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suga-kookiemonster · 4 years

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Pt first off can I just say I LOVE that you admit you don’t know other artist?! Like how ppl say “yas what they deserve!” But aren’t educated with other artist so I mean not that the boys don’t but who’s to say others aren’t deserving as well?! I know it may be stupid because it’s all just politics but now that they have gotten to the popularity status where no matter who else is in a category even if they aren’t the strongest they will win based on the vote it

P2 it kind of taints awards shows for me and I don’t get as excited anymore! Granted I know the boys are still humble and they are genuinely shocked because they are aware of the caliber of all of their peers but now that it’s clear that armys man power will win them any and everything even if it’s Best toe nail it just I don’t know..if that even makes sense it just makes me feel a type away outside of the fact the boys are genuinely deserving of awards’ but I think you get my point

P3 There have been years and category’s were the boys are the strongest! Our boys our straight beast I’m NOT taking that away from them the live stages prove that..but we’re THIS awards seasons body of work was concerned outside of prob artist of the year which I mean yeah…fuck it up! Lol everything else I kinda feel like ya just a given bc there favs have the man power! But again I know the boys don’t feel that way and at least that makes me smile! There genuinely shocked sooo 🤷🏻‍♀️

i say this all the time! it’s gotten to the point where i don’t get excited for awards because no matter what it is, the fans will bulldoze their way to the boys winning. doesn’t matter whether they deserve it or not, bts is going to win 🤷🏽‍♀️i always say they’re gonna win the biggest pumpkin at the county fair, but i like your toenail award too 😂😂😂😂

and of course the boys work extremely hard and deserve all the accolades coming to them. but the question isn’t whether they deserve it, it’s whether they deserve it more than the other nominees. and i’m sorry, the answer isn’t always yes–that’s impossible. other people work hard too. other bodies of work deserve recognition too. but we all know these award shows are political popularity contests anyway, and they’ve always been 🤷🏽‍♀️

this is why i was shaking my head when i saw all the grammy backlash because while i thought it was shitty that the grammys invited them to the museum and did a whole piece on them and then didn’t even bother to nominate them…they’re kinda not obligated to. that’s not how that award works, my friends. people were pissed and talking about how many albums they sold, about their sold-out tours, 🗣AND THAT’S NOT HOW THAT AWARD WORKS🗣. bwl did not deserve a grammy, so it did not get nominated for one. PERIOD. bts absolutely deserves grammys, but not for the body of work that was eligible this year. and so they weren’t nominated 🤷🏽‍♀️ you can’t stream your way through everything, folks

#BUT ANYWAY that mma performance...ALL of their performances tbh...#those prove that they deserve all the good that's coming to them #those prove that grammyS are on their way i can taste it 😩#they work hard and make great music and people are gonna recognize that💅🏾#anonymous #asks

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survivorreelsmagicwithin · 4 years

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Episode 2 - “Y'all. Vote me out fr cause I'm inactive as fronk” - Joshua (through Autumn)

I hate flag-making challenges. I will not be helpful at all, and I hope that someone else can take the reigns and lead us to victory. I honestly feel safe going into a tribal council, but I do not want to test that theory.

Next morning

With Chips and Jules working on the crest designs, I feel confident that we will do well in the challenge. Maybe not the best, but definitely not the worst. I still have the same anxious feeling that my tribe is not active enough for my taste, but I will just have to live with it for now. Besides, at least this is not immunity because that we increase my anxiety by so much. But, I keep forgetting to search the idol hunt which is my bad, but it is just so hard and long that I do not really feel like searching all the time lol

ART CHALLENGE <333 i love these challenges. Jess made my picture 110% better and its super cute. The note that she wrote with it is also hella cute and I love the whole HP aesthetics bc i never got to go to real hogwarts ;-; but i'm sure most of yall can related. The boys weren't too helpful but nick was better than jacob who is sick. Nick was way more active aka jacob said 3 sentences the entire challenge sooooo…. if we lose idk I might just save jacob anyways bc pregame relations.

Won reward, but now we have to win immunity again. I really hope that this reward helps us continue to survive. I don't want to have to vote anyone out. We've been getting first, but I really just want to survive this challenge, its known to be hard.

I think I have been stuck with the second most challenge inept tribe in the history of my ORG career. I literally said so many answers in my version of the story and Jules just fucked it up. And then they got the girl's name wrong. And then they started mixing up characters. I know I did well, but fuck these people. God. Now we need a tribe to get 0 which is very unlikely. I will just resign myself to tribal. I hope and pray that these people have some common sense and do not want to vote me out

Listen. Listen. Listen. I dang knew this story was going to be Harry Potter based. I knew in my brain and in my heart that I shouldn’t have been the one to start that thing. What do I do? Start the dang thing. Oh well. We did alright. I would be shocked if we won tho but if we don’t I’ll be relieved. I def don’t feel confident enough but I really had a lot of fun with my tribe. I really miss this and really hope that my time isn’t cut short! I feel really good about my tribe mates sincerely. And that’s kind of scary! I would hate to see any of us to go and how it’s going to affect the bond we have if we vote someone out. In this moment with Max sitting out, it may be him who goes if we go to tribal. I hope that isn’t the case. I’ve got my fingers crossed for us. Huff Puff strong!

Honestly Jules dropped the ball sis!! But it’s okay, I love her. She’s really nice and I know she tried her best. Plus she’s in an alliance with me and Owen, so we should have the numbers against Joanna or Miguel if we go to tribal. Personally, I’d prefer Joanna to go. She’s kinda domineering, but she’s also an asset in challenges thus far. She is organized and direct. I’ve also talked to her a bit more than Miguel, so I guess I don’t really care who goes.

I’m happy I didn’t fuck up the reward comp and the shit that I drew got us a win!

I really hope I don't bomb that challenge, I answered everything that Kevin talked to me about.... I think! The rest of them tried very hard but I am SOOO glad that I asked to do my part at the end because my memory of repeating things is horrendous but I'm usually pretty good at bullshitting test answers... too bad I got some of the multiple choice stuff wrong.

I think that if we do lose I am still in a good spot on this tribe and hopefully I won't be in danger. I feel like I'm on everyone's good side and Max kind of just disappeared so maybe we could just vote him out this round? Idk.

Hopefully we don't have to worry about it. I smell a swap coming up pretty soon and I just hope I'm either with Owen or with some of the people from my tribe. I have no idea if they know anyone or are close with anyone in the other houses.

I'm still feeling the closest to Lily and Kevin but I have been talking to Landen a good bit too these days so hopefully we'll be safe or we can all just agree on Max.

16 minutes later

OOOOOH IS LANDEN PAVING THE WAY FOR A MOVE TO SEND MAX PACKING???

He just told me that me, lily and kevin are precious angels that must be protected and that he likes Max when he's around too so that sounds like something... HMMM...

I can't get cocky, I always go home when I get cocky. But I like this.

my host chat saw this first (shout-out to Drewie and Dennis): Y’all I’m an idiot. I thought I only knew 2 people in this game (Owen and chips). Then I remembered I also know Jess, Autumn, and dan. Literally love and respect each of you my brain just don’t got the strongest memory no more. I’m so sorry!!!! I literally just told landen I only know 2 ppl. I’m just gonna try to not remember it happened.

Ugh.....I need to get it together.

I love my tribe talking to each other now that we have to!! Everyday I'm like damn either I'm on the bottom or I'm not the only one with piss poor social game. Ok so... the moment the hosts said we got 1 point, I started getting ready for tribal lmaaaooo. No sense crying over it either because all the tribes basically just had to show up in order to beat that

Like how could we not go to tribal with a score of ONE? That shit's embarrassing hahaha. That's like when your teacher passes the test back to everyone sitting around you but not you so you KNOW it's bad. But you know what? It's all good cause I'd rather us take the L now and get it out the way and we can all laugh about it cause losing won't be funny after long. The real question is: will Gryffindor do this the easy way or the hard way caaauusse we all know who the weakest link is. I just wanna see if someone puts two and two together without my prodding. Chips already said we voting together right and I'm like yes sir. There's no better place than being on the same page

WE WON OMG!! Jules basically gave me nothing, which is fine, i understand, but i'm so impressed that we pulled that off. Absolutely killing these reward challenges really helps!

