#people only have so much patience

[brother-emperors]

CAIUS TREBONIUS AND MARK ANTONY, MARCH 15th

The Hetairia of Cassius, Luciano Canfora

Cic. Phil. 2

(taps mic) so as we all know, conspiracy is a kind of seduction, and actions not taken can be just as loud as the ones that are. so. uh. fellas! hey fellas. heyyyyyy.

like, I was looking at the Dolabella-Caesar-Antony mess yesterday, but something really fun and vicious happened here and I will be rotating it around in my head at maximum volume for the foreseeable future

the red panels are the Assassination of Julius Caesar by Vincenzo Camuccini (the pen and ink drawing, not the painting)

#gaius trebonius #like the last three times ive posted him. his look will probably change. but i have never once promised consistency on this blog #what's a consistent character design. you only achieve that when you get main character status in a comic #mark antony #drawing tag #komiks tag #roman republic tag #ides of march baby! #new tag for ides of march art. i'll retag everything later #also I’m going to kill dolabella myself. I love him. I want his head on cassius’ sword. #all these people are so MESSY good grief #also! two conspiracies: one from Cassius one from Trebonius. also sexy. much to think about #anyway test run for an idea. we will be revisiting this scene again #I have a better idea about how to do the red panels. what I don’t have is (checks notes) the patience mostly #I want to draw trebonius’ lip scar origin story #anyway they definitely got drunk and made out in a spectacularly sloppy kind of way at least once #beware! the ides of march!

[ahollowgrave]

11. Blood at the corner of your mouth.

It is not your blood at the edge of your mouth. Not your blood that your tongue swipes from the corner of your lips.  Not your blood whose coppery tastes lingers between your teeth. 

But he fucking deserved it.

Sister Kindness has you tucked under her arm as she, to use her words, books it. Something she must not do often because she huffs and puffs her way through the crowded Shaded Bower. And though some call out ‘Sister’ to her with warm recognition she does not stop ‘booking’ it. (Sister Kindness would have you know that she is perfectly in shape for a woman of her age. She was ‘huffing and puffing’ from the extra weight of carrying you, thank you very much.)

She slows when the westshore pier appears around the corner and then she steps off the main path and sets you down. Kneeling to be something more like eye-level, she pulls a Roegadyn-sized handkerchief from the depths of her habit. Wetting a corner with a flask pulled from a separate, equally confusing pocket she begins to clean the blood from your face.

Sister Kindness’ hand is firm where it grips your chin, holding as little of you as possible. For once the contact does not send you recoiling. Perhaps it is the way your rage has left you as quickly as it had flooded you, leaving you feeling drained of everything else as well. Now that the moment has passed you tremble and, to your horror, you can feel a well of tears rising to fill that empty space.

“Was a helluva bite, darling girl,” Sister Kindness’s voice is quiet as she tilts your head to the light, searching for any blood she may have missed. You focus on her creek colored eyes and swear you feel their waters lapping at your ankles. Her smile is sudden but woozy around the edges; she is just as shaken. "Reckon he'll have a scar, too. Bet he lies about who gave it to him." ‘He’ was an elezen man -- maybe a merchant but likely not, as Sister Kindness did not know him -- with a face as sharp as his ears and a smile that spoke of too much confidence. And you had hated him on sight. His crime was making Sister Kindness uncomfortable and his mistake was not being aware of his surroundings. 

It does not take much pressure to break skin. 

Pleased with her work, Sister Kindness rises and disappears the handkerchief away. Handing you the flask, she instructs you to take a sip, swirl it around your mouth, and spit it out. There is some confusion about what 'swirl' means but, eventually, she is satisfied with this too. “Well, we didn’t get what I came for but we’ll be headed home all the same. Come now, before the ferry leaves without us. We will, ah, not be telling the abbess about this.” You don’t know if she means the bite or the trip to the city. 

You don’t ask.

