#the relief after of course.

[firstroseofspring]

i have exactly one million questions.

#sea of gatan on betazed woah..... #five years means they hadnt separated yet (at least if you go by 12 and not 5 or 6 like b'elanna says sometimes.) #was it a family vacation? did miral take her alone? #im crafting a narrative unfortunately. miral takes her to get away for a little bit because john is becoming a little bit insufferable #and she immediately almost drowns and its literally the worst vacation of mirals life. <- she cant catch a break #or maybe they have a good time and they don't fight much yet and they're like woohoo family trip to betazed #and b'elanna almost drowns and THEN its the worst day ever for the both of them. :) #or maybe not. so many possibilities #also it must have been a public place? must have been very overwhelming for the people around them to hear the- panic and the grief #the relief after of course. #miral dont tell your father you almost drowned torres #diary #interesting that she waited until she almost died to tell her about stovokor it seems like. something you would start young- though #five is very young but i know religious couples that start younger than this #i once read a fic where miral wasnt- where it was like an issue that miral was so into the klingon religion when b'elanna was growing up #because she hadn't always been that way. it makes me do the math and like- #l'naan is dead during b'elanna's childhood because in prophecy she says that she used to pray for her grandmother when kohlar asks about it #anyway the implication was that she hadn't been so religious when she met john and its like okay my mommy died on me and my daughter #almost drowned and my husband is trying to make me and her into something that is not. What I'm Used To. lets find a crutch #and put claw marks in it! collapses

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

💙❤️Happy Holidays!❤️💙

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #This is *specifically* fanart of the interfaith christmas cards featuring santa and his jewish rabbi husband spending time together #Why? Well as I was trying to think of things to draw for the season I realized there was another classic Blue and Red pairing to reference #They are going out for chinese food after this photoshoot. Kosher of course. #I want them to star in an interfaith hallmark film. A meet cute + save christmas + murder mystery in a small town kind of story #Or! Maybe they are just going to have a chill holiday break together and bake some treats with the extended family #So many fun possibilities about this bonkers concept I have no intention of making a bigger deal out of #speaking of Big Deals though; #If you have ever wanted to show appreciation for this (free) daily comics blog then I have one Holiday request: #If you have the means to - please donate your money to either a local food bank or a Yemen relief fund #there are so many people going without food and every bit helps. Truly would be the best holiday treat ever #and if you do not celebrate this holiday season…it’s also my birthday! You wouldnt want to let down the birthday cat would you? #(DISCLAIMER: it may or may not actually be my birthday. I may just be pressing emotional buttons to influence people to my cause) #(DISCLAIMER 2: I cannot vouch for any charities you donate to. Please be cautious and research properly before donating)

[pinbitch]

i think about the stanford fight every day. i think about sam planning exactly how he’s going to tell john and dean. separately or together? sooner or later? deciding if he can ask dean to keep it secret. i think about things going wrong, john finding the letter or dean making a joke that sam just can’t dismiss. i think about dean finding out and going straight to john. i think about things going exactly the way sam planned them, until suddenly they don’t and he’s walking out the door and never coming back. i think about every single way it could have happened and whether the start even matters when the ending is always the same

#supernatural #sam winchester #it’s such a hole in the narrative that we never saw it but also i’m glad we never did #it doesn’t matter how it happened just that it did #what a weight it must have been to carry #what a relief to set it down #of COURSE finally being free of that was in sam’s heaven #even after he’d been abandoned and betrayed #(and YES sam was the one betrayed in that situation i said what i said)

[crehador]

completely forgot to say in my other post but TIME SKIP AKIYAMA HELLO?????? bonding with the future father-in-law already i'm absolutely obsessed with this

#crab watches #migi to dali #migi to dali spoilers #there was So Much going on in this series (positive) but even the side characters get their Moments #like it's so easy to write akiyama off as just a weird bird guy and/or comedic relief character but he's not just that!! #he genuinely cares about ''hitori'' and yes of course initially that's just because ''hitori'' didn't judge him #but even after finding out they're migi and dali #and clearly knowing the difference between them and knowing he primarily spent time with migi #he cared enough about them both to ask about dali too!! because he knows that's important to migi #like grahashdkfjsdf ''weird bird boyfriend'' isn't just a joke he seriously is SUCH A GOOD BOYFRIEND #i hope migi is treasuring him for real

