#so yeah I'll. go to sleep soon

[sergle]

I feel you, its so bad 😭, I had to go on a functioning adult human schedule for school and good god, out the house by 7am... bad bitches are not built for that..

WE REALLY ARE... and man, I can brute force myself into any schedule if there are things that HAVE to be done at certain times (like school, like you said) but it absolutely never feels "right". it feels like waking up at 3am to go to the airport type of shit. and it is truly so annoying... to get hit with the "that's a Normal schedule, you need to Fix your schedule" okay. alright. but let me hit you with this one. is it "normal" or is it just conducive to a 8 - 5. because no matter what my sleep schedule is like, or how locked in I am, I'm more clear headed at night + more productive and energetic. and no matter what, I'm tired during the day, especially the brightest times of day when the sun is allegedly supposed to be signaling my brain to be awake and alert. and it doesn't matter how much sleep I got.

#I can wake up in The Early Morning after going to bed at a reasonable hour the night prior and be exhausted throughout the daytime #and if I make it to the night then I'll suddenly perk back up. if I woke up at 7am that morning (with 8 hours of sleep under my belt) #I can comfortably stay awake until 5 or 6am that very next morning. #I need to Adapt to the daytime schedule- but if I loosen my grip on myself at all I will instantly SNAP back to the nighttime one. #full rubberband moment. #I don't need to transition back into it. my body just wants to click it back in place #I'll go right back into the swing of it as soon as I'm allowed to again #sergle answers #also I don't have trouble sleeping in daylight hours. yeah I have the curtains drawn in my room #but they aren't Blackout curtains. it's dim in there but not Dark. that doesn't impede me at all #it is crazy the way that people are so confident in telling me to my face that I'm on a bad and lazy schedule #bc they are categorizing my wake-up time as 'sleeping in' bc they're measuring it on their standard of when THEY go to bed. #i could go to bed at noon and wake up at 3pm and they'd say that i slept in

[b4kuch1n]

making of a feathered thing

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #tagging ship like a power word kill here #hi. linked there is a fic I wrote in uhhh. three hours? something like that #literally have no idea how to explain it to you at all. feel free to read if u wanna. mostly its like damn I keep puttings pictures into thi #s literary piece. #gonna cool down soon. oh boy is it hot here. probably why I wrote that #that took place in like november but the vibe is. summer. or something like that I really need to sleep #new ink arrived! its kinda watery! line still feathering! not into this! #I'll try to see if thats more my paper. dont enjoy that #but yeah Ive just been testing the ink and stuff out with these #doing these like. less than an hour each. no brain just go #man I wanna fly a kite... theres an open plot of land right next to me. I should try doing that #go out and hang out with so many bugs and fly a kite #gods. I need to sleep. idk not much to say here I simply think reki is a growing boy and he'll become great and awesome #thats all folks! have a good night. well good day. its 5am #sleep well! run so fast

[lienwyn]

So. I've always wanted to get better at drawing someone's likeness with just lines so I decided to do a couple of sketches of Ga On as practice. And then decided to up the difficulty and practise on expressions while still capturing his likeness. Because why make things easy for myself? References were used for all of them (even the bratty, pouty one).

And yes, we definitely needed Actual Baby Deer Kim Ga On. Because of reasons.

... I'm a VERY serious artist, I promise.

(Not going to lie, I kinda wanna draw Yo Han with wolf ears now...)

#Kim Ga On #The Devil Judge #Art #Fan Art #KDrama #I'll soon be able to draw him in my sleep #Which is a good life skill to have I guess? #But I'm stopping here #I promised myself I'd only do ten #And I think I learned to capture him pretty well in that time #ALSO #Not going to lie #I'm kind of tempted to colour the one with the deer ears #Because he's just so damn cute x'D #I was snickering the entire time I was drawing it #That is obviously the one where I freestyled the most #And took some liberties #His eyes are a little bigger than they should be for example #And his neck just a tiny bit longer #But it made him look more like a deer so yeah

[azogue2718]

Saiteru sketches for comfort...

