#thinking about dds this evening

[elendsessor]

i may be crucified for this opinion but

one of the many reasons i think dds deserves a remake is just how little impact some of the characters have and it’s really fucking sad. unless they’re party members or antagonistic forces they don’t get nearly as much screen time as they deserve and i think that hurts them as characters???

jinana and lupa especially. i get the setting of the first game is a battle royale that turned into a cannibal battle royale so of course not everyone could live but they kinda didn’t get as much screen time as they deserved. i mean think about it they kinda just exist to introduce their tribe, interact with the embryon for a bit, disappear, reappear once or twice, then next time you see them they’ve succumbed to hunger, you beat the shit out of them, and they end up dying. what little they are given does make you like them don’t get me wrong but a lot of that rides on dialogue which, as someone who loves seeing people experience certain plot stuff of games i enjoy, i kinda noticed that it was a really mixed result. it’s either “oh no anyways” with maybe the player getting a little melancholic when they get brought up again or the player doesn’t care. considering how important their struggles and mini arcs are that’s not good??? the fact that they exist solely to develop argilla and gale is a shame since unless you like the exchanges they have their deaths don’t have that big of an impact. they do get mentions and all that in 2 yet it kinda just. makes me question it more from the standpoint of what could’ve been done with them or the giant emotional aftermath that should’ve happened. this isn’t to say they can’t die or whatever but considering the interesting conflicts dds introduces and how it already struggled to explore it as much as it could’ve, jinana and lupa really did have the potential to help remedy some of those issues.

and then there’s fred aka the smokey of dds. i still don’t know why he exists except to explain why lupa somewhat knows what a child is and to introduce the existence of tiny humans to the gang. i’m sorry i straight up forget he was a character at points.

qds fixed a lot of this yes yet i still think it’s important to point out on a game standpoint, since most people who play dds don’t end up reading qds, and i really don’t think actual important contextual stuff or major aspects of a game’s themes should be exclusive to books. it’s not as bad as something like fnaf or other mascot horrors—that shit was over a decade later—but it is a major writing issue and i don’t think the fact that the original lead writer got sick and had to leave means there wasn’t a writing decline. you can tell there was stuff that was going to be built upon only to be abandoned or underdeveloped.

it’s extra sad because this is straight up one of the best instances of world-building the series has ever had, and the whole cannibalistic character drama mixed with spiritual and buddhist + hindu themes is something so inherently interesting while also being in some ways taboo??? there’s not a lot of games out there at least not made by indie developers that get that risky since it’s not marketable, and something like that is next to nonexistent now in the mainstream market. we fuckin need games like the dds duology that challenge the status quo and goddammit if it got expanded upon and had more development for side characters that would be actually perfect.

#thinking about dds this evening #kinda wanna also express the bad writing decisions wasn’t exclusive to side characters #i’m still mad over what happened with heat he’s genuinely interesting but got demoted to a simp #and just making him a secondary antagonist in 2 was a bad move i’m sorry but that whole thing was wasted potential #gale is the only character that actually got development and stayed consistently great writing wise #that and argilla but she wasn’t really as there as she was in 1 #they made cielo white and the comedic relief which. hey at least he’s fun and you can’t hate him it’s impossible #idk i have a ton of issues with dds on a writing standpoint. i love the duology but i also kinda don’t sometimes on a game standpoint #shantien rambles #dds #ddsat #digital devil saga

[owlyflufff]

haikyu's dumpster batte is only going to be around 1 hour and 24 minutes, oh it's genuinely bokuakaover

