#please let me fucking rest already

[circulars-reasoning]

Hey.

You. Yes, you, the one who has me blocked.

Stop looking. If you see my name anywhere on the post, scroll past.

Stop vagueposting me. Stop spreading misinformation about me. You are succeeding in hurting me, and I am letting you know this, because I know you'll see it, because you always do. I'm scared to use my singlet main now because I'm terrified you'll somehow sus me out, and harass me on that blog too. I'm terrified you'll hunt me down and screenshot every single one of my posts there to dismantle and dissect to make me out to be a villain.

You have succeeded in making me suicidal again due to your constant comments about who I am as a person, and who I associate with, and the people I've come to know and call friends.

I am begging you. Please. Fucking. Stop. I am at my wits end. I have you blocked. You have me blocked. Let me go.

#syscourse #tw suicide #tw suicidal ideation #tw sui #please let me fucking rest already #i'm literally working with my therapist on not letting YOUR OPINION of me make me want to die #And it's a work in progress #And you are not helping #I am a pro-endo system who has been harassed on this platform until I've nearly killed myself due to both sides coming for my throat #Please let me have just one fucking break #That's all I'm ever going to say again on this topic #I have tried to cut you out of my life #I have tried to block your every ounce of being from my blog #I have blocked almost everyone I know who interacts with you so you do not come on my dash #So please. #Stop. #venting

[neuroticboyfriend]

IM SO TIRED OF BEING IN CONSTANT PAIN

#I JUST WANT TO BE COMFORTABLE PLEASE ILL DO ANYTHING #WHAT DO YOU FUCKING WANT UNIVERSE #PLEASE MAKE IT STOP #GIVE ME ONE RESTFUL PAIN FREE NIGHT #PLEASE #ILL TRADE YOU MY SANITY FOR A LIFE WITHOUT CHRONIC PAIN #please. please. #why does it have to hurt so much #all the time #forever #please #why #why me #havent i been through enough already #why is my life a never ending hell #what did i do to deserve this #why did you let me live i should have just died when i was born #i never should have been born at all #... #vent #julian rants #tw #idfk what tw for i dont #caps tw #death tw

[widevibratobitch]

so i am singing that vitellia in the end... but at what fucking cost.

'you gotta sing this softer'

'what'

'this is mozart'

'this is vitellia'

'this is mozart'

'im singing about how much i hate this mf and want him dead before the end of the day'

'this is mozart'

'i wanna murder a guy'

'this is mozart'

'...'

'softer. gentle. mozart'

'...ok'

#they're killing me here #i already bargained for ONE (1) note in chest (thank you so so much that i am ALLOWED to sing an A3 in chest voice <333) and now THIS #THIS is why people hate mozart. fuck you. #i recorded that rehearsal and the first version sounds SO MUCH BETTER. after i did what she asked me to do its just. so fucking boring. #i hate it here #i love this duet so much but frfr im not sure i wanna do it if i have to do it on their terms. #also like sorry to be a bitch but you're a pianist girl. just stick to your stuff and let me take care of mine. #just because you're playing this like you're constipated because tHiS iS mOzArT doesnt mean the rest of us dont care either. #its possible i never will get the chance to sing the entire vitellia so i want to do justice. as much as im able. to this one chance i get #it took me A Long While to deal with the fact that i wont be able to bark that 'indegno' and 'regno' like i always envisioned. #but like. ok. whatever. i can still make it Entertaining. THIS however. no. no fucking way. #and its not even about me being a big-headed know-it-all who thinks she's better than everyone because. lol and lmao clearly im Not #but this is about having a fucking SOUL. its about actually taking the libretto into consideration too. its about trying to figure out #WHY mozart wrote it the way he did. like sorry but this is another fiordiligi case where its CLEAR that the amplitudes the crazy jumps #are there FOR A REASON. the reason is HE WANTED A CONTRAST. some fucking EMOTION. he sure as hell didnt want it to be Soft And Gentle. #i know it because i talked to him and he told me im right about everything as always and you can eat shit girl bye #grrrrrrrr im so angry #i knos i sound so arrogant here but please. please i just want to make this music fun and enjoyable. i just dont want it to be boring #please understand my vision im begging you