Thank you for the ask, Anon! ][ Sensory Prompts ][

#Answered #Pigeon Writing #Sister Kindness #Sister Patience #<- tags for odette/convent stuff as it's her nun name #i have just decided this #which means I will forget it thank you #but also thank you for the ask anon this one wrote itself more or less !! #posting this before i think too much about it #i am lowkey trying to stop writing only second person pov because I've had enough people casually tell me the hate it #(not my writing like specifically but just the pov in general) #(which is normal and fine !!! just sometimes disheartening like life is sometimes) #but the prompt used 'you' and gestures #but also sister kindness why do these merchants greet you warmly HUH!? #aren't you suppose to be living a secluded life of holy contemplation HUH SISTER KINDNESS??? #(i remove my hands from the keyboard so i stop editing the tags) #(brains are dumb why do we even HAVE these)

[teplejtrouba]

i have managed to actually do a hobby for the first time in months. yippee

#executive dysfunction and depression are kicking my ass #like severely. i am apathetic about everything and so so tired. things that brought me the most joy are no longer available to me #like. i love you so much you are so important to me but i no longer have the ability to care or do anything about it #things i love the most are behind a glass door that i can't unlock. or break. #sewing and embroidery especially are like. things i very much love and aspire to do but they are SO time and energy consuming #i don't have the patience #i stayed up till 4 am listening to lenka králová's interviews with trans people and it made me a little hopeful #currently transition doesn't really feel possible and i kind of just want to die so. hearing from others who made it was important #i also appreciated the comments #because a lot of them are from cis people. who didn't really know things about trans people but are learning thanks to lenkas channel #and after hearing a bit about our lifes their reaction is usually to applaud the strength we have. to be ourselves #and it's heartwarming to read. that there are people who learn. and can empathise in some way. that not everyone hates us #'you only have one life and no one else is going to live it for you. so you better be yourself' or something along that was in one of them #most of the comments under every video are just people saying how beautiful Lenka looks and yeah. true #i love her

[kingofthering]

☼ every rosquez podium » jerez 2014 [7/34]

1. Marc Marquez (Repsol Honda) 2. Valentino Rossi (Yamaha Factory) 3. Dani Pedrosa (Repsol Honda)

#motogp #marc marquez #valentino rossi #dani pedrosa #y: 2014 #moto: spain 2014 #my gifs #* #4693 #I must admit I'm bummed by the shadowban thing and I can only rely on people maybe seeing this on their dash or reblogging it for others #but it is what it is for now #don't have the patience to wait for tumblr to fix it before I start posting things again so #everyrosquezpodium #and this series doesn't require me to think much so it's nice to do while I watch netflix

[forcedhesitation]

...just heard about the upcoming perk changes...hmm...yeah. the only good one definitely is the adrenaline nerf. I've wanted them to take away healing off hook forever.

the other perk changes are ass.

ultimate weapon is still outrageously unfair, even if you take away the screaming! to me, it feels like they just saw the uptick in people using calm spirit following the addition of ultimate weapon, and decided "hm, the way to deal with this is to remove the screaming." no! this perks needs to be reworked differently! given a longer cooldown, something! it does way too much for just one perk!

DS buff isn't going to stop tunnelling. strong killers don't care if you stun them, and weaker survivors likely won't even have DS because it's licensed...waste of a buff. just as they should do with off the record, they need to spread out these important anti-tunnel strategies to general perks. it's so unfair that something this important be gated behind a DLC. and no one perk should ever be too strong!

also, I saw otz's commentary on the changes. I could not agree more that certain killers should be nerfed directly, rather than trying to just balance perks generally. not all killers interact with different perks the same... nurse, wesker, huntress, blight, etc do not care about a stun, even if it's increased in length. you need to change them & how their powers work in relation to stuns, so survivors have a chance to get away from them, rather than buffing the perk so that old man ghostface has an even worse time in this dogshit meta lmao.

#dbd #thoughts about media #I haven't been on twitter in a while. I'm sure survivor mains are crying real hard about the adren nerf. #as if it was fair that the perk would heal you off hook like that. again: one perk should never do THAT much. #like. steve has a perk that heals you off hook. but it does ONLY that and you have to heal another survivor FIRST. #that feels fair! it does one thing and there's a trade-off! and the heal isn't immediate. #it's 16 seconds and then you heal. and you have base kit BT for 10 seconds to get away from the killer. #tbh- a slight buff to second wind would have been better than a DS buff. like. idk. reduce it to 12 seconds to heal off hook? #but second wind is a licensed perk again. so they should rather focus on making some general perk that does something like this instead. #there are sooo many survivor perks that are total dogshit and do nothing. including MANY general perks. REWORK THOSE!!! #I can't imagine this DS buff going to be a problem for hux because he's kind of a way more fair version of nurse. #he's very mobile. he just requires a lot more patience and skill to play. #I haven't seen anything about his planned changes yet. I'm hoping so badly that it will be a slight buff. #and by that I mean PLEASE MAKE SOMA FAMILY PHOTO BASE KIT!!!!!! #or even partially base kit!!! he should NOT be so dependent on one add on. #making it fully base kit wouldn't even be a problem because that would not impact kill rates at all. #this total hottie is only played by myself and a total of 5 other people worldwide. #making soma family photo isn't going to change that LOL. #like...some people might TRY him if he gets buffed. but I assure you- it would take a miracle to make more hux mains.