#knowing that we're likely not going to get an ova too is painful <//3 #m sorry to go off on a bit of a tangent #but I can't help but feel bitter that an actually good series with coherence and amazing characters just gets treated like this #and series like jjk and demon slayer get to have such good adaptations? #I don't hate both series btw as I watch them myself but even I have more criticisms in their story and charas compared to hq #jjk at this rate is being carried by satosugu shippers and popularity the story honestly is slowly losing substance :'DD #and it's disappointing such a series manages to get to have a consistent adaptation vs a good and inspiring story #which is why I can't help but feel <//3 whenever ppl rant about the jjk animation cause it's better than the hq treatment TvT #don't get me started on demon slayer I have mixed feelings about that series as well but I love it for what it's worth xD #and if people say the hq fandom is being bitter or biased isn't it justifiable? #a consistent and amazing narrative gets butchered me thinks people have a right to feel the way they do #naturally the fandom is not downplaying the efforts of the animators and voice actors but we also have a right to feel the way we do #we feel the way we do out of genuine love for a series that inspired and helped us so much #it's just so unfair TvT #m terribly sorry again for ranting and dropping negativity but I feel really disheartened about this news #and not simply cause ofc we won't get the bokuaka match #but also because my favorite series doesn't deserve this #eli rambles #bokuaka #haikyu #haikyuu #haikyu!! #hq

[milfygerard]

i dont know what to add that others havent said better except like. keep discussing the mistreatment of ray. like keep posts circling bc we all have these serious discussions every few months then people pat themselves on the back and move on, changing nothing. the racism surrounding rays place in fandom and how fan culture has treated him is and has been ongoing for as long as theres been mcr fandom and its gonna continue if we dont actually deal w it head on

#barry.txt #the way people characterize ray the way they talk about his body and personality #even his gender like the way he gets characterized as the guy/the masc/the straight one consistently in comparison to the others despite #that just. objectively not being the case #i saw someone say that ray openly disliked the costumes and performance of mcrs old shows and lhotoshoots and thats just incorrect! #ray wasnt like a makeup guy during revenge but he clearly had as much fun as anyone during TBP and especially DD #hes as much a fan of flamboyant bombastic rock and metal as gerard thats why mcr fucking sounds like that #idk. im losing steam thats just a mini rant i had. just. think about what you say and why you say it and where the thought came from

[iamhereinthebg]

A lot of theories have been out with the new tbhk chapter (101). And one I saw several times is the idea that Amane was a clock keeper of the present when he was alive. 

It’s understandable to see that so many people think this with the new chapter which seems to go into a new clock keepers arc, who are probably for now, one of the biggest question marks of the manga. 

In the new chapter, Amane is seen to repair a big clock. One which is now in a sealed auditorium. He was given the task to repair it, until the end of the festival. 

The idea of memory loss is the biggest point here. Because Hanako even remembers stuff from when he was 4.

If Amane was a clock keeper of the present, how would he have forgotten everything about them? It is possible that every clock keeper of the present forgets anything related to supernaturals once their contract ends, hence why it was never really implemented in the rumor that one of them is a human. 

Hanako is also far from being Amane, he is supernatural . Or there is the chance that he forgot all of his memories related to some stuff when he was sealed by Minamoto Grandma. He may have forgotten everything related to supernaturals involved with him when he was alive. Since we have no idea if he remembers Nene from when she traveled in time during the festival. 

 There are a lot of possibilities on why Hanako may have forgotten about all of this. 

Time is also a theme which is recurrent in a lot of things that concern Amane/Hanako. And this new page seems to highlight it.

Hanako is a ghost, a being stopped in Time. Time being stopped has a lot of time been associated with death in tbhk. And he is obsessed with Time, the idea to stop and manipulate it, and he has been since a long time in the manga. His first idea to save Nene was probably linked to the clock keepers, and he has a strange interest in Akane and his powers, going as far as to try to blackmail him to have something out of him. He wishes to stop Nene’s time or time in general. To save Nene, to enjoy the present, and to prevent his friends from moving on without him. 

Amane is the only human who got his fate changed. Aoi and Nene were about to have it changed too. I strongly believe that a supernatural being/occurence needs to be here for a fate to change. It’s not a stretch to imagine for Amane, that all those back and forth in time altered his fate. With Nene going back in time to see him twice, stealing a key in the first memory, and making him accidentally make a wish to see her again in the second. Tsukasa also has been back in the future and back to his time, and a supernatural thing was always the cause of it. 

