#they are so special to me u have No idea

[heyitsspaceace]

crowley is for the gifted students who were told they were smart and special, only later to be cast aside and punished for “straying” from their expectations.

crowley is for the ones who were treated horribly so they became harsher on the outside to protect themselves.

crowley is for the people who worked so hard to change, only for others to say they miss the old version of them.

crowley is for the children who’s parents payed no mind to their creations and hung their crayon drawings on the fridge themselves, only for them to be taken down.

#*taps the head of a demon* #this bad boy can fit so much projection in him #crowley is so incredibly special to me u have NO idea #the love i have for them is INSANE #good omens 2 #good omens #good omens crowley #crowley #anthony j crowley #go2 #david tennant

[400terahertz]

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#.kra #no id #kh vanitas #vanitas kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts fanart #was reading thr novdl for the first time properly yesterday #and i really think vanitas should be faceless by default #he assumes soras appearance automatically from ven joining their hearts 2gether #but thats just the first of appearances that he can take #but his default is being faceless. most of the time under his mask hes like thT #I think he would probably have imagined soras face to be his own unique one. and then eventually learns that its not #to quote repliku. wverything about him is borrowed #he would use it to fuck witn people. especially aqua in bbs #he assumes vens appearance to provoke her #and will also assume hers as well. specially when he talks about her being a keyblade master #but he also takes on vens face subconsciously when hes emotional. like the excerpts in the novel where hes trying 2 feel vens heart #but he cant do exact appearances #he always keeps the red eyes and black hair and scars #so u know its him. but aqua hates him doing it in bbs bcus she views it as like #him twisting their images #also i like this idea to parallel xion #that vanitas has a lot of faces but not one true face #and xion has one face but is seen as every face but her true one #basically. trans weirdness #if u actually read this thank u for letting me deranged #kingdom hearts #i forgor the tag

[sysig]

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#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0 #Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread #Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers #Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha #The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax! #Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!! #It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!! #Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u; #Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to - #Until it comes to his eye #Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/ #It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh #For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear #It's so sad ;; And so well done <3 #And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl #Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :') #Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it #Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone? #''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really #Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔 #That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :) #I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol) #I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers! #Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally #Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose

[akechi-if-he-slayed]

imo the perfect series finale for south park would be for them to dedicate their last couple of seasons to their junior + senior year of high school (yes live action because i think it would be awesome if done right, not insanely gritty and emo like riverdale). same startling humor and amusement, but kind of with a slightly more mature feel (because they are teenagers now after all; even though they don’t exactly “act their age” in the show, you can still tell their naive youth plays a big factor in a lot of their reasonings and motivations behind their actions and decisions) like yeah, they’re still being stupid and getting caught up in the weirdest shit, but this time they’re being dumb teenagers instead of dumb kids. also! feel like romance would definitely be a core thing, because you know. teenage hormones. no explicit scenes, but definitely make outs and the like, and their relationships would play a more crucial factor in the show. for example, i think that at the start of the live-action saga, wendy and stan would still be entertaining their on-and-off-again-friends-who-make-out-and-have-a-different-response-each-day-if-you-ask-whether-or-not-they’re-together and pretty soon, they’d eventually just break it off for good, and that would be a major coming of age moment for stan as he realizes he was only staying with wendy because she was “safe” and reminded him of being a kid.

PROM EPISODE (for junior year)!!! it would be so lit. huge, huge potential there to get everyone dolled up. stan and wendy would already be broken up by that time, so naturally stan and kyle would just go together as FRIENDS. MUTUAL BACHELORS. DEFINITELY NOTHING MORE….not like kyle turned down heidi’s ask because “i don’t want stan to feel alone” even though cartman and kenny don’t have dates either? also stan definitely doesn’t sneak a bottle in and definitely doesn’t skulk outside and kyle definitely doesn’t find him and just. sits and talks and just laughs and talks shit with him outside for the rest of the night and nothing is said about any sort of feelings kyle might have (if he’s even fully aware of them yet now that stan is 100% available for the first time in years) but. you can tell, everyone can tell that something is there, something is starting.

main highlights for this adaptation idea!

