#sometimes he holds it up and talks to it

[prokopetz]

D&D warlock who’s literally just Fortunato from “The Cask of Amontillado”, having survived his immurement by making a deal with something in the dark, and the costume he was wearing the night he “died” has become the sign of his pact, so basically you’re playing as a depressed, alcoholic jester who sometimes has to run errands for He Who Waits Behind the Walls.

#concepts #gaming #tabletop roleplaying #tabletop rpgs #dungeons & dragons #d&d #edgar allan poe #the cask of amontillado #character design #death mention #alcohol mention #he has montresor's skull on a chain at his waist #sometimes he holds it up and talks to it #it's genuinely unclear whether he's conversing with a dead spirit or whether he's just doing a bit

[crystal-verse]

god i want. an au where it dosn't work. where it's just arr g'raha who's woken up, and he doesn't have all these memories and all these people keep looking at him like they're mourning someone. the world has changed and time has changed and all the people he knows have changed, but he hasn't changed, he was just sleeping, just sleeping, and the world nearly ended several times and apparently he helped prevent yet another end but he has no memory of this. they want him to join the scions. he does not know these people. (he barely knows the warrior of light, now, but did he ever truly know them in the first place?) his little sister is alive and well. she looks at him like a ghost. she's changed, and she's older than him now. he acts bratty and loud and brash to cover up the fact that he does not know anything it seems, and he is tired but he was sleeping for so long, so how could he be tired?

he doesn't know these people. they seem to know him. he wonders if he'd killed someone, when it was him and not that exarch who woke up. he wonders if it should have been him who was "killed" in that way, if it is him that lives and not that man who had known and become friends with all these figures from legend. he wonders if he'll always be fated to be a historian one step back from everything, because he simply cannot be a hero.

#bound with thread | original posts #letters in verse | talking #g'raha tia #crystal exarch #hello everyone i am being Incredibly Normal about g'raha tia at -checks time- 12:02 am #you ever think about the fact that arr g'raha is basically killed/replaced when the exarch wakes up in 5.3. because i do. a lot #hi i have brainworms over this man he's SO tragic and i need to hold him gently in my hands like how you cradle a small trembling kitten #genuinely happy about his character growth and progression and happy ending and all but arr g'raha was the one who grabbed my focus #and i do miss a lot of that character sometimes yknow? post-shb g'raha isn't the same person as arr g'raha and that's intentional‚ i think‚ #because he has gone through so much that we didn't see. so much trauma and pain because of the 8th umbral era and that loss he got hit with #and he's not the same person because he's *had* to change so much to keep himself and his people alive and i'm glad he's getting to #experience life to the fullest in endwalker onwards but just. i miss arr g'raha yknow #honestly the silliest thing about it is i miss his student of baldesion tattoo. was a fun little design element you know. #show us the tattoo again squeenix. give him back his red eyeshadow that he had. #give him his bow back i am begging #this has been: incomprehensible ramblings from simon at 12 at night

[volivolition]

suggestion do you have... any wants? like obviously you do but like? suggestion my guy my ourple boy. both the easiest and hardest to write. you need a skill to say something to move conversation along but it doesn't fit any skill in particular? about 80% of the time you can have suggestion say it and it will make sense. but like actually characterizing him... how do i define you dude... what makes your character tick... urgh. i dont get you yet. im trying to understand but you are difficult.

#chemi chats #there are some skills that i just dont understand yet and that just means i have to work on their character study chapter #im reading his bio and i think suggestion is a good manipulator and it's instinctive and he tries not to feel bad about it? #he's clever!! charming!! friends with savvy and drama. planting seeds in the mind and coaxing them to grow towards him like he's the sun. #a crude oil reservoir lying beneath a carefully laid flower bed. taps into the roots. the plants don't know any better than to drink. #he's great at sensing what makes people tick and uses that to his advantage. he needs goals to look forward to so he knows how to best #pull the strings to get them there. otherwise he's a bit aimless. he likes being useful. and since influencing others is helpful #he just keeps doing it? because it's what he's good at. and he tries to convince himself its fun and cool and just cuz hes charming and #it's his role as a skill and manipulation isnt thaaaat bad because it's helpful to them after all... but he does feel bad sometimes. #oh im listening to his voice lines and i just got to ''brother you should have put me in front of a firing squad'' and im sad about him now #but what do you want for short term little guy?? probably for people to like him. he likes chatting with people. i bet he'd like genuine #conversations with no strings attached but there's always some part of him filing information and tidbits away that he can't turn off #subconsciously figuring out things he can hold over them or how he can nudge them into thinking someth-/wait.../ no. no he's just talking. #he's /supposed/ to just be talking stop analyzing them stop falling back into that just have a normal conversation!! but he can't help it.. #hm. this is all really helpful for his chapter. he and empathy are very alike but also different. very interesting... #task: swept up #okay good talk everyone i think i understand him a little better now lmao?? still gotta figure him out some more hes not fully there but ye #also i think he goes by whatever pronoun you think he'd use. just ''oh what do /you/ think i am hm?? what /would/ i use; do you think?? :)' #funny fella. i love you.

