-Visiting Gale
It's been one week.
One week since Sam wore her father's ghostface costume.
One week since Tara had to see two other friends dying at their hands.
One week since Gale almost die.
Tara knows that the relationship between Gale and Sam is complicated, but she also knows how much her sister looks up to her.
It's almost like she's the mother figure that sam has never had.
And if Tara has to be honest, she also sees Gale that way.
Sam has been miserable ever since Gale ended up at the hospital. Unless it's to go to work, She barely goes out of her room, barely talks to anyone and barely eats.
Of course, Tara won't let her sister's self-destructive mechanism win.
Sam is stubborn, but Tara is on another level of stubbornness.
"Okay you need to stop, get out of the bed"
"No, leave me alone" sam said, covering herself with the covers.
'25, but she acts like a child', tara thinks.
Tara, being the sweet little sister she is, pushed sam out of her bed, and that ended up with Sam falling on her back on the floor.
"TARA! Did you forget i'm still injured?" Yes, actually. Tara was so focused on pursuing her mission to get Sam out of bed that she did forget her sister got stabbed.
Well, it's too late now.
"Not my fault. I tried to ask you nicely but you didn't listen" Tara said with a smug smile on her face. She then added "Go take a shower and get dressed, we're going somewhere"
Sam, of course, did not listen to her and decided that the bed was a much better option than what Tara proposed.
Why did Tara even think that it was going to be easy to convince her?
"SAM! will you just get the fuck out of this bed?" Now Tara was gettin impatient.
"i'm older than you, and i can do whatever i want"
Oh.
Okay. Sam wants to play the big sister card? Let's play it then.
Sam thought she won. Tara finally stopped trying.
But Sam should know better than that.
Tara Carpenter doesn't give up easily.
It's been 30 minutes since Tara left her room without saying anything. Has she gone too far? Has Tara really gotten offended by her words?
Sam was about to get out of bed and check on Tara, when she heard HER voice.
"Get out of this bed c'mon"
No. She did not call her.
"I know you heard me."
Oh no, she did.
Kirby Reed was standing at Sam's door with that little shit smirking next to her.
"You said you wouldn't follow my orders because i'm not old enough, so i called someone that is old enough to help me out" Tara said in a proud and devilish tone.
Yeah, Tara was right. Her plan worked. Sam took a shower and got dressed, and with kirby's help, she was even able to convince her to eat something.
But now there's the actual real hard part.
"So where are we going?" Sam asked curiously.
Tara and Kirby kept glancing at each other without saying a word.
"Hello? Are you two still here? Where are we going?" But after not getting an answer again, Sam lost her *already* non-existent patience. "If you don't tell me, i'm going back to my room, and it won't be that easy to get me out of -"
"We're going to see Gale" Tara decided to admit.
"Absolutely not" Sam ran into her room again and slammed the door.
Mh. That went better than she expected.
"I'm going to talk to her" Kirby said, already heading to Sam's room, but Tara stopped her.
She had to be the one dealing with it. It's her sister.
"Sam? I just want to talk, i promise that if you really don't want to, we don't have to go" Tara tried to be as convincing as possible.
A few minutes pass before a distraught Sam opens the door and falls into Tara's arms, sobbing.
Oh... something must be really wrong with her, Tara knows her sister. She doesn't act like this. The only time she saw Sam being an emotional wreck was when Gale was attac- Wait.
Tara was starting to connect the dots.
"You don't- you don't think that Gale getting hurt is your fault do you?"
"Yes, i do, because- because IT IS my fault. Why would she even want to see me? I'm the one who put her in a hospital bed." Sam cried even harder, feeling completely unable to calm down.
Tara didn't say anything.
Her original plan was to NOT force Sam into going to see Gale.
But Tara knows that Sam will never believe her words unless she sees it with her own eyes.
And that's why she drags Sam out of her room and into Kirby's car.
The car ride to the hospital was hell for both Tara and Kirby, Sam hasn't stopped complaining for one second. She's acting like an actual child throwing tantrums.
Oh, Tara is so going to tease her for it when she feels better.