- bebe (cheer captain!) and wendy (heavily involved in asb, voted president senior year; there’s a whole episode dedicated to her campaign against kyle at the end of junior year, she wins by just a few votes) as the queens of the school, most popular girls (bebe in more of a gorgeous-can-have-any-guy-do-whatever-she-wants-and-have-them-all-want-her kind of way and wendy in a beautiful-and-powerful-top-of-the-class-but-definitely-not-an-outcast way)

- cartman still cartman but not nearly as volatile as he once was, still generally considered to be a dick, though. at first glance you think he’s a stupid football player meathead, but he’s actually incredibly smart when he wants to be, kyle is annoyed by this every time he shares an ap period with him and he actually does well.

- ordered class rankings (top 5): wendy (valedictorian), kyle, butters, cartman, heidi

- shelley moved across the country for college the second she graduated, so it’s just stan, randy, and sharon. naturally he spends the night at kyle’s so often that he leaves an overnight bag there and the broflovskis are never surprised to see him stumble out of kyle’s room in the morning

- bendy canon literally like two months after permanent stendy breakup. poor stan is helplessly confused: “has she been a lesbian this whole time????? did she think i was feminine??? is that why we were together for so long???”

- creek thriving as per

- kenny does musical theater and show choir. greatly enjoys it! butters is always front row and has never missed a performance.

- kyle captain of the debate team! wendy is vp, and there’s kind of been a weird tension between them ever since stendy split, you can practically hear her say “i know what you are.”

- stan enjoys volunteering at an animal shelter whenever he can, he keeps this a secret for as long as physically possible and this becomes a big plot point as he makes up increasingly suspicious and not very believable stories and excuses as for why he is rarely available after school despite having no job or clubs. rumors that spread: | randy has managed to get access to harder drugs and is using stan to deal them across south park | stan is a whore-for-hire and will give you an excellent bj if you pay up and meet him somewhere discreet (cartman started that one) | stan is part of a crime group conspiring to kill the mayor and control the city (this one has him end up at the police station with his head in his hands).

- gerald really wants kyle to be a lawyer and practically has all of his schools picked out for him, thereby unintentionally giving his son an existential crisis on what the heck he wants to do with his life because he does not want to do what his dad does but he also doesn’t have a good enough alternative to combat him.

- heavily hinted bunny, it’s literally right there but they tell everyone they’re just friends. ongoing gag of them being caught in compromising and/or suspicious positions but somehow having a seemingly reasonable explanation each time.

- college decisions would for sure be a big plot point towards the middle of their senior year, especially for kyle. he only applies to two schools and is accepted to both of them: princeton (college of his parents, their pick for him to study pre-law) and stanford (his pick, unknown to his parents that he even applied, to study psychology). yes it is absolutely insane that he only applied to two ivy leagues but what is even more insane is that his parents only wanted him to apply to princeton and no other schools. haha well now he has to explain to them that he is going to california and is not following their carefully constructed plan for his future haha

- stan is similar to shelley, he doesn’t really care where he goes as long as he gets to leave south park! he also knows he wants to do some sort of career helping animals but is unsure what exactly, so he just puts zoology as his major and applies to a lot of different schools. he ends up committing to uc davis! sharon is incredibly proud of him and cries when she sees the acceptance letter, randy is kind of bitter because he wanted stan to stay and help out with the farm since shelley booked it but eventually comes around (also stan would’ve gotten a job at 7/11 before he started working at tegridy alongside his dad).

- butters gets accepted to the university of rochester for biomedical sciences. kenny doesn’t plan on going to college, but him and butters decide to share a flat in the city, and kenny works odd jobs while also doing performances at various clubs in the at the area. also him and butters choosing to live together across the country is purely platonic!!! there is nothing romantic going on at all, they are just really good friends!! nobody buys this anymore

- cartman literally gets accepted to ucla on a full ride football scholarship for business management and it makes kyle want to tear him to shreds! liane would’ve absolutely somehow paid for his entire tuition anyway if she had to

i feel like the length of each episode would be about 45 minutes with the series finale being like 90 minutes, the first half being their graduation with wendy giving an incredibly corny yet oddly emotional speech as valedictorian that pretty much summarizes their entire lives in south park. and then the second half would kind of be just like providing conclusions and tying up loose ends such as:

