#that is at least partially about

[16ruedelaverrerie]

Rest of messages in thread not included for reasons of mortifying inadequacy on my part! Anon you sent this in on August 22. I just want to type that out loud so that I can nail my shame to my front door like Martin Luther with his 95 Theses, except every thesis is "Nat can't fucking answer a single thing in an even vaguely timely manner". I would say I'm sorry for what I have become, but the truth is that I was ever thus. I'm sorry for what I have always been.

I'm sorry as well that it is so hard to find me across platforms because I have a thousand different usernames! Some of it used to be intentional, but intent or none, it functions as a real pain in the ass and I apologize. I've been trying to address this issue via the sidebar link on this blog and the cross-platform links in the author's notes on AO3, but we could have avoided all this if I had just stuck to a single identifying name. Still, DESPITE MY BEST EFFORTS TO THE CONTRARY, I'm so glad that you found me! Not least because it has led to you sending this absolute conflict-free lab-grown diamond necklace of messages! Thank you so so so much 😭💕 It's hard for me to explain this in a sensible manner, but my slowness in answering genuinely is in large part because the message means so much to me. I want to save the act of answering for a moment when I can feel articulate enough to do some justice to the kindness you have shown me, but then it's 10PM every night when I finish writing work emails and I am incapable of stringing two words together. Tomorrow, I think, I will try again! And then it's another 10PM and another 10PM and more than two months goes by before I have to accept that I will never feel articulate enough to respond the way that you deserve. That would be true at any other time of day, besides!

But thank you. I hope that you can stick around for the frustratingly glacial pace at which I do anything at all; what I lack in output, I make up for in stubbornness. One day, 88 will be a complete fic, even if I have to break my own bones to do it. (Please don't ask me the perfectly legitimate question of why broken bones would facilitate fic writing. It is a statement about the strength of my resolution, but it is an incomprehensible statement.)

This is such an interesting question! HOW DID I? I'm combing through my (admittedly blurry) autobiographical memories, but I can't seem to find a particular originary point for reading. Saying "I've always been a reader" is so boring, and it implies a certain kind of relationship with literature that I don't think I actually have-- I didn't particularly gravitate towards reading at the expense of other activities, and I read such a hodgepodge mixture of stuff that I can't fathom what it was about the act of reading that I actually enjoyed. And now, well, I read almost exclusively for work, to the degree that the thought of reading for pleasure makes me recoil.

The writing, I do have an originary point for. I was in elementary school, and my class had recently held a small creative writing competition; we were at an age where it was embarrassing to try very hard to achieve anything, so I blew it off, because I had to perform coolness due to it not coming naturally to me. Our homeroom teacher announced the winner, and asked that they read out loud their winning entry for the rest of the class. They did, and I remember thinking very clearly: This is fine, but I could do it better if I tried.

This is a story that is immensely unflattering to me-- or rather, it's a devastatingly accurate portrayal of me. It contains all the seeds of my worst qualities as a writer and a human being: competitiveness in something I consider myself to be proficient at, the need for external validation, baseless arrogance. But when I found myself being so hideously jealous of that kid, it wasn't primarily jealousy over the fact that they had won something; I was jealous that they had this stage time to show people what the world looked like to them. I felt robbed of the chance to connect with people in that way. Of course, no one robbed me of anything -- I chose to pretend that I was too cool for school -- and there was absolutely no reason to think that I would have won the competition and gotten that stage time for myself, even if I had tried as hard as I could. But still, it got me writing. Not because I had anything to say, but because whatever banal cut-rate shit I would end up saying, I just wanted someone else to hear it and tell me that I made sense to them. That's still why I do it, I think.

Seeing as how my twitter is just my tumblr with 100% less overwrought rambling, I can't decide whether you had a worse experience or a better one than binging this blog instead! On the one hand, I can't recommend the overwrought rambling; on the other hand, what's left after the overwrought rambling is excised is still just a lot of mid art determined to insist that dick jokes comprise an entire genre of creative output. IT'S DISMAL EITHER WAY! But it's too late for you! (Thank you.)