#i'd draw more but my sleepy ass brain cant muster any more pen magic #and my hand feels ded so imma go sleep #i long to draw more baker-married AU Saiteru but likee. brain is ded rn #gotta study tom so might not upload anything else tomorrow #but yeah i'll feed ya'll more Saiki brothers bonding moments soon #i hope #saiteru #terusai #tdlosk #saiki x teruhashi #the disastrous life of saiki k #saiki kusuo #teruhashi kokomi #saiki k

[arsonist-chicken]

hopefully my last flatmate rant but hello this is not a drill, I got a spot in a student dormitory!! I'll know tomorrow when exactly I can move in but it will probably be very soon, and as soon as I know, I'm letting my landlord know I'm leaving and why exactly and be petty as hell on my way out and enjoy my new freedom 🥳🥳🥳

#it's a dorm by the airport so let's see if the windows there rattle like the ones in my old dorm did lol #it's a single bedroom with a shared bathroom and floor-wide shared kitchens which is not the room I was hoping for but #it's cheaper than my room now and maybe I can move to one with a kitchenette in march and until then it's fine #i've spent five years in a dormitory with shared kitchens; it's fine #let's see if 'the stench' miraculously disappears when I tell those [redacted] I'm leaving and they'll coincidentally have someone #they want to move in here. i kinda hope so just because it would mean less effort to find a new tenant for me #and my friend suggested letters to the neighbors saying goodbye and telling them who's been putting wine bottles in the plastic trash #and slamming doors at 2am #which i probably will. yeah. those two have made my life really unpleasant in just six weeks to the point I'm moving out #of an apartment I really like that's conveniently located and has a balcony. I'm gonna be petty when I leave. #mine #anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy you're all invited to my new dorm room to celebrate my new freedom #bring your own bed or sleeping bag as I am now back to a single instead of double bed; also maybe all just sit on the floor #we can stack up on the bed like pancakes I guess #hehehehe off I go hopefully very very soon to people who don't mock me daily and make me want to not go home #I technically really don't have time to move right now but oh well I'll make time #jess' flatmate rants #there'll be another one I'm sure but I can deal with anything now knowing I get to leave soon

[rox-of-iu]

me + mayhem going on a stupid silly hike for my stupid silly mental health

touched grass and i am normal again (lying)

#i will get back to drawing soon let me just sleep for a few years shdjhkfds #anyway photo credit to mayhem again i cant take pictures to save my life lol #btw the caption is obvs reference to that one hike video tiktok i think so credit to that also its not my joke #anywqay it was nice did help me a little bit #been feeling a bit down due to some personal problems ykno #and also due to not being accepted into a med uni I rly wanted to (but didn't put enough effort I'll confess) and that almost no one getsin #but i was only missing one point o(-( i was the first in line outside the capacity limit hasjkdhsahd #even tho my brain is rly small for it lets be real hfjsdfhksd but like hhsdjhshdjkhd those biches at physiotherapy baited me hdsjd #mqf i have failed you lol #also i have accidentaly gotten back into one piece as I do for like two weeks periodically every few months or so dhjsdhk #so im revisiting my olde blorbo trafalgar which is just reminding me of a fact that this was one of the fuckers my itty bitty young self - #- wanted to pursue medicine beacause of lmaoooo #bad timing one piece fixation!! bad bad!! sdhhdjshdjakshd #whatevrrr whatevr whatevr io dotn care! enough of that hahhskj #but hey as some of u may remeber im czech so haa whats up with the mountains right since we are very cute and 'down to earth' state hahaha #its cuz its actually from austria :)) #we went hiking there since theyre co by kamenem dohodil as they say #fuck english has the exactly same saying im moron that ruins my whole thing hjdsk 'a stone's throw away' whatever ignore that ig hahhah #so yeah very beautiful very powerful go touch some grass lads #also they are not stones throw away i was lying but close enough- #also random czechs stop jumpscaring me in other countries challenge why was there so many of us horrible horrible horrible

[daz4i]

one thing they don't tell you about song writing is you WILL get hit with inspiration at 1 am and you WILL have to write down the whole thing before you forget and you WILL find a tune for it while typing and now you gotta actually finish it so you can record a draft so you don't forget it and- oh look it's 2:22 am