"Y'all. Vote me out fr cause I'm inactive as fronk."

Tonight we learned Joshua is a feminist selfless man that I stan because he's volunteering to go home without me having to put his name out, which I was going to do. Like imagine if every guy had that kind of self-awareness, to recognize why he should be the vote and then embrace it instead of wreaking havoc. And wanting to see others succeed more than yourself? King shit! He knew when to hang it up and did just that. Like the number of times I've seen a vote get complicated for no fucking reason because everyone wants a fight to the death. Enough- I'm old, tired, and cannot exert too much energy at once. We got a long game ahead of us, not to mention quarantine. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you Joshua. We need more players like you and I appreciate your service

im back back BACK AGAIN with another confessional! not much has changed but a few updates for the sake of these being required :) 1. max has become even more inactive, he's not reached out to me personally since the first day and any time i messaged him after that he's sent me nothing back that i can build a convo off of, so we just have stopped speaking. Luckily this challenge only required four people and everyone else SHOWED UP!! or at least spoke about their availability, while he did not. However in his defense he said he was having some issues at home and i feel for him but his inability to connect has been an issue before he spoke about anything in our tribe chat with us. I'm trying to give him the benefit of the doubt but this point my relationships with the other 3 are leaps and bounds ahead of where I am at with Max. Maybe he can pick up some speed if we continue winning challenges but, it's not looking too hot. SPEAKING OF CHALLENGES, well first we lost reward AGAIN, but we won immunity.. AGAIN! thank goodness for not being first or second boot, i always love being able to avoid these early tribals and if i can get to a swap without seeing one that would be ideal, but also if we do go and maybe vote out max? wouldn't be the worst thing. Moral of the story we won and thats exciting! however.. if we didn't.. the first big push of strategic talk came up with landen when he hinted at being frustrated with max's lack of presence which I also share. I do believe if we lost me and landen could have most definitely picked up ruthie and lily to form a four against him, if he even came to tribal. That would be my ideal situation and if we continue on this tribes hopefully it gives me a nice cushion to fall on if we do lose so i dont have to entirely blow up my social game within the first few rounds by voting out someone i've built a connection with. If max can go and the remaining four hufflepuffs can make a swap I would feel good about that, and maybe in the right circumstances we could work together on the swapped tribes because i genuinely like all of these people (yes max too but in this specific scenario he wouldn't be included bc... well..) anyways to close this off i still absolutely ADORE lily, she is fun and our conversations are really good, and same goes for ruthie, hopefully i dont have to see either of them or myself go home before we can really start playing because i think we could do some damage. :) ok anyways this was longer than i thought it would be goodbye

I'm still not over the fact that I was able to answer 7 of those questions right. I have the memory of a plastic fork. I also love that we are SAFE!

I do kind of hope things get spicy and we swap this round and become two tribes of 9. That'd be cute. I don't want VI to get bored and crack on me. BUT ALSO I think I have solid enough relationships with almost everyone on this tribe... so who knows?!

Also... these hoes really out here trying to search for an idol in PUBLIC. IN PUBLIC. WHAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON HERE?

Dear diary, seems like we keep winning challenges, which is great but tbh i feel like every time i give a disadvantage to my team because english is not my first Language, and so far its been a vocabulary test and a listening and speaking test. I mean I knew I signed up for school but damn. Give me some macarena or drinking tequila challenge and I'll crush it

bippity boppity boo im back again with almost no content kdfasjhdskjfh

Ravenclaw working smarter and we keep winning, period!!! Thankful that y'all put Dan and I together....bc truly we will be unstoppable in these competitions. I kind of want to lose soon though to see how things would shake out, but I don't really have bad blood with anyone. Joanna seems passionate enough in the tribe chat and the challenges, even if she's dry in PMs. Miguel still won't give me anything other than a "how are you," but I hope the best for him in life lol

Still love Jules and Dan, and we made a three person alliance, but I haven't talked with either of them much one on one since it happened.... I really need to step the social game up eventually, but right now, I'm coasting, and maybe that's what I need before I find the time and resources in this game to strike!!

The idol hunt is hard but Dan seems onto something. Honestly he's gonna be a big threat sooner or later so he's sticking around as long as I can keep him! The last two games I've been in I've seen "goats" get dragged to the end and locked in final 3 positions, and then these perceived goats have ended up winning. so I want the big players in this game to rise to the top and fight it out in the end!

let’s say i am como we dice.. fed up with a lot :flushed: a lot meaning joshua starting to get on my nerves a bit! he’s genuinely sweet n all but.. the way he complained about us losing by putting down others work HHH pissed me off. which is why i will be voting him out hehe.. but so far my misting has worked because no one wants to vote me out! mwah

Slytherin killed the memory challenge. We thought we were all gonna flop bc all of us thought we sucked at memory stuff. um well we knocked it out of the park? Ravenclaw got 4 and huff/gryff got 1. We got 7 so oops. I do hope things turn out well for Gryffindor but no one I really know/care about is in that house so I'm not too worried. I hope they continue to lose or even hufflepuff since ravenclaw has 2 of my friends in it.

I have been TERRIBLE with confessionals but only because there's really not been much going on? I have an alliance with Dan and Owen, and even though I wrote off Joanna I was DEFINITELY wrong in doing that. Miguel is sort of the outlier. Our team is kinda iconic though? We've done so well on all the challenges. I might be the weakest link? More to come.

it's pretty sad but the whole tribe has agreed to vote max if we lose, basically he's just never around because of what's going on at home and like thats sad but... we gotta do what we gotta do *shrug*. I'm really feeling good about Hufflepuff moving forward, i've never bonded this much this easily with EVERYONE on a tribe and i just feel like if we keep winning or even if we lose and have to vote out max, we could be a great group for the future. especially i feel great about working with kevin, we dominated eve's game after eve came between us in 2020 that dastardly witch... :P (juuust kiddin. love ya!) but now we could totally do well in this game too i think.....

lily and ruthie are just so sweet and we really bond talking about pretty much anything,, especially lily is a great conversationalist and i just find it so natural to talk to them both. i'd love to work with any combination of people from hufflepuff in the future, hopefully i start sucking a little less at all these challenges. i think i did pretty great on memory :D

So here is the summary of what has happened since last time

We had a reward challenge that was drawing. Mine sucked. Apparently 3/4 so no reward.

We played Telephone. My team didnt realize that details are the most important parts of that and didnt share then with Autumn so Autumn didnt share them with me. Then I didnt know them when asked about them.

We scored 1 point and lost. Since I still have no alliance I'm scared that it could be me. So I kind of got an idea how everyone was feeling.

Juls let me know she wanted to vote Joshua and- it's not me so that's fine!

Then I was talking to Autumn about it and - OOP! Josh asked to be voted out. So unless he plays an idol I'm supposing he is leaving after asking to go.

woo my tribe won immunity!! we are safe! i’m glad bc i’m forming good relationships with ppl on my tribe. i think we all get along rly well so i hope we keep winning. the challenge was fun and i slayed bc i’m skinny mwah

Ya know what’s refreshing? Being on a tribe that actually wins!!! The last three games I’ve played I’ve been on flop ass starting tribes.

Now we’ll lose every challenge

10 minutes later

This sickening bitch just found a hidden immunity idol!!!! Good until f6 L A D I E S!!!!!!

HI BARBS SO I WAS GROUNDED SO I MISSED THE CHALLENGE BUT MY HUFFLEPUFF BABS SLAYED SM SO IM LIVING

CONFESSIONAL 2.1 —

Not much strategy has happened this episode, just simply tribal bonding! We are SlytherWINNING, getting reward and immunity this time! How wonderful.

Regarding my tribe mates, I love all three. I pray, pray, pray we make swap, i do Noh want to be a dirty bad guy and have to vote one out.. yet. Haha.

I was drunk during immunity, one full glass of rum & coke, so I am shocked that we won immunity. Honestly, I feel silly admitting I was drunk to my tribe because... if I can do that when drunk, imagine if I was sober. Competition Beast, duh.

I also gave up my run this round for the tribe to use. Was partially social, partially I just do not understand how to do the Hunt, so I might as well help the greater good. Either way, it comes off positively.

