#over the next............. month im guessing

[thestarsarebrightertonight]

skinny dipping // theodore nott x fem reader

playlist: skinny dipping - sabrina carpenter

"itd be so nice right? if we could take it all off and just exist and skinny dip in water under the bridge"

summary: y/n and theo have known eachother their whole lives but when sorted into different houses and fears of unrequited feelings take over , they lose their bond- but not really.

no real skinny dipping just the song LMAO its metaphorical , ravenclaw reader , use of y/n , fluff , childhood friends wtih obvious feelings

masterlist

it was just any other weekend on the hogsmeade trip when you heard the barista of the small cafe you sat in call out his name.

"theo!" she said , placing down a black coffee and moving on to serve more people , but you left your eyes burning holes into the cup.

until his hand went to grab it , giving a quiet and dull thanks before moving over towards the tables , where you sat - not noticing you yet.

you quickly moved your eyes away and pretended to be busy when his body turned in your direction , your acting cut off by your name being called in a voice you could hardly recognise.

"y/n?" he said as you looked up to see him stood infront of your table.

you took your time to study his face , he looked so different it was terrifying , he wasnt the same eleven year old boy you were attached to. but you werent so suprised by how he looked , you always watched him from afar.

"hey.." you let out softly , smiling at him anxiously.

it seemed weird to be anxious around your best friend , except you werent really best friends anymore , just two stanger with memories. memories you can never forget.

"we go to the same school but ive not seen you in ages!" he said excited by your appearance.

"really cause i see you everyday" you chuckled as he laughed too , sitting in the chair in front of you.

"yeah well you know i have bad eyesight," he shrugged with a bright grin.

"how could i forget , having to read everything at a distance to you as kids was a daily occurance" you both laughed as you forget all of your past worries.

"no seriously , its really good to see you , i dont know why we stopped talking anyways!" theo smiled.

you sat in silence for a second , you knew exactly why. the second you gained feeling for theodore at the end of first year you immediatly ghosted him for the next 5 years- and here you are now , sitting opposite the boy you never really got over.

"yeah...well how are you theodore?" you gave him your best smile.

"merlin dont call me that , its theo or dory , remember the name you came up with when we were 5!" his eyes sparkled in the nostalgia.

"i still have no idea where i got that nickname from," you both laughed.

"anyways , im okay. i was having a bit of a shitty day but its better now ," he replied.

"oh really , what happened?"

"nothing just boring studying for exams and my friends were all busy, but i guess it was fate that i came in here," he grinned at you as you felt your heart melt. this was exactly why you stopped talking to him , he could make you go crazy and not even know.

"yeah , so you could run into your shy ravenclaw friend you havent talked to in 5 years," you laughed.

"5 years 1 month and 12 days," he said as your laughing ceased, "i counted the days , i....i really missed you."

your whole demanor softened as you watched him stare down at your coffees unable to hold eye contact , "theodore i wouldve talked to you sooner if you said you wanted to talk .i know i kinda iced you out but im always here."

"i know bella , i just guess something changed that day , you...changed," he said softly.

"yeah well you did too theo , not talking was best for us , we needed to grow and be our own people," you reached out to hold his hand , not realising your seperation had effected him.

"i kinda lied when i said i hadnt seen you , i...well i find you every day, to make sure youre okay," he admitted with a maroon blush across his cheeks, "i guess i hoped you looked out for me too."

"of course i did, i still do. just because we dont talk doesnt mean you arent important to me theo."

he stared into your eyes , seeing his sadness begin to fade and be replaced with a fond adoration as you gazed back in the same haze. looking at him in this way didnt help with your unrequited-

"i love you," he whispered never once breaking eye contact.

your jaw dropped in suprise , "t-theo do you mean..."

"i love you and i always have , the day you stopped talking to me i think a part of me died or something. do you not realise how my friends seem to bully everyone but you? how im at all of your quidditch pratices and games? do you not wonder why no guys approach you? they all fucking pity my unrequited pining," theodore dropped his head and let go of your hand , frustration building up.

