Toxic!Rafe and toxic!reader, where theyâre fighting because he wants to go out to a strip bar with Topper and Kelce which reader hates (she thinks they encourage his bad behavior) after she told him no. so when reader goes on insta to look at Rafes story and sees he lied and went anyways after seeing a pic of him in the sniffers row at the bar, she gets all crazy and starts responding to the story with full paragraphs đ and so when he starts replying she blocks him mid argument, and he goes home and yells at her until they get all lovey dovey again đ„° (sorry this is long)
warnings: toxic relationship (?), slight humor, cussing, lying, crying, shouting, arguing, mentions of sex, a little plot twist at the end
â..i donât know about that, man. y/n has a bitch fit everytime i go somewhere without her, i highly doubt sheâd be okay with me going there of all places.â you stood outside your bedroom door, rolling your eyes at the sound of topperâs voice. âwho cares what she says? sheâs not your fuckinâ mommy, bro.â you suppressed a laugh, knowing rafe has called you âmommyâ a numerous amount of times. your boyfriend sighed, staying silent for a moment. âlook, iâll ask her alright? if she says no then i ainât going.â you smiled to yourself, walking into the room with a fresh stack of t-shirts in your hands.
âhere she is now, iâll call you back.â you placed the folded laundry on top of the dresser. âtell the spawn of satan herself we say hello!â kelce shouted in the background. âaww is that dumb and dumber on the phone? hey, guys!â rafe shook his head, a laugh tumbling out of his throat. he hung up the call, getting up to wrap his arms around your waist. you leaned into him, breathing in his cologne as you pressed a kiss to his cheek. âlisten, uh, topper and kelce are inviting me out tonight, âwanted to know if i can join them..â you arched a brow, turning around in his hold.
âand where do yâall plan on going?â rafe cleared his throat awkwardly. âwell.. you know how the guys are, they always wanna go to some new place..â he trailed off, clearly stalling as much as he could. âjust say it, rafe.â he swallowed nervously. âa strip club.â suddenly his hands felt tense on your skin, and he couldnât hold your stare. âa strip club?â you repeated, pulling away from him. âthatâs cute, but no.â rafe tongued the inside of his cheek, immediately taking out his phone.
[4:30 PM] to: topper, kelce: iâm in, pick me up at nine.
âwhat are you doing?â you eyed him as he brought the phone up to his ear, walking around to the other side of the bed. âmâtelling them i canât go, because youâre gonna be all pissed off if i do.â you scoffed, eyeing him carefully. rafe cursed under his breath, praying to god you couldnât tell he wasnât actually calling anyone. âhey, bro. i canât go, itâs a hard no.â he scratched the back of his neck. âyeah, i know. maybe another time- wait, where?â rafe stopped pacing, nodding along to his own imagination. âpizza and beer? that sounds good. nine oâclock? alright iâll see yâall then.â he shrugged as he pretended to hang up.
âalright, no strip club, but charlieâs pizza instead, is that alright?â you nodded. âthatâs fine, but you better text me.â he jumped up, pulling you into a hug that ended with you two falling in bed. âi mean it rafe, i want pizza pictures and everything!â he showered you with kisses, taking his time when he got to your lips. you two stayed like that for a few minutes, making out softly before you pulled away. âyou should start getting ready before i get too horny, âcause then i really wonât let you go anywhere.â you ran your thumb over his bottom lip, sighing when he got up. âgood call.â he laughed, getting an outfit ready for tonight.
nine oâclock rolled around faster than you wanted it to, and sure enough topper and kelce were outside honking like maniacs once they pulled up. âi love you, baby, iâm gonna text you in a bit.â you smiled, watching him holler all the way down to where topper and kelce practically tackled him. âwe promise to have him home no later than one, mommy dearest!â you gave kelce the middle finger, shutting the door once rafe blew you a kiss. now that you had the house to yourself you figured youâd shower and unwind, maybe finish the book you had been reading. all was well until you glanced at the time on your phone. 10:45 PM, and still no word from rafe.
you opened instagram, spotting the green circle around your boyfriendâs profile picture, indicating he had posted on his close friends. you clicked on it, your heart dropping at the video of rafe throwing money at a stripperâs ass. âfront row seats, baby!â he cheered. just as you thought it couldnât get any worse, the next story was a photo of a blonde sitting in rafeâs lap, topless and smiling from ear to ear. âthis motherfucker..â you closed the app, deciding you saw enough before opening you and rafeâs text thread on imessage.
[10:55 PM] - i donât know whatâs funnier; the fact that you had a whole conversation with yourself in front of me to make it sound like you were just getting pizza and beer with your dickhead friends, or forgetting to take me off your close friends list when you want to post yourself at some sleazy ass strip club. youâre a fucking joke.
rafe had never sobered up so fast in his life, all the blood draining from his face when he read your message. âfuck!â he cursed at himself, his head resting in his hands.
[11:10 PM] my <333: baby i promise iâll explain everything, iâm telling the guys to take me home right now.
[11:15 PM] - thereâs nothing you could say thatâll âexplainâ what the fuck you did. you sat there in my face and kissed me and reassured me when you were getting your way all along. can you even comprehend how fucked up that is? you made me look stupid in front of your friends who already donât like me. AND THE TOPLESS PICTURE???? ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE???? if i posted a picture with my tits all in jjâs face, how would you feel? we both know heâs one phone call away if i really wanted him.
rafeâs blood was boiling after he read your message, knowing that you could leave him and have someone as desperate and lovesick as jj replace him in a heartbeat. âbro donât sweat it, man. sheâll get over it.â topper slurred, entering figure eight again. âshut the fuck up, you donât know the first thing about being in a relationship.â rafe shot back, clenching his fists when the message he tried to send turned green. topper didnât respond, the rest of the ride home being dead silent.
rafe didnât even say bye to kelce or topper when they arrived at tanneyhill, instead he rushed inside, eyes immediately falling to you resting on the couch. you were wearing your pink, fluffy robe, rollers adorning your hair while you were typing something on your ipad. âbabe-â rafe shut the door, falling to his knees before you. âdonât get near me. you probably smell disgusting.â rafeâs jaw ticked, his patience already running low. âiâm so fucking sorry, y/n. i shouldnât have lied to you, baby. i promise iâll never do that again.â you finally looked at him, his bangs falling in his face.
âi know,â you sighed, âyou donât have to worry about me doing anything either.â you got up, attempting to walk past him before he grabbed your leg. âwhat are you talking about?â you knew rafe well enough to know when he was getting angry, and the way he was looking at you right now only confirmed your suspicions. âyou donât get to do what you did and think itâs all going to be fine and dandy with an apology, rafe. iâm leaving for my parents tomorrow, and donât ask me when iâm coming back because i donât know. i donât think i can live with a liar.â you shoved him away, only making him grab you again, this time throwing you down on the couch.
âyou donât think you could live with a liar?â he narrowed his eyes, a bitter laugh falling from his lips. âhas it ever occurred to you that i wouldnât have to lie to you if you would just not freak the fuck out everytime i want to go out and have fun?â you couldnât believe the words coming out of his mouth. âyouâre one to talk!â you screamed in his face, making him stand up. you followed suit, refusing to let him make you feel powerless. âyou wanna act like youâre trapped here? fine! play the victim, but donât forget everything you do to keep me from going out too.â you were pacing back and forth now, running your fingers through your hair.
âyou literally slashed my friendâs tires to keep me from going to her birthday party, and all for what? because you found out other guys were going to be there?â he pinched the bridge of his nose. âi paid for the damages, y/nâŠâ he groaned. âso?! itâs the principal! you do the most when it comes to me wanting to go somewhere, but me telling you not to go to a literal strip club is where you draw the line?? fuck you!â you started making your way upstairs, rafe right on your tail as you did so.
âfuck me?! iâm the one who takes care of you! thereâs nothing in this world that you want and donât have! i take you on regular vacations, i take you out damn near everyday, i keep you in all the newest shit, i pay for you and all your friendâs beauty appointments so that yâall could have a girlâs day twice a month, you just have no fucking clue!â he shouted, making you stop in your tracks. you looked up at him with tears in your eyes, breaking his heart in two.
âand what about everything i do for you?â you let out a shaky breath. âiâm what makes this house a home. i wear the clothes you want me to wear, i eat the food you want me to eat, i talk the way you want me to talk. iâm here when all else fails. iâm the one who holds you and comforts you when things get hard for you. iâm the one who makes sure you never feel alone, âmakes sure you donât go through anything alone. i do everything you say. on the days you work long and hard, iâm right here waiting for you with my legs open. on the days that youâre particularly tired, iâll be on my knees, iâll ride you and do all the work, and iâll do everything happily because i love you.â rafe was crying with you by the time you finished speaking, both of you standing in the hallway.
âi get up at the ass crack of dawn and doll myself up everyday because i want to look good for you, i want to please you with everything i do. when we go to the country club, i speak of you in the highest regards, and i do it because i want everyone to know that i respect you. i do all of this, and i do it all without the commitment of having a fucking ring on my finger. if that doesnât speak volumes for you, then i donât know what does.â you walked inside your shared bedroom, taking a seat at the edge of the bed. he dropped to his knees once again, hugging your waist like youâd disappear if he let go. âwe need each other. i need you.â he cried. you wrapped your arms around him, pulling him up off the floor.
âi love you, y/n. please, you canât leave.â you cupped his face. âi havenât seen my parents in almost six months, rafe. i have to..â he nodded slowly, taking your hand in his. âthen weâll go together. âtell them we have a special announcement.â you watched him with a confused expression as he went to grab a small box out the bottom drawer of the bedside table. ârafe!â you gasped, hands flying up to cover your mouth. âiâve had this for a while now, i donât know what i was waiting for, but i want to do this now.â he opened the box, the biggest diamond youâve ever seen lighting up your eyes.
âi know we have to work on some things, but thereâs no one else iâd rather do this with.â you gazed into his eyes, a small smile gracing your lips. âokay, letâs do it.â
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imagine loser g!p yunjinâŠ
(These pics came to save my writer block)
Imagine? I breathe for every word in that sentence anonđ. You get me too well we should kiss anyway.
Loser Yunjin who made you fall for her with her silly jokes and pickup lines and loud personalityđ Yunjin is part of the loser puppy line (yes with minjeong) so you know she gets excited easily. Girlie is loud. Even at lunch time where is crowded af you can easily tell whose loud ass laugh is that. That kept catching your attention, until you recognized her in one of your classes and for some reason couldnât stop looking at her.
Oh but Yunjin? No sheâs noticed you since day 1. Not only noticed you but she fell HARD. She had Sakura already tired âcause of how much sheâd talk about you. She has dreamy eyes and a dreamy smile just mentioning something you did, something as simple as âtoday the professor asked a question and nobody knew. Well, I did, but then- KKURA LISTEN! But then y/n raised her hand really fast! And her answer was even more correct than my answer!â
âHow is it more correct if you had the same answer Yunjinââ
âIT WAS MORE CORRECT OK? IT WAS PERFECT! She is perfect :(â. Loser. Loser and simp.
Whenever you walk into the room her friends would tell her and sheâd go from playing around recreating this fight scene she saw while playing genshin to just quickly shutting up and be like đ§đ»ââïžpretending she was all well behaved and cool but it was too late you saw the whole thing ndkdjdj. She got so embarrassed but you thought it was cute đ youâd exchange a few words from time to time but nothing too serious, and she always had either a silly joke or a âpickup lineâ that was so bad it made you laugh every time. Yunjin in her brain be like: I failed successfully :D!
One day tho some mf saw the way sheâd stare at you and told her somebody like you would never even look at a loser like her in that way :( poor baby got so sad that day but plot twist! You started playing genshin âcause of her đ„ș, favorite character being Yunjin Ofc for obvious reasons (when you told her she blushed so hard âcause you winked at her and everything nsjdncjf) and thatâs how you started talking to her, asking her questions that you could totally figure out by yourself but shush you needed an excuse to talk to the cute nerdy loser in your program.
I feel like I already talked a lot đ so I wonât make it too long explaining exactly how you started dating (here it is!). So now the smut part uhuhu.
Since you bonded well âcause of genshin, youâd have a lot of play dates. Sometimes tho, you prefer to watch your gf playing sitting on her lap. At first it was cute, but she moves so much when playing, and you and her dick noticed it before her brain did â... Yun is your mic off?â âYes baby, why? Hmm? Where are you goââ And before she can process it youâre already on your knees sucking her cock and moaning âcause Omg doesnât it taste and feels amazing in your mouth?? Also thank god you checked if her mic was off because she let out the loudest moan. remember I said she was loud? Yeah it continues here bro. You looked up at her and she was so ready to forget the game and concentrate on only you but you stopped her from getting up and told her to finish playing.
âH-how am I supposed to c - oh fuck ~ concentrate when youâre doing that??âŠâ she said while âcomplainingâ but in the end, obeyed. it was so hard to focus tho, when you kept swirling your tongue around her tip, giving her those hungry sexy eyes that made her whimper every time she looked down at you âAh! y/n ~ thatâs so good babyâŠâ.
She LOVES when you ride her when sheâs playing. Being balls deep inside you the moment she wins a match in a game? Whatâs better than that?! Nothing. âI WON AGAIN YES!â Sheâd celebrate and get so excited sheâd just grab you like you weigh nothing and either pin you against the wall, her desk, the bed Idk anywhere and sheâll fuck you sooo good with the biggest smile. When she gets frustrated or loses tho, you know damn right sheâll grab those hips and make you jump on her dick so hard, relieving her frustration on your pussy (she can use me like this I donât mind-) and she wonât slow down until the pleasure is bigger than her anger. âHoly fuck Yunjin..!â âThatâs for killing me when we were in the same team.â and thatâs something you did last week Tf đ
As I said she gets excited but not only on a daily basis with stuff she likes, she gets hard sooo easily and itâs fun to tease. Youâre straddling her, grinding on her lap, teasing her about how hard she got just by kissing and sheâd try to come up with something to tease you back but her brain is off because of how good you feel doing that and because sheâs a loser âw-well my dick is bigger than yours!â Like ??? Yeah it is bro it is đ you just laugh making her embarrassed. âwell yes, yes it is baby. And I love itâ youâd say and sheâd just blush and go back to kiss you neidjdq.
But sheâs also so sweet :( youâd tell her you missed her and sheâd softly say âI missed you too y/nâŠâ while hugging you by the waist tightly, and leaving a little kiss on your nose. (Random cutie moment sorry I felt like it đ§đ»ââïž).
Oh yeah! Yunjin loveeees kisses. Sheâs always all over you kissing your face, your hands, your neck and shoulders and back when is exposed, and the rest of your body when is just you and her đ. She loves praising you by doing this. And she LOVES when you do it back. A sad day gets better the moment she sees you and you leave a kiss in her forehead (istg her tail goes brrr and she shows that perfect teeth smile).
She loves when you go from her neck to her chest to her stomach to between her legs. When you leave kisses and little bites on her thighs, and shower her cock with kisses that come with a little whimper every time. She finds it as sexy as it is cute too. You for sure have several pics of her dick with lipstick prints.
Cockwarming? Yes. But with her, this is a way of teasing YOU. Itâs the only way she knows đ Iâll explain. Trying to overstimulate her does NOT work âcause her stamina and sex drive are HIGH. If you get tired when riding her be sure that sheâll grab your thighs and pound you fast and hard. She can go for hours, in different positions, never running out of cum.
âYunjin.. please I canât feel my legsâ
âHmmgh just one more.. feels so good, need to come in your pretty pussy..â she says as if she didnât come in it so much already that even your floor is full of it âcause of how much itâs dripping down your legs. But you cant say no to her :( her cock feels too good you could die the happiest as long as itâs deep inside you <333.
Pussy drunk Yunjin? Uh yes FUCK YES. She can eat you out for HOURS. And not just âcause she loveees to make you feel good but itâs for her own pleasure too that woman just loves the way you tastes and how you make a mess in her mouth when you come. Youâre the one ending up overstimulated âcause her mouth is Fuckin attached to your pussy like sheâd die without it. âJust one more, for me baby please~â and ughhh there she has you coming for The Who knows whatâth time already. Random but sheâs 0 dom most of the time (Iâd call her a service switch) all silly đ
âGood girl, hehe.â
âShut up and come kiss me.â
Just as she asks for âone moreâ in bed she also does it after it when you guys are cuddling and resting and pampering each other đ„ș in the morning when you both have to get ready sheâd pull you back to bed âbaby we have class in 30 minutesâ âjust 5 more minutes, please~â âI donât wanna fail class Jen!â âIâll do all your homework letâs just cuddle a little moreee~â and how to say no to that (the cuddles I mean-) lets bfr you canât. You just canât.