#:( #BUT the draft slaps. imo. the singing's Not Great it's purely to save the melody somehow #also some parts def need to be polished lol when i sing along on my phone in bed I'm too lazy to go back and do retakes #(in part bc it can delete stuff i don't want deleted so.) so if there's a line I'm not sure about well. i have to wing it lol #anyway. this one exists in the same cinematic universe as loveless. aka fun upbeat pop songs about how i can't feel love #i like it! i like how my brain immediately went to a fun pop tune while writing. it's perfect. i love the irony of it so so much ♡ #it's also kinda funny to call it pop when there isn't any music ajdkflglh but i can hear it clearly in my head so 🧐 yeah. #yknow I'm surprised by how naturally this sort of thing comes to me now #and i find myself writing to match the tune rather than forcing a tune to match the lyrics #it also just. makes them better. sound more natural imo. less pretentious too :P #idk I'm excited that i managed to create smth sorry for the ramble 🙏 #i need to wake up at around 9:45 so wish me luck with that 🥲 bc i doubt I'll be able to sleep soon lol

[kanene-yaaay]

Sooo, Heya Heya, everyone!

I am actually quite not sure if I already made a post like thus because I think I just wrote this intro around 5 times already and never got to finish so ahwfywgeue idk hope I am not sounding like an old scratched vinyl but I wanted to share some stuff for the beans who read my fics!

Long short story: college is kicking my butt a LOT and lately (and by that I mean the last three months ahfwtwfwjge) I haven't been able to have a free moment to spend by writing and creating, which is,,, boring, but something I expected. Honestly I don't really know when I will have some time and energy to write (July is coming by w the holidays but aaaa energy and inspiration are hard auywfwffw) and that is quite disheartening that I can't just show up w a date to come back w posting fanfics but I didn't want to...just disappear w my writing and not explain anything.

About my reblogs! They are being affected too! However I still think I still can rb a good fic or a lovely fanart here and there when I get some time to breathe. So probably I will come back w them earlier than my fics ^v^)

Thank you for your patience if you read until here! Please accept this cookie 🍪

#I currently have more than 530 drafts so :“) #pain and suffering ahgwtwcwfefej #Kanene being Kanene #really need to go to sleep rn so ♡♡♡ take care beans #didn’t want to make this post when I am in low spirits but yeah sometimes we need to work w what we have. even when what we have is nothing #xD #hope it didn’t sound too meh. I'll try writing as soon as I am able to! :D I do miss taking some time to just put Beans into Situations

[yohankang]

just came back from the most fun concert in my life!!!

#i am DRENCHED in sweat.... #also i managed to talk to a vocalist for a moment after the concert and thanked him for being my inspiration etc. #and when he thanked ME and said a few nice words. a bitch might have cried #like god they were always one of the most important bands in my life #thanks to them i got into politics... i learned english by translating their songs 10 years ago.... #i made myself a tshirt with their song lyrics when i was 15. and they played this song today!!! like holy shit. when i tell you i cried #they also talked abt women and queer people in my country and that was SO. yeah i cried AGKSFJSFJS I TEARED UP LIKE 6 TIMES OKAY #i jumped and screamed and cried and had so much fun!!!!!! #and now i'm supposed to go to sleep 🤣 i'm so pumped i don't think i'll be able to fall asleep anytime soon #ahh i feel alive #k.txt #the band i'm talking about is anti-flag btw i forgot to mention their name sfkdfj

[coffeeworldsasaki]

My dog doesn't allow me to sleep more than 3 hours in a row anymore but through the power of actually drinking water I was still able to do a lot of work in 2 hours. Who could have said that being lucid is helpful

#tomorrow I'll see if i can make up for the lack of sleep through drinking 2 glasses of water as soon as i wake up so i can start to work #earlier? #after having slept 3 and 3 hours i fell asleep on the desk for another 2 #so i started so late today #I'll also go to sleep earlier 😔 #between his constant crying and the cold i struggle to exists 🙃 #oh also I'm once again able to eat which is nice after skipping dinner for 3 days #yeah tomorrow I'll do more and better

[the-yearning-astronaut]

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#im fucked #its 2am #i have to be up in like #6hrs to see a friend off and get my own shit packed so i can be to the airport #but another friend accidentally hit my biggest trigger earlier and im having a hard time letting my mind go quiet #because as soon as i do i get a fuckton of intrusive thoughts that make me nauseated and deeply upset #& ive already had some Valium & i can take more but if i do im not likely to get up on time in the morning & I'll also feel hella groggy #but not getting sleep is also not an option sooooo yeah #fucked is what i am #uggghhhhhh #☉ #tbd #fox thoughts #I wish i could delete things from my memory #or at least remove my brain and pickle it for a while #Fuck intrusive thoughts and fuck trauma triggers #ive been fucked up by this one since i was FIVE and it never ever doesn't feel absolutely fuckin awful #i feel like I'm gonna be sick 😭

