#retroperspective

[hemerasmoon]

rétroperspective 2023

pas envie de faire un long discours cette année (genre c'est une remise de prix mdrrrr). longue année, année compliquée. beaucoup de changements, qui se sont ressentis sur le graphisme - j'ai TRÈS peu graphé, ça se voit aux faceclaims qui se répètent non ?

mais la flamme qui revient, l'inspiration, l'envie, et hâte de voir ce que 2024 me réserve. <3

#retroperspective #retroperspective 2023 #concept par gainsb0ro #talk #hemera #hemerasmoon

[avo-kat]

i was checking my drafts (for the irrational fear that there will be a bug that suddenly releases all your posts in draft; this has no basis on reality, so dont worry), and found this post from march 1st 2023.

its me working out that im definitely not trans:

dont mind me, im just sitting here and thinking out loud

me: oh im just a regular woman. not straight. but otherwise normal. thats all. :) [pre 2020]

me: hm actually. you know what? hmhm. something is up

me: no its fine. its time. i came out as lesbian to my friends! this is great. i love this. time to buy... lgbt merch. [around 2020]

me: what kind tho... hm.... somehow.... u know? normal rainbow stuff is fine, right?

me: hmmmm im not feeling so good actually??? [around 2021]

me: is that... u know what.... i think i may be.... non-binary? i thought this was only smth for kids but looking into it, huh, i guess so!

me: now i can wear more boy clothes. and walk a bit more masc. thats kinda fun. mens tank top. mens shorts. baseball cap. i feel awesome. hairy legs. hairy armpits. hell yeah!

me: but im just nb im not trans thats not being trans

me: i dont wanna intrude or take away or smth im just nb

me: im fine being the way i am no need to do hrt or anything really

me: and honestly, i dont wanna lose my identity as a queer woman!!! i love being a queer woman! well ok not a woman anymore but im still like, sapphic! that kinda thing!!! im deathly afraid of losing this part of my identity!

me: im super fine w my body and im fine staying this way and also being my agab at my job

me: besides im so cute now and id deffo look ugly as a guy

me: i dont even like guys that much so like come on

me: that one guy is giving me such gender envy. thats just 1 exception tho [around 2022]

me: i prefer he/they but im fine with all pronouns :)

me: i like it when ppl use male words for me. just makes me feel good. nothing else :)

me: (i have no dysphoria cuz im nb im not trans)

me: its cool im fine

me: hmmmmmmmmm

me: mhmhm eeeh

me: im not feeling so great again thats so weird....??? [late 2022/early 2023]

me: mhmhmhmhmh

me: oh look im growing facial hair

me: guess ill shave. thats annoying. kinda cool but annoying

me: oh wow i gotta shave more often huh thats so annoying

me: hm hair is growing more... actually... feels nice touching my hairy face kinda

me: oh well i gotta shave for work, so

me: ach. why does that feel unpleasant?

me: oh well. heh, if i were a man (im not tho), some things would be kinda fun!

me: if i were a guy. that would be fun. like. purely hypothetical, yknow?

me: like if i suddenly got the superpower to change my appearance. that would be sooo cool. just cuz.

me: wouldnt that be fun. it would. it would be so fun.

me: not trans tho

me: def not trans. i feel shaky and queasy just thinking of it. im not

me: just nb. im fine. im fine staying like this. like. im. im fine.

me: like sure im not like super comf

me: thats on me deciding not to be more gnc in public. yeah. it would be such a hassle

me: yeah. what if tho lol. can u imagine. god, telling my boss? no way man that wouldnt fly

me: and id be so ugly. im cute right now. and im not strong. or build. and im too fat. if i were to be a man id wanna be, like, hot, yknow? strong and sharp jawline. if i were to be guy. im not. i wouldnt. im not trans lol

me: lemme write this fanfic real quick. just smth self-indulgent. what if i woke up in the body of the main character of this shounen anime lol. id be a boy lol. like. id be a man. mans body lol. that be fun lol. and what if i managed to fall in love with that male character. wed be so gay together. haha. two guys. such a funny idea

me: .....................

me: like what if i got top surgery.

me: like, sure. a year ago i was scared of losing my boobs. like if i had breast cancer and had to remove them. id look so off. my body would look wrong. boobs are an important visual element.

me: but what if i got top surgery. like. i hate bras. i dont like them being touched much either honestly so i wouldnt really lose anything? it would be more comfy for me day to day. and while sleeping. so, honestly, only upsides?

me: ...what would i need, theoretically. hm. half a year of therapy? oh. yeah. no. im not trans. so. yeah.

me: ....................

me: like, what name would i even pick. idk. well doesnt matter. im not trans.

