#she was SO glad to talk to someone new

[punskill]

 buffy severely lacks in the positive male relationship department. besides her relationship with giles (which is also tumultuous and has resulted in her being betrated / feeling betrayed by him more than once), most of the men in her life have been! consistently shitty! and i think it’s why i’m even more upset about the eddie thing, because he could’ve been something good for buffy. not even in a romantic sense but just someone that was as lost as her and could help her through the more domestic aspects of this portion of her life.

#honestly i think i might make an eddie sb just to write with myself at this point #like #i get hung up on small things but #she was SO glad to talk to someone new #she's only ever had willow and xander #and they were on thin ice during college anyways #their relationships were very much waning

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[offsidekineticist]

△ Qweck - what's sharing a living situation with Giliys like now that you know what's going on with him and Theo?

6/10

"Oh, I know what's going on with him and Theo? That's news to me," she huffs before wincing at the loss of control. "My apologies, that was...unbecoming. As for living with Giliys...It's fine." She sees the disbelief on your face. "No, it's...actually fine. Giliys is not the problem with our living situation, which is...unexpected." She rubs her eyes, and you notice the dark circles under her eyes, particularly pronounced where it overlaps with her bleached patch. "He spends most of his time taking care of Theo - helping him dress or feeding him or turning the pages of the book Theo's reading, and he's usually very quiet when he does that. Only speaks when he really needs to ask Theo how he wants something done. Which is understandable, considering that Theo snaps at every little mistake I make while doing his very best to ignore that Giliys even exists.

"I just...this isn't how it's supposed to be. Theo isn't supposed to be the mean one. Giliys isn't supposed to be the patient one. And I'm not supposed to be so...so...." She stops, a far off look in her eyes. "They're always looking for ship surgeons at the docks. Sometimes I think..." Qweck shakes her head, and with a quick blink, the longing in her eyes has gone. "It doesn't matter. You didn't ask about that. The answer is that living with Giliys has been fine."

#pathfinder wotr #pwotr pals #oc: qweck varnaj #ask game #little sneak peak into whats going on in breakup arc land #theo hasnt been this volatile since before the bleaching #hes struggling #he's been sent into exile with a new disability and chronic pain and no money #qweck and giliys are in crisis mode #and they actually work together really well in crisis mode #they wouldnt have tolerated working together so long otherwise #so qweck is actually glad giliys is there #while getting increasingly frustrated (and hurt) by Theo #poor thing really needs to talk to someone about everything #which is why she didnt try as hard to deflect this time #definitely isnt just that im too tired to figure out how to convey all this with her being her usual recalcitrant self

[italictext]

I desperately need to befriend a Death Note fan irl who likes Death Note the way I do.. The only DN fans I've met irl are anime only Near haters :'(

#I NEED someone to shake while I rant to them about Death Note pls pls pls #I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO GIGGLE WITH WHILE WE STARE AT DEATH NOTE PANELS PLS PLS PLS #My sister has seen Death Note but she's not really into it + anime only + Near hater </3 #It sucks to remember that the Death Note fandom isn't just my mutuals.. Some people genuinely hate Near :(( #I LOVE the anime the animation is beautiful the soundtrack is beautiful and OOOOO THE COLOR CODING EEEE but #It butchered the 2nd half soo so badly and changed Near's personality and I'm not a fan of the ending :( #THE MANGA ENDING IS SOOO SO GOOD AND BEAUTIFUL #OMGGGG when Light admits to being Kira and gives them his speech and calls himself god of the new world AND EEEE NEAR SAYS “NO YOURE JUST A #MASS MURDERER“ #LIKE EEEE THAT ALWAYS ALWAYS MAKES ME GIGGLE NEAR WAS SOOO SO COOL FOR THAT LIKE HE'S LITERALLY FACE TO FACE WITH KIRA THE GUY WHO KILLED L #And Near REPEATS IT. HE CALLS HIM “JUST A MURDERER” TWICE. #Sorry but the anime made Near so stupid “lol just let him run away it's not like he'll survive” #I love Near and Light's dynamic so much they're so funny. They have the prettiest panels too #Maybe an unpopular opinion but Near vs Light was wayyy more entertaining that L vs Light #And it hurts me to see people say that it should've ended at the 1st half. I know people can have their own opinions or whatever but THEYRE #WRONG!! DN is SOOO much better with the 2nd half + if it ended at L's death that would've sucked. So glad L died midway #I wish I had a friend I could talk about DN to :( I'll just hope one of my friends decide to watch it because idk how to make new friends #Discord servers scare me and while I love my mutuals if any of you tried to message me I think I'd cry out of nervousness lol #Gosh this is long shoukd I even post this