Hoping for a smooth journey for a little longer!

x nick

Joshue has basically quit at this point so I have no fear going into tribal

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ber-bonfamille-lyons · 6 years

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BDRP Resolutions

in which this is long

Write your RPer Resolutions for 2018!

-Plot with more members, definitely! I try to expand of course and rp threads with everyone but I think I could do better and could def do bigger plots with more people.

-Complete more tasks tbh. This one is gonna be hard for me to do but idk if I could do at least one task every other month that would be an improvement over last year haha.

-Continue to work on scenery and detail etc. My weaknesses. I hope that rping more detail-oriented characters, like Charlie or even Mowgli, or exploring the lake with Andrina or the forest with Prince/Merida will help with this. Though also just being more aware of it in the day to day

-Dream Journal for Charlie/More music stuff for radio

Write at least one resolution, or “goal,” that you have as an RPer for your character(s)

Mel: This was on last year’s so that tells u something but I think it’s gonna happen-- explore her feelings for Howl! Also would love for her to do some more seedy things and i see want an apprentice!!

Ber: Explore Berlioz’s mental health more. Whether I do this through tasks/one-shots or something, Ber is kinda in this weird place where he’s blurring the line between reality/fantasy and I think that’s interesting. A lot of it has to do with things he isn’t dealing with (trauma from Taka and going down into hell). Also very specifically I want him to rp with Marie more bc Berrie is kinda underdeveloped both on my part as an rper and his part as like a mediocre brother lmao. I also like him as a supporting role in other people’s plots and I hope I can keep pushing him in those directions. And of course I’m very interested to see him and Simba repair and grow their relationship hopefully stronger than ever. <3 OH and g row a backbone tbh stand up for himself more do it ber

Kiara: Figure out her school life!! I still want to have her shadow someone sooo I think I could see her shadowing Minnie or even Jiminy since she’s sort of into health and social work. Also explore her envy of her friends with magic bc she had powers in Star wars and lowkey she still wants powers (opportunity for Feys Gold Antics here-- also feel liek there could be something interesting in Kiara v. Jake if Jake really does start getting more elitist)

Hades: BOARD STUFF. Im really excited to play Hades as a politician and like-- authority figure in town. Though he’s gotta save his own soul first lol. Also supporting Belle in hopefully going back to school. Alsoooo there are loose threads in hell that I have and would like 2 look into…

Milo: Talk with Jane about what comes next after pride u because his grant is almost up! Plot with BIANCA/BERNARD hopefully about the rescue aid society.

Nala: ONE NIGHT STAND SERIOUSLY. Let loose. Date someone bc if she fell in love work wouldnt be her focus and she’d grow a lot. Uh repair relationship with Simba?

Kiki: bring back jiji lmfao i suck. Finish her apprenticeship and unlock the trU nature of her powers and stuff mhm. Also kiss someone lol

Anita: Bring her fam in town and explore like, this clash between her old life and the new life now that she has grown so much.

Prince: ACCEPT UR FEELINGS FOR ELLA. Embrace them! Continue to train Bambi/find the fucker who shot u/be a Dad and do Dad things like idk a parent teacher conference??? Thats hilarious. Somehow I want him to become like a guest lecturer at Pride U but I’m not sure how yet. I also feel like idk Akela could draw him into becoming slightly darker after this shooting and that might be interesting so who knows, maybe he should join Akela’s morally gray magic club,

Paul: GO TO PRIDE U PLZ. Deal with the paulina plot lol. Contend with his inferiority issues that stem from the financial inequality between him and Perdy. Just rly go into their relationship and figure it out post-break up post-make up u know

Andrina: Explore the lake. Get into seedy stuff with Ursula maybe??? Continue to sleep with people thats very fun for me. FIND OUT WHO RAVEN IS. Get a cat.

Merida: I need her to make more friends bc I want her to fuck up and then ruin all those friendships ahaha. Want to have a showdown with some powerful magicks, gimme Akela and Max, all the shapeshifters!!!

Mowgli: Meet the Bonfamilles (lmao). Uhhh would lvoe to rp more with Akela i need to brainstorm how. I’d also like him to become more extreme tbh? Maybe start having night terrors or something bc of all his suppressed guilt wow just got a good idea ahha. Alsoooo maybe get a mentoooor…

Charlie: HAVE A PROPHECY ABOUT SOMEONE PPL HIT ME UP. I wanna start him on the research train when I get that in place and also maybe abuse hospital equipment (aka scan his own brain ehhe) but also maybe save someone’s life would be cool, ok, yeah. Also hopefully grow his relationships with all hospital personnel and patients, and maybe get a mentorship with Tibbs and/or Sweet. In fact it’d be really cooool if he could eventually help Sweet with his research like as an intern or assistant or something. And also i want to get him to an event but i need him to get a friend for that so!!! A texting buddy friend, that is a specific goal.

Write at least one resolution IN CHARACTER for your characters. What do THEY want to accomplish or change in the New Year?

Mel: “Do something impossible.”

Ber: “Be a better brother and friend and boyfriend… be less crazy lol ahah”

Kiara: “figure out my LIFE lmao”

Hades: “Make real change in Swynlake.”

Milo: “Apply for a grant to study Atlantis...again.”

Nala: “Be my oWN love of my life. I’m a single independent woman and that’s amazing, I’m AMAZING.”

Kiki: “Restore Jiji D:”

Anita: “Direct a play again! That would be very fun. Oh, and paint more, I really do need to paint.”

Prince: “Be a good father to Bambi… make the forest a safe place again.”

Paul: “Be a good father, a good partner-- find better ways to support my kids.”

Andrina: “lol i dont DO goals bye.”

Merida: “Shoot Mor’du. Become a Prince.”

Mowgli: “... don’t make any trouble.”

Charlie: Bitch has a list.

Get phlebotomist license!!

Renew certs: CPR/AED/First Aid/Wilderness First Aid/BLS

Give up gluten! Again!

Exercise.

Go to a Swynlake Event! It will be fine no one will die!!! (!!!)

Plotting Exercise! Pick one of the resolutions/goals in #2 and plan a rough guideline to how you could accomplish it.

Mowgli explores his powers/grief

PARA 1: Has a nightmare and accidentally sets something on fire (Akela)

PARA 2: Frightened, Mowgli confides in someone about his powers (Peach/Will)

PARA 3: Seeks help from either Howl or Ursula--depending on which one, it could litERally change the direction of the entire plot.

List of Characters I want to RP with:

I went through character by character but I would love to do more than this I am sure ahah.

Mel: Mateo, Ursula, Sophie (bc duh Howl), Akela

Ber: Irma, Sophie because they should be better friends, more Peg, JENNy bc they play piano ok!!, ANNETTE bc they totally know each other!!, tbh daisy and ber could do something with anxiety, Rita for sure, more Simon somehow i swear it

Hades: Sally, more stuff with Miguel, Jack, Shock/Samara, Al, Cruella, Simba, Oogie, maybe Dipper

Kiara: more stuff with Jake, Jiminy, Minnie/Rama maybe, Isa, Wilbur, Penny, Ollie, Jenny. Also lowkey Ursula.

Milo: more stuff with Kida, Bianca, Elena, also Goliath and Thomas (teachers!!)

Nala: MAUI. sorry look i just want maui its been a year. Also maybe some board members and stuff since she’ll be politically active? So Al, Cruella, Soleil for that (and Simba, but I rp with simba allll the time). Also Arthur, Adam.

Kiki: Mateo as well!! More young-ish people: Dipper, Maui (she’s a #bigfan), Callie.

Anita: more stuff with Perdita. Also other artists: Pascal, Jane, Namine, Violet, maybe Art if he does art??, Peach, Peri, Duchess etc!! Hit me up please.

Prince: all the forest politics okay: Alasdair, Akela, Goliath, Shere, why are these men. Also just big Magicks in general: Ursula, Namine maybe. More fairies so Peri and Terence. Also very specifically: Theo and Thomas O’Malley. Maybe Jake tbh if he starts like patrolling the forest?

Paul: Goliath bc he’s a lit professor! Thomas bc they are bros now!!!! Maybe some other mersisters-- Aqua, Alana, Arista. Peach bc writing? Lmao. Also some lowkey shady people like Roscoe or Lock would be really great. Possibly Oogie bc he owns a casino and gambling~

Andrina: URSULA ok sorry i just want the sea witch. TBH Hiro or Tombo could be cool bc she’s into STEM stuff. Ken because I want to rp with Ken and I don’t think anyone else would get along? Ahah. Arista, Aqua and Alana. Herculessss.

