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Words and Woes.

It had been a while since we'd had chance for a proper catch up. Of course, we see eachother most suns, if not every sun, but sometimes my duties cut the time i would have spent otherwise, short. But, this sun would be a longer one. She would visit me at my home, and over tea and pastries, we would finally put a start to writing her vows... ...I'd best not make it too flowery.

Sayuri Aoki once again finds her wandering the now familiar path, having memorised the way to Bexy's home quite well by now. Her hands linger in front of her, her right hand's fingers slowly spinning the ring upon her left as she walks, lost in her own thoughts. Her gaze only lifts when the house comes into her view, releasing her ring in favour of reaching for the door once it's in reach. She passes the threshold in the same step she pushes the door open, and closes it behind her as soon as she's far enough inside.

Bexy Amalaryssia turns her head as soon as Sayuri sets a hand on the door, offering a warm smile to the fellow Seeker. "And here is the future Mrs Fellfrost." Bexy beams. In hand, a tray of all kinds of things; mostly finger-foods and a pot of tea which gently steamed into the air. "I hope you have more ideas for vows than the last time we spoke, mm?"

Sayuri Aoki offers a weak smile in return. ".. That makes two of us."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "Surely you have -something- from your travels, yes? Was it nice, at least, going all over Eorzea? We've barely had time to talk about it properly since you returned, aside from the things you've told me here and there." Bexy tilts her head, considering quietly. "Downstairs? We can sit on the ledge, with the pillows. All the better for gossiping." She grins.

Sayuri Aoki's head sinks into a gentle nod, some steps bringing her further into the house. "It was, there was some nice sights in between, and several of the mark's own places were quite the thing to see.." She smiled faintly, nodding. "Lets."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "I remember my own travels… It's been so long since i explored proper." Bexy takes the tray, to make her way through the house and to the pillows, where she carefully sets the tray down and takes a seat with a sigh of relief. "And no trouble? You never mentioned any."

...There's so many places i'd like to go, now. Further into the East, perhaps? Or to Thavnair. Even Sharlayan has it's appeal...

Sayuri Aoki rather swiftly drops into the pillows as they reach the spot, sinking into them with a soft exhale. ".. None. Thanalan was the only worry, but.. You watching over us was quite the relief to have."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "You know i didn't mind one bit. I plan to go out hunting for them, tomorrow. I haven't forgotten." Bexy offers a reassuring smile, pouring two cups of rolanberry tea. "So. Vows. Any ideas?"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. Be careful, if you run into that.. bloody bastard again.." She offers a small frown, hands shifting into her lap to let her right hand seek out her left, slowly beginning to spin the ring anew. She offers a small exhale, rocking herself back and forth once. Her head turns aside, a small, embarrassed pout taking to her lips. ".. Some vague ones.." She mumbles.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "I will. I can slip through the aether if need be, or gun him down with arrows if he gets too close. Bastard." Bexy sips her tea with a small hum, leaving the cup aside as she plucks up a small notepad and quill. "Vague ones are better than nothing at all. What have you got?"

Sayuri Aoki leaned over to pick up her cup, sinking back into the pillows afterwards. ".. A fairly simple declaration that I am his, to start with.." She mumbles, idly dragging her finger along the side of the cup. "..To be his strength during rougher suns and through nightmares that plague him, like he is mine through my own.." Her ears flicker, the tiniest red tint creeping onto her cheeks.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…Vague, she says! That's good…" Bexy scribbles something down onto the paper with enthusiasm. "…You are his. That's… Quite the declaration, coming from you…"

To think he ever held such... Possessiveness. Unless it's her idea...? The thought of her being owned by anyone bristles me.

Sayuri Aoki: ".. We've said it to each other before, it's.. nothing new, but.. more official in a wedding vow, I suppose..?" She huffs, taking a sip from her cup. ".. The first time he refered to me as his I did not feel the same way I did when.. it's been said before, and we had a small talk about it.. " She pauses. ".. It did not feel like he was trying claim that he -owns- me, just.. that he loves me."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "Much more official in a vow, yes. It is a promise, Sayuri. A whole series of them." Idly, she pens a few things, here and there. "…For you to feel different about it says much. You are his… Not because he feels like he owns you, i assume. But because… You want to be. What else would you want, for him?" Bexy asks, curiously. "…Protection?"