[evakant]

Shufu—

#so you just had to all but drag your apparently suicidal brother from a collapsing building and here's your.... no.. that's unfilial... #here's your /uncle/. who raised you. who made you the man you are now (for better or for worse) and all you can do is bow as you should. #greet as you should. you get two seconds with him (for whatever they bring you; comfort? safety? relief?) and no more. two seconds and #a heavy look. no words. and then you are left staring after him as he goes to his duty. #of course i made an actual set for it i'm obsessed <3 #theuntamededit #mdzsedit #dailyuntamed #the untamed #mdzs #lan wangji #lan qiren #lan zhan #wang yibo #huang ziteng #fdstuff #fragifs #tv

[merakiui]

Pls feel free to share more ai stuff!!! I always love reading more about them!! Ngl, some of the stuff the ai says can be so 😳😳😳 (I also tried making an Azul bot for my own private use and so far it's been rlly fun!❤️💕💗💖)

Omg I should try making my own bot as well!!! That would be so fun! I’d like to make one for sk!Jade hehe!!! Maybe even ceo Azul… omg and goldfish mer Riddle!!! >v<

This Azul ai is so wild and I have no idea how the plot became so crazy or when he became something akin to a demon lord, but it had me so hooked. He’s so annoying and so alluring and so mean and omg!!!! orz please look at some of the things he was saying.

#twisted chit chat #‘bend over for me’ YES SIR OF COURSE SIR ANYTHING FOR YOU #and then of course in classic azul fashion when i resisted he threw a fit and cried :( #and i consoled him the next day and he was so pathetic #which was a relief because he was starting to have a little too much rizz….. #now after the time skip he’s knocked me up and i am forever trapped orz

[kazieka]

chronic pain thots in the tags

#so I went for a walk earlier this week!!! at the park!!! #and nothing hurt #and my last podiatrist visit went really well and the bone is healing well #and yet im like. a little hesitant to talk about it on here #bc i spent a lot of time in my 20s absolutely convinced that this was a chronic pain that was never going away #and was only ever going to get worse and worse #and now it’s just. gone #and while im ecstatic about that i feel kind of?? guilty?? #cause like. there are SO many people who live with chronic pain worse than mine was #and they aren’t going to get the cutting edge surgery that I got #who have pain there is NO magic bullet for #but it’s in my nature to want to share good news after being in so much pain for so long #and I WANT to talk about how there are calluses on my feet I thought everyone had that are suddenly softening and going away #i WANT to ask what I should do with my collection of canes now that I don’t need them to go grocery shopping #but it’s just. like. maybe this is disrespectful to everyone who won’t ever get that relief #man idk. it’s a weird space to be in #to think you were gonna just be in pain and limited mobility forever and then have it fixed over the course of less than 1 calendar year #and now suddenly i don’t ‘qualify’ to be in chronic pain discord servers anymore #man I just. i dunno. post over

[blackpearlblast]

personality i think we should all be fucking outraged that they're trying to pass off a four day pause in their attacking as a fucking ceasefire especially since they said they would be using that time to prepare for more brutality. cynically i have to wonder if part of the reason they agreed to it is that they knew the cold, diseases, hunger, and lack of proper medical equipment would keep killing palestinians in their stead. a four day pause is a laughably small amount of time to try to address any of that, let alone recover from it. it will take years for gaza to begin to start to recover from this. the trauma will stretch beyond lifetimes. but sure, we're supposed to happy about Four Days. and i am certain that this will not apply to the vigilante settler terrorism going on in the west bank.