Merida: Bambi bc scottish and also lowkey was involved in mother’s death!!! Maximus bc she should shoot him!! More Shere! Follow-up with Goliath tbh in class lmao would be funny. CORNY bc thye r destined to be friends. Callie!!! Oo, also more Eric.

Mowgli: Howl, Ursula, Mateo, more Peach, Jenny, Wilbur, Theo, Bambi Penny (yay orphans). Maybe a professor: Thomas, Goliath, Shere?

Charlie: so many ok. Ellie, Sweet, Shock, Jack, SALLY thats in caps bc I need it, Dipper, Boo, tbh could do some drug stuff with Roscoe, Lock and Theo. Rita bc she can be his mom, Oogie, anyone with trauma who wants charlie to relive it with them: eric, thomas, shere, lou the list can go on-- annnnd belle and callie also

#bdrptask #wooooo

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smallblanketfort · 7 years

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How did you get diagnosed with bpd? Did you suspect it before? How did you deal with it? Did you feel like anything changed after a diagnosis? Do you feel like people treat you differently when they know you have it? How do you deal with all the negativity around the diagnosis? ps: sorry for so many questions

it’s okay. i feel like a smart person would say, come off anon and let’s chat, but u know what, i’ll totally embarrass myself for the common good. oh man.

short answers. click keep reading for the in depth, tmi answers.

How did you get diagnosed with bpd? Did you suspect it before? short answer: self dx followed by psych. yes. kind of.

Do you feel like people treat you differently when they know you have it?short answer: depends on the person and how much they care about you as a person.

How do you deal with all the negativity around the diagnosis?short answer: i dont lol

babe i hope this helps a bit and idk. im being honest here, so idk how much comfort is here, but if you find any, good. be safe. lmk if you have other questions! happy to answer.

How did you get diagnosed with bpd? Did you suspect it before? short answer: self dx followed by psych. yes.long answer: i had a slight mental breakdown in uhhhh fall 2015-january 2016, and i work at the library which slows down in the winter. i was going a little nuts with nothing to do one day in late december/early january, so i planted myself in the mental health section and read all the requirements in dsm-iv book for mental disorders. i think i was half curious and half knew something was wrong. i had dealt with depression and anxiety in the past, but i felt mentally dizzy all the time, if that makes sense. just generally unstable and lost and worried. Not Okay. self harming and finding comfort in it. i was totally bleary going through my daily life and i felt extremely unstable in my relationships. i also was trying to work through this whole hallucination/voice in my head thing that sparked it in september(?). so i remember taking these books to the break room and taking these convoluted notes on tiny scraps of paper, trying to make sense of what was happening. i found the notes a couple weeks ago, and it was really weird, but i was so careful about it. i really didn’t want to feel like i had anything, but i was getting desperate. i would copy out the requirements and tally up what i had. i remember contemplating a couple things i knew i could diagnoses with by a doctor who didn’t care, like avoidant pd, but i realized it was definitely not the one, at all. when i read bpd, it took my breath away. i was shocked, bc it was like reading a book about myself. i remember getting goosebumps, and shaking. i spent months researching and researching it, trying to convince myself i didn’t fit the criteria. at the time i was in several psych classes, and one of my professors had us write a 15+ page paper about our own life and psych development. it was hella weird, but i ended up pouring myself into it and my psych prof, who runs his own practice was like “Lol yeah omg” and we chatted a bit and sure enough, i am most likely a bpd bug. i’m not “formally” diagnosed but i have talked to several psychologists at my universities about it and they’re all like “lmao yeeeah” so

How did you deal with it?short answer: i feel like i’m still “dealing” with the diagnosis, and my stance on it changes constantly lol, but probably better in the beginning. it didn’t really change a ton for me, bc i felt like it was just a word for what i had already been experiencing. i decided not to tell anyone, so i didn’t feel like things had changed. at the same time i refused to believe it. i have tables and tables of notes in my journals, trying to convince myself in and out of it. i did know that to be healthy, i needed to acknowledge it. i tried.long answer: idk!? like on one hand i was relieved like “okay so this is a thing with a name, now i can start attacking it. i was really good at mood tracking for about 6 months. no more lol. anyway, i still go through acceptance/denial cycles constantly. just today, i decided to watch youtube videos about it to prove to myself that i didn’t have bpd. my reaction? o shit i guess i have bpd. every couple weeks ill come across an article or video or something about it and they’ll talk about other quirks of bpd and it’s so accurate it’s scary. but kinda cool (like perceptions of time and such that dont really hurt anything, but i thought everyone had. whoops. just my bpd showing again lol) it’s like when i climbed over a wooden fence in colorado and realized i had a sliver in my leg and then when i got it out, i realized i had another sliver in my leg and then when i got it out i realized i had another sliver in m-and so on. it never stops really. maybe it’d help if i told more ppl. idk.

Did you feel like anything changed after a diagnosis?short answer: it brought some clarity, some understanding and validation, that i think really helped me. sometimes it brought hopelessness, sometimes motivation. i mean, i was still the same person, just with a label. it started me on a road i referred to as resurfacing.long answer: i mean, i was still the same person, just with a label. it definitely brought gravity to it. sometimes it made me hopeless (can you even recover from a personality disorder?), but sometimes it brought me hope bc i wasn’t alone and there are coping methods made esp for me. it helped me understand myself and why i did what i did. it helped me be more proactive, and im getting better at it. it helped me accept some of my quirks, and helped me communicate. it’s a constant learning process like battle.

Do you feel like people treat you differently when they know you have it?short answer: depends on the person and how much they care about you as a person.long answer: lmao so like i haven’t told my parents yet, didnt have to since i was over 18. lately my mom is becoming more aware tho i think, and she’s being really supportive. my friends (irl and online, they all know) are really supportive and patient and encouraging and kind. they’re so great. the two ppl i dated since were lovely. about a month after diagnosis, however, i told my boyfriend of the time whose only response was “why didn’t you tell me this before i got emotionally attached to you?” :-) THAT fucked me up, but i still think it’s fair. lately im super worried about it though.

How do you deal with all the negativity around the diagnosis?short answer: i dont lollong answer: so i had never heard of it before 2016 sooo i actually don’t really know about the stigmas even now? i try really hard not to hear about any of it, bc if i do, im going to shrivel and not have the confidence to be open about it, which really helps me and my relationships. being open about it is what destroys the stigma. at the same time, im totally terrified of telling my family for some reason. my mom used to say anxiety was a hat i put on, bc she was a nurse in the mental ward, so her view of mental illness is basically of non to low functioning people. she;s a lot more supportive and validating of it now but idk i cant.OKAY ALSO negativity with recovery high key sucks. for a solid year i was convinced that there’s no recovery and i’ll probably kill myself before im 27, im so screwed blah blah blah, but then i FINALLY starting finding resources that consistently said 50% of adults find themselves recovered after ten years. im also really working hard on self care and coping rn. making good choices for myself to hopefully stay as healthy and happy as possible.

lmk if you have other questions!

#bpd #anon #borderline personality disorder #actuallyborderline #actually borderline

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k-kizkhalifa · 7 years

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I saw this thing and was wondering if you'd fill it out. I love your cute little write ups you do. It's a little long.. but I don't know I just love your stuff and want to know! Yuuri or Yurio? Georgi or JJ?Victor or Chris?Otabek or Seung Lee?Chris or Yurio?Michele or Sara?Emil or Michele?Chris or JJ?Guang or Kenjirou?Phichit or Otabek?JJ or Yuurio?Yurio or Otabek?Victor or Yuuri?Yuuko or Mila?Yurio or Mila?Yakov or Victor?Minako or Yuuko?

I assume since you dig the write-ups that means you want little write ups about the choices or..? Sorry if I butcher it. Eh. Thanks for the ask tho! ~kiz

Yuuri or Yurio? Always Yurio. Always, always. He is a little baby angel and I love him.

Georgi or JJ? Does anyone beat JJ? He is soooo relatable and just an overall great character and so much fun to watch him BE HIMSELF EVEN IF IT IS A LITTLE ANNOYING.

