Lost Control
Fear starts to spread as the familiar rage begins to overtake me
If only people knew what was happening, if only they could see.
But no one recognizes the signs, the tremors in my body, the darkening eyes
No one sees the monster inside me; no one hears my desperate cries.
The monster is back, bloodthirsty as ever, desiring to cause even more pain
Every time he comes out, I lose more of myself, become more and more insane.
He takes over, binds me with his hate, and locks me away
I never know how long he’ll imprison me for, whether a few hours or a whole day.
Someone, anyone, I beg you, please, hear my cries, come and set me free
Just release these shackles; can’t you see that this is not who I want to be?
I try my hardest to win control, but his hatred crushes my will
For he’s stronger now; I can sense this time he has intent to kill.
The only thing I feel is the burn of his many cuts over my exposed veins
He said he just wants to help, and that this is the only way to stop the real pain.
In desperation to stop this pain, I believe him and his web of lies
As he holds the knife out to me, I realize he’s just helping, he’s truly quite wise.
With determination in my eyes, I take the knife from him and make a tighter fist
Like a skilled artist, I create new bloody designs that flow from my cut up wrists.
My blood drips down like gentle rain, and forms a dark puddle on the floor
In my head, I hear my monster sweetly whispering to me “that’s it, just a little more”.
Like a student desperate to please his master, I begin to slice faster and deeper
All this time, it’s felt like I was climbing a hill, but suddenly that hill seems steeper.
My arms burn, my legs become weak; I try to move but slip on something slick
I look around, see a red floor: I lost a lot of blood, and lost it too quick.
I feel tired, all I want to do is just lay here on the floor, and get some rest
As I start to drift away, I realize that maybe this cutting idea wasn’t the best.
I can feel the fire beginning to fade, replaced with an icy feeling that’s spreading fast
I feel betrayed, for I believed his lie that by doing this I would find peace at last.
Instead I feel nothing but regret, and an overwhelming sense of fear
For it’s finally dawned on me that I went too far, it’s too late, now my end is here.
My eyesight dims, breathing becomes labored, head begins to pound
With frantic eyes, I look for my monster for help, but he’s nowhere to be found.
He’s gone, no longer inside me; his lust finally satisfied after all these long years
I’m alone; no monster here, only a blood stained knife and a pool of red tears.
My strength is gone; I finally lost the fight against my depression and sorrow
I fall into the shadows of darkness, never again to wake to another tomorrow.
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The song of the baby and the door 2 and the group of songs of the baby | Marah KG channel
مرحبا بكم في قناة مرح كي جي! في هذا الفيديو سنغني أغنية البيبي والباب ومجموعة من أغاني الأطفال. انضم إلينا ونحن نستكشف عالم الموسيقى الممتع والمثير مع أغاني الأطفال الكلاسيكية المفضلة هذه. من خلال المرئيات المفعمة بالحيوية والملونة ، سنحرص على جعل أطفالك الصغار يغنون ويرقصون معًا. انضم إلينا الآن ودعنا نحظى ببعض المرح مع هذه الأغاني الكلاسيكية!
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Stumbled upon some Brindleton Bay kitties when I was taking screenshots for Tawhay.
I also just realized a lot of people are probably saying it wrong in their heads, which is totally understandable. I don't know how to read those diacritics (letters with accents) that tell you how to pronounce things, so I'm not even going attempt it. But basically it's TAW (sounds like 'Tao', rhymes with 'now') - HAY (sounds like 'hi' as in 'hello').
🌈✨the more you know✨🌈
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this request i’m working on has me writing a poem and...mad respect to people that can actually competently write this stuff because what the FUCK.
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A song, my songs, and the most viewed children's songs | Marah KG channel
مرحبا بكم في قناة مرح كي جي! في هذا الفيديو سنغني أغنية يا غنماتي واغاني الأطفال الاكثر مشاهدة. انضم إلينا ونحن نستكشف عالم الموسيقى الممتع والمثير مع أغاني الأطفال الكلاسيكية المفضلة هذه. من خلال المرئيات المفعمة بالحيوية والملونة ، سنحرص على جعل أطفالك الصغار يغنون ويرقصون معًا. انضم إلينا الآن ودعنا نحظى ببعض المرح مع هذه الأغاني الكلاسيكية!
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I'm Still Looking For You
Three years ago, I died,
And slumbered 'neath the earth
To sprout a single leaf come Spring
And give rise to new birth
I can see you now,
Shadows dancing past the panes
Life bursts through harsh cracks
Blinding me with pain
I love you, I love you, I love you—
But love matters not
When the person closing doors
Was the one who let me rot
Where have you been all this time?
Just what have you slain?
I stand beyond your doorstep
Waiting in endless vain
So the earth can feel like high sea,
So blood is desert grain
In wait,
In the chill,
Till the end of the world—
Or at least the reading of my will
Here's the thing, here's the kicker
No one tells you about
There is just no way to control
The breaking of your heart
Three years, two years,
Eight months now
When will you (I) notice
That there has only been one vow?
So I take root before your door
The distance a heavy weight
Across the seas, across your steps,
I have yet to accept my fate
I'll be buried at one, darling
Please, for once don't be late
—Tate Lin
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