[isfjmel-phleg]

😶

#random personal stuff #back on my soapbox feel free to ignore #I'm sorry - I know I harp on this a lot but #where did this 'just ask the Lord to remove that from you' (or something similar) approach to others' problems come from #and why is it so ingrained into multiple generations of women #instead of actually addressing a concern you raise you get told that #the solution to your problem is divinely-granted selective amnesia so it doesn't bother you anymore #or you get reminded that Jesus had it so much worse so any problem that you let yourself get down about is inconsequential by comparison #and I know the advice is well-meant but #...I mean when was the last time God wiped your memory on request? #when did Jesus ever make suffering a competition? #why are we more interested in sweeping others' bad feelings under the rug where we don't have to see them than in actually dealing with them #I open up about something that's troubling me and I get this kind of response and I feel dismissed! #and it's frustrating! especially from people whose struggles I try to be sympathetic toward when they talk about them #there's not a good solution but thank you for listening #I'm sorry I've been ranting but this visit puts me in a position where I can only speak my mind if it agrees with others #and I am an incorrigibly opinionated jerk and it all has to go somewhere #so I appreciate your patience with my lack of it

[casualhedonists]

DATING IS SO HARD WTF

#vent to follow in the tags lmao #like. what???? #people!!! chill the fuck out!! #i had some dude unmatch with me bc i didn’t respond to him YESTERDAY #and like it’s not that big of a deal we’d only just matched but like?? patience is a fucking virtue?? and i have a life? #he was all like come back :((( then two minutes later he was like ok sorry for bothering you bye and then LEFT #like. fine if you do that but the message?? what?? #anyway it came at a bad time bc. a bitch is already in crisis rn #cause i kinda feel like my irl friends hate me for some reason and i already feel bad that i’ve been so busy i’ve not been able to #talk to them that much #and i was supposed to go on a trip with my friend but that’s been postponed (not her fault or mine) #and my car still won’t start. we tried to jump it today and it didn’t do anything #anyway i’m like rapid cycling through major emotions and it’s like mimi chill the fuck out #and listening to way too much phoebe bridgers i know the end #also i’m in crisis bc i’ve made up with like. my oldest friend who used to have a crush on me and when i told him i preferred girls he like #stopped talking to me for a while #that was years ago and now we’re slowly becoming friends again but i feel so much guilt over it for no reason #and i get into avoidant episodes as a coping mechanism and like. i feel like im going into one atp #okay okay vent over im okay lmaoo #sorry folks hope your days going better than mine <3 #｡･:*˚:✧｡ mimi speaks!

[kennabeth]

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#like look obviously the narrative that ~wah no one loves fitz~ is stupid he is so very very loved by so many people #but hes taught himself that if theres a part of him others dont like or if someone can use him #then their love for him might as well not exist #and thats how most people love. it's not wrong. #he just thinks it is because hes used to being treated as an item by everyone who doesnt love him unconditionally #up to his adulthood the only person who did ever seem to love him unconditionally was patience #so he made sure to take away from her the opportunity to see something in him she'd find repulsive #--like the wit--because she didnt have the chance to fully know him #which sucks because patience is the best person in the whole series #if he'd like her know him she'd love him all the same #anyway where im going with this is after the accidental... skill coupling?? #and understanding for sure and for real there is no part of him that beloved does not know and does not love anyway #that despite his love of the world in general beloved is only continuing to use him as his catalyst because it's the only way fitz lives #(the fool weeping with makeup running down his face saying he doesnt want to be a prophet he wants this to end #but he cannot watch fitz die again had ME weeping) #ANYWAY that all scared fitz shitless #'it's too much. no one can give that much' is just. devastating to me for both of them #fitz because he still cannot see himself as worthy of being loved and not used #and beloved because all he does is get shit on for what fitz demands of him #I'm so tired #and fitz has yet to notice it was the fool making sure he had food/water/fire in the tower even when they were fighting #because unconditional is unconditional. not liking at that moment is not not loving #i hate it here #also fitz violently breaking the skill connection because 'he would know my secret. he would see my deception' is absolutely crazy #repression go brr #says kenna #kenna reads rote #ALSO when the coterie was healing him and he was begging beloved through skill to not look at his heart or his mind #what the hell!! #one flesh one end bitch!!