[angelsdean]

Jack: Yeah, he-he wasn't all bad, my dad. Uh, that's what makes our parents loom so large in our heads, I think. They're… a million things to us all at once.

And even after they're long gone, we're stuck with them. Can't help it. They're inside of us. You know, my whole life, I promised myself I'd be nothing like him, but…I ended up just like him.

Kevin: No, Dad. You're way better than him.

Jack: Thank you, my son. And you're gonna be way better than me.

— 5x07, This Is Us

#this is us watch #gonna rb this in a sec to say exactly this but. scenes that could've been dean and jack. scenes that ARE dean and jack. 2 me. #the father son relationships on this show are soo good and rich and they GET the complexity of the dynamic between fathers and sons #and it's the exact same complexity dean has for john. that ability to hold both love and hate for a parent #and neither feeling cancels the other out. they both just. co-exist #and that's what jack (this is us) is getting at here. that your parents can be a million things to you all at once #that you can love them for the good times and hate them for the bad and you'll carry them with you forever #you imagine them to be one way all your life then you grow up and realize oh. they were just a flawed person like anyone else. #or you become a parent and you worry you're becoming like them. and at the same time u realize how hard it is to be a parent #how easy it is to mess up without even trying #and you'll talk to your son about it. and you'll fear you're doing everything wrong #and your son will look at you and say 'no dad. you're way better than him' #and you'll hope that your son turns out to be an even better person #because you just want the best for your kids. #and just. this is a scene dean and jack could've had. another time they go fishing and john comes up #and dean tells him how bad it was sometimes. but how it wasn't all bad. because it wasn't. #and he'll worry he isn't doing things right with jack. and jack will look at him like he's his hero #because he is. because jack loves dean so much. loves the quality time they spend together. it's their love language #and he'll tell him 'no you're way better than your dad' #and dean will do the ol' face pat. like he's done before. like bobby used to do with him. and draw him in for a hug #anyways. i feel fine abt it. #fathers and sons !!!!!!!!!!!!

[glitterrosesnzz]

why am i so. obsessed with the concept of a sneeze scenario with like. V/ox kidnapping L/ucifer.

like. L/ucifer just lets it happen. he could break free at any time he's just bored and wants to see what they'll do. but then he ends up like... being allergic/sensitive to... idk, either whatever it is V/al smokes or like, some room fragrance the V/ees use or whatever

and like, he can't just let himself sneeze. he'd probably end up accidentally breaking out of whatever they've trapped him in if he did, and he doesn't want his little damsel in distress act to be done and over with so early, this is fun

too bad he sucks at holding back-

#H/azbin H/otel #snz #snz scenario #L/ucifer at least wants to see someone try to rescue him cause he wants to witness whatever will go down #(and also wants to know who exactly would care enough to try and rescue him) #if it weren't for the fact he's genuinely trying really hard to hold back though #he would probably be talking so much that he'd annoy the V/ees into just giving him back willingly #thats the first thing C/harlie notices is off she's like ''dad's actually being somewhat quiet??? oh this might be an actual problem'' #cause she knows sometimes L/ucifer lets this happen just for fun. him being quiet when it happens though?? thats abnormal somethings up #like she was gonna start a rescue mission anyways but now she's got more real concern

[gaydogmarriage]

alhaitham is such a lying liar who lies dude. acting like he and the sumeru boys gang have always been besties since forever. "that's how it's always been with the four of us" - man who has barely spoken to most of these people before he decided to team up with them to overthrow the government and regularly skips social gatherings with them. yeah right buddy ok