So did the clock keepers change Amane’s fate or at least push him into this direction?

Even if Amane wasn’t a part of the clock keepers, there is a high chance that this clock is still linked to them. If the clock he was repairing was the clock keeper’s, then he would have had his time taken away, as the rumor said.

But it’s heavily implied that Amane killed himself. I personally don’t think it’s the clock keepers’ clock, because the one presented in the mysteries meeting is way closer in terms of imagery to the clock keepers’ clocks. It may be though, the clock keepers’ clock from the rumor. 

The clock we see during the mysteries’ meeting is probably in a boundary, so far away from human’s eyes. The one people may have seen may be the grand clock Amane is repairing. Amane may have been known for trying to fix this clock, and he died. People definitely knew he did, a (probably) murder-suicide in school would have been talked about between students, resulting in creating or altering the rumor of the clock keepers. Rumors and Legends always have a part of truth, but a lot of things in the rumors told by humans are wrong. About n°2, n°4, n°6 and even °7. Even if this is a stretch I still think it’s interesting to point it out.

There are a lot of question marks around this plot tbh or if this is even a real theory. There is also a lot which doesn't really add up for Amane to be part of the clock keepers.

The first one is the most obvious. The lack of reaction when Hanako met the clock keepers. Even if Hanako is really good at hiding stuff he doesn’t want people to see, his reaction to the clock is absolutely not controlled. Hanako never talks about himself, or at least tries not to divulge information. When he talks to Nene here, it’s mostly from shock, because he knows something happened, but he can’t remember what and why he was asked to take care of this clock. He fears not remembering things because he has no control over it. He acts like this in all his encounters with Tsukasa for example. When he meets the clock keepers, either in flashback or just meeting Akane, he has absolutely no reaction contrary to the way he is in front of the grand clock in the auditorium. If he was part of the clock keepers for 1-2 years (since he died at 13) I think he would have some reaction if it was such a big part of his last years of life. 

 The mysteries are absolutely awful at socializing but they still recognize and know each other, even if from far away. Some of them know what has been going on, and who has each seat. Yako and Hakubo still instantly recognized him as number 7, even if Hakubo clearly isn’t the type to go out often and Yako hasn’t seen Hanako in a long time. The only one who is not well known is, understandably, Akane who has been here only for 3-4 years.

The only character who knows absolutely everything that is going on, is number 5, Tsuchigomori. Who is also Amane’s teacher. I think their relationship would have been different if Amane was involved with supernaturals. He calls him Yugi and not by any number and he acts a lot with Amane, playing the role of the teacher, which he rarely does when he is known to be supernatural by the person in front of him.  I am pretty sure Tsuchigomori and Akane know each other from far away, Tsuchigomori dropped the biggest set up about Akane not being fully human after all when talking to Nene. 

I won’t cross the idea that AidaIro just wanted to hide it if Amane was a clock keeper, but I still think it’s strange. Especially when we know that this memory we see in the 4pm bookstacks is coming from Tsuchi and not Hanako.

So except if Hanako has lost all memories of the clock keepers (which is a pretty weak plot point in my opinion) I don’t think Amane was the clock keeper of the present. 

After all, what do we know about the clock keepers and especially the one of the present for now? 

I think there is a possibility that Akane is the first human clock keeper.

Let’s only focus on what we know in the manga for now,  it is pretty obvious that Hanako doesn’t know where the boundary of the clock keepers is. 

And it leads to some questions: We can see that Hanako here is talking with two clock keepers, except if Mirai can change shape, it is safe to assume that those two here are the clock keepers of the present and the past. 

Why would Hanako say this if he actually met the clock keeper of the present before? The first idea is that it is someone like Tsuchigomori, but Akane is human. Even if it makes sense for the representative of the present to be like this (he is living in the present with people contrary to all supernaturals) the idea that the present is a human, or at least, hiding as a student, is also a supernatural’s only rumor. This is something the humans who spread rumors never ever heard about.

