#some rough shit for a while there

[moghedien]

no but you don’t understand how much Lae’zel’s romance starting with having the most crazy nasty rough sex imaginable multiple times then turning into her being like “w-what if we k-kissed 🥺 and we held hands 👉👈 m-maybe you can hold me gently 🥺👉👈” is RUINING ME

#like SHE is the one that decided the sex was gonna be rough and nasty #and was like ‘this is normal sex’ #but actually she’s secretly into some freaky shit #she needs to gently kiss your forehead and stroke your cheek while gazing into your eyes #lae'zel #bg3 #baldur's gate 3

[kyleecarrigan]

Sorta here. Sorta not. 🥴

#personal #me #selfie #my stupid face #sheer #its been a while. #haven’t really felt like myself lately #shits been rough #had some time this morning so why not #i missed the nipple clamps 🤤😅 #girls with tattoos #send anons #maybe #idk

[deku-verde]

“Is This A Date?” Part 2

(part 1)

the end~

#bakudeku #bkdk #mha #my art #holy shit this one took me so long to get out #i kept rewriting the script at first #and then i finally settled on something i liked #and then i drew all of the roughs #and then i changed the script again #so i redrew some of the panels #and then i did the finished lines #and then i rewrote the script #and then i wanted to post it this morning after i woke up #but then i rewrote more of the dialogue #it has been #a ~process~ #i just had a lot i wanted them to say but also i didnt want this to be 20 pages long #it was originally supposed to be 5 not 10 #but clearly i got carried away oops #anyways hopefully back to regularly scheduled posting for a while #hello if youre reading this youre lovely

[reel-fear]

FUCK the graphic novel, this is what I'm watching when it comes out instead of buying it <3<3

#batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #fun fact I was making a post full of cool bendy animations people should watch and support when the GN shit happened #so I had to put off making that fun post in order to post about how unhappy white norman made me #and probably for a while I will not be talking positively abt bendy in general bc Im genuinely so mad I dont want to #but uh everyone should watch this and give it nice attention you know comment n like give it a boost in the algorithm n such #a lot of people put a lot of hard work into it and it deserves it even if its a bit rough in some places #I love this genuinely its such a labour of love #so sad the talented community that makes such marvelous things constantly gets sold crap by the devs #Youtube

[orcelito]

Wild that anytime I post an update a lot of people read it and are even excited about it and have their own thoughts and reactions to it that I'll never know.

Comments are only the very tip of the iceberg with it. And I am Very grateful to commenters for letting me in on it. But in the same way that I'll be excited with my friends when a fic we love updates, it's likely that Other people enthuse with Their friends when my fic updates. And it's just so strange. An experience I'll never have access to.

Everyone's relationship with my fic is unique. So many different people with so many different circumstances and preferences... and the number of people that have told me that my fic is one of their favorites, some even saying it's their Favorite favorite... every single one of them have their own relationship with my writing.

It's just interesting to me. I think and think and think on my writing. I have my plans for basically the entire fic, the way I want it to end already thought out, all the major plot beats and the relationship progressions, All of that thought out. I love my writing so very much, but I'm on the inside looking out. This is my mechanical horse, and I'm in here laying out the groundwork and pulling levers and constructing limbs, puttering away making the horse move. Forever and always, my relationship with it will be more intimate than anyone's, and yet more clinical. Because I know it better than the back of my own hand, but I'll never have the experience of reading it fresh. Of reading it without knowing everything that's going to happen from now to the end and beyond. I won't have the thrill of the plot twists I have planned, the delight at seeing things progress, the horror at seeing things go wrong...

This is my mechanical horse, and I'm making it move.