#explicitly said that he's barely spoken to cyno before when they clash in the archon quest #will literally just skip or show up late when they do meet up #very notably had a huge falling out with kaveh that ended with them not speaking for years #does he even talk to tighnari?? like one on one???? do they hang out???? #i stg kaveh and tighnari are the glue holding the whole situation together #the other 2 are just off to the side being autistic #well cyno actually tries to be social alhaitham doesnt give a fuck lmao #alhaitham after speaking to people that do not annoy him about once a month: 'hmm. i love my best friends' #he adopted a status quo and now simply pretends there has never been a different one #hes so fucking funny #genshin fans who try to make him some kind of big dick sexyman you are so wrong hes a silly goofy clown to me #on a more serious note i do actually much prefer the interpretation of this being a friendship they formed as adults #and everyone involved has different levels of closeness with each other #rather than making them all mutual best friends with each other (even since school sometimes). i think thats a lot more interesting #and canon is weirdly ambiguous about it so shrug #like the current friend groups as it is seems to be a relatively recent formation based on canon bits but then the writers lean into it #so hard as their Thing its a bit odd. but also fun to play with. they dont need to have always been friends to be close

[incrediblysincere]

Having a job where i have to interact with coworkers all day has really made me notice how bad my social skills are

#like i like focus HARD on the work and i find it really hard to talk at the same time #which is interesting because i know my family/friends probably think i talk TOO much but its totally different depending on who im around #like if im with friends or people i feel really confortable with i can infodump for half an hour on shit they dont care about #but with my coworkers who are all adult men mostly 10+ years older than me and im laying i completely forget to talk #so with me its either non stop bullshit or just that fluoride stare #i know some coworkers are ok with it but i have at least one who clearly isnt a fan of long silences and tries to make conversation and #i realise i CANNOT hold a conversation with him so i probably come off as super boring #and even went prompted (asked a question) i usually just say Okey like ness and then go silent again #i dont mind that much but then sometimes i think back and im like wow. He was trying to talk to me and i probably came off as really boring #or shy or a stuck up bitch. which i dont think im any of #anyway im the 😐🧍autistic for real

[footballshowrot]

i know the most shocking actor adjacent jamie thing is probably finding out that phil dunster is putting on the mancunian accent but honestly was just as shocked when i learned he's not got brown eyes

#jamies eyes are just so dark in the show. deep deep wells.. [positive👍yessssir] they are just like little bullet holes sometimes #wasnt until like.....jamie talking to keeley at the funeral and hes standing with the light all on one side #and his eyes were like. see through? glassy? i was like maan hold up.. u dont have brown eyes? #guess brown eyes 4 brown eyes royjamie woulda been too good </3 its okay roys got this. roys clutched it #i LIKE UR GREY EYES JAAAAMIE #jamie tartt #rot riffing

[lloydfrontera]

lloyd is so determined to not think of himself as a good person that the king of hell himself can tell him he almost certainly would go to heaven if left to his own devices because he's fundamentally a kind person and lloyd will still say he's self-centered and selfish and doing everything for his own gain five minutes later

like. you gotta admire the commitment at least

#i talk a lot <3 #tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #i have no doubts lloyd fully believes this #he really does think he's selfish and self-centered and doing everything for himself #but like. there's only so many times people around you can tell you you're a good person who cares about others. before you gotta consider #that maybe you are indeed a good person who cares about others. #i'm of the opinion that when it comes to doing good things actions are more important that thoughts and intentions #like if you're doing good things because you genuinely want to help and care about other people? that's great keep it up! #but if you're doing good things for your own sake and don't really feel strongly about others? that's also ok and you're still doing good! #and that's sort of what i believe lloyd thinks of himself except. it doesn't hold up to what he actually does and thinks lmao #like when push comes to shove it's been shown that lloyd *will* choose to be kind he *will* choose to help he *will* choose to be good #even when there's nothing for him to gain and no one to impress and sometimes even when it's something that could go badly for him #there's lying to yourself and then there's whatever lloyd's got going on #<- this is all about a webnovel with a giant hamster and a snake who poops steel btw

[pomellon]

I might have had a very self-indulgent Funzwastaken au idea, that basically a modern fantasy stardew valley/dragon trainers type of setting. Might have to put it into my “potential aus” list, will slap my thoughts for it in the tags for now