 Number 6 seems rather shocked/confused to see a human stopping time. Akane can’t hide his presence from other supernaturals even with his glasses. Hakubo didn’t check if he was related to the supernaturals or not when Akane was not even wearing his glasses. Was he even aware of the fact that one of the clock keepers was human in the first place?

As I said before, If the clock keepers of the present were humans even before Akane, the only reason I can think of for them to never say anything or just continue with their life is because they forget everything once the contract ends.

The fact that the Minamotos never interfered when they did with Number 7 in the past (Minamoto grandma) is also pretty strange. Supernaturals, especially the mysteries aren’t supposed to drag humans with them or hurt them. Teru said that the mysteries are a threat now after the story with Yako and how she put students’ lives at risk. The clock keepers endangered  Aoi and Akane’s life. If they always used such methods to recruit each clock keeper of the present and then turned a human half supernatural, I think it’s enough to make n° 1 at the top of the ‘to exorcize’ list of the Minamotos. Teru even insists on the fact that he let things slide only because Akane is human.

 Another big point, is the names. Even in a bonus Hanako doesn't hesitate to name a dog with Nene and Kou. 

If the clock keeper of the present before Akane was human, they would have already given a name to them in my opinion. It’s a natural thing humans do, not caring/giving names is a really supernaturals thing.  Hakubo never had a name before Sumire gave him one either, his master despite being his parental figure never had a name, the mysteries call each other only by numbers (or insults). Sumire gave him one because she acknowledges him as a person she cares about, contrary to all the exorcists who had to give him orders before. Mirai uses the name Akane gave her to name herself a lot, even Kako reacts when he is being called. Akane doesn’t even like the clock keepers, says that he doesn’t care about how supernaturals are called but he still gave them names because they didn’t have any before he became one.

Mirai is canonly stupid, like really stupid.  Kako has more restraint so it makes sense for him to show absolutely nothing. But Mirai is really really attached to Akane, she doesn’t hesitate to jump on him or annoy him whenever she wants.  And she is also the one who noticed Akane when he was only a first year to recruit him. I really think if Amane had anything to do with the clock keepers she wouldn’t be able to hide it. Especially if she gets attached like this to the clock keeper of the present. 

Even if Akane is not the first human clock keeper of the present. I still hope we will have answers on what they really are and on how they are chosen, and where are the ones who were here before Akane, what happened to them?

 We are close to a new clock keepers arc with all the clocks imagery in this chapter. The clock keepers also have the power that most people want to use and which is acknowledged even by strong characters as a real advantage/threat since the beginning of the manga. A power that both side has been trying to have (mostly Hanako vs Teru first and now probably the main characters vs the broadcasting club). They also are the oldest mystery, and Kako always appears to have a lot of authority even if he isn’t techically the leader.

Natsuhiko coming to see Akane at the end of the chapter is also for something. The manga has been building up the fact that Akane is the weak link of the three and he has been approached by nearly half of the cast at this point. And not to have his help as Akane, but clearly because he is n°1. He has less knowledges than the other two, and mostly he is human. He has weaknesses and is mortal, he is way easier to approach and blackmail than the other two even if he is as he says ‘the lowest of the clock keepers’.

The next arc will probably be about number 1, and the grand clock has something to do with them. The red house imagery having so many clocks and the Yugis having so much time travel in their story must be for something.

I also really wonder what will happen if the grand clock start moving again and what needs to be done for making it work.

I can’t wait to see what AidaIro plan to do with all these characters and how linked to the clock keepers the Yugi backstory will be.