[venomgaia]

I know of a mutual acquaintance who can help with live2d if you ever decide you want to get in the game with a big model

listen to me

LISTEN TO ME

IF THAT MUTUAL AQUAINTANCE AINT ROGER D. CHEETO, I AIN'T HEARING YOU OUT.

#THE TONE SHOULD BE TAKEN IN A FRIENDLY MANNER HERE BTW #live2d is very scary for me but roger's model tbh is one of my favs ive seen n hes the ONLY person id feel comfortable learning from tbh #n i think no one talks enough about HOW MUCH work that already is. #when i was working on that pngtuber test i was losing my goddamned mind #i rlly respect the kind of dedication it takes to work in live2d because of all the tweaking that has to be done #i think it takes a patience and discipline i dont naturally have and so I really really look up to people who CAN do it yanno? #if i ever pick up live2d. id be rlly shy about it bc im super reclusive but id love to have him mentor me through it #for now though. i think my specialty lies in pngtuber territory. but i wont completely write off the idea of live2d anymore ngl #i MAY be willing to learn frm others eventually but i do think roger is who id wanna learn from

[ask-mrxmts]

//working on an Abt pin since i havent a clue on how to make links work on mobile

#//my ass is still w/o internet just want to keep up w yall cuz im lonelyyy lololo #//also uhh kinda have clars back story planned out #//not fully written cuz im too braindead to #//-to comprehensibly write it all out nor do i have the patience for it eother its bullet pointed and only has the tldr info in ordr?? #//plots been revamped so many times so much has been take out due to it not making sense to the real world tho all crp doesnt make sense #//so w/e??? blehhHh #//id post it but im so blehh i dont want to get grilled for how wack it isss #//like im soo lame cuz trenders a huge part of it and low key zalgo is the antag along side clars dad its a shitshow tbhhhhh #//like only 3 people tops know clars backstory kinda (i revamped it smwht??) like isnt clar being a cute himbo enoughhh 😤 #long tags #sorryy loololo l l #off but on topic need to draw clars mom being hot cuz this lovely lady bad asf #//like shes hot and she knows it

[allylikethecat]

loved the final chapter of the Xmas story. Prefect ending! Have a great week!

YAY!! Thank you so much!! I'm so happy you enjoyed the final chapter! I was worried people were going to be disappointed since it wasn't a big dramatic ending, but at the same time it felt very true to the characters that I had in my mind. I love this version of Fictional!Matty and Fictional!George so much and I am so grateful that people have taken the time to read their story and also engage with me here on the Tumblr! Thank you so much for your patience as well since it's April and I posted the last chapter of a Christmas fic today 😂 Thank you so much for the well wishes!! I hope your Tuesday was fantastic and that you have a wonderful week as well!

❤️Ally

#allylikethecat #ask ally #keep it kind #fanfiction #matty fic #gatty #fanfic #the christmas fic #It's Christmas #The infection fic verse #the infection verse fic #the infection verse #infection fic verse #infection verse fic #infection verse #thank you so much for reading #and for your patience #i am so grateful that people have not only read this fic #but engaged withe me on the interwebs about it #and also that you liked it! #thank you!

[yuyevon]

IF YOU LIVE IN A 3 STORY APARTMENT BUILDING WITH 1 WASHER AND 1 DRYER. YOU NEED TO BE ON TOP OF YOUR SHIT

#if you cant stay awake at night before youe laundry is done maybe dont do your laundry before bed #i get when thwrws a mistake here and there but i only have so much patience when every day #theres another person who left their laundry in both the washer and dryer overnight #like. please respect that like ~20 people live in this building give or take. you are not the only one here #i give a 15-30 minute cursory wait before i take your clothes out