[volfoss]

also really good doll update... the head arrived at the warehouse and is being packed rn + i found someone else who is doing the exact method of retrobrighting i want to do on the same doll type so. i know for sure its safe :) which is a big relief lmao

#twist rambles #even IF shes super yellow. i believe that itll all be possible and she will be cleaned up... altho as someone who HAS done a lot of retro #brighting on mlp idk if it could even repair all the yellowing if its THAT bad lmao. we will see tho.... #bjd posting #god that reminds me. i need to see what her vinyl tone was originally... #JUST CHECKED?!?!?! SHE WAS WHITE VINYL!??!?!?!?!?!??!?! SHE IS SO YELLOWED FOR THAT?!?!?!?!?! HOW DID THIS HAPPEN!?!??!??!!??!?! #i assumed she was semi white (another vinyl color the company offers) bc thats what my other doll from them is from and like... it looks #pretty similar to me?? like the bit of skin i CAN see looked like that. oh my god thats. horrific lmao. #on GOOD news if its too light for the body i can pretty easily blush it to match more (guy thats bad at blushing doll parts voice. ill be #fine totally) so thats better than it being too dark? again as long as i can wipe the faceup and deyellow her lol. so so so glad i got into #mlp restoration tho bc it gives me a lot of the tools i need for this project yk? of like. just knowing how to protect certain things if it #is rly unevenly yellowed. sorry whenever i talk about this doll i ramble for 60 years in the tags.

[spark-circuit]

LET’S GOOOOOOOOOOOO

*V1 voice* [LITERALLY SEETHING]

#TAKE THAT CYNO AHA #(pretty sure he would've killed me next round because of pyro/dendro gkjgflk) #part of me is like i won't bother putting this in main tags because not much happens but tumblr will do it anyways through keyword search so #genshin impact #spark's genshin adventures #spark talks about nothing of relevance #been a while since i played genshin because i'm a bit burnt out on SO MANY GAME RELEASES AND UPDATES ATM #but windblume event was nice. i like collei and sucrose's serious conversation about social anxiety #i can't really speak on it coming from at LEAST someone undiagnosed but it reads like both of them are on the autism spectrum? #like collei always has to plan out conversations in her head and can't adapt easily (which same actually tbh) #and sucrose hyperfixates on her research and finds it hard to reach out past that #i wasn't expecting that kind of deep dive but it's interesting. i'm glad the two of them get along! #imo i guessed they'd be good friends from the start of the event. they have a lot in common #god i wish kaeya showed up more though. though i still have the new dain quest to do so! #also noelle is getting the pretty claymore regardless on if it's good for her. it's what she deserves <3

[piratadelamor]

self isolation as a form of self preservation is going to end up killing me someday