I just always wonder what it must be like to see it from the outside. I hope to others that it's a pretty horse.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #didnt mean to write this much about the concept but i really am so... #jealous almost. id love to be able to read my fic as a reader. #because it's tailor made to my tastes Exactly. #and i know it's good writing. i surprise myself even sometimes with how good things end up. #it's never a doubt in my mind that i'll make things good. even the harder things . while bringing trepitation . i know i'll figure them out. #the relationship a fic writer has with their own fic is so... yeah. intimate. but still somehow emotionally removed. #but thats how it goes with any art piece i think #the creator sees all the bits and pieces that went into it. remembers the thoughts as they made it #they know their work better than Anyone Else. but they'll never be able to experience it like an outsider. #is my fic helping someone through a rough breakup? is it something someone rereads when theyre sad? #is it a fic that people stay up way too late reading? the fic that someone discovers and consumes all within a day? #that voracious love. ive experienced it many times with other fics. but i can never experience it with my own. #but in the end. that's okay. i will just continue to do as i wish with it. and maybe people will continue to like it. #it is my goal to make a fic that people will never forget. what that may mean differs depending on the person. #i want it to be the best fic it can be. and i will make it so with every brick i lay down. #puttering about for days and weeks and months. it's Most of what i think about. it's my impact on the world. #and it's sitting for 3 hours after work in the storage room writing until im shivering but Satisfied with a productive writing session #it's writing some of my most emotional scenes while sitting for an hour on the toilet #no one else knows what the toilet written scenes are. but I Do. such is my relationship with my fic. #(the focus in the Quiet Rooms cannot be underestimated. the bathroom is indeed one of the Quiet Rooms lol) #& man. ive rambled so much now. but i just love my fic so very much #i'll never be an ITNL reader. and that's okay. because i'm its writer. & that's a status that No One Else can boast. #even those people who state that it's their Favorite favorite cant rival the intimacy of my own relationship with it. #I Am Its Writer and that means so very much to me. #i... really do love my fic y'all

[hahniana]

Ok I'm hearing the dub of episode 4 dropped the fucking ball on the orc voice acting what the fuck did they do

#dungeon meshi #I've only seen the sub and the spanish dub and they were like. normal to me? with the difference being yknow a more rough and gravelly voice #but even some other orcs sounded more normal so it was just a zon thing #maybe its possible i didnt pick up on weirdness since 1. im not familiar with japanese at all #or 2. while i can understand spanish things can fly over my head if they decided to do some. weird shit. #i think I might've noticed one thing in the english subs with like..some word choices like uhhh i cant remember anything specific #i just remember one subtitle line being kinda off but didnt think much of it #i will rewatch in english when i get out of bed. eventually its so cold.

[fyodorkitkat]

Going into 2024 with a respect for what I've lost but hope for roads ahead 🙏💜

#this year was rough but what i found myself thinking about mostly this morning was my late friend tammy. and then subsequently everyone #else ive lost in the past few years #yes things were difficult with relationships jobs general life things. a lot of things changed for me in the last months as well that #were out of my control and because of that infuriated me #and i found myself thinking about what tammy would have probably said to me if she had been alive and in her right mind while i was going #through all of these things #and she would have said 'shut the fuck up jay. if you're telling me this then you're fine and you got to make it. you got to be here so #yell if you want to break some shit if you need to. but just keeping looking forward' #she said things similar to me before so it is like i heard it in her raspy yet lilted voice. anyways this is getting really sentimental #and personal but. i wont tempt things saying 2024 will be great for me. but at the very least i have hope i can make it what i #need it to be. no matter what ends up happening #if you read this ty and sry sry. i hope you have a nice start to your new year and plenty of calm vibes this year #-pers #-cw death mention #but it is in the tags #also super secret lue lore with a prev name drop but i wasnt thinking about that idc yall can know one of my old ones im not editing it

[bandzboy]

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#i’ll be sincere for a second #i’ve been wanting to take a social media break for a while #but with the boycott and the awful things happening in the world #obviously i can’t #especially bc i committed myself to posting updates #i am mostly tired bc of kpop stans and so called kpop community #bc having to deal with people being boycott denialists and then #people being dumb and hateful to idols for no reason #i just CANT #and even realizing how insanely the industry is sometimes #makes me not wanna be here it’s really like 😭 rough #i cant enjoy music for many reasons #also industry i mean both korean and western at the same time #so in general #it’s been a constant turn off and it’s sucks #but yeah twt is the only place i get actual facts abt the ongoing genocide #and now i committed to this and now i can’t give up #it’s not that i want to give up i am willing to this #it sucks that it has to be in places where i see a shitty comment abt something #like kpop related said by an annoying kpop stan and i just can’t #it’s dumb but my mental hasn’t been strong for a while #so that’s why shit is getting to me more easily #i just wanna do what i gotta do without worrying some random ass person on the internet #is gonna ruin my day #delete later

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

Every day is a culture shock

Bro ive been on the internet for how long and I'm still in a perpetual state of culture shock?