[new addition, july 2023] me: im trans :D

#help i think fanfics made me trans #not trans tho #<the previous tags lmao #definitely trans tho #i guess i didnt post it back then because it felt a bit too dangerous and then i forgot about it #a retroperspective of my self-identity

[nc571023]

POV: you are still a Trauma Team Medic, but your sister is asking you to wash the dirt off and wear proper clothes for once when meeting her at Mistys - you simply have to obey I guess (of course she gifted those clothes to you- hence you look like a corpo).

I think in retroperspective he is pretty happy since he might have fallen for a certain someone and really wanted to leave a... clean and good smelling... first impression... 🤍 I already love him freaking much. And excuse my weakness - I couldn't resist to pair him with Oda. The 15 year old Visual Kei girl in me screamed when she saw him the first time. One might think I am too old for something like that, but I guess it never truely leaves you. I need to find an OTP name now :P

#cyberpunk2077 #gamephotography #cyberpunk2077game #cyberpunk2077photomode #thephotomode #v #vgpnetwork #nightcity #OC: Ismaël Alcide Durand #sandayu oda #oda #my little silver wolf #trauma team medic #part time wanna be corpo? #at least for his sister and his new found crush ^^ #he is nearing 50 by the way

[magicalhumanbeing]

~Can you feel, who you are?~

In every cell of your body and beyond that, do you feel yourself?

Everything you sense is real and sometimes that is hard to bear. You can't stop the truth from being real. Seeing the truth is just as hurtful to our senses, as the "Illusion" we were living in. To truly feel that disconnect to our truth AGAIN takes a lot of courage and trust in yourself. To know that you will NOT lose yourself AGAIN, that's your hope and that's why you're brave. To know AGAIN that your power lies within your ability to FEEL and KNOW the truth. The truth does not need you to be "perfect" and certainly not in a "spiritual" way. It's enough to be yourself, and you're part of the truth, even if you dont know it.

Maybe it's a bit confusing how I word it, but I hope you can see behind these words and feel what I felt as I was writing them. I know in a short time I will be able to express this more... accurately, I guess.

My whole life has circled around the question of who I am, in retroperspective. And now that I finally get to see it clearly AGAIN, I'm a little overwhelmed about what I was "missing out". But I guess it's time to let old times go and invite something new, something that I've been dreaming of for so so long, and now I know that it's the truth and always has been the truth. My deepest wish was truth.

What's your deepest wish?

I love you and see you, truly. ✨🔥🦋

#wahrheit #truth #liebe #love #transformation #wishes and dreams #wünsche und träume

[its-my-whump]

Whumptober 11

No. 11: “All the lights going dark and my hope’s destroyed.”

Captivity

Hummingbird 11

(Story starts here, if you like) previous

...

Sam was in and out of it for the next days, maybe weeks. At some points his mind resurfaced enough, that he was sure, that Grey was constantly drugging him, turning him into a string puppet.

Despite his hazy mind, he could feel his body getting stronger, healthier again. His ribs didn't ache so bad anymore. Exhaustion was slowly faiding. He couldn't really recall how, but Grey got him back on his feet.

Pictures, sounds, smells, sensations visited him for brief moments and were gone again, like fragments when you're really really drunk. He felt kind of drunk, but better. There was a soothing calmness inside of him. Grey redressed his wound, help him eat and drink and made him walk. And he help him clean up.

Apparently Sam almost really came back to himself and the thick fog in his mind was clearing, when he was stripped to his undies and set into a bathtube of warm sweet smelling liquid.

The thought alone should have been scaring him shitless, but it was okay. The person in front of him was Grey, but he was blurry, far away. Actually everything was foggy and pictures vanished too fast. He wasn't really part of this story, he just woke up to.

The foreign hands helped, were gentle, wouldn't touch indecently. He kind of felt like a child, the frightful adenture of the last days, weeks? forgotten.

