#someone could find the right words

[huitandahalf]

I know that we got plenty of options as to how everything with the Ender King is going to go down, but a thought that has not left my mind was the idea of the Ender King downing qPhil in some way and taking him away. Which means there would be a chat message for all to see :)

For example :)

#qsmp #qsmp philza #this could be better or worse depending on how many people qPhil tells about the whole mess (itll probably be 0 tbh) #cause if he tells no one #not even his kids #then it will be a gut punch #like pov you are chayanne and tallulah #you just lost your godfather in Tubbo #you may have just lost someone who really cares for you in Bad #and you gotta hold onto your dad right? if something was wrong he would have told you right? he promised to not keep secrets right? #and now hes gone without a word #was the Ender King that much of a threat that he could take your dad without any hint that it could happen? or were there just signs #that you missed. that you could have seen and stopped. you could have saved your dad but you didnt. why didnt you notice him change? #and to a lesser extent there is also the gut punch to fitmc #pov you are fitmc #phil promised to keep you updated on all the hallucination stuff and hasnt said anything to you about it in a long time #thats a good sign right? itd be bad if the Ender King was real and came to help phil anyway #he had some crying obsidian appear in his inventory? clearly the admins are messing with him it couldnt be anything #and now hes gone #and you find out that he was hiding things from you from his children #there were more messages more hallucinations #why didnt he tell you? #did he not trust you? hes right to do it but you thought he trusted you with this at the very least #and now #what do you do? #you dont even know where to start in looking for him #did he really trust you that little?

[rottengurlz]

lover, don't touch me // leave, i am a danger to you // but ooh, i hunger for you

#this is leona's vampire lover audra #i guess you could say the first time they met was when audra nearly killed her in a blood lust because she hadnt fed in so long #idk how to describe it well but audra suddenly stopped devouring her when leona looked at her with no fear in her eyes #but looked at audra like she was something to worship #she whispered that audra was so beautiful even as her own blood was splattered between them and staining her lips #leona had never seen someone or something so perfect and powerful #power that she wanted and knew exactly how to get when audra whimpered over the slightest bit of praise #i never talk about them but i am CONSTANTLY thinking about them <3 #some fun little facts is leona killed her husband in cold blood because he was pitiful and boring #she married the first person to show any interest in her just to get away from her family #he would have been a perfectly good husband for anyone else #but the best part of their marriage was when she stabbed him in the stomach 47 times and felt his blood splatter against her skin #for audra OBVIOUSLY had to make another oc who would do anything to be loved even if it means destroying herself #audra was turned very suddenly and without any guidance #she murdered her lover without even realizing it she opened her eyes to find them splattered across every surface of the room #because of that shes done everything she can to protect herself from others even if it means starving herself of blood #until she goes into a frenzy #leona is the first person she has ever willingly fed off of #idk if willingly is the right word since leona practically begs her to do it #i really want to remake leona now......... #i like how leona looks but i want her to match audra better #mysims #the sims 4 #simblr #sims 4 screenshots #sims 4 cas #ts4 cas #sims 4 edit #ts4

[girlmetalsonic]

something that is like the baseline of amys entire character to me is that shes lonely. shes clingy and physically affectionate in a way none of her friends really are, shes always getting pushed aside and left behind. yeah, she helps out people she doesnt know because shes a nice person, but also, she sees part of herself in them. she wont leave someone else behind because she knows the feeling —and more importantly, hates the feeling. if she doesnt have somebody to stand by her and be there for her, then shes going to be that person for everybody else. something something her obsession with sonic is really just like a manifestation of that desire for closeness with someone, and she thinks that romance is the only way to get that. idk... this hedgehog can have so many abandonment issues.