#im already a fucking adult if i dont do something about this shit im gonna be lonely as hell #i just wish i had made friends at college like everyone else #instead of the poor choices of friends i made when i got in for the wrong ideas i had about the type of person i wanted to be #i simply ended up with no friends at the worst place to make friends #imagine me having 8 different classes each semester. each class had about 60 different students #each subject had at least 4 different teachers teaching that so you could choose when and who to take that class with #850 new students each year it was rare to end up on the same class as someone twice #unless you were already friends before and decide to take the classes together #most of my classes didnt have group projects either. no dynamic stuff just reading and reading and reading #it. was. HELL #i actually had like 3 people i could call my friends there but our classes never matched #and im not an easily approachable person i wanted to DIE when i made a friend there that told me she was scared to talk to me before #how many possible friendships i lose all the time for seeming unnaproachable?? for my fucking face bro i cant do shit about it #today my best friend from work also told me that when she first met me she thought i was cold and arrogant #but that i also seemed cool so she was like ok lets give her a chance #i keep fucking hearing it all the fucking time i have MANY friendships that started just like this. people judging me at first #this is so sad and lonely to me i dont wanna be this person #one time a friend also said something like im glad im already your friend id be scared of you if i didnt know you #like????? scared of WHAT. i never treat people badly. i dont fight i dont do gossip i dont do anything to hurt anyone #im always trying to get people together and have fun i always talk to everyone im always nice to everyone #im always trying #so why the hell people still think im unnaproachable #i dont get it i've been hearing this from FRIENDS my whole life. not from people who dont like me its people who LIKE me that say this #what the hell am i doing wrong besides being born with my fucking face #and then. above all. to make it all worse. i self isolate bc im scared of rejection. man i fucking hate being me #i really dont wanna be lonely

[unproduciblesmackdown]

fascinating lens on taylor's goings on in s6 there re: Romance. epic win that they have rian turn them down but i'm also really not sure why they did. oh you know, rian who's always defined by being so prudent [montage of actually pretty much everything seemingly defining rian has been pretty anti prudent] like ok w/e

but we start out with taylor Particularly Unmotivated By Work and instead watching a The Bachelor beach proposal which involves extasis through this Reality(tm) pastiche of romance. i am assuming. wherein the journey Ends with this transcendent all-consuming joy upon the realization of said Romance for one contestant. then when their somehow still bestie mafee (relevant tangents about how all taylor's relationships seem to involve their having an approach where they have low standards like "well but i guess this is all i can get / expect" including that they can't even necessarily expect shit they like/enjoy/are at all supported by, while readily accepting whatever blame/reproach from others) is like "gee but are you really happy" they're apparently inspired to pursue happiness by pursuing romance. which they seem to consider is possible only through rian, intriguing here when the entire basis of their dynamic seems to be [trapped in work hell together] like boy we have nothing outside our jobs? i sure hope we can be Everything to each other then :) and how it's even more baffling that rian is completely unbaffled by this development when you might operate on some assumptions like "you should have ever seemed to enjoy any interactions you've ever had" to consider choosing more vulnerability and more time / effort spent on this relationship, and "you also don't need to have Found Fault with someone / otherwise have some grievances or dislike of them to not want to date them" especially if rian's apparent sense of responsibility for taylor's theoretical negative feelings about rejection supposedly doesn't involve thinking about any power dynamics, she just feels the need to repeatedly reassure them she'd actually Love to date or have sex but she's just so set on not dating through work, b/c of the complications, that she's never considered not having casual sex with bosses and also never mentioned this stance to turn down winston nor done anything but revel in how he might feel about even being rejected as a conversational partner. too prudent to mention it. certainly also a relevant matter that it Need Not Be Explained to anyone that winston for one is excluded as a potential Romantic partner for pretty much everyone i guess. whilest as this potential mirror to taylor, he's not only considering specifically rian w/"we're similar; let's hang out; i'd like to have sex maybe even" (though winston's sexuality, like his communicative capacities, is also simply Not Allowed) but also seems to be like "i guess this is all i can get / expect" or hanging on for a long time to the possibility of Otherwise at his own expense or taking blame / whatever pretty egregious treatment like. taylor being willing to talk to wendy still is akin to winston still being willing to talk to rian. though maybe that's changed by the end of s6; it'd be very warranted after the pretty make or break [rian & winston Share An Interest; hang out outside work about it] moment there and also after Everything Else on its own, just like how it'd be very warranted if taylor expecting Nothing Better from wendy could turn into their hardly being willing to interact

anyways, sure is fortunate for taylor (or is it???) that Work becomes more enriching for them suddenly, and through someone with whom they have this promising personal dynamic with, a Peer with whom, in fact, they do both seem to find reward in interacting with each other / want and choose to do so, imagine, while [reiterating for emphasis]: they are both finding reward in interacting and feeling Complementary rather than only seeing exactly themself in each other, while having this respect for each other and flexibility and knowing they don't Have to work together, and may not always be doing so.