Grey had removed the dressing from his burned skin just above his heart, revealing the scar tissue underneath. (*1) The wound where Sam had been touched with the cattle prod 3 times, was healing good. Part of the bruise on his left arm was shining brightly violett by now, but the edges were slowly turning green. 'Maybe it hadn't been weeks?' Fingertips touched the edges of his old scar, that was appearing underneather the burns and to the right, very gently, carefully avoiding the freshly agitated skin in the middle. Nevertheless Sam flinched in a knee-jerk reaction. His mind was really resurfacing.

In his usual soft tone, Grey asked him about that scar and how he got it.

Despite his condition, Sam replied with the answer, he had programmed himself to give for years. This chapter of his life had been closed a long time ago and he had thrown away the key. "Go-ot mugged a-fter ssschool." It was kind of a half-truth. His words were slurred, his tongue heavy.

The firm slap came out of nowhere. In retroperspective, it was the only real clear moment of these days of stupor.

"DON'T!" Thundered through the tilted room.

Despite the warm water he was sitting in, a cold shiver ran down Sam's spin. His cheek was stinging from the moment the big hand had left it again. Evil, dark eyes starring at him. He hadn't been able to point out that face in a crowd right now, but he would never forget those eyes.

Grey's voice was calm again only a second later. But that one bluffed command from before, betrayed the gentleness in the following statement.

"Don't... ever lie to my, hummingbird."

Sam had pressed his hand against his stinging cheek. He was stunned, but even more so a flash of fear ran through him.

Nevertheless, his drug-flushed system predominated that feeling once again only heartbeats later. He let the man pull his own hand away from his face to brush over the hot cheek with a wet washcloth. Sam was lulled into the false comfort of the moment, the dulcet voice pushing him deeper into compliance without Sam ever noticing.

"Let's try again, hummingbird."

Sam's mind was floating, he was lost in those gentil eyes, soothed by the sound of that voice. 'He hadn't felt this save in years. He was like that father he never had.'

'Still, something was off.' A spark of doubt enflamed in the corner of his mind, but he hushed it instantly. 'Should he really tell this man? How did he know, it was a lie anyway?'

This, this intimite safe moment, was just too good, to be true, he would cheerish it, as long as possible. The realisation, that the drugs were messing with his insticts, escaped him.

"Stepfather." Tumbled from his tongue. Sam couldn't have stopped it, even if he had wanted to.

A sad look, genuan sympathy in those eyes, Grey was really interested in him as a person, at least Sam's mind was longing for it to be true.

Foreign fingertips brushed over the scar above his heart again. Sam didn't flinch this time. A hand raffled his hair comforting. "What did he do to you?"

A little of his self-preserving senses had resurfaced and Sam hesitantly shook his head. "C-can't!"

The facial expression on his counterpart was understanding, a slight nod. "You can tell me anything, little hummingbird." Single tears had started to overflow Sam's lids. His head shook more eagerly now. "Bad-d timsss. Waaant to go ho-oome now."

The hand had disappeared from his chest and put itself around his jaw, comforting. A thumb brushed away the tears on one side of his face, while the other hand was leaving his tuft until both cupped his face.

"Don't be afraid. I'll make sure, no one ELSE ever hurts you again. If you tell me, I'll bring you home."

Sam was completely lost and too out of it, to recognise the little, but very essential peeks in his counterparts voice. Feelings of angst and despair from his past were fighting against the soothing and broadly shown comfort and the promist safety of home. "Promise?"

His subconscious was screaming at him, that something wasn't right, but he let himself fall for it anyway.

"I promise, MY little hummingbird."

If he hadn't been so out of it, he may have recognised, that Grey never asked him about the long scar on his arm, where he had broken it or the one on his leg. (*2) Never asked about the unnatural hole above his kidney or mentioned the still visible reminder of whipmarks on his back. (*3)

Grey picked this particular scar above his heart to ask about for a reason. The psychological reason to finally break his precious little mess. So in the end he could be the one to pick up the delicate hummingbird sitting between the scattered remains of his broken soul. And it seemed to be working.

Sam's lips parted, but it cost him a moment to articulate the words.

"H..hee said, he had to carve the fear of god into me." Sam hold the man's look, his expression had suddenly changed from desperate into angry. But his face cupped by Grey's gentil hands let his fascade crumble fast. More tears streaming.

And then he told him ... everything. How in his past all the lights had gone dark and his hope was destroyed for good. How, he was pressed to the ground by that evil man, not only overpowered physically, but emotionally. How his biological mother abandant him in his most vulnarble moment of his still young life. How he made it through days of pain and agony. Always feeling alone in this cruel world. How he needed to be hospitaltized and almost faltered from a septic shock. How he was admitted into the fangs of social services and how it never ever got better for him.

