#this applies to all of my teachers

[inkskinned]

this is sort of pathetic, but when you were younger, you were sort of puzzled by the cartoon representations of fathers: how a kid would be outside with a mitt, waiting to play catch.

it's not that your father never played catch with you, but you also didn't like when he did. something about a hard ball coming quickly towards your face doesn't seem exciting. not that you'd ever say you don't trust him. you trust him, right?

it's not like he never tried to teach you anything. or never tried to parent. on rare days, a strange person would walk in your father's skin. bright, happy, magnificent. this version of your father was so cheerful and charismatic that you would do anything to keep him. and this is the version of your father that would laugh and gently coax you try again. this is the version of your father that would break down the small elements of a problem and point them out so you have an easier time with them.

as a kid, those days happened more often. but somewhere around 11, you started being too much of a person, and he was often cross about it. when he'd try to sit you down to learn something, you spent the whole time with your shoulders around your ears, nervous, uncertain. terrified because you didn't immediately understand how to navigate something. worried you will run out of his goodwill and then you will have the Other Father back, and you will have ruined a good day for your entire family. something about you being visibly afraid - it just made him angry. he would accuse you of not wanting to learn and storm away.

on tv, it's not like there's a lot of versions of men-who-are-mostly-fathers. they can be good dads, but usually their stories are not told in the household. so it's normal that your father is there, but he's never around. you know he was in the house, somewhere, it's just not that you guys ever... "hung out". he just seemed to get kind of bored of you, annoyed you weren't made in his perfect image. frustrated with how much energy it took to raise a kid. over time, you kind of adopt a bittersweet band around your throat - he knows nothing about me. he says at least i never abandoned my family.

and it's technically - technically - true. he was there for you. sometimes he even made an effort and made it to the big moments; the graduations and the dance recitals. he grins and tells everyone that he taught you. it almost erases the days in between, where he complains because you need a ride to school. the weeks that go by where he doesn't actually ever speak to you. the times you say i am struggling and he says figure it out on your own. i can't help you.

and that's fine! that's all fine. you can call him if you are having a problem with your car. or if you need a ride to the hospital. he loves playing hero, he just doesn't like the actual work that comes with being a father. and you've kind of made your peace with that; because you had to, because you don't want to live your life like he does; the whole world at a managed distance, a little rotating and controlled orb he can witness and take credit for but never truly love.

as an adult, you are rewatching some dumb cartoon - and again, the child standing in the rain, with a mitt, waiting for their father to come play catch. as an adult, there's this strange creeping dread - this little thing? this little thing, and their dad can't even show up for that? oh god, holyshit, it's not about the mitt, is it. oh god, holyshit, your father spent most of your life leaving you hanging.

#spilled ink #writeblr #:) lol . anybody notice how i write about dads in second person exclusively #me: haha silly cartoon #also me: ): this child is not getting what they need #also btw this is about a father but it might apply to any parent or caregiver #there's a really weird space of like #''this person was technically around me but either ignored me or was actively harmful to me'' #and like u learn this very strange ritual of like... this person is my parent/caregiver on a technicality #that you almost spend all ur time with them like... tiptoeing and acting as THEIR parent so u don't upset them. #like you're 17 and ur mom is suddenly hit by a wave of wanting to talk to you so she's like :) lets make breakfast together :) and ur like #uhhhhhh okay?? bc you feel like this is absolutely going to go wrong and is why u usually make breakfast alone #and she starts being like: THIS is called a TEASPOON ... & u know all this stuff but you also know to just be very quiet #bc if you say like ''mom ive been making this breakfast every day since i was 13'' she would FREAK OUT and be like #DONT ACT LIKE I NEVER DO ANYTHING FOR YOU DONT ACT LIKE I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU. FUCKING DISRESPECTFUL . #so u have to smile like ur a preschool teacher and be like. OH COOL! i didn't know A CUP existed! tell me MORE! :)

[bonebrokebuddy]

“I don’t understand why you’re so adamant on asking me this, Hal. I just mentioned to Barry that I talked with the head Easter Bunny once and now everyone keeps asking me if I think the Easter Bunny is real! Why do people keep asking me? I’ve met them. I don’t understand why I have to ‘believe’ in the Easter Bunny for them to be real! They exist!”

Hal put his hands up and stepped back, clearly not expecting the frustrated and somewhat hostile response of Billy who slumped back into his seat, which was slightly less satisfying in his bulkier body, and began running his hands through his hair.

