#the ‘control your heart’ thing too

[chandralia]

we’ve gotten a lot of bkdk things this past year, which is great and has been extremely insane and fun,, but I feel like Bakugo coming back might actually knock me out

#I’m still coming down from the ‘shitty nerd’ narration and the ‘you’re the closer to Midoriya Izuku than anyone else’ high #the ‘control your heart’ thing too #I just miss them… #WILL MY BRAIN BE ABLE TO HANDLE A SUDDEN MAJOR CANON BKDK THING????? #we’ve somehow still been feasting #we’re fed so well even if they’re not there 🥺 #but the serotonin will absolutely flood my noggin #bkdk #dkbk #bakudeku #dekubaku

[andthebeanstalk]

the average person doesn't expect you to be a perfect ethical consumer, that's not possible for the vast majority of us. but what youre saying is it's better to do nothing at all and choose the worst possible options (sweat shops, overseas shipping waste, idea/product theft, all wrapped up in SHEIN) than to put even the tiniest effort in where you can.

[they are referring to this post]

What I said was "some people are doing literally everything they can to survive and have no extra bandwidth to spend extra time and money on their purchases, and it is cruel and therefore un-punk to gatekeep punkness and add additional shame to these people's lives based on that fact."

I think it's still a good thing to try to ethically consume; I literally never said it wasn't. I had never even heard of SHEIN before. Rather, I am much more concerned about what I saw as arbitrary gatekeeping based on ability and income.

And frankly how dare you claim that I am supporting sweatshops and abuse by saying that this additional work you are demanding (in this case, presumably, vetting every clothing company you buy from) is not always possible for people. It is not a light accusation to accuse me of supporting abuse.

"How dare you say we piss on the poor", Etc. 🙄 this isn't Twitter. You are determined to enforce moral purity, but you are failing to see the nuance.

Because when I say "no extra bandwidth," I mean no extra bandwidth. This is not the "car shows it's on E but actually secretly it has a lot of gas left" situation that abled people constantly assume disabled people mean when they say they are at their limit.

This is "the car has stopped moving, and to move it I'd have to break my body pushing it." This is "at a certain point, people will hit a wall in terms of money and time and energy, and any energy spent after that comes directly out of their life force."

So the argument "okay but just spend a little more time money and energy actually" is not a valid one.

And the argument "if you are not able to do this specific task, then it means you're not doing anything else to make the world a better place" doesn't exactly impress me either. You said yourself that it is impossible to be a perfectly ethical consumer for most people.

How do you know what else people are doing to resist oppression? How many hours per week until your standards are met?What if someone works 3 jobs? Does that mean it's harder to be a good person if you're poor?? Why do you get to decide what specific avenue of bettering the world is the most morally repugnant or acceptable? What kind of proof of goodness and effort would make you satisfied enough to lay off on the shame?? Who are you helping??

Clothing is a fundamental human need, and some of us have to buy cheap fucking clothes quickly. Billionaires are buying their seventh yacht this month. The people who own fast fashion companies are abusing their workers and putting local affordable clothing stores out of business - and this applies for basically every company with price points that low because governments are failing to regulate corporations to enforce basic human rights.

I have $300 to spend on a new wardrobe as my old clothes have fallen apart or become too small. Do you have a way for me to get a new winter coat, 3 flannels, 10 shirts, 3 dress shirts, new sandals, 10 pairs of pants, 5 bras, 12 pairs of socks, and 10 pairs of underwear within that budget and also definitely 100% ethically sourced, with free returns in case it doesn't fit? Or will I simply have to use the cheap stores?

I have about an hour to spend on this per week. Many mainstream stores doesn't make clothes in my size, and I am now in *year 5* of needing an electric wheelchair and being unable to get one; plus I live up a flight of stairs, so I can't even bring my walker out with me - so thrift shopping is not gonna cover this. Should I continue to wear small and tattered clothing until I have the time, money, and energy to meet your standards?

Did you know there are more empty homes in this country than homeless people? If I decide to splurge on only 100% ethically-produced products, and I can't make rent, and I become homeless, are YOU going to be there for me?? Or are you too busy litigating the endless tiny shames of poverty in your own community?

So I ask you again, are you SURE this is where you want to direct your punk energy?

