and in-shape. in my figure drawing class only two of the regular models could somewhat fit that description. most of them were middle-aged or older people of ordinary (but diverse) proportions. like my experience may not be representative but i find it curious that ppl hear about modelling for a drawing class and wonder if that's like a hot 20-something job. it doesn't seem to be lol

#this is ok to reblog btw i wanna start a discussion #text post #reblog bait #life drawing #figure drawing #like i would be willing to bet there's some body discrimination in some places #where they might have a wider selection of ppl willing to work? #i DONT know anything about working as a model or how ppl get into it or do it steadily on the side #it does seem like an interesting gig for sure. not one i'd wanna get into myself but i'd love to hear abt it from someone who does it #or just observations from other ppl who have taken drawing classes w live models #in my experience (admittedly limited) of looking at reference websites of nude figures... some of them are more 'young and hot' #which kinda DOES NOT surprise me. bc they want ppl to BUY permission to use those photos as drawing references #and perhaps ppl are willing to lay down more money for pretty people? idk. or again it could just be a hiring preference by photographers #could be a multitude of factors. #but it's kind of unnecessary bc in order to learn the fundamentals of drawing realistic bodies u gotta draw a lot of them #u have to see different positions and different features and different shapes and overall different ppl #i miss drawing from live models. most of all for the gestural sessions. those were REALLY fun #very satisfying as warm-up exercises. quick and fast-paced and spontaneous. you cant get that at home

[eepelene]

you sink into my skin

#you know like that song #YOUUUU SINK INTOOO MY SKINNNN THIS INVASION MAKES ME FEEL WORTHLESS #HOPELESS SICK IM SO SICKKK #yeah also shoutout to david's death of marat for being the painting i copied to do this for my class heh hahhaahhaah ohohohohohho #ok some tags #oc #procreate #illustration #myocs #myoc #myart #art #procreateart #m yeah thats all i got #neoclassicism is pretty cool #baroque still has my heart still (for neow) #mmm her HEAD LOOKS SO WEIRD BUT I CANT FIX IT #IDK HOW TO RENDER HAIR AND I JUST DONT LEARN AND IT KEEPS BITING MY ASS EVERYTIME I AHVE TO #everytime i go to post my drawings from my class im like. idk if i shld cause i never relaly like them but also ooh i painted something i #never do that so i want ppl to seeeee #but idk i dont really like it #wuteva #at least the cloth folds look kewl

[nthflower]

Tumblr is always like social norms are evil and stupid and hurt people that doesn't fit in (which is extremely true and I say this all the time too)

But the moment someone do something here stupid everybody is like turn into hive mind and bully them.(not racism or bigoted stuff like terfs idk I am talking about just weird things)

Like people preach be yourself, current social norms are fucked up then mock you for not following Tumblr culture or whatever.

#people who make angry posts to other users about tumblr etiquette etc. #like how dare you spam liking my blog how can you not know this is wrong why are you not thinking #or how dare you asking them something because you cared you clowns go learn unwritten tumblr interaction etiquette rules #we love people who dont understand social norms easily tho 😌 #ughhhhh i am angry #and this is not about me btw all my interactions in Tumblr was amazing following and follower #but some other post that u saw #like yeah they are annoying maybe why are you mocking or smugly mean about it just teach them whats wrong #like its my neurodivergency i know but i genuinely can't see sometimes not wrong i only can find patterns but not explain them #and if you tell me instead of mocking whats wrong here i can then see my problem and just fix it and also it would be amazing for me too #i would also develop as a person #this is my strategy irl tbh first i explain someone what's makes me feel wrong and bad about their thing #then if they don't understand after a while and its hurting me i just then be angry to them and say okay this persom is stupid/annoying #anyways i just especially after starting therapy stopped judging people even when how much weird weird they are #i cant know without asking and i can be same too #rant #long long tags #i should learn telepathy so much i want telepathy its only communication way that would satisfy me

[anurarana]

Sorry sorry I was just reading a reply of a post where someone was like the difference between a mental illness and a mental disorder is that one implies a strive to find a cure and I'm just like... babe what world do you live in where people don't want to "fix" you

#yes even so called destigmatized disorders are still seen as something that needs to be solved and eradicated #this was on like a post about how neurodivergent doesnt just mean adhd and autism but also a plethora of other #mental disorders and illnesses that people dont make cute little aesthetic jokes about #but thats just the thing loves you make the jokes and the positivity posts about yourself others still want you to sit calmly and shut up #and that leads into why i have so much resentment over neurotypical bc by using this one umbrella term you are completely erasing #and fucking sanitizing the experiences of other mentally ill people that dont fit your fun quirky image #i didnt want to rant on that post bc i get it i get why people find comfort in the term but the more i think about the more i dislike it #having adhd doesnt give you a pass to leave other mentally ill people behind to not learn and advocate for eachother #to dismiss them of their struggles when they beg you to sympathize with them bc you want stable people to feel comfortable #meant to say neurodivergent there it is too early in the morning im just having a cynical laugh #delete later #it was just such a fucking weird hill to die on even ignoring everything else who are you to say someone with ptsd or anxiety #or schizophrenia cant call themselves whatever the fuck they want