[astrxealis]

finally actually working towards fixing my blogs lol 💪

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #THE PROBLEM W ME... though... is i want to fix every single post on this account. which isn't. very. good. #considering i have thousands of posts and i am a very busy student but will that stop me !! probably not. #i'm NOT going to change my tags anymore i think. that'd probably kill me #there's a website tho ik but STILL.....!! troublesome. so. anyway! #gna start writing here soon again but that's dependent on whether i get my shit fully together finally. aaand i'm fixing my selfship #sb and etc etc etc yes <3 it just turned 12 am honestly i don't think i have the braincells rn #i want to COLLAPSE !!!!! tbf i could. totally do so. there's nothing important for me to worry over anymore #i mean yeah i might have a quiz later today but our teacher hasn't responded to email my classmate sent eyaghhhhhhh #SO. idk. we were supposed to do a lab fun thingy yesterday BUT THEN we got. noon classes suspended. weird shit. sigh #so.....!!! so. #it's physics and honestly going to be pretty easy since they're giving the equations so i'll just brush up on my knowledge #and then the concepts etc ... oh god. or maybe i could just yk... sleep...! #idk. anyway. HII GOOD JUST-TURNED-TECHNICALLY-MORNING-BUT-IT'S-MIDNIGHT FROM ME ^_^ #i am so ill (figuratively) i am a mess but i'll Fix Things #yk what would be so good for this all... exercise..... i at least am able to walk a lot everyday bcs of school but STILL #okay bye from me now. i am. TIRED... bye <3

[kyaruun]

i need you to know just how important it is to run to the dentist as soon as you start feeling a bit sick or else you'll end up with a one week long tooth pain cause by the deepest cavity ever that no amount of painkillers in the universe can fix TT

#kuu.txt #i am literally dying. got an actual fever from this ;;;; #so i have a cavity. great. and i got an infection too. so i'm on antibiotics and i feel so awful TT #i'm dizzy and i spend the whole day just. sleeping the pain away because i can barely think like this #i'm going insane and they won't be able to start fixing it until monday? aaaaaaaaaaa #and don't get me started on the bill <.< #so yeah. i'll be back as soon as i stop feeling like this TT

[storfulsten]

haha livestreams man

ok not to be too cringe or whatever but I actually caught a sykkuno livestream today and was only like planning to have it on like the other screen while playing some game or whatever but thennn corpse was on it. I didn’t expect that, from what I’d heard second hand from some youtube comment on some vod channel, he hasn’t been in anyone’s livestreams for months, but he was actually there playing duck duck goose with a bunch of other cool people and if you’d told me this morning that I’d actually get to watch a livestream with corpse actually in it actually live I would not’ve taken you seriously lol oh man. such a silly thing to be excited about I know but hhhh idk these past couple weeks been messing with me man. and also idk, knowing what corpse is dealing with and such, ngl I am utterly clueless but also can’t help but worry a bit hearing he hasn’t played with people in months ya know. but ofc also like, I don’t know anything about anything so I’m probably just being paranoid and worrying for no reason and everyone else knows what he’s up to at all times lol. as is I don’t follow anyone of all the people involved in that circle of friends anywhere outside of youtube, and even then it’s only sykkuno and rae atm (outside of corpse himself but ofc he doesn’t upload anything anymore beside his music stuff I think lol), and tbh I only followed both of them within this past week I think so when I say I am utterly clueless I friggin mean it man geez lol either way none of this matters, man deserves his privacy and doesn’t owe anyone anything, I’m just glad to know he’s doing ok I guess, as lame and corny as it sounds ha, and apparently got big stuff happening this week so like, guess I’m looking forward to that if it’s for the public, whatever it is lol

#he's just.. so cool and groovy and I wish nothing but the best for him lol #livestream is kinda still going but I kinda tuned out when corpse left lol #no offense to the people still on but it is way past my bedtime and I'm tired and can't focus anymore haa #friggin timezones eugh #so yeah sorry just my sleep deprived brain focusing on all the wrong things lol I should probably go sleep soon #I'll shut up now ok cool #laters bye