The repetition of being interrogated over a simple comment was not only bewildering but had gotten increasingly more annoying to answer as somehow the members of The Justice League, the literal most powerful group of people on earth, didn’t seem to understand a piece of basic knowledge.

Billy was not only very tired of being asked the same thing but even more-so he wanted the laughing at his ordinary response to stop.

He paused and looked Hal dead in the eyes then began to speak in the most dead tone Hal had ever heard from the usually cheerful man.

“Hal, I know the Easter Bunnies are real because I had to spend two, very long weeks personally overseeing the creation of their union that made sure they no longer routinely experience unsafe working conditions and helped establish 8 hour working days so they no longer get overworked or are required to do 80 hour weeks prepping for Easter and get punished for doing less or don’t get paid”,

Billy’s previously slow, blank tone grew more rushed and frustrated as he went on,

“I mean, I didn’t even do much other than sit there and look intimidating by throwing around lightning sometimes and make sure the Easter chicks didn’t do any funny business or tamper with the legal process!

It was in all the papers in Fawcett! I had my picture taken with them and everything. But Hal. I can guarantee you that the Easter Bunny exists. Please. Please stop fucking asking me.” Finally done, Billy slumped onto the table with a loud clunk.

Hal stood there shocked for a moment. “Marvel, did you just imply there’s multiple easter bunnies and they established a form of government?!”

Billy, with seemingly tremendous emotional effort, lifted his head from the table by a few inches and looked Hal in the eyes with a pleading tone, “If I just say no, will you please stop asking me?”

“Absolutely not, now I have even more questions”

Billy let his head fall back onto the table with an even louder clunk and groaned.

#captain marvel #billy batson #dc #shazam #dc captain marvel #this is apart of a larger Fawcett world building thing I’m working on #won’t be a fic but will be a massive chunk of ideas on how cool it would be for Fawcett Citys logic to run how a genuine child would expect #& have it be partially the reason why marvel is just sorta Like That #hes not actually naieve. it’s just how logic works in Fawcett #including the tooth fairy and the Easter bunny existing within Fawcett #as Fawcett city operates like how a kid imagines it would #teachers actually live at school. there’s a floor in all Fawcett school buildings thate residential space for staff #if someone needs glasses and loses them. they simply cannot see Velma style #Monsters under the bed are also real. Some people keep them as pets. #i got so much more. it’s gonna be a blast once I get to finally finishing it. #but currently I’m having fun exploring the misconceptions a kid has of the world and how & if I can apply it to the au #this is also my first time writing anything non dnd setup description in about 5 years so please give me some leeway #bones writes

[arowrath]

i really dont understand studying at all like genuinely i don't know what it is . i know about "taking notes" and "reading the textbook" and that's it . quizlet doesn't do shit for me because i don't know what to. do. with the cards. look at them ? am i supposed to just look at them . No one bothered teaching me actual skills bc i got good grades when i was 8 and now i am so hopelessly lost . why did no one think to teach me this for when stuff got harder than four plus three

#text #ive never understood flashcards . like what to do with them. how is that any more different or helpful than just like... writing a list on #paper of vocab terms or whatever #and like conceptually i know 'learning' is like. not only committing things to memory but also being able to engage with it which #is why teachers loveeeee group discussions and essays. but like. you read the text and then you go to class and Discuss but how do you #Learn what the text is saying like how do you . put it in your brain and udnerstand and remember it . #i think im missing something very simple because everyone else in the world seems to understand this fine #like where does the part where you go oh! i understand this and can explain it in my own words. Happen #how do u force it to happen if its not something ur autistic about #Like the only example i can think of rn of this is when i hyperfixated on hpa axis dysregulation + trauma a couple weeks ago #so i was learning stuff about it for Fun and not for school so no comprehension tests or notes or anything #and basically i'd just put on a webinar while i sorted seaglass or worked on sewing or whaever #and i can explain the concept fine. ur brain controls ur body so if it gets too scared ur body loses its shit basically. #but i dont remember most of the words. i still can barely define neurotransmitter #i can apply this to my own life but i confuse the hippocampus and the frontal lobe and the amygdala etc #and i couldnt point out any of them on a diagram #i dont get it . like i know a lot and simultaneously nothing at all abt it #how am i supposedto be remembering words and numbers AND understanding the concepts AND im supposed to do that between #reading the book and engaging in thoughtful conversation with my peers i dont understand

[moe-broey]

Oh, poor thang!