#me posts #amy rose #sth #sonic the hedgehog #and this is not to say at all that romance is the only way to have 'real' love or anything #just that yknow part of her breaking free of that would also be realizing that she just wants closeness with someone and it doesnt- #-have to be romantic #aroace amy could fit this i suppose and she just doesnt know it yknow. thats not my hc but i support their beliefs if that makes sense #she wants to be loved and she wants to love and she doesnt really get a big outlet for that so she shares it with everyone she sees #also i didnt wanna jam up the post but GAMMA!! this is partially abt gamma she helps him find out how to love and how to find joy in it- #-bc its what she wants for herself. she sees him and sees how completely alone he is and she wants to help him. idk idk something something #-when she was locked in the cell she saw part of herself staring back at her #gamma parallels to amy is SLEPT ON i stg i could make a whole other post about it #idk.. whenever im writing amy or just thinking abt how shed interact with others its always from the lens that she craves closeness with- #-others. she wants people to just stay for once. #does this make any sense. idk man im rambling here #my worst nightmare is characterizing her wrong its such a fine line and sometimes the words do not come out of my brain right #btw this is NOT me dissing amy i love amy. she is like top three favorite character. #important context: im typing this with amy firefox theme rn ok. ok im an amy fan. #she points at the minimize button like shes telling me to log off #jesus christ i just scrolled back up i love to put a whole other post in the notes dont i

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

theres a turn of phrase i use that im pretty sure is neither english nor dutch and also warps the function of the word 'right' in both languages at the same time but i keep using it bc it's just quicker than any other way and im a writer of shortcuts

#p sure ive turned 'right' into a noun here which. it is not? #at least not in the sense that im using it here #when someone is right. thats not a noun. #in iemand gelijk geven it does sort of sound like it could be a noun but im not sure #i think i went. 'iemand gelijk geven' (lit. give someone right. 'admit someone IS right') -> #'haar gelijk geven' (lit. give HER right. 'admit SHE'S right') -> #this #i just fudged the verb and 'right' went wobbly prob bc it has a different function in english and dutch but im not sure #either way i dont think this is parseable to an english reader #nonetheless i will keep using it #'who cares if they know what i mean i like these words in this way' #it's just you need a gelijk geven in english and i dont know what else it would be #now i need to find out if french has a gelijk geven #DONNER RAISON hahahah hell yeah 🤝

[clonehub]

part of the tragedy of the clones is the accelerated aging. its inseparable from their creation and their duty. it doesnt just artificially shorten their lives, it concentrates the feelings they have about themselves and their ability to leave/stay and to fight or not fight, because they have half as much time to do anything. if their bodies break down at an alarming speed, theyd probably hate to have to do it outside of what's familiar to them, even if what's familiar is an active violation of their rights. its an artificial life constraint as well as an artificial choice constraint. if you had all the time in the world, you'd probably worry less about why you were put into the galaxy, what your "purpose" was. existentialism is less daunting when you can exist perpetually. not so for clones.

#ch posts #i get uh #a little bit annoyed? I guess? sometimes when people go out of their way to find workarounds around the aging #as much as Id love for the clones to live long lives #think about it within the context of the story #and its like. ''they could have lived a normal lifespan'' and palpatine would have had them longer #they would have just kept fighting for the empire #or even been artifically culled bc theyre still more expensive than conscripts #im not against all workarounds #but me personally if someone's gonna change it id like it to be. not ''clever'' thats not the right word. #uh. #a struggle? #something thats gotta be fought for yknow #not like an easy solution/fix to it #star wars #the clone wars #tbh even if canon changed where there was a one two fix to the clones' lifespans i dont think id change my OCs stories lol

[em0-opossum]

sick of people acting like being alone/lonely = being single. ofc you're allowed to feel like that, I'm aro and could not care less that I don't have a partner so I have no idea what it feels like to have that experience, but god just once I'd like to find poetry and art made by people who know how it feels to have no friends and feel lonely no matter how many people are around you and know that you don't belong no matter where you are

#I'm lucky enough to have two good friends right now who i love very much #but that doesn't mean that they understand how i feel or how i have felt #and knowing you're alone in that overbearing loneliness just alienates you more and further perpetuates the feeling #i still miss out on so many opportunities to be friends with people i genuinely want to be friends with so bad because i can't talk to them #i still get so paranoid sometimes and stop replying to anyone because I'm convinced they hate me and there's something wrong with me #sometimes to the point where i avoid teachers who i need to talk to because i am sure that everything i say will be wrong #even someone being nice can feel awful because i think that they just feel bad or are pretending and actually trying to make fun of me #i know nobody actually knows who i am or how i feel because i hide everything to fit in with people and what they need/want #i have never felt like i belong anywhere and trying to explain that to people is so hard #there are times i love being alone but knowing that I've missed out on every regular human experience is so isolating #i just want to be normal and have friends i love and hang out with and talk to and not feel like every word i say could be the end of me #and when i try to find anybody who relates all i get is “oh im alone again :(( being single is awful” #i really do empathize with those people but it is nothing like my experience of loneliness #(tags are just for finding people who relate) #social anxiety #avpd #avoidant personality disorder #actuallyavpd #loneliness #chronic loneliness