Anon!!!!! The very FACT THAT YOU SENT ME A ONE PIECE MESSAGE!!! My past in One Piece fandom is a really deep cut in that it very rarely comes up on this blog, so I'm super pleased that you thought of me!!!!!!!!!! 💖

Tragically, I have still not watched it. I KNOW, PLEASE DON'T THROW ME OUT OF THIS PORTHOLE. I agree wholeheartedly with you-- I'm thrilled that it got new fans into OP, and that it was made with so much visible love! I wouldn't say that I'm someone who is ever looking for live action versions of stuff -- if push came to shove, I'd probably admit that I don't necessarily see the inherent appeal of live action adaptations -- but it makes me truly happy to hear all the enthusiasm and praise for this one!!! Me not watching it yet mostly has to do with the aforementioned "it's 10PM when I finish writing work emails" problem.

As someone who is unfortunately very well-acquainted with what I am into (or so I must presume, by the sheer miracle of you sending me an OP message), it probably comes as no surprise to you that the single most affecting piece of promotional media that I encountered was a teaser clip from the Baratie arc. Anon when I tell you THE BREATH CAUGHT IN MY THROAT. THE BARATIE SHOT LIKE A RESTAURANT SHOW!!!! THE BARATIE!!!!!!!! WHERE MY SON WAS RAISED! HIS FISH-HEADED NURSERY! MY SON! THE DARLING OF THE BARATIE! A KITCHEN PACKED TO THE GILLS WITH SHORT TEMPERS! THE THORN IN THEIR SIDE! THE APPLE OF THEIR EYE! CRADLED TO SLEEP BY THE WATERS THAT TOOK HIM IN! GENTLED TO WARMTH BY A COMMERCIAL GAS RANGE! THE BRINE-SWEET CHILDHOOD HOME OF MY SON!!!!!

One Piece was so early for me that I can't even distinguish what came first, my Sanji bias or my commercial kitchen obsession. What remains crystal clear is that I am predictable in my perversions. I will watch it, anon. Someday hopefully soon.

#askbox #can it be? #could it possibly be? #that i have made a post #that is at least partially about #one piece #miscellany

[linecoveredinjellyfish]

my favorite romance trope is like. you dont want to hurt me but i am asking you to hurt me. i need you to stab me. i need you to hit me. i need you to carve this out of me. i need you to cut something off of me. this will hurt both of us in incredible ways. yours are the only hands i trust enough to weild this knife. you do not want to hurt me. i am asking you to hurt me.

#romance tropes #fic tropes #jonmartin #because of course this is at least partially about them #it is very late and i have Feelings #angst trope #it speaks!

[bamber344]

people who claim that arthur morgan would've been homophobic/transphobic like to conveniently forget, uhhh, pretty much his entire character

dude was in a gang (and was friendly) with black and native american people at a time where racism was still generally the rule rather than the exception. He enthusiastically participated in a women's suffrage protest! His whole fucking set of ideals was about standing up for freedom against the encroaching spread of 'civilised society,' where laws would discriminate against those they deemed 'unfit,' like arthur and his gang, like black and native american people, like women, and Obviously - though the modern terminology obviously wouldn't have existed at that time - like gay and trans people.

His whole thing was about living life as you saw fit, without The Man holding you down! Yeah sure he'd probably make some tasteless jokes here and there, he's certainly not a saint, but outright homophobic or transphobic? not a fucking chance!

#rdr2 #arthur morgan #red dead redemption 2 #charthur is at least partially canon and you cannot change my mind #they were totally both thinking about it #charles smith #charthur

[turtleblogatlast]

Something I’ve been thinking about lately is that small moment in “Air Turtle” where immediately after the Daves lose yet another game, Leo says how sorry he is and how he’s doing his best as the mascot. This moment is so short but it’s honestly jam-packed with a whole heap of characterization.