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

i havent made any posts abt it but now that the big part is basically over ive gotta tell you im absolutely fucking fascinated with this whole submarine situation

#i have a lot of thoughts about it but i dont think tumblr is the right place for those right now. im thinking about it a fucking lot though #ah the hubris of man in the face of nature etc etc etc #maybe lets not take tourists into one of the most dangerous unpredictable environments on the fucking planet #especially in experimental non certified equipment #thats all ill say for now #can we pleaseeeee please fucking respect the ocean. can we please stop going to the titanic. #weve gotten what we need from it lets just. let those ppl rest #im having. thoughts. man idk. its insane to me this is literally like. a fucking horror movie #anyway i hope the markiplier iron lung movie doesnt get cancelled bc of this. i rlly wanna see that #also like. obviously the tragedy in the Mediterranean deserves more news and more care than 5 idiot billionaires but . #i am just a 20 something year old on the internet im not responsible for the media cycle #and im also a known avid horror enthusiast especially when it involves the ocean so. #im having a lot of thoughts about bullshit safety measures and the money spent on this fucking mess #and the fact that theyve been searching for days for ppl who were already dead two hours inot the trip. idk. #sorry i just needed an outlet for this bc my dad is insufferable to talk news with

[oasisofgalaxies]

Im so very normal about John halo

#every single time this man makes a joke (an amount I can count on my fingers) it floors me #and just . man #Spartans already make me emotional but FUCK man #he thinks of himself so much as a tool and a utility it just breaks my heart #he just keeps *going* #he doesn’t get to rest and it’s so unfair #I want to wrap him up in a warm blanket and physically fight anyone who gets within a twenty foot radius of him #LET THE MAN BREATHE #PLEASE #nebula rambles

[tasmanianstripes]

I've seen a few t//w//erfs being extremely bitter about the prospect of people getting hysterectomy and thinking it's somehow a feminist stance and it's so baffling to me

Like, how do they not realise that advocating against an adult getting a necessary surgery or making an educated decision about their body just because they'll might want to be mothers someday- oh, sorry, they're "destroying their feminine body" or whatever the fuck makes them sound JUST like the sexist doctors refusing treatment for people just because they view every afab person as a baby-making machine?

Like, we get it, you don't think women are capable of deciding what's best for them and what to do with their bodies, please shut the fuck up

And of course, let's not forget the hint of ableism with the ~fearmongering~ of, *gasp!!*, having to take hormonal supplements for the rest of your life. As if taking a pill a day is the worst fucking thing that could ever happen to a person and not something completely normal that a lot of people already have to do.

#thylacines can talk #being so violently transphobic that you circle right back into wildly sexist takes #please let adults do whatever the fuck they want with their bodies. stop policing afab people's bodies and treating them like baby makers #the fact that they'll use the 'youll have to medicate for the rest of your life' as a scare tactic is especially hilarious to me #when i saw it i legit laughed because. yeah i already will have to take meds everyday for the rest of my life. oh the horror #its literally just a pill please calm down #nobody tell them what the treatment for monopause is or they'll lose their shit

[iicraft505]

someone kill me, just straight up put me down. my annoying former coworker returned as a volunteer and he annoys me under the best of circumstances but. literally I just said that I don't do dishes that often (meaning not often enough for it to have fucked up my name tag), and he was like "I think it's weird that you would admit to not doing your job" like bitch that's not what I fucking said but okay. And then I was like well I do them sometimes when it's needed and he was like "um..." in that "no you don't way" and said "there were a ton of dishes in the sink when I got here" yeah because I was fucking taking care of birds all day, dipshit! I was feeding our incubator birds every 30 minutes, I did literally all of our outdoor dishes (there was a mountain when I got in today!), I helped catch two very full adult bird outdoor flight cages for weighing and release, I went to release some hatchling turtles, and did all the other miscellaneous cleaning tasks that pile up when feeding hummingbirds. Sorry I didn't have a spare second to do the fucking inside dishes!