Iâm genuinely so in love with her like yâall donât understand. I could fantasize about her all day. Thank you anon I love my girlie so much <3
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Hiiii! First of all I hope you're doing well <333 and second omg!! I loved your ghost smut đđ I'm here to request smt if you don't mind, I've requested this before but nobody wanted to write it but feel free to not wrote it too if you don't like the plot but here we go:
Ghost breaks up with reader NOT because he hates her but because his next mission is really hard and dangerous and there was a really slim chance that he'd survive it. So he tries to push reader away to not hurt her feelings but things escalated and they break up but when he comes back from the mission they have make-up sex? đ€ Thank you for reading all of this and if you can't write it then I understand, thank you for your time and effort đ
*:ïœ„ïœĄâ a/n: hi anon~ thank you so much for being my first req!!!! And thank u so much for the support. Iâm so sorry i took forever to get to this! but you bet ur sweet ass iâll write this for you?! I hope you enjoy this regardless of how long it took me to get to it. mwah! -ur bbg cureÂ
ăâă desc: ghost is deployed on a mission in bangladesh that price explains as risky and complicated--ghost immediately thinks of you as the possibilities of survival are described as slim. him, gaz, and soap set out back to manchester, and no amount of talk is able to change his mind. he ends things off between the two of you, which arises a depressive state in you before he arrives and makes it up to you completely. (possibly takes place before ten minutes past?âŠ. đ)
*:ïœ„ïœĄâ tags: p in v, unprotected intercourse, whiny ghost if you squint, hand job if you squint, oral (f receiving), fingering, reader orgasms twice, cock warming, he sleeps with the tip inside<3, this hurt my breeding kink heart, pet names, possessive ghost, breast worship if you squint, break up and make up sex, porn with feelings. SMUTTY SMUT SMUT!!! not too bad, sadly.
ââ© N[EX]T REGRETS â©â
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Your hands are setting two plates on the dinner table; one for you, one for your boyfriend.
He was coming home from deploymentâitâd been months since youâd last seen him, youâd lost track.
Silverware wrapped in cloth napkins are set beside the plates before you flick the cog of a lighter and ignite the candles in the middle of the table.
You turn yourself around to grab the cookie sheet of ribeye off of the counter after pushing on mittens, holding it in your palm as you place two steaks down onto one of the plates, then one onto another.Â
Then you take the tray back to the counter and set it back on top of the table cloth so it didnât damage the marble.
Regardless of the fancy dinner setup, you were still in a black satin night dress and fuzzy socks. You knew Simon would just dress down himself the moment he got home.
You scooped steamed vegetables onto both plates, then potatoes and gravy with a sprinkle of chives.Â
When you place down the spineless wine glasses, you hear a heavy door slam causing a smile to crease your face.
Simon was home, he was going to come inside and he was going to hold you again for the first time in months. Run his hands through your hair for the first time in months. Kiss you for the first time in months.
You seat yourself gently on the dinner table, ankle crossed over the other with your elbows bent and palms pressed neatly on the wood as you wait for him to come inside.
You hear the door open, then shut, heavy padded footsteps approaching the threshold of the dining room.
Ghost is the one who comes through the archwayâfully geared with the skull mask and helmet, the only thing he lacks is a rifle.
âSimonâŠ?â You push yourself off your palms, confusion whisked on your face.
It was one of your rules, the mask stays off inside your home.
His eyes land on the neatly set table before they reach yours.Â
You approach him slowly and he tenses, your eyebrows stitching together in concern.
His stomach twists inside of him.
Gorgeous minx.
Absolutely breathtaking.
Beautiful perfection.
He couldnât say anything he wanted toâand god he had so much to say.
Your eyes flicker to the windows alongside the front door seeing two other bodies.
Armed bodies.
He wasnât staying.
âCan you all stay for dinner atleast? I made enough for everyoneâŠâ you smile softly while fumbling with the straps of his vest.Â
Stop touching me, youâre making this harder on me. Ghost swallows the knot in his throat.Â
Thereâs a pause before Ghost backs up.
âThereâs someone else.âÂ
Itâs a lie, itâs a lie. Itâs such a lie. GhostÂ
Something inside your chest tightens and you swear that itâs your heart.Â
âWhat?âŠâ You scoff lightly, your eyebrows pinching together in disbelief.
Donât make me say it again. Ghost inhales sharply.
âSimonâŠâ you tilt your head slightly, extending your hand to touch him.
âPlease, let me try to be better for you, give me a chanceâŠâ your lips quiver.Â
You donât need to try and be better for me. Ghost thinks.
He knew youâd been reading articles on how to be in a relationship with someone in the special forcesâheâd found out and closed the lid, sat you in his lap and kissed you so softly, telling you that you were perfect for him and you didnât need an article to tell you how to love him.
But you know itâs real when Ghost jerks his shoulder away.
You know itâs real when you bite your lip hard enough to draw blood as tears start welling in your eyes.Â
You know itâs real when Ghostâs eyes evade yours.Â
You know itâs real when Simon turns around and he doesnât spare you a goodbye. Â
You especially know itâs real when the door slams shut and rattles the walls around you.
Itâs surreal, but you expected this.Â
He mustâve found someone on base, you thought.
You feel your knees give in beneath you, and youâre met with the floor.
A hysterical sobbed scream leaves your throat as your trembling hand lifts to drag down at your lips.
ââââââââââââââââââââ
Ghost stands for a moment on the doormat outside of your home.Â
Gazâs hand finds a place on his back, the other holding his vest as he guides the larger male towards the truck theyâd arrived in.
âDidnât have to do that, Ghost.â He says, followed by a sigh.
âDid.â Ghost replies back as he seats himself in the back. âWasnât lettinâ her get my dog tagsâsheâs been through enough beinâ with me.â
Soap turns his head over his shoulder after sitting in the front passenger seat.Â
âAy, L.T, we all know yâll make it back tâya pretty lass.â He says. âYâr one of we besâ fighters, ainât that righâ, Kyle?â Soapâs elbow bumped into Gazâs ribs.
Gaz utters a strained noise before nodding, hands wrapping around the wheel.
ââM not takinâ that risk, now shuâup ân drive. Capâs gonâ âb pissy enough.âÂ
His head turns to look out the window as he feels the wheels of the truck roll down the driveway.
ââââââââââââââââââââ
Itâs been seven months. Two-hundred-thirteen days.Â
All you do is work, eat, and sleep.Â
Eating, not as much as you should.
You couldnât cook, couldnât get yourself up from your bed the second you got home from work to start the stove.
You either sleep all day or not at all, there wasnât a balance.
God, your living room was disgusting. Snot tissues were littered across the entire coffee table, empty champagne glasses, crusted food plates and crushed soda cans.
Youâd resorted to hiring a maid just to clean your living roomâwhich was the only room you stayed in for five months straight while your depression started getting progressively worse.
You lay on your side with a weighted blanket draped over you, holding you down comfortably.Â
Simon stayed in your head, even after half of a year. He invaded your head. It drove you insane.
At the same time, you were scared of the day that he wouldnât be your first and last thought each and every day anymore.
You bunch the blanket closer to your chin, your wet eyes have drenched the little area to hell.Â
Things just have never been the same since Simon left the houseâ-you still happened to feel his presence next to you, hovering over you.Â
âThereâs someone else.â His words settled an uneasy weight on your shoulders that you still were unable to shake off.Â
A splutter of sobs escapes you once again, tears blurring your vision as they fall and your nose starts to clog.Â
You try to breathe in, but you feel as though thereâs not enough air around you.
You breaking into a coughing fit is enough for you to push the weighted blanket off of your body and heave yourself up.Â
Spit and drool creates several small strings between your lipsâyouâre practically foaming at the mouth from how hard youâre crying.
Tears flutter off your eyelashes and further blur your vision, so you try and rub at your eyes with the heels of your palms desperately.Â
You stand up wobbly and start towards the bathroom, you didnât have the energy to walk the extra couple of steps into your bedroom to use your own bathroom, so the guest bathroom would have to do for now.Â
You turn the shower knob and pull it out towards you after undressing, then step into the warmth and sink onto the shower floor, hugging your knees to your bare chest and letting the water run over your face.Â
Sobs cause your body to twitch and jerk, the heat in your eyes making your eyes burn as your breathing grows unsteady over the stream of water above you.Â
You just wanted him home.Â
But, he wasnât yours to want home anymore.Â
He wasnât yours to crave anymore or to love.Â
ââââââââââââââââââââ
A door slams so hard air causes the fabric of his shirt to flail in the wind.Â
Ghost had spent months struggling with the actions of his decision, where he had hoped that the choice would break you free of your shackles of worries when it came to the blonde when he was away.Â
He spent every night and every rising morning worrying someone would take his place. It wouldâve been his fault, he knew that, and it made him want to scream at the top of his lungs until they felt raw in his chest.Â
He presses the lock button on his keys, hearing the locks inside the jeep click, then he jumbles with his keychain looking for the house key.
Ghostâs hands are shaking as he pinches the specific key and jabs it into the door lock, turning it.
When he hears the all-familiar click, he immediately pulls off his balaclava and pushes himself through the front door.Â
Thereâs silenceâpure silence throughout the house except for the sound of running water.Â
Sheâs showering.Â
A short amount of relief washes over him as he bends to untie the laces of his boots, placing them aside.Â
When he stands, his eyes scan over to the living room and he feels his heart sink in him at the sight of the absolute mess made of the living room.
An overflowing laundry basket and take-out boxes that made the room stink of old fried rice.Â
He throws his bag behind him against the wall before he walks himself towards the pile of laundry and begins pulling out shirts and pairs of pants to fold against his knee.Â
ââââââââââââââââââââ
You took a two hour shower, most of it being of you shredding any form of emotion from your body that you could.
Now you were sitting on the fur-covered toilet seat, running your lotion-coated hands along your freshly shaven legs.Â
You told yourself you would try going to a club to replenish your sex deprivation.Â
Steam finally clears from the mirror allowing you to look at yourself in the mirror. Your hands pull the towel off your head, wet hairs sticking to your shoulders.
The bathroom smelt of your coconut milk shampoo and body washâit smelt divine.Â
You thumb up your white laced bra and panties, plug in the blow dryer and scrunch your mop in your hands as you wave the blow dryer over your hair.
It seems like hours, being only nearly ten minutes until your hair is somewhat dry, but your arms are tired, so you unplug the dryer and wrap the cord around it.
You leave the bathroom and walk back into the living room, pausing in motion at the sight of it being cleanâyour laundry being neatly folded on the coffee table.Â
âKris? Is that you?â You call, not too loudly.Â
She had a key to your home, but she had stated she wouldnât be available this week due to some personal reasons she wasnât required to go over with you.
You walk over towards the couch and drag your hand along the cotton material.
There was no reply to your call, which concerned you. You hadn't contacted any of your family members to come visit.
You slowly turn yourself around and the breath is practically stolen from your lungs.Â
Simonâs standing across the room from you, clad in a black t-shirt and jeans, a belt secured in the front.
You watch his eyes drag up and down your exposed body, watching as he inhales sharply while his eyes narrow.
âLove,â He mumbles.Â
Your eyebrows furrow and you lift your neck up. âWhyâwhy are you here?â
âWill yâlet me explain?â He sighs.Â
âDoes she know?â You reply quickly with a shaky voice.Â
âDoes whââÂ
âDoes she know you are here, Simon.âÂ
There's silence, then he licks his dry lips.
âThere is no she.â He says flatly.
âNo,â you scoff, running a hand down your face, eyes darting to the side as you listen to him walk closer toward you.
âNoâŠno. NoâI remember specificallyâŠâ your angry, now.
Simon catches your lips in a firm kiss, but you push him away, and the look in his eyes makes your chest ache.
âPlease,â Simonâs eyebrows pinch together.Â
âStop, just stop.â You seethe, pressing your finger into the midsection of his chest making him back up some. âYou said there was someone else, you saidââ
âI was lyinâ, there wasnât.â He pauses, frowning.
âBullshit,â you shake your head. âFucking bullshit, Simon Riley!â
âLet mâtalk.â Simon says gruffly, his tone stern.Â
You swallow thickly and lower your head in defeat after nodding, finger lifting so you can chew on your cuticle bed.Â
âIâŠI let a debriefing get tâme. Said there wasnât muchâa chance of survivalâcanât say much, yâknow thatâŠbut I didnât want yâto have to go through that.â He explains.Â
His hand reaches down to lift your chin, thumbing at any stray tears making their way down your cheeks. âForgive me, lovie.â
Simon leans down to close the gap between you both again, this time you submit and his hand cradles the back of your head.Â
The kiss is slow and passionateâgentle with its hints of dominance.Â
âMissed youâŠâ He mumbles over your lips, hands finding your ass to knead the supple skin.
You gasp slightly, but cave in to his touch instantly. âAnd I missed youâŠâÂ
âPleaseâŠnever do that again.âÂ
His forehead rests on yours a moment, fingers toying in your hair by rolling pieces between his fingers.
ââM sorry.â He murmurs.Â
He wasnât the type to apologize, you knew that. His apologies were sincere and meaningful.
Your hands grip his shirt.
âOver half a year, SimonâŠâ Your voice is so low, you couldnât even call it a whisper. âThis whole timeâŠâ
âI knowâŠI knowâŠâ He mutters into your hair, taking in your scent.Â
âWill yâlet me make it up to ya, love?â Hot breath rakes over the side column of your neck.
You simply nod, and thatâs all enough for him to pick you up by your thighs and for you to wrap your legs around his waist and rut against him.
He guides you both into your bedroom, seating you on the edge of the bed.
âSo fuckinâ sexy when yâr half-naked ân angryâŠâ Simon chuckles dryly as he drags a finger up your clothed cunt.Â
âSimonâŠpleaseâŠâ you mumble into his shoulder.
âIâve gotâya, gorgeous.â He says cooly while laying you flat on the bed.Â
Simon slips his fingers past your panties, his cock twitching in his pants at the feeling of your wetness spreading along his fingers.
âFfff..uck, babe, you're so wet for me âlreadyâŠâ he whispers.
You gasp as his finger slips up and down between your folds, making you twitch as he passes your throbbing clit.
âSo fuckinâ divineâŠâ he purrs above you, eyes full of love and lust. His other hand finds a place on your thigh, squeezing the flesh as he works at your warmth.
You whine, watching as his teeth bite at the lace lining of your panties, pulling them down as his eyes donât stray from yours.
âOhâŠfuckâŠâ you bite your lip gently, the action making you fanny flutter to the point of aching.
âJesusâŠâ he breathes against your thigh, pressing his lips along the skin and sucking it until heâs satisfied with the markings.
Simon scoops up both of your legs by the crooks of your knees, spreading them apart as he shifts down to rest his knees on the ottoman spread across the end of the bed.
A shuddered moan releases from you as his tongue prods at the hole in your cunt, then drags up to swirl around your sensitive bud.Â
Your hand grabs a tight hold in his hair, making him groan against your core and increase the pressure and sensation in your stomach.
A whimper leaves your throat as he sucks and laps at your pussy, making you buck into his jaw.
âJusâ like that, baby,â he growls onto you, pressing a wet kiss onto your clit. âYâgon cum all over mâface like a good girl?âÂ
You mewl and cry out as Simon slips a finger inside, your back arching and thighs jerking.
âSimon!â You gasp loudly as your fingers dig into his back over his shirt.
His tongue drags flatly up your cunt, collecting all your juicesâheâs practically drinking you.Â
Another finger pushes inside gently, curling inside that same spot heâs able to find so effortlessly each time that makes you go wild.
âGonâ câŠcumâŠâ you stutter meekly.
âCâmon then,â he urges. âCum fâr me.â
Simon quickened his pace and the pressure, pumping his fingers in and out, in and out.
Like he was starved, his face presses closer into you, tongue toying at your clit making you twitch against him.
Thereâs an unbearable heat between your legs as you feel a knot tie in your abdomen when Simon levered his fingers deeper into you.Â
âGoodâŠâ he groans, pressing his tongue inside with his fingers as your walls clamp around him desperately, a strained moan leaving you as your orgasm snaps.
You cum, hard, and grip his shoulders with both hands as his fingers fuck your orgasm back into you before he finally pulls his fingers out to coat your thighs in your climax.
Simon sucks out his work, then spits it back out onto your heat, slapping your pussy and releasing a deep groan.
He licks his fingers clean, his tongue sliding between each finger.Â
You lift yourself up by gripping his belt, slightly wobbling before his hand finds a spot to rest on your back.