I feel insane when I hear that people don't take family roles or family duty as seriously as I do.

My best friend loves to send me posts of People complaining about family and we both look like

Oh that's crazy! They're not even defending the family honor and reputation from outsiders????? Literally insane!! Even if you hate your family, you still have to defend them from outsiders. What's even going on?

To us it's like instinct. Even if your parents are straight up evil, you still have access to connections and favors by virtue of your last name. You have to defend the last name so you can keep using that. It's not a common idea? CRAZY! And what about your younger generations? You want to ruin it for them too?

Despite being females, we are both the firstborn son of our households. And then we go online and nobody knows wtf we're talking about

Wtf you mean you're the oldest and you're not at least the firstborn daughter? It comes with birth. You don't have any of those duties? Then what do you do?

Like obv were not robots. I have a lot of friends that didn't do some of their duties. Whether they disagreed or were lazy or just didn't want to, the word "duty" is always there. "That duty was stupid so I didn't do it". Fair. Your choice.

dude ok I know I'm aware other cultures exist and they're different. I didn't realize in practice its SO different. people look at me like I'm fucking insane bro!!!

I had a conversation with a girl and she's like "you're so lucky you have a great relationship with your dad!" And I was like "not all my siblings have this close relationship. I earned my right to stand as his equal by completing all my family duties (almost) perfectly"

Like I earned my right that when we argue I can say he's "being cringe". I earned my right to argue actually. I earned this by repeatedly demonstrating responsibility, maturity, and correct priorities.

Dude that girl said this sounds like child abuse and I was like dawg wtf are you talking about 💀 your parents don't let you earn standing? Do they even love you? (That was mainly ego. She insulted my family so I tried to as well).

I'm guilty of growing up in a mixed asian society. My best friend grew up also In a mixed Asian society but a different one. In mine, the largest groups were Chinese, Vietnamese, Thai and Korean followed by every other kind of Asian.

Her area's largest groups were japanese, Chinese, Vietnamese, Indian followed by every other kind of Asian.

So it's kinda different but close enough. She knows how to eat with her hands and I know how to eat with chopsticks. We all celebrate 2 kinds of lunar new year. One by the south asian lunar calendar and one by the east Asian lunar calendar (don't ask, I don't know why we have 2 lunar calendars. You would think there's only 1?)

Both our areas, aunties will scold you if they hear you talk disrespectfully to your parents. Both our areas people will look down on you for not knowing your home language. Both our areas, the elders expect proper acknowledgement.

There are differences too. In my area, those who disrespect you must be disrespected In return. It's an offense to your family that they think they are allowed to disrespect you. In her area, the disrespect will happen but not to the face. You have to show you're from a better family. Here you have to show you are aware of the bullshit and you won't let it slide. I think its a difference between acting on behalf of your family vs acting with permission from your family. That's my speculation.

When teachers at my school said "grades don't matter" we said "then don't grade us? Liar". When teachers at her school said that they said "we understand, thank you for telling us" and then told their parents and the parents filed a report against the teachers for intentional misleading and sabotage.

The levels or respect and politeness and what kinds of actions imply what about your family were a culture shock to me. When I visit her, I have to adjust to be a lot more mellow and polite than I have to show here. Here, the elders accept any proper acknowledgement like "hi grandma" is fine. Even "hello" or a wave is fine. There, elders expect you to acknowledge them according to their culture. I personally fuck this up so bad because I don't even know who they are so i just copy what my friend is doing. And then I get the relation wrong and then they stare at me. Sometimes I'm lucky.

Over here, we don't really know too many people. It's not as social. Where she lives, everyone knows everyone.

I don't know how to describe this melding aside from just generally "asian" .