"theo," you gained his attention as he hesitantly brought his eyes back up to meet yours , "i love you too, more than words could describe. i guess i just thought youd never like me that way so i left you alone. i couldnt deal with my own feeling and i let it out on you im sorry-"

"dont say sorry bella," he said softly as he held the side of your face , tracing his thumb across your cheek softly, "water under the bridge?"

you smiled at him , holding the hand that rested on your blushed cheek , "water under the bridge."

stream skinny dipping by sabrina carpenter

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[krussyarts]

I'm gonna throw up my brain is so full of these two

#Posting ugly wips motivates me to finish a piece #So uh. Here's the ugly wip #Good Omens #Good Omens 2 #aziraphale #crowley #aziracrow #ineffable husbands #God im sick #It may not look it #But I'm much worse about Aziraphale than Crowley #I want to pick his brain so bad #I need to see him suffer #I need him to hit his lowest point next season #This startet with Aziraphale having gay panic over a slightly more possessive arm on shoulder #And then spiraled into me drawing David Tennant a million times (don't ask about the sketches) #this has been sitting in my drafts for 6 months help #i forgor to post this #to be fair i guess. after saving this i had made some pretty big changes to the layout and i redid the lineart #and then my laptop died. for some reason nothing was saved so yeah. i hate looking at this lowkey so ill post smth else soon

[todayisafridaynight]

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #yakuza series #ryu ga gotoku 7 #yakuza like a dragon #yakuza 7 #masumi arakawa #jo sawashiro #masato arakawa #arasawa #i guess #snap sketches #i just think its swell masato has two dads that love him very much :) <- he will never respect either of them and i want to eat drywall #ive hoarded this idea for months and finally felt compelled to do it last night #also yeah we're gonna rock with b/w comics for a while. until i remember how values work LMAO #im like. JUST on the precipice of Meh about this but i like it enough to share it so fine #im forcing all of you to remember how to make b/w comics we're gonna suffer together #forcing myself to post this now lest i stress over it for the next hour instead of getting ready for class LMAO #ok bye

[midnight-moth]

I’m so sorry to everyone cause my brain suddenly decided that it wants to talk to everyone about everything a whole lot which for me is refreshing since I felt like a corpse for the last two weeks but I acknowledge that I am likely being very annoying and I’m sorry. Also just wanted to use my fav video again.

#I do not think I have bipolar disorder #although it is an 80% genetic disorder that is prevelant in my family #but sometimes I gotta wonder #it doesn’t matter I’ll find out next month I guess #just I’m really sorry I like talk to everyone and when I’m like this I REALLY LIKE IT AND IM EMBARASSING #This is how I felt #Like dial up #But someone kept picking up the phone and interrupting the connection #right now I sound more like a fax machine lots of beeping and paper shooting out all over the floor

[end-orfino]

ahhhhhh i remember why i dont read comics & books and watch movies as much as I should. Because they make me lose it

#i get suddenly hit with a tsunami of inspiration and an urgency to Make Something #but the urgency isn't about the process of making it's about I Have Stories To Present Too. I have to See Them Realized. #and that hit of urgency is obviously far too short lived to make anything. esp since it comes in a set with a feeling of 'wow this- #-thing was so great' that transforms into intensified perfectionism of No No What Im Doing Here Isnt Good. What Is This. Disgrace- #-to my idea AND to what inspired it AND to my self proclaimed status as an amateur storyteller #which turns into artblock. so like low chances that ill even get a singular good drawing made during this #and the multiple comic or script or whatever ideas that appear in my head during this are out of the question entirely #oh and all of this appears next to the normal feelings caused by a good story like attachment to the characters and having to process it- #-for a while and if its very good then even sometimes rarely i get the need to make fanart #so all of this combined just leads to me not being able to do anything for a while and feeling awful about it. #fun./sar #i wish i was a normal artist people here are so resilient and do stuff even though they dont want to or they DO want to #because idk they enjoy being pissed bcs of a thing not turning out right and they dont mind how tedious it can get- #-and they enjoy sacrificing hours&days&months of their lives without a guarantee that anyone will appreciate it accordingly and itll pay of #its probably the resilience though #im weak like a dried twig both mentally and physically #this sounds like i never enjoyed drawing&writing ever. and to clarify thats far from true. i frequently enjoy it #just never frequently enough and consistently enough to actually make something more 'worthwhile' or linear #it's like a wind that comes & goes that i have no control over. #i try to keep telling myself that in the past i struggled to make anything 'bigger'....& know i even made animatic shitposts #this sounds so stupid god. an animatic shitpost being an achievement. #its not an art skill achievement its a fighting tooth and nail with my own self to actually finish it because its a struggle almost every- #-time achievement #what im saying is im trying to tell myself that i already improved. im doing more than i could have done in the past. #even if the process is so slow and i dont know when ill advance again #if ill advance again. i just gotta believe i guess? thank u parappa