âFuckinâ hellâŠcum drunk âlready, sweets?â Simon bends down to take your mouth onto his, taking the chance to slip his tongue between your lips when you moan into his.
Gently, you palm his hard cock over his pants, eyes squeezing shut then opening to find your place on his belt and fumble with the buckle.
âMmâyâfind what you were lookinâ fâr?â He pants heavily before his lips trail down your jawline to lick and suck at your neck.Â
âOh..fuckâŠâ he murmurs, lips brushing against your skin.Â
âWant you so bad, SiâŠâ you moan, lifting your head to grant him better access. âWant to feel you inside of me.âÂ
He pulls his shirt over his head, tossing it somewhere across the room while he kicks off his pants that you helped pull down Simonâs hips, lips then coming back down to tease at your collarbones and neck.
âOoh..hoâŠyou will, donât yâworry, sweet girl.â His cock sprung free out of the restraints of his boxers, making him groan hoarsely.
Simonâs fingers tap on the outerside of your thigh. âTurn over,â he demands.
You babble out nonsense that is incoherent as you flip on your stomach and one of his hands gather both of your wrists.Â
Heâs on the bed now, between your legs with one hand holding you up by your stomach.Â
The head of his cock teases at your entrance, lips trailing up your spine.
âYâwant it?â He growls. âHuh?â
He inhales sharply, nudging the tip into your greedy hole. âGodâŠyou doâŠâÂ
âJâs suckinâ me in like thâneedy little pet yâare.â
You moan out a chant of pleases, cheek pressing into the comforter of the bed as he arches and positions you to his liking.
âYâwant this thick cock in yâr empty pussy.âÂ
âYesâŠâ you mumble, backing into himÂ
softly until you take in his entire tip which causes the larger man to apply more pressure into your stomach. âFuck me, pleaseâŠpleaseâŠâ
âOhâŠMmmâŠSuch a good girl begginâ fâr my cock.â Simon praises, letting you bounce on his tip for a few moments.
âThaâs right babyâŠjusâ like thatâŠI own this pretty little cunt, donât I?â He snarls. âNobody elseâs to fuck.âÂ
âOnly yours, just yours,â you nod helplessly, earning a positive noise from the man behind you.
He takes in a sharp breath before slowly he inches himself into you farther, stretching you.Â
Filling you.
You moan loudly, your walls closing around his length making him push out the same noise.
When he bottoms out in you, his tip kissing your cervix, he retracts and ruts back into you, the sound of skin slapping filling the room as he hisses and breathes harsher at every thrust.
âOhâŠâ he sighs in ecstasy, releasing your wrists so he can grab the fat on your waist.
âYesâŠâ he moans, every contact with your hips causing the breath in his mouth to jump and fall.
âTight little pussy just swallowing me,â Simon hisses through clenched teeth as he painfully yet deliciously stretches you open to his size. âSoâfuckinâ sexy.âÂ
âWant yâto cum in me, pleaseâŠâ You gasp, clawing at the comforter as he bucks himself deep into you, filling you up and emptying you, repeating that motion over and over.
âWant me to fill yâwith my seed?â He chuckles, a moan interrupting him. âThaâs what my slutty pet wants?â
âFucking yes! My god, yesâŠâ you pant, muttering and whining unintelligibly as he slams back into you and makes your ass slap against his thighs.Â
âToo bad,â he croons.
âSimonâŠpl..ease..â you moan.
âNoâŠno, I canâtâŠcum in ya, love. Weâwe ainât thinkinâ straightâŠâ Simonâs cock twitches inside of you as he continues ramming his hips into yours, a guttural groan tearing out of him.Â
âI can feel yâtighteninâ around me, jâs begginâ to cum around my fat cockâŠâÂ
âThere yâgoâŠBounce that gorgeous ass on me, jâs how I like it, babe.â Simon strains, hand roughly smacking the skin on your hind.Â
You squirm against him, making the blonde growl and grab your hips with a bruising grip. âYâfeel me stretchinâ yâr tiny pussy?âÂ
âMhm? Yâdo?â He grunts, heaving above you as he thrusts himself into you. âFuckinâ take it, filthy fuckinâ minx.â
âLook at you, such a pretty pet, bent to my contentâŠPussy out on display.âÂ
âGonna cum, gorgeous, all over your perfect belly.â He mumbles and flips you onto your back.
You moan shamelessly and loudly, whining as he pulls out of you and starts stroking himself while playing with your pussy.
âFuâŠuâŠckâŠâ his head leans back as you massage his balls and replace his hand. âJâs likeeeâŠthat, perfect girlâŠâ
He rubs his middle and pointer finger over your clit at an inhuman pace, making your body jolt and try to push away if it werenât for his hand holding you roughly in place.
You roll your wrist up and down, pumping his cock in your hand until he takes control again and smacks his tip against your lower abdomen, spilling out his cum onto your stomach with a choke of your name.
Simonâs body twitches, pants and swears rolling off his tongue in a pleading voice as he covers you in his warmth.
âC...Câmon lovie, cum all over my fingers again, let me sssâŠsee yâcome undone fâr me againâŠNâŠNeed to see itâŠâ He stumbles over his words as he comes off his high, an undertone of a whimper in his voice.
It makes you pool, your ego skyrocketing at the fact that you can do that to someone. To him.
Simonâs fingers hit every perfect nerve inside your pulsating cunt, curling and plummeting into the same spot of overwhelming pressure that brought you over the edge.Â
A tightness coils in your stomach again, and he absolutely fucking loves the strained noises that spill out from you at every rut of his fingers inside of you.
He loves the way he can get you wrung out at every pet name and gentle touch, the way you clamp your thighs together at the smallest motions.
Simon knew your body better than you did, and he fucking loved it. He knew every spot that drove you absolutely mad and every crevice that had the ability to make you beg just how he wanted.Â
Your eyes shoot open from their half-lidded proportion as Simon finds a certain spot that sends electricity throughout your entire body, making you cry out and dig your nails into his scar-ridden flesh.
âRighâ there, huh, princess? Righâ there?â He hisses which drawls out to a throaty growl, hammering that same spot with more pressure. âCouldnât stand beinâ away frâm this pussy fâr so longâŠâÂ
You chant âyesâ over and over again until your gasping and panting his name, your breath catching in your throat as you let out a loud cry through your climax, thighs trembling as they slowly close around his forearms in reflex.
He lifts your thighs up again and sits you on his lap as he pulls the covers over the both of you.
âDid sâgood for me, lovie. MmmâŠSâproud of you, baby.â Simon whispers, catching your lips in a ravenous kiss as he presses his cock inside of your warmth, pushing your climax back into you in a tranquil motion.Â
ââM gonna be right back, okay?â You coo against his lips as you swing your legs over the bed, he gives you a small âmhmâ.
You quickly give yourself time to use the bathroom, then wash your hands before you walk yourself back into the room, crawling back into his lap before he turns the both of you to the side.
Simon unclips your brassiere and drops it onto the floor, cups both of your breasts in his palms and moans as you slide yourself back down onto his cock.
âMmhâŠSo warmâŠâ he whispers huskily while kissing the nape of your neck down to your collarbones.
He spoons you, lulling you into a state of drowsiness as he gently massages your tits. Simonâs breath is a gentle pattern over your neck, gentle snores leaving the barriers of his lips after his hands go still.
You donât take long to catch sleep right behind him, turning your head a moment to peck his wet lips before youâre able to finally shut your eyes. Â
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Hi Beeđ I hope youâre having a nice weekendâŁïž
I had a Joel fic idea I wanted to send you in case you are looking for inspo? If not just ignore this lmao.
I thought it would be kind of cute to have a fic where r likes to read even after the world went to hell and whenever she goes with Joel somewhere and he luckily finds a book he knows she hasnât read he picks it up for her as a giftđ and r reads out loud for them when theyâre camping, oblivious to Joelâs feelings until one day he gives r a book she mentioned she loved when she was younger and sheâs like oh, you feel the same way đ
AN | I love this, this is so soft and I love this concept! I hope you like it too đ„°
Pairing | Joel Miller x Fem!Reader
Warnings | None
Word Count | 3k
Masterlist | Joel, Main
âââ  ïœĄïŸâ: *.✠.* :âïŸ. âââ
"Always buried in a book," his tease was accompanied by a warm chuckle as you looked up and found Joel strolling into the makeshift library. Your smile was beaming as you marked your page and set the book down to give him your full attention, "what are you readin' now?"
"Nothing terribly exciting," you confessed with a huff, nodding in the direction of your latest selection, "the Hobbit. I think I've read it a dozen times by now. As a matter of fact I think I've read all of these books at least twice."
"Hard to expand a library when people aren't writing anymore," Joel rubbed at his beard thoughtfully as you nodded sadly, "its a shame."
"I never thought I'd see the day when I couldn't go to the bookstore or library for a new book," you looked away, blinking back your tears. It wasn't just the book thing - it was everything, "but here we are. I like to write my own stories sometimes but it's not the same. I already know the beginning, middle, and end and all the plot twists when it's all in my head."
He hummed in understanding as you felt him study you intently. Your face warmed up under his intense gaze as tugged at a loose thread on the sleeve of your sweater, âis there a reason you read the same thing multiple times?â
âIâve always read a lot,â you tucked your legs up and under yourself on the overstuffed chair. You focused on the fire that was crackling away merrily, knowing that you had his undivided attention, âit was always a good form of escapism when I was younger and turns out it also works these days with all ofâŠthis. I didnât have a lot of friends growing up, I always had a hard time fitting in. When things got bad, there was always a book to turn to.â
âDid you have a favorite?â you huffed in amusement as you turned to him with a no duh expression. The look on your face made him laugh as well, and he reached over to give your shoulder a gentle squeeze, âwhat was it?â
âYouâre going to laughâŠâ
âI promise I wonât,â he insisted, accompanied by a silent shake of his shoulders which led you to raise your eyebrows at him, âIâll do my best not to.â
âA true man of honor,â you rested your chin in your hand as you looked over at him, âprideandprejudice.â
âCome again?â he was teasing you, the question filled with tender affection, âdidnât quite catch that, sweetheart.â
âYouâre the worst,â you groaned softly, hiding your face in your hands, âyou heard me loud and clear - Pride and Prejudice. I know itâs silly but Iâve just always loved it.â
âI donât think thatâs silly at all,â he promised as you relaxed slightly. It wasnât that you needed his approval or hoped he felt the same way, but there was something about his response and how tenderly he watched you that it made your tummy explode with butterflies, âitâs nice to have something familiar to hang onto - itâs nice to have a friend.â
âI agree,â oh. He really had to stop looking at you like that before you melted into a puddle on the floor, âI havenât read it in forever.â
âHavenât found a copy or just havenât had the desire to read it?â
âHavenât found it,â you sighed dramatically, before smiling back at him, âmaybe one day I will, and if I do, Iâm going to make you read it as well - Iâll even read it out loud for you.â
âIs that a promise or a threat?â
âUmmâŠI dunno,â you mused as he shook his head fondly, âboth? Which one is worse?â
âI donât think Iâd ever feel threatened by you,â he began as you gave him a mock-hurt little expression, âyouâre very tough, but Iâm sorry sweetheart, youâre too soft. Which isnât a bad thing. So, tell you what, you ever get your hands on a copy of Pride and Prejudice, Iâd love to have you read it out loud for me.â
âYeah?â you looked at him with soft doe eyes that made his heart constrict.
âPromise.â
âââ  ïœĄïŸâ: *.✠.* :âïŸ. âââ
Joel liked your smile; it was pretty, even if you shied away from it at times. It always worked to make his heart constrict with emotion, and heâd long formed his own little plan to make you smile as often as he could. You werenât privy to that just yet, but that was okay. As long as you were happy that was all that mattered.Â
His favorite way, as heâd found after that afternoon in the library, was surprising you with a new book. Realistically, it wasnât much, but it was the meaning behind the gesture, and the fact that even though he was out in the big, bad outside, he was thinking about you.Â
Book after book he found for you, some almost new, perfectly preserved in time, and some already aged and loved before everything fell apart. But it never mattered, it was all about the face that he did just for you. The old, rickety bookcase in your small apartment was soon filled with new titles, some youâd already and others youâd never even heard of, all lovingly placed and organized. One of the many reasons you didnât mind these small tokens of affection from Joel was the fact that it gave you more reasons to spend time with him.
As the months passed, you got to know Joel more and more, learning about his life from before the Outbreak to present. You shared just as much with him and in a way it felt like the two of you had always been friends, like two wandering souls that had found their way back to each other. You never would have thought that someone like him would ever even want to spend time with you, but you fit together like perfect puzzle pieces.Â
On this particular evening you found yourself in his backyard, along with Ellie and a few other friends that youâd made in Jackson. Some moonshine had been passed around, and lots of exciting stories had been exchanged. You were listening to everyone, mostly staying more on the quiet side when you realized you didnât have much to contribute to the current conversation at hand.Â
âWhat about you?â Joel was sitting on your side and leaned into your space, gently nudging your leg with his. You blinked a few times, tearing your attention away from the fire and turning it to him with a confused look on your face, âwhatâs your best camping story?â
âOh,â you grinned sheepishly as you looked around the circle and found nothing but friendly faces looking back at you. Your cheeks warmed up as you shrugged innocently, âIâve never actually been camping. So I wouldnât knowâŠ.unfortunately.â
âWhat?â Joel seemed surprised but quickly caught himself and slipped into the soft tone that he often adopted for you, âI knew there had to be something wrong with you - there had to be a flaw somewhere.â
âAnd never having been camping is my flaw?â you teased right back, unaware of the knowing smiles that were being exchanged all around.
âThatâs right,â he insisted, leaning in even closer, causing your heart to skip a few beats, âbut donât worry, there will still be time to fix that.â
âWhat a gentleman,â you down the rest of your drink, shaking your head in amusement.
âWould you look at the timeâŠâ Ellie almost jumped out of her seat, pointedly looking around the circle and motioning with her head that it was time to leave, âitâs late and weâre all tired, so weâre gonnaâŠgo.â
âAll of you at once?â Joel raised an eyebrow as he looked at the girl, knowing better than anything by this point. She nodded with narrowed eyes as everyone said their goodbyes, leaving just the two of you. Joel let out a long sigh as he leaned back in his chair and smiled at you, âvery subtle.â
Your mind started to reel with possibilities as to what he meant. You knew what you wanted him to mean, but you also werenât about to flatter yourself like that. Joel wouldnât ever like you as more than a friend, right? Right.Â
The way you looked at him with such wide, gentle eyes made him want to pull you into his lap and kiss you until there was no mistaking what he was saying. The two of you stared at each other for a few moments before you cleared your throat softly.
"I guess I should get going too," you whispered, still unmoving, "it's late."
As soon as you stood up but before you could go, you felt his fingers wrap around your wrist as he gently held you back.
You turned around to face him, neither of you speaking, just studying each other. He had lovely eyes, soft despite all the years of hardness, his lips pulled into a soft smile.
Before you could stop yourself with too much logic, you leaned in and kissed him. You wondered if it was all a huge mistake, but to your surprise, he kissed you right back. His hands found purchase on your waist and yours on his shoulders as you let him kiss youÂ
Until you came to your senses and realized what you were doing. You gasped in surprise and pulled back, looking at him worriedly as Joel dropped his hands from your waist. You blinked back the tears that had immediately threatened to well up, panicking that you had crossed any remaining boundaries that either of you had remaining.
"I-I am so sorry," you whispered, touching your lips without thinking about it, "I have to go. I'm sorry."
You were gone before Joel could even process what had just happened.Â
When he did, he hung his head and sighed heavily. He hoped he hadn't just fucked everything up.
âââ  ïœĄïŸâ: *.✠.* :âïŸ. âââ
In the following week, you werenât actively trying to avoid JoelâŠbut you were definitely making sure you werenât around whenever he was. You just had no idea how to broach the subject or if it even needed to be discussed. The idea of going up to him and saying anything made you want to curl up and wither away - it might have been dramatic but you were willing to allow yourself a little bit of theatrics.Â
ButâŠyou realized later on, Joel hadnât fought off your advances. Heâd actively kissed you back, and taken control. Maybe heâd wanted it just as much as you had. Or, or, youâd taken advantage of him, because youâd both been drinking. That made it all worse, and made your stomach churn.Â
Either way, your plan was to avoid him - if not forever - for as long as you could.