I log on to the internet and there's no shared culture except for speaking English 🤣 HAH.

It's like the difference between going to a swimming pool vs a jacuzzi

Vs jumping into a pile of leaves

Previously the common factor was water. Now the common factor is that it's matter.

I'm being so deadass I feel like me and some fictional characters from cultivation novels have more in common

#the craziest part is when we meet asians who didnt grow up around asians and we also dont connect like at all #we were talking to one and that guy was like oh yeah family honor duties blah blah my parents told about that ancient shit. i #and were like ..... ANCIENT??????? #it certainly helps when your neighbors are drilling in the exact same fillial code into their kids in laos while yours are in hindi or cant #korean aunties scolding me for having a temper tantrum in broken english is a vibe #some words #on a smaller scale you know what else is a culture shock #how much east asians value fruit as a gift #south asia we have coconuts and fruits in abundance so our culture sees fruit as love but its not THAT expensive #idk about chinese but apparently korea fruits are FUCKING EXPENSIVE #one time my mom cut fruit and brought it to the park where we were all playing and the moms were like you are a saint #and my mom was like its only natural. the kids are playing so i should feed them. and theyre like but its fruit #and i was like yeah. its good for us. my mom wouldnt try to poison us. i didnt realize why it was such a big deal #because fruit prices here are kinda rough now but not THAT expensive. #apparently the gesture means everything #i dont even know what the point of this was. i just wanted to say it #also if you recognize which locations im talking about by description..... hehehehe #for us the luxury good is nuts and all the chinese friends whose house ive been to their mom always offers roasted nuts #and im like gawdDAMN you guys rich or something? im that much of an honored guest?

[urleoo]

Why do you hate autotune so much?

I don’t hate it i just think it’s lazy

#Like even I’m fine with ppl using it on studio recordings bc companies hardly ever tolerate anything least than perfect #But on lives too?? Come on man #It gets annoying and repetitive after a while #Also ion think some of u realize exactly how much auto tune does like there was a video on yt #Of this old lady getting recorded singing(very untrained lots of mistakes) and after some “basic pitch corrections” on auto tune #boom suddenly she sounds like a professional #also controversial but I WANT to hear the human in a singer #Ion give a shit if a singer gets out of breath during a performance it adds to the experience #I want to hear the emotion in their voice I want to hear them stutter and drop a pitch and make mistakes #Not just sing in all “perfecr notes” like a good damn robot #A lot of ppl argue that it’s hard to maintain good voice when dancing but believe me I do concerts n shii on my own too #And it ain’t that hard if u train sure there’ll be a little roughness here n there but u won’t become horrible suddenly #<- ion tryna say I’m better than all those pro singers bc mf be serious I rlly am fucking not #so if I can do that so can they!!!!

[mejomonster]

To get good at telling stories... writing stories... one must... practice by writing stories ;-;

#rant #i tell u what i think id have functioned well in a wrbnovel publishing format. but i dont think #any good sites for that exist in english as of yet? (i think theres one but its contract is Yikes i heard) #but just like. the idea of publishing chapter ever 1-2 weeks until youre done. maybe 20 chapters maube 2000. maybr you never finish. #most of the chapters free and maybe idk you make some advertizing money on ads viewed on your chapter page. or make the last couple extras #paid only idk. but the big thing? the point im getting to - sorry i got lost in the sauce - #my point is: you probably DO write shit at first. or write fine with some SHIT ARCS or rushed chapters to hit ur weekly updates #and 5 years from then youll look back and wanna overhaul some of those fucking stories (weve seen many a jjwxc writer revise later). #but wow will you have practiced writing a LOT. #youll have 100k 500k 1 million 5 million words worth of writing under your belt in a few years #and youll probably be a hell of a lot better at knowing how to make more chaptwrs on average interezsting and Building Consistently to your #main plot and arcs. you'll probably get much bettwr at raw scheduling of wriitng and pre-planning that works for you and structure mapping #youll have a much better idea of your personal strengths whrn you need to lean on them for a rough month when your story's turned #into a mess. youll value your own writing more (i hope) cause LOOK how much you fucking accomplished. #like. npss? dmbjs author? idk about others but i can definitely see the improvement in wriitng skill #between dmbj book 1 and the recent heihua book and mountain village book #(in terms of style in word choice. and goals for the story set out to be told) #i look at priest and newer novels by priest are as impressive as any literary novel ive ever analysed #(and older ones while i also love i do see their slightly rougher word choice and how some were executed a bit #more up and down/not as tightly) #i just. agh. i am :c feeling that ill probably write 200k words this year #and none of it will be as good as i want. but i NEED to write these first 200k #because the only way i get better. get to the way i want to write. is to make the progress of improvement with this first 200k. #ToT fun fact i wrote 170k words this year. WOW. and maybe 400k words of fanfic in the 4 years prior (so 100k words on average) #i know i am imptoving. i just gotta keep at it. #also? annoying i cant focus my attention lmao. 160k words is mkre than enough to finish a 1st draft novel #but me? i split those among like 20 projects this year. so the novel most written so far is still only at 40k #and im probably going to need 60k more words to finish it