His need to apologize for things clearly not his fault - especially when it feels like he messes up the job he was given despite doing the best he can (the phrase “it’s not about you” takes a new meaning when this is one of the lessons to be learned from that - that he is not always solely responsible for things going wrong), his need to save face and make a connection with an older adult man in his life (something he consistently does throughout the series - he’s got a few daddy issues, always collecting potential father figures, it’s no wonder he jumps at the bit to keep rapport), and the way he sounds and looks and the words he chooses really pushes how he is just a kid (“Mr. the Dunk, I’m so sorry”).

Like I know it’s a one off moment that doesn’t truly mean much, but when put against the rest of the series it works really well with the rest of Leo’s established character and helps in solidifying later concepts as well.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo #rottmnt headcanons #am I looking too much into things? almost assuredly yes #I actually appreciate how tim immediately goes ‘it’s not your fault’ as well? like he could’ve just blamed this 15/16 year old but he didn’t #but yeah this moment got to me a little mainly because it made me realize that Leo…DOES take responsibility for things a lot #he messes up a ton yeah but he says sorry at a pretty consistent rate #and y’know thinking about it #THIS IS TINFOIL HAT TERRITORY BE WARNED #he’s mentioned being betrayed by his brothers before - I wonder if it was something as simple as taking the fall for like #breaking something of Splinters or whatever #point is it wouldn’t be out of the ordinary for him to get the full blame for something only partially his fault #or not his fault at all in some cases #like in bug busters where Raph gets mad at Leo for not getting captured with them #(I understand Raph’s mindset here a ton - Raph’s the leader and he’s likely lashing out so I don’t blame the poor kid) #but this plus the moment at the beginning of the movie #where only Leo is reprimanded despite Mikey and Donnie having full autonomy to join the fun pizza stacking #make no mistake this is not at all a diss on everyone else!!! it’s just something I noticed #I think that “it’s not about you” doesn’t just pertain to being arrogant and wanting the spotlight #I think it’s also about how responsibility is meant to be shared #and like #Leo DOES mess up a lot! so he’s honestly probably used to having the blame because it is often at least somewhat warranted #he’s specifically described as being good at apologizing after all #tldr: Leo messes up a lot of the time so he is very used to blame and attention both good and bad #even when the full blame should not be solely on his shoulders

[lunarharp]

hehe. almost christmas!

#ace attorney tag #narumitsu #partial nudity / #2nd and 3rd things inspired by playing the first game and Uhh... why is phoenix accusing men of being lovers and being certain of it #and just generally containing the core of bisexuality within him #also there's that part i recall in maybe the..3rd game? where he's like Wow.. I'd Fall For Him Too... about that cinnamon swirl looking man #learnt lately that the writers upon learning that ace attorney was very popular with BL people immediately started reading BL #to understand the genre. i think phoenix would also do such Research in college. to Learn About People. About The World. #so now he feels that he has gaydar and is a good Ally etc. But actually maybe...you're also just bi too ! #too bad you'll have to get kissed by a criminal to work that out! Hang in there <3 #i reread my fic today !! I'm in the christmas mood now ! Sort of ! ooooh the 7 year gap.. at least we are in the 7 year gap years irl #Somewhere out there they ARE drinking wine romantically gazing at snow on a balcony in germany. thank GOD for that fr #so i shall be drawing things from THAT era next i need to depict men finally kissing NOW !!!!!! #can't do it with orufrey..can't draw cute happy romantic wintry art of them..didn't finish processing my current divorcecore arc era cycle

[paulmccartneygrindr]

paul mccartney you're gay and that's final

for legal/ethical/moral/psychological/spiritual reasons this is a joke

#which could mean nothing. of course. #is this too long? yes. but i had like 10 other songs i mulled over adding so be grateful. #i might say fuck it and edit it and add them back in so dont bitch about it #anyway. yeah the title is a joke but i feel like an interesting story is told through some of these songs. i tried to only do songs im #convinced are at least partially about john. hence the waffling on other songs. there's a lot of songs that follow a similar theme but im #like. eh. dudes been married thrice and widowed who knows whats about who ykwim? #i could be convinced however. im easy like that.