[frostycatblr-fandom-files]

if you're sitting there feeling sorry for yourself, wondering why no one's commented on your hiatus status(es), i'll help you figure out why

you're behaving like a selfish, entitled bitch. you're throwing a pity-me-party while you accuse people of favoritism in the same breath. like, no wonder your ~CoMmUniTy~ won't feel sorry for you, or interact with your bad artwork or your other uninspired bullshit when you bitchfit that no one's sharing your shit: no one wants to interact with that melodrama. there's better writers out there that don't cry about interaction bullshit.

you need to grow the fuck up, and maybe do people all a favor by not coming back.

Wow... thank you for sending me this present shortly before Christmas (Dec. 20th, to be exact). Real lovely stuff.

So listen while I break this down by section and say things later on that I don't mean:

If you're going to call me an 'entitled bitch' or criticize my content, you should really take ownership of your words like a grown-up first. You're welcome to those opinions, I suppose; but it means NOTHING when you send me this from a position of cowardice. If your goal was to hurt my feelings and upset me, I would only award you with partial congratulations, if that.

I'll concede it was a bit of a "bitchfit" if it makes you happy, because yes, it kind of was. I'll take ownership of that: I should have been better, and I wasn't. I should have been a lot calmer, and I wasn't.

Maybe then more people would have given a damn about me and what I had to say. Or maybe they wouldn't. I don't know anymore, quite frankly. I can't say I ever did.

Your point about "better writers out there [who] don't cry about interaction bullshit" is wrong, by the way. I can think of several fan writers (and I'm not going to compare content quality because that's gross) either on my dashboard or in fandom tags (many with larger followings + outreach than me) who've complained about lowered interaction these days at one time or another.

Or several times, even. It was largely and perfectly fine when they spoke up about it. Weird to me, anon, how it's okay when these unnamed and so-called "better writers" speak up, but not the little guys.

Some people are a little too comfortable telling those with smaller followings/outreach to just suck it up because interaction has been bad for everyone lately. Or placate themselves with excuses for why they didn't offer any sympathy to people who admit to struggling with feeling like belonging, or those wishing they felt more included. Noticed. Remembered. (Whatever the case may be.)

I mean I've seen who repeatedly makes the cut on these stale recommendation lists that float around… Your 'pool of so many talented writers/artists in this fandom' is more of a damn puddle. You'll have to fucking forgive me for just wishing to be remembered (for one or the other) and included in these little "~fandom enrichment activities~" at this point once in a damn while! Why's it such a fucking crime to you, anon, that I just want people to remember I'm here too?

I spoke my feelings about things feeling like a popularity contest rather than a true community back in December, and you thought that warrants calling me a selfish, entitled bitch? Telling me do people a favor and not come back?

What the fuck??????

I think you're something of a rancid tar pit for hoping to kick someone while they were down, or whatever it was you intended by all that. Did you get the warm and fuzzies typing this out? Did you feel good about yourself for choosing to be malicious to someone going through a hard time? Someone admitted they were going through a hard time between Seasonal Affective Disorder, and being upset about a lot of trivial stuff, and you thought "Hey; let's pile on!" was the correct solution rather than offer any kindness where you had witnessed a lack of?

It would be so tempting to stoop to your level and wish you nothing but ill on top of telling you to do me a favor and fuck off; I'm going to encourage you to learn to have a little more compassion for people instead and be a better person than whatever you are now going forward. May you learn to be kinder to people in the future, anon… You make the world a far better place that way.