- shelley flying back home for stan’s graduation and reconciling with him; she’s a junior at NYU and actually became a lot nicer and at peace with the world + herself after she was able to leave colorado

- randy actually having a good father-son moment with stan as they discuss his going off to school in california; stan realizes that his father definitely is not great, but he maybe also isn’t the worst person in the world

- a moment of “this is the last we’re ever gonna be like this, huh?” when the main four are hanging out at cartman’s, traditional teen paranoia of the future

- bunny finally 100% confirmed as scene shows with Kenny having his arm loosely hung around butters on someone’s couch, lightly pressed kiss on his cheek

ok i have a lot more but my #1 idea for the finale would be this:

- stan and kyle just aimlessly hanging out in the latter’s room about a week or two after graduation, easily talking about everything from college to music to new films to their friends; just enjoying each other’s company before fall comes (they are unbelievably dramatic. uc davis and stanford are like a hour’s drive away from each other but coming from best friends who have lived in the same city together their entire lives, an hour away may as well be a whole ass country away)

- occasional comfortable silence. kyle has come to terms with his feelings about stan at this point, but has chosen not to act on it in favor of keeping his longest friendship intact. nobody knows, he never told a soul. unbeknownst to him, stan has been accumulating the same feelings towards kyle, but likewise has been keeping them sealed tightly in so as not to ruin anything.

- eventually, they somehow start talking about relationships. stan never dated anyone else after breaking up with wendy at the start of junior year, and kyle has never truly dated anyone, not if you don’t count a faint fling with some loud city girl when he spent most of sophomore year summer with his mom’s family in new jersey. he came back from summer break more certain than ever that he was 100% gay. he recounts this story to stan for the first time (he’d been too embarrassed to tell anyone when he had come home) and it’s met with an enormous fit of laughter.

- they start talking about how weird it is to love someone, to have these strong urges and desires towards someone in a way that’s entirely unprovoked. to feel like you would do absolutely anything for this person, and to have life be unfathomable without them. they both agree on all their points, but no names are mentioned though!

- it’s the early morning hours before stan realizes how long they’ve been talking, and despite knowing he could stay the night, he decides to head home, suddenly flushed and overwhelmed with some sort of..something. does he really love kyle that much? in that way?

- the air is lightly tense as he leaves, kyle left feeling confused and slightly perturbed. against his butter judgment, he chases after stan outside, as he’s placing his key in his driver-side door to unlock his car.

- “wait!”

- stan turns his head, looking puzzled and faintly apprehensive. it’s summer, so the early morning is not bone-chillingly cold, yet also not as scorching hot as it will be come afternoon. it’s the perfect temperature, and it’s the perfect time, and before he knows what he’s doing, his feet are carrying his stiff, trembling body towards stan, whose eyes tell a thousand pictures despite his frame not moving a muscle.

- he stops in front of stan so that they’re gazing slowly, directly, meaningfully into each other’s eyes, and stan feels his throat go dry and his mind go blissfully blank. it’s slow and tender, the gentle yet firm way kyle stares up into his eyes, like he’s been waiting a lifetime for it (and he probably has) and he can feel his familiar breath whispering across his face, and all of sudden the careful movements, the gentle intention, all of it is gone in a flash.

- the very last scene of the very last episode of south park shows kyle slam his lips against stan’s, and then, lips still pressed together, the show ends.

#that was a lot wasn’t it #guys im sorry ive actually been fleshing out this idea on my head for so long #i have so many more ideas for this but i want this to be semi concise lol #can’t fit them all in might add as they come to me! #thank you so much if you read all of this mind jumble #live action high school south park is actually something that is so very special to me #i will also accept teenage south park in form of a graphic novel or comic series #thank u very much! #just wanna see these insane children act like insane teens is that too much to ask! #matt and trey boy have i got an idea for YOU! #make this happen and i promise we the people will be watching #thank you for your time everyone #live action south park #south park #sp style #sp bunny #sp bendy #south park high school au #side note here so i don’t add more cornball to the post: song to introduce the credits as kyle kisses stan would be #dog days are over #yeah #those dog days are really over for them!! #the kids are gonna be alright #yes i took beautifully talented singer kenny from the circus episode and RAN WITH IT

[vintage-brass-tc]

TC Vent? Even though U and I are still on good terms, it’s just sort of a brain dump about recent events and how they’ve been affecting my mindset.