but most to the point it sure is something that the season starts off with taylor being dissatisfied with their work situation and responding by not being at work and instead watching people be overjoyed about their (also, relevantly, Peak Normal Correct Cishet) romance, though they don't outright claim to straightforwardly enjoy this. then they Do outright claim to us repeatedly, if ever begrudgingly, that everything rian does is worthy &/or sympathetic (and totally comprehensible and consistent so as to believably retain any sense of Character....) while every time they interact, it's a business meeting and one or both of them is unhappy about some part of it. but then once taylor's asked to think about their happiness Beyond Work they apparently are simply motivated to go ask someone out, and it may as well be rian For Lack Of A Better Option really, but then there's the wrench of "for some reason rian is unsurprised and not at all put off by this, or even just somewhat confused" and "for some reason rian's like 'sorry but no. fr im soooo sorry'" with these perspectives of [happiness Outside Work = romance] and [someone deemed Objectively Worthy = you'd of course at least consider romance, or else you must think actually they're Unworthy in some way, or have some more general Reason you'd reject others categorically in just the same way] (rian rejecting winston for unworthiness so much that she doesn't even need to bother actually telling him as much; rejecting taylor for [i don't date through work] with followups to reassure them it's Not the unworthiness) (that on and off paper winston & taylor have no reason to not be kissing but i think we can assume that won't happen, b/c billions itself may also assume we understand that [winston is unworthy] is just true. &/or that anyone Worthy understands as much)

so hoping that taylor has Some kind of enriching lasting relationship with philip, truly, which was the hopes for winston and rian but the updated hope is his enriching lasting disengagement with rian, f

#winston billions #AND rian having some of the worst material re: sex billions has ever inflicted upon us. impressive. sorry to this character #(and like.................has she Not prior had casual sex through work while she's been willing to do so / hasn't had nights & weekends??) #that makes no sense either. it's for winston's sake i'm glad she hasn't tried to be fwb there #wouldn't it be fun if we got s7 genderfluid rian. but we won't. fr it's like....why'd we get this character at all lmao #would've made more sense if she left at the end of s6 too. while the best thing we've gotten is taylor getting to further distinguish #themself from axe in of course good ways. the associated [philip seems so much more like A Character than rian despite also being new] #difficult to work in ''rian would be abusive towards winston if they were dating b/c she Already Is as (sometimes) work friends'' when #another issue is that rian's material isn't really being Examined when every character can only remark abt how cool & correct she always is #ultimately; at least....taylor you caaan't actually be mad at rian; gotta be some Other issue you're having bad feelings about.... #that winston being introduced so peripherally it was meant to be a oneoff & while (as viewed by other characters) being Incorrect and #Unsympathetic has created the conditions for someone who does end up w/this stronger sense of Being A Character #he's even autistic....while rian is adhd and hostile like ''at least i'm allistic and meritous'' #like yes i Will talk to you more than others maybe but offscreen & i Will also be bullying you b/c i am willing to and i certainly can. #dunno what to say about winston and tuk b/c we've still seen so relatively little & idk what we'll get for winston in s7 #that it's will's updated foul play website bio that Confirms he'll be in s7 at all; but i'm still not supposing he'll def get more than an #episode or two or w/e. or i suppose he could be sent off & return; they're still in production mode over there after all #i would really doubt canon would give us that romance but it would be....i dunno. earthshaking really lol haven't given it the most thought #canon might also think that would be insulting to tuk or something.... #or say As Much w/that continual threat of ''improving'' winston by making him Choose to be more normal now (: #everyone's always giving him the organic aba (abuse) either way but umm the Least you could do would be absorb it & Stop Bringing It Upon #Yourself....still supposing it's possible that their being Friends is considered to be dragging tuk back / dooming him to Loserdom #but as or more likely: he got to talk to tuk in the last ep to get him out of the way. it will never get focus #oh i went off track up there: finishing the thought to say i suppose it's assumed rian would not be shitty towards taylor like she would be #towards winston b/c they're Worthier; not supposedly inferior to her even as winston is considered to be #hence that rian Can give winston shit whenever she wants but just so happens to Not be that way towards anyone else. makes you think #mfw i run out of room writing on one page abt cam stone like ''i could've been more clearly relationship anarchist with it :(''