Sam hadn't been this emotional in years. Probably, he hadn't opened his gates this far ever. The drugs were messing him up completely. And the part of being a captive, constantly drugged; on top of it all, him almost dying, twice, did the rest, turning him overly emotional.

At first there were only silent tears, an occacional whimper, until he settled for heartbraking desperate sobs. The big warm hands never leaving him.

At some point everything got lost in a haze and the last thing he could vaguely remember was being pulled into an embrace.

TBC

Hummingbird masterlist

@whumptober-archive

How Sam got those scars (*1) (*2) (*3)

and who he actually is

#whumptober2023 #no.11 #lyric #captivity #OC #confusion tw #drugged tw #emotional breakdown tw #hummingbird #whump #writing #whump writing #whumpblr #writblr #creepy whumper #caretaking #whumptober

[langernameohnebedeutung]

You hear Marvel is releasing an animated series about the Xmen next year? Where Mags is the leader of the Xmen?

I saw some posts about it earlier when I was snooping around the tags, yes! :) Tbh, I haven't had time to looked deeper into it - for example, I didn't know when it would come out - but I do like the idea and they apparently do bring back one of my favourite of Mags' outfits, which is nice.

I'm not exactly vibing with the animation style (if that's what they're going? Maybe the promo looks different from the actual product)(though, animated shows are always a bit difficult for me, I admit) and I'm a bit apprehensive about Disney tackling Magneto - especially because I haven't watched Multiverse of Madness or Ms Marvel and I don't know how they're handling mutants and the x-men that except for what happened to Charles Xavier in that film - so I'm not sure if that ties into that show? Or is it not connected at all?

Though, I do think it is interesting to do a show where Magneto starts of siding with the x-men and then (I assume?) his relationship with them as their enemy is explored in retroperspective over the course of show. That could be interesting. I'm definitely going to check it out, but I think I'm going to be very quick to reject any canon I don't like lol (As I always am)

[veilingofthesun]

My musical theatre packed autumn is not going quite as planned. It started out well with Everybody's talking about Jamie, Änglagård, Moulin Rouge and The One. Then it turned around. I had the flue in october when we were going to see Wicked (we have rebooked for april next year) and today we were supposed to see Waitress. When we got to Linköping we got a text saying that todays performance was cancelled. (Luckily we have tickets for december since we'll be in Linköping for a concert and we thought we might as well see Waitress while we're there. It's a good thing in retroperspective) These things happen and luckily we'll still be able to see these productions, but it's still a bit disappointing.... It's been a rough couple of months and I was really looking forward to seeing both shows.

#personal

[thesecretoflivereactions]

List of Animes to watch in the future:

Card Captor Sakura (only the second half of the Clear Card Arc is missing + the first Anime I might never watch XD)

Ranma 1/2

Fruits Basket (Yes, I have never seen that one before... shame on me, I know.)

My happy marriage

Devils Line (I've seen this one before, but I feel like it deserves a live reaction)

Isekai Harem Uncut (I have no idea how it ended up in my Anime-List but I might as well watch it now XD)

Bibliophile Princess

Your Lie in April (someone spoiled that it won't have a happy ending and now I am afraid to watch this Anime ^^')

Sweet Bit Marks (one Episodes is like 10 minutes long, so that should be over with fats eventually XD)

Wolf Girl and Black Prince

Wotakoi: Love is hard for Otaku

The Irregular at Magic High School (I've seen most of it before and decided it was worth it... although that is for once a show were I haven't fallen for the Incest-Ship ^^')

The reason why Raeliana Ended up at the Dukes Mansion

Horimiya [Piece]

Sacrifical Princess (once again, we will handle that now)

Darling in the FranXX (I've partly watched that Anime before and decided to eventually give it a second chance...)

Tonikawa (I have not watched the second season yet, but the first one is worth a rewatch. Its so wholesome.)

Im the Villainess, so I am taming the final boss

Spy X Family (no I have still not watched it yet. Yes, another one were I should be ashamed of myself)

Nadia - The Nautilus story (I've watched the secret of Blue water so often, I think the version cutted down to mostly the Nautilus parts will be like going to heave for me XD)

Nier Automata (I have watched like 7 Episodes already, but not the full Anime)

Yamada-kun to lv999

Sugar Apple Fairytale (I've watched some Episodes from the first season and decided to give it another chance now that season 2 is out)

Wedding Peach (old but gold - seriously, in retroperspective it is not that good, but I might as well watch it...)