It’s so tough to support him and love him in everything he wants, when that “everything” could possibly include another girl, a staff member, who is so compatible with him and is always found talking to or laughing with him, making similar gestures that he does, acting similar to him in tiny, barely noticeable ways, and is so talented in ways that he would probably love in a woman. And, obviously, she’s around his age too….which is so perfect for him, but it really hurts me

A week or two ago, we spent the whole jazz class teasing him about the possibility of him liking this girl, and I was egging him on and teasing him so much about how smiley he was, explaining to him just why we all thought they’d be perfect together; I told him about their chemistry and how closely they stood to each other and their similar behaviors, etcetera, telling him every little thing I noticed that would be so, so perfect for him. In that moment, I felt so happy, playfully messing with U and making him all smiley and helpless, covering his face, to the point where, in a hushed, flustered voice, with wide, desperate eyes, he told me to stop making fun of just how giddy he was. I laughed at his desperation and his cute, antsy attitude. It reminded me of myself.

But it was about another girl, someone who I think is probably perfect for him. Part of me wants to believe that one of the reasons he asked me to stop, among sparing him more embarrassment, was because he might have known that the thought of the two together would eat me up inside. And if he was thinking that…he’d be right. As the school day had continued, I went from being all giggly and smiley to finally realizing that he would have someone perfect for him. Someone who would give him the love that I would have given, someone who would make his life more fun and full of surprise and adventure, someone who he could focus all of his attention on.

If the two of them actually got together….I, naturally, would support them in every endeavor. Because I love him, and want the best for him, and I know the girl would treat him well. But that would also mean that it’d be the end of my (fantastical) relationship with him. My delusional interpretations of our extended moments of eye contact, the way he would say my name, his body language around me, the way he’d smile or laugh or tease. All of that would be over…. but at least he would be happy.

Since then, apart from one brief mention of her, I never heard him talk about her again. In fact, they haven’t been around each other that often either. And things with him and I have resumed as normal….with the interactions that leave my face red and a smile etched on my lips by the end of class.

But after all of that time spent encouraging him that she was perfect for him, and that there was something there between them, even if he’s never brought it up after that, the entire ordeal kind of snapped my mind back into reality. Ever since then, bit by bit, I’ve become sort of depressed and miserable at the thought of my infatuation with him, because I now recognize how impossible that would really be. A girl like me, young but not super smart or confident or attractive or talented, could never compete with a lot of other girls who are his age, and have a more stereotypically attractive body type.

It’s just super unrealistic, and while I still love him to bits, and still desire to have something with him (a desire I would never follow through with, of course), I have to accept the truth. Though he is so perfect in every way, shape, and form, and even my father mentioned that this director of mine, so devoted, genuine, driven, and humorous, would be the exact type of person that he sees me having a committed relationship with in the future…. it probably won’t happen. Even if he were to love me too…. I don’t know how it could ever work out.

It’s just tough to recognize that.

#It’s funny that someone so special to me and someone who has caused me so much happiness could tank my positive mindset so much #But it’s just because I care way too much #And sometimes I think about the idea of loving someone that would actually be there for me and would fulfill my desires but #he’s the only one that could actually do that for me #out of everyone I have met #so sometimes I feel like I will never find someone like him #there will never be better #and sometimes I even think about asking U to listen to me and help me through this insecurity of mine but #that would be kind of ironic #❤️ #U #personal #teacher crush #teacher crush community #tc community #tc #tcc #tc vent #tc thoughts #teacher attachment #tc feelings #tc ramblings #tc moments #tc stories #male tc #tc post #tcc post #coming to terms

[seokwoosmole]

Pro tip for any fantasy still recovering from the reality of this whole sf8 situation: what you DONT want to do is turn on YouTube at 4am and watch their entire Kpop Nation Warsaw performance, followed up by the music show performances of the songs they sang, and finish up by watching the video where they get their first win.

Consequence: Bawling your eyes out over a bowl of Count Chocula

No, I don't speak from experience. Absolutely not...Just giving sound advice.