Because there are a whole lot of rich people relying on people like us punching down and to the side instead of looking up to see where the money is going.

Because energy and time, as it turns out, are limited resources. And I would never expect you to secretly have more than you claim to have.

#original #punk #hopepunk #cripplepunk #i swear to god #reading comprehension website #how dare you say we piss on the poor #jfc 'what you're saying is we should do nothing' - what I'm saying is YOU are doing nothing by enforcing this boundary #you have to give people more credit than this. i believe you want a better world too. and it would be cool if you used your energy to #instead ask 'how do i fight for the people in my community to be clothed and have the time and income to shop ethically?' #or 'how do i support activism that pushes for regulation that could control these companies?' #monitoring how poor people spend money is a supremely Republican thing to do. as is demanding clear moral purity from every scenario. #you want a better world too. you want to demand your peers do better. - fine. good. #but you need to be asking if you have remembered and included everyone's needs when making statements like this. #capitalism is all for forgetting about poor and disabled people and refusing to believe their limits. #shame is a necessary weapon in fighting greed but it IS a weapon. be so careful where you point that shit. enough shame can kill a person #and a lot of us are already defending from it from all sides. #shaming a person who is already at their limit for not doing more is an act of cruelty. think very carefully about what that means please. #i literally don't even know what SHEIN is lol i just know classism when i see it #but I've had friends whose clothes were visibly falling apart with no income and so much so shame so deep in their hearts they were dying #and if they had seen that post it would have made them even sicker and gotten them no closer to the dignity of being properly clothed #shame is a weapon and /you need to be careful!!!!/

[oatbugs]

procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months #to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them #in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago. #(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought #i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are #and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it #its worth missing i think #i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over #(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year) #(hed come across the bridge on a lake) #we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared. #it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think #i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much. #and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat #they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand #how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much #i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around #something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode #arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully #last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing #and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets #and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably #have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused #blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like #i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much #my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to #music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads #i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says #what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine. #she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.

[musubiki]

does lime ever cry about anything or is angry more of his emotion? cause in all the childhood limochi comics mochi seems to be more the overflowing emotional one and lime is the more repressed on even back then. does that change at all ?

good catch!!! youre correct little mochi was VERY much the cry easy child. even if it was a little inconvenience or when she was angry the tears would flow!! not that she was a whiny brat but any time she got upset she couldnt stop the tears lol

and yes lime channels his negative emotions into anger. baby lime was very "haha REAL men dont cry!!!" type and even as he got older he recognizes "okay yeah everyone cries no big deal hahah" but theres still that underlying mindset. that being said hes a very dry anger type, so it takes a lot to actually get tears to come out, usually the only people hed ever cry for or to is his family + mochi.

the only time we actually SEE him cry is whatever the point is where all his pent up resentment about mochi leaving all of them without any word or warning comes out!! and as SOON as his eyes start watering he just freezes he cant even get anymore words out once he gets to that point

(and actually tried to up and run once the tears started but mochi wouldnt let him. and thats the only time we see lime cry -w- )

#he does NOT like crying #mochi cant help it #she gets a hell of a lot better at emotion control as she gets older though #but if she doesnt watch herself closely or turn it off in time that highly emotional person is still burried deep #theres several times when she started getting VERY emotional and then just. turns it off #you see the switch flip from wet anger to just. nothing #and lime goes (dont do that. dont fucking turn your heart off when youre talking to me) #its a skill a witch is taught growing up. to just turn all that stuff off on the outside so nothing shows #and lime can tell when she starts doing this #anyway. thanks for asking i miss talking abt my kids!!!!! #but lime was never the crying type to begin with #anyone remember that post about dry anger vs wet anger? thats lime and mochi respectively #he obviously cries at very sad things like loss of a loved one #but thats never like. screaming crying wailing. its very quiet sadness for him #i think baby mochi would cry if she saw a goat that was too cute

[theophagie]

The Riku-Maleficent / Beast-Xaldin parallels.......