Unfortunately, Joel was a stubborn man and wasnât about to let you go without any explanations. And you werenât exactly particularly sneaky; he found you in your usual spot, perched on the window seat with a book open in your lap as you stared out the window.Â
âHey,â you startled at the sound of his voice, but turned to him with a shy smile. He approached you slowly, almost as if he was afraid that he was going to scare you off like some sort of wild animal, âfigured youâd be here.â
âWell,â you waved your hands around dismally before tucked your book away, âIâm not exactly hard to find if you know me. Iâm a creature of habit.â
âAinât nothing wrong with that,â he came over and leaned against the wall, crossing his arms over his broad chest, âI have a surprise for you.â
âO-oh, Joel,â you swallowed thickly and wondered what on earth he could possibly be referring to, âI-I donât need anythingâŠseriously.â
âI didnât get you anything technically,â ah. Joel and his little technicalities, âmore of a âweâre doing this,â type of thing.â
âAnd what is it that weâre doing?â
âCamping,â he stated with a grin as you just blinked at him in shock.
âPardon?â
âWe - you, Ellie, and I - are going camping,â he stated again as if that would clear everything up, âjust a little something Iâve been planning since youâve been avoiding me.â
âI-I have not been avoiding you,â a lie. You both knew that much, âjustâŠbusy.â
âWhatever the reason,â he insisted, âweâre goinâ camping. Weâre leaving bright and early in the morning so make sure your things are packed.â
âJoel-â
âWeâll be âround at eight,â he gave your leg a gentle pat before heading out, not letting you get a word in edgewise. This man.
You watched him go, feeling so alive and nervous at the same time, but more importantly, you were excited to go.
âââ  ïœĄïŸâ: *.✠.* :âïŸ. âââ
As it turned out, camping was a lot more fun than you thought it would be. You were pretty sure a lot of it had to do with your present company. Ellie and Joel were always fun to be around and this was no exception.
Joel had scouted out a remote but safe location near a river where you made camp. There was something rewarding about putting up your own tent and making a fire to cook your dinner on. It was definitely a welcome change; it almost made it seem like the world had never fallen apart.Â
One particular evening, Ellie had crashed early and was already in the tent sleeping. That felt you and Joel outside sitting next to the fire. When the conversation hit a natural lull, Joel stood up and walked over to his backpack. You watched him curiously, a smile dancing on your face.
"Close your eyes," he called back to you. You playfully closed your eyes and put your hands over him. He chuckled as he pulled something out of the pack before zipping it closed.
He made his way back over to you, gently placing something in your lap. You made a small sound of surprise but didn't dare to open your eyes. Instead, you waited for him to give you the go ahead.
He sat back down next to you, groaning slightly at his stiff bones. You felt him pull your hands away from your eyes, "alright, you can go ahead and open your eyes."
"Joel, you really didn't need to get me anything!" You gasped as you looked at the object in your lap, trying to hide back a squeal of delight, "Joel. This is amazing."
"You like it?" He asked, nervous as he watched you inspect the small object.Â
"Pride and Prejudice," you opened the cover and flicked through some of the gold leafed pages. It was still in impeccable condition, "oh my god, I can't believe you found this - you remembered."
ââcourse I did,â any nerves he had remaining quickly dissipated when he saw the look of pure joy on your face, âI remember a lot of things.â
âI mentioned it like one time,â you flipped through some of the pages, touching your fingers over the worn but love pages, âI canâtâŠthis is wonderful, a-and so kind. Thank you so much, Joel.â
âYou mentioned how much you used to like it,â oh no. He felt like he could melt into a puddle at how sweet you were, âand I wanted you to have it again. So Iâve been keeping my eye out for it.â
âYouâve been looking for it?â alright, you were about ready to cry at that point. He nodded, trying to make it seem like less of a big deal than it actually was, âyouâre amazing. I canâtâŠthis is one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me.â
âItâs not that big of a thing-â
âItâs everything,â you clutched the book to your chest, âthis means everything to me.â
âYou mean everything to me,â his voice was gentle. You gasp inwardly at the revelation, âI thought it was only fitting.â
You moved closer to him on the log, shifting your body so you could face him. Your eyes locked onto his; he could see the hesitation on your face and in your body language. He decided to answer your silent question by putting his hand on your face, brushing his thumb over your cheek.Â
Joel leaned in and kissed you, so quickly and delicately that you were almost convinced you might have imagined it. Judging from the expression on his face, you knew that it had definitely happened. You hadnât just dreamed it last time - he wanted this too. You leaned into him and pressed a few more kisses to his lips, the two of you lingered but neither of you pushing.Â
âThereâs something I have to ask you,â he tucked a few stray locks of hair behind your hair as you felt your face grow warm again. The effect he had on you was palpable.Â
âAnything.â
âWill you read to me?â the way the smile on your face was intoxicating and Joel was hooked, âIâve never read Pride and Prejudice.â
âShocker,â you teased softly, âare you sure though?â
âPositive,â he promised as he took your hand and led you over to the nest of warm blankets that were near the fire, ânothing would make me happier.â
âOkay,â you made yourself comfortable and pulled out the book, âget comfy and letâs get started.â
âOkay.â
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y/n.y/l/n
brbâŠtrying to pause time so this summer never ends.
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trevorzegras let me know how that goes for you
jackhughes is it really summer if y/n doesnât fail at wakeboarding?
lhughes_06 laugh out loud
_quinnhughes I took every one of these photos. Youâre welcome.
y/n.y/l/n not the first one, quinniferđ«¶
_quinnhughes thatâs not my name
_alexturcotte who you sneaking off withđ
y/n.y/l/n thatâs for me to know, and for you to never find outđ
nicohischier You showed this Swiss how to properly summerđ«Ą
y/n.y/l/n I enjoyed every minute of itđ
colecaufield Iâm fairly positive that you stared at him for half the summer
y/n.y/l/n liesđ€ș
_alexturcotte I have so many photos of her doing just that, actually
nicohischier
Spent a few weeks with the Americans this summer, and they didnât disappoint.
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y/n.y/l/n bff
jackhughes heâs mine, back off
y/n.y/l/n in your dreams child
nicohischier I love you both equally!
_alexturcotte I donât think itâs the same type of love budâŠ
y/n.y/l/n one like on this comment and Iâll block turcs
trevorzegras nobody ships y/n and Nico harder than turcs
lhughes_06 pretty sure y/n ships them harderđ
colecaufield can I be you when I grow up?
jackhughes youâre stealing all my friends Nico
y/n.y/l/n because you are about as interesting as wet cardboard
_quinnhughes đ€Šââïž
trevorzegras damn she got you theređ
jackhughes I hate you all
jackhughes
Since Y/N wants to play gamesâŠ.looks like Mr. Hischier will be off the market soon. Your welcome, fangirls.
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y/n.y/l/n Iâm telling Ellen that you buy luke alcohol if you donât delete this.
jackhughes is that a threat?
y/n.y/l/n why donât you try me?
lhughes_06 Now what did I ever do to youâčïž
_alexturcotte I would just like for it to be known by the public that this was 100% Jackâs idea and I had nothing to do with it. please donât block me y/n <3
y/n.y/l/n Iâll think about itâŠ
colecaufield mom and dad
_quinnhughes *youâre
nicohischier sheâs a little cutie, isnât she hughesyđ
trevorzegras I just threw up in my mouth a little bit
_quinnhughes did you choke and die?
trevorzegras you would wanna know if I choke, wouldnât youđ
y/n.y/l/n well this is a plot twistâŠ
jamie.drysdale am I being cheated on?
trevorzegras no, jamie baby.
jackhughes get out of my comments.
y/n.y/l/n
I heart nico hischier
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_alexturcotte itâs about damn time.
jackhughes ngl, this is cute. Better leave room for Jesus thoughâŠ.
y/n.y/l/n arenât you Jewish?
_quinnhughes đ¶
lhughes_06 pretty sure I lose brain cells every time I see Jack comment something on insta
nicohischier my lovely girlđ
colecaufield Trevor owes me 50 bucks.
trevorzegras I donât owe you shit
trevorzegras you both will make beautiful babies. That is all.
njdevils Our captain is growing up!
Disclaimer: these are not my photos, also this was very time consuming. It was fun though. Thank you for reading as always :)
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Round 1
Propaganda Under Cut
Allura
Lots of people (myself included tbh) ship klance (Keith and Lance). In s8 the creators made Allura/Lance canon (but then they killed her off and left the ending ambiguous it was weird). Anyway the fandom treats her like she's the most terrible bitchy woman ever but all she wants to do is end the war and avenge her destroyed home planet. Yeah she wasn't always the nicest or always the best, but you could argue some other characters in the show aren't either and they aren't treated near as bad as allura. people really just hate her bc Lance liked her. I don't think allura/lance are good together, but I still liked her as a character and thought she was interesting and had a lot of growth during the show. she DEF is not evil like some people portray her as in fic or talk about her in captions on posts. I've seen people say that they HATE her and that she's the worst and I'm like ??? let her live (well sort of ig she is dead now). lots of fic writers use her as the villain which is so interesting to me bc the show literally has villains like use them. anyway allura so perfectly fits the bracket description she deserves better.
I hate to acknowledge my time in this fandom but I hate the way the fandom treated her more. Allura was treated like shit no matter what side of the Great Ship War you were on because she was always a threat to the biggest ships (klance and sheith). At best she got put into Background Lesbian or Consolation Prize Shallura (Space Mom-zoned) (She was not a motherly figure btw. She was just Black). At worst she was violently demonized for being ~racist~ (kinda not cool with the alien race that blew up her planet for a few episodes), complete with misogynistic language hurled at her (she got called a bitch sooo much). Allura was a good and cool character and the show did her dirty but the fandom was somehow worse.
i apologise for speaking the dark magicks, but amidst the voltron fandoms many, many transgressions, there were a particular subset of people who just hated this girl. the infamous klance wars of the 2010s kept this perfectly fine childrens cartoon character in the sights of shippers everywhere, and she (and her voice actress im sure) were subjected to years of petty squabble blown up to global perportions. ive seen hate, ive seen rants, ive seen fanfics that made her homophobic. girls been through the ringer, and even though voltron was never the show its fandom wanted it to be, i believe allura deserved better
Kayano Kaede
shes genuinely a really tragic character who had potential for a really compelling, effective arc concerning grief, identity, healing, and finding trust again all while going through the inherent ordeal of being 15 years oldâŠ.if she werent a female character in a shonen anime đđ instead she gets sidelined during the show up until her big plot twist reveal after which shes immediately sidelined again. whatever i still love her and know her to be a character of all time who has suffered more than jesus. in my experience shes perhaps the female character who like. ive seen most *obsessively* hated due to her âgetting in the wayâ of the ship b/w the male protagonist + deuteragonist (bc of her proximity to the both of them) u woild think shes the devil incarnate and not just. 15 and traumatisedÂ
She had a crush on Nagisa and they kissed and a lot of fans ship him with Karma so theyre mad that Kaede is there. She is super silly and nice but the fandom hates her for standing in the way of karmagisa.
she's a sweet person that was an actor and loves her sister. she is the main love interest of the main character but doesn't interact with him more than most of the other characters for a majority of the story. Often I have seen them removed from the story only to become some homophobic jerk that's desperate for the main characters love instead of letting her keep the good friendship that her and the main character had before the romance.
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i was wondering if request were open if it is i would like to request for luxiem angst to fluff (separately) where the reader overworks themselves to the point where their mental & physical health r really bad then like luxiem steps in and like try to like stop u which leads to an argument then uh fluff u can add plot twists if u like !! ( im sorry if u dont understand đ)
Only if ur request r open!! If not feel free to ignore!!
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hi đĄ!! nice to see you back here!!
| warnings: shuâs is a bit suggestive
As soon as Vox had come home, he saw you still working on that goddamn outfit.
See, you were Lucaâs mama. You designed all his outfits, his hair, everything.
Right now, you were working on making him the scariest mafia boss this godforsaken world has seen.
But if you spend even a second longer working on that stupid outfit, he was going to rip you to pieces.
You deserve more than just sitting at your desk, sketching, sewing, and even knitting now and then.
And he was going to see it through that you did get more than that!
âY/N, hey, lets go to bed, yeah? Itâs midnight already, love,â he smiles at you with that charm, the one you canât say no to.
However, tonight was different.
Tonight was dedicated to work.
âLove, come on⊠please?â Milord was practically begging by now.
And who were you to say no to this handsome devil?
When you (reluctantly) agreed, he scooped you up in his arms and practically threw you on the bed before laying his head on top of your stomach, finally basking in the peace surrounding you two.
Mysta frowned.
Youâd been streaming over half of the dayâŠ
What has it been now..?
He checks the time on his phone.
Eleven hours.
Eleven hours you have spent staring into a screen and simply daring to dream.
Eleven hours you have spent narrating god knows what and making stupid commentary.
Well Mysta wasnât having it!
Not only was it bad for you, it was bad for him to go this long without kisses.
Mysta texts you to come to the living room, saying he had something important to say and it couldnât wait until after stream.
After a few minutes explaining to chat that âyour food had arrivedâ you made your way out into the living room.
âYes, Mysta?â
âEnd stream.â
âHuh- what? Mysta, no. I have to keep going, theyâre expecting me to.â You deject with a small smile, insisting that you had to keep going.
âY/N, they donât expect anything from you. Youâre their entertainment, not their friend. And frankly, youâre my ____friend and I think I rank higher, hm?â
Ike couldnât say much.
He was just as bad as you when it comes to this, but his own tendencies be damned.
He was going to make you take better care of yourself.
Was.
It wasnât to be taken lightly.
He slowly opens your office door, looking at you hunched over your desk and taking notes about god knows what, your hands shaking and your mechanical pencil almost out of lead after having using it for over five hours straight.
As soon as he had caught your attention, without sharing any words, he swept you up into his arms and held you for what felt like forever, but in reality had only been a few minutes.
(oh god im running out of ideas)
Luca hated every second of this; he hated seeing you so overworked, hated seeing you stressed⊠he just hated it all.
So,
He did the only thing that made sense.
He offered his hand to you and gave you a charming grin.
"Wanna dance?"
You look at him, horrified.
âWe are not dancing, Luca.â
The golden retriever-like man pouts, crossing his arms.
âWhy not, baby?â He asks with a pout.
You look up from your computer and look at him with a small smile.
You were so tired and you were sure you looked awful but his sweet smile and puppy dog eyes got to you.
You take his hand.
"Well, you got me, now. I can't say no to you. But we're gonna get some food and I'm not changing into a dress."
The man beams, happy that he'd gotten his way.
And with that, Luca takes your hand and immediately brings you in for your first dance of the night.
It's slow, soft and romantic, and honestly, the two of you can't take your eyes off each other.
"I missed this, baby," he whispers.
Luca pulls you close to him as the two of you sway in place.
"Me too,â you whisper back.
You lay your head against his chest and feel your stress and exhaustion melt away.
This moment was worth everything.
"You're beautiful." He says softly, kissing the top of your head.
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Shu loves that you love work, but by God if you spend another minute at that desk he was going to go insane.
"You know I'm a simple man," he says. "all I need is a little food and a little sun, and the rest of my needs are met."
He's laying out the blanket for the afternoon.
"And if you keep this up, my food and sun time is going to be at night."
You sigh, stretching out your back. You'd been at your desk all day, trying to figure out the final parts of the puzzle to the latest quest you've been given.
The strong mafia boss himself had come to you, begging you to complete this mission and find his missing son, and the people were starting to get nervous as he had been missing for a few days.
"I'm sorry," you sigh. "I know I've been at this forever."
"It's been nearly two hours," Shu snarls.
"Sorry, sorry," you sigh. "I can tell it's getting on your nerves." You stand up and stretch out, then smile at him. "What should we do this afternoon?"
Shu's lips twitch and curl. "It's too late to go to the beach now," he says. "And honestly, the weather looks pretty bad. I was thinking, though," he smirks at you. "Since it's our first anniversary, and I was thinking, well," he motions to the blanket.
You immediately go red, lightly smacking his arm.
âShu!â
He chuckles.
âKidding, kidding.â He wraps his arms around you and holds you fast. "Seriously though," he murmurs. "Happy anniversary, babe."
You melt and smile, holding onto his face. "I love you."
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Supernatural season 14
Oh boy!
So Alt-Michael has taken over Deanâs body and absconded to parts unknown - what an unprecedented plot twist who couldâve possibly seen this coming, certainly not Dean, the one guy who doesnât trust angels and has a history of being short-sighted & making shitty deals.
Since this is season 14, and thereâs only 1 more season after this, I presume Dean will never grow out of these bad qualities đ€ŠđŸââïž, soâŠmoving on.