#moe tag #sorry i won't shut up about it but you gotta understand. this is the most eventful thing that's happened in like months #also i just really wanna apply what i learned about it to moe. torture the creature some more #BUT ALSO... LIKE..... i think about writing refs and health/safety refs and also best practice #ESP when treating a patient or being a caretaker all the time. #before the disability disabled me LMFAO i really wanted to go into working to help people w disabilities #i was so high masking and 'functional' (but like. still very much on the spectrum) that i had each foot in both worlds kinda #i wasn't exactly sure what line of work but i very much wanted to give back the way the people who believed in me did. #esp as a kid. i had so many behavioral issues. teachers actively dreaded and feared having to deal w me. #the few and far between teachers/social workers who saw me though. believed in me. treated me kindly. stuck forever #unfortunately i really don't think i'm cut out for that line of work esp after covid changed The Vibes of everything lmfao #i would love to give hope in a hopeless world. but i fear i've slipped through the cracks. #my art

[s-une]

I need someone to hold my hand and tell me that everything is going to be okay

#(I have to check the tests I applied tomorrow #review what my teachers have corrected me and #make possible diagnoses #make reports #work #and attend college) #im gonna scream :) #but at least I have strawberries 🙈 and will be able to make smoothies #I'm super happy #plus it's gym rest day :3 #looking as much as possible among all the stress is what keeps me surviving

[nonuggetshere]

I need to draw something with PK and Hornet there's not enough of these two together in my art

#thylacines can talk #in my au specifically she used to be SUCH a daddy's girl but then she grew up and grew bitter and resentful over her role in life. the #reason for her birth and the way her pwn sibling has been treated. She actually drifted away from both of her biological parents because #her being bitter about being concieved for a specific purpose and already having all of her life planned out for her is a big part why she #grew distant with her father and step mother so naturally it also applied to her mother. but she grew apart way more from PK and WL because #she had more grievances with them than just that one thing. Plus PK could sometimes be a little too smothering and overprotective. He truly #loves his daughter and maybe showers her with more love than usual because of what he did to his other kids but at times he doesnt know how #to reel it back. he got worse when Hornet pulled away because he was terrified of losing her which ironically made the drift bigger. #eventually they reconcile and grow closer again but they'll never be as close as they were when she was little. Or maybe they're just close #in a different way and that's alright. I don't see Hornet as an overly affectionate person so being smothered with love bugs her. She loves #her father and step mother of course she does. But she has a different way of showing it which took a little while for them to understand #and adjust to. They eventually grow close just not in that very affectionate little kid way #She actually grew closer to Vespa during her teen years as she was her teacher and mother figure and Hornet clung to her when she grew apart #from her two mothers and father. #oh a funfact. Hornet doesn't really call WL step mother. When she was little Herrah was mummy and WL was momma and now that she's older #they're both mum but she comes up with increasingly more ridiculous ways to differentiate them. She only really calls WL 'step mother' when #shes angry with her. or 'your mother' if she's talking yo her siblings. A very cheap shot that would make WL feel really shitty but makes #Hornet feel better for a while. #faaf au

[firestorm09890]

HUMAN UGLINESS 🤮 ORIGINATES 💭 IN THE SOUL ✨

PEOPLE WHO SUCCUMB 😱 TO THE TEMPTATIONS OF EVIL 😈 RISK LOSING THEIR CAPACITY ☕️ FOR GOOD 🕺

PEOPLE WHO SUPPRESS 🥷 THEIR NATURAL DESIRES 👀 RISK HAVING THEM SURFACE ⬆️ OUT OF CONTROL 💥

#lit #i’m so fucking sorry i spontaneously remembered the overarching themes of my 8th grade gothic literature unit #we would recite them like this lmao #the audience of this post doesn’t exist on tumblr but i needed to do this #me post #if you’re wondering all these are specifically supposed to be for the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde #but my teacher was like “you know what. we can apply this elsewhere” #i said gothic literature unit but that was a lie it was actually for every book we read that year #8th grade lit was books about the darkness of humanity ONLY #dhdkdksnshs if you read all these tags you’re a real one #dr jekyll and mr hyde

[incrediblysleepdeprived]

Towards the end of a school year is the absolutely worst, so many exams and tests, kids are bored so there trying to make unnecessary drama and are acting up and the teachers are just out of it

We’re all tired and honestly only a few more weeks to go, y’all have got this (also good luck to all of y’all who have the big year 11/12 tests <3

#why must my school do this :’( #school issues #middle school #highschool #exams #tests #exam stress #teachers #Students #university #student life #student #studying #end of year #end of school #Last term #Term 4 #Not sure if this applies to all schools but it applies to mine

[ilovethecolorpink]