[gay-victorian-astronomer]

big feeling insecure about my writing hours

wish I could write faster. wish I had more time to do it. wish I weren't so ambitious, so verbose. wish I weren't so perfectionistic and could embrace the "write the parts you want and stick it together with duct tape" approach. wish I could know that my fixation on this fandom would carry me through the process of writing this (and ideally my other fic ideas too). wish I could know that people will still care about this story when I'm done with it (wish I could know that people are interested in it now). wish I weren't still on chapter fucking three of this fucking eight chapter fic. wish I had the technical skills to pull it off.

wishing for a lot of things and feeling like I'm going to get none of them.

#chattering #vent #sorry y'all I haven't been feeling great about myself lately and evidently that's been bleeding into my feelings about my writing #feels like I kinda needed to get that out of my system #I also might try and talk to one of the creative writing professors about some of this at the writer's lounge tomorrow #he might have some advice #idk man it's been a rough couple weeks #I'm having trouble finding enough time to devote to my schoolwork let alone writing- I get one guaranteed 2 hour block a week and that's IT #and a lot of my creative juices are getting redirected towards my poetry class #to anyone else who's trying to write fanfic while being a college student you are stronger than any US marine this shit is HARD

[moshieee]

Ew, essays :[

I miss the old days of kindergarten when we attempted to color butterflies and ate erasers and glue

-🎁

I hated kindergarten

Essays may suck but at least now I'm not the weird kid in the corner wishing I had friends

However yes I absolutely despise essays with all my being... in fact!

Achievement unlocked: you somehow found a topic moshie hates enough and on a bad day to start them ranting in the tags...