Check you out Sam, leading your new band of hunters, like some sort of Hunters Incorporated©ïž. Iâm glad Sam gets to spend more time with his mom, but he wonât let her take care of him đđ
Was it me or did that Michael & Anael scene feel like Jensen x Danneel role play đ€Ł - at least when he caressed her face. Like really bro? I donât think the scene wouldâve played out that way if the actors werenât actual husband and wife đ€Ł
Shoutout to Supernatural for keeping Mark Pellegrino employed lol đđ cuz I donât see Why the fuck heâs still around if the devil is supposedly dead - wasnât Mark P. also doing 13 reasons why around this time?? Anywho, Nick, luciâs longtime vessel, isnât dead???? What does Nick have that jimmy novak didnât (or literally any other angel vessel for that matter) â plot convenience? That must be it đ€Łđ€Łđ€Ł
Cas honey, why are you letting these demons beat you up? Cuz Dean is gone on your watch? cuz im sorry thereâs no way im believing Cas was weaker than all them demons. Thatâs also plot convenience IDGAF!
After yet another demon-hunter showdown, Mary and Bobby are spotted sharing a beer & flirtingâŠI wish John were around to see this AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Oh Jack, poor guy feels worthless for having no power. He shouldâve been like âCastiel whatâs it like being worthless?â since that was Castielâs arc for a minute too, which again fuck Supernatural for. Cas had like 1 badass moment last season when he fried Donatelloâs brains but thatâs it. Meanwhile Nick totally called Cas out, bringing up Jimmy again and driving that guilt straight into Castiel.
Alt-Michael is recruiting?? Brief Dean cameo in 14x02, you give him like 2 lines, wow đ. Even Sam got more screen time in 5x22 swan songâŠbut Dean suddenly comes back at the end of the episode???? Nah, bullshit!
Also lol karma for Dean in 14x02 when Jack is like, âDean doesnât matterâ, Michael has to be stopped. Ahahahahahahaha. He was the so called pragmatist when it came to Jack, now itâs Jackâs turn. Castielâs face when jack said it thoâŠ
Dean got stabbed by AU Kaia? What?? Oh look yet another instance of Dean running away from his problems and pain and being a dick to Kaia (though she's technically a different person) again! Good for you tho AU Kaia for giving Dean a taste of his own medicine and telling him off.
Bobby leave Sam alone, Iâm here for his captain my captain era. The lovable giant is doing his best!
So some necromancer gets away from Jack & Dean but weâre not gonna see her again, right??? Thereâs just a little over 30 episodes left in the show at this point. They probably didnât know that at the time though.
Shoutout to the devil for basically condemning his child to die from a lack of grace :/ while Cas was able to survive (cuz plot convenience most likely) Jack as a nephilim was unable to do so. Gabeâs spare angel grace couldnât help (I wonder if he were still alive in canon, if it wouldâve made a difference. Oh well).
So this is where Cas made the deal with the empty (yes I know about it, how doesnât everyone that shit went viral the very night it originally aired amidst the infamous nail-biting 2020 election week), tumblr is still serving the memes to this day.
Cas doesnât want the Winchesters to know cuz Dean đ idc, if I was Jack I would NOT keep that secret. Dean would know IMMEDIATELY.
I think more angels died, but heaven hasnât fallen yetâŠright? They keep coming back to that. HmâŠ
Nickâs arc isâŠbleh. Pretty sure in his desperation he just brought Luci back from the emptyâŠwelp. I guess when youâre an archangel who was predestined by God to fight in a fateful epic battle against your big bro, you just get certain perks in the afterlife đ
Sam doesnât want Alt-Charlie to go when its like bro! She. Is. Not. Charlie!!! For fuck sake guys SMH, let her live her fucking life! God forbid she want to run away to fucking safety and not die bloody like her counterpart đ€Ź
Bobby and Mary run off to a cabin for weeks on end đđ to recuperate, sure Mary đ€Ł
Garth is back! Working as a spy for the Winchesters, oh dear Lord no. I know he makes it to season 15 but maaaan I don't like thisâŠ.
The nerve of Dean to challenge Alt-Kaia to either hand over the weapon or kill her. What if she just killed him? Also, can't they just replicate the weapon for their own uses? All they would need to do is ensure they're using the same materials Kaia did when she forged the weapon in her own world.
How many hits to the head is Sam supposed to fuckin' take? I feel like it's happened more in this season alone than the entire show so far? He should probably be dead at this point đ€Ł
Jack got taken, oh no! why didn't Michael kill him? To take him as a ward? Seriously? Whatever.
And it turns out the past episode was a long con to get Dean right where Alt-Michael wanted him. I know there was a catch to him letting Dean go in 14x02.
So Alt-Michael chose to trap Dean inâŠcontentment? With Pamela Barnes? And they weren't even a couple, just friends. She called him out on something.
Why not have him be with a real girlfriend of his, like Lisa or even Cassie? Iâm supposed to believe Dean's dream is an unsuccessful bar living out his days with a platonic lady friend??? Really??? Bullshit!
John returns for the final time to go back to 2003? Okay. His hair is cut and grayish. Lol so Iâm gonna see that as John gained some weight (from food/drink or muscle training idc) and dyes his hair black but the root are grey and come out every so often đ€Ł but yay JDM I wish you had been in more episodes! Oh well.
So no oneâs gonna talk about:
a) Adamâs existence
b) Bobby X Mary or how Bobby essentially replaced john as the father/husband by getting involved with Mary AND being a surrogate father to Sam & Dean (with a clear preference to Dean but whatever)
Iâd care more about Sam & Johnâs convo if we had more time with them together on screen. But it was nice to see them squash their beef.
Dean & Johnâs convo was faaaar too brief. But insightful to their relationship. John wanted dean to have a family, echoing his wishes for his eldest in season 1 in his convo w/ Sam.
But Dean was like I have a family đ„ș my emotions!
Back to the Michael bullshit â a fight with a gorgon fucked up his containment so he literally broke out of Dean's body and killed all the hunters who were conveniently at the bunker when they brought an unconscious Dean back there. Even poor unfortunate Maggie. For a second I thought Mary would be there since Maggie mentioned she was on her way back but no, he ended up possessing Rowena.
Then they bring the old angel torture device of disabling our heroes' ability to breathe, like in the season 5 premiere, making them blind (that's new) and making them hurt.
Jack gets his chance to take Michael down, and takes his grace??????
Oh Sam bby, it's not your fault. Those people were doomed no matter what. TBH I'm surprised they lasted this long. But cuz he's a Winchester and he was raised by Dean & they've rubbed off each other too much at this point (nobromo), he decides to focus on yet another case even when Dean himself isn't willing since big bro has pointed out they have done 3 cases back to back. They're not the young men they used to be lol.
Cas goes with Sam to a milkshake town and given his legendary levels of awkwardness he's immediately seen and called out for his inherent queerness by the townsfolk (in all senses of the word).
Aw Sam wants to stay, ofc he does. This town is simple and peaceful. He could use some of that. Too bad this place is making people's heads explode.
This is why we can't have nice things.
Ah subtle there Supernatural, making Jack, a Nephilim who's the offspring of the devil himself choose between angel and devil food cake đ€Ł Dean why would you put him in that position?
Cas why you gotta be snitching on Sam to your boy bestie like that đ€Ł â typical boyfriend tomfoolery
Oftentimes since Jack started in this show, he's felt like an intern and 14x16 is one of those times. They don't wanna bring jack along so they think to leave him alone doing chores. Good Lord.
Oh honey Sam you didn't have to tell the sheriff you're not FBI, just stick to the monster stuff. He knows what's up.
And Jack sweetie pie you don't need to impress those kids. He should be hanging out with kids his own age. Just Jack with a bunch of babies đ€Ł. So cute! My headcanon is that he can actually talk to them. At least then it wouldn't have ended with a stabbing. Thankfully he cleaned up his mess, even though the local kids are terrified of him. Itâs a shame he doesnât have friends. If only he was allowed to have Claire in his life.
They finally resolved the Nick storyline (I hope) by killing him off via Jack but Mary is not happy. Sheâs concerned. Sheâs been concerned about him the whole frickin episode since he sassed her as they tried setting up a game night with Dean.
Itâs like these people keep forgetting what Jack is capable of.
He didnât have to relish the kill though. On the other hand, it felt like Maryâs concern was a bit much â if it were me I wouldâve kept my mouth shut as to not upset a powerful fledging being into killing me by accident.
So Mary diesâŠagain.
This is also why we canât have nice things. I know Deanâs never gonna let this shit go. Sure Cas has fucked up a bunch, but killing a direct blood relative of DeanâsâŠnope. Thatâs unforgivable. I know theyâre not gonna let Dean kill off a kid but I know heâs NEVER ever gonna forget Jackâs role in Maryâs (second) demise.
Why couldnât you leave the boy alone Mary?!?!?!!?!
The boys show up, did they not circle back to pick up their mother? Seriously? Goodness Lord. So depressing watching the brothers just assuming their mommyâs coming back đ
Cas (cuz of course this shit went tits up while Daddy was away) calls Dean to get caught up on what happened the last episode and is concerned that the Winchesters left their mom alone with Jack. Then why did you leave him Cas? You couldâve taken him with you. Like it wouldâve been better if one of the brothers was alone with Jack? Badasses they may be, but they wouldâve ended up just like Mary letâs be honest. The only difference wouldâve been whichever brother got got wouldâve come back. Mary will not be getting that special treatmentâŠ
Jack is tripping out since he murdered his foster G-maw - ends up flying all over the world (so his soul is definitely gone? But if it were gone, would he even care about killing Mary? everyoneâs trying to track him down IDK why he doesnât just destroy the phone he has. We get flashes of Mary & Jackâs time together and technically I believe she spent the most time with him (at least in season 13)
Theyâre still giving Mark P work on this show making him the manifestation of Jackâs subconscious cuz the kill is driving Jack insane đđ„ș Heâs reacting so much like a little boy who knows he fucked up it that makes this so much sadder đ Jackâs being driven mad with grief.
Oh fuck theyâre going to where she died. Oh fuck.
WTF is wrong with these people! Heâs a fucking boy! A super power nuke of a boy, but still a fucking boy! Like the Winchesters never made a mistake! What about the nurse who got killed in 4x22 by Sam? All the people Dean slaughtered under the MoC, as a demon! Thatâs just off the top of my head! No but cuz theyâre the fucking protagonists đĄđ€Ź
Samuel Winchester you know manipulating this child Is 5 different kinds of fucked up!
Jack why did you call it an accident! Did you not want to use the words murder? Destroyed? Obliterated?
Dean you piece of shit, why are you lying to this boy!!!!!! You know Jackâs desperate to make peace with you, and you lead him to a grave heâs never supposed to escape?! Poor thing Jack was sooo scared!
Sam, the regret is gonna eat you alive! Sam, for fucks sake, SPEAK THE FUCK UP! You clearly got shit you wanna say, fucking say it!
Dean youâre surprised Jackâs going along with it?! Of course heâs gonna go along with it, he wants to please you, you shady, manipulative BASTARD!
Thatâs right Castiel stand up for Jack since nobody else is willing to!
Oh boy, the celestial boy is freaking out. Claustrophobia was kicking in, this shit ainât gonna end well. Itâs a dark day when a psychological manifestation of Satan is making sense more than everyone else.
Iâm not surprised Jack got out though. That box was made for an archangel and he isnât that. Heâs a nephilim, technically a different entity, right? now, the Winchesters have a pissed off mega-powerful creature on their hands. Great job team đ€Ł
thatâs right Jack, give them a piece of your fucking mind! Fuck âem up queen.
Oh shit! Iâve watched this part a dozen times on YouTube, the part where jack makes the whole world tell the truth no matter what! Donald trump is canonically Crowleyâs bitch! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
All hail the stapler queen! Iconic!
And God reveals Himself, what grand timing! He says He came for Casâs prayer (but Cas prayed to Him in season 6 too, no?) but then He states the real reason for His arrival â Jack.
Meanwhile Jack went to see his real G-maw, not a good plan Jackie boy. Sheâs put 2+2 together that her daughter Kelly is NOT ok and now Jack has to confess the truth. (Whereâs the dad? Was the actor unavailable or dead at this point?)
Sam was outed to love Celine Dion (I love her two Sammy itâs ok, her songs are AMAZING! My favorite is itâs all coming back to me now, I crush that shit in karaoke.) Dean follows a mommy blog đ€Ł of course he does, probably cuz he identifies with her more & loves that her life is so full of shit (like I said, he identifies with her).
God donât sanction lying, the real God would never do such a thing. Isnât it like the 6th commandment, thou shall not lie? Like dude, the fuck?!
And no, writing means telling stories that are often made up but itâs not meant to deceive anybody. But Hollywood on the other handâŠyeesh.
Dean breaking Chuckâs guitar đ€Ł
Chuck saying âDONâT!â Having Dean shook đ€Ł
Why are you asking them how things are, like you donât know?! Youâre omnipotent!
They canonically made the British queen a lizard? Damn. These old Americans (the writers) are dicks!
Finally Sam is speaking up! Thank God!
Dean stop blaming people, Jesus, it was an accident (Jack you phrased it sooooo poorly though)! shout out to Sam for taking it this so well cuz heâs been through too much this season alone. He lost a whole fucking army, then his mom after he got to know her this time! And the concussions! So many concussions.
Angry Cas is sooooo fucking hot đ„” when he slammed that truck with his fist đ
Awww the first thing he does when he sees Jack is hugs him. Jack needed that so bad!
The biggest travesty is we never got to see the SquirrelVerse!
When Sam asks if God is watching them â Sam do you even know what omnipotent means?!
Itâs just like I said in season 11. God doesnât owe anyone anything. But everyone owes Him everything. He gave everyone the freedom to choose, for better or worse. But this iteration of who God is seems to watch what people and creatures decide to do with their lives. He made the weapon to see who among Sam, Dean or Cas would take it and strike Jack down.
So ultimately when Dean tracks Jack down and Jack throws Cas into a tombstone and Sam is running dramatically to stop it, Dean ultimately decides not to kill Jack. But why though? He kept talking shit about how Jack needed to be dealt with, but when the moment comes, he wonât do it?! I mean Iâm glad but it doesnât really make sense?!
Was it the puppy eyes? Did Sam teach Jack that trick? But Jack closed his eyes at the last second???
Oh Dean, youâre such a fucking softie. Thatâs on you God. You made him softer than Mr. Pillsberry.
If anything, Dean is the step daddy. Cas is Daddy. And then thereâs Uncle Sam đ€Ł
Sam is many things, but stupid is never one of them. NaĂŻve maybe, trusting, desperate. But not stupid. And not crazy, this time đ€Ł
I will say what makes this story compelling is the fact that the Winchesters find themselves locked in a cycle of violence at the hands of their Creator, and theyâre refusing to commit further acts of violence in effort to stop it all and rebel against their cruel, dispassionate maker. But they have no means to back it upâŠtoday.
Not the Burger King catchphraseđ€Łđ€Łđ€Ł
Not Jack beingâŠsmote?
Not Dean being yeeted into another tombstone?
Sam, why did you think that was gonna work on God? He made the weapon. You really think Heâd make something that could kill Himself? Nah bruh.
So weâve approached the ending of the penultimate season. 20 more episodes to go! Ah!!!! Iâm excited but also not since the ending is what I know (mildly).
Side note - Sam & Dean still donât know about Castielâs bargain with the Empty (kinda seems pointless since God killed Jack anywayâŠCas basically fucked himself for nothing đ€ŠđŸââïž [I know how it ends but yeah still])
Itâs not about the destination though, itâs the journey (I keep telling myself that).
God said fuck yâall. Shouldnâtâve poked the bearâŠnow these poor innocent people gonna die like sheep to the slaughter. Yâall got a lot of cleaning up to do and with so little people to help you.
So did God undo all the killings the Winchesters did? Cuz damnâŠ.thatâs 10+ years of work undone. In 1 moment.
Theyâre not getting out of the cycle anytime soon.
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âšMimiKitty's 2023 Fic Wrappedâš
So as a fun activity my friends all decided to make a 2023 wrapped ppt! So I decided to make one for all the fics I read in 2023! (I didnt get to present it btw lol)
I put what I decided to be my top fics for each month! Whether it be because of amazing writing, gut wrenching angst, sickeningly cute fluff or nastiest smut I decided to put it as my favorite fic for that month!
NOTE: Some of these were not exactly written/published in the month that I put them in but it was when I read and/or reblogged it!
Now without any further ado! Here is my 2023 Fic wrapped!
January
Happiness by @end-hyphen
Why is painter hoon so attractive???? đ The angst in this fic is SO GOOD! Its just really memorable and I love the ending too! ALSO THE PLOT TWISTS?!?! I was gagged yo. I was gripping my phone when I was reading this!!! It's just a really beautiful well written fic! Loooove it so much!!