Sayuri Aoki nods gently. ".. I've heard that from three others in my life, and each was immediately rejected in my head. Only when Eir said it.. did it feel right." She pauses, ears lowering a touch. ".. Of course I want him to be safe, I want to be the one that keeps him safe.. But.." She releases her cup with one hand, lightly gesturing outwards with it and letting her palm face upwards. ".. I don't feel like I'm particularly capable in doing so, right now.."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…You are. Your ice is powerful, but it is not the only part of you. Not what kept you alive in those halls, nor what killed people. Your own determination was the cause for that, the ice simply just… Helped." Slowly, she dips her head. "…You can promise protection, but not safety. No one is ever truly safe from everything, unless you plan to lock him up in his room and never let him leave."

Sayuri Aoki: "… Knowing Vairg might swoop down upon him during a performance, maybe I should.." She half-grumbles, ears pinning back.

No. She wouldn't let that happen. We wouldn't. If he goes to dance, we will go to watch. ...I'm curious to watch him in a performance, anyway.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…You have told him, yes? About… What happened?"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. Yes." She frowned. ".. When I got back, and he calmed me down a little.." Her expression grows more saddened, then. ".. He's so utterly terrified of him."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…That bastard almost killed him. Who could blame him? It's… As you said. He isn't like us. We have both almost died more times than we'd care to mention, and frightening though it might be, it's happened so often that it's simply just… Another time to add to the list. For him, though…"

...I don't even want to think how close to death we've both been. It comes with the job, i suppose. We're used to it. We chose this life, even if we didn't choose every circumstance that lead to the danger we have to face. ...Eir didn't.

Sayuri Aoki pauses, her grasp of the cup tightening slightly as her head lowered, gaze locking at the floor. ".. He broke Eir's legs." She spoke quietly. ".. I heard it all." The memory causes her aether to stir, the steam of the tea becoming less and less in response to Sayuri's cold, while her eyes pinch shut. "..I.. tried to tear the door down.."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "He…" Bexy stares, gazing to the tray before her. It's a long moment until she speaks again. "…I can't even imagine what you heard. As though almost killing him wasn't bad enough…"

...I could imagine how that might sound in my head. The sound of breaking bones and screaming and... Gods. At least there's a mercy in death, in that you know it will be over soon. Broken bones are a whole different thing entirely. No bleeding. No risk of dying, no. Even if they heal, there's no telling it will heal properly. A potential lifetime of agony.

Sayuri Aoki's eyes slowly peel open, settling on the tea in her cup. ".. They had already.. done something to my aether, at that point.. It hurt, but.. not enough to keep me from using my ice.. I split the door enough to shove my arm through it with my axe, and I was.. so close to touching him.. Then Vairg pulled him away.." She frowns.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…Every sun we speak of it, i learn more and more. More about the compound. More about Vairg. Meeting him in Ul'dah was… Something. Even Vex tells me to be wary of him, and even knowing all he has done… It's difficult. He's just a man. Blood and bone like the rest of them. And yet, i know i should be more cautious."

Sayuri Aoki: ".. I can't judge my own fight with him all too well, considering.. I was quite weakened at that point.. But if Vex, who knows the general ability of their members, warns about him.. I'd listen."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…I plan to. But i'll shoot him if i get a chance." Her lips curl a little wider, but soon soften. "…You can promise him protection. That he never need face his horrors alone. I would never expect anyone to keep me safe, but… To know it wasn't just me, would mean much."

Sayuri Aoki: ".. Make sure it hurts, if he is to survive it." She mutters, lowering her cup of half-frozen tea to the floor, taking a deeper breath in some attempt to calm herself. Her head sinks into a nod at Bexy's words, even if a small frown remains on her lips.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "Oh, it will. I… Wouldn't mean to deprive you of a vengeful kill, but you would rest better if he was dead." Bexy sips her tea, and upon eyeing Sayuri's, gives a small frown. "…Protection. And that… You are his. To be his strength, as he is your own. These are good promises to make, i think… Have you any other thoughts?"

It's a good start. I just need to think how to word it properly...

Sayuri Aoki: ".. That he will always have a home, somewhere to return to.. That we will endure, no matter the hardships we face.." She mumbles, tilting her head a touch as she finds a loose thread upon her shirt, tugging at it. ".. Although the last is something I spoke of during our pilgrimage, so.. maybe it shouldn't be repeated.." She offers a small shrug.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "You tell him you love him. You repeat that plenty, i assume. Does that make it any less important or true?" Bexy raises a prying brow, then.