Phantom Thief Jeanne (yes, also an old one)

The first the Villianess Anime (Yes, another one I should have watched already ^^')

There are actually still more... but you will see them when the time comes. And some... I maybe never have the strength to rewatch (looking at you Digimon Adventure and Digimon 02 as well as Tri and Kizuna, which I never watched at all) or who are simoly to long to do a full rewatch. (I want to have Dragonball Z as well, as it was an important part of my youth, but I do not think I will watch ALL the freaking Episodes ^^')

#My list of future Animes to watch

[fictionstuff]

Status: played through in less than 15 hours, guide used but was mostly tricked by trico’s (insanely slow) ai

Points: 3.75/5 [3,84375]

I still remember having started the game shortly after it’s release and it seemed kinda cryptic, but the most disappointing feature was probably, that this cat-dog-bird companion never seemed to react and I eventually stopped playing, because I couldn’t advance in the future. Having heard that one of my most lovely friends did like the game, I picked it up on stream once again and voíla it was a good experience with a massive, massive portion of frustration for how not smooth the gameplay can be, if you have to rely on an unresponsive ai in the disguise of our very cute dog-cat-bird companion named Trico.

Nonetheless I have to say that the story and visuals are truly stunning and in retroperspective upgraded the game immensely and let me forget about the frustration I felt while running through the main plot line. No wonder the team needed 6 whole years to make the game look as stunning and deliver a well written storyline. Perhaps the AI improvement would have been a quality of life improvement, too, but onto my review anyway.

Artwork/Design - 4.5/5

TLG’s graphics are truly stunning. It's already a pleasure to just run around and stare at the environment and backgrounds. The textures look nice and while the ruins can be a bit repetitive, once you’re on top everything looks spectacular. Even Trico’s design is absolutely amazing. I doubt anyone could not fall in love with his dark sparkling eyes! Even his feathers appear to be absolutely realistic and it’s easy to notice how much love was put into presenting an eye-catching game. There is perhaps not much variety environment or character design wise, but everything that was created for this game remains drop dead gorgeous and realistic.

Framerate ain’t always the smoothest thing, especially when you’re on top of Trico, but that could hardly stop me from venturing onwards.

Story/Gameplay - 3.75/5

I did have my ideas about how the story would play out and that perhaps there’s neither right nor wrong in this world, but the deliverance and execution of the main plot line was great. As cryptic as it started out, the story started to piece itself together the higher you went up the tower and although the end could have been foreseen, it certainly didn’t take away the excitement of finally resolving the mystery of the ruins.

The picks up slowly, mysteriously, as a young boy is seemingly thrown into some sort of prison among ruins. Only later on, you will get to know what truly happened to the kid and why he ended up in the tower. In the cave he finds a furry large creature, a mix of cat, dog and bird. It is severely wounded and chained. Through offerings of barrels that glow in the dark rather suspiciously, he gains power and eventually you help him out of his chains. Now while this seems cute, there is not even much of a hint telling you what you’re supposed to and it takes some time to get used to such a mysterious gameplay.

In between if you just stood rooted in one place, thinking of what to do, clues would come up via a voice in the boy’s head, reminding you that this story is not taking place in the boy’s present, but in his past. The entire plot is merely a memory and the boy is showing us what wondrous things happened to him.

While making you’re making you way up the tower through quite a few puzzles, that aren’t always easy to solve, the boy and Trico grow ever closer together, until a certain point where the boy can give Trico commands and the gameplay relies more on Trico’s AI, rather than just puzzles you can solve as the boy. Now if the AI was any… more responsive it wouldn’t have made me plug out my hair bit by bit. The forging of bonds is a truly heartwarming experience, especially so when the boy gives him food or even destroys signs Trico is for some reason insanely scared of, but it does not diminish the frustration you feel climbing up towers when all Trico does is either stare at you or even go back just because the command was not 100% correct.

I had to find several guides on how I could make Trico move and even more often did I ask myself if there was anything I missed, like solving a puzzle, just because Trico didn’t move the way he should have. This really severely got on my nerves and something that could have been enjoyed easily turned into a nightmare.