#also no shot it was that full because tons of dishes are really only generated in the morning #and one of the other interns was literally doing those dishes when he walked in #because she had the free time to do that #also i literally did some indoor dishes today but okay i guess #oh i forgot to mention I also dealt with our feeder mealworms and crickets #and yeah maybe i dicked around a little bit when I had spare time but it's a 10 hour shift even when im running #non stop between tasks there's still occasionally a moment to sit and relax #also go off mister fucking stood around and talked for a long time with one of the other volunteers #slowing said other volunteer down which is saying something given she's already slow at doing things (meticulous) #and you know what that's the way it has to be sometimes! people aren't machines! #please god if youre real and love me let him have to work every single saturday for the rest of time or at least until january god bless #or do the early morning shift so i only have to deal with him for an hour #i swear i saw him walk in and i was like 'fuck' #iicraft505 #also him being there made me irritated so i was slightly rude to my grandma #when she first picked me up #but then i explained myself and was normal #but i mean holy fuck i feel on guard all the time when he's there #not in a 'harm to my person' way in a 'are you gonna say some shit about the way im doing this task and micromanage me' way #like i know i have micromanage-itis but at least im aware and try to leave well enough alone whenever possible #he's aware but doesn't seem to see it as the annoying as character trait that it is #also not that there's a non-condescending way to micromanage but he seems extra condescending #like also have some trust that other people can do things #for christ's sake bro like get normal

[m0e-ru]

just watched chaircar adventure. again. biggest smile on my face for seven minutes straight until my cheeks started hurting too much I had to stop and massage it physically. would say a million things about it. me when I'm full of love.

#kommento #// I love masamisan so much I need to kill tohruadachi right now. these statements can coexist btw #// flashes the rest of the vl duology in my head at 7x speed so I can feel everything else at once oh my godd whathe fuck giuys #// I hate gay people oh my god nobody should put me in that theater I would make ten thousand standing ovations and cheer raceously #// I love stageplay so much I started crying when I heard the music no joke man guy who cries to gay manzai skit #// this is the part where I watch it eleven times and nitpick the acting and breathing and character and actor chemistry and cry again #// I miss my gas station so much guys you don't understand <- still crhing #// I need to be a mangaka making promotional material for their manga while it gets adapted into anime and breathe keyart like #// everyday like my life depends on it.cafe collab in my head cmonguys wear the apron put on the fucking cat ears already LET'S GO LET'S GO #// I need to draw ambiguous ink art of people hugging and make every fan in the vicinity doubt the on-going currently releasing plot #// 'are they going to die. are they going to kiss.' I don't know either guys. put this in a daily account without context and a broken link #// you thought this was only about blorbo. im a fucking expert at MACRO thinking bro. #// now imagine if i was the english localization casting director. imagine if I was the merch supervisor. the REAL alternate universes #// I wish I loved media so much I could create with careless abandon again. I have been missing things for months when they're RIGHT THERE #// but they are so distant at the same time. someone hold my hand and watch chair car adventure with me in the same room please. one day.

[supercantaloupe]

christ they're running us ragged over here

#as i expected tbh. #then again it would be better if we Literally Ever stuck to the fucking schedule #but nah everything runs like an hour or two over #pushing meals late skipping snacks and shaving away what minimal free/rest time we're even given #and they pretty much expect everyone to use any and all unstructured time they get to practice #instead of. like. idk. RESTING #and i get up later/go to bed earlier than most too since i skip the morning/night prayer meetings #jesus christ they're gonna work these kids to death. i have no idea how they have the energy they do #i wanna talk about me #breakfast at 8. on our feet for like five straight hours. didn't get lunch til 3:30. #we're supposed to be changed and ready for rehearsal and concert at 4:30. #just let me rest already please...