Sayuri Aoki: "… I do.. And.. no, it doesn't.."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "There you have it, then. I… Think that's a nice thing. To have that reassurance. Or… At least, it would be for me." Plucking up a pastry, Bexy sinks her teeth into it. "…I wonder what he will say, when the time comes…?"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. I'm unsure." She pauses. "..But if he calls me his moon in public I might just sink through the floor."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…Oh? -That's- what he calls you?" Bexy teases with half a tart in her teeth. "My moooon…" Bexy laughs, grinning. "And what do you call him?"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. Well, yes! Why do you think I have a moon necklace?" She manages a laugh, cheeks swiftly turning red as she pokes her tongue out Bexy's way. ".. My heart." She mumbles, quietly.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…Gods, you're adorable, the both of you." She grins, a little too widely. "…I did see from a distance. In Thanalan. He is so… Different, with you."

I watched from afar. The kisses, the embraces. The two of them practically swooning over eachother, even in the ominous locale of Thanalan. ...I am glad no danger came to them, that sun.

Sayuri Aoki pouts softly, only to smile afterwards. ".. He is. I know he's.. not the easiest to speak with, he was the same when we started talking." She tilts her head, huffing. ".. He's very sweet, and incredibly loving."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…I never saw it back then. Perhaps why i was so defensive…" Bexy finishes the pastry, and picks a rolanberry from the top of a cupcake. "I think… That is what you needed…"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. To be fair, with the way the one before him simply up and left? I don't blame you." She pauses. ".. It is. He has helped me to.. accept that loving someone is okay, even if I am.. still terrible with the public affection bit." She mumbles. "..I'm working on it."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "Well, you'll have to work on it a whole lot faster for the wedding. You'll kiss before every pair of eyes there. It won't be official, otherwise." Bexy teases, smirking. "…I am glad you're happy with him, Sayuri. Moreso now i know him better. He speaks of you with only a smile.

Sayuri Aoki: ".. I won't have to do anything if he kisses me the same way he threatened to do in public after performances to ward off anyone interested!" She laughs, flashing the tiniest of grins. ".. I am, he makes me very happy."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "Hah, dare i even ask?" Bexy flashes a grin, brow lofted. "…I'm so glad. You deserve happiness, Sayuri. How to start such vows, though…" Bexy taps the notebook with the tip of her quill. "…How would you have described yourself, before you and he met?"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. Leaned back to the point I barely stood on my own and only he and my arms kept me from falling." She snickered, pausing. ".. Other than 'miserable'?"

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…Well, i was going to open the little speech with it. It's… What i did? Not that you need to do the same…"

Sayuri Aoki settles her hands in her lap, her right hand creeping closer to the left's ring finger. ".. Feeling incredibly alone because everyone I came here with up and left without a word. While having proven to be a good thing.. it wasn't, at the time. I was miserable, struggling with my sleep as.. I am very poor with being alone for prolonged periods." She pauses, pulling her shoulders into a small shrug. ".. Not sure how much I'd like to air that to everyone, however.."

...I didn't mind wearing my heart on my sleeve for all to see. People knew me before, knew the woman i was before i married Laurent. They knew having him in my life would only ever be for the better. ...That's not to say she'd like others to know the same thing, though...

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…We can leave it at… You felt alone." A few things are written, and crossed, but the notion of it brings a frown to Bexy's lips. "…You need never worry about being alone again, Sayuri. If not just for Eir, then for me. You… Know this, yes?"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. I know." She offers a small smile. "At the time, I just.. kept my quiet, mostly. I didn't want to be a bother. I know now that I wouldn't have been, and no matter what happens I will have you and Eir at my side, at the very least."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "At the very, very least." Bexy hums, offering a warm smile. "…I did not meet Eir in an easy time of my life…" Bexy murmurs, flipping the page as she looked up to Sayuri; the same words written on paper. "…Too dramatic?"