[andreycoded]

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#we had a discord meeting with friends and thing is. i told everyone today that i got a soul crushing diagnosis #literally never cry to my friends but bawled my eyes out on a #whatre they called. voice message? yeah and one of my friends sent an empathetic text back in the group chat #one friend called and the other texted too but then in the discord meeting the first friend was really quiet most of the time and i was #glad to be thinking about something else than my stuff and be just chit chatting; when second friend asked the first if everything was okay #and ? she had the gall to say really angrily that no it isn’t and she has been crying like crazy all day because she feels like she isn’t #enough and does everything wrong #all the time. now this is not a new convo. we’ve talked about this vountless times and yeah she’s depressed clearly but doesn’t want to #admit it and i’ve told her (after comforting her many times) that she should really go talk to someone about it because if she just keeps #crying go us we’re just gonna go in circles and she isn’t gonna feel any better. like i’ve said everything that i possibly could to make #her feel better. and she has the GALL to say she’s been crying her eyes out when she KNOWS i literally heard i’m gonna lose feeling and #motoric skills in my hands and feet. and nothing can be done about it. and i for once showed how awful that felt. #i quickly told her that i hope the feeling passes because it’s baseless and she’s enough and worthy and really dear to all of us and then i #went to the toiler for a short while. and thought like. why couldn’t i judt once have said like. i’ve been crying about other things #altogether like hinting to the fact that that wasn’t appropriate. because she’s not gonna change. i should’ve said it for once because the #circle is just gonna continue. like. fuck #and at the same time i understand i really do but i don’t think however miserable i was that i couldn’t put my own worries aside at least #for the day. like TODAY i found out today . so if she’s miserable in her relationship (which i originally said was a bad ideaaaa) and it #makes her feel overall bad #. just!!!!! ahhhh. keep it to yourself for today. like i could’ve talked about my problems but i didn’t. so #v.personal #if you read this sorry sldntbtb #but also thank you. i’m not in a good place myself and i feel awkward and i know it can be taxing to read other people’s personal stuff on #your dash so if you did read this thank you

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

I do think one of my favorite parts about work is having people who I can be like omg you would Not believe what is happening rn in my life to and they’re like oh my god really??

#today on that is I actually cannot stand where I go to college and am not happy about going back #though I’m glad to get out of my house #and I was like maybe I should take a gap year. oh. I’d still have to live with my mother than. nvm #and one lady was like aww but I’ve met ur parents they’re fun! and I’m like oh bestie u wanna hear the latest on my mother??? #which would be that she left for 4 days said it was bc of me and then claimed she never said that and thinks everything is back to normal #and she’s like oh! oh wow. i did not get that impression #i just gotta. watch what I say a little bc my dad and the owner r friends #not that I have anything bad to say about my dad #my mother however……. don’t get me started #my mother saying all that is old news but I do like people to have context before they decide she seems like a very nice person #im working maximal hours still im out of here lol #but they didn’t schedule me!! so now im trying to take peoples hours #but it didn’t occur to me that I should like. pick and choose the days. like I should be putting in more effort to work days my friends do #everyone I really wanna see is there on my last day which makes me happy #i am gonna miss my friends a lot #i managed to weasel my way into my manager just like. giving me all of Wednesday to work. despite them not really needing me #she’s like wellll I’m managing so no one will say anything #like ok bestie thank u #now I just need to steal someone’s Friday morning #soup talks

[nuoc7mia]

i finished the new chapter like it was my first meal in days.