[the-music-maniac]

Is it bad that a part of me wants to see Kuina (who beat Zoro at fighting over 2000 times, training to be the greatest swordswoman, acutely aware of what people say about her gender and how it impedes her dream) meet Sanji (refuses to fight a woman just because they're a woman), just to see what type of trainwreck ensues. I feel like it would either be awful or absolutely hilarious.

#look i like sanji but sometimes his views about women makes me a little angry #speaking this as a woman myself #and i know it partially stems from trauma from the vinsmokes and then also what zeff said which i don't blame him for #but i wish he would at least be self aware enough to know that about himself #and not assume instead that the way he thinks is just how everyone should think #so anyway kuina meeting sanji would be quite funny to me #and i love zoro so i refuse to let him be dead in this au nah #he's in the background drinking sake and watching the show #to be clear i'm not shipping kuina and sanji tho #i'm still a zosan/sanzo shipper at heart #so in my mind this is a zosan au with kuina and zoro sibling supremacy #one piece #kuina one piece #sanji blackleg #roronoa zoro #zosan #sanzo

[carpisuns]

if you’re not gonna be a little silly about it then what’s even the point

#this is not about anything in particular I just like silliness. buffoonery even #ok I lied it’s at least partially about me thinking of angsty fic ideas and being physically pained bc I can’t think of a way to sillify it #if I have to take anything too seriously for too long I’ll die #i carry the silly around like a little flask and I can pour a little bit into whatever I want to make it tastier #mine

[mothmanssweetsucculentass]

Ok here’s my two cents that no one asked for on the current (sort of?) debate going on in the Creepypasta fandom on here rn.

For starters, I grew up with Creepypasta. I also grew up mentally ill. I am also autistic. So I know my way around good and bad mental health rep at this point. And to be honest? A lot of the original stories DID suck balls at representation or just horror writing in general.

However, nowadays I see other people on here, often mentally ill or any other social outcast, taking these characters and reshaping them as their own to fit their own feelings and experiences, and I don’t think anyone has the authority to criticize things like that. Cringe culture is supposed to be dead anyways, nevermind the fact it’s inherently ableist at its core.

We also need to take into account kids still exist in the fandom. Pre teens who got tired of shit like scooby doo and wanted something more “mature” or “edgy” to get into without fully going off the deep end into full blown horror movies. At least that’s how it was for me. Not everyone, especially someone who’s younger, is gonna be comfortable with the grit and gore a lot of Creepypasta “purists” are pushing for these days, and that’s okay! When a fandom gets popular it’s always inevitable and unavoidable to have the popular characters get two dimensionalized.

There’s also the whole mascot horror thing that I don’t wanna get into, but I’m 90% sure that also plays a part in the old favorites like Jeff and slenderman being brought up again. They were and still are recognizable characters. Recognizable characters aren’t a bad thing. Making horror more approachable for younger audiences isn’t a bad thing. People having their own interpretations based out of their own experiences isn’t a bad thing.

Some of us grew up and wanted the more edgy and reality based content, and that’s also not a bad thing! But neither side should be dictating or policing how the other enjoys content in this fandom. If you personally don’t like the way something is written, characterized, depicted, or drawn, no one’s forcing you to look at it. No one’s claiming it as canon. No one’s asking for you to accept it as the end all be all.

At the end of the day this fandom was built on OCs and personal depictions of stuff. I can’t name a single character or story in this community that was created by some outside party like a movie or TV studio FIRST (because I know some got so popular they breached the fandom and got their own shows/movies/comics/etc). Everything here was created by someone who wanted an outlet for their creativity, or their pain, or their coping, or whatever else.