[puppyeared]

footnotes arent enough I need you to talk to me like im fucking Amelia Bedelia

#this isn’t about anything in particular btw. I just have to add a lot of memos when I’m doing things because some things are done a certain #way and it isn’t explained well in the instructions. like my mom has instructions on her baking recipes right #but when it says stuff like add dry ingredients to wet ingredients it also means you don’t dump it in one go you add it slowly by portion #this is probably why I find videos and demonstrations the most helpful when I learn something. like I almost always ask someone to show me #how they do it because there could be something they do that’s already second nature and wouldn’t really be considered in an explanation yk #I don’t think I’m an exception either. when the rice is done cooking I divide it into 4 quarters to bless it #but there are a million ways to divide rice and it makes me think that one persons way of doing it or not doing it all is just as valid #theres also technically no wrong way to divide rice afaik. this means either all ways of dividing rice is safe or valid until we find some #universally terrible way of dividing rice. until that happens nobody really thinks about specifying HOW you divide the rice #source: I have anxiety starting and doing things for the first time because I got way too many people yell at me NONONO WHAT ARE YOU DOING #THATS WRONG while I’m in the middle of doing the thing. I would rather have people think I’m either very stupid or overly specific #than go thru the panic inducing fear of ‘YOURE DOING THIS WRONG OMG WHY DIDNT YOU ASK AHEAD OF TIME THIS WILL BE FUCKED UP FOREVER’ 🧍 #nothing wrong if you don’t give something a second thought because you’re so used to it. but I can and will ask about it and I don’t think I #really should feel bad about it if I don’t know enough to dispute it. idk #the other way around I try to be as specific as possible and word things in a way that people who might not get where I’m coming from will #understand. but the problem with that is my explanations tend to be lengthy and I lose them either way 🗿 #Im. trying to work on that using examples and stuff because they seem to work the best #but if I could write everything down on a word doc and beam it into your melon that would save both of us time and embarassment #im rambling the short version is I have adhd #yapping

[helpimstuckinafandom]

JUSTICE FOR DAVINA CLAIRE I'M SO FUCKING SERIOUS FUCK OFF OH MY FUCKING GOD

#CAMI AND DAVINA GONE IN ONE EPISODE??!?!!?? #YOU CAN'T BE FUCKING FOR REAL #(davina perma died an episode later both they both died in one episode right before that) #also this season has been slacking on marcel and the ep post-davina's death kicked him up several notches #he said all the shit i take issue with about the always and forever family bs #he hit that shit out of the park #also camille's death being all about comforting klaus fucking pissed me off #it was until she was scared right at the end that it was more about her #and her last words COULD have beenthe immortality line. but then they had to have her bolster klaus again instead #at least we got others mourning her after #but davina???? #those bitchass ancestors forced her boyfriend to kill her then nearly shredded her soul #and she could've been resurrected. but of course fucking family came first #she had to die screaming for mercy alone as the ancestors tried to carve her soul from fucking existence #(and though i'm mad at elijah and freya for it it makes sense for them to do it #(what pissed me off was them and klaus then telling marcel that they were justified and he should just suck it up and understand) #(like no take the consequences let the man mourn) #(freya claiming family to kol too like girl i don't know you. and this 'family' loves you more than it ever loved me) #(y'all only love me on my deathbed) #(if being family means we kill each other's partners [which happens time and time again] then fuck being in this family) #like i don't actually want the mikaelsons dead. but also i hope super vampire marcel kills you all #hope kol gets away from you people because you are not family to him. you aren't. #but mostly davina. poor fucking davina #her and kol are my bonnie and enzo - finally finding someone who will choose them not just use them #only for death at the hand of allies #davina clair was an abused teenager you all used and who justifiably hated y'all #and she deserved more than to die like this. die basically three fucking times over still helping in the end #truly have not seen a witch this blatantly used and mistreated since the bonnie bennet #davina claire #the originals

[disdaidal]

The moment I think I'm finally getting the hang of this thing, I don't. And it puts my mood down instantly.