Sayuri Aoki's lips tug into a thin line. ".. I can't say I recall such a thing as an easy time in my life at all." She grimaces faintly. "..But, no. That's.. okay."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…Just okay. But not… Good. Suppose we shouldn't focus too much on the bad, but…Hm." The sound of the pen arcing through the written words is given with a sigh. "…How else to start…"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. Honestly, you're better at this than I am. If you think it's good, and not -overly- flowery, it probably is."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "I want -you- to enjoy what you're saying, at least! I mean only to start in such a way so people can see how happy you are now. Not everyone knew you before Eir, i think…"

Sayuri Aoki: "… Which might be for the better." She grimaces faintly. ".. And it's not that I don't enjoy it, I'm just.." Her hands awkwardly flop to the side, shoulders dragging into a shrug. "… I don't know what I'm doing."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "You're making a set of very flowery but honest promises." Bexy taps the edge of the quill to the parchment again, considering. "…You'll be standing at the altar in a dress, and he'll be wearing something just as fancy, i can imagine. Every pair of eyes will be on you. It's not as though you've experienced it before, hm?"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. No pressure, huh?" She gave an almost pained smile. ".. Can't say I've ever held that much attention for good reasons before.."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "Well, now it will be for only the best reasons." Her painted lips pull to a smile, and she writes again. "…I stand here before you on the happiest sun of my life, second only to the one where you asked me to marry you…?" Again, a glance from the corner of her gaze…

Sayuri Aoki offers a slow blink, a bright red tint swiftly overtaking her features once the words have been processed. Her body sways slowly from side to side, before her head reels back and she takes a deep breath. "…Yes." She mumbles. ".. -Technically-.. He never -asked- me to marry him.. He did say he wanted me to, though."

...Well, it's a start, and she doesn't hate it. We're getting somewhere.

...Not too flowery, i hope...

Bexy Amalaryssia: "Details…" Bexy murmurs, penning a few more words. "We can change the wording, but the idea is the same. How to follow that, hm? It feels almost impatient to roll straight into vows, but at the risk of making it too flowery… What would you say?"

Sayuri Aoki draws a deeper breath, sinking herself against the pillow in the smallest attempt to sink through the surface. ".. Tell him that he makes me happy, brings me comfort.. and has just.. made a positive impact on my life.." She half-mumbles.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "You have brought me comfort beyond measure, joy beyond knowing, and my life is better for having you in it." Again, Bexy casts a side-glance towards Sayuri.

Sayuri Aoki pouts, the red tint on her cheeks worsening just a touch. One hand raises to cover her face, while the other raises to give a thumbs-up.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "Sayuri. You're going to be so red in the face you'll match your undergarments, at that rate. You're allowed to be loved up, you're getting -married-, for Twelve's sake!"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. Blue ones on the wedding night!" She retorts, keeping her face hidden behind her hand.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "---And red ones on the honeymoon." She smirks, head inclined. "You'll still have to read -something- out!"

Sayuri Aoki: ".. I -will-!"

And here i was thinking Eir is the one supposedly bad with words! Goodness, what kind of ceremony will i see? Will they simply stand at the altar and stare at eachother? Will the vows even be loud enough for me to hear...? ...I want to hear them... I like weddings...

Bexy Amalaryssia: "You had best! Suppose now is a good time to recite the vows? Not too long, not too short. Repeat them again to me? I wasn't sure if you had a preferred order…"

Sayuri Aoki: "..I-.." She shoves herself up to sit upright, exhaling. ".. I want the declaration at the end, that's.. the only thing I'm certain of." She pauses. "..A promise to be his strength, as he is mine.. That I will try to protect him.." She automatically reaches to fidget with her ring as she utters the latter part.

Bexy Amalaryssia: "…I promise to be your strength, as you are mine. That I will protect you to the best of my ability. That always, you will have a home with me. But above all things, i am yours, because i want to be; as much as you are mine." Another quizzical glance is given from Bexy, pausing for her reply.

Sayuri Aoki pouts faintly, spinning her ring slowly. "..Something like that."

Bexy Amalaryssia: "Feel free to tweak the wording, hm? But a least we have something of a plan, now. We can refine it to you exact liking, if you like." Humming, her head slowly tilts.

Sayuri Aoki offers a small smile, head sinking into a nod. ".. Who knows, maybe I'll come up with something more?" She snickers faintly.

...We'd come up with something befitting a wedding, for certain. Sometimes things are difficult to put into words, with so much emotion and meaning behind them... ...But not impossible.

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