#pom talks #funz #drunz #funzwt #Punz inherits a dragon egg aka Sapnap who has stayed unhatched for years but decides to pop out when Punz gets him #Punz struggling to care for Sapnap in the middle of the city originally wanting to get rid of him but getting attached #eventually Sapnap grows too big to hang in Punz backpack and creates chaos when left unsupervised in the apartment #So Punz eventually caves and decides to move them out to the small overgrown farm he also inherited #Where he meets Foolish #a carpenter and volunteer dragon vet assistant who decides to help Punz fix some stuff up at the farm #Foolish's dragon Karl becoming fast friends with Sapnap who's delighted to finally have a dragon friend #later he meets Dream and his dragon George #A hunter who protects the village from wild monster and grows an interest in Punz after seeing him hold his own against a monster attack #lemme know if you wanna know more about it sometimes I get scared of info dumping XD; #dragon valley au

[deva-arts]

No better way to end your day than to have your eye shanked by your boss' son! without any safe way of receiving medical attention! Then smiling about it to your last remaining family!

...Being a variant in this world is hard.

#amontag #adratag #featuring amon's shitty apartment #woa bad words #Amon could REALLY use a break. And actual rest. And money. Lots of it. poor boy's 17 and his only inheritance from his dad was $500k of deb #in which working as a mafia grunt is not cool and cash money #oc comic #oc lore #oc backstory #Amon's muscle/bone structure is SUPER dense! (contrary to birdpeople) most of the punches were reserved for the tender spots of his face. #he is violently holding back the urge to kill Mr.Richard Wucci here. Gotta stick to his grits because otherwise they can destroy everything #sometimes even having the advantage of immense strength means nothing and does nothing. talk about salting wounds! #needless to say Amon has built up an insurmountable amount of self-restraint. Not to mention endurance to obvious disrespect. #“Auntie” is actually not related to them at all. She and her husband run a local bodega and are close family friends. free dorto's! #Amon's fridge is holding on for dear life. Almost everything in his home was thrifted or just refurbished by him to try making things cozie #Both of them smile in an attempt to keep things light... But they're both painfully alone in a world that is entirely uncaring for them. #they need a hug. #If only someone short winged and angry could come and break them from this situation... but that doesn't come for two years or so. #ARK_SYSTEMA

[pessimisticprincess]

tw in the tags and stuff

#one time my ex had me pinned to the ground while holding a 20lb metal dumbbell over my face #he was screaming at me and calling me names while i was crying and begging for him to get off of me #i remember the taste of blood in my mouth and wishing i was physically strong enough to scare him #it was one of 3 times i legitimately thought he might kill me #but he still thinks we belong together he still thinks i’ll forgive him #he still calls despite being blocked #i think i still think about this sometimes because i still can’t believe someone can change after being together for so long #but what it really is was i just refused to see it and now i’m all messed up because of that #how do i forgive myself #anyways i’ll delete this very soon but i literally talk to no one about this stuff and just wanted to vent or something

[robynrileyart]

some extremely minor characters from my CRUSH. soapghost fanfic series. matthews gets buried alive not far from where ghost is and o'connelly is the field medic who helps soap get them out again.

#mw2 #call of duty #modern warfare #call of duty oc #mw2 oc #cod oc #oc #it literally doesnt come up that con is gay but i do think it's funny how ghost walks around assuming everybody who likes men is attracted #to soap because WHY WOULDNT THEY BE. do you HAVE EYES #and here are 2 people who are like. anyway #matthews is cute she's absolutely useless in the cave in besides talking constantly and holding ghost's hand sometimes #con is useful hehe he impresses soap and looks good in the reports #ghost's report of the cave in would be the most chaotic thing ever considering he was in shock the whole time #it just reads: fucked around and found out unfortunately. #LMAO

[skitskatdacat63]

2005 French Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso (ft. Kimi Räikkönen & Michael Schumacher)(my personal post-race highlights)