#i didn't remember their first conversation or the one with sora. holy shit........... #''he used my anger to control me. he took all my sorrow my sadness my pain and turned it all into rage. #there was nothing i could do. i could no longer see the truth'' #+ being turned against the person you love.................. #''belle can see the goodness in your heart but i'm afraid you've yet to...'' + the she's too kind to speak badly of me thing. AAAARRRGGGGGG #IT KEEPS GOING ON......... #mytext #video games #char tag #riku #kingdom hearts

[yuridovewing]

Feel like one of the best ways you can convince someone that no, villains with compelling motives that have sad backstories are not terrible writing compared to straight up born evil villains who just want to kill everyone and be done with it, is to tell them that Warrior Cats writes born evil villains constantly while literally preaching “That’s how evil works, you can’t CHANGE, you’re either touched by demons at birth or you aren’t!” and it blows chunks

#brokenstar tigerstar hawkfrost darktail one eye etc etc would all be so much more interesting if they werent so one note #and just had ‘’born evil’’ slapped on as their explanation for being evil #‘’ew why are you woobifying tigerstar’’ because i think a villain who feels emotion besides ‘’evil’’ and ‘’angry’’ and actually does care #about his clanmates but is also a bigot that deserves to be beaten down is more interesting than canon #to get like real world political here… abusive people and bigots like. are not one note born evil demons #they have loved ones and reasons for turning out the way they did. and im not saying that to go ‘’so you need to give them grace!’’ #im saying that because the line of thinking that every bad person is a super obvious mustache twirling villain with no soul #makes it so that people justify abuse and crimes from REAL people. like ‘’oh my friend says some racist things but he isnt BAD! he loves me! #would an abusive person be nice to his wife in public? of course not!’’ #and its rhetoric like that that lets abuse and bigotry thrive. if you put the world in categories of born evil and born good #then you will dismiss all the ‘’good’’ people in your life who have done horrible things with ‘’but she donated to charity once’’ #i mean. hell this LITERALLY happens in wc where the ‘’born good’’ characters are abusive and murderously xenophobic #where characters like clear sky and blackstar just get a sticker like ‘’oh you cant be TOO mad at them! theyre good at heart!’’ #‘’ignore all the times they killed vulnerable people for the crime of being born somewhere they didnt like! they were nice to a kid once!’’ #the message there is literally ‘’bad people cant REALLY be bad if theyre nice to people sometimes’’ #like. im not even mad at clear sky being motivated by witnessing his loved ones starve to death for why hes such an abusive control freak #thats an interesting reason to become a villain especially since the change happened when he was put in a position of power #the problem is not him having a sad backstory. the problem is the erins think his sad backstory means he was never that bad #and anyone who’s upset at him can go eat shit and die cause he looked sad #like. i get this line of thinking often comes from writers doing this for abuse apologism and just wanting to see abusers be held accountabl #accountable #but how exactly does it help victims of abuse to portray abusers and bigots in a christian ‘’touched by the devil’’ light

[jiimwii]

cyberpsychosis could maybe be so cool if it was people being possessed by some sort of rouge ai,or as part of a corporate conspiracy. like as a planned obsolescence thing where certain parts during production are programmed to make people Do That after a certain point so you have to buy the next new 20,000eddies cannon arms to replace the nearly identical previous model or else you might kill everyone you love and die because your cyberwares "outdated". or untraceable viruses infecting competing corporations cyberware using their rival's customer's livelihoods to sabotage their profits. and maybe any one of those things works in such a way that its designed to detect atypical brain chemistry in a host,and thus triggers more frequently with them to tage advantage of and use those people as a scapegoat and a way to further fear monger against them,and you can uncover that this is the case. or something along those lines. and the more cyberware someone has the more likely it is that they could encounter any of these scenarios. but no it is just #crazy people being too #crazy.