Warning there are curse words, poor spelling, and caps locks

Sorry in advance

#asks #off topic #seriously tho i hate essays so much #one of them is already 5 pages and thats just the rough draft #i better get a fucking high pass on that shit or i will scream #shes actually making us focus on out writing process and OH HO.HO BOY IS MINE A MESS #I SWEAR ITS LIKE TRYING TO MAKE A SKETCH BUT YOU KEEP PAINTING CERTAIN PARTS BECAUSE IT HAS TO LOOK NICE #ONLY TO RELIZE OH WAIT MAYBE THAT DOESN'T GO THERE AND I SHOULD ACTUALLY SHIFT IT AROUND #OR MAYBE I COULD SWAP THIS TOO BE THAT LOOKS AWFUL AND IT JUST KEEPS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE TILL ITS A RIVER OF BLOOD AND PAINT #AND SHE WANTS TO SEE MY ROUGH DRAFT??? HONNEY YOU WOULD HAVE A BETTER CHANCE AT READING THE MARIO SUNSHINE SPEEDRUN CATEGORY BACKWARDS THEN #UNDERSTANDING WHAT THE FUCK IM TRYING TO WRITE ITS WHY I HAVE TO WRITE IT ALL IN ONE GO OTHERWISE I HAVE TO LOOK BACK AND UNDERSTAND WHAT #WAS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD WHILE LOOKING THROUGH THIS MESS!!! OOOHH WHAT? YOU WANT ME TO ORGANIZE THIS WELL SHIT THATS GOING TO TAKE EVEN #LONGER YOU ALREADY GOT ME WRITING WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME STOP MUCH LESS MAKE ME SWITCH SUBJECTS TO ANOTHER ESSAY HALF WAY THROUGH OH BU #AND GUESS WHAT!???? ONE PAGE! DOUBLE SPACE! AND IM NOT GOING TO GIVEN GIVE YOU A DIRECTION TO WRITE IN JUST ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT WE LEARNED #IN THESE LAST TWO WEEKS! TWO WEEKS FUCKING HELL DO YOU KNOW HOW INDECISIVE AND FORGETFUL I AM??? MUCH LESS THE FACT KTS ABOUT ETHNICS #I DIDNT EVEN EANT TO TAKE AN ETHNICS CLASS I WANTED ETHICS I FUCKING HATE EVERY SO MUCH RIGHT NOW #LIKE YEA SURE I KNOW THEY'RE IMPORTANT BUT I STILL HATE ESSAYS and j know my teachers are trying their best... #but jeese ethnics is such a difficult topic because on one had yea i relate to what these people are going through im part of the LGBT #are statistics are very similar but im also bery much a white person and not openly trans/non binary i dont want to look like some stuck up #white person going oooo look at the poor minorities i can TotAlLy relate and now im going to talk about me #because im genuinely scared of coming out idk whos accepting and whos not at least online im safe and can block people... #jeese im sorry for the rant i shouldn't have gone on that much less my art blog #this is supposed to be a positive blog but i just need to put this somewhere or i feel im going to cry out of frustration im sorry #rant post #system #oops moshie got emotional

[floral-hex]

I’m fucking disabled

#I had this conversation with my therapist last week. I’ll give you the secret HIPAA breaking rundown #I HATE calling myself disabled #I don’t know why. there’s no shame in it. it’s just ya know it’s just what I am #but I still can’t get it into my head that yes I’m kinda fucking disabled #because here I am sitting on this creaky futon unable to understand anything anyone is saying to me bc my hearing is so bad #it’s a bad hearing day! it happens! some days are good! today is very much not so good! #so I told my therapist I’m way cool with telling people I have mental health issues #but when it comes to hearing it’s ‘oh no I’m not REALLY disabled. I just uhhhhh can’t uhhh fuckin hear sometimes 🤷🏻‍♂️ that’s normal right?’ #and he’s like no my sweet boy you are disabled you need to own that shit #okay… he didn’t say it like that but this is my flashback please let me have this #let me be a sweetie boy in my own mind #he said it’s usually the reverse: people don’t like to admit mental health issues but will mention physical disabilities #I just… I spent 30 something years with great hearing and then it all just got taken from me out of the blue and no one knows why #and I hate that. I’m so angry. I’m so fucking angry and scared and alone #and I hate admitting that yes I am disabled. like really disabled. it feels like defeat. #and it shouldn’t. like I said it’s just kinda what I am now. It’s like saying I breathe or I’m allergic to birds. it just is me. #sorry I’m just having a rough day #I got about an hour of sleep and now I’m holding down the fort while a home inspector and the new buyer look through the house #and I can’t talk to either of them. I can’t understand them talking to each other. it’s isolating. #I have therapy later and I’m hoping I’ll be able to communicate and hear during it. I really just need someone to talk to #I miss talking to people in person. I can still do that it just can take a bit of work and I hate subjecting people to putting up with me #I feel so needy. I just want some human connection. I want to know I can still make this work. #gosh this is whiny. sorry about that. just needed a quick vent to get me through the next few hours #anyway I love you. probably. maybe… ehhh #you can ignore this #text

[meatriarch]

specifically looking at the hewitts since granted i know more on the remakes than the others but,

the hewitts only got vague, limited police action looking into them in '03 after erin chops thomas' arm off and gets away. and even though theres' coverage of it and everything, that literally ONLY happens after 4-5 straight years of the hewitts doing what they do, from 69-73 in terms of solely the remake timeline.