They finally arrive at the hospital.
Tara ends up literally having to push Sam into Gale's room. She knew that it would've been hard but not THIS hard.
There's a moment of silence between them. No one dares to speak. They're just all staring at each other.
The peaceful silence is broken when Tara and Kirby start laughing unstoppably at Sam's inaudible "Hi Gale." Of course, they were aware that Sam was going to kick their asses the moment they stepped one foot out of this room.
But at least it was worth it.
"What happened to you? Did i break the big bad Samantha Carpenter?" Gale said, surprising everyone.
Tara, for the first time in days, saw Sam genuinely smiling.
It's been another week from the day Sam finally visited Gale at the hospital, and they've been inseparable ever since.
You might think it's a positive thing.
But no.
For Tara, it isn't.
Everyday. Every single day. Sam refuses to leave Gale's hospital room when visiting hours end.
And Tara, every single day, has to forcefully drag Sam out of the room.
It's not always bad. Sometimes, Sam is more collaborative than other days, but today is not one of them.
"Sam, please, for the love of god, we need to go, or they'll call the cops... again."
"No. Who even decides visiting hours? I can visit Gale whenever i want."
"Yeah, that's not how it works"
"And i couldn't care-"
"I am demanding you to get the hell out of my room and listen to your sister." Gale interrupts the sister's daily fight.
"But-" Sam saw the look Gale gave her and decided it was better to shut her mouth and stop giving Tara a hard time. "Okay, but promise me you will call me if you need anything"
"Yes Sam. Now go"
"And remember to stay hydrated"
"Yes"
"And get some sleep"
"I will, if you finally let me rest"
"And text me when you wake up"
"I will get up from this bed and kick you out myself if you don't disappear in the next 5 seconds."
Alright, it's time for sam to actually leave the room this time.
Mh Tara is being too quiet, Sam thought.
Weird- oh.
Maybe she should really try to make this easier for her.
Tara was asleep on a chair outside of Gale's room.
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Had a convo with a somewhat friend recently about Everything Everywhere All at Once (EEAO), aka the best movie, and they told me that “anyone can put philosophy over anything if you try hard enough” when we disagreed about the message of the film.
Please!!! No!!! Also spoilers under the cut.
The movie very deliberately referenced Albert Camus’ Myth of Sisyphus in its themes.
Sisyphus is a Greek king who is cursed with rolling a boulder up a hill for all eternity, only for the boulder to roll back down once it nears the top (also the he tried to live forever by trapping Death and getting Persephone to let him out to do his funeral rites…Sisyphus was a bad guy). The point of his punishment is that trying to escape Death is ultimately futile.
Camus takes this conceit and uses it as a metaphor for life as well — life is also, ultimately, futile. We get up everyday to roll the rock up the hill, but it always rolls back down. There’s no divine purpose to the rock rolling except to emphasize how meaningless it all is. Life, similarly, has no purpose (since Camus came after the existentialists).
Why, then, do we bother? Why don’t we all just lay down and die? Camus offers the following: we must imagine Sisyphus happy. If Sisyphus finds happiness in the act of rolling the rock, it ceases to be a punishment. Similarly, we must find happiness in the act of living. Get a Starbucks once in a while and hug a furry animal, you’ll understand. These small moments of joy which we eke out are things which we must choose to continue living for, every single day despite the pain we endure, because for most people it’s worth it.
EEAO has this exact theme. When Evelyn and Joy are beginning a reconciliation of sorts in the parking lot, they talk about the pointlessness of living, where all there is are these little moments of happiness and the rest is meaningless. And Evelyn makes it clear that yes, there’s a lot of pain in life and her relationship with Joy. They fundamentally do not understand one another, in part because of the generational divide and the immigrant/ABC perpetual foreigner division between them. It causes them pain, it hurts, it’s frustrating and annoying because they can’t seem to quite make the other understand. But Evelyn states that she essentially believes that loving Joy and having her as a daughter is WORTH IT ALL. And, when Jobu Toppacky chooses not to enter the all-consuming bagel of nothingness (which is definitely a metaphor for Joy’s suicidal ideation), this is symbolic of her ALSO choosing the sparks of joy over nothingness. We must imagine Sisyphus happy.