#moon talks #it went in a totally different direction but i’m glad she deviated from my expectations bc i did not want him to explode #and tbh shima isn’t the type of person to have a massive outburst anyway? i was prob just projecting on him 💀 i think it’s sweet how #perceptive mitsumi can be even if she isn’t culturally super savvy / like i was abt yo cry a bit when she said those kind words to shima #i will say tho this cleaned itself up a lot neater than i expected? i don’t feel like this is entirely over until shima is able to address #his feelings avt the roles he plays in ppl’s lives (and while mitsumi helps him realize that there is a reality where he doesn’t have to fit #a role i think it ultimately has to be him that changes smthing / also i feel like egashira wojld help him acknowledge it? since they always #felt like opposite sides of the same coin to me + their prev dynamic) #shima’s just like me tho fr #i do not have the words rn bc my midterm is tmrw but i love how he is characterized bc he’s allowed to be complicated and contradictory #edit: waitt i just read a theory abt him being jealous and i lowkey kind of agree! just for different reasons :3 i think this scene would #solidify a desire on shima’s end to hold onto mitsumi as the first person who liked him without pretences and bc his act doesn’t work anymor #the insecurities sprout faster + combine that w her other growing friendship w the vice pres and you could *potentially* get smthing uglier #not saying that i’m wishing for him to be vindictive or want jealousy in regards to romance i just think thaf it’s a v normal response esp #for someone like shima who grounds a lot of his self worth in how he can appease others #and smthing this manga does RLY well is establish the fact that bad/negative behaviors and emotions do not go away easily—that it takes time #adn effort to be able to change for the better #ppl here on tumblr are so big brained sometimes LOL i didn’t rlly think abt jealousy arc until i saw the post / just that there needs to be #a bigger catalyst for things yo change bc this isn’t rlly new w mitsumi

[ashenberry]

For your blorbos: apollo, TRUCY, jove, big man :3, the snakes from metal gear i cannot tell them apart i am so sorry, your ocs are all so blorbo to you as well but im on 30mg of weed gummy so i dont remember any of their names

God your so correct I do love all these characters an unnormal amount

#reblogged a lot of ask games from just scrolling down my blog from 2 years ago so had to double check to make sure I didn’t need to say alot #or else this wasn’t getting posted till the morning I am SLEEPY #but ooh my gosh i will ramble about them in the tags #apollo and Trucy forever my top duo they’re relationship is sooooo important to me I love them #scrolling through my blog from a couple years ago made me realize good lord I did not shut up about jangly which makes sense I think I was #knee deep in Apollo family sitcom and with that I still think joves relationship with Apollo nahyuta dhurke datz amara Trucy thal etc etc i #soo intriguing. Trucy less so mostly bc she’s meeting him after the time skip but ack <3 #BIG MAN BIG FAN!!! love his role as like the straight man in deep cut and also big betrayal slaps #glad to see the new mental illness rep 💪 the snakes cover it well enough considering i do like 3/4 I’ve met so far #sorry solidus maybe don’t be a fuckinnn bitch? Also I made a silly little chart trying to explain the snakes to another mutual #mostly bc I get metal gear zoomies and I need to talk to someone and he’s usually up #AND BELOVED OCS! who I need to update refs of eventually. it’s like what’s his fucks rock. or laundry. a cycle #ashen.ask

[lilgynt]

my brothers leaving town and jesus whole event had me stressed out. it was good and nothing bad happened but i ran through a 500 mg weed pen within maybe. 2 to 3 days at least 85 percent and im still stressed.