#toilet bound hanako kun #tbhk #tbhk analysis #I am insane about the mysteries #the seven wonders #yugi amane #aoi akane #tsuchigomori #hakubo #mirai #kako #jibaku shounen hanako kun #jshk #jshk spoilers #this is crack theory over crack theory but even if none of this is true I still think some details are important :DD #I love the clock keepers very much I can't wait for their arc #I am super hyped #yako #shijima mei #have a lil bit of insanity #I love the mysteries #I don't mind the idea that the Yugis have something to do with the clock keepers #I jsut think the idea Amane is one and he just 'oopsie forgot' is kinda bad writting #but let's see what we will have yay #tumblr plz #show it in the tags #the 'well mirai is just too stupid' point is my fav #toilet bound hanako kun fanart #toilet bound hanaku kun

[your-fuccked-up-dad-volume59]

You wanted a stalker boyfriend yet when I sent you your own coordinates in your messages, you call me a freak? Here I was going to show up at your doorstep with the heart of the man you looked at today.🔪🌹

#*unkown+ #Unknown: You sure about that? Check your cameras... you on the bottom right image which showed the area in front of the bay window #there was nothing there. There was no man standing in front of the window. But when you looked up #I was surely there. I gawked at me through the window. *unkown #Anyone who thinks they can have your love or attention will be hunt down and mutilated. You'll be forever mine even if death takes us. #People fear me. Bad people fear me. #Our souls will be intertwined together by fate. lil mouse #bd/sm kink #lg/dd #r3pe #r@pe #r@pe fantasy #r@pe k!nk #r@pe kink #r@pe me #r@pe play #r@pe threats #bd/sm breeding #breeding k1nk #bd/sm slave #bd/sm dom #bd/sm community #bd/sm blog #bd/sm daddy #breeding toy #bdsmkink #nsft #cnc kidnapping #rough cnc #cnc k!nk

[pennamepersona]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN KAZUMA'S FUCKING DEAD????

#tgaa #dgs #tgaa spoilers #dgs spoilers #ace attorney #i know i shouldn't be surprised given how quickly mia gets fridged #but!! i didn't think they'd do it to kazuma!!! #and absolutely NONE of the shit I've seen about tgaa prepared me to think he was gonna die #like?? i don't think there's spirit channeling in this one?? #is he fr just GONE????? #but I've seen so many posts with his headband in them....... #do we really only get one case with him??????? #like I'll give it's a good fucking case #shu takumi really out here absolutely flexing #taking everything he did in the trilogy and crafting an exquisite first case #fr it's amazing and playing it after bouncing off dual destinies really.......... #well it makes it even more painfully obvious that takumi didn't write dd or soj #getting new takumi written narrative is such a treat #and makes everything post aa4 just. such a shame #there's a tiny part of me holding out for some kind of canon divergence au thing #where takumi just writes an alt aa5 that actually picks up where aa4 left off #anyway back to how good dgs is #I'm in agony i liked kazuma #can't believe i got so blindsided by his death #what's even the point

[xjumbled-up-brainx]

Final Octonauts Week Day 7 Yay!!

You know I had to make a lil somethin for the chair the myth the legend‼️‼️

The best hc/theory I have co-conspired, our leader Brendon💺💺💺 For those that don’t know here’s what we’ve got:

Inklings chair in the HQ is sentient, we’ve named him Brendon

Brendon can speak telepathically to whoever is seated, he has the voice of Nelson the Elephant from 64 Zoo Lane (also Keith Wickham like Inkling) and ofc knows the secrets of the universe

Brendon contributes to Inklings knowledge, and the magical technology (co-created by Inklings brother, Squirts dad, who passed in testing) used to build Brendon is what allows Inkling to live outside of water, hence symbiosis (as Brendon would not have come to existence without Inklings construction)

No one else sits on Brendon, they don’t know about the sentience (only Inkling does) but when they were young I hc Codish took a seat, learned the secrets of the universe, and got brain scrambled, why they’re a little more scatterbrained than the other vegimals👍(also in the vegimal reflection theory, Codish pairs with Inkling)

This whole thing started because the chair has a heat signature in one scene, and the chair has a sentient shadow in the Sea of Shade Book. It also hovers and that’s WEIRD HSJS