#they kinda toyed w something like that in earlier drafts. with dollchips and the project ghost thing thats too much to explain in tumbletags #but yeah #honestly w how little its present in the final game beyond Go Herd Them Up And Beat The Shit Out Of Them So They Can Recover In Therapy #Offscreen In An Optional Sidequest With Literally No Conclusion they couldve easily just retconned its existence in the world entirely #especially since really the only reason why it exists in the lore in the first place is so the humanity system in the ttrpg keeps your #character from becoming too overpowered from too much cyberware. like thats it. #but for how much they dont wanna flesh out any other conspiratorial type stuff for the sake of ''It is a Mystery👻'' #and how much they went with ''idk where cyberpsychosis comes from we dont know if its even real'' ingame #edgerunners and mike pondsmith himself sure have a lot to say about it and exactly how it works #we cant even leave that up for interpretation for players to find some way into coping themselves into believing its not as weirdly ableist #as it is #and we cant do anything else with it that would actually be cool. or make sense. in universe and just logically. #however. im a dumbfuck and am not beyond thinking about how like. in a hypothetical scenario where melissa welles is still around #And jackies bled out corpse is still used for the arasaka supersoldier program and is going around killing people.i cant not think about ho #mama welles would have to handle both of her kids dying and also going on rampages out of (mostly) anyones control. like think about that. #heart wrenching and whatnot. could you fucking imagine with everything else shes been through. #anyway sorry for talking about things that very literally probably less than a dozen ppl know/care about its just. interesting. #i froth over the potential that it had #that im tricking myself into believing that it had

[sysig]

But would you tho (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Schuldig #ZEX #And again the Captain implied from offscreen lol #Two little things ♪ One that Actually happened and one speculation lol #I really like Schuldig :D He's the likeable asshole type and his quirk is very well written :) #I love how he gets on Zelnick's case about his wishy-washy-ness in regards to xenophilia generally and ZEX specifically hehe #Zelnick has no good answer for him! It's so cute hehe <3 #But then he turns right around and is wishy-washy himself!! I get the feeling his frustration stems a bit from relating hahaha #Or maybe Zelnick's uncertainty influenced him! It's not such an easy decision to make when you're staring down the barrel is it now :) #Openly attracted to Max's body and flattered by ZEX's personality and outright attraction to him in turn but the alien aspect is too much pf #Sure right okay lol - I have no skin in this game so I'll have to take his word for it haha #Secondarily speculating around ZEX's attraction and standards lol it sounds like an oxymoron but no he is actually a bit picky! #Yes he loves humans generally but he is actually tempered by what mind inhabits what body! It's so interesting to me! #I think it's especially funny how his various desires are in conflict with each other haha #Like it makes sense that he controls himself around Fwiffo - poor thing would have a heart attack - but he genuinely seems less attracted! #Which makes sense to me as well ♪ Spathi and VUX share several traits and were on the same side during the War so he's familiar with them #And he's specifically attracted to differences and novelty - it all lines up! #And then there's also his pride lol he tries to make more friends than enemies of course but he still gets petty and patronizing <3 #If he's actually upset with someone /he's/ the one who would need convincing! It's all very interesting :3c #And then there's the matter of his own body vs. Max's body - he's so upset at the metaphysical implications of cloning his consciousness #I've never thought of ZEX in the context of the ''Would you fuck your clone'' questionnaire but I guess I know his answer now haha #Though I still wonder what his reaction would be to Max :0 He's probably not close enough to be ZEX but he is /a/ ZEX - of a sort #All his introspection about the body he's in has my mental ears perked haha - pity and worry for the potential life he's replacing #Discomfort at possibly being Max in some capacity including continuing to be in his body but also of overtaking his life entirely #And of being backed into a corner - Max is pitiful as well as pitiable! Neither of them want to be Max Vyer really #He loves humans but how far does that extend when push comes to shove ♪ It's been interesting watching him fumble through it :)

[lith-myathar]

.

#so #here is the thing #when you've spent most of your life in a very happy relationship with fantasy #the idea of having a relationship in *reality* #well that may not be very happy. might result in feeling like your heart got ripped out your asshole. but even ignoring that #suddenly the amorphous idea of a partner (which can be anything) takes the shape of an actual person #which can very much only be one thing. this feels like doors closing. feels like getting trapped #part of the difficulty here is that i have difficulty not thinking in the long term (this is a defense mechanism apparently) so #even allowing the possibility of being with someone feels confining #because what if the reality is painfully disappointing (like everyone keeps telling me it will be #bc nothing can measure up to the fantasy) and then im trapped between a lifetime of disappointment and breaking somebody's heart #like. fantasy and Yearning leave one empty to a degree but they've kept me *alive* #and how could the reality ever have that same emotional high while also being Safe and in control #also it doesn't hurt anybody #my over the top desire for intensity feels like something nobody's ever going to want to match. too big. too much. unhealthy prolly #even if they did it wouldn't necessarily be a good thing #so. better maybe to quarantine myself to fantasy. #the Rewards of Being Loved tho. i want those. #realistic and rational part of me knows that Those are the Real Good Healthy Thing that will help the pain #but damn if im not attached to my little pet torments #what if i don't want to be healed? does suffering and trauma just sort of get you addicted to the intensity of emotion and then you're jus #chasing that forever? is anything healthy ever going to feel like Enough??? #like how do you just ask somebody ''hey do you want to crawl inside each other's rib cages and take everything way too fucking seriously #so we can attempt to maintain a perpetual state of Desire and the subsequent altered state of consciousness until we both die?'' #''but in like a chill way?'' #like that's *insane* #im insane. is there any way to have both??? #ugh. anyway. don't get crushes this sucks.

