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threshasaurus-writes · 1 year

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Hi, I know it’s been like...almost 3 years...and I’ve fallen off the map in SPN’s fandom almost entirely, and I’ve been on hiatus from fanworks as I make art/writing my literal bill-paying job, but nonetheless, heeeere’s...

Shadow Box Butterfly, Chapter 10: Unholy

From Heaven to Hell, it’s assumed that Castiel is in a relationship with the Winchesters. Everybody knows but Sam and Dean. That doesn’t stop the other angels from making an example of Cas for them to find.

Rated E, Eventual Requited Unrequited WinCasWin (Destiel and Sastiel), Heavy Angst, Castiel Whump, Hurt Cas, Wings, Rape/Non-con, Rape Recovery, Hurt/Comfort, Flashbacks, Protective Sam and Dean, Blood and Injury, Touchy-Feely, Crying, Original Angel Characters

Chapter 10 is here on AO3!

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gothoffspring · 9 months

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i literally MUST squish her cheeks or i'll die... just a fun lil' lookbook featuring one of my new favorite oc's, Emilija 💘

hat / hair / sweater / skirt / tights / shoes / body preset (miss delicious) ((make more fat sims y'all! pls!))

#ts4 #the sims 4 #ts4 lookbook #ts4 cas #the sims 4 lookbook #cas edit #the sims 4 cas #goth lookbook #:) ok im in love with her.. so much it hurts...#y'all MAY recognize her from my most popular lookbook ever... she's truly an angel #ts4 edit

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shallowseeker · 7 months

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If you're a native Spanish speaker, wanna take a stab at the telenovela in 7x03? (It's very hard to hear under the main audio.) You can hear, My love, my love? I think I hear, no me dejes (Don't leave me) in the mix.

I love that Ricardo, you know, has a bloody collar and smudge on his right brow, kind of like...you know:

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7x01

Ahem.

It also, of course, calls to mind John's death in 4x03, but only in how Mary cradles him.

The rest is so-- [REDACTED]

And if you think Dean wasn't grieving in his prickly veneer of toughness, listen to his voice in that brief moment he thought Cas was back. His breathy little "Ca-as?" is sooo shaky.

Then, he and Bobby both grabbed onto him with the intention of getting him home (and working through what just happened, "Okay, one thing at a time.") It was so--

This is the same episode where Cas said he had no more nostalgia for Dean and threatened to snap him into bloody soup, and then Dean urged Death to kill Cas, and Cas looked somehow shocked, despite what he'd just threatened to do himself. They're so--

To say nothing of the look on Dean's face when the Leviathan says in clear words, "Cas is, hmm, gone. He's-- dead!"

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ldobmm · 1 year

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the first meeting, and much before the last...

#bro idk #i was in cas updating some ocs to my new style and #i opened up viktors family #and I was like lemme make nova how she looked when they met #and now im so fucking sad like </3 #viktor nova and mave all deserved so much better #it hurts my heart SO BAD #i need to start brining more viktor lore onto the tl again #scylla 06942 #024 #Veektor

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dyingnights · 7 months

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my gender crisis has worsened again i might tell my friends im going back to cas but ugh

#i used cas for 3 full years but since i live in a german speaking country it sounds weird sometimes #and i also wanted something more masculine so i chose felix and it was perfect but i miss cas #but i hear it in m's voice and it hurts so much

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hitmeupaep · 6 months

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dean 10000% has confessed his love to cas in the shower

#the first day they get into the bunker and dean can fianlly get a nice and warm shower #his shoulders relax and the water feels warm agonist his skin #and he sways there for a moment and before he realizes it his mind drifts to cas #and that thought leads elsewhere #and it ends with him on the floor of the shower #water turned cold #sobbing #johns words still sting all these years later and the heat just reminds him of that #“why did it have to be cas” he cries into his knees knowing more than anything he has ever known that he wouldn’t have it be anyone else #“i love you so much it hurts”#“i wish you would want me. i wish i could have you”#he stays there #dreaming of some world where cas appears in front of him #hearing his confession turned prayer and holds him close #but the water turns off and there is no angel to be found #guess that dream will have to wait #sorry just rambling about them #like the thought of dean writing down all his feelings for cas one drunk night and just burning it or something #idk idk #destiel #dean winchester

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quietwingsinthesky · 1 year

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returning to the jack & abigail dynamic: i'm imagining that after the first two or three times abigail drags jack home to have dinner with her family, hannibal pulls her off to the side like "are you sure this is the friend you want to make? :)" (<- is thinking about how Jack is allergic to using napkins properly and will wipe everything off with his sleeves) (he's not rude, he was just unfortunately raised by winchesters)

and she just crosses her arms and shoots back with "you get to keep will >:(" (<- knows she will get her way, partly because hannibal is going to give her what she wants, partly because if he doesn't, she's not above asking jack to do a little mindwiping.)

at which point, hannibal just has to accept that she's going to bring home a weird little guy just like he did.