February
In Another Life by @httphannie
First of all the smut was great!! Loved it! But maaann THE ANGST THROUGH OUT THE WHOLE FIC IS SO GOOD!! The ending is one of the most tear jerking, gut wrenching, heart breaking, soul crushing endings I've ever read. SEUNGCHEOL!! YOU SHOULD'VE JUST FUCKIN ESCAPED PLEASEEEE! I remember BAWLING when I first read it, and âšsurprise surpriseâš I cried again just recently when I reread it again. Its so beautifully written, I get every emotion thats poured into this fic and the story itself is so good and unique in a way I just love it! (also kinda funny but love how this is the only SVT fic that made it on this list đđđ)
March
More than This by @heesbaby
KITTY JAY!!!!!!!!!!!
Thats all.
But in all seriousness, this is a wonderful smau!! I loved every bit of it!! Its so cute and soft! Jay is so BABY KITTY đ„čđ„čđ„č I love him to bits! And the funny parts are also so funny! The smut is also good but to me its also so cute too! ALSO THE ANTAGONIST MAKES ME WANT TO COMMIT ARSON HOW DARE SHE HURT MY PRETTY BBY JAY!!! But when a fic gets me reacting like that you know its good! Overall an amazing smau! Love love!
April
The Archer and His Queen by @forjongseong
ARCHER JAY GOT ME ACTING UP DUDEEEE!!! The thought its so hot but you wanna know whats hotter??? HOW RESPECTFUL HE IS THROUGH OUT THIS FIC!! He truly respects his Queen and then truly falls in love with her?!? I CANNOT! Also I like how unique it is! In a way that Jay isn't a knight, not a prince, not a king, not just like a commoner, but an archer. Idk I just like how different it is, how often is it to have the love interest be an archer? (I'm sure pretty common but I rarely see it hehe) plus.. again, thats hot đ„° The smut is so gooooood!! and the ending is adorable!
May
Ship Happens by @/tfwheeseung
MERMAID JAKE!!!!! Like. MERMAID! JAKE!! Now this story, I don't think any of you can read it anymore? as tfwheeseung (lily) has deactivated. So thats a shame, but if theres a way you can read it please do!! Its so cute and so funny! Jake is like a mermaid pup combined he's adorable here!! HE JUST WANTED TO CATCH YOU A FISH!!! How adorable is that?! Its just a simple and adorable fic that I cant stop giggling about every time I think about it!
June
Angels Like You by @ham-st4r
OH THIS ONE IS SOOOOOOO GOOOOOD!! DUDE THE HEART BREAK I FELT FOR HEESEUNG IN THIS FIC AAAAAAA!!
âI believed that you had changed, I really did,â // âI gave you my heartâ // "I trusted you with my body,â //âI-I loved youâ
Heart breaking dude đđđ Like how dare the reader break this soft boys heart!! BUT THE ENDING IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!! LIKE AAAA!! I shed some tears!! Overall I truly absolutely adooooree this fic!!! Plus reading it while listening to the song makes you cry harder đ
July
Hype Boy by @onlyjaeyun
DOMESTIC JAKE!!! Bro Jakes backstory man đđđ I've never heard of anything sadder like I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM AND HIS ADORABLE AND ANGEL OF A BABY BROTHER! I adore the Sim brothers so much and I will do anything I can to protect them AAAAAAAAAA!!!! Hype Boy is such an adorable and sad smau but it ends so beautifully! Jake has an amazing support system in this smau and just the love he has for his baby brother and the reader is unmatched I love love love!!
August
Rule Number 1: Don't Fall in Love by @jaylaxies
Dude idk why I love fake dating tropes, especially when its to get revenge! So I was hooked from the beginning!!! So HAHAHAH GET FUCKED HOON! Jake is SUCH A GREEN FLAG THROUGH OUT THIS ENTIRE THING ITS GORGEOUS TO READ!!!! Also Undercut Jake?!?!? đ€ yes pleaseeeeee!! also this one?? the smut?? oh yeah it is NASSTYYYYY IN A GOOD WAY AND I LOVE THATT!! But the aftercare is just perfect!! This is a reaaaalllyy good fic that I always find myself constantly rereading!
September
Poison by @onlyjaeyun
Oh wow another onlyjaeyun smau??? well duh when this on is just AN ABSOLUTE MASTERPIECE!!!! LIKE OOOHH MY GOD IS THIS ONE AMAZING! Like heeseung is so... AKJSJS I HAVE NO WORDS đ The fact he actually gets off on the readers pleasure??? HOT BRO. And how can I not put this as the best thing I read during september when it has lines like THIS:
"I've never wanted anyone as much as I want you, princess" // "I just can't break this promise, Sunghoon is my everything",
"and what about me? What am I to you?"
"My most precious treasure."
Do I need to explain further??? Yeah. I thought so đ
October
Come Back to Me by @enhaheeseung
This entire series was a rollercoaster of a read. Like the way I went from "FUCK YOU HEESEUNG!" to "NO WAIT TAKE HIM BACK" to "YES GO HEESEUNG GO!!" to "HEESEUNG YOU DICKHEADDD" to "Oh god you poor thing" to "Omg yay! theyre together đ„°" is absolutely amazing!! As this was a series, every time I saw a notification for the next part of this fic showed up I immeeeediately read it! Caused me to be late for work a couple of times but it was worth it đđđđ. It's written really well! I just love this story and how it makes my heart clench and have me at the edge of my seat! Just amazing!
November
Verboten by @heesbaby
YES. JUST AN ABSOLUTE YES!! This smau is SO FRICKIN GOOD! Daddy Heeseung?? like duh yes please! But even before then reader got to play around with 02z đ€đ€đ€đ€ so that was fun! and what made me love this one so much was also HOW FUNNY IT IS??? Like Cinna I don't think we give you enough credit youre like- SO FUNNY?? How you even thought of having Niki doxx Jake I'll never know but it's just so funny and I'll forever laugh at that thought. But this smau is also just so frickin fluffy at times! the relationship heeseung has with the reader is so fucking healthy, I'm actually jealous. I loved this smau very very much!
December
Strictly Business by @onlyjaeyun
And a surprise to absolutely no one!!! Of course Zadie's third smau had to be on here! NOT MY FAULT SHE MAKES AMAZING STORIES!!! Plus Jay??? as a CEO??? WHAT CAN BE HOTTERRRRR?!?! Of course it's automatically my favorite!!! But besides that Jay is just... so amazing!! He'll literally do ANYTHING for the reader and thats so fucking endearing! My mans in love your honor! We love a rich man who's in love! Find me a man like that please! Besides that the smut is amazing yo, and the ddlg parts đ€đ„°đ€đ„° got me kicking my feet and twirling my hair bro!! It's really no surprise how amazing this one is! especially with how sweet and amazing everyone is (besides some of the antagonists of course!) 100000/10 smau! truly!
And that was my 2023 fic wrapped!!! Also Honorable mentions to these specific creators and fics cause I also REALLY LOVED THEM! I just had to mention them:
@ham-st4r for Wrong Doings
@enhaheeseung for Nobodies
@strzlun for Midnight
@yunjardi for Double Trouble
@luvyeni for Forever and Always
@shanbinswf for Brand New Moves
@yeonjunszn for So Sick
@kitten4sannie for Space in Between
@yoursjaeyun for Endless Love
Thank you to everyone who wrote all these amazing stories! You all really make my days better! I hope you all continue to write for 2024!! I also wish 2024 will be kinder to you! Love you all! đ
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Decided to do a Tokyo Revengers gcđ, hope you like it.
Desc: Smiley accidentally spills readers crush so now she's pissed.
Chaotic GC
Mikey: Hey everyone
Ran: Hey Mickeyâšđ
Mikey: It's Mikey, not Mickeyđ
Ran: I know, just wanna get on your nerves đ
Draken: You just had to, didn't you, Haitani? đ
Ran: Leave me alone đ€
Smiley: Has anyone talked to Y/N-chan since my slip up? đ
Mikey: You fucked up big time.
Emma: Fr, fucking dumbass đ
Y/N: Guys!!! đ
Smiley: Y/N-chan!!! đđ
Y/N: Don't you dare, I will end youđ
Mikey: Dayumđ
Draken: She mad, good job brođ
Y/N: You have no idea what you made me go through đđ
Emma: Utter humiliation?
Ran: Total disgrace?
Y/N: Precisely, gold star for you bothđâš
Ran: I'll cherish it forever đ
Y/N: I even lost my phone đ
Rindou: How is that his fault? đ
Y/N: Story time Mfsđđ
Chifuyu: Oh oh, start with once upon a time.
Y/N: It's quite long so.... Yh.... Once upon time, there lived a blabber mouth, called Nahoya, who couldn't keep his mouth shut and blabbed an unnecessary information about girl named Y/N.
Mikey: We know this partđ
Y/N: HushđȘ. Anyway, to sum it up, I went for a walk, yada yada yada, I met Inupi and Koko having such an adorable date đđâšâšâš
Mikey: Ewwwđ
Y/N: Inupi terrified me, but Koko was really nice and took me shopping.
Koko: Ya welcome đđ
Y/N: So in the process, my phone went missing. That is the end of my storyđȘđȘđȘ
Draken: So wtf are u chatting withđ?
Y/N: Turns out it was with Koko, my mum called it, he answered and he dropped it over at my house.
Ran: Hold up, he knows your house now? đ
Koko: Indeed I dođâš
Chifuyu: So how much you want, Koko? đ
Mikey: Aren't you broke? đ
Chifuyu: Nođ
Mikey:But when I asked you to buy me dorayaki, you said you were brokeđđđđ
Chifuyu: That was thenđ besides, Y/N is a girlđ
Smiley: Wanna get a makeover, Mikey? đ
Mikey: Yes I do, that's gender inequality right there đđđ
Taiju: Do you idiots realize how late it isđ?
Y/N: Oh shit.....
*Y/N has left the group*
Mikey: She left? đđđ
Rindou: Your fault, Smileyđ
Smiley: I apologized đ
Emma: No you didn't đ¶
Shinichiro: You're all noisy, for fucks sake go to bedđ
Taiju: Yo Shin
Shinichiro: Yo Taiju
Waka: Yo
Mikey: Why are the old people coming nowđ¶?
Waka: Tfđđ
Emma: Shin-nii, I'm hungry đđ
Mikey: I'm hungry too
Izana: Same heređȘđȘ
Shinichiro: The fuckđ¶? Y'all just ateđ¶đ¶
Mikey: We did not 'just' eat....
Izana: Yeah, that was like 30 minutes ago đđ
Ran: I'm so glad I don't have any younger siblings đđđđđđ
Rindou: Excuse međđđ
*Rindou is Offline*
Ran: Holy shit, what have I doneđđđ?
Koko: So there's only 1 Haitani left, right? đđ
Draken: Looks that way, Rindou's probably gonna drop Ran on the streets.
Ran: Shut up.
Izana: I'm still hungryđ¶đ¶
Waka: Young Kurokawa, we say 'hangry' not 'hungry'đđđđ
Taiju: Fucking dumbass
Waka: Aye, aye, don't insult your elders.
Mikey: Big deal, you turned 22, we won't have peace of mind anymore đđđ
Ran: So.... Um....
Chifuyu: How did it go? đ
Ran: Whose house can I stay in at under short notice for two dayđ
đ
Shinichiro: It's a full house
Emma: Tell me about it
Waka: Takeomi and Benkai are already at my place đȘ
Draken: Not enough room
Chifuyu: Baji-san and Kazutora are crashing at mineđ
Izana: You already heard it from Shin and Emma so I don't owe you an explanation âš
Taiju: I would let you stay
Mikey: Plot twist coming đȘ
Taiju: But I just wanna see you suffer and sleep on the streetsđ
Mikey: Called itâš
Ran: Anyone, please đđđđđđ, I'm too handsome to sleep on the streets đđđ
Mikey: Coughs in Spanish đ
Ran: Got something to say midgetđȘ
Mikey: No no, anyways, good night Haitani, have fine sleeping with the ratsđâšđ
Ran:
Hope you liked itđđđđ, I originally got this gc idea from @mulletmitsuya so go check out their work.
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The fact that the Bookman family is now relevant to the current plot line, and the fact that we might or might not finally get the identity of who was the bookman Jr. that was helping Neah all along really has me believing we might be getting some mind shattering plot twist and we all would end extra shocked if the Bookman Jr. is revealed to be someone we knew, or someone related to Lavi which would actually make me cry if it did happen specially after hoshino said she has plans of bringing him back into the story sometime this year đđ
For a long time now I had my money on Past Allen being the dead apprentice of the current Bookman, but it seems that past Allen was not in fact even related to the Bookmens at all?????
But currently, my moneyâs on cross being the Bookman Jr. who went missing, it would explain the Bookman familyâs feud with the order that was stated in this chapter
Damn you Hoshino!!!! And youâre telling me I have to wait for three months for the next flashback??!!! The fact that weâre getting some answers but more questions than ever is making me go mad, like what are you planning maâam????!!
(At least I got Lavi crumbs, so Iâll hold my tongue for a bit đđ)
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All right, yâall, Iâve got some things to say.
Spoilers for ramblings about Dislyte Unknown Collection Story Mode:
First, some positives!
âą There were some pretty interesting concepts introduced: Raven having premonition and memory-erasing powers, using her wings + comet/shooting star + all how it influences the EU: the use of stone tablets, giving out only pieces of information to the public, not interfering with the future, etc.
âą I liked how the Esper Union felt more gray aligned than straight up black or white considering its origins.
âą I enjoyed seeing Triki a bit fleshed out, but let me just say that I'm biased about this because I literally don't have him yet so I don't know too much about him aside from the basics. A little disappointed to not have seen the whole crew. I was also hoping to see Zora and Ren Shi too. đđ I will say, I can appreciate Yamato just coming around to be a menace and have fun, lol
âą The silly and cute things like the Draw and Guess game, Tevorâs photo with Hilda??? (When and how even was this/could this happen, lol), commander Xuan Pin post-Immortal Fire and her relationship with Mateo, Alexa and Abigail having their moments together, and Alexa being a Wattpad writer amateur romance novelist on the side, lol.
âą Lots of lovely and memorable artwork especially! Sachiko was obviously the devsâ favorite since they drew her so adorably, lol Assassinâs Creed reference?
Negatives.
âą Yâall⊠This felt like an alternate universe rather than an addition to literally everything weâve ever been introduced to in canon, so Iâm just going to treat it as such. I could've avoided this and wouldnât missed out on anything.
âą Also, as interesting as it is, Raven being clairvoyant came out of nowhere, lol Thereâs no mention, reference, or anything anywhere suggesting this in Dislyte canon, besides the fact that Odin (Norse Mythology) has that ability. I do miss her bike and wolf though, lol The [Player] character gave more Mary Sue isekaiâd into the game vibes rather than someone literally not from this world whoâs experiencing Grandis and Miracles for the first time. If Markiplier can be canon in the universe but not in a weird way, then they couldâve done something along those lines for him too. Why exactly did Tang Na turn into a âMiramonâ? Usually, overdrawing on your powers (could) just kill(s) you like in Gaiusâ or Leoraâs event. I guess it changed for then humanity/divinity balance. Whereâs Discboom? She couldâve been a good lock instead. đđ
âą What was going on with the writing and pacing? There were lots of typos, weird wording, and kind of a strange flow from chapter to chapter. Maybe localization editing was rushed? Like, I could appreciate trying a new style, but it also felt off-putting a lot of times and not as cohesive or seamless as it couldâve been. The Shackled Collection, the OG story mode, was much better in this regard. And then, thereâsâŠ
The endingâŠ
âą Honestly, itâs a bit hard to play devilâs advocate with that ending because from the standpoint of a first-time new player, who hasnât been through Gaiusâ, Norahâs, or Emblaâs event, the OG main story/Shackled Collection, or any other big lore heavy events, it might feel like âwhoa, plot twist! Thatâs interesting!â But itâs still a little lackluster.
As a long time player whose way too DEEP and invested in Dislyte lore, characters, and world building, I was very disappointed.
I mean, he didnât even have a hinted-at âI wantâ moment or off-putting conversation with the [Player] to help build it up. All the Anesidora moments literally couldâve been her talking to Embla or Hyde for all I know. I think that I needed better breadcrumbs not because I didnât see the twist coming, but because it didn't really pay off. As if they chose him to be the villain for the sake of shock value instead of any substance. Why does he want the power? Gaius. Union Hub Director and Researcher Gaius? He was just like, âGood job, Mayor Abigail. Pot, kettle. Yes, Iâm bad. AND I want a new world order. đđ What'd you wish for, Sachiko!???â And was anti-climatically blasted away.