+ bonus uh...whatever Michael's doing here

#i love that I now just have a collection of fernando holding up different numbers #new class lesson: 'numbers with fernando' #*also not pictured but it was very cute bcs nando held up the 5 and then it cut to flavio doing the same exact motion #OMG WAIT ALSO #it was so hilarious mark had some problem w his seat being too hot and thus burning his ass #so the commentators kept talking about his ass being in pain #and the way they phrased it made it seem like he had to retire from the race and i was like 'ah typical mark L' #hes always getting camera time/commentary but always for the wrong reasons(crashing/DNF/ass problems/etc) #anyways im now finally officially halfway through! are you guys proud of me :3 #sometimes I think im being too slow and then i have to be rational and remember im trying to watch an 8 month long season in 2-3 wks #fernando alonso #michael schumacher #renault #f1 #formula 1 #we do a little bit of f1 #2005 french gp #(2005: 10/19 races watched) #fa14

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ever sit like a corpse in your own body? #im doing a job i wasnt designed for. theres this funny thing we do in academia where we beg for money. write in consise phrasing why we #deserve funding. what it is about our project what it is about our personhood that makes us deserving. what we're doing in our present to #give back and ensure a better future. and i can pull together a description of a nervous kid who couldn't read but loved to learn anyway. #who didnt kno how to hold proper a conversation until college and so tried and got better at ppl. who wouldnt let a language problem get in #the way of information gain. who cares about making complicated info visually digestible. and that's a nice story. but it falls apart when #projected into the future. what r u doing for the future? im just trying to continue existing #dont u want to help other ppl like u? sure but i dont have anything nice to say to them. does it ever get easier? no. it probably never will #ur brain was not built for reading. sometimes things r just terrible and u have to accept that. develop a crippling mental disorder or do #something where u dont have to read. see. not helpful. bad attitude. im just too full of blood and broken glass. all my achievements r #stained red and it hurts to look at them. to get myself to function i have to squeeze so tight i can feel the strain in my head. and even #then its not enough. do u kno what its like to spend ur whole life building something only to watch it burn to ashes in front of u? just a #broken machine rotting away underground where no one will see it. but dont let things fester. speak up if somethings wrong. and say what? #lmao i wrote this last night and then today when my advisor was like: hows it going? do u feel like u have enough time to get everything #done? and i had the gall to be like *voice strained high to prevent crying* its alright i think ive got enough time. bc yea technically i #think there r enough hours in yhr day that if i really tried i could get it all done. but that doesn't count the time i spend laying with #thr absolute desolation of my mind. so no. there isnt enough time bc im not doing well. but there's nothing he can do abt it so ya kno #whats the point in talking abt it except to say ya sorry im such a wretched miserable person. i dont kno how to fix it. my enthusiasm is #hidden under layer upon layer of pain. i burnef out before even getting here and im only making it worse #but whatever ill see my therapist Tuesday #unrelated

[dutybcrne]

Tall and muscled as he is, Alhaitham still does very much like being held and doted on. Guaranteed that if a partner or even a friend indulges him in it, they will quickly become a favorite person and be sought out frequently for affection.

#hc; alhaitham #//His favorite way is straddling them while they're lounging on the couch and burying his face in their chest or; more often; shoulder #//9/10 would end up dozing off right then and there; if not will talk to them via almost pouty-sounding mumbles #//Loves to do that esp after a particularly hectic day at the Akademiya; bonus if they pat his head or comb through his hair during #//WILL get a lil fussy & bratty if they try to pry him off 'too soon'. Like Miette; except it a 6'+ grown man clinging for dear life djrgdg #//He is ridiculously cute and affectionate sometimes; but you've gotta put the Work in to get his trust/comfort to that extent #//He is very favoring to headpats in general; tbh #//They make him feel so happy and accomplished #//Give him a headpat ONCE; and he WILL keep coming back for the affirmation after completing tasks #//Assuming the person is someone he's close/comfortable with or like. Nahida herself #//Just rolls up and Staaarres with Big ol' cat eyes & incline his head a bit; talking up all he got done #//Then after a bit say he would like compensation for his completed tasks. Will affirm he's serious is asked; then drop it if not conceded #//Very much disappointed; for certain. And it WILL show in his work ethic for the rest of the day #//Idk; rlly loving the idea of this big boi being so down bad for affection for smaller partners/friends #//Tenderly hold the tol man; he will adore you forever #//Tldr; Mans is just a big ol cat mdbgj #//He likes to reciprocate it too; the INSTANT he realizes his partner likes/needs physical affection; he WILL indulge every chance he gets