#personal #i was supposed to return one school assignment yesterday. regarding my training #i had time today between classes so i thought i could do it #i followed the instructions and went to the page where i'm supposed to return it #i realized i don't know what the fuck i'm actually supposed to write on a word document or even return there #i tried googling for help. to get some examples #i mostly found some bitchy responses to someone else's question about the same thing: #'if you don't know what you're supposed to do there. you don't understand what you're studying and you're not ready for the thing' #well duh. obviously #except i know what i'm doing. i know exactly what i'm doing when i'm WORKING #i just don't know what i'm supposed to write there. for my SCHOOL #and i can't even find good examples for that online because nobody wants to share them bc you're supposed to think for yourself #but my brain isn't working and my imagination isn't working when i can't picture the thing i'm supposed to be working on #i'm so tempted to drop out because this keeps happening to me all the time now it seems #i don't feel like asking for my teacher all the time #and my training supervisor is busy as fuck all the time #i do my training well enough but i can't proceed with my studies if i don't return these stupid assignments before christmas #i'm so fucking sick of this thing right now

[medicinemane]

And maybe you'll be like "but if you don't trust businesses, how can you trust welfare?"

I fucking don't. My mom trying to get on food stamps fucked me up because a lady I never met without my permission got my SSN from my mom and started editing my files. My heart still races to this very second whenever I think about it, it kinda messed me up bad and I'll never ever ever see any kind of recourse

And I'm terrified that I'm gonna lose my medicaid just cause I inherited some money from my grandpa

And I've never even applied for disability cause it kinda doesn't matter finding out if I'd qualify or not cause of my depression, when the rules are so restrictive I don't know if I've even be allowed to keep my house

I do not fucking trust these things on a personal level. I feel like out of a lot of people I have the most to fear from them cause I'm on the edge of having things work, and that gets you punished

...but I need medicaid in order to have insurance (and when you strip out the finance side of medicaid, I love medicaid... they're honestly incredible insurance... I just... I just... dental is like 90% of why medicaid is so important to me, ever since I found out this state pays for it I've actually been able to do cleanings which is important to me cause I can't always get myself to brush)

And I think things like disability and food stamps are pretty damn important on a personal level, and honestly are also good for the economy cause they get people spending... it's practically a free cash infusion into the economy, cause these are people who need to buy stuff

There's just so much important stuff welfare does that it's worth dealing with government

No, what I want is more accountability so if someone gets my SSN from a 3rd party like my mom they're held to HIPPA styles standards where that's not ok to access my files without my permission (She changed my fucking address and tried to get medicaid to investigate me for fraud! Never even met me)

Like have some accountability there and in every situation

Secondly I want less punitive focused rules. I'd frankly prefer bezos get on disability than smack down some poor sod cause they got $2000 in the bank or cause their friend lets them live with them for free

If there's gonna be a cut off on these programs, it needs to be a solid step above the poverty line, cause... by definition I assume poverty line denotes kinda the minimum expected income people can reasonably live off of, and if you take away benefits people are gonna lose a chunk of money to covering that stuff themself, so you need a buffer before you kick people off

I don't fucking trust the government for a second, I've actively been fucked by them and on a personal level I avoid everything but medicaid and only that cause everything but the money is pleasant to deal with and I kinda need it (honestly if I was rich I'm not even kidding that I'd rather give medicaid like $400 a month than some insurance company, I sincerely like them as insurance)

But I'd trust them a lot more if they were less punitive, less out to hunt me down and gut me cause someone handed me a fiver or cause I started to get on my feet, and if government employees had concrete rules they had to follow that were actually transparent and enforced

Like 90% of my problems with welfare go away if they're held accountable and there's less "catch the welfare cheats" mentality going around