Victor or Chris? This actually hurts. Soooo much. Viktor is daddy but Chris? Chris is e v e r y t h i n g.

Otabek or Seung Lee? Mm. Otabek he is priceless and adorable, and Seung Lee is great but he is also a bit off putting, granted it was nice to see him cry.

Chris or Yurio? Oh god. This is living hell. Found the one time I don’t pick Yurio. Chris

Michele or Sara? Sara. I just want to say.. I don’t judge much at all, you are free to love whomever even your sister. Was it just me or… like was this totally not a Lanister relationship scale?

Emil or Michele? I am Emil. One sooo o o o many levels so I gotta pick him.

Chris or JJ? Chris. All day, I love JJ. He’s is great but Chris? Once again nothing beats Chris. At all.

Guang or Kenjirou?Kenji. Aren’t we alllll Kenji at least once in our life?

Phichit or Otabek? Sweet little Phichit. He’s such a doll and a great friend and I can’t get his cute little *hand over mouth shocked pose* “I couldn’t help myself….* No one ships Victuuri as hard as Phichit.

JJ or Yurio?Awe. Their little rivalry is so cute. Yuurio, of course, my baby. But I don’t doubt for one second JJ would give him anything he needed. And if I may, can we talked about… Yurio about to call out for Yuuri, when Victor was away taking care of the puppers. And he stats to yell out good luck to his friend and JJ is like, “*whistle* not getting soft are you?” Ok I know a lot of ppl hated JJ for that, they did. You can admit it. I didn’t. I couldn’t. I don’t think it was coming from a hateful place at all, but more from a soft place. He was bringing to our attention as much as to Yurio’s attention the man was changing, he was developing. He was becoming better as a competitor and person. JJ isn’t the enemy, he’s like a big brother you want to shove into the water and laugh at but you know you’d both support each other no matter what.

Yurio or Otabek?If this isn’t OTP material idk what is. No comment.

Victor or Yuuri?I’ll pick on this one though. Sweet Vitya.

Yuuko or Mila?D’aw. Yuuko.

Yurio or Mila?Yurio. Always. It’s not fair honestly pairing anyone against Yurio with me (except Christophe. That was just mean.)

Yakov or Victor?Mm. Victor is a skater. Not a coach, I’m gonna say it, Yakov.

Minako or Yuuko?I don’t like Minako. I tried, REALLLLLLLY HARD. And sure, she was super supportive or whatever *rolls eyes* but honestly like, Yuuko has supported Yuuri is soooo many ways over the years and can we talk about the fact Yuuri thinks she is cute? For .5 seconds then Victor showed up and was like, “I’M A GOD. EXCUSE ME!” Also, Yurio’s, “you’re leaking fluids again.” (GUYS HE’S WEARING A SEE THROUGH ONE PIECE TO SKATE IN. HELLO?!!??!?!?! I’D BE SPEWING FLUIDS TOO. THE FUCK.)

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kxdust · 7 years

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“Moonlight”

Title: Moonlight Chapter: 2/? Fandom: R5 / should I say ‘A walk to remember’ ?? Pairing: Rocky x Lucy (Fem OC) / Rydellington Word Count: 1,868 (all chapters) Summary:

This story is sligthy based on the novel/movie ‘A walk to remember’, with Rocky Lynch as the main guy. I would like to emphasize the “ sligthy based “ part, because the final product is a bit… AU/OC. You see, I haven’t seen A walk to remember since forever (because is the saddest thing ever!!) and have a really bad memory, so it’s not completely alike, which I actually think is a good thing because in that case is more /interesting/ since you don’t know how it’s going to end (to be honest, neither do I /o/)

Warnings: (for this chapter)

please if there is any warning (anything at all) you need me to write/tag let me know. be save, ppl!!

mention’s of a car accident, people been irresponsable about it,

Disclaimer: I don’t own R5 or the members of the band, sadly. Although Lucy, Will and other characters are all mine. I’m not saying anything of this is real and of course I mean not warm by writing this. (Other explinations inside)

A/N:

they are seven notes in the first chapter and I’m like “omggg!!1!” (?) Seriously thank you so much if you are one of those notes, like I said, any kind of feedback is always welcome and very appreciated ♥. But anyways, I said if people liked it I was going to update soon… and then I was MIA for like a month lol ( <- that’s ironically (? ) sorry it took me so long to update, I’m trying to figure out what I’m doing with my life :T

Never mind, enjoy your reading!!

[ Chapter II ]

It was supposed to be fun. Will was going to drive down the street as fast as he could, avoid Official Jackson by taking the left turn at the end of the road and then Rocky and his friends will make fun of him because he will be still nervous, probably shaking and sweating. His heart will be beating so fast that everyone could hear and they would laugh at him even more.

It was / supposed / to be like that.

Will wasn’t supposed to panic so much that he will end crashing into the tree when he attempted to take the turn. Rocky and his friends wasn’t supposed to run away without helping the guy. But most important, Will’s heart wasn’t supposed to beat so low.

“That was intense.” Ross said as if t wasn’t the most obvious thing.

They were back in the hill and until that moment, without counting the sirens that could be heard in the distance, they were all silence, in shock after their perfect plan was a total fail.

“What are we going to do?” asked Rydel, probably the only one in the group with a little bit of guilt.

“Nothing. And I mean nothing at all. We know nothing.” Riker emphasizes using his lead voice to make it sound more like an order that everyone should follow.

And they did.

Until Rocky was called to the principal office on Monday.

It was stupid how they didn’t think on the possibility of the police finding out that the car William was driving wasn’t his but Rocky’s, really, and now the chestnut was sat in his very common chair in front of the principal, hearing other one of the man’s lectures about being responsible to be someone in life. Rocky had heard it so many times that could almost repeat it by memory.

“Now, and I had said this before, I think you could totally be someone if you stopped right now with this rebellious phase.” the oldest said, and Rocky had to force himself to not laugh right there and then.

"Is this the part when you tell me what should I do for the next week so I can / be someone /?” Rocky predicted the tone on his voice clearly showing all that wasn’t important to him.

“No. This is the part when I tell you what you / have / to do if you don’t want to go to jail for convince William to drive your car, so he will break the speed limit, crash it, and be on the hospital right now.” The man explained, using his own tone. “Theater, for the next weeks until the play.”

Rocky’s eyes went wide when he heard that Will was on the hospital. The new information taking him by surprise since he didn’t think the crash was that serious. Of course the guy didn’t looked really well when they left on Riker’s car, but Official Jackson was close and called the ambulance right away; Rocky remembered hearing them when they were driving back to the hill. He thought nothing bad had happened, himself and Ross had just gotten some bruises for the impact along a few scars due the windows glass, so surely William could have some scars, a broken leg maybe, but nothing too serious to stay on the hospital more than a day. Right?

One more time, he was wrong.

The teen was too busy realizing how terrible the crash really was that didn’t pay attention to the fact that he wasn’t staying after school for the detention but for theater club. Not like he could do anything about it, anyway.

Rocky took the paper Mr. Patton handed him to give the teacher to sign and prove he attempted to his daily punishment for the next month and left the office, going the cafeteria to take advantage of the few minutes spare of lunch time and eat something.

He walked to the usual table where all his friends were already waiting for him, on “their” table.

It’s a cliché if they really think about t, but was also the appropriate thing since they were the post popular people on the school along sides the sport teams, the only difference between the groups been that if you hang out it the athletes is because you wanted your reputation to improve, somehow getting privileges even with the teachers. And if you hang out with The Lynch’ (and Rocky and Ellington) people would respect you… most of the time out of fear. Even some teachers.

“What happened?” Rydel asked Rocky right when he sits down.

“You still here, it surely didn’t go that bad,” guessed Ellington.

The rumor of the possibility of going to jail after the crash had already been spread around the school while he talked with Mr. Patton, and although most people would see the concern on his friends as an action of worry towards him, it was mostly the fear of being betrayed that spook.

“What’s that?” wondered Ross, looking at the paper sheet on Rocky’s hand.

“Report sheet, need the teacher to sign it.” Rocky explained, stilling some food from someone’s tray, and tempted to make a joke about how the youngest didn’t know what it was, the typical phrase of ‘are you even Riker’s brother?’ rolling on his tongue.