The Shadow Decree is more than just âbwahaha evil villainy because evilâ kind of people and weâve seen that several times now so there was a lot to work with. Personally, Iâm anti-evil Gaius, but if they wanted to make it a bit more believable, hereâs three different scenarios off the top of my head that fits Gaiusâ personality and the whole fate theme going on.
1. Desperate Gaius âItâs been more than a decade of fighting and failure and bloodshed. Iâm tired of seeing Raven hurt because of her [powersâą] and witnessing both the Esper Union and SD fail at achieving what for mere humans and Espers is impossible. But then, I remembered Hannahâs private research from long ago all this time about [insert gate of promotion info to explain how that even cropped up]. And it was all true. Yamato finding [Player], Ravenâs vision, and Abigailâs intel confirmed that even further. Hyde, not believing in [insert gate and wish stuff], had tried to counter it with his artificial esper project, but it devolved into something entirely different [insert Sieg]. But I knew if I wanted to prove it, I needed to take measures beyond just the Unionâs resources. So, I reached out to Yamato and Hyde and the rest was history. Hannah told me that I could use my powers for good. With the full power of the Starlightâs Miracle Nexus, I can save this world from the havoc and turmoil the Miracles created â by making a new one.â
Or like, 2. Slightly Ominous Positivityâą Derails into Deluded Gaius, âDonât worry, Raven and [Player]. Just as I trust you, trust me. Even if that was her final premonition, I trust that all will play out according to fate. If fate brought us [Esper Seven] together, if it brought Hannah into my life, then I know that it will lead me to where I need to be to help everyone that I can.â Slowly turns into obsessive, corrupted selfishness as he stresses over of Ravenâs prophecy, learning about the Gate of Promotion does through Yamato and the Shadow Decree, corrupted with thoughts of its unlimited potential and what it can do for him; âCan you believe it? Fate brought us to the Starlight Miracleâs Nexus that can grant me the power to do anything. Raven was wrong. This is true destiny [taking all the divine power for himself]. Hannah, give me the strength to best this fate like you did for me to save everyone. I will succeed no matter whoâs against me!â
Heck, even a 3. Turned His Back on the Light to Save His Friends Gaius âTheyâre my friends. Us Seven have been through more than you [Player] can ever imagine. So, when Hyde and Embla came to us [Raven and Gaius] with a truce and told me that we could use this power for actual good for the world... I had to make a decision. One that could change the fate of everything Raven knew, regardless of what she saw, but be our only chance at saving everything. I know Raven would never forgive me after what I did⊠especially to her⊠but as the Esper Union Hub Director, I will do anything and sacrifice everything I have to save as many people as I can, even if it means colluding and sinking to the darkest places. Even breaking bread with the dark forces I once knew as my comrades. I promised Hannah that I would help others. You need to understand that the ends will always justify the means.â
Or something like that since we know he can be incredibly selfless/borderline sacrificial when it comes to saving people close to him and up keeping this position. Also, is Leoraâs backstory still the same bc I feel like she wouldâve already tried to tell everyone about Gaius being a shadow councilor when she defected since she was mentored by Embla, a shadow councilor. They hold annual end of year All-Hands, for crying out loud, lmfaooo Ainât no way she didnât know.
I donât know, yâall. Iâm just rambling at this point.
I really needed the seasoning Gaius was missing in his life if theyâre going to make him bad. He wasnât a very compelling bad guy. đ€·đŸââïžđ€·đŸââïž
Furthermore, it felt like they potentially retrofitted the general Dislyte lore/world building for a lot of stuff?
For me, one of the biggest things was everything around the Gate of Promotion in the Nexus. âThe Miracle Nexus, the source of all Miracles,â Mkay, but how did they learn about the Gates? How did Narmer and Cang Ji, dudes who LOVE researching and exploring Miracles, not find it or learn about it years before? Itâs been about 10+ years since the whole Miracle-Miramon situation began when the Esper Seven explored Miracle Prime and youâre telling me that supposedly somehow only now Yamato, Gaius, Raven, Abigail and the SD know about the Gates? And if Ravenâs premonition gave that info, that still doesnât explain why everyone else knew about it before then like Xuan Pin, Abigail, and Yamato. And about the lock too. Who gave everyone this knowledge? Like, Did the [Player] character come with a manual that Yamatoâs been making leaks of or something, lol? Heâs supposed to be a whole âMiracle destroyerâ and no one else is interested in that?
All in all, all I can say is that it was a choice and I had fun if I just think of it as an OVA or Isekai AU or something.
Bonus pics bc Hallâs censored for some reason lol AND my bby girl, Jiang Man, is looking cute here.
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*HSMTMTS SEASON 4 SPOILERS*
Watched episodes 4-6 and Ricky Bowen is so unhinged this season, i love it đđđ Also rina failed couple costume because their out of sync and finally revealing their dating, i love it. Also my heart dropped when he said he needed a minute. MADLYN ALMOST KISS?!! Ruined by that pumpkin ghost, jarred is a fucking weirdo??? SEB CHEATED ON CARLOS???? Loved the original song this episode tho and jet simping for kourtney.
WITH BIG RED??? The way that ginaâs motivation and way of finding chemistry is ricky đđđ I love them. Ej giving ricky advice on gina and caswen hug and i love you, i love their friendship. Glad, heâs with val. Loved their duet. The redlyn break-up was inevitable and iâm hoping itâs leading towards madlyn even if madison answered maddoxâs phone. I MEAN SHR HAD A PICTURE OF HER IN HER LOCKER SHSHSHSHW Jealous ricky is a serve, i love it. HEâS TIRED OF LOOSING PEOPLE GIVE HIM HIS HAPPY END. Terri was annoying me in episode 5 like you told your daughter no boys and then you make an exception for a famous actor??? Like stfu. You donât even know your daughter. I KNEW IT WAS COMING BUT RINA RAINKISS KNOCKED ALL THE AIR FROM MY LUNGS!!! AND THE CHOCOLATES?! A SPIN HUG IN THE RAIN TOO, I LOVE THEM, THEY HAVE AN INSANE CHOKE HOLD ON MEđđđ Also, Love Kourtneyâs storyline and jump was so good and Emmy is such a comedic relief, i love her.
Ricky calling her sweetie, awww. NO RINA TROYELLA??? I HATE IT HERE. Emmyâs episode 6 storyline, my baby she just wanted to sing âčïž FLASHBACKS! Kourtney and Ashlyn were so cute in the scene with their little pact. Love their friendship. BENJAMIN WAS IN A BOY BAND?! BIGGEST PLOT TWIST OF MY LIFE. Awww miss jenn worrying and carinh about carlos without even really knowing him. MOTHER from the beginning. SEB AND NATALIE??? Heâs so unserious âI was in a serious relationship. With a woman.â Seblos over again, theyâre so cute. Get back together. ALSO THE AMOUNT OF SWEARING THIS SEASON ENSNEJWJS, IT KEEPS GETTING ME SO OFF GUARD. âHeâs singing the damn song!â RICKYYYYY. Close-up on all the couples unofficial and official, theyâre all endgame. REAL!! Gina flashback!!! Yes, she taught herself how to knit a hat. âFind something you like about this school and try not to kill it.â Runs into ricky. ItâS A RINA FLASHBACK!!! I miss gina 1.0 but i love season 4 gina sm. Gina convinced him to join the musical and she joined because of him!!! âLove is lame, idiot. Thatâs why i try to avoid it.â NOT ANYMORE. Ha! âGood luck, skaterboy.â HE WAS A SKATER BOY, SHE SAID SEE YOU LATER BOY. Theyâre so fucking tethered and soulmates. THEY OWN MY LIFE! Alyson reed giving miss jenn advice and her joining east high omfg. TRUST THE PROCESS PERIODDD. GIVE RICKY A HAPPY END MF!!! THESE ARE HER CHILDREN DEN MOTHER FRR. OMG! DREAMS DONât DIE!!!! Emmyâs voice is gorgeous, all the songs hit so hard this season tf. Itâs the little rina moments this episode for me. ALYSON REED AND BART JOHNSON HELPING THE DRAMA DEPARTMENT AWWW! Gina not wanting to say i love you first i get it and iâm a ricky saying i love you first truther. RICKY GOT INTO COLLEGE!!! MY BOY! 1.8 GPA?! BOY, WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING THESE YEARS. Awww, as long as ginaâs there his futureâs locked, sheâs his future đđđ NO, WTF WAS GINAâS CALL ABOUT IF ITâS SOMETHING BAD IM THROWING HANDS.
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Is it bad that i wanna request for another yoru x reader angst with no good endingđ??? Any plot would be fine like reader dying or like yoru seeing y/n with someone in the proctocol or vice versa
I really really love your writings and everything and made sure i read all of them because they were all *chefs kiss*
EYo, thanks for requesting! This got a bit long so I hope u donât mind. There were so many things I could do with this request so I kinda went overboard with the word count oops. Iâm not good at writing short stories. And thank you for reading all of my fanfics! I hope u enjoy reading them as much as I enjoy writing them. I hope u enjoy this one!
If you have any other ideas, please request! I love hearing from you!!! :DDD
Every Second (Angst Valorant Yoru x Reader)
tagging: @sv03
Word count: 3.5k
CW: Angst, no happy ending, on screen character death, mentions of blood, depressed character, poor mental health character
Yoru laid on his bed, staring emptily at the ceiling. Heâd lost his sense of time, being cooped up in this gray room for days he didnât bother to count. His clothes stuck to him, and so did his hair, its dye fading as every hour passed. His eyes were unfocused, his breath shallow. The only sound he could hear was the perpetual ticking of his clock, edging him to insanity with each second, together with the faint beating of his cold heart.
He was only kept sane by the visions he had, the memories he kept replaying in his head. They were better than sleep, because even if he saw you as beautiful and happy as he remembered you to be, you still showed up in his nightmares.
Heâd rather stay awake and choose what he saw than gamble on sleep and seeing you die over and over and over again. If he had to see that nightmare again, he might just lose his mind.
He buried that bad dream, that nightmare, deep inside his brain but it kept gnawing at him, crawling and scratching. It was driving him to madness. He couldnât sleep from it. He couldnât eat. His clothes sagged on his body, and no matter how much the other agents try, they couldnât get him out of the room.
He wouldnât even leave it to go to your funeral.
He fooled himself into thinking you were still here.
âY/N L/N. Iâm the new agent. Nice to meet you,â you greeted, smiling happily and raising your hand to shake his. He only stares at it with an unamused look, then he looks back at you. âI know youâre trying to get on our good graces, but itâs a dumb move to expose your real name,â he says curtly, tucking his hands deeper in his pockets.
You raise a brow, challenging him. âAnd how would you know if that was my real name?â You say innocently, putting your hand down.
He narrows his eyes at you. âTch. As if any callsign would be that long,â he accused.
âYou still wouldnât be able to tell if that was my real name. It could be an alias for all you know, or a fake identity. Checkmate.â You shrugged and smiled smugly.
He scowled at your remark. âAlright smartass. Real name or not, I donât need it to put you in your place. So, stay in your lane unless you want me to do it for you. Got that L/N?â He warns grimly, ready to turn around and head back to the briefing room.
You indulge his threats by giving him a nod, still smiling smugly. âYes Sir. Aye aye, Captain. Will do, boss.â You were relentless in getting on his nerves.
âThatâs Yoru to you,â he answers your unasked question. Finally you smile at him, and his heart skips a beat.
You had a pretty smile. It somehow sent an electric current up his spine, and he had to look away.
âNice to meet you Yoru. Hoping we work with each other soon, you seem a lot of fun!â
This was how you both first met. You were a trusting person, even if he wasnât the most amicable agent in the protocol. Deep inside, he was glad that you werenât quick to judge based on his rugged and intimidating appearance. And he admired that you didnât take his shit lying down. You were good at twisting every situation to your favor.
If he knew how short your time together would be, he would have shaken your hand. He would bask in the warmth of your skin, and he would never let you go.
âL/N, visual in A?â
â6 meters, 10 oâclock, Cypher cam, destroy it before pushing.â
âI need healing.â
âIâll meet you in the LZ. Until then, please keep safe Yoru.â
âDonât need to tell me twice. Make it there L/N.â
âRoger that.â
He remembered missions with you, and how in sync you both were. You watched his back, he watched yours.
âGood gunning out there L/N. Not on my level, but not too bad.â
âHar, har, Yoru. But seriously, thanks for saving my butt earlier. A little later and I wouldâve been toast!â
âNo need to make a big fuss over nothing. Next time, wait for me before you push. Iâll clear the way for you.â
âAwww, youâre so sweet~ Said like a true gentleman.â
âUrusai. Iâm saying it as a duelist.â
âBut I like it when you flirt~ More of a Phoenix trait. But it suits you too.â
ââŠI can be smooth when I want to be.â
He remembers the banter you both shared, the friendly competitions, the names you called each other. He was your dumbass, you were his idiot.
âYouâre such a dumbass! Why did you have to run in the rain? Now look at you, all snotty and icky.â
âThe fuck is that supposed to meâACHOO!â
âPoint proven. Be thankful Iâm here wiping your snot and changing your towel.â
âHey, I wasnât the idiot who left their phone on the other side of the base.â
âI told you that I would get it myself Yoru. I was literally grabbing an umbrella.â
âYou took too long. It wouldâve drowned if it werenât for me.â
âAnd look where that got you. Youâre so stupid sometimes, I donât know what goes through your head.â
âCan you just be thankful I saved your phone? And be thankful that youâre the one whoâs not sick right now?â
ââŠyeah. Thanks, dumbass. What would I do without you.â
âYou would be buying a new phone, thatâs what you would be doing.â
He was such a loner in the protocol, even with Phoenix and Neon around. He never thought love was meant for people like him; people who had no space in their heart other than their own selfish goals. He couldnât keep friendships for long, let alone romances. So, he never really gave it much thought.
But ever since he met you, itâs as if the world he knew was flipped upside down. He felt like there was something more to look forward to everyday. He had someone other than himself, and you made him feel less alone. Whenever his eyes met yours, he felt like a weight was being lifted off in his heart. His chest feels open and somehow the world just seems brighter.
Looking at you, hearing your voice, feeling your warmth, it made him want to fall in love.
âHappy birthday, Yoru~ Happy birthday Yoru~!â
He was in the basement garage when you suddenly entered through the backdoor, holding a plate of chocolate cake, crudely pierced with a single candle. He didnât celebrate his birthday. He didnât need to. For years, it had always been just any other day of the year. By mistake he mentioned the date to you, but thought nothing of it.
And for the first time ever, in years, someone remembered.
He rose from his seat on the floor, wearing a gray shirt and black sweatpants, his hair down but headbanned. He was tinkering with his bike, and he had oil smears everywhere. He furrowed his brows at you as you walked carefully, making sure the candle stayed lit in the drafty room.
âHappy birthday, dear Yoru, happy birthday to you~!â You finished, holding up the plate, the candlelight flickering in front of your face. âTada! Got you a cake. I donât know what flavor you preferred but chocolate was the safest option so I went with it.â You smiled shyly.
âL/N, you shouldnât haveâŠâ he starts, staring at the flame as it waved invitingly. âI wanted to bake you a cake, and believe me, I tried. But it ended up in disaster so I just rushed out of the island as fast as I could and bought a cake instead. Sorry,â you apologized, and he shook his head in disbelief.
âI donât celebrate my birthday L/N. You shouldnât have bothered,â he replies sternly, turning back to tinker with the bike. His heart was pounding, overwhelmed. Someone remembered, and it squeezed at his heart.
Someone cared. Someone bothered to remember him.
âHey! I didnât get this cake for you to just brush me off! Turn around and make a wish, dumbass.â You scowled, kicking his foot. When he was able to calm his heart, he turned around and glared, rolling his eyes. âGo on,â you held the plate higher for him, and he stared at you for a moment, making his wish. After a while, he bent down and blew the candle off, earning a wide smile from you. His heart skips a beat.
âWhat did you wish for?â You asked curiously, and he scowls. âNone of your business. Now stop bugging me, Iâm working on the bike.â He waves at you dismissively. He didnât want you to see him get emotional over a cake.
âArenât you going to eat the cake?â You asked hopefully, your smile fading. His heart clenches. Fuck.
âJust leave it by the table. I canât eat right now, Iâm smothered in oil grease.â
âWell, take a break! Sit down, Iâll feed you the cake.â
âIyada. No way.â
âJust sit down! Or else Iâm not leaving.â
âFine.â
You both shared that cake, despite his protests about using a single fork. You sat on the table cross-legged while he leaned against it. He would turn to you occasionally for a piece of cake that you would feed him. Meanwhile, you talked about how hard it was to bake a cake, and he listened absentmindedly.