2 job interviews next week :O

#i wrote up my 2 weeks for my retail job today like im so over it fjwjdksks #these r both at schools ! one a counselor position & one a teaching aide position ! #the latter one is actually a 3 hour paid interview cuz bro #i applied at 4:07 today and at 4:12 i got a text asking if i could facetime #we facetimed for 10 min and now im goin in friday 😭 #i feel like that would be a red flag lowkey??? maybe??? except i looked a lot into the school online & from that and what she said in the #call it actually seems very nice and like a lovely safe place #it’s a pre-k school & all the teachers seem to be around my age which also makes me excited #anyways im nervous but excited for next steps !!!!! #mine

[viaetor]

some job interviews never leave my head. [story in tags]

#there was this one time that i tried applying to be a teacher at a #christian school right. like they had nuns walking around and everything #they called me on the phone to compliment my credentials and thank me for my interest #they said i seemed perfect for the job bc of my qualifications #and i was like great!! i rly need a job atm #internally i was torn bc. christian school! eh! but it's okay we can make it work even tho i'm agnostic #it pays well. good location. good for cv! #i got there for the interview. the lady looked at me from head to toe #stared deep @ my tattoos then my piercings and dyed hair #and i was like. well i can cover these up if it's the school policy?? #sorry i didn't know !! but i can adapt ! #and she just 'oh no. i just wasn't expecting you to be this buff.' #'are all history teachers like you? oh my how.... lascivious'' #NEVER expected that to be the reason i DIDNT get hired tbh. #a feeble scholar......... and for what! #❛ㅤ𓆩✦𓆪ㅤ:ㅤooc﹔ㅤㅤ/ㅤㅤchaos and aether simpery. #tbd.

[softichill]

"You have so much potential" "If only you applied yourself" "If you just tried..." "You're smart! I know you can do it" Shut up shut up shut up shut up shut UP SHUT UP SHUT UP

#Cricket chirping #Adhd #Actually adhd #Ask to tag #Repitition #Caps tw #Vent #SINCE WHEN HAS STUFF LIKE THIS ACTUALLY DONE ANYTHING!!!!! #I AM TRYING!!! I AM APPLYING MYSELF!!!! AND I'M STILL FUCKING FAILING!!!!!!!!!! #Sorry. I got an email from a teacher just now that said the first phrase and I saw red #I am. Angry. I have been told this by almost every single one of my teachers since 2nd fucking grade #I am SICK and TIRED of putting in all this energy and it still not being ENOUGH

[devilsskettle]

whenever i hear a song that i would like if it weren’t for the fact that it was too long, i think about this:

like you can afford to write tangentially if you/your music is already popular and you know that people are going to listen to you no matter what and in fact laud your longer pieces as being genius etc but can you really be releasing 5+ minute long songs without a built-in audience?

#idk. thinking about this because of the new lana album and i think i’d like a lot of these songs better if they were shorter lol #some of these songs drag so much especially when she includes these long sections of like one repeated line over and over again #or like when taylor swift releases the extended version of all too well and everyone freaked out #that’s all good and well but she HAD to release the shorter version first #and she knows she has this huge fanbase that will eat that shit up no matter what she does really #part of it is nostalgia admittedly but i also think the shorter version is just a better song #that song is on the longer side to begin with but 10 minutes???? why #(i did listen to both songs back to back to make sure my opinion was still the same as when the 10 minute version was released & it is lol) #idk! obviously i’m bad at this myself because i write so fucking much to express a simple point but it is more skillful to be able #to say things as effectively and precisely in a more concise way #not saying this ONLY applies to mitski because she’s the one this article is about but she is a good example of it #like being able to express a feeling in just a couple lines that would probably take a less skilled writer like a novel to express #it also reminds me of how my high school latin teacher described how in college he took a class about museum design or something like that #and their first assignment was to write a description of an artifact to tell museum visitors what it was #and every time he submitted a draft the professor would tell him to make it shorter while still communicating the necessary information #until he literally could not make it any shorter than it already was #because you have to assume that people are not gonna read all that! because they won’t unless they have some kind of external motivation to #idk there IS something to be said for including ‘unnecessary’ parts of writing etc obviously there’s nuance #but a lot of the time i think if there isn’t a reason to include something then why include it!