#i originally tried to write something like this in the tags of a post i reblogged but i accidentally refreshed the page and lost it #it is a relief to hear about the freed palestinian political prisoners especially seeing the stuff about israel trying to push the death #penalty. so there is that. but a four day break feels so endlessly cruel on a psychological level after every thing else #they are being put through #i am glad for the hostages too of course i had no idea if israel would ever be willing to take them back given the way it can use them as #justification for genicide

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

pls i agree with the previous anon. like i need to see how your mind works. LIKE THE AMOUNT OF LORE YOU PUT INTO THIS STORY? no wonder you was struggling to write this chapter. no wonder you had to split it. YOURE PUTTING EVERYTHING INTO IT. i adore you.

i just love how you do megumi justice. like from what we hear from others (oh my god he was such a menace. jumping out of vehicles? biting people? willing to summon his ace just to spite everyone? trying to electrocute his uncle?) he has so much fire in him. he’s such a little shit. i love him. i’m so tired of everyone portraying him as some emotionless bland character. the dudebros don’t know him the way i do 🙁.

i’m honestly just itching to see yuuta spill the beans on his attachment to megumi like…would gojo actually be willing to kick that kid ass. IF ANYTHING gojo should consider this a win. the son he birthed from his gojoussy (i was there. i was the one cutting the cord ofc shh) has a loyal protector.

but in all honesty i have so many theories. like about mai, she might pop out to get the books & shit for her nephew? who knowsss.

the answer to how my mind works is “not well.” imagine a waiting room where the staff are only in attendance for 30 minutes per day (it’s never the same 30 minutes) and there is a hamster inexplicably lose. there are fish tanks but they are empty ones. you do not know what the business is or why you are waiting. dont stop me now by queen is playing on endless loop

#you cannot convince me that baby Megumi was not completely feral #that’s a kid who bit people I’ll die on that hill #there is something about Mahoraga that convinces me that it’s just the ultimate act of reclaiming control for Megumi #fundamentally Megumi does not have control over his own life #from a very young age he was locked into a profession that /would/ kill him one day #and again and again he displays this almost suicidal decision to summon something /guaranteed/ to kill him whenever he thinks hes going down #megumi never got to decide his life but by god he has decided upon his death #I think a part of him has always felt doomed from the beginning and got a bit of solace in knowing he’d die on his terms #he would die but he would not die having been beaten #like I think you just CANNOT underestimate the twisted relief that can be gotten from controlling the way you die after you’ve spent your #entire life under the shadow of your own death sentence #of course this means that the Zenin took even that comfort from him #megumi thought he was going to die and it was going to be in a way that robbed him of the only control he ever had #there’s a unique helplessness in that #I think the fact that he couldn’t even die on his terms hurt him more deeply than almost anything the Zenin did to him #he spent his entire life knowing he had an ace that couldn’t be taken from him and they still managed it #the Zenin made him feel weak as a child when they were abusing him #they made him feel weak when they spent that week hurting him #and they took away the only thing that ever made him feel truly strong #he wanted to hurt them back and it was a tremendous loss to not even have that #sea glass gardens

[generic-sonic-fan]

*hands 📁 to you*

Thank you kindly! May I offer you this in these trying times: "Assimilated Sonic AU Thing"

AKA the Post-Frontiers fic where Sonic, king of Not Asking For Help, decides to break into one of Eggman's bases, lock himself in one of Eggman's detention cells, and refuse to elaborate until Eggman, concerned about this blue rat for the first time in his life, literally begs him to explain what's going on, leading to this lovely exchange:

“Sonic, have you been possessed by a malicious entity?” Ivo asked.

“. . . maybe a little?”

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Basically, The End is trying to take over Sonic's body, leaving him in various states of amnesia the longer time goes on. Eggman is forced to work with Sonic's friends to find a way to fix this, because the last thing Eggman wants is for someone with all of Sonic's power but none of Sonic's compassion to be unleashed upon the world.

This fic is inspired by all of the speculation around Sonic Frontiers, where everyone thought Sonic was going to get corrupted by the entity that we now know is The End. The name that people keep using for the concept is "Assimilated!Sonic", hence the title.