#parallel here not meant to imply jack & abigail romantic relationship tbc #its just that abigail hasn't had any friends since that one girl died. and jack hasn't had any friends. uh. ever.#they're not dating they're more like the codependent homoerotic friendship you form with that one girl in middle school. you know the one.#abigail is weirdly obsessive about jack in a way that would be red flags for anyone else #only he (models his idea of how relationships should work off of the ones he's seen ie sam & dean. dean & cas. sam & lucifer)#sees it as sweet. abigail stalks him once #and he knows the whole time because angel powers and he's 🥰 'she cares about me so much. we must be best friends.'#spn #hannibal nbc #jack kline #abigail hobbs #hannibal lecter #they get high one day (hannibal's secret stash) and abigail goes 'i would eat u u know.'#and jack goes ':3 i mean you could! i don't think it would hurt me! i'll heal!'#they are such normal besties

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threefuckencrowsinatrenchcoat · 11 months

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I’m never gonna get over the guy in s3e15 who, when asked if he wanted to catch the guy who stole his kidney, asked if it would get him his kidney back and when he was told no decided he didn’t care that much ab catching the guy bc what’s the point

#it’s genz culture actually #like. ig u can find the criminal but not if it’s too much work !!!#who needs two kidneys anyway #he’s all like well yeah it hurt like a Mf but what am I gonna do now it’s already GONE #most relatable spn character #10/10 tbh #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #this is actually the first post I’ve ever tagged Sam in and I feel a little bad but #90% of my spn posts are me comparing this fandom to others #and the other 10% is the destiel confession meme #I also personally believe sam would hate tumblr #don’t get me wrong him and Dean both have accounts bc. they can see posts ab demons and shit #but neither of them rly care #meanwhile cas has a small corner of Tumblr fame #he doesn’t post any specific thing it’s just so random #tags are longer than the actual post #i’ll shut up now #threefuckencrows watches spn

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hearties-circus · 2 months

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↖️ *guy that is having such a normal one right now* *guy that totally isn't fucking losing it* *guy that surely isn't about to explode into a million pieces with no idea how to put itself back together this time*

#gamer txt.#i cant i can do this i xant its too hard its too hard #zo yous know that post i made a bit ago? how o said i was fuvking desperate and hanging on by a thread?#well unsurprisingly as it turns out the sevonf ppl extended help i closed mysf back off and started lying again. who couldve daw that coming #ive vroken down plenty of times over the years but ibe always got back up ive bever had a 'i cant do it this time' moment #well i mean. until now #i just cant i cant do it it all hurts so much i cant enjoy anything i dread everutbing theres nothing theres fucking nkthing #it hurts all the time and i xant do anything about oy because no one in this house gives a shit #and i ca t do anything becayse eberyone online is do easy to ignore so easy to lie to #ive never veen this bad before ibe never dreaded life like this #i really dony know if i can xome back fron this #ya know on the 24th i would've been 3 years clean. i relapsed about a 2 months ago i wanna say? im really close to doing ot again #but i dont know if i wkuld stop. nor when i isuallu do anyeay i think i would keep going past what i know i could take #it would be stupid #no one gere would nhtive anything wrong until ot was too late id hust be making the worst mistake of my life #but despiye that. despite everything its so tempting. just for the chance that someone might notice #that someone might actuallu acknowledge theres sometjing wrong with and gove a fuck about me #i know this fanily. i know how they work. i know how they treated my xousin the last 2 tjmes she tried to off herself #but one of them would care right sureky? even just kne #i need someone yo see me to actually fucking see me and not all the walls ibe set up #someone to recognise that im in no state to take care of myself and never has been #something that will fight me when i obviously lie #but theres no way for me to get that #im not stupid enough to risk myself and um too much of a coward to call out in any other way #what the duck an i meant to do?#im a wreck thats too scared to tell anyone #ive been theoen into the middle of the ocean and the water is the strongest ots ever been #and there is the vague imsge of a life boat off in the distance but its too far and ny arm hurt too much to swim #even if i did make my arms hurt too much to climb aboard and theres no one on it to help me up either #so i just have to float here because at least drowning is less shameful than yaving made it to safety and been too weak to grasp it

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asksintheapartment · 4 months

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Just let me know if I can help -ca

Okay :D

#ooc fuck. god fucking damnit. you are sad and hurt stop acting happy #this pains me so much sorry #sbi apartment au #sleepy bois inc apartment au #ask #collecting anon #ca #aptau arc 9

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unhinged-jackles · 1 year

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my dumbass was like "oh let me rewatch 9x06, it's been years it can't hurt me i'm an adult now" and immediately i'm hit with cas trying learn how to be human by watching two customers at the gas-and-sip because dean kicked him out of the bunker and he doesn't have the winchesters to guide him i'm going to cry fuck this show

#like ik cas forgave dean #i did not #to this day i cannot watch 9x03 #because of the scene where dean kicks cas out #it hurts me so much #spn 9x06 #spn #supernatural #castiel

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inalandofsadclowns · 5 months

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Castiel: The Lord works-

Dean: You say "mysterious ways" so help me I'll kick your ass.

(4x02 Are You There, God? It's Me, Dean Winchester)

This was the first and the last time Dean froze when he realized he was threatening a freaking angel of the lord and that maybe he shouldn't be threatening a freaking angel of the lord. But there wasn't one single warning word of a consequence, so from then on Dean very deliberately started treating Cas like just some dude. A weird, dorky little guy. An A.V. club nerd. Holy tax accountant etc.

#he realized cas won't hurt him to prove him wrong and he took so much advantage of it #enough you're going in the queue #destiel #dean winchester #castiel #deancas #cas #dean #spn #supernatural

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hellhoundlair · 1 year

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sam getting injured while dean isnt around and cas is low on power or human at the time so he cant heal him but hes still fretting over him and sams talking hin through the process of giving him stitches and cas keeps looking up at him to make sure hes okay whenever he winces.

#cas being way to tender because now that hes human he knows how pain feels and he treats sam so gently in a way that sams not used to :)#sastiel #cas super gently wiping blood off sam and grimacing because he hates to sight of sam covered in blood and tells sam as much #and sam gets a little sad because he thinks about demon blood fropping off his chin and being an abomination #and cas is like. no. you fool. i couldnt care less about that. it just scares me to see you hurt when i feel powerless to help.

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orionsangel86 · 1 year

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I finally watched The Last of Us and yeah you guys were right to obsess about those old men