I don't trust the government in the slightest, but sadly there some jobs it kinda has to do, so I'd just rather force it to be an open book where the public can keep an eye on it and if they step out of line there's consequences (sort of like I don't trust most mega corps but happen to sometimes need stuff from them... did you know literally every cell service provider has been illegally selling shit like your location data to random people like bounty hunters, and the FCC just slapped them with a fine that's 0.02% of their yearly incomes and debated even doing that? I even can offer a source on that)

...I don't trust much of any authority cause they constantly fail me and kinda screw me. Don't trust doctors either, but I still gotta go to them, you know? ...they're just... they're real bad at listening... so many systems need systemic change

(You know who I really don't trust is the cops. I could point to so many examples. My uncle doesn't trust cops either, and he's an ex Fire and SWAT paramedic, he worked with them and we still got into a long conversation where he basically tore into them far better than I can)

(I don't trust authority that's not accountable)

#anyway; if I'm a lousy cheat or whatever least they can do is give me a gun so I can solve that problem #shit makes me wish I was canadian so I could take advantage of their sick implementation of assisted suicide #what should be a system that gives people a choice about the quality of their life; and I don't think should be relegated to terminal illne #...there was... think he was dutch; had been burned by his girlfriend all over his body; was in constant pain #and he ended up using assisted suicide in the end cause he was just in constant agony... think that's his choice to make #but of course the canadian system concretely pushes people; mostly the poor and disabled; to kill themselves #not theoretically; as in literally says word for word to them 'you should really kill yourself; just sign here' #it's sick; it truly is #but for any americans that want to dunk on it; I'm telling you we're no better #we have the exact same miserable desperation and people (again; mostly poor and disabled) into despair #only difference is we don't offer assisted suicide #the underlying issues in the US and canada are so damn similar; so much of what's happening ends up being the same #you can't act smug just cause you only make people want to die instead of also offering to help #that's like saying that you're the good guy cause while you did everything you could to drive someone to the brink #get them fired; slash their tires; just cartoon level villain stuff to personally harass this person... at least you won't hand them rope #we have such similar systemic issues to canada; and I am explicitly telling you that like the people in canada that have said #'I can't take it anymore; disability doesn't cover my expenses and I can't get any help... I'm at my wits end so I'm gonna go die' #I'm telling you that I feel that same way; just without any eugenics agency I can call up #I'm really working to get things stable; but it feels like I'm teetering on the edge of falling into permanent failure #and... and I'll actually tell you the amount even though I don't like to mention money... makes me feel guilty #my gramps left me $27k; which sounds like a lot; but I got 20 windows that need redoing (house has a lot of windows) #...if they ended up being 1k each; that's most of the money gone; if they end up being more... #and I got a whole lotta other stuff I've been putting off like plumbing around here; need to replace that faucet #it's an amount of money that helps; but it's an amount of money that isn't gonna last #...that's like a year of bills; and my mom already needs me to pay like $400 to the propane bill since she got behind #I want to use it to... to try and really get my feet on the ground; but it might loose me my insurance... it makes me want to die #and not to be a selfish bastard; but if I could I'd like to try and take and invest a bit to maybe build some passive income #given that... that a job never seems to work out for me cause I fucking suck and cause like... my insomnia has me up at 5:30 am right now #mm tag so i can find things later

[neverendingford]

.

#tag talk #fuck. I might just be a straight woman. #like. I like men. and the more I transition the more I vibe with binary womanhood. #sure I don't like getting shoved into restrictive femininity. but I vibe with womanhood as separate from femininity. #anyway. I might be straight. and In ten years it's very possible that being trans becomes a much less huge part of my life #because it will stop being something that I do and something that I wish for and simply something that I am #yeah yeah whatever hi my name is Reggie and I like men #I just. as much as I don't like certain restrictive gender roles I find myself slotting very comfortably into others #and I realize that my idea of gender and their roles was very much shaped by my female role models growing up #and a lot of the disconnect and distress when growing up was due to not being able to follow the path everyone else did. #all my girl friends were growing up into women and I was stuck on the man track. #and being gay was the closest I could get to being myself #but I'm closer than I've ever been before to being able to live my truth as myself #still not gonna shave my legs unless it's sometime in the future for a very specific event. #I like them fuzzy. they make me feel cool. #I like having some cultural masculinity still. I just don't want to be defined by it #talking about my binary trans experience is always a little weird because I'm aware of how binary I'm describing things #and I get that if my words were used to describe someone else's experience it might end up sounding hella transphobic #but these words are for me. they're my experience. they're my life not someone else's. #and this is how my identity works. #it's like how feminism protects the right of trad wives to be trad wives. #we just gotta recognize that just because one woman wants to be the designated dishwasher not every woman feels that way. #anyway. I might be dating a guy by this time next week. he's cool so far and we kinda got match-made by a mutual friend #we watched Redline tonight and it's hella good #he's really cool but I feel like I've got something to provide and to bring to the relationship. so we're still on peer-level I think. #which is new. usually I'm way ahead of the other person. maybe my fault for fishing in the bad fish barrel #the emotionally damaged and burdened fish barrel.