THATS WHAT THE MESSAGE IS. Sometimes, choosing those sparks of joy is worth it. Some people might not think it’s worth it — think of Gong Gong and his decision to basically disown his daughter for not obeying him — and they choose nothingness over any scrap of happiness, because the pain is too much. Sometimes, that’s what’s necessary. But the point of life is the pain and the happiness (like how Jobu Toppacky says, she knows the joy and pain of having Evelyn as her mother), and we choose every day to wake up and try again and again for that scrap of happiness.
And it’s not perfect! Obviously! My somewhat friend was caught up in Evelyn fat shaming her daughter (something I felt so close to my heart because whew, growing up Asian). She said that Evelyn still throwing out a “you look fat” comment at the end made it seem like the movie “tripped and fell at the finish line.” THE FATSHAMING IS BAD BUT ITS NOT THE POINT OF THE MOVIE, OBVIOUSLY.
Of course the fatshaming is bad!! Joy treats it like an act of affection (which it basically is — in my family at least, it’s meant in a “I care about your well-being, and I pay attention to you because indifference is tantamount to disdain”) but it’s still not good. It’s very bad, actually, and it highlights the way that Evelyn has grown up in a very different culture than Joy and still, even at the end of the movie, does not completely understand her daughter.
And that’s GREAT! Because in real life, there is no perfect communication. We are casually cruel to people for no reason because we just don’t understand them, or they don’t understand us, or both. You may not realize it, but you’ve probably hurt someone you care about because you’ve said something in a way that was interpreted poorly. Evelyn hasn’t learned to understand her daughter or even accept her daughter completely; she’s learned to keep trying, to keep “tripping at the finish line” and getting up again, because her daughter is WORTH IT to her. And Joy, similarly, is going to keep trying despite the mutual pain, because her mother is WORTH IT to her. How that trying turns out is ambiguous at the end of the movie — maybe Joy, like Gong Gong before her, doesn’t find it worth it in the end and cuts off her mother entirely. But for now, she finds fulfillment in the small moments, enough to choose to continue on. We must imagine Sisyphus happy.
This is NOT a movie about “family is more important than anything, even when your family is sucky.” It’s about the fact that Evelyn and Joy CHOSE EACH OTHER out of their own volition. Because those little moments mattered enough. That’s why Evelyn is so devastated at Gong Gong for abandoning her, asking him how he could let her go. She can’t imagine not enduring this suffering (she legit gets beat up by like five million guys and hops dimensions for fuck’s sake) for her daughter. She loves Joy, and she will keep choosing her. And Joy, ultimately, shows she loves Evelyn and will keep choosing her as well.
Waymond is the perfect foil for Evelyn because he is the embodiment of the “kindness and love just because it makes it all a bit more bearable” sentiment. He’s played off as an idiot, and he kind of is, but his glowing sense of sheer goodness radiates throughout the film. Why not put googly eyes everywhere? It’s hilarious! Why not give cookies to people? Cookies are good! The mundanity of life sucks ASS, and it keeps going and going (not unlike the cycling of the machines in the laundromat), why not have some enjoyment? Life is fucking meaningless but guess what? These cookies are bomb af.
In the world where Evelyn is a celebrity, Waymond appears to have found success elsewhere, whatever that looks like. Evelyn is undoubtably successful since she’s a superstar. And yet, Waymond says that, in another life, he would have also found fulfillment in just running a failing laundromat with her. Evelyn is heartbroken that Waymond doesn’t love her in the way she remembers from her version of Waymond — but why? She’s a superstar! She’s more successful than she ever dreamed! But she had chosen Waymond in the past, and she found that choice fulfilling enough that, faced with its loss, she is devastated. Waymond said that his love for Evelyn would have made the laundromat worth it, and Evelyn seems to agree here. We must imagine Sisyphus happy.
Anyway, that’s why EEAO is great, don’t @ me.
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