#bad anon no biscuit #lesson for next time is to just ghost the blog for a month since no one's going to notice or care I guess. only tell you to leave #that's only partial sarcasm #a couple of people showed they cared or said nice things before the holidays. and to that short list of people I just want to say thank you #otherwise my activity page was very quiet #and some other things happened that reinforced my decision to not really want to participate with this space for the time being #simple fact there's someone out there who's too comfortable with being nasty to people and telling you to fuck off... #fuck man!!!! it's been a long time since crying over some damn anon hate but this was too much for me #''help you figure out why'' no you're not being helpful you're actually just being a prick for no good reason! #im done im so fucking tired i don't want to look at this fucking ask anymore #i feel sick to my stomach right now fuck

[volostogekiss]

VOLO FANS THIS IS SERIOUS we are one step closer to getting more volo content (although not directly game canon) and it’s gonna be voiced to a degree... (sighs dreamily. can u imagine.)

i literally don’t care about anyone or anything in pokémon masters, i only play waiting for volo to be added and???

the latest hisui event hinted so much at his arrival, i cannot wait these next few months for his very much-assured appearance

im about to launch myself off my bed right now. but anyway

what should i write to commemorate the fact we’re one step closer to VOLO CONTENT?? any suggestions??

#BRUH the way i woke up from being tired and trying to sleep #at all the volo hints #he's showing up in the next few months maybe the PLA anniversary?? #feel like im losing my mind over this. #oh. also commemorating finishing week 1 of grad school i guess. secondary to all this tho. lmao. #mat chats

[nyxi-pixie]

THAT EPISODE WAS THE BEST SEROTONIN BOOST EVER FRFR

#been DYING at uni and now im giggling kicking my feet bc these loser gay people are alive and well #cant believe chuuya was in his actor extraordinaire era like slay i guess #THE STICK IN FANGS????? #im giggling a little #mori took him to a halloween store #CANON #anyway #win for soukoku AND shin soukoku (THE LIL BIT AT THE END WITH THEM WTF THEYRE SO ????) #and ayas alive #ugh bless asagiri for never actually killing characters hes so real #soukoku #theyre so dear to me i knew they wld be fine #bsd episode 61 #bsd spoilers #i guess we get to see all that again in manga form over the next few months WOOOOO #sorry to my non bsd followers if u see this hi

[pepprs]

im so fucking overstimulated rn LMFAOOOOO the semester starting is going to kill me for REAL!!!!

#purrs #everyone is super great but also like... god. we're keeping our office door open and its so loud outside. we have ZERO private space in the #office and the interns are going to work in here now so me and the other professional staff cant like..h have conversations bc there are th #things the interns cant / shouldnt / arent ready to hear or know abt yet. (<- the irony of ME of all ppl saying that and holding firm to it #💀 but whatever.) and tmi as fuck but i have anxiety abt using public restrooms and over the summer they were all empty and now there are #people EVERYWHERE and i have to go so bad i feel like im gonna **** but all of the single stall bathrooms are constantly occupied and i #woudl rather die than use one of the multi stall ones so i guess i will just have to decompose until i get home 💀. this is a NOIGHTMAAAARE #and ppl are walking past the door and can see me and i feel so uncomfortable like. i want to jump out of my skin. at least no one can see m #screen anymore but idk how i feel abt them seeing my face. cosmo wanda i wish i had a private office and a private bathroom so fucking bad #its actually unreal. and we are going to be like this for the next 9 months LOL HELP!!!!!

[possiblytracker]

got dragged to a pub quiz with some of my housemates buddies and was fully convinced i was not really gonna have a good time and itd probably be too loud and i wouldnt be much help etc etc etc bc my mood is still not great but i forgot im a competitive motherfucker when it comes down to it and the sheer rush of euphoria that comes from knowing a few more obscure answers that had the rest of the room hemming and hawing is gonna carry me through the next week probably

#when nobody else in the wetherspoons in rural wales knows what the capital of florida is or what you call a female swan #the big ass grin spreading across my face and sheer rush of Power listening to 2 people the next table over arguing over whether #its jacksonville or miami. you Fools. you absolute buffoons. i know more than you/j/j/j/j #i am so exhausted now and the 'yea this is Over you are enjoying urself too late' sadness is creeping back in but it was worth it #we came 3rd...... the prize was a whole pitcher of some cocktail for the group but i do not drink so i just went home to bed #a female swan is called a pen btw i knew that six month long job spouting swan facts at 8 year olds would come in handy someday #IDK i still have a lot to work through but i feel like i should make a slightly less depressing post today skdfjh;; #shoutout to my housemate for always somehow noticing when i have just not left my room in a day and coming to drag me out of it #i was so close to just not eating again (which tbf. i didnt. until like 6pm whoops) #but now i have done that AND touched grass AND socialised AND feel good abt myself a bit.. so..... #i worry a lot that people dont really. notice or care that much when im struggling/when they do that its annoying or a burden so #im very grateful to have people who care about me enough to try and pull me out of it. i hope wherever i end up after this #that i can surround myself with more people like that #man this feels pretty bittersweet to think about as well but in more of a cathartic kinda way. i guess #trying to think abt things slightly more positively so i dont turn into a festering black pit of bad vibes for the next few weeks #and my blog still inexplicably feels like the nicest place to sort through this kinda thing