#imma be honest #watching/listening to scream was so easy #but any other song #OOF #Without fail every single time I was like #oh that's Rowoon's part :( #and this isn't a knock to the other members at all #taeyang & dawon covered most of his parts and they did it so well!! #sf9 is one of the few groups where each member is so special & talented & integral to the group #yet if members are missing the other members have no issue filling in the gap #like they make u FORGET there is a gap like if I've never heard of sf9 & saw them perform I wouldn't think they were incomplete at all #like idk why it makes me so emotional cuz I went thru scream era fine & saw the delight tour and was SO FINE #like during that concert was I thinking boo hoo this would be so much better with rowoon here? NO! #I SAW THE 6 MEMBERS IN FRONT OF ME & IT WAS THE MOST PERFECT EXPERIENCE & I HAD NO ONE ELSE IN MY MIND #but in the back of my head I was like NEXT TIME they'll be complete...but ig now I don't have that to cling to #was it a bad idea to put myself thru that? probably #but I WILL be streaming their fancon & binseong will be back & idc that they won't see me #but I will not be a sobbing mess crying over a member who's not there anymore when 2 members who've been gone for so long just came back #that sounds harsh but its the truth so I needed to warm up #anyway buy ur tickets to fandora!! #sf9 #youngbin #inseong #jaeyoon #dawon #rowoon #zuho #taeyang #hwiyoung #chani

[airenyah]

you know what after weeks of following bad buddy on a weekly basis, after living through the ep12 preview (derogatory) and the following week of hell, after living through the ep12 drop, after living through months of dread and terror regarding the looming bbs special eps, after living through that first promising bbs our skyy week, i gotta say.....

i've finally learned to trust p'aof. i'm actually going into today's ep kind of excited and fairly hopeful

do not break that trust @p'aof bc like not to be dramatic but i swear to god if you do i will never be trusting anyone ever again

#I KNOW BEING OPTIMISTIC IS A BAD IDEA HI #but the thing is. i was SO pessimistic for ep12 and also the specials (so far) #and every single time p'aof has pulled a bitch u thought on me #so now i can't help it #bad idea bad idea bad idea i'm chewing on glass #no really the ending of this is gonna make it or break it oh god #so normal about os2: bbs :) #airenyah plappert #our skyy 2 #os2: bbs #os2: aofverse #adrm #i generally don't have trust issues but uh. i might be about to develop some #yikes

[thedevilsrain]

dori.

#weekly dorian dump of when i go thru the eroica raws i have saved #he is so special to me u have no idea #led zeppelin shoujo yaoi manga tag

[natsmagi]

happy 1yr anniversary to when the illness festered. i had no idea what i was getting myself into. To think it has been 1 year and im still this fucked up from it. love you wonder game

#i had been on a little switch story binge #i had read element and pleiades bc i saw ppl recommending them #but i had no idea that wonder game was significant at ALL #but i am the BIGGEST sucker for alice in wonderland. the 1951 animated movie was my favorite movie ever #and i would watch it CONSTANTLY when i was a kid #my earliest memories consisting of me just knowing how much i loved this film #and well anyway i remembered natsume had an alice card so i was like omg! i really should read that!! #and to get myself in the mood i even rewatched the 1951 film because i thought itd be a fun little refresher before i began reading #I DID NOT. EXPECT THE STORY TO MAKE ME CRY #AND I DID NOT EXPECT THE STORY TO MAKE ME A NATSUMUGIER #THIS STORY CAUSED IT ALL. IT RUINED ME. ALL BECAUSE I WANTED TO READ A SILLY LITTLE STORY WITH ELEMENTS BASED OFF #MY FIRST EVER SPECIAL INTEREST. ABSOLUTELY SICKENING #HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABE IM FUCKING RUINED FOREVER #nat rambles #i dont think u guys realize how deep my love for switch goes #bc like everything about them is a reminder of everything ive ever loved and found comfort in throughout my life #especially my younger years #they really do just bring me such unbelievable amounts of joy i almost feel undeserving to have something resonate this deeply with me #because thats how deep it goes #BUT ANYWAY #i cant show vulnerability online. Pretend i didnt say anything. #cant have people find out im a real person with real feelings with unique experiences in life that shaped the person you see before u today