Another small thing I have to mention is the wonky gameplay moments where you’re controlling the boy. Climbing onto and down Trico is always a little difficult, taking way too much time, especially so when you for some reason end up under his head or butt. Jumping becomes incredibly annoying, when your timing is not 96% on spot. Falling does not mean you have to start miles away, but if you always fall at the same spot just because your timing was not spectacular, then it gets a little… disturbing, especially so since the story is so interesting and you’re dying to know the truth. Nonetheless I gotta say that the gameplay of the boy is befitting, since he’s just a small weak child. Hence there also is no combat system. I guess it might have been interesting to see him pick up a spear, but as soon as soldiers come, which somehow want to stop you from advancing, you have to rely on Trico to punch them away.

Despite my frustrations, very obviously on stream, TLG tells you a very mysterious, unique dark twisted story that has many heartwarming sweet moments and also a bittersweet ending. Thank you for actually making my weak heart cry.

Enjoyment -3/5

#game review #review

[theshamsandherzahraat]

#creating content #since im on a roll with (lol) im just going to post this shot i took on the bridge #that day was so insightful and took me to places...... #and then to have a view like this on the way home #i dont know #im so soft for ordinary life that feels wonderous at the same time #this is just one example out of many lol #photography #bridge #sunset #highway #unfocused camera #headlights #cars #aesthetics #sunset aesthetics #bridge view #aesthetic view #retroperspective #forest trail

[gainsb0ro]

# RETRO-PER-SPECTIVE

Je n’ai pas retrouvé mes plus vieux avatars, mais j’dois dire que mon évolution (en moins d’un an) me surprend moi-même ! xD Honnêtement, je ne pensais pas avoir évolué tant que ça. J’suis plutôt contente du résultat car je vois une réelle différence entre mes débuts et aujourd’hui ! =) 

J’espère évoluer davantage et sortir des sentiers battus ! Mon objectif pour 2021 est de (peut-être) faire moins d’avatars et me concentrer vraiment plus sur la qualité de ces derniers. Et pourquoi pas faire plus de tutos pour aider celleux qui le souhaitent ? En plus de ça, j’aimerais vraiment pouvoir créer mes propres textures et brushs. Et pourquoi pas les mettre en libre-service plus tard ? En tout cas, une chose est sûre : je ne compte pas m’arrêter là ! ♥

#retroperspective #avatars 200x320 #avatars 400x640 #grapshime #rpg #rpg ressources #gainsboro. #evolution #retrospective #perspectives

[hemerasmoon]

rétroperspective 2022

qui dit 31 décmbre, dit qu'il l'heure pour la rétroperspective de l'année ! un exercice que je prends plaisir à faire depuis qu'il a été lancé en 2020, surtout que je connais vraiment des hauts et bas avec le graphisme (comme tout le monde je pense).

milieu de l'année, je n'arrivais plus à avoir goût dans ce que je faisais, j'ai eu une grosse période de manque de confiance en moi et au final, j'ai réussi à en sortir. retrouver le plaisir de grapher, ça a été le plus important et, surtout, arrêter de me mettre la pression !

en cette fin d'année, je suis fière de ce que j'ai pu sortir cette année, j'ai commencé à m'amuser avec de nouvelles techniques et j'ai envie de continuer dans cette voie.

bon réveillon et bonne année à tou.tes ! <3

#retroperspective #retroperspective 2022 #concept par gainsb0ro #talk

[visenya-den]

J’ai enfin décidé de faire une retroperspective concernant mes avatars. Je l’avais fait pour les headers, mais pas les avatars pour la simple et bonne raison que je n’aime pas les avatars, je n’aime pas particulièrement les faire parce que je considère qu’ils sont trop simples, pas assez travaillés, en gros, pas digne d’intérêt. Mais il en faut pour tous les goûts.

C’est intéressant de voir le parcours que j’ai effectué, les phases par lesquelles je suis passée (notamment une phase un peu sombre en 2018 et vite arrêtée), un trou total en 2017 (pourquoi??? #poissonrouge). Ce que je remarque c’est que j’aime les couleurs, j’aime quand ça vibre xD 

Les avatars et moi ne sommes pas amis mais je m’efforce d’en faire justement parce que ce n’est pas ce que je préfère, et que je souhaite m’améliorer. Je sens (et je vois) que petit à petit ça vient parce que j’aime de plus en plus ce que je fais. 