#LAST DAY OF OCTONAUTS WEEK🥳🥳 very fun even tho I missed two days from vacation😔😔😔 #Octonauts Week was fun to try somethin new I ain’t no artist💀 #but it’s neat when the (small but mighty) community comes together :DD #BRENDON BELIEVERS UNITE✨✨‼️‼️ #im thinking about writing the ✨Book of Brendon✨ #I know this is quite silly but it’s fun💀✨ #octonauts #octonauts week 2023

[caffinateddragon-blog]

i had a weird ass dream of hayato jin fucking kidnapping me

and it was in my childhood church's maintenance areas

#my brother in christ whadda fuck #it wasn't even like. arma hayato #it was a hayato in all black and wearing a silver scarf which means it was srw dd's clone hayato #but he looked like new hayato????? #also a mural of gridman was there for some reason i passed out in front of it before meeting hayato #'i' (now that i think about it i was in the dream as one of my ocs) was fighting someone and when i turned around hayato was just There. #he asked for my name (i don't remember the answer i gave but i think the last name started with a k) and then fucking Knocked Me Out #but since it was a dream i instead went into a 3rd person view and watched him drag my body like a sack of potatoes to a white van

[averlym]

a word to the wise sometimes the only true rest is looking beyond what you thought was success

so true! adamandi is full of wise advice such as this, including: "and you'll never feel better if you - fucking die- you stupid ass!"

#these are all very good reminders. especially during exam season (i am suffering. but at least i'm working on art coursework so it's #suffering i love.) guys i have maybe a bit too many thoughts on ambrose. sculpture. and ceramics. and studio. in my art student 3d era rn #tmr it's black and white 2d so it's vincent vibes instead... anyways. in my breaks i ended up brainstorming more doodles again so.. #anywaysndhfnfjfhf sorry to detract! but like these two quotes are holding my sanity intact i think. #at this point even without listening to the live soundtrack it sounds in my head so. lasting impressions i guess. every time i get anxious #' you'll never get better if you fucking die'' sounds in my head and i go ''ah yes there's a whole life outside'' #continuing this ramble you ever think how vincent went from you'll never get better if you fucking die to '' first i chose my friend #ambrose for my debut :DD'' realll quick. or also how this principle worked for when he was talking to ambrose about it and then. for himself #he didn't want to get better. he wanted quincy to get better and so '' you'll never get better if you die'' held through to the end #it just wasn't a mentality that saved him... god that screws me up. so many thoughts. #anyways anon!!!! thank you for sending this :3 made my day <33 very vibes #going to put the soundtrack on and power through studio again.. :3 adamandi asks are welcomed ngl teehee #ask me stuff??? #on another note sometimes it's so surreal that actors are real people... i guess the magic of theatre is that it makes the characters come #to life.. like i believe actors are real. and deserve to be treated like people. for the record. but also when consuming media and it's the #suspension of disbelief? these are Real Characters i can't believe that someone who isn't them is making these sounds and doing these things #it's so insane. incredible. idk i just have very high admiration for the cast and idk how i got here even... akshdjdhdf #<blinks> they did such a good job akdhdnfhfbgfhff ok bye #first time i swear in the actual post on this blog and not in the tags... of course

[keeps-ache]

watch me shatter the sun!

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#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #pink space #it's mah boyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy #//played around with the shading a bit and even though it's kinda subtle i Really like how the glitch border turned out on it!! #//also i liked the lines of the sketch so much i decided to keep most of the movement n shapes i usually don't lol #i think sketching with pens has really helped me w/ shapes and finding ones i really like :DD #//sudden thought but it would be so easy to lovecore him hvfhjs #//anyway once again i am RACKED with the conundrum of wanting to write this story and then automatically being hit with 4000 tons of #'oh gosh but what if i did it Wrong' #it doesn't exist so there's literally no wrong way to go about it so. gonna try to do that later hvbhfbjs #//but ye it mah boy :DD (finally a full-body piece without his face covered fvhvshvbh)