[theclosetedskeleton]

ONE OF THESE DAYS IM GOING TO FUCKING EXPLODE/NEG

#guys guess who got jumpscared by the kosa bill again (me) #A FEW DAYS????? MY ONLINE PRESENCE IS DETERMINED IN A FEW DAYS???? kms/NSRS #the internet is like a safe haven for me if KOSA passes i may lose my marbles for fucking real #at least i have my qpps phone number #im not losing my qpp regardless of what bills pass #( i say this trying to be hopeful im so scared im gonna lose everything i have on here) #to top it off my ALREADY strict parents literally block so many things from me on their own I DONT NEED THE GOVERNMENT TOO #ive just been so stressed out of my MIND this past week the KOSA bill isnt HELPING. #i read a post abt KOSA a few minutes ago and let me tell you my heart DROPPED #back on the internet save haven place for me thing #it is literally the only place i can express myself like say that im trans because i dont trust anybody else angel emoji #AND ive met some of the most wonderful people on the internet #the fact that it could all be over because some 65 y/o politician says that we need to 'protect the kids' is so fucking messed up #like bitch you KNOW what youre doing you KNOW how bad this is you just want to control kids #into believing stupid things!!! why do you think LGBTQIA and mental health topics are being blocked bc of KOSA!!! #NEWSFLASH!!!! YOU WANNA POUR PROPAGANDA INTO PEOPLES MOUTHS #ughhh #closet rambles again on tumblr

[evansbby]

I swear to god this place gives me so much anxiety now

#like I’m so fuckin anxious already #and then to come on here and it’s just more anxiety #and I try to churn out all this content just to distract myself and maybe have a little bit of fun but #it’s just not working anymore #like I don’t know what’s wrong with me #always so anxious always so afraid I’m annoying people #and this just isn’t fun anymore #and I’m just too sensitive #or maybe I’m just in a mood today cos too much shit is happening in my life that I can’t control #and every little thing starts to affect me #i always said to myself that if it stopped being fun then I’d just quietly leave #and this isn’t me being quiet it’s just me whining in the tags as per usual and I know that #but it’s whatever #basically what I’m trying to say is for some reason tumblr is giving me so much anxiety #like you know when your heart is just sinking and for no reason??? #that type of feeling #and everything and anything gets to me #IDEK man pls ignore

[mettywiththenotes]

Thinking about this

Because remember the last time Bakugou got seriously injured? Izuku went berserk

And attacked Tomura/AFO

And, specifically, we have these panels together

Now, I’ve theorized before (more like briefly mentioned but hush) about what Tomura saw before he was taken over. Does he actually remember seeing Izuku like this? I wasn’t sure at first because of all the damage Tomura had taken and the literal crack down his face (if I had all that happen to me, I’d totally be out of it), but no, I think he did see Izuku here (with his one good regenerated eye) and he remembers him like this

So back to 359

Bakugou is someone TomurAFO knows Izuku cares a lot about, so much so that he’ll lose it in the middle of a war and go feral over him. And I think he’s going to use that

I think, maybe, he’s either going to take Bakugou hostage as he is or torture Bakugou more than he already has (by beating him around the battlefield, playing with him basically) but keep him alive enough so, when Izuku finally gets there, he’ll see the beaten state Bakugou is in and go berserk again

Question is though, why does TomurAFO want Izuku to lose it again? I mean, he was frightening enough when he was fighting Tomura, so why would they want to bring Berserk Izuku back?