Realism and dark headcanons aren’t bad, and neither are any of the headcanons out there who just wanna make a goofy found family of social rejects as a form of escapism.

A 13 year old drawing a fictional layout of a fictional mansion where these fictional characters live isn’t going to suddenly invalidate the horror, I promise, it’s not that deep and it never was.

A 22 year old making a dark comic on the realistic origins of Jeff who is a fictional character in a fictional world isn’t going to suddenly invalidate the more softhearted side of the fandom.

Sure, there can still be a split if people are so adamant about that, but as someone who personally enjoys both the brutal horror side and the “haha Jeff is 15 and gay” sides equally, y’all need to at least learn to be civil to anyone who has a different headcanon than you. And if that seems like too much still, the block button exists for a reason.

TL:DR this fandom is based entirely off OCs and headcanons and people can do whatever the fuck they want because none of it is real and horror comes in many shapes and sizes and intensities and no one should be bashing anyone on their headcanons or views or rewrites or whatever else.

EDIT:

Actually wait I think I have more to say-

Horror, like any genre, has NO AGE LIMIT. And by that I mean, if someone younger wants to delve into scary stuff, they should be allowed to do so without criticism. I personally grew up on “child friendly” horror media like Scooby-Doo, and the older I got the more horror I wanted to experience.

There’s no right or wrong way to “understand” horror, and I frankly think it’s ignorant and stupid to say if you don’t fully “understand” something, then you shouldn’t be involved in it at all. Horror isn’t always about gore and unspeakable violence and the eldritch entity that wants everyone’s skin inside out. That’s why horror has sub genres for fucks sake. Gut wrenching brutality against innocent people isn’t everyone’s cup of tea and that’s okay!

However, bashing anyone’s tamer headcanons, or calling anything anyone interprets differently than you “stupid”, that’s not okay. God, I feel like an exhausted parent giving this lecture to fellow adults, but this really needs to be said and stressed.

I am an adult. I like when stuff in the fandom takes a dark turn. But for nostalgia’s sake, I also love the fanon so much, because that’s what I was exposed to.

And for fucks sake if it comes down to picking sides, I would rather stick with the part of this fandom that gives zero shits how you see a character as long as you’re having fun.

You can have your serial killer 30 year old Jeff and your canon-accurate-to-that-one-image eyeless Jack, but don’t shit on other people if they don’t want the same thing. Your interpretation isn’t canon, and neither is anyone else’s for that matter.

Realistic, dark, gritty Creepypasta isn’t a new concept, and neither is “adult” Creepypasta. And by the way, Creepypasta was never stated to be for adults. That’s like saying kids and only kids can eat trix cereal. It sounds that stupid on paper.

Let people interpret things the way they wanna interpret. No one is infringing on YOUR character ideas. Creepypasta has no age limit, nor a set way the horror has to be presented. Those who do continue to claim that just sound like pretentious assholes.

Very small side note, I personally think it’s inappropriate and rude to keep using Toby as a “bad example” of mental health rep when the creator has stated multiple times the character is old, not researched, and not even in the fandom anymore. Leave the poor guy alone.

#creepypasta #creepypasta fandom #jeff the killer #rant #I’m not a professional in anything don’t @ me #I’ve just been here for years #so I at the very least partially know what I’m talking about #I personally think this purist mindset and behavior is bs if you go and attack other creators #just be nice to people Ohmygod #update #eyeless Jack #slenderman

[riddlerosehearts]

every single day i think about the fact that vil risked his life, his youth and beauty and his incredible worldwide fame to dive into the underworld and save idia, which is the same thing that a certain disney hero did for his girlfriend...

and yet somehow, idia/vil remains a rarepair. so unfair smh.