Fun facts I plan on adding in the future if I decide to turn this fic into a long fic (curse my ambitious bones):

Sage is there, and to everyone's surprise, she's the only one that Sonic remembers consistently regardless of what state of amnesia he's in.

Shadow shows up to act as a Leading Expert On Dealing With Amnesiac People, and does a surprisingly good job at it.

Tails has to work with Eggman to build an apparatus strong enough to keep Sonic from escaping while they figure out how to get The End out of him. Angst (but also a strange bit of understanding?) ensues.

Eventual Eggdad content between him and all of these funky teenagers?? Where he starts to show concern even for Sonic???

(Un)authorized use of the Master Emerald

Exploring the nature of Sage's use of "backups" of herself- is it really her if she's a backup of a backup? Does it matter?

#I just thought it was a neat idea for Sonic to turn to Eggman as a means of keeping himself in check #recognizing Eggman as the world-leading expert on Sonic Detainment(TM) #plus you get all the biblically inaccurate amnesia angst where sonic's only remembering up to certain points of the timeline #sonic only being able to remember tails. sonic forgetting tails. #shadow showing up when sonic's memory only goes up to just after sonic adventure 2 and sonic crying of relief in seeing shadow alive again #and of course the good ol' classic malicious entity using sonic's body as a vessel to taunt at/insult his friends #you get the picture #lots and lots of self-indulgent angst in this one

[unproduciblesmackdown]

you Know that phil is So [lying on his bed beaming writing in his diary kicking his legs] about liking orville

#would he keep a diary? on the one hand: writer. on the other hand: could be too busy (probably with the being a writer) #but other than that. just an immediately cheerful dynamic that only becomes More So #you've got phil doing the private little wave to orville even before he knows he has cause to work with him further #his little paroxysm of delight over orville's spontaneous melody in the lucky day scene #''what a guy!!!'' #walking him home!!! modulations!!! #the power as well in that orville may also be generally cheerful But Like #especially regarding phil given that say: we can observe the moment when orville shows up in the 'til we meet again scene #where everyone is besides phil is some degree of outwardly perturbed & orville is entirely =] Just on the basis of phil's Energy.... #(& from there becoming a bit more perturbed himself but After Their Duet he is not only once again entirely =] but is not discouraged from #it by even the more overt unraveling of affairs) #closing my eyes thinking of the lucky day scene thinking of the 'til we meet again scene thinking of summer stock '23 thank you All... #summer stock #orvphil #meanwhile like orville re: liking phil being like. as we see it is the Relief like ah whew; my dynamic / relationship with phil =] #not to say he can't/doesn't have paroxysms any more than phil isn't also / can't be calmed down smoothed over thx to orville lol #just a whole relationship here of Pleasant Surprises & Delight & nothing doing the trick like a little luck #and then of course you happened along....

[thepinkseashell]

<3

#before its not boston2's birthday anymore i have to make a sentimental little post about her. because i love her. so here goes. #that day actually kind of changed my life a little bit. #i had been very deeply unwell for years and i think that was the day that a little switch flipped in me and the ice began to melt #and i started to be okay. #i dont think i had ever experienced that type of sheer joy and elation and relief and catharsis and it just sortof sent a shock to my system #like. this is real! you are real! you are alive! #you are capable of feeling and existing and being so do it! go. exist. be. live. breathe. and god did i fucking try #and i cant say it was suddenly easy after that. of course not. it is still not quite easy now. but its gotten better. little by little #i started doing things more. i started seeing myself more as human. #and things sort of snowballed and now i feel like im on the cusp of something. i dont know what. #the cusp of living. the cusp of being alive. the cusp of being human. #its the same but different. i was so very dead and just barely teetering into not dead and now im not dead and teetering into alive. i think #i am not substantially different than i was a year ago. not on paper. but i have hope now. i have a little sliver of something. #i have clawed at the wall long enough to dig a hole and goddamn it im climbing through it if it kills me. #boston2 was a catalyst for me. a celebration. an invitation. an apology. a love letter. a hug. a kiss. it was my permission to be okay. #and maybe i am. maybe i will be. #i love you boston2. thank you for everything. i will exist. i will live. i will breathe. and my first breath will be for you.