[thatsitso]

Hello there, meet my fav oc ever, Victoria :]

I've had her for over 5 years, most of that time she was just living in my head, with an occasional drawing, but I decided to finally take proper care of her design. *Also trying to take proper care of her lore and world, but uhhh that's more complicated*

#i love her with all my heart #and i have so many sketches now I'll post her again soon #but yeah the lore at this point is nonexistent she's just living there #cause i mean it was supposed to be fantasy world and time travel stuff #and every now and then i just think about it before sleep and add ir change something but it all doesnt really makw sense #i mean maybe it does but i also dont have good reasons for most of that stuff i just know it happens but why and how #not really #i am unable to create good plot and this started as a comic idea she was supposed to be the main character #and now she's just kinda my most important oc in this universe and i mean she has special powers and stuff but?? #its a mess #i mean i dont mind it being like that in my head but it complicates talking about her #like idk what is canon #so im just not going to say anything and her story will die with me oh well #oc #idk what hashtag i should do for my ocs #thatsitsoocs #idk #original character #art #drawing #krita #digital art #character design #sketch #lineart #also her hair color should be a little different probably but like it looks different on every device so #these clothes are black and white for now cause i couldnt find any colors thatd fit #my baby #itsoocs #my art

[onocleqs]

can't fucking believe vent is still down. where else am i gonna yell about being ill

#anyway it is Day Two and. i feel better in some ways but worse in others #had the worlds most disrupted night of sleep and now i'm coughing a lot more than yesterday and it sucks #but my throat feels less sore for sure. feels like my body is fighting this thing off super hard 💪💪💪💪 shame about the full body aching #and overall lack of energy. ooouugghhh and the lost voice of course. but this always fucking happens #i'm gonna have to pass on games night tonight if i'm still coughing a lot and/or still missing my voice #but aaaauugghhh the love of my friends will surely heal me like nothing else. unless they make me laugh and send me into a coughing fit #rambling #my god yeah thats one of the worst parts of being ill. cant watch anything that makes me laugh. im fucking dying of boredom here #sure there's other stuff to watch but no funnies and no video games when that's all i want rn. havent watched any more flapjack in DAYS #it's nowhere near as bad as covid so this is entirely unnecessary but i am once again getting thr urge to document my symptoms #with a god damn spreadsheet. but it's not as complex at all so eh. #i can't say too much about how much better i'm feeling just yet tbh bc i'm still back in bed hfkdhgkdh i can walk sure #but i need to go downstairs and make breakfast soon which is the REAL first hurdle #also the question of am i ready for toast again or do i need to stick to porridge just to be safe #not gonna lie. i didn't love the noodles i had yesterday so i'm wondering if i'll have the appetite for something else #i want a sandwich so fucking bad but i don't want to eat dry bread at the same time. aaauuggghhh #my sibling offered me a hot chocolate last night and i had to turn that down bc chocolate plus cold for me is a big no #but aaauugghhh a nice warm drink probably would’ve been rlly nice #i return once again to announce that got damn! i feel notivesbly better than i didn an hour ago and my voice is like 30% back! #which means that by tonight i might very well be at a functional enough level to hang out with friends after all #i can always dip if my energy levels tank again or whatever but like honestly hanging out with them is like. i need that #the last two days havent been great and i miss them and we have a lot to talk about so yeah i will do everything in my power #to be there tonight. but i will not force myself or push myself too far. bc i am the king of self care 💪💪💪 #god sorry back again but. it continues to fascinate me how any kind of illness affects me in the same ways consistently regardless of what #kind of illness it is??? right now i have whats mainly a cough which is honestly rare for me when i get ill #it's usually more in the nose department and sometimes the throat but rarely the chest #and yet 9 out of 10 times i lose my voice. i Always struggle with low energy (altho thats a problem outside of being ill too jfdjgdhfhd) #have a hard time falling or staying asleep and i get nauseous if i sleep laying down enough #but also i am the king of hard and fast aka i get like 24 terrible hours and then recovery is super quick. i'll be back to 100% health in #less than a week. my poor fucking step dad has been in stage one for a WEEK it's really awful. but i have the power of youth on my side 💪