#personal #just me on my break smoking and pacing #my mom was especially like. over my brother in my face but also it was fine and she checked in with me #brother and i talked but also i just feel like we’re stuck in a weird liminal space #i didn’t watch the flash with them #bc i just didn’t want to and no one was mad and i came by randomly to talk or whatever but also oh my god am i ruining the rare time i have #with my family by not watching the flash am i. the devil #and now i’m at work and i just feel #off kilter #i’m glad i’m only working three days but also i just want to go home and curl up for while #like there’s a weird animal awareness hes in the house #and at one point while getting sad to a hannibal edit while not boxing my car i was like huh. #i really get stressed during his visits cause i have no idea if something really bad is gonna happen or not #like i’m always excited to see him it’s nice and i miss him #but it does stress me out. #i think everything is stressing me out lately i think i need a new job djdjxjkdkdkdkxkdmdmdm #but i think it might be easier to shut off and relax #but he did hang out while i cleaned so got some progress there *sisyphus* #i’m just gonna get high even tho i KNOW i need a t break hopefully wrangle myself up to clean some more #and someone hold me down i’m gonna watch tv or read a book #i will not get stuck on random tasks or getting distracted and will spend 17 hours on tik tok. you will hold me to this #i will sit down and watch Hannibal rising. or ninoma. or die #something. i will find something to watch #or impractical jokers. or another tv show i should watch continue or start #and if that stresses me out too much im going to read. my bed side desk has so many books not to mention my book case #or i could even buy that kindle extreme horror book and read that #shaking myself violently screaming i’m not gonna watch tik toks and read trashy fan fics before i go to bed tonight for work

[dearcharms]

WHY DO I KEEP SENDING REELS TO THE WRONG PEOPLE (SCREAMS IN A CUP)

#they're meant to be for my friends or my siblings #and THEN i send them to acquaintances by mistake #IT'S SO EMBARRASSING #i don't even notice until they message back like “haha” or some shit #and im like NOOOOO I MISPRESSED IM SORRYYY #i also had one just last night where i missent and she's like #“ohh hi! i actl have a new acc hehe i sent u a request” #and IM GLAD SHES NICE BUT IM SO EMBARRASSED BYE #i mean if the same thing happened to me i wouldnt even be mad just amused #BUT LIKE #imagine having not talked to someone even tho you see each other regularly #ur not close at all #and then suddenly u send a meme by accident #im 😭😭😭😭 #I WILL GET OVER THIS MORTIFICATION. #i swear it KEEPS HAPPENING TO ME im Fine. #😭😭😭😭😭 THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING LOL

[sunaluv]

'IS SHE TAKEN?'

in which someone asks your man if you're single

feat: ran, gojo

RAN

the club setting was filled with more excitement tonight. don't get it twisted, any club or event hosted by the haitanis was guaranteed to be the event of the day, good vibes, hot people, and lots of money to be made. but when one of the brothers was actually present at the club? something about their aura seemed to bring out the vibes in people.

ran's hooded gaze watched adoringly at you across the club, the setting bringing nostalgia to the first time you met. ever the social butterfly you were, accepting another phone number from one of the girlfriends you made tonight. the other members of the roundtable looked at one another, wondering if the haitani brother was even present.

"no wonder you're so distracted, boss," the man next to him nudged him with his elbow, to which ran side-eyed him. "she's a looker, d'ya think she's single?"

your boyfriend appeared neutral as he let the guy ramble on about how hot you were, and what he would do to you given the chance. he missed the harsh roll of ran's eyes. if he didn't know you were spoken for, he would make sure this guy knew by the end of the night.

as if on queue, you waved bye to your new friends and started to make your way to the table. eyes followed your figure as you passed, but that was to be expected when the prettiest girl at the club walked past.

"hey, sweetheart," his soft lips pressed against the crown of your head. "you alright?"