But said blond interrupted, took the paper from him and read it: ��’Penalization: Assist Mrs. Jonson on Theater Club daily until show day’. When is the show day?... And why theater club?” Riker asked a bit conceded, until that day nobody had had a penalty like that one. They had been only calls to parents, detentions after classes or cleaning the school on weekends.

“Something about this time been worst.” Rocky simply answered, not sure if he should tell them about William, they wouldn’t care anyway. “And no idea when is that day.” he shrugged. Perhaps he should cared more, but he decided his mom did enough caring for the both of them and so he was just going to assist to the stupid penalization to avoid any other problems.

A/N:

Sooo this chapter is longer, hope that makes it up for the waitng haha. Anyways… tell me your thoughts and all, okay? Any kind of feedback is always welcome :)

((also. can we talk about rocky’s picture for new addictions??? like... dAMN. it is a good picture ...(? )))

#rockyr5 #rocky lynch #rocky lynch fanfic #rocky lynch fanfiction #rocky lynch imagine #r5 #r5 fanfic #r5 fanfiction #moonlight fic #is there any other tag i should use???

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wonhuis · 4 years

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hank u! i got a 5 lol, so everything is good for now. Rn i’m studyin english, like in depth but a few years ago I was studying literature and philosophy and since i did 3 (almost 4) years i didn’t want to lose all that work but i didn’t take some finals so they sent me a mail telling that i needed at least one okay. i loved exo m but my bias is chanyeol lol, i think both cheol and him can be very loud sometimes (most of the time!) and i love that 1/? 🍰-sss

and i don’t follow nct a lot so i can’t give u an answer. such mood! rn i’m listening to some horror stories (podcast style) ah yes, some songs are meh, i really liked the reve festival day 1 (most of the songs). i hope u can be able to play gta soon, it’s a old game but i love stealing cars(? i started to watch it, so far so good but i’ll give u my final review when i finish it. 2/? 🍰-sss

FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST! i love love love that anime, both versions. 2003 one has a special place in my heart. ahhh all of those are really amazing ones! i remember ouran was one of my firsts mangas. currently i’m trying to collect the yu yu hakusho ones. kyoukai no kanata is still my fav anime, i remember i watched it in one day before my sociology final lmao. and then the movie! i wanted to make a svt/knk kind of edit but im lazy! 3/? 🍰-sss

jun’s pink/lilac hair was iconic!! such a good look, his whole aes in clap era had such a strong energy

reposters have no respect, unfortunatelly a lot of people that are into social media just want numbers but they don’t even work hard for them. bc alright u care abt the amount of followers u have, at least do smth to earn that. but no, they just steal bc it’s the easier way, honestly such a disgusting move. gfx, gifs, fanarts, etc take effort, talent and time. it’s really sad that some people don’t appreciate that, damn a lot of them sound like ignorants 5/6 🍰-sss

(reminds me of when my great aunt told me literature wasn’t a valid major to choose, smh. not everybody want to be a lawyer karen). !!! the foot fetish omg jfbsdfs. and don’t worry! hahah i luv ya, we can ramble and share our hate towards twitter. how is your weekend going so far?? 6/6 🍰-sss

yayyy, that’s great!!! i’m happy for u 💕💕 ohh i get it! i’m glad u could do well on this one then!! CHANYEOL! YES! A HAPPY BOY!! u cant write chanyeol without cheol so that’s cute LMAO and yessss they’re both rlly loud!!! god i love chanyeol but i can never see him next to baekhyun without feeling anxious bc of the shippers lmao right now not as much as a few years ago but i still got the trauma lol and!! idk if u know but noses are my fave thing ever right and chanyeol has one of my fave noses in kpop i love it :/// i used to cry about his nose as much as i cry about vernon’s now lmao

oh i don’t remember if i actually listened to the albums lmao idk but sometimes if i dont like the title track i feel rlly unmotivated to listen to the whole album :/ also what did u think about psycho? to me it kinda felt the same as umpah umpah like i enjoyed the song but it kinda sounded more like a b track? also as i was listening to it and watching the mv it reminded me a lot of an ending song? like not an anime ending sort of song but like a goodbye song if it makes any sense lmao like goodbye by 2ne1 or lonely by sistar idk wHY BUT the album actually has the word finale in it and i was actually shocked to see it but it made sense in my head lmao

stealing cars is amazing but i actually like it more to punch random people on the street :/ i have anger issues and sometimes i do wish i could do that irl but i CANT so i do it in the game lmao also shooting random ppl god i LOVE it, love me some violent games where i can do whatever i want and then pretend i’m sane irl LMAO

fma is my fave thing in the world after my cats and maybe tied with pjo i LOVE that anime/manga and you’re completely RIGHT the 2003 version is just as good the 2009 ver supremacists are wrong bc both versions are amazing and they complement each other really well!! oh ur so brave to try collecting a whole manga lmao like it’s my DREAM but i only have bits and pieces of some of them bc i mostly buy them second handed

KYOUKAI NO KANATA I LOVEEEE, did i mention it on my list or did i forget? either way i LOVE that anime, i’ve watched it so many times it’s one of my absolute faves!! also i’m rlly sad there’s absolutely no english translation for the light novel i think? i searched a few years ago and couldn’t find anything, i’d love to read it even if i don’t usually read light novels lmao and god i fully support you and ur gfx idea but i do understand 100% about being too lazy to do it lmao i’ve had a gfx idea i wanted to do for the longest time but i’ll be SO hard and it’ll take me so much time i’m just zzzzzzz lmao

god jun in clap era was rlly something!! the hair, the outfits, the earring, ahhh i miss it lmao

reposters can just fuck off honestly lmao and yeah!! i’m rlly grateful my mother always allowed me to do whatever i wanted to when it comes to college so i never had that problem, but i’m rlly sad about every artist who got told that art isn’t a “real job” or stuff like that, same with stuff like literature/philosophy/sociology like some professions get sooo neglected it’s sad :/

also i do wanna thank you for letting me ramble and never complaining about it bc my friend (the only friend i talk to, in fact) always tells me that if he were u he wouldn’t read half the things i write lmao and he does indeed NOT read half the things i tell him lmao bc like i talk a lot and ramble a lot but not everyone is like this so i’m sorry if i’m making u talk more than u are used to but also thank you for doing so akdjnfsd

and my weeked was pretty ok i think? i dont rlly remember what i did, might have just slept a lot lmao but i don’t have any complaints either! what about yours??

also i’m going to the beach for a couple of days with my friends this week so i’m exciteddd i love the beach and i was sad thinking i wouldn’t go anymore, it’ll be for 3 or 4 days only but that’s already something!!

#🍰 sss #sss19 #anon #asks

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survivorunfinishedbusiness · 6 years

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Episode #5 - "Either I Bash My Own Head In, or I Wait To Get Sliced Open."- Kori

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175657274028/announcement

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175657392678/immunity-challenge-6

Of course. Of-FUCKING-COURSE of all the people Dani could send home, it was Anna, thank god it wasn't Timmy, but still holy shit. Like she had a freaking idol in pocket, why the hell couldn't she have just flopped. I need her gone TODAY. Like I'm tired of having to worry about this punk. I'm losing my cool I know, but for the love of god, even that whole tribe agreed it was her time to go.

What in the actual fuck just happened???? Dani calls me out in her idol speech saying I'm gonna go, and then fucking votes off Anna. I still have just a blank stare on my face with my mouth wide open just because I'm that shocked. I'm pissed because Anna was someone who I could really trust and I'm going to miss having her in this game. I'm glad Dani's idol is gone and it means that she did find it at Summit 13 because I was told something had been there and she was the only other person checking the Summit at that time. I really should have said something to Ryan and Anna about that and I regret not doing so. But I can't regret it for too long because I just have to keep moving forward and hope for the best at this point.