I think it’s because Izuku is reckless when he’s like that. And we know this already, that Izuku simply doesn’t think when he’s that angry. He just throws himself into the fight and releases all his anger at what has happened, and Izuku reacting to Bakugou being stabbed was the most Angry And Reckless Izuku has ever been in that state

So when he’s like that, he doesn’t think clearly, he just acts

Now, what happened last time when Izuku was like this? He got angry over Bakugou, bit through the tendrils, got close to Tomura/AFO and...

Was touched

It’s a good thing Izuku and Tomura entered the Void in this moment, because we all know that if they hadn’t, Izuku would have either decayed or had his quirk stolen. Or both

Because Izuku was so angry and so reckless, he was so close to losing his quirk and dying

So I think maybe TomurAFO now is trying to repeat what happened in War Arc. Beat up Bakugou, get Izuku to see what they did (mangled arm and all), Izuku goes berserk mode, doesn’t think about what’s happening and... TomurAFO touches him, takes his quirk and kills him. AFO wins

Because Bakugou is Izuku’s weakness. Izuku’s friends in general but Bakugou, ESPECIALLY Bakugou, ignites something in Izuku that TomurAFO can definitely use to his advantage

We’ll have to wait and see what happens next but, so far, I think this might be their plan

#heehee anyway #if this is right #i'm not looking forward to seeing bakugou being beaten up even more #hori really said bakugou whump hurt no comfort #i AM excited to see berserk izuku again tho #his expressions are so wild #BUT this all leads into the most important thing that izuku keeps bypassing - controlling his heart. like banjo said #if izuku can control his heart and get the job done then things might be fine #that being said i'd go apeshit too if i saw my bestie/rival/childhood friend bloodied and beaten #so i wouldn't blame izuku if he couldn't control his heart #easier said than done when your bestie's lying on the floor in a pool of his own blood #anyway #bnha #bnha 359 #bnha manga spoilers #bnha spoilers #izuku midoriya #bakugou katsuki #wonder duo #shigaraki and midoriya #all for one #mettys posts #metty posts

[tomwambsmilk]

This might be my most Controversial post and if you're someone who's genuinely rooting for tom and greg to have their happily ever after in canon then you might not want to read past this point. Just to be perfectly clear I do love tomgreg in both their canon and fanon forms and absolutely no shade to the unironic requited tomgreg truthers, you're the backbone of this fandom and I love your work etc. But. I'm still skeptical of an actual romantic relationship going canon and even more cynical about it actually ending well so, uh. Dead Dove Do Not Eat and all that

I think that Tom being unable to make a really definitive bold choice is intimately related to why I think canonical tomgreg would end in acrimonious divorce (at least with how the characters are at the end of season 3… obviously character development is real and could hypothetically shift the equation). Tom is the literal human embodiment of that fable about the kid who reaches into the cookie jar and gets a huge handful of cookies but then his hand get stuck and he can’t pull it out and he starts crying until someone explains to him that if he lets go all but one he’ll be able to get it out. Except he’s never realized that last part and he’s so afraid of ending up with no cookies at all that he can’t let them go and instead crushes them into dust and tries to eat the crumbs and goes “this is what I wanted actually. This is fine. This is what normal well-adjusted people do and I am Happy.”

It’s deeply rooted in fear and that’s because Tom’s other fatal flaw is being a little bit of a coward. I say this with utmost affection but he’s always hedging his bets and trying to make the safest choice. This is not always a bad thing, but sometimes you do have to make the bold choice just to learn things about yourself. (Or simply because it's the Morally Right Thing To Do but uh. We don't need to get into that right now re: Tom). You have to make a choice and sacrifice something in the process and that’s how you learn what will make you happy and what won’t. Except Tom is so afraid of being unhappy and making the wrong choice that he can never let himself do that, and that’s why he doesn’t really know who he is and what he wants and instead lets himself be defined by societal images of wealth and privilege. He likes expensive things because that’s what he’s supposed to like. He wants to be CEO because that’s what he’s supposed to want. I think if he actually became CEO he would be miserable, in part because of what he’d need to sacrifice to get there but also because being CEO means being bold and taking risks and I think that’s actually his own personal version of hell.