[kimdokjas]

hey! so i want to read orv after seeing you post about it for a bit but im not sure where i should start- i was hoping you could tell me how you got into it ??? anyway hope you're having a good day:)

hi omg yes of course!! legit SO excited to help spread the orv agenda, prepare to have your brain chemistry permanently altered by it fr (not clickbait)

orv stands for omniscient reader's viewpoint and it's first and foremost a webnovel, but there's also a currently ongoing manhwa adaptation (also there's a live-action movie in pre-production so you're joining the orv train at the perfect time actually)

not to oversell it but the novel is, no joke, the best piece of fiction i've read in my entire life. because of its heavy metanarrative elements, orv really is meant to be read as a novel—it's literally a love letter to its readers.

HOWEVER, i actually highly recommend starting out with the manhwa first, which is how i got into it! i feel like the manhwa is more engaging at the beginning and helps you visualize the characters and setting better. once you get a good grasp on the cast and the overall gist of the plot, you can always switch to the novel!

i personally made the switch after ep 98 of the manhwa and i'd suggest doing the same bc it just hits a lot harder in the novel at that point (plus the manhwa takes away some of the internal narration that literally recontextualizes that whole arc but i digress)

as for where you can read it:

you can find the manhwa on webtoon here (there's also an app if you prefer reading on mobile)

and you can find the novel here

(btw i fully rec starting the novel from the beginning once you make the switch! it might seem a bit repetitive at first, but you actually pick up on a lot of foreshadowing during the second read + you get to see some scenes that were changed / removed in the manhwa!)

beyond that i'll just say that the story only keeps getting better, trust me. it's probably the only one i've read where it just builds and builds and never stops and the payoff during the epilogue is 10000% worth the ride <3

hope you're having a lovely day as well!! and i really hope you enjoy the absolute insanity that is orv hehe

#also!!! pls blacklist the 'orv spoilers' tag #i'd hate to accidentally spoil it for you!! #even if you're like 'i don't mind spoilers!' no pls i'm grabbing u by the shoulders pls blacklist it #also do NOT look up anything about it bc everywhere u look is just a landmine of spoilers #(it's 100% enjoyable even w spoilers ofc!! orv is a celebration of the narrative and doesn't just rely on shock value. but imo it's— #a lot more fun when u have no idea what's going on lmao and the foreshadowing just keeps u guessing) #also not to get into it here but. novel ch 108 is literally so special to me personally. i feel like we don't talk about it enough #i'm so glad i got to read it in the novel first and not the manhwa #not me full on rambling in the tags 💀 anyways #ask #anonymous #orv

[eversncenewyork]

on todays episode of: am i a huge c*nt or did my date last night rly fuck up?

#like it was actually such a nice date until he couldn’t take no for an answer #and two years ago i would’ve just fucked him bc it was easier #but i stuck to my guns and thankfully all he was was pushy not malicious #so that’s on growth ig #ugh it’s rough out here u guys #and ofc T texted me for valentine’s day when i purposefully didn’t text him #and he said ‘a rather nontraditional valentines to you mon cherie’ and then ‘you have a very special place in my heart’ #you absolute bastard you are so beautiful and stupid and i love you please come kiss me :( #theoretically we’re ending it once and for all in march so OF COURSE he’s getting sentimental and of course so am i #and it’s my idea because i want and deserve real committed love #and i want it from him too badly to find it while im seeing him probably #but god i will be so sad #with nothing to show for it #not one christmas in my hometown or one i love you in the middle of the night or one romantic dinner or one fucking new years kiss #not one picture of the two of us (fully clothed) #it’s like we walked so far our feet hurt but the footprints are all on the shoreline #i am melancholy and prosaic now apologies

[witchofthevale]

random commentary down below

i started this blog just to read fanfics on tumblr so i only have one tag for fic recs, and its not really, properly curated jsdhjhd so i kinda wanna fix my tag system, and saw some people have like. a library post?? and i thought that was so cool?? so if you see me glitch here and there with my tag system and the like ajhsjahs that's why!!

like apart from just for me, to have things in order, for those who wanna peruse, i really do wanna fix it so if there's a specific character you're obsessing over, you can just. scroll with a chee approved stamp. hehehe (its not much of a stamp, its legit all the fics i've read thus far hejsdhjsdh)