#i'm not kidding i literally think about this parallel at least once a day #and i know vil turning old was partially a play on the evil queen's disguise and that he had his own reasons for doing this #but come ON just think of the potential?? #like imagine idia developing a crush on vil after this and wanting to thank him for saving his life #but being afraid to talk to him and unsure how to say it... #also just wanna point out: vil apologized for not being able to save ortho #which i don't think he'd have done if he didn't actually care about idia at all #anyway. hercules/meg is one of my favorite disney couples so yknow <3 #twisted wonderland #idia shroud #vil schoenheit #vildia #idiavil #vilidia #idia x vil #vil x idia

[cahootings]

doctor who is at its worst when it leans into the whole Chosen One angle and it’s at its best when it lifts up and features the absolute normies

#doctor who #this is at least partially why Clara as a character annoys me #though admittedly I don’t know the end of her arc so who knows. maybe I’ll change my mind. #also why so much of 11’s writing falls flat for me #sorry I get BORED when I have to hear Matt smith shouting at aliens in the sky about how clever and powerful he is #but this is also why Donna is the most supreme companion

[notedchampagne]

posting this right before i sleep so that i can forget my embarrassments

mortifying nakeder version

#''SAM i think youre overreacting'' im purging the demons that resided in me since catholic school. leave me be #anyway recently ive been getting compositions beamed into my head but not a reason WHY. #so ive been working to try and finish at least one a day but this is actually kind of insane ridiculous now that i think about it #but this doesnt matter because i hate having too many WIPS im finishing them all anyway #a lot of them are half naked. again this is a cry for help #pyrrha dve #paul the sixth #paul tlt #pyrpaul #paulha #the locked tomb #nona the ninth #partial nudity #nudity #dudele

[cold-neon-ocean]

This wip has been sitting around for a while bit I felt like dropping it bc I was thinking about them being cozy ;; (feat. dialogue I forgot to post elsewhere so it's a special treat lol)

#LoK #Baatar Jr. #Kuvira #WIP #[ I'm sorry this is about as finished as most art gets now a days sobs #but I at the very least like how this is turning out #especially Kuvira I think this is one of my best drawings of her so far #I'm always finding ways to partially obscure her face when I can bc she's so touch for me to draw #but oughh i just love them being all snuggly and comfy ;;;;; #I'm so pleased with Kuv's expression like sobs that's her man she lov him so much ] #Neon Ocean Art

[flightlessaugury]

Do you know how hard it is to avoid spoilers when youre reading The PJO/HoO series for the first time and Jason Grace is your favorite character? Let me tell you, it's really freaking hard.

#midnight rambles #percy jackson #heroes of olympus #jason grace #its so hard! #i already got partially spoiled about what happens to him #i have been able to avoid the how at least

[ms-hells-bells]

maybe it's because i have never seen euphoria and know literally nothing about it, so i haven't developed an aversion to him, but i think hunter schafer is such a pretty man, it's a shame he's kinda a weirdo

#partially thanks to face blindness i usually don't recognise him in stuff #and he 'passes' uniquely well at least in film #not that that matters about anything #but i think androgyny is attractive in men

[aro-culture-is]

Aro culture is watching My little pony as a kid because it was a cartoon that focused more on platonic relationships and rarely on romantic ones

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#Anonymous #aro culture is #aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #ask #mod alexander #as the youngest sibling i did not have 'choices' in what we watched lol #be it twilight / anastasia (which scared the fuck out of me) or spongebob and tom and jerry #also my parents watched a LOT of like. CSI type of shit and uh. as someone who struggles with hyperempathy that was. bad. #pro tip for parents! if your kid regularly expresses that even though they know the murder shit is fake it's still scary #consider either watching it away from them or like. at least letting them not have to watch it??? #(i'm not bitter at all about the like... year or two i spent perpetually terrified i'd encounter a partially decomposed corpse in every #enclosed space we saw. not at *all* /sarcasm)