[joowee-feftynn]

it's all fun and games until i finally figure out the actual plot of murder drones and who actually made the disassembly drones and realize everything i had going on for P gets thrown out the window

#i'm. really pissed!!!! #this whole time i still kept thinking jcjensons made the dds #even though i watched the whole series myself FOR SOME REASON i didn't catch that the absolute solver made the dds #it's so funny because i interpret a piece of media incorrectly and when my interpretation is proven to be incorrect i get mad about it #that really is on me tbh #anyway sorry for the ramble im still pissy about it LMAO #joowee's chattering #murder drones #murder drones spoilers

[moonjellyfishumbrella]

I am back on my bs!! This one stung a bit more while making

#OW #i hurt sm for them #im esp so sad about how little time apollo is given to mourn in this franchise #i dont think his mantra is even a hindrance to that but #how much can this boy take before he breaks down? #ALSO PHEONIXS QUOTE #post aa4... gods #his pic needed to be from dd or soj it just did #anyways ive ranted enough lnaodj #ace attorney #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #apollo justice #athena cykes

[thedevotionaltour]

thinking about daredevil yellow again im not. going to make it Guys.

#static.soundz #crying screaming and hitting the ground. so good. it made me cry really bad #bc whenever i think about jack n matt it always makes me think of me n my dad for various reasons #when matt said i couldnt feel his heartbeat inside me anymore. no words. #i rambled about it on my main but dd is very much intwined in an interesting and special way with my own heavy grief about my dad #and matt was a very important character to me during that time of my life for the exact same reason. #it's why i take a lot of very heavy issue when things try to make it so his dad died in his childhood as opposed to college #bc a) think it takes away a lot of the important nature of their relationship and b) my own personal projection #bc all grief at any stage is highly personal and unique and particular #but it really does feel like. matt is really just starting to become an adult (depending whether he dies when matt's in under or post grad) #(bc i can never remember which) but he's not quite a mega established one. there's still that lingering of childhood #so even though he's grown. it just hurts in a very particular way. they saw you grow up. but they didnt really see you become an adult. #they did not see the person you're going to be. that you are. that you're becoming. it feels like such a bizarre unfair moment in time. #bc why now? why not when i was younger? why not when i was truly an adult adult who is expecting to lose you now? #why at this moment and no other time? #but thinking about matt going i wish i told my dad how much i loved him. #more than anything when he goes 'i love you dad. did you hear? i love you.' #it made me cry like a fucking bitch. honest to god tearing up when i type about it. it wrenches my heart it twists it and it makes me wanna #drop to my knees and just weep and weep and weep. they are everything to me. #i have intertwined a lot of matt's grief with mine in a way that makes him so so so important to me. because as stupid as it fucking sounds #that comic and him as a character are everything to me. so genuinely. they were a lifeline my freshman year #when i was so depressed all i could do was read comics. or listen to music #i could do nothing else. i did. clearly. i did work and assignments. but dd was everything to me alongside dm #im sorry i am being an actual like nutbag in my tags im sorry i just have a lot of feelings. this story is everything to me ever ok? ok.

[shiominato]

uh oh

#i’m thinking about dds while drawing other things #you dont even understand how catastrophic this is

[spiritofjustice]

it's always kind of a weird situation when you dislike something but it's not because it's bad, so it feels like it's difficult to explain why you don't like it.

i really dislike Ace Attorney 4, just. based on vibes alone. and i sound like a crazy person every time i try to explain it KRKFK

i simply don't like it. but i see why people like it, too. i respect how bold it was with the direction it wished to take the series. it didn't want to rest on its laurels and tried a new angle for the games. it just didn't work for me. i love DD and SOJ, they're my favorite games in the series, but they play way too safe after the mixed reaction to AA4 and it really undermined Apollo's character, and the other characters tbh.

i don't really care about most of the plot points set up in AA4 so it doesn't actually bother me, but i see on an objective level that it's fucking absurd that they dropped everything except for like, the dark age law stuff and if i was an AA fan experiencing DD and SOJ as they came out i'd be kinda pissed they just ignored everything AA4 set up.

it's just profoundly, deeply not for me. and i'm kinda relieved the rest of the trilogy didn't follow in its footsteps. i guess that's all i should have to say.