His heart was so full, he couldnât focus on your voice. Someone remembered him. Someone cared enough to try and bake a cake for him. For the first time in a while, he didnât spend his birthday alone.
âWhat does stiff peaks mean? Well, it means that when you pull your whisk off the egg whites, it stands on its own. What did I do? I put it in while it was still foamy and runny. I⊠are you okay?â You asked as you noticed his eyes watering.
He then turns his head to the opposite direction, a few tears fall from his eyes, and he quickly wipes them away. âOil grease,â he mutters, and you believed him. And while you continued talking, he took a big breath.
This was the best birthday celebration he ever had. He really didnât wish for anything when he blew the candle, but now he was truly making one: he wished to spend the rest of his birthdays with you.
You stayed with him as he worked on his bike back then. He should have told you how he felt then, so that your time as lovers was longer. Even if it was just by a few weeks.
Heâd make every second he had with you count.
âW-why are we separating from the crowd?â You laughed as he dragged you to the terrace. The party going on inside the base was getting rowdy, and he wanted you all to himself.
You had a martini on your hand, topped with a grape pierced with a mini umbrella. You were a bit flustered from the alcohol, and so was he. He needed the extra liquid courage. Because as much as he was unafraid to push sites with the threat of bullets going through his skull, he was more scared of messing this up.
He held your hand as you both stood by the banister, the sunset over the ocean illuminating your faces. With the dewy sunset glow on your face, your hair gracefully flowing to ocean breeze, and your smile that he adored so much, he felt so in love. He couldnât keep it to himself anymore.
âWhat?â You smiled shyly, primping your hair, feeling a bit conscious from his staring. He squeezed your hand, willing himself to speak.
He remembered this memory so vividly. If only he knew, heâd repeat these same words to you everyday.
âY/N L/N, what I feel about you is hard to explain. And I know Iâll fuck up my words anytime I try. The best way to go about it was to just explain what I go through whenever youâre with me, and whenever youâre gone.
âY/N, when Iâm with you, I feel weightless. I never understood what butterflies in the stomach meant until you came into my life. Whenever youâre close to me, my heart beats so fast as if I ran a marathon across the globe. Whichever direction I chose to run, I always kept coming back to you.
âAnd when youâre gone, the world just seems so foreign. My day doesnât go by without the thought of you. I admit that Iâm very selfish with my time. In this line of work, there isnât an abundance of it, but somehow for you, I am not selfish. Keep me up at night, occupy my daydream. Take all my time, waste it if youâd like. Just as long as Iâm with you in every second of it.
âI⊠fuck. Okay, fuck it. I love you. Thatâs the shortest way to put it.â He blurted out, grimacing. He was so focused on spilling his heart out that he didnât notice that you were blushing madly against the sunlight. He looks at you as you stared at him with wide eyes, mouth agape. âYoruâŠâ you whispered, and he avoids your eyes.
âI know. I sound so pathetic right now. But the more I spend time with you, the harder it gets to pretend I donât want you that way. I was never looking for anything like this, but⊠youâre all I want now.â He sighs, leaning on the banister.
You stood there frozen, too shocked to even say anything. You knew Yoru as someone who just kept to himself, he didnât like sharing his emotions. Sure, heâd occasionally make sure you knew he was mad by yelling, but you never knew how much he could keep from you.
You watch him as he grasped at his hair, pulling it in frustration. âYou even make me say shit I wouldnât normally say, kuso. I sound so disgusting right now.â He sighs again, looking back at you.
You were in tears, the sunsetâs dying light reflecting from your tears.
âR-Ryo⊠I thought⊠youâd never say itâŠâ you smiled through the tears. âFuck, finally, you say it first! I fucking love you too idiot!â You cry, all the pent-up affection released as you jump and hug him, his strong arms catching you. You hugged him tightly, your feet kicking in the air. You took his breath away with those words.
âI wanted to tell you first but I was scared that you werenât ready. And that if I told you, youâd push me away,â you pulled away, holding his cheeks as he held you up. âI fucking love you Ryo Kiritani, and from now on, Iâll make sure you know that every second of the day, 24/7, 365 days a year.â You laughed, and before long, he cracked a smile. âIâŠI love you too. I do.â
He smiled at the ceiling at the memory. He loved your smile, he loved your laugh, he loved the way you say his name. A cold tear rolls from his eye down to the side of his cheek. He still gets butterflies even now.He wipes the stray tear with his hand, but he doesnât bother wiping the rest that fall from his eyes. He silently weeps, calling out your name.
âY/N,â he weeped. âY/N, please Y/N, come back please,â he begged. No one listened. He was alone in this cold room, rotting his life away. No one answers to him here but his own mind.
Maybe he just had to call your name harder.
âFUCK, Y/N!!!! WHY?! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING SELFLESS?! WHY, PLEASE COME BACK AND TELL ME!â He screamed from the top of his lungs, and arm landing against his eyes. They couldnât stop his tears. âI CANâT! I CANâT FUCKING LIVE WITHOUT YOU.â Â His voice was hoarse but he doesnât relent, squeezing his chest with his other hand. His wails were heard beyond the door.
It hurts Y/N, it hurts.
He wraiths as he cries, screaming and weeping helplessly. He just wanted you back, he just wanted things back to the way they were. He grabbed his head with both hands and squeezed, wanting to just disappear. Heâd go in and out of this trance, and the others were extremely worried about his mental health.
Shit, the nightmare was coming back again.
âWhatâs your situation there?!â Brimstone calls from the comms, and Yoru shakily grabs the radio. He was bleeding from his mouth, his stab wounds leaking the blood from his body by the milliliter.
âY/N⊠Me⊠Phoenix a-and KJ were all ambushed. They planted t-the spike. Itâs about to detonate soon, the two are unconcious,â he struggles to say, drawing in sharp breaths. He looked at you and how pale you were. He was screaming at himself in his mind, trying to come up with ways to get you all out of this situation.
He coughs but covers his mouth, seeing blood stain his gloves. KJ and Phoenix both lost too much blood, they were unconscious. And by the unfocused look in your eyes, you were next. In futile attempt to keep you awake, he slams his fist into your hand, and you stir. âStay awake L/N, donât you dare close your eyes,â he warns, and you give him a smile.
Brim ran all the way from the opposite side of the map and saw how bloodied everyone was. He took one look at the spike and his heart dropped. âI can only carry two people. Can you both walk?â He asks desperately, staring at the spike.
âI got shot in the leg but I can manage. Y/N canât. Lost too much blood.â He reasons, forcing his legs to stand up, and he fails, dropping down to the ground. Without thinking, Brimstone grabs the two unconscious agents and mounts them on his shoulders. âWe wonât make it,â he whispers to himself, trying to find a way where he can save everyone.
âYou will. I can still set up my barriers. Theyâll protect you from the explosion, but you have to keep running. It only lasts 3 seconds.â You say, sitting up properly. You look at the spike, then back at Yoru. âYou have to go, now.â
âAre you crazy?! Your barriers can only house 3 people!â He yells, his eyes wide, and you shake your head in response.
âIâll use the power of the radianite around us to make it fit for the 4 of you. You have to go. Brim, you know what to do.â You then began to concentrate the energy you had left into your hands, and Brimstone nods. He could not speak.
âNo! There has to be another way, weâre not leaving you here!â He grabs your wrists to stop you from using your abilities, but as you hear the spike ticking away its last few seconds, you smile at him.
âPromise me youâll survive Ryo.â
âNo! Iâm not leaving you here!â
âRyo, you know thereâs no other way. Please promise me youâll go with Brim.â
âDamare!â He cries, holding on to you for dear life.
âWe have to go, NOW.â Brim yells. The spikeâs beeping increases its speed, and Yoru gulps in denial.
âPromise me, youâll survive.â You say one last time, and finally, he nods, chest tight. He grabbed your face and kissed you, as if it was the last time he would feel your warm lips on his.
And it truly was the last time.
As Brim grabbed on his shoulder to pull him away, and as the barrier covered him and the rest, he watched as you smiled, even in the most daunting of situations.
He loved that smile so much. Now itâs the last thing he will see from you.
It all happened so quickly but for him, it felt like an eternity. He saw how you closed your eyes as the spike detonated, he saw how your flesh disintegrated with every inch of the explosion nearing you. And he watched you disappear into the explosion, leaving nothing but a dark glow.
As the explosion pulled back, he and the others were safe. Brim stood there for a moment, trying to keep himself levelheaded as he arranged a pickup. Yoru kneeled behind him, looking at the place where you sat before the explosion, your blood still fresh on the ground.
But you werenât there.
âY/NâsâŠgoneâŠâ he cried silently, clenching his fists. âY/N⊠Y/N!â He screamed, hitting the ground with his gloved fists. Brim could only listen as the young man screamed in agony. He had lost the love of his life in a doomed mission, all because of his negligence. He underestimated the mirror agents, and now you and Yoru paid dearly for his mistake.
Without a body, Sage couldnât do anything. She couldnât revive you, no matter how much Yoru begged and yelled for her to do so. It came to a point where he was knocked unconscious by Sova because he was too much for Sage. They were all sad, it wasnât just him who lost someone. But they understood why.
Yoru was always alone, and you were his only light. You saw him for who he was, flaws and all, and accepted him. You loved him, and he loved you. It was unfair. The only time he had someone who he cared about so much, and fate takes them away from him. He didnât know if he could keep your promise; he couldnât survive knowing you werenât by his side anymore.
He couldnât accept it. He couldnât bear with the pain. He wanted to believe that you were still here, lying on the bed with him. He repeated the same memories over and over again, just so he could feel you here. He just wanted you back. He just wanted you to hug him and say that everything that happened was just a nightmare.
Your dying smile, the same smile that he loved, will forever haunt him, for every second he is awake and asleep.
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"Gideon the Ninth"
07/12/2023
Reading progress: 443/443 (100%)
Read through since last update: 167
So... It seems I'm at the last reading update...
I actually didn't plan to cram so much into one post, but I got really into reading for a day or two, and then managed to get to the last 50ish pages and said fuck it.
I'm not gonna say much except that I didn't expect for it to be that bloody, then at the end got so used to it that I had no other choice to just close the book and think to myself "Well. This happened."
I will be writing a concise review as I do with each book I read, but I'm just gonna say I loved it very much. (This is, of course, a big understatement, but yeah... I'll gush about it in my review.)
SPOILER WARNING! (Like always.)
Without further ado, my thoughts:
I might have been unbothered by the first two deaths, but I sure as hell am not ok after the end of Act 3. Was all that really necessary?? đđ
Yooo that scene when Gideon forces Harrow to siphon from her again is??? Hhhhhh... Made me feel a few things. Here's a graphic rendition:
I'm glad Harrow is banning Gideon from seeing Dulcinea. And the thing she mentions about the keys - she's right, it really doesn't make sense. It stuck out to me before, but I just forgot to comment on it. In any case, it's extremely suspicious. Protesilaus is also probably missing because of a distinct reason, related to his adept. Wouldn't be surprised if the Seventh is the one going around killing people.
Of course Silas turned out to be a little weasel. But at least Colum has some dignity.
Oh yeah, Corona is definitely not a necromancer.
Ok, but why am I not surprised that Harrow is the one who had her fingers in Protesilaus's disappearance? Honestly, she's the second most suspicious person in the mansion, but I love her, so I don't care.
HELLOOOOOOOO???? HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO????
First plot twist I have not expected. At all. I'm shooketh, as one might say.
Aww man. False alarm. >:( (This was about Gideon't claim that she murdered Harrow's parents.)
Oooh, but the big revelation was good! It was just a matter of time, so my reaction was more like "Ah! Finally!", than :O (Future me talking here: I'm not entirely sure what this is referring to? I'd guess it was about the Locked Tomb.)
Not Dulcinea doing the King Harold from Shrek dying scene đ
"I had reason to believe," said Harrow, "that you would trust her more than you trusted me."
"You are my only friend. I am undone without you "
Stuff just kept happening and people just kept dying. Didn't even get the chance to write it all out, and another one was on the floor. Anyway... WHAT THE FUCK.
Honestly, I thought stuff would get all tangled up and I would lose my footing, as I heard most people do. (Or will, in the next book.) So I'm just glad I could follow along quite nicely. It all made sense in the end, even the stuff about Dulcinea. I wasn't too surprised she's the culprit, I'm just surprised how she's the culprit.
PALAMEDES!!!! NOOOOOO!!!!!!
"I can't conceive of a universe without you in it." Again, Muir going straight for the jugular. I know she likes to kill off her characters, but she doesn't need to kill of her readers as well.
Ok, you know what. I knew there would be no happy ending. We all knew Harrow couldn't become Lyctor without Gideon dying. So, I am not surprised it happened. But I am also NOT OKAY.
Man, I love Harrow. I love her in the epilogue. I love her in the last chapter. I love how much she cares, how much she always cared. And I love how her relationship with Gideon evolved over time. Ugh. Uuughhh!
Ok, yeah... This was an experience. I'll be ordering Harrow soon and.... Yeah. I'm (not) prepared for more heartbreak.
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i don't want to be mean or anything but like. the cr/t/cal r/le girlies in the dimension 20 tag are just sending me like, i just Knew these people be just all over this season and diving in and dissecting every little detail and speculating for the larger picture (of six episodes) (plus a season that's already been out for a year) as though people like. haven't been having to Sit with the Very, Very unfinished/untold part of the world of this campaign setting for Years already? (the Widely Established Fanlore of it all XD) although that's also been also been folding in the face of. all the colin posts (like Specifically colin too past even colin+raphaniel or colin+deli). like they fell for the cr bait so hard- group of fans starved for mlm content based on their typical cr diet, see a guy (Just Some Guy) looking the way he was, see his mysterious past and divorce and arc and glowup and post-divorce talks and. yknow. whaddya gonna do. that's all they're gonna talk about when the EXPLICITLY mlm radish priest who's been grooming that VERY SAME cheese guy for five years is right there.
anyways i'm going to write all that off anon and pretend i'm not deathly scared of invoking the wrath of cr fans after that thing on twitter
IT'S ACTUALLY REALLY FUNNY YEAH. gonna address the colin part first then talk about my problems with the season under a spoiler. listen I think deli & colin are very real in that deli wants him SO bad but it's crazy that people are dancing around colin's whole thing with raphaniel. like what do you guys think was going on there đ 'he's his babysitter' SAY IT OUT LOUD! he was fucking that radish
now for my thoughts about the plot and pacing of ravening war
I do not like that this season (that was supposed to be about a war covering 7+ years of intense political conflict and full-scale warfare involving every country in the continent) got boiled down to 2 massive timeskips & 3 battle episodes of five guys fucking around in a cave because the entire war was actually started by a secret cult. there were no battles involving the actual war + 1 skill check for entire 5 years at a time + almost nothing politics wise + they missed the ENTIRE climatic final push for the end of the war because they were underground. it's so poorly paced, I really don't know what to say. am I the crazy one here for wanting a season about the ravening war to be about the war? it just doesn't feel like the characters had any impact on the plot past episode 3 and they ONLY because they kill the queen of candia because a cult told them to. because we get alliances forged and broken and conflicts ended and rulers crowned within the span of a single sentence from the DM before we chug back off to the mycelium hivemind main plot. hot take but every season does not in fact need a plot twist big bad to fight
all of the characters in the season are genuinely the most interesting characters I've seen in YEARS. it's a goddamn shame we didn't get to spend more time with them. it sucks that each of them brought so much intrigue and backstory to the war, but every single one of them ended up contributing not much at all to the scale of the campaign because, again, the final boss turned out to be a cult within the top secret cult of mushrooms that was ALREADY a secret but there is also ANOTHER, more powerful deity to fight in the very last episode. we needed more episodes, or less time spent on battles. we needed to not bring on a DM known for having all the time in the world to wrap up years-long campaigns in 5 hour chunks at a time, for a 6 ep miniseason. we did not need two more powerscaled deities for no reason to a war that should have been about the people and not... random alien eldritch forces. we needed closure on amangeaux's child, we needed to know WHY raphaniel was poisoning the king and starting a war in the first place. aabria wrote a whole essay about karna's backstory that I would've loved to see in the show itself, but... we didn't get to see it! there were almost no politics. we did get 4 separate secret underground mushroom fights though. in a campaign about a war.
"real life is messy! not everything gets wrapped up neatly! it reflects real wars!" this is a dnd show sir and when you spend 20 minutes out of 12 hours of content actually talking politics and the rest of the time fucking around with mushrooms in a cave, it starts to look less like a deliberate artistic choice and more like poorly paced plot threads that didn't get a chance to finish.
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