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#guess who fucking fried 3 very fucking expensive machines today. me. i did #bc a fucking cabled decided to burn out and there was only one little symptom so i switched out the sensor head and inadvertently fried #another instrument. then when i was wait. hang on wtf happened here? and i was trouble shooting. i fried another one. so im down to one #machine. fucking holy christ. one mother fucking cable. a problem i cant fucking control and then i just fucking spred the problem #god dammit. which means i either have to do 20 additional days or we cut the number of reps to 7 or 8 #and because of this. ive Disrupted the plans of 4 different labs bc it takes at least 3 months for them to do calibration #ugh. i was so angry. whatever. its fine. these things happen in labs and u kinda just have to deal with it. i dont really feel bad on a #personal level bc ive been working with these things for like 4 years and if i mishandled the problem something was pretty fucked up #bc ive fixed a lot of fucking problems on those machines. bleh. and as im like simmering with rage my family is texting eachother like #yayyy vacation soon ☺️ #ugh. its just so frustrating bc i onlu had like 7 days left and i could have got thru all 10 reps. its gonna b maddening on one machine #ans ill have to do more when i fucking get back from vacation when i want it fucking done now but whatever ive bought #my fucking plane tickets and i leave in less than 2 weeks. plus ill get to spend at least one day at home #god im gonna be such a fucking bummer tho. im gonna get of the plane and my fam will b like how r u? and im gonna b like not fucking great #i am barely a functional person and im sure ill b so stressed abt thr fact i have to come back here that ill b on edge the whole time bc #thsts what happened over winter break. whatever. next weekend ill b fucking outta here for like 11 days #and just a few more months until i can leave for good. never walk into thst fucking building again. not that i have anything ready for thst #move. bc again. im barely a functional person #god. now i have to fucking ask for thr stupid bottom of the chamber for this last machine. i swear to christ if i have to fucking drive #down to [redacted] i fucking dont even kno #unrelated

[strawberrybabydog]

it's nice to see you back babydog!! slow blink. i hope you're managing alright these days -angelkitty

slow blinking at u

this morning my biocat made me follow him into the living room, sat away from my mom's christmas tree but was staring at it & then me. i was so confused what he wanted, but the only thing i could think to do was turn the lights on & as soon as i did he trotted behind the tree and started playing with me

he woke me up. to ask me to turn on the lights on the tree. he is so cute and smart i cant believe he did this LOL. i just thought u might want to know this :0]

#b4 u wake me up to make me follow YOU into the living room ...... iam also turning on the lights for u #asks #angelkitty #heavy stuff next >> just wanted the main post 2 be light hearted cuz i dont wanna focus it a lot :0] #truthfully i am the worst ive ever been #i relive my trauma worse and worse every day. been over a month now #for the first time in my life i have been able to come out of psychosis #but when im in it im also starting to accept my persecutory delusions as a positive truth instead of a very scary one #my brain downloaded some new mental illnesses about it so thats cool #yeah basically. i am doing terrible. i am not hanging on in more honesty #but eehee funny internet doggy is ok. truth but do not worry #because of this a lot of good things are happening to me too its just very rare that i can enjoy those moments #but i still have moments i guess

[nectarine-neuroticism]

nectarine-neuroticism’s succ session s4 bingo board

#havent seen s4e1 yet i have to wait until next weekend bc im busy >:( #but these are my thoughts #i also was actively writing a s4 predic fanfic over the past couple of months #some of these guesses pertain to that #i think logan is going to die and it is going to be a small death #a quiet one #he lived such a loud life #he might just slump over in a chair #or pass in his sleep #and no one will get to say goodbye to him #riley is runnin' da yap again #about succession.. :\ sorreyyy #succession #succession s4 #im excited and nervous #still cant believe they announced a month b4 the premiere that this would be THE LAST season #jesse armstrong is evil for that one #it has to end duh... but i was set on a s5 comfortably #he gave me whiplash