#psy's no punctuation posts #aa tag #it's literally just like... #i hate the way it looks (the vibes of the visuals are rancid to me. even though it looks the exact same as the original trilogy) #like i can't explain it but the set and character designs Bother Me so so deeply. completely inexplicably #the characters are okay i guess but i had a hard time getting into them. love Trucy n Kristoph tho #i don't particularly like the cases either... they have good moments. i like Wocky. i actually like 4-3 a decent amount. Vera was cool #i think 4-3 is not near as bad as peop;le act funny enough KRKF. i actually liked that case the most out of the 4 #i don't really like Klavier. Apollo feels flat in this one. he and Klavier have no chemistry to even speak of #like you (i) get this profound feeling of 'they have no feelings about each other. not positive nor negative. that's how little they impact #each other's lives' and DD only made that feeling worse. it was like awkwardly running into a kid you went to school with #but wasn't even friends with so you just awkwardly say hi and then move on lol #like it feels so odd that i can't put my finger on why i hate the vibes of this game so much #i just. hated it i don't know!!! #i can see why AA4 is so divisive. i was chatting with my pal Lavender the other night about AA and she LOVED AA4 and i could see why #after she explained why it worked for her. just didn't click for me. i am not a fan

[keeps-ache]

mm i Neeed to go the beach

#just me hi #wauhuhh ! #something about just drifting around in water that i am slightly scared of that really makes my brain whir happily lol :> #i am slightly scared of it for two major reasons: 1) fish. lord the fish why are they so scary 2) sometimes i think i'll drown and they jus #won't find the body. which is less rational than the fish so that's why fish is my number 1 fear at all times lmao #/i think out of all the animals on the planet i am the most scared of ordinary fish. not even the deep sea stuff hfbshv #cuz look they're so far down there you Have to assume they look funked. and also they prolly don't like human meat. so it's cool #but regular fish?? some of them eat birds. they eat birds dude. what would they do to me if they knew how to use harpoons?? #also they for SURE eat corpses so we loop back to fear no. 2 really just being fear no. 1 hbfhs #/see i'm not even that scared of the animals my parents are determined on exploding. like man if i get eaten that was prolly bound #to happen anyway. i Know how that goes. i know what mauling is lol #i am the only person in this house who will walk around outside on a moonless light w/ no flashlight because if i was sposed to be dead i #can guaranteE there are much better opportunities. funnier ones‚ too #/just looked it up bobcats are SHY little guys. they are just shy babies. except for when they have rabies :) #shy rabies babies <3 #/anyway back to the fish. i don't like how there are some that specifically like to eat human skin. mmm no i have never liked that ever not #one little bit. makes my skin crawl hghfsh #i don't care what it does or can do that is NOT cool lil dude ;w; #/hang on i'm googling 'weirdest things fish eat' because i want to scare myself i guess hbfhvbsf :'3 #they're only showing me weird fish!!! no !! tell me about a fish that's living exclusively off of plastics!! or car tires !! come on !!! #these guys are just funky looking. and just Kinda funky looking. though this humphead guy is funny lol :) #he looks scary but with a charm that i can't deny #his forehead. and mouf. this guy is awesome #and of course he's endangered because the world is exploding. but it's so cool he exists :D #//anyway fish are scary. and miss humphead is Huge so goofiness aside he's also scary hhfbvs #also why do some of those motherfunkers swim close to shore and bite at you. those guys suck so bad #that's only happened to me so many times but enough for me to have a fear that has lasted for over half a decade lmao #//and anywho i'm running out of tag space lol :) #we're going ot the park!! i'm going to skate :DD !! #i wanna get good at my old stuff again hfsh - so bye! bye !! toodles !!!