That’s part of why I’m skeptical of tomgreg going canon because I think leaving Shiv for Greg would be an incredibly bold move and I don’t think Tom’s capable of that. Maybe if his marriage fell apart Tom would go for Greg, but then I think he’d very quickly find himself in a “grass is greener” situation. I don’t think he would really actively choose Greg, internally, so much as stumble into that relationship because Greg is there and Greg is the person he’s closest to, and eventually this would eat away at him. That’s NOT to say Tom wouldn’t have very genuine feelings for Greg, but I think stumbling right from his failed marriage into a relationship with Greg would set the whole thing up to crumble and collapse, especially once the weight of Tom’s emotional baggage sets in. There’s going to be a part of him asking himself “do I really love Greg or was he just convenient,” and rather than making the decision to really commit to Greg and see if the relationship can work he’ll start developing an emotional affair with someone else without even realizing what he's doing, because the problem with really making the decision to try and commit to Greg wholeheartedly is what if it ends up being Shiv all over again? What if he decides to be vulnerable with Greg and open up to him and give Greg his emotional fidelity and Greg ends up letting him down?

And because he's incapable of having an emotionally honest conversation he just starts tallying everything Greg does in some mental T-chart of "he loves me/he loves me not". Meanwhile, I do think Greg would be largely taken in, at least initially, by the idea that Tom threw everything away for him and when he realizes that Tom's marriage to Shiv was going to crumble into dust on its own merits anyway he's going to start feeling like a consolation prize and start pulling away and that's going to make the whole situation worse. When the relationship finally breaks down it will be acrimonious because both of them are going to feel upset and betrayed and misled. And that doesn't even begin to factor in Tom's uglier possessive and abusive tendencies and the pressure that remaining at Waystar would put on the relationship and whatever unresolved issues Greg still has around his gay homewrecking dad. Theoretically, they could go to therapy and start working through this shit and improve as people and make it work but tbh I think that they're far more likely to cannibalize each other first and not in a romantic way.

I would love to see it though. I really would. It would be an absolute nightmare but it would be amazing television and I would eat that shit up. Jesse Armstrong are you listening to me. Jesse Armstrong answer my calls

#I hope I don’t have to turn in my shipper credentials for this one #idk why but I’ve been a bit of a tom cynic lately. I do still love him though #also hopefully this goes without saying but absolutely no shade to the people who do think sweet requited tg is a real canon possibility #more power to you and follow your heart etc #what am I but a random person putting her half-formed opinions out on the internet #to be honest for me this comes back to the whole 'succession is narratively a tragedy'. they've all come too far for a truly happy ending #bittersweet maybe. but given that both tom and greg are knee deep in their corruption arcs i do think #that its unlikely theyll go start a vegan bed and breakfast in connecticut #best case scenario tom has a sudden moment of clarity and aborts before he permanently damages every remaining relationship in his life #(which at this point is just greg) #and actually I do think that's a possibility if the kinds of hard choices he has to make going forward are too much for him and he breaks #but even then I think that he's too far gone now to be really happy. we're past the tragic climax. I think he's ultimately sealed his fate #and as we move forward he's going to feel that fewer and fewer things are actually within his control #as he starts to really suffer the consequences of his actions in the first three seasons #so I think even if he gets out it's going to be too little too late #that's typically how narrative tragedies end. especially dostoevsky and shakespeare which I know are major influences for succession #and jesse armstrong has talked about how he doesnt believe people fundamentally change. its just that their circumstances change and so #their response to the circumstances change #I could be wrong though

[murobrown]

.