[myfriendtheghost]

goodnight smoosh

#applied for an internship at my dream job tonight 🫡🥲🙏🏻 #I’m officially going to college for Advertising/Public Relations and possibly double majoring in Broadcasting so like !!! I feel like I have #a good shot (it’s at the Christian radio station that made me fall in love with Christian music which is my fav genre) #I want it so so so bad #also!!!! have a job interview tomorrow ?!?!?!? #it’s a part time elementary teacher’s assistant job #and I signed up for 3 college classes which is … so scary because I don’t wanna go to college at all lol but if it helps me get this radio #job ??? I’ll do anything idc

[rynliadon]

high school performing arts was so weird and awful but it feels like it was weird and awful only for me. like everyone else found their group and come back for every concert because they had found their people, and i’m experiencing that now in college, but returning tonight made me remember how small and awful i felt half the time. like these people talk to each other and exclude me, not out of malice, but because they forget i exist. they have their core group, and they’re friendly with me, but it’s not like i’m in the group. everything i say could be loaded or have a negative connotation that i didn’t intend. idk. it feels like i can’t hear them half the time and the other half they’re not even trying to talk to me. i’m so glad i left high school behind because it fucking sucked.

#the way it kinda works in my town is every level of performing arts i’m in communicates; #my college teacher and my high school teacher and my middle school teacher are all friends #so i see my old teachers a lot #and a lot of the same people continue on from middle school-the local college #so i often return to my old high school and talk to the people i was with there #and every time i feel like i’m shrinking down into nonexistence #it was so clear in high school that no one really gave a shit about me and i could feel that #but now that it’s been a year since i’ve felt that way it’s really jarring for it to return #this mostly applies to the high level group i was in; my real friends were wonderful and i miss them dearly #(hi a i’m glad i got to see you tonight 👋) #journal #vent

[britneyshakespeare]

i might seem like just a mentally ill eccentric. but deep down i care about the children

#im talking about my job #tales from diana #i probably dont seem eccentric at all to the ppl i work w just socially anxious (which is very obvious irl & always has been w me) #i dont know how to explain my conflict about working at my high school lately other than. it's not just my trauma #with that particular building. i mean yes it's very much awoken w me when im in there #but everything that was wrong w the *culture* of my school. the way teenagers in that district acted. #it's like. exactly the way i left it seven years ago #and i think a lot of it has to do with the incompetence of the administration and i hate to say it but. individual teachers to some extent #i mean ppl just have no expectations for these children to be respectful and apply themselves #when you treat students with dignity and present their work with dignity they will feel dignified and care more. #there are lots of systemic issues that affect teenagers too that cause them to be disengaged as well #and you never know what's just going on in their individual lives that's interfering w their school success. #in many ways it's like the way they fare is so out of our hands that i get why teachers are so burnt out and cant be assed #im very much bright-eyed and bushytailed in some ways. even tho i do not see this as a glamorous job #i am very young and haven't been doing this long enough to have EVERY ideal beaten out of me. just most of em. #yeah. the culture of that high school is just awful. #in general i have very high opinions of teenagers. and low opinions of high schoolers. #it's not who they are that is wrong. it's the building they inhabit and the ways they move around it. #it's the potential of them that is being ill-served that frustrates me so much. #they deserve better and so do we as the adults working there #that's that on that

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

my maths teacher is essentially making us all do the work for his class digitally and the laptop-tablet thingy i lent from the school is never doing what i want it to and it's incredibly frustrating and the only reason i somewhat tolerate it is that he's the same teacher i could talk to about not using gendered pronouns for me whenever possible in school papers and the like and he also remembered that and made a conscious effort in front of the entire class to reword what he was saying to refer to me gender-neutrally. which really is a feat in my native language, so like, i love him for making the effort and remembering. but also why digitally

#its an internal conflict #bc i HATE to work digitally for school. i DESPISE it #i have so many reasons i can write an entire professional argument about that #i probably will. not professionally but by god i will vent on tumblr.com #but also. NO GENDER FOR ME!! AND HE REMEMBERED!! AND MADE SURE TO ADJUST HIS LANGUAGE!!!!!!!! #i just sat there with the widest grin ever istg #a biscuit's rambles #we stan gender supportive teachers!! #and also the 60 something secretary who knows everyone by name and also everything theyve told her ever #(okay this applies to all three secretaries istg they are literally the best) #and she said she was sorry that their computers still dont get that theres third options for gender #and that they might mess up but they know and are doing their best to not refer to me as a girl #and i am sos o so so happy #i mean. none of the other teachers know i think (yet?) bc going up to teachers and outing oneself alone is like. hooo boy #but like. itll spread ig. or ill just mention it off-handedly instead of a traditional outing #like my class knows. half the other class knows bci have maths w/ them. a teacher and the secretaries know. its only a matter of time now :