[crystallakec]

holy hell i love your art 😭 HOW ARE YOU SO TALENTED omfg

(if not too much to ask: got any art tips IM SORRY I GOTTA KNOW. i gotta know what you do to make your art look like it was made by gods)

*nervous sweating*

#LONG LONG LONG TAGS BELOW BE CAREFUL BECAUSE I GOT EMOTIONAL #OH MY GOD HOW COME I DIDNT SEE THIS EARLIER #dsaudhuisadh tysm anon!!!T_TT waaah this means a lot #for any art tips...well since me myself is totally an amateur so I cant really give out any cool useful advice #but one thing that came to me earlier this year that is kinda important #is to absolutely. draw for yourself. do whatever makes you happy. trust me just try to snatch back that vibe you have in your cringest year #if you like oc x canon do it!!!oh you like this cringy little character ??draw them one million times!!! #I think after I kinda made some progress after I realized this. It's still ok to care about numbers and get sad or jealous or anything. #I understand that. but try whatever makes you happy..!! #just so you know I basically started learning anatomy(or adults etc)from end of last year. I was always a cartoon/chibi artist before that #Ive always wanted to draw adults/muscle/anything other than chibis but i was so afraid that ppl will laugh at me if I did it too terrible #then I realized...who cares..!! I'll do it anyway because that's what ive been!!thinking of for so long!!it will makes me happy idc!! #and here we are ^_^^ yayyyyy!!!still bad at it but you see at least i have the courage to post my works!! #sorry for saying so much I just hope ppl who had the same troubles like I do to be happu T_TT draw for yourself #dont stress yourself out!!

[lzrdprsn]

It's really weird when you know someone in a context different from how everybody else knows them so you look at them and you still kind of see that person they used to be

#this post is about the boy i dated my senior year who was so incredibly sweet tbh wouldnt be the person i am today if i hadnt met him #but he was so fucked up he had so many issues it was really hard so it didnt work out but i loved him and i think he loved me too #but hes in a moderately successful band now which i just found out about do i looked them up and theyre good #but its so weird because its like i know that when you were 17 you wanted to be an underwater welder #i helped you clean your room at your grandmas house because you were so sad you couldnt do it yourself #i ditched 5th period AP English to sit on the steps behind the auditorium and listen to you talk about whatever #you pushed me on the swings and we took the bus to the movie theater and you liked cherry wraps and you played me my favorite songs #i havent REALLY thought about that guy in years and we were only together MAYBE 6 months but its so weird what you remember about people #and especially how you remember how they made you feel because he made me feel so good like i was in control #all my previous relationships was me trying to desperately please someone who wouldnt do the same for me #and honestly a lot of my relationships since have been the same especially in college and with the one girl who honestly if she called me #today i would drop everything and go be with her again no questions because i cant get her out of my head #but stuff witj him was never ever like that it was so easy it was like breathing even though it ended messy i have 0 regrets #and its nice to know that things are going well for him because honestly he changed my life a little bit #the way i dont give a fuck now is something i learned from him #ill probably delete this later but you know

[chaoticgremlinbrainspace]

was going insane at a friend last night now I need to research transness in the 70s and all that fun stuff so I can be fully unhinged and maybe actually write smth for once instead of being haunted by visions

#grem screams #I love history #I love reading and learning about the past and the people #I love seeing the way things have changed the way things reflect and parallel and diverge #I also just really like queer history #I love learning about the ways people existed and shit #idk theres just smth so cool about people in spaces that aren't really talked about in regular history classes and like learning about them #I might be a lil cringe boy art student who cant help but romanticize shit because hes full of feelings but idk it got me feeling #sometime of way #idk lately ive been feeling like I cant quite find the words to describe what I am I just know I am what I am #and that often people just get it or they dont lol #ngl this all started off as me vague posting about wanting to write a trans genda scout from tf2 fic and getting wya too invested in how #that would work logically bc it needs to be accurate #it needs to be a journey!!! #and I want it to be in charater #but im also a lil bitch for angst lmao #im also a nerd lmaooo that and its hard for me to write things dow n with out it sounding wrong or just not right you know? #it feels wholly too earnest and cheesy to my own ears and it makes me shrivel up like a popcorn left in the oven #uh anyway I think trans scout is neat actually and I would love to see more explorations into it guess im gonna attempt to be the change I #wanna see in the world lmao #idk hes just so easy to grab and dunk into the #world is fuck being different is hard give 200 dollars sauce you know? #veeerrrry easy to project onto the trans angst is he is like sponge and I am a vicious liquid #and he has daddy issues lmao apparently arcording to my very small sampling size that tends to happen side by side #and idk I think it would make sense for scout to just straight up not know a lot of shit he gives #me when I was in middle school and I thought it was funny to trick people into thinking I was a guy even tho I was totally a girl /sarcasm #he gives deep in the denial sauce but also totally extremely uncomfy when people find out and getting unreasonably happy when hes called si #but ahahaha nooo im totally a girl haha and just feeling more awkward now #lmao #sorry for the rambling lmao idk if this is accurate for his charater I do think him being trans could be a fun thing to just explore and sh