[hesfromsomewhere]

tag ramble pt.1

#so much i feel like i want to say when a lot of this is just two different people who cant mesh and are hitting each other like confused #roomba. #on some level i wish i didnt respond or engage especially at the moment because what i said wasn’t particularly deep and only resulted in #hitting a wound that i already knew was there #i’d like to apologize for that much alone #that it is presumptuous and envasive to have strangers on the internet talk to you like that because yes it does very quickly cross to #feeling like being talked down to #these are people who are entirely self aware of the problems and of course i literally cannot enlighten them to it any further #they just dont care- they’re very tired of their life so far and do not have the time and energy and patience to talk to anyone else #like that. #the way they’ve chosen to fight is negatively. i cant dock someone for making a self conscious choice of how they’re going to behave #especially in the sense of standing up for yourself #i do get the feeling this doesnt serve someone in the long run #you are being spoken to in this way because you are reacting volatily to a random stranger on the internet #because of the way they hit a wound because of how you interpreted what they said #the idea that you’re standing up for yourself and you need to be mean so people dont talk to you in a way you dont like #like the block button isn’t infinitely better for that #to think this is a case of oohh lets all be sooo polite and pure and Correctly Speaking all the time or you’re just a widdle baby #is goofy #it IS reactive and it is volatile! i could have said this in a meaner way rather than politely #and maybe that would have been more easily received in this one case #but there was just acknowledgment of what was actually happening immediately right now in the moment #of course i dont know you and i dont know your life and thats not what this is about #but at the end of the day the question of if this works for you and genuinely serves you then i have absolutely nothing to say or add #that matters. if this is your honest self then everything else is null. you live in the way that serves you because thats literally all we #have #though i doubt that its fulfilling and honest at the end of the day i wont pretend this isnt someone just on one part of their journey #thats plenty farther along than others #and i really hope they are at or get to what serves them entirely

[akkpipitphattana]

i think kids should have way more of a say in custody battles btw

#like obvs if they literally can’t speak for themselves but even if they’re only like five or six they’re voice matters #and yes if there’s like definitive proof that the parent they choose is hurting them/an unfit parent that sucks #but kids are also so much smarter than people give them credit for #i’m so pissed off rn bc my brother is getting divorced and his ex is a manipulative bitch that has such control over him #she’s convinced him to go 50/50 with her having placement and it’s such BULLSHIT because shes an awful mother #she’s put hands on her kid before and she lives with her parents who are constantly yelling at him #not to mention she has two other kids shes fucked up and one doesn’t even talk to her #and my brother isn’t the best dad but he’s way better when she’s not around #and he also lives with us rn so the kid at least has me and my parents who care and have patience with him #and it’s just pissing me off bc everytime my nephew leaves here he throws a fit bc he doesn’t wanna fucking see his mom #and he’s just allowing her to make the fucking decisions. he’s not standing up for his kid at all #and it’s not like i don’t have sympathy for the fact that she’s clearly manipulating him but #BUT SHE HAD HIM ADMITTED LAST NIGHT AND THIS MORNING HES SINGING HER PRAISES #i’m just so pissed. i want better for my nephew #he deserves so much better than this #liz rambles

[caffeinatedopossum]

I feel like for my whole life I've been so patient and so forgiving and that has always been the only thing about me that was rewarded to the point that I genuinely don't know if it's okay to stop being that or to be less of that or to be impatient and frustrated and angry as well

#i dont want to stop being soft but i do want to stop being small #i want to forgive people who deserve it but i dont actually trust my own judgment enough to find out where i should and shouldnt forgive #and i want to be patient and helpful and kind but i only have so much effort to give and im so tired and there is so much that no one knows #how can i explain patiently when the explanation is that i am not? the explanation is that i am losing my patience #its hurting me that people dont know what they are asking questions about but they are asking so they deserve to know #but i dont know if my being tired and in pain is a good enough reason not to tell them. i cant punish people for not knowing #but then is it okay to burden myself for knowing? and to what extent can i be expected to be able to handle it?

[4arconinoma]

oh goddddd i need to essay about diamond is unbreakable so bad of all things that is the one idea i should really actually realize oh my god

#sooo much to say #i guess the only thing holding me back is the fact that i think people dont really have the patience to just read essays anymore #or maybe i should have more faith? i dont know. if anyone would read that #i mean i guess it shouldnt matter because if anything i should just make it for myself ? #but #ideally id make it into a video essay i'd love to make a video essay but i can't make those for quite a few reasons #i would have to stick with a written one #i really hope i can at least try some day though i have a lot to say. about this part. i have so much to say and so much to break down #it makes me think of so many things #it could at least be some sort of practice for me? i don't know #sigh #so much good about it. #jjba #txt