that's still a shitton of time to be ACTIVELY killing people to y'know. not fucking die yourselves. then combine that with the sawyers - their additional family members, their own trails of ruthlessness added into the mix, and this entire combined family unit likely has kill counts all around in the hundreds if not even way past that.

but even with the police involvement in the remakes?

its all SO SLOPPY, its hardly conducted with any real CARE about their own well-beings. like??? ya'll went into that house while THOMAS was STILL THERE... didnt even SECURE THE HOUSE.....

and even with the found footage? no arrests, presumably. the remaining hewitts are still at large, thomas is still at large. like... all ya'll did was corral them to their fucking confusing ass tunnel system and made luda (if we count the comics) far more involved and ruthless in the actual killings than she was in the movies lol

and yes technically speaking with charlie's death that could sever the stronghold they've got on the police and sheriffs' around them - but at the same time - how bad would it look of them to SUDDENLY flip a switch and try to unpack the years worth of missing persons, cold cases, murders, kidnappings, break-ins, assaults, etc etc that they swept under the rug? that's WAY too much man power, esp for back then. no one is gonna do that shit.

so. i truly dont think they have much to worry about even in the event of charlie dying - because the fear and influence they've instilled stands for law enforcement to continue to do fuck all - to save and cover their own asses.

#[ ♡ ] ── * the hewitt family. / 𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘦. #its incredibly tragic because like. its so OBVIOUS something GOD AWFUL happened to this group of kids? theyre literally needing some rough #medical attention yknow. its so fucking clear they went through something BAD. and yet? crickets. theyre shrugged off. dismissed. #given the cold shoulder. told their friend(s) simply ran away. told they mustve been high or on something and cant recall clearly. #even between maria going missing to pre-basement brawl its like. NO ONES taking them seriously. everyone in towns they search in dismiss #them. no ones seen or heard anything. LEO's are just. useless and rude and telling them not to interfere. telling to go home. telling them #to let them handle things when it becomes VERY obvious they just dont give a shit - that theyre avoiding certain locations #like yes i moved maria's timeline of being missing up but like - even while the searches were still considered active? there was barely any #movement or care or concern or manpower that the depts were gathering or investigating. like. how does someone vanish into thin air? #like they tried to imply maria must've - at some point? they were so out of their league so roadblocked so dismissed every step of the way. #maria with the attempt of a search and youre nearly found!!!....and then youre told your friends all left...and they never came remotely #close to where youre kept to find you. lee with sacrificing himself hoping it gives the rest of them a chance to get away - that someone #lives in order to rain down hell on the family in the sense of justice and yet. not a word is said over broadcasts about him - at least #nothing substantial. no search. no missing persons report. nothing. and then danny? my dan the man? the guy with little family ties? #my guy with a strained relationship with his father? whose only friends are again in the situation of 'no one believes us'? #you think theres even a PEEP about him whatsoever? in any capacity? my guy would be lost to the ether - literally. NO ONE but the #friends would ever give a shit if he went missing.

[the-kipsabian]

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#death // #really tho just. losing two family members within a week from one another is. really rough #even if it is from natural causes and old age it still feels very sudden #and even if we werent that close it still hurts #little things remind me of the grandparents i dont have anymore. like making dinner and realizing im not eating their cooking again #or my grandmas favorite songs. its just. rough #im just thinking a lot. and not looking forward to two funerals within the next few weeks #just.. yeah. i feel kinda fucked up on the inside. more so than usually but for once not cause of myself #its. odd to me. grief hasnt really been constant in my life in years. apart from losing my brothers cat few years ago #before that i lost my other grandma like eleven years ago. since then immediate family has been okay #its just weird. i dont really know how to grief. it comes in waves and odd memories and it feels really.. idk. off to me #ive had few crying fits over some random things but i just feel. numb. maybe its cause of the sudden frequency of these #or cause i dont know how to deal. its strange to me. feels out of place to mourn something other than what i made myself lost #maybe its cause while there was a connection there was a larger disconnection. i havent seen either of them since covid started #idk. regrets and shit and whatnot. i just feel all but nothing at the same time #just. just saying. idk. just wanna clean my brain a little. its been a difficult day. sorry #night is an absolute mess on main