When Hurricane Dani destroys your number one ally in this game

Hurrah! Exile Island and also a huge strike against my game. I am ecstatic to be assured a spot in the Final 14. But there are a LOT of downsides to Exile Island. Firstly, I miss out on whatever tribe I end up with's dynamics for 3 days. Everyone will assume I have an advantage now, whether I do or not is irrelevant, perception is reality in this game. Lastly whichever tribe I join is likely to be the weaker tribe as they are the ones who lose this challenge, so its a tribe that might just go to tribal again. WHICH MEANS that I'm even more likely to get sent home, especially if it's a live challenge which I'll be unable to participate in since it'll be in the middle of the week and during my work... I feel like I'm in between a Rock and a Giant Saw Blade, and it's either I bash my own head in, or I wait to get sliced open.

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175660820633/immunity-results-6

Talio wins immunity sending the new Audax tribe to tribal council.

I finally have a chance to breathe in this game. I am so thankful for Ryan for finding so many links. I'm actually really happy with how I did in this challenge, especially after the last one, because I found like 11 of the links. Also only the 4 people who just came from Audax are the only ones who found links so really even if we didn't swap we would have won this challenge.

Another day on Exile. I'll be joining Audux, which is the tribe I preferred, but at the same time I still worry they may be thinking. Kori has an advantage from Exile. OR they might already have a majority that I can't become a part of due to joining late. It's tough, and I dunno what the future holds, but I can only hope that with my excessive planning and studying of how people have voted and previous tribe relations, I can find the cracks I need to make it to the merge and beyond.

https://youtu.be/Eqm9_6_j4M0

after tribal #5

Well... I'm still alone on Exile, and I've had a lot of time to reflect on the game I've been playing, I feel like I haven't been active enough with certain people because I now find myself constantly worried in these swap scenarios, if I ended up on the other tribe, I'd likely be drawing dead, which isn't a good thing to be doing since I was on a tribe with half of them on some point or another. It's frustrating, and I realize I need to make a greater effort for change, which I'm gonna do once I re-enter the game, maximize my socialization as much as I can.

well I've gone to like every single tribal council besides the first one. And it sucks ass wow i hate it. Well In this game i have been in more allainces than i hav ever been in before so i guess thats fun . I have Bullies R us (all members still in game ) which is Me, JUlia, RTP, and isaac then i have OG Vindicta (all present) ME, Julia, Isaac, and John. Then im also in FAb Three (all present) Me julia and John then im in Sexy can i (not all present) which is me RTP and ANNA <3 RIP a legend. Well now i want to make an alliance with Andrew and Isaac bc isaac told me he is close to andrew and if i get the locked down ill be aligned with almost everyone on my current tribe other than Nathan and Colin. O ya going to tribal tonight. im hoping that nathan gets voted out bc i think he knows alot of ppl in this game and he is very well connected. Also he hasn't talked to me much at all which is kind of concerning. But i think i hav the votes for him to leaeve. I hope he doenst hav an idol. but if he does and if he plays it i think hes going to be voting out colin bc Julia told him that is who the vote if for. SOOO ya HOPEFULLY IM HERE FOR ANOTHER ROUND AND I CAN WIN AN IMMUNITY BC DAMN THIS IS EMBARRASSING.

so i feel ok... i think. i’m like 99% sure that nathan is going and i feel bad bc i love him but hey.. it ain’t me. i’m pretty sure the vote isn’t me because i have a feeling isaac will always want to vote with blake and blake tells me what he’s doing so to get majority against me, isaac and andrew would have to start it just bc i feel really close to colin and john. i even think if we lose again i’ll be fine.. any who i’m going to sleep to avoid talking to people and hope blake makes sure everyone is in check

So, we stan this swap.

Dani popped off and people will see her as an easy target, but if I get my way I would like to keep her around a bit since I think she’ll trust me.

I think I have enough connections on this tribe to keep me safe if we lose, which is good because I think we are super close to merge and my ass needs to get there.

Ok I’m at a conference so bare with me. Honestly rip Anna I miss that bitch. But this swap seems pretty good for me...I think Timmy and Kevin will still think I’m with them...obvs I’m still with Dani....and then I know Jake and bodhi so I need to try and talk to Nicole but she’s not really around...if I had to vote rn I’d go for her...it’s been real y’all

So I guess the vote is just supposed to be Nathan? Idk because people aren't really talking but I guess there's a group of Isaac, Julia, Blake, and Coffey deciding who they want out and it was allegedly between Nathan and Colin but they landed on Nathan.

But now Nathan mentioned to me he wants a group of me, him, Julia, and Colin? But I don't see that group being made. Idk wtf is going on. I don't wanna have to lie to Nathan but I wanna get in the good graces of the majority group to establish myself into some better footing.

So right now I just wanna play off that I'm a 5th to the majority 4. Isaac knows I'm doing this. The other 3 don't. Isaac says he has Blake for sure and we're trying to see how much we can trust Julia and Coffey.

ahhHHHHHHHHHHH. I've been so busy the past 2 days and we have to deal with tribal. I'm doing last minute scrambling currently to make sure no messy shit is happening. every person I've talked to said it's a cut and dry vote on nathan?? so like??? nice?????

I hope its true lmao

Jake and I are in a good spot strategically, and we've got options. There's Dani, but there's also Ryan + Timmy. We need to figure out how to keep both groups in.

I’m so happy to be back with Blake. This round we had an original Vindicta alliance of me, Blake, Julia, and John Coffey and even though Nathan’s been having a bad time we decided he’d be better to send home because he’s more social and less boring than Colin (Noah Fence) and has more connections. I was apprehensive about sending him home at first but like he came here to play and that’s just part of the game, he’s a threat and he needs to go. Sorry buddy. Andrew told me that Nathan was trying to round up a 4 consisting of himself, Andrew, Julia, and Colin. It’d be stupid of Julia to flip and alienate herself and I have Andrew on lock so unless Nathan has an idol I think he should be going.

https://survivorunfinishedbusiness.tumblr.com/post/175727865523/tribal-council-6-audax

Nathan is voted out by a vote of 6-1. You can find his preseason interview here.

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survivorhogsmeade · 6 years

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Episode #7: Little Ol Alex Tried To Play A Game That I Can Play So Much Better. -Anna

I LOVE this challege, I either do really good or really bad at it, once I WON this in something so I'm really hoping I can win it now, I live for this kind of challenge. FINGERS CROSSED!!!

Flawless vote out. Not i gotta solve a word puzzle......... I am bad at words

After a long week I've decided to get voted out next tribal I'm too busy to do challenges but I'm still going on the jury

Okay, so Olivia just had a crazy idea. Kevin approached her and Elmo saying that he wanted to be voted out next. But Olivia was like "hey what if we don't vote Kevin and vote Alex C and then get out 2 birds with one stone, cause Kevin may drop out or strike out". So crazy plan that might just work. Don't know if we are going to go through with it, still have people to talk to, but this might be the best move.

https://vocaroo.com/i/s0XxTJveWxHT

thoughts about kevin wanting to get voted out + what do i need to do

I’m sad that Kevin walked but I mean I should be happy that makes it easier for ME! Also Anna and I can’t wait to see the Alex’s go after one another, heh heh JoannaI am bad at anagrams. This is what I have learned. So, not shocked, tbh. I can't see words in letters.

I WON IMMUNITY! OMG I'm so happy, I worked pretty hard on this challenge because I find challenges like this really fun.. May I just say, my darling hosts I know people aren't giving you the effort you deserve BUT I am having sooo much fun playing this game. Every challenge I've enjoyed and have CHALLENGED me which I love, ya'll are a dream come true and 2 amazing people that I'm happy to call my friends after this game!!

I'm just really proud of myself for winning this immunity because idk I always doubt myself with how "smart" I am and this was a puzzle challenge with letters and numbers and I usually lose those against someone "smarter" then me on Epicmafia. It's just really nice to try hard for something and win it!! I'm def patting myself on the back right now and I'm sooo elated that I won!!!!

this vote makes me uncomfortable

why did u leave kevin i miss u :(

stephen has to go

i want him to go

but other ppl want alex c, that's fine too

but i'd rather have stephen gone!!

im gonna pitch it with joanna tbh and see what happens

also create a 5 man alliance between ruthie, alex s, myself, joanna and olivia

i do love a great majority (-:

Well I had a genius plan of not voting Kevin and voting alex c instead bc everyone would expect Kevin and then Kevin went ahead and quit anyways after telling us all to vote him and somehow gets to stay on the jury so that plan is fucked. Ruthie, alex s, Joanna, Elmo, and myself are all voting together and that’s a majority right there. The problem is Anna because I don’t trust her but Joanna wants to and she so clearly wants to be trusted but I have a really bad feeling that if we tell her the plan she will run straight to the others and an idol will be played.

https://vocaroo.com/i/s0jfnFvVjiiY

this conff is such a mess omg

Wtf Anna

I am orchestrating this vote since everyone is being quiet and wishy washy. The names going around were Madison, Stephen and Alex C. So I took Alex C's name and ran with it. Everyone is on board and we will be splitting it 5-2, Elmo and Joanna will vote Madison and everyone else is on Alex C. Hopefully this works out!!!