[the-fog-system]

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#i think i might have autistic rizzed a lil too close to the sun lmaoooo #not actually but i’m… a little over a month in and i’ve had to cut myself off from any more casual dating rn cause um #i woke up to like 8 paragraphs from guy 1 today (not unusual cause that how we talk lol) despite him having just landed in romania #cause he’s paying DAILY FOR CELL PHONE SERVICE THE ENTIRE TIME HES GONE #and all he can talk about is how excited he is to get back and go out w me again 😌 #and guy 2 god fucking damn it #cause now i’m having to REALLY think about this kids thing #i really fucking like him #lol like actually #we hung out for the first time and it turned into 10? hours i think and we talked and laughed the entire fucking time #(other than when he was absolutely WRECKING my shit 😌) #and that was yesterday i think and we’re hanging out again tomorrow cause he’s gonna have his kids all next week #and we both couldn’t wait that long to see each other again 🥲 #im taking him a fucking book of essays on the secret societies of the extreme upper class cause we’re both obsessed with sociology #fuck lol #i haven’t done something that gay in a while lol #i guess at least i’m REALLY fucking picky on dating sites cause i somehow found 2 men that i really actually like #but the intention was a hot boy summer lmao not sebastian remembers he’s really fucking gay summer 😅

[gardenerofstars]

literally why does leaving people that cause you literally so much harm hurt so much

#finally wrote back to [redacted] after a full month after he reached out and asked to reconnect and catch up #we havent talked in years #he says he is 52 months sober now #which is. impressive #thats like #over 4 years #but still like. aah #listening to his playlist on spotify rn #i said i wanted to reconnect but i literally shouldnt #he knows where i go to college and im scared he might come find me next year if we talk too much #he was always there for me. even if he wasnt ever what i needed or deserved to have to put up with #im so ashamed of him and the situation that i cant even talk about in therapy i dont know why im tyoing all of this in a tumblr post that m #friends can see #sometimes u gotta #idk let these things out. i guess #remember to delete this later #we talked a little bit today. he said hes impressed with me that i made it to college #he said hes proud of me #no one says they are proud of me #he sent me a picture of him before and after gettign sober. he looks like ten years younger #its kind of insane #he said hes studying the bible now. what the fuck #“Remember me when you're big n famous. Well. Remember the good parts of me” #<- actual quote from him #fuck this fuck this fuck this fuck this #i dont even know if there are any good parts #man who i love so much and who was the only one there for me but who i am so scared of #actually looking back at messages we have talked a little bit in the last few years i have just blocked it out or something #last time i got a message from him that i remember i started shaking in the dining hall and had to make a friend come get me #🦷

[thecherrygod]

... man i just remembered how last night i had a dream by the end of it there was a cat, and in it i said "oh she looks exactly like tigra!! are you also an attention seeking dumbass like her?" and it was so i may have actually dreamt about her

#my posts #my dreams #sorta i dont care about the rest of that one dream #..... i miss her she was the best creature ive ever met #like yeah i may be allergic to cats. yeah she did basically want to be constantly near or on top of me like a baby #which ended up with me struggling with allergy a lot. but she WAS my baby #... itd be her bday next month. and last month was the anniversary of her death. so im not really surprised #this happened once before and it was even sadder so its not the worst case scenario sdighds #but i miss her that little dumbass made it less than 3 months to be a 21 y-o cat #..... that. means shes been gone for 4 years now huh #man. #theres a cat nearby on a house that i pass when i take the bus for class and depending on the day when i come back home #her name is michy and shes a calico like she was but her face is more of the flat type and her eyes are dif color #but shes also an atention seeking dumbass and she is very sweet and always meows at me when i see her #she is making me both want a cat a lot again and also letting me live vicariously through someone elses pet siuhsug #...... idk what im doing im just rambling im trying to be a bit less sad i guess sghsiguhsg #im gonna watch some stupid videos and then im gonna return here to be bisexual over middle aged men maybe #i just had to get it out of me bc yeah i miss her a lot