[staryarn]

Crying allergies please let me go the fuck to sleep I have an appointment in the morning

#I ALREADY SWEPT MY ROOM AND CHANGED MY COVERS WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT ASSHOLE #I EVEN HAVE FUCKING MENTHOL SHIT NEAR ME #I TOOK ALLERGY MEDICINE EARLIER #PLEASE LET ME REST #＿|￣|○

[cidnangarlond]

happy pride month to whatever cid and nero have going on 💜

#to me personally. and this is because I think it's funny this is purely for laughs on my end #I think they're divorced (cid filed and nero never got over it) and cid is doing well and he's like no I'm an engineer I'm vibing #but nero shows up and the vibes go sideways and nero goes GARLOND MY OLD FRIEND and cid is just thinking DIE DIE MURDER DEATH VIOLENCE #nero is just like please :) please can we :)))) and cid is like FUCK no I hate you *spits on his shoes dramatically* and nero just has #to be all :') okay I'm fine. I'm doing fine and well and I am mentally stable and I will not be stealing cid's money later as payment #for having to deal with me. yes I'm an employee and jessie won't let cid fire me now that's what I call job security. and nero #is posting on fantasy facebook feel like pure shit just want him back xx and everyone is replying GIVE IT A REST ALREADY #he has cid blocked on fantasy socials except for once a week he unblocks him and asks if he wants to get back together and when cid says no #nero reblocks him. endless cycle. no one can do anything about it and this torments cid but nero loves it

[beepbeepinthecorner]

*Imagines a conversation that could happen between my dnd character and a different player character* Hoooly shit. Hoooooly shit. this is the good stuff. I gotta tell someone about this. This is what DnD is all about

I haven't played DnD in over 5 weeks btw

#it keeps getting cancelled #I'm going to freak the fuck out if this weeks session is cancelled too btw #I literally just joined this campaign and I am already 110% invested #i have gotten to play TWO SESSIONS. THE REST HAVE BEEN CANCELLED #DEAR GOD PLEASE LET ME PLAY PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE #dnd #dungeons and dragons

[snekdood]

ppl who only care about the aesthetics of things do kinda drive me crazy a bit

#i JUST want native wild flowers. ok? #idgaf if perennials dont bloom all year i dont care if theyre not always colorful i love green as a color too AND THATS NOT THE POINT OF #ME GETTING FLOWERS ANYWAYS! i want native flowers for the native pollinators and probably other native plants for birds n shit #but all i can find at plant places is stuff thats like. the same species but not native #its just so stupid its not sold as a default like they literally grow here. they literally THRIVE here #and it feels like everyone im talking to irl about flowers only cares about whatever looks good like plz cmon plz i beg of you #fellow humans please. oh my fuck. give a fuck about something soon bc the worst thing to be is the guy at the end of the world who knows #its ending but is smiling while its on fire bc you gave up hope and indulged in the things that are pleasing to you instead of just getting #th fucking native lobelia species jsdsdkds #like idk about you but i at least want my soul to fucking rest easy knowing i did the best i could instead of giving so much about #aesthetics that it overrides my ability to make a idk perhaps more moral decision. ik flowers arent the most pressing issue but native #species dying is. and if you're already getting flowers theres literally no reason not to just get the native version of whatever #sometimes its hard for me to want to just 'let people enjoy things' when enjoying things means putting your time/effort/energy/money/etc. #into shit you very easily could have picked something more ethical or better for the world w. #it just feels like everything is dying around me and i dont know how to stop it so i want to do my best to help whats dying where i am to #try to keep it alive and it just feels like other people around me dont have that as a priority at all and its infuriating. #i genuinely get pretty emotional when i think about native species dying and how everything in temperate climates is being overtaken by #european or japanese species instead. probably more but those are the two i see the most. when we have plenty of nagive species here #like the same thing just native but idk maybe it doesnt have enough eurocentric features 🤪 sjsjsksjsjsks

[slimeylee]