Wtf Anna

Anna in her big swively chair:

This is just too fucking easy look at all these sheeple muahhahahahahahhaha

https://vocaroo.com/i/s0kVWEqJenxO

THIS VOTE IS A MESS YALL

So I go to bed with having no ideas about what the vote would be, but a sneaking suspicion that Alex and Madison weren’t being decisive or smart enough to keep control of the game. And I was right. I wake up to Anna telling me she’s heard Madisons name, Alex Cs name, and even my name. We eventually agreed that we should be voting out Alex C, and then she talking about splitting votes and now thats ringing alarm bells. If she’s trying to get Alex C to vote Madison, how do I know this isn’t a ploy to get my to vote against my one chance of surviving. I was content to play loyally and with alliances but now Annas poked the bear (haha I managed to fit a quasi-gay joke into a dramatic confessional) and whether or not she is being legitimate I’m ready to do something...potentially game destroying.

Okay so I keep feeling bad for not being super active but then when I try to step up my game I realize no one responds or gives a single fuck about it either so like. I guess I feel a little better? But also no one else seems to have much of an excuse so like...go off I guess?

I will recount the tale of the fall of Rainbow Rumpus Partytown: Anna betrayed the Madison Alex C and I by trying to vote someone out. I betrayed Anna by telling Alex C and Madison. Now Alex C has betrayed me and Madison by saying he’ll vote Madison to save his ass. Geez that was a lot of betrayal for one morning.

THE HECK IS GOING ON. I don't trust anyone they are all SUPER shady, I'm debating whether I should go search for the idol for fun or not.

Listen I'm just getting home only to find that Anna is a lyin' bitch. Like she's acting like Madison's going home when I'm being told it 's 5-2-2 me. Like ??????? just because you have immunity doesn't mean your safe for 5 years hunny.

So now I gotta panic and that's just another stress to add on woo

So Alex C willed me the Marauders Map in case he doesn’t survive tribal. Which he won’t because I’m going to vote him out. Oops. But he said it was “worthless” but it lets me see how many alliances someone is in!!! That is so useful! And of course the first thing I did was look at Anna, and it said she is in only one alliance, meaning she isn’t backstabbing us as badly as I thought. I feel a lot better about voting Alex C out now than I did a few minutes ago. Thanks Alex!

Help me I can't stop my cracked side from coming out and it's killing me

Okay so somehow, the foursome finally managed to agree on finally targeting Alex C. Even with having lost Kevin, we're doing okay. And, even better, Joanna and Anna are on board.

So, uh...what if that didn't happen?

Here is the thing: I don't know if my ideal F7 includes the foursome and Anna/Joanna/Stephen. Because I might be the biggest target there, and I don't want to go to the finals with two of Ruthie/Elmo/Olivia. One, at best, preferrably. But I also don't know if I have the votes right now at that 7 to do what I want.

So..what if I pulled in two votes from the two people on the outs? Wouldn't be the first time I've done it. But is it worth it? Who knows! We might find out, I honestly haven't decided and it's only an hour until tribal!

It’ll probably be me tonight because someone will play an idol on alex c rip

If they do I’m gonna be so angry

GAAAA this is literally last minute but I just can't be the only one who flips, I'm sorry other Alex

If I thought anybody else would join me; Anna, Joanna, Ruthie, I'd do it in a heartbeat, but I'm too well set up to burn it all to the ground this early in the merge.

SOSOSOSSO, little ol Alex C tried to play a game that I can play so much better. We have that alliance still from swap Rosemerta and obv everyone is trying to get Alex C out so I was just giving them what they wanted and they basically baited me to say I'd vote Olivia. Alex C went to Olivia and told her I threw her name out, Stephen told me that he did that. I then went to Olivia and told her what really happened and hopefully worked that out with her.

ALEX C WHO U THINK U FUCKIN WITHHHHHHHH?!?!?!!?!?

ALEX S. DON'T FAIL THE ALEXS I SWEAR

PLEASE ACTUALLY PULL OFF A 4-3-2 VOTE

IF THIS HAPPENS I WILL CRY TEARS OF HAPPINESS

#mischiefmanaged #confessionals

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pjihoon · 7 years

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pls do not feel too bad for being neutral or impartial to anyone!! D: an individual might not appeal to everyone at first sight? heck some might not at all even. point is, it’s okay pls don’t think too much about it D: also guanlin is a very cute one indeed! seonho was the first one to catch my eye between the chicks but guanlin endeared himself to me first? (tho seonho quickly took the spot after, these baby chicks…) he’s v hardworking

and i see him as someone who’s actually… easily influenced by things, in way? like a simple praise lifts his spirits to the sky but when he faces hardships he visibly sulks for a while before picking himself back up. being frustrated is normal but some people pushes their frustration aside quickly to get the job done, and guanlin’s not one of those people? it’s probably not the right word tbh, how to say it… bottom line he is a good boy who tries his best and needs a lot of love and reassuranceand now i remembered his ghost prank when he appeared to not be affected by the prank only for him to say smth like ‘what a shock… i can’t do this, i’m just 17 years old’ which is both funny and sad :( he must’ve been pretty scared inside

thank you so much for this anon! this was really sweet of you to send in i love you honestly speaking, i didnt watch p101 episodes bc my heart cant take elimination shows (esp those written by mnet; when i was getting into twice i was like ‘let me watch sixteen!’ but i stopped after 2 eps bc of all the evil editing and poor nayeon omg :( i felt so bad for her; mnet really gave her an evil edit. so i decided to watch other twice videos and that worked a lot better.) I’ve watched more performances in p101, and little cuts of my favs (who usually became my favs bc of a performance) and the behind scenes! that were so cute!! and gave us a bit more of their unedited by mnet personalities. that was most of my exposure to the show, so there were many many many contestants that i’ve def missed out on or just not paid attention to. i knew who guanlin was but he wasn’t in my fav performances(nothing on him personally!) and he didn’t have much screentime/didn’t talk that much(? probably bc korean wasnt his first language. again nothing on him! and even if he did have screentime, im not sure how mnet handled him in terms of editing) and i just felt like i didn’t know him enough. seonho was the first cube chick to garner my attention!! bc of all the witty things he said and i found his personality to be quite refreshing. in the clips ive seen of ep 1 of wanna one go, i was so happy to hear guanlin talk in ways that were more reflective of his personality? they’re no longer on an elimination show where every word can be twisted against themselves bc mnet sucks, so i felt like he was a bit more free? he seemed more reserved on the show...?(which is ok!! and makes sense!! he was in a country where he barely knew how to speak the language, and on top of that he was on a show where one small wrong choice in word could ruin ur entire career!!! plus he’s naturally introverted as well. that kind of environment would be esp exhausting for an introvert)but yes, guanlin is def v hardworking! he’s come a long way from the beginning of p101 till now. he’s worked hard on everything, from rapping and dancing to his korean. he has a lot of potential :) ahh is what ur talking about kind of like what happened during one of the earlier episodes? when he didnt really want to dance with the others? i can kind of see that! i view him as a giant puppy tbh. and yea he’s sooooooo young, along with like 50% of all the ppl who appeared on p101. to have them go through such a horrible survival show is like!! theyre sooo young :( sometimes i feel like we forget bc theyre incredibly mature for their age (mentality wise) and they are all so gifted, but there are times they do things that remind us exactly just how young they are. like the ghost prank for guanlin idk about u anon, but im really excited for panwink. their dynamic seems so adorable and guanlin honestly seems like a taller puppy thats younger in age thats following a smaller puppy thats older in age (jihoon). its the cutest thing ever. but thank u for sending all this in anon!! i appreciate getting to know guanlin a little bit better than i did before

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