[thedragonagelesbian]

Every time i try to articulate something about cyrus & astarion's relationship, i immediately lose all coherency something in there is like catnip to me but i Cannot Talk About It Ever

#its the intimacy of death and blood and sacrifice its caring immensely its learning to be cared for #its the two radically opposed survival modes crashing into each other #the competing attitudes of 'i have to take anything' versus 'i have to give everything' #that leave the other fundamentally altered but in a way that cant be fully expressed or appreciated #until after they're out of survival mode which is why them getting back together post-canon is SO dear to me #but its also about the friendship and the protection in the meantime #but its also about the tension between the would-be monster and the would-be hero #and the painful agonizing slow realization that it's different this time it isnt worth the scars anymore #and he is so infuriatingly naive and foolish and optimistic and trusting and /good/ #and you rediscover something of a protective spirit in yourself bc you realize you dont actually want him to lose his kindness #cyrus bg3 #cyrusXastarion #YOURE FUCKING YOU B A B Y

[lonely--seeker]

It's so sad no one ever told me there was this Mob Psycho Ova I would absolutely love. So i got some screenshots from it.

It's everything I could ask for and more.

#Gracias por tanto perdon por tan poco ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡ #Finally more Wawa screentime you bet these were the best 24min of my year #The amount of serotonin this gave me #I'll be rewatching this Ova everyday and cry about it uwaaaahh #I cant even ;;;;; #the last scene with them playing cards in the train left me FEELING #One of my fondest memories with friends is exactly like that. and i tell you it's not fair nu uh i dont know if i want to cry or not #We spent new years eve together and on our train back there was a trouble that made the whole trip extend four hours #but luckily we had snacks and we played UNO like crazy #I think i even had a movie on my phone to watch. ahh it was so nice having friends #so you could say... Im gonna cry about this forever... it's so special to me ;;;;; #screencaps #also dunno who's wonna hear out all my rambling but Im sorry for the spanish subs ah ha #this made me remember i have yet to post my silly doodles trying to learn to draw Serizawa

[autisticlee]

I started with posting about my autistic experience on twitter, reading posts on there, and interacting with people there.

then twitter got unbearable, so I moved back here and made a new account and side blogs to mirror twitter and lurk in the tags.

i've noticed a difference between autism twitter and autism tumblr from the big algorithm-controlled posts I usually see:

autism twitter makes me feel like i'm not allowed to say autism disables me or causes problems in life

while autism tumblr makes me feel like i'm not allowed to feel positively about being autistic and can only see it as a struggling disability.

the contrast makes me dizzy 😵‍💫 it's like no one wants to see the perspective of other people when we are all different. each side wants their narrative to be the told one.

#autistic #actually autistic #autism #a little criticism for both. can we not do this 😭 #twitter is always “dont use your autism as a disability/excuse for why you cant do a thing! it'll mean i wont be able to do the thing #anymore if they know i'm autistic!“ like when i asked if i can be exempt from jury duty because TALKING HARD. due to autistic #but on tumblr it's always “dont call autism a difference in brain. it's a disability and that's all it is because it ruins my life and is #so hard for me! stop trying to make it look like a positive thing!“ #and like....both????? its both?! because it depends on the person and how they see it themself and how affects THEM. not you. #its both positive thing that makes me who i am and disability that makes many things difficult. it can be both 😭 #let people describe whats best for them and dont speak for everyone! #linking this to twitter too because both sides gives me headaches lmao #lee rambles #i know people disabled by autism want their storoes told. i know people not as didabled by autism want their stories told #but we cant just do ONE and push only that narrarive. telling one doesnt discredit the other. both are equally important!!! learn to share! #help each other. dont disagree and post passive aggressive posts about each other on social medias. ugh. #i feel like im stuck between where i see it positivly while it disrupts parts of my life at the same time so i dont fit anywhere #people tell me “if you want friends then be friends with other autistics” but i dont even fit in with “my people” sometimes #if anyone else noticed or feels like this then *internet ghost hug* belonging ks difficult :(

[bramblepaws]

good fucking lord

#im trying to stay out of The Drama but go outside and touch grass for the love of god #youre allowed to dislike people who are making something you enjoy and youre allowed to create your own space to enjoy the thing in #making anonymous blogs to complain about it and try to turn people against the creators you dont like is absolutely wild #so is writing PARAGRAPHS about how much you dont like them #theyre two people making something !!for free!! and you dont need to interact with them directly if you dont want to #ramblings #text #okay that's all. anon is on if you want to fight about it or something but i just think it would be better for everyone to like. #go get a more fulfilling hobby. maybe complain about this to your irl friends instead of making tumblr posts and blogs. #i for one have pulled out of the bcb stuff more recently because i dont enjoy a lot of the community #and i havent really been Into the recent chapters. so like. it's okay to go find something else to do #it's also ok to complain where the creators cant see! but they have every right to curate their own space. #anyways im going to go make out with my fiance and my boyfriend and learn how to play the banjo. i just wanted to say Something.