why have these last years fucking sucked ass

#slimey-vents #trigger warning below hi did you drink water today and eat something i hope u did ur so cool and amazing pls get some rest gives u a cookie #please scroll past if uninterested i also dont want u to feel obligated like u have to read n listen to me vent and ramble on abt dumb shit #like 2020 - 2024 . have just been ass . #we're not even halfway into 2024 and it already is just #garbage . like its fucking horrible #i dont see how this year could get . any worse ?? but i wouldnt want to get my hopes up on that itll get better ? #like god what has been happening . #covid came up technoblade got cancer and passed away israel's continuing their mass genocide #and a lot of things have happened in my personal life . such as my mother passing away . #and . its just been so fucking hard ?? #i wish i had lasting hope in humanity . but tbh i dont think its ever gonna get any better and that really fucks w me #ive been having suicidal thoughts and ive just been in a very shitty mental state recently #like social media #is honestly the only thing i have to live on #i have honestly boring friends n all my friends dont go to my school . my gf doesnt even go to my school #ive had to switch schools after having a fun time and doing a lot better . the only thing that im holding on by a thread to is social media #all my friends . my fandoms . etc . i talk to through my phone and through here #im so glad to have met everybody that i have on here #im sorry this is getting really long ive started going on a ramble but i just want everyone to know that i love yall /p #i appreciate everybody so much . all my moots and my close friends that ive made not only here but irl as well #and everybody that ive talked to throughout the time we've known each other . i really just want to think that everything will get better #everybody that ive met through my years of social media and school have really changed my life . and idk what i wouldve done #having never met any of them . especially my moots on here that ive grown close to #its just been stressful . but ive strived to get through it all . despite how hard it is #and how desperately i just want to let go from everything #but ending one thing doesnt end any pain it just gives it on to someone else #and i know that im way too pussy to end anything anyways . #but on another note . #please remember that you are amazing . talented . strong . and i appreciate and ily so much . /p

[multi-fandom-imagine]

ミ★: Lucifer Morningstar giving you oral.

A/n: I said it was gonna happen so here it is.

It wasn't Lucifer's fault that he fell for you, you were so sweet, so kind to Charlie that it just happened. He was over the moon knowing that you felt the same way, I mean it's not like he knew you were Adam's wife...ex as you would often correct him given that the angel was the one that sent you to hell.

Though it was how you told him that you never had a real orgasm, that Adam refused to even go down on you. He knew that he had to fix that, he was going to make you scream his name.

Hovering over you, Lucifer ran his tongue over his lips. You looked so good, so beautiful, from your soft curves, the way your skin glowed in the dim light, it was a vision that never failed to captivate him.

As Lucifer shifted his body on the bed, he let his fingers trace a path from your collarbone down to the gentle swell of your breasts. His touch was feather light, teasing as a small whimper escaped your lips.

A smirked formed on his lips, his forked tongue poking through his lips as he lowered himself to the edge of the bed. His eyes locking with yours, his voice low and filled with hunger.

"Spread your legs for me, my pretty little angel." His voice was laced with anticipation. "I want to taste you, make you scream my name."

He then delved between your thighs, his tongue eager to please you, his lips and tongue working in tandem to bring you to the heights of pleasure. He devoured you with a hunger, your gasp's and moans only fueling him.

Lucifer's forked tongue gliding across your clit, gently sucking the bud as your nails dug into the sheets.

He was smiling now, couldn't help but feel happy knowing that he was the one giving you pleasure. As he continued to tease and pleasure you, his fingers found his way to your entrance, slipping inside to further intensify the sensations. Lucifer continued to explore you with his mouth, his tongue tracing patterns over your sensitive flesh, his fingers thrusting rhythmically within you.

He relished in the sounds of your pleasure, the way your moans filled the room, spurring him on to push you further towards ecstasy.

He reveled in the taste of you, the way you quivered beneath your touch, your body trembling with each wave of pleasure that washed over you. He was going to commit these sound's to his memory.

And when you finally reached your climax, your body convulsing with pleasure, he held you tightly, his lips pressed against your trembling thighs as he rode out your release. Only when he was certain you had been thoroughly satisfied, Lucifer pulled away, a satisfied smirk gracing his lips.

He could still taste you and god did he already miss taste.

"My dearest" Lucifer's voice filled with adoration. "You are intoxicating as ever, I will make sure you will be treated how you deserved to be treated."

Leaning in, Lucifer nuzzled his nose into your neck. "Rest assured, I will alway's find you attractive. You are mine and I will make sure you are always satisfied."

Feeling warmth creep up your cheeks, you did your best avoid eye contact with Adam as Lucifer clutched you tightly to his chest.

"YOU FUCKED MY WIFE!"

A slow smirk formed on Lucifers lip's as he clutched you tightly to his chest. One hand moving to his lips as he made a v with his fingers. "We did a lot more than fuck."

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