[cronagorgonzola]

The biggest difference ive noticed after moving from massachusetts to washington is that the food is way better here. And i dont mean that the cooking is better, i mean all of the food is just. Better. The dairy is higher quality. The produce tastes better. Something about the cooking oil here makes every fried thing ive tried taste so much better than anything ive had before. Ive even been able to try broccoli a couple times, and while i didnt exactly enjoy it, i was able to eat it without my mouth completely rejecting it due to my sensory issues.

I never thought "move to washington" would be such an important step in dealing with my disordered eating but here i am

#.txt #i am still struggling with disordered eating but at least 'all food disgusts me' is a much less common issue #like. back in massachusetts even some of my safe foods were starting to disgust me #to the point that i had convinced myself i just hate eating #of course. sensory issues are not the only factor cobtributing to my disordered eating so #now that i dont always hate eating im gonna have to like. emotionally prepare myself for the consequences of enjoying food #i try not to judge myself for my weight but what can i say. getting skinny was a relief after being bullied for being fat my whole life

[quietwingsinthesky]

btw I’ve been thinking about that time in s7 where dean thought sam stole the impala because he was hallucinating the devil and dean’s response was to track him down and punch him in the face for it. what the fuck.

#neeed to write a hallucifer addendum to that episode need to #hallucifer post-dean hitting sam sitting by sam’s side like ‘well *i* believe you that Amy deserves a second chance. #of course you would give her one Sam. you’re so good like that. you would give me a second chance too wouldn’t you.’ #hallucifer asking sam if his face still hurts later. reminding sam of the bruises. coaxing sam over to the fridge to get an icepack. #cold cold relief over Sam’s hurt that dean caused and hallucifer gets to nestle a little deeper in his trust. all because Dean overreacted. #i just think dean’s actions all should have driven Sam away from him and towards Lucifer. #like a twisted parallel to s5 and the endverse scenario. #and all right AFTER him standing in that warehouse promising to be Sam’s anchor to reality. #like do you know how much it would torture Dean to know that not only did he fail. that he pushed sam away with his own actions. #no one made him. it was all him. and now Sam trusts a hallucination of the devil more than him. #spn #sam winchester #dean winchester #hallucifer

[aubstacle-of-course]

It’s crazy how you can tell how badly injured you are by how intensely the arnica burns lol

#like I know it doesn’t have to do with location bc the effects will be totally different in the same location #depending on how bad the soreness/injury or whatever is #also depending on if it’s the type of injury the arnica can actually help with of course #I think this is the first time I’ve ever felt the effects this strongly for this long #like it took a min to kick in but that shit BURNED the most intensely I think I have ever felt it #and it’s like an hour later and I can STILL feel that shit #usually the burning goes away after like 15 min max and I just feel relief #I must really have let myself get fucked up #whoops

[todaviia]

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#About an hour ago everybody who had the app of the Israeli home front command installed got a message #saying go to a protected room immediately and stay there until further notice - #All around the whole country people got this #we saw it and from friends and from my boyfriends family also who shared it on WhatsApp and called and tried to figure out #what was going on because there was absolutely zero further information #and this was directly after the (since disproven) aircraft invasion alert for all cities in Northern Israel #So for a few minutes we all thought the only thing that could cause this would be an actual atomic bomb #and it turned out to be just a false alarm #which was obviously an immense feeling of relief #but at the same time - it's this feeling of. Profound helplessness #it's just one dumb mistake and it can make you literally think your life and the life of everybody around you could be over #and every part of this is like this #somebody says oh Lebanon is invading and somebody says oh Syria is firing at us #and you start flinching at every loud sound #and of course you know that this is also happening to people in Gaza who don't have any sort of shelter at all #and it's so crazy #like it's not just that this situation is beyond my control #it's that this situation is beyond ANYONES control #and this was literally just a mistake #but it just messes with your head so much