#hello friends I just took ventolin and I am having a panic attack and possibly dying #my heart will soon pop up from my chest #and my whole body is shaking and shivering #so I am looking for some way to distract myself and not to hyoerfocus on my bodily functions #it should be a normal side effect but I never experienced it before so I'm freaking out #how are you all doing? i really hope that everyone is happy and healthy and safe #if not I'm sending all the best things your way #like tomorrow will be the best day of your life...i promise... I'm sure you will feel better tomorrow #whatever is worrying you right now will go away and you will be happy #we will all be okay #everything will be okay #I'm not dying #i really don't want to die #I wanted to die for many years and even did some stupid things but now I'm so grateful to be here #i love my life now and I'm so scared that I'll die and lose everything #because usually when you think you're doing great the universe is preparing something disastrous for you #...so thay you don't stay happy for too long #I'm trying to breathe deep but I feel like it makes my chest hurt more #and I'm so scared to sleep because I don't want to die in my sleep i want to have everything under control if I need help #but I'll be okay... I'll get through this it's just nothing #do you guys have any plans for the summer? #do you remember being at school and having two months holiday without any responsibilities #honestly I don't think I miss it...maybe I prefer to work and have just few weeks off #it's just too much free time for me #now I feel like my body is burning #and I feel my neck pulsating #like I feel my heartbeat in my head #my smart watch is saying that everything is in normal numbers but what of they're inaccurate #I'm losing control of my thoughts so back to getting distracted #maybe I'll try to lay down and sleep

[the-trans-dragon]

.

#I wonder if the people who are about to allow the bill through its first reading are sleeping soundly. I wonder what they’ll #eat for breakfast. how do they go about getting dressed? do they stare into their sock drawer and feel a terrifying dread about the bill? #are they as afraid of it failing as I am afraid of it passing? #do they at least think they’re doing the right thing? do they think they’re acting for the greater good? #is it just malice in their heart? anger? #do you think they’ll let it through because of adamant passion? do you think they don’t really care and they’re just doing what #they think their friends would like? #will they shrug at any outcome? would they celebrate with friends and handshakes and toasts? if it fails do you think they’ll go home and #weep at the lack of control they have over their world? will they wonder if they should move somewhere more tolerant of their transphobia? #do you think they have a specific trans person in mind as they let the bill through? #are they remembering a specific person? are they thinking ‘this bill needs to pass so my kids don’t end up like that’? #I wonder if they’ve ever been a customer in my store. I wonder if I helped them. I wonder if they took a look at me and #decided ‘I cannot allow this kind of sin to exist.’ what if I motivated them with my upsetting little existence? #I’ve seen so many old men in expensive suits. I’ve embarrassed them by carrying their things to their car because they didn’t realize a GIRL #would show up to do it. how many times have I heard ‘oh YOURE carrying it? I was expending a strapping young man!’ #maybe they just saw me for a moment and thought ‘oh god what an ugly dyke. this is why transgendering should be banned.’? #I don’t understand why they get to make decisions like this for me. It isn’t even a vote. they’ll go to work and do their job: determine #whether I am allowed to exist or not. I’ll go to work and do my job: be a cashier and be nothing else. #they have the power to determine my entire life. I couldn’t even refuse to help them if they came to my job. #maybe they’ll even stop by after work and check out at my register and they’ll be polite for the sake of convenience and I’ll be polite too #and they’ll leave and think ‘thank goodness people #like that won’t be allowed to change their bodies anymore. I hope she’s able to be normal and make a good wife for someone and stop this.’ #sorenhoots

[toyfrogs]

help 😀

#I feel like I managed to accustom my friends when it comes to my mum’s weird restrictions and reactions because I tell them pretty much #everything that happens in our relationship and usually ask them for advice #but the one thing that frustrates me is that my boyfriend has no idea how bad things are and thankfully doesn’t understand what it’s like to #have a parent that controls the way you dress/wear your makeup and hair and dictates what you’re supposed to do for a living because they #want you to have a comfortable life and not go through extreme poverty like they did (I know her intentions are the best but she just #doesn’t know how to act in a way that I can comprehend fully…I love her with all my heart and it would literally kill me to have to cut ties #and I’m currently freaking out because I still haven’t told her I’m dating someone who’s not the ideal type she thinks would be a good fit #for me and it’s destroying me because I’ve never felt this good and have never been treated with so much care and respect and I’ve never had #so much reassurance that I’m loved and this relationship is just something I’m not willing to give up on or have it be taken away from me #but at the same time I NEED to tell her because how am I supposed to keep lying about which friends I’m going out with and not be able to #freely spend quality time with the person I love without stressing about time and being scared she’s gonna call or ask for pictures or #I’m planning on telling her but I’m SO terrified to lose him and also scared he’s gonna make my life a living heel and think I’m lying #about every little thing I do in the future and stop me from seeing him or having a phone or idk???? #things are way too unpredictable in this house and have always been and I HATE that