Je tiens aussi à dire que j’ai perdu absolument tous mes colorings d’avatar au fur et à mesure, que ça m’embête royalement à chaque fois et que c’est aussi pour ça que les avatars et moi.. c’est pas l’amour fou. J’ai notamment perdu mon coloring de 2018 que j’adorais (fichier endommagé rip). Alors enregistrez vos PSDS, partout, envoyez les vous en mail ou je sais pas mais perso c’est ce que je fais maintenant. 

(en vrai j’ai triché j’ai trouvé des avatars encore plus moches que ceux de 2011 mais j’arrive pas à les dater donc je ne les ai pas mis héhé).

#retroperspective #avatars

[blip-in-time]

Merci à @gainsb0ro pour l’initiative, c’est très cool :)

J’ai malheureusement perdu de très nombreux avatars datant de mes débuts puisque l’hébergeur d’images que j’utilisais pour ces dernières ne fonctionne plus mais vu mes débuts, ce n’est sans doutes pas plus mal. Si je compare ce que j’ai pu faire à mes débuts et ce que je fais maintenant, je suis quand même contente de moi : j’essaye de plus travailler mes avatars, de varier le cadrage, les colorings... Bref, je tente des trucs mais je suis bien consciente que mon évolution en graphisme n’est clairement pas ouf xd

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bonjour; bonsoir, j'espère que vous allez bien? alors après moulte réflexion, je me suis lancé dans le challenge de @gainsb0ro j'ai fouillé un peu, mais sans plus. je ne retrouve pas mes avatars (si on peut appeller les immondices que je sors/sortais) avant mai/juin 2018. mais en soit, je crois qu'on ne rate rien, parce que je rajoutais juste un colo fade par-dessus. voilà, voilà. uhuh. en soit, je pense avoir évolué? en tout cas, entre 2018 et 2019 oui. après, j'ai stagné. sans plus. je me suis perdu dans le monde irl. celle-ci étant plus occupée à me foutre des mandales, j'ai laissé photoshop de côté. encore aujourd'hui d'ailleurs, j'ai rien foutu entre 2019 et 2020 uhuh. manque de motivation, plein de doute. et j'en profite pour rebondir sur le post de @ethereal-rpg sur l’estime de soi (juste ici). je me suis perdu parmi les créateurs.rices.x. devant leurs talents et leurs évolutions. et le fait que je me demandais si j’apportais vraiment quelque chose. et encore là, en tapant ces quelques mots, je me demande même si j’ai le droit de répondre à ce challenge. si je peux y participer. je me tracasse pour rien. je me pose trop de question. pourquoi? je ne sais pas. je suis comme ça, je suppose. pour 2021, j'ai quelques projets en tête. est-ce qu'ils vont aboutir? peut-être. je suis pour le moment motivé. à voir. puis essayer d'évoluer dans le graphisme. tenter de nouvelle chose. je ne sais pas. je ne sais plus. grrr, tais-toi charlie. shhh. bon j'abandonne. je suis pas bon pour les discours non plus. uhuh bonne journée / soirée / fêtes.

lachesis.

#source:gainsboro. #retroperspective #evolution #graphisme #avatar #lachesis. #avatar 200*320 #avatar 400*640

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Je m’ennuyais donc je fais le jeu de @gainsb0ro (quoi ? c’est pas un jeu ??) En haut, quelques-uns de mes avatars préférés de quand j’ai commencé à grapher en 2017. J’utilisais bcpppp de gifs, je savais pas positionner les textes (bon en l’occurence le young forever est bg somehow, ca se voit que j’ai mis les avatars qui passaient), mon colo se voyait pas toujours de ouf, je te calquais les textures n’importe comment, y avait aucune prise de position au niveau des cadrages ?? genre juste je mettais limite la photo entière. En bas, cinq de mes avatars favoris actuels (dont 2 que j’ai pas encore postés jcrois ??????) je pense que je maitrise + les textes un peu (bon j’utilise bcp les mêmes parce que je suis une flemmarde mais bref), les textures pareil. J’ai enfin apprit à cadrer les trucs comme je les aimais (c’est à dire en giga gros plan MDR) Et j’aime bien mon colo.  Vous pouvez laisser vos commentaires/avis constructifs ou pas si vous voulez, et vos conseils aussi, kiss kiss !

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