[dipyronegirl]

i have once again been discriminated against for my accent

#i’m kidding it’s not discrimination at all it’s just #i live in rio de janeiro right. and we have a very specific accent that’s different from all other states #we drag our sentences (so it sounds a bit lazy??) and we pronounce our S like an X #like. take the word ‘bolas’ (balls). we say bolash while literally every other state just says bolas like the S in the word ‘say’ #anyway. our accent makes us sound like players somehow; it’s hard to explain #and the carioca (means from rio) stereotype is that we always find shortcuts to everything; to get what we want without working for it #and it’s partially true tbh #but for some reason (i have no idea why) my accent specifically is very very strong (& i only found out ab it a few weeks ago) #and it makes me sound even more of a ‘player’. i asked ppl to be honest w me ab it and they said i sound like #a drug dealer or someone ‘shady’ that works w something illegal #and like i’m lazy and don’t care ab anything and maybe don’t take things seriously #and i mean all of it is true. kind of #but it’s shit that ppl can guess all my flaws just bc of my accent #sorry im rambling i’m so annoyed by this. i’d change if i could but idk how to speak differently fr #and ab my flaws. well i know i /can/ change them but idk how. i’m trying and i hope i become less lazy and more interested in serious thing #(cause yk. my biggest flaw is that i can’t bring myself to give a fuck ab the things i should care ab like responsibilities and shit) #god i’m rambling again im just so ughhh #text #giocore #about me #language

[thefoldedbird]

The childhood magical race of people with wings I made up after the first time I watched Osmosis Jones were called Margins (exactly like the margins of a book) and it took me way too long to remember that but I didn’t feel particularly sad because I self-imposed a rule basically from the start that said you can’t be one after you turn 18 (because you’re not a kid anymore) so I’ve basically already mourned the death of the concept.

They were just a magical race of mostly girls who would go into worlds (books and shows) and fix the bad things that happened to people or just be friends with them without telling them they were Margins. It’s no surprise that I write fanfiction now. Honestly, I should have seen that coming.

The planet you had to portal to was called Domino and only one city was in the bubble of habitability because some Margin (maybe me? I don’t think I ever decided.) destroyed the place in a big damn magic burst and now nothing grows there. I think maybe sometimes we had to fight off black vines or something but I can’t be sure.

There was also a preliminary period before you became a Margin where you were just a fairy/pixie and had to use a wand. But I got really bored with that quickly cause it was just magic school for rules I was making up so I just made it part of my character lore that I had been too strong for wands and they exploded whenever I tried to use them.

Also my mentor figure was the statue of Zeus from Disney’s Hercules and Domino was somewhere near Mars because I decided Martians were cool and wanted to be their friend thanks to that one Tom and Jerry movie.

#my stuff #it took me ALL MORNING to remember that #and I need it wrote down somewhere #I was trying to remember it while I was literally still waking up #and when it got time to think of the word I froze and realized I didn’t remember it anymore #I sat there frozen #and sad tbh #like I’ve been plagued with thoughts of the MLP infection AU for two days #cause I don’t handle horror well at all #and this knocked me straight out of that #caught I mentally picture someone destroying bad thoughts with lasers sometimes #and it helps #I was brushing my teeth when it finally came back to me #I could almost feel my brain digging around in the storage in the back #like you want WHAT thought? #shit you haven’t asked for that in ages #go find it #wait right here I’ll #it felt like he was yelling words at me from the back of storage #cause I’d get flashes of the word

[itlovesinthewoods]

I made a thing...