"i'm good! a little tired though," you let out a deep sigh, melting into his arms. "these heels have been killing me..."

wordlessly, his large hands had your ankles in his lap, undoing the buckles on your heels and rubbing tender circles into the irritated skin.

he smirked at the relieved sigh that left your lips. "my buddy here has something to ask you, sweets."

the man next to you seemed to go silent since your arrival at the table, the consequences of his actions just hitting. a deep breath followed by a gulp as he wiped his damp hands against his slacks. he almost flinched when your hooded, yet dominating gaze met his own eyes, but after remembering who and where he was, he gained his composure almost as quickly as it left.

"nah 'ts nothin'," he waved his hand. "just a passing thought, is all..."

others both around the roundtable and those dancing near it tried not to make it obvious that they were watching the exchange going down. they found themselves pitying a character who would not deserve it, under different circumstances. but, as discussed, the haitani aura seems to throw things off of balance.

if he didn't want to talk, ran would do it for him. "he wants to know if your single, claims he could give you a lay better than your man could,"

your eyes left the man, instead looking over your boyfriends face in silent communication.

'you and i both know he can't'

'...i know, my love, just humor me every once in a while?'

'you're such a character sometimes, haitani'

'you love it though'

eyes darted between you, awaiting your response, thus his sentence in anticipation. he didn't know what telepathic language you were communicating in, but he was glad to not hear his fate get discussed right in front of him.

"i'm very flattered, but i have a boyfriend, sorry." your response was dry towards him, but the gaze you held with ran was anything but.

catching wind of what was about to happen, you excused yourself from the table, leaving a kiss on the corner of rans mouth, whispering a 'be good' in his ear before leaving.

whatever happened after your departure was not your business, after all.

GOJO

"hey man," a hand belonging to an unfamiliar man clasped on satorus shoulder. "do you know if the girl you came here with has a boyfriend?"

you had dragged your boyfriend to one of your friend's parties, much to his dismay. he's sworn off drinking after geto's blackmail folder started getting a bit thick, meaning there was nothing fun to do other than socialise, but he didn't want to after people flocked to him for the wrong reasons.

so now he was maybe the only sober one in this lively scene, which leads to the current events.

he spoke your name for clarity. "uhh, I'm not sure. you can go ask her if you want. ill even put in a good word for you."

has this man been a fraction more sober, he would've questioned why the blindfolded man's smile was so wide, or why he was so willing to help, but alas, this was a party and alcohol was supplied.

"thanks, dude! you're such a lifesaver."

satoru almost felt bad for the guy. he was practically buzzing whilst traversing through the sweaty bodies in search of you. he felt bad until he remembered how bored he was before this happened, he has to put himself first sometimes.

after a couple stumbles, reroutes and a rest break, they had finally found you in your angelic beauty, laughing with a group of girls he didn't know.

he thought it was quite cute how the guy seemed to become more shy at the sight of you, and satoru couldn't blame him. had he been someone more normal, he would act the same in your presence.

one of the girls caught sight of the pair by the entry and gestured you towards them. your face softened slightly at the sight of your six-foot-something boyfriend and his... friend?

"hey toru," you smiled, before looking at the other man. "who’s this?"

satoru said nothing, slapping the guy a little too harshly on the back before stepping back. the floor was his.

"hey," he breathed out, before introducing himself. "i saw you come in with your friend earlier, and just wanted to know if you were seeing anyone?"

your heart rate picked up, but not for the reason the guy was hoping. why was gojo like this? did he enjoy seeing you suffer?

he obviously did as when you looked over your shoulder to the said man, he gave you a big, encouraging grin with both thumbs up. the audacity.

he had thrown you to the wolves and left you to fend for yourself.

"uhm..." you breathed, trying not to shatter the poor guy's heart. "i have a boyfriend, unfortunately. sorry."

"what do you mean, unfortunately!" satoru mocked you from behind the guy. "I'm a total catch, right?" he turned to the guy. "right??"

though delayed, the guy had finally come to the realisation he had been punked by the man who egged him on the whole time. his face burst into a deep shade of red, apologising profusely before rushing back into the crowd.

"you're such an ass, gojo."

"the last name huh?" he scratched the back of his neck. "I'm in for it arent i?"

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