#im also thinking about like a separate 'shelf' for fave fics of the month?? #or series fics i wanna make a special shout out for bc serieses ya'll... theyre hard kjsdhsjkdh #i should also separate fandoms like theres a twitch in my eye that hotd fics & st fics are in the same tag chee why r u like this #also thinking if i can do different tagged pieces like #comfort fics & angsty pieces that make u wanna vibe to a rainstorm #yknow???? #god i have too many ideas ya'll im so sorry #so if u see me shift & post stupid crap its just me fixing things im so sorry sjdhsjdh #i also wanna separate dark & dead dove fics!!! #elle needs to shut up

[dgaftilwedie]

literally obsessed with thomas thorne rn........... he is so precious i want to hold him in my arms............ thank god for the lovely fanfic writers for giving me inspiration to write for him...............

#kira momentz :3 #u guyz have no idea #he is so so special to me

[princekirijo]

What is the big difference between regular Riku and black mask Riku? Like what changed in his story to change his motivations and methods?

Thanks for the ask :]

So Black Mask AU (or Black Captain/Dark Captain I haven't entirely settled on a name) is a new game plus AU and that's important to explain the changes in his motivations!

The AU starts exactly the same as Captain, Riku moves to Tokyo, Hatanaka is a piece of shit to him, he meets the thieves and they start investigating her palace. However this time round, something in the palace goes wrong and the thieves end up failing the deadline. And failing the deadline for Hatanaka's palace... results in Riku's death :] (putting it shortly Riku is more useful to her dead than alive so she has him killed)

That should have been the end of him, however he wakes up immediately after getting shot. After being understandably disorientated he realizes he's somehow been transported to 2/3 years prior to the events of Captain (a couple of months before he was due to move to Tokyo) and he has all his memories intact, right up until the point he was shot.

This understandably messes him up a lot because he went through hell and on top of that he remembers everything he learnt during Hatanaka's palace (I won't go into much of that as its spoilers for the main AU). He also decides to go into the Metaverse in Port Island because he still has access to it, and its here he awakens to his black mask persona (Mordred who I ADORE lmao) and where he first kills someone (albeit by accident).

As for his motivations someone put it really well once, spite in general is a huge motivator for Riku in both AUs! Black Mask Riku basically takes the idea of him being motivated by spite to a whole new level, as his main goal in the AU is to get revenge on those who wronged him and who caused his death in the original timeline. He's here and alive in spite of these people and he is sure as hell going to make their life hell.

#asks #anonymous #oc tag #riku kirijo #black captain au #im not good with au titles lmao #i hope this answers your question :3c if you've anything u want me to clarify let me know 🥺 #i really love my aus and this one is prob one of my favs #its basically just riku has gone through so much and he is TIRED #as me and nico said he came back bitter and he's about to make it everyone's problem lmao #the working idea is that hes operating on his own #i had considered him working for shido alongside goro but im not sure i like that idea as much #either him and goro still don't get on LMAOO #but they have crossed paths in the metaverse either way #riku is very much 'this is MY bloody path and i will walk it ALONE' #hes a drama queen what can i say #i need to sort out his new outfit too but its very souls esque teehee i can confirm that mcuh #and mordred my special dragon persona my beloved #you can actually find an old design of both his outfit and mordred but they both look a lot different now lol #but seriously thank u for the ask <33

[stinkbeck]

everyone who has ever been like consistently kind 2 me... u literally have no idea how much it's meant 2 me.

#like i've been so desperate my whole life for kindness. if u never asked me 2 call myself crazy or change my memories for you #u truly have no idea how much u have helped me lol #like just the evidence that someone out there could give a shit about me at all without me editing my memories or experiences #... sorting back through everything i'm able 2 call myself a person finally because there were moments where people didn't make #me change my memories for them so i was able 2 remember the truth of the experience and not just tuck it away as some #surreal thing that shouldn't have happened. like i was loved briefly anyway. even though everything was so messy there was a person #or two who still wanted to just be friends and laugh with me even in all my flaws and inability 2 act like my life made sense #like i wasn't singled out with them. i was just another friend. that's really special. and idk i haven't encountered it often.