#God this fucking sucks ahahdhd I'm awful at editing #i headcanon that noah and devon share clothes often #they both have lean towards grunge aesthetic #tho devon also likes gothic clothing as well #but with noah it's more due to convenience while devon just likes to steal clothes #neither of them really strike me as the jealous type #noah sometimes gets insecure thinking devon deserves and could have someone better than him #devon's quick to reassure him tho #i am a little spoon noah marshall truther he deserves to be held #i don't see noah using petnames at all; i think he'd find saying devon's name conveys his affection for them more than any petname could #devon uses petnames only occasionally #devon's love language is definitely words of affection and reassurance #noah struggles with words for the most part and feels like he can't get them right #ilitw!mc #noah marshall #ilitw #ilw #it lives within #it lives in the woods #noah/mc #noah x mc #devon (ilitw) #might make a connoahdev ship meme idk

[miodiodavinci]

you ever end up typing a rant in the tags so long tumblr physically cuts you off and the post publishes with probably only 1/3rd of the tags

#had an interaction with The Leech™ and it left me feeling so frustrated and upset #tl;dr: i wanted to record today but she showed up and started talking so loudly my mic could pick her up through my bedroom door #and it hit me that it's fucked up that she's somehow just allowed to come and go as she pleases #(and is actively entertaining the thought of moving back in for a minimum of 2 months if she gets the surgery she's looking for) #(2 months to 2 years according to her words) #(despite the fact that she was literally evicted nearly a year ago) #(after 7+ years of sleeping on our couch and making our lives hell and generally dodging any attempt to get her to get a life and move out) #anyway after about 20 minutes of chatter i heard her go outside #find the plant i bought and planted myself this last week #(the first one i've ever had ! ! ! ) #(every other plant i've ever cared for has either been my grandmother's or a gift from someone else) #(most notably the two peace lilies from my dad's memorial service) #and dump. an entire bucket of water on it. left over from soaking her orchids she insists on keeping here. #spoilers: it's a desert plant that requires low moisture and well-drained soil #so i went out and got on her about that and she insisted she was just trying to help #(like how she was '''just trying to help''' when she nearly drowned both of the aforementioned lilies) #(because she literally kept putting in water until there was noting but standing water without soil in the pot) #and for a half hour after kept coming in to bother me about the plant #asking where i bought it and if she could have clippings and asking if i had the right soil or the right tools #and reminding me of how i tried to grow pumpkin seeds when i was six and they died #and INSISTING she knew more about caring for it despite the fact that i literally researched this plant for a solid week before #and jsu t #another instance of The Leech™ trying to jam herself into my life so she can claim she's a provider and i'm helpless without her #but also turn around and complain about how it's sooo hard caring for us and how it's //impossible// for her to get a life #if she's busy caring for us #fuck off and die actually

[antixabound]

since I am a person who has opinions and am free to speak on said opinions, as you are free to not acknowledge or disagree. I think that Equius would fucking love the idea of Warhammer 40000 (obviously he wouldn’t be able to build or play with the models, but he could probably commission things) and when I say he would love it, I mean he would probably be a diehard imperium fan boy but not the “HERESY HERESY HERESY” type but more of the worst kind that is like “the imperium is the best option of government”. he would have one homebrew space marine chapter called some shit like the Astra Equus and he would write fucking novels of lore for them.  Meanwhile Nepeta collects orks and splatters dollar store toys and shit in grime and greebles and makes a trukk or a battlewagon. and she also puts little cat ears on all of them. She calls them the green lions and their lore is that they are like giant murder cats with guns.

 Feel free to add your own personal opinions or to show up at my castle and throw rocks but be warned I have a wand of obliteration.

#warhammer #warhammer 40000 #homestuck #headcanon I guess #it really isn't but it is in the same way #schrodinger's headcanon #unfortunately there aren't a lot of horse models for warhammer #but Equius could probably find some and commission someone to make big space horse #also important thing Equius is slightly annoyed of how Nepeta treats the setting but is really fucking impressed by her kitbashing skills #down right envious of her trashbashing #scratchbuilding catgirl powers of untold infinity #and yes those are all words and terms