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bluesandboos · 6 months

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everything's going to be fine because xavi tore his acl and came back better and stronger and they have similar sounding names and wear the same number and by the time he's back, he'll take a year to build endurance to play two times a week so he'll be older and better able to take the load instead being a literal child and then-

#take my acl please i don't need it #the football governing bodies #you are ruining this sport and running players into the ground #and for WHAT #to line their pockets #im in shambles and im not even trying to be overdramatic #i can't even bring myself to care about how the season is gonna turn out #this is all just a vicious cycle #they increase the number of games #players start getting injured #clubs get desperate and turn to their young talent in their academies #or buying youth #they play #at fcb they'll make a splash bc we're in the business of spawning wonderkids #they play more #because why not they're good right?#their national team notices and they get called up #they play more and more and more #especially if the club is doing well and they're settling in more #and as the sport progresses and advances #players are more talented on average they get more marketable #the sport gets more marketable #and i guess that means more games because who cares what the players say #and at this point they'v 100s of games by the age of 18 #they've become an undisputed starter #the team is dependent on them #and they're literal kids so their body can't take it #and then they get injured #and whoop suddenly we need to return the academy and it starts again #gavi

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buglaur · 2 years

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tutorial contents:

1 ‣ gshade & photoshop actions 2 ‣ template or cropping & colouring 3 ‣ notifs & pop-ups

okay hi! i have a really old editing tutorial from back in january that i've been linking people to, but it's pretty outdated by now. i also keep getting anons asking about the same things, which is fine, but i always have to go searching for the post explaining it, so having it all in one place will be a lot more convenient lol

i use a ☠ copy of photoshop cc 2017 to edit my screenshots, however the majority of everything i'm doing also works on photopea

photopea is an online version of photoshop that's 100% free and works very well! i can't recommend it enough, it's fantastic

first things first, you're going to need some screenshots to edit. for the sake of this tutorial i'll be working with this one of raffy:

in all honesty, gshade will do most of the work for you. of course it's not needed, but i definitely don't think i could live without it! in this screenshot i used sunset n' vinyl by nesurii

when opening the screenshot, the first thing i do is run it through 2 photoshop actions:

butter action by early-grape

smooth sharp (no topaz) by poolbrop

to add actions in photoshop go:

windows > actions > the 4 lines at the upper right corner of the newly opened window > load actions > your downloads folder > open up the .atn files!

if you're using photopea, as far as i'm aware you can't use photoshop actions, but i've found that 'filter > stylize > oil paint' and 'filter > sharpen > smart sharpen' have a very similar effect when using the right settings. try these:

i like these two actions because they smooth everything out nicely, but keep it sharp at the same time! i always run butter before i run smooth sharp, however butter may leave you with 2 layers. make sure to merge these layers before running smooth sharp to achieve the full effect.

here's a before and after (of the photoshop action):

from here you can move on to step 2

before anything else i want to share the template that i use to make editing a lot faster. you don't need to use it but it's definitely made things a lot easier for me! it's a .psd file and will work perfectly in photopea

download (simfileshare)

if you're using the template you can skip right on to the next section, as it's already cropped to the right size and has the colouring folder included. just drag your screenshot into it and resize to fit the height.

if you're not using it, crop your edited screenshot to:

1707 width x 1280 height

then adjust the colours to your liking. it always varies slightly depending on the picture but my regular process for each screenshot would be:

up the saturation by 8%

up the lightness by 3%

up the contrast by 12%

all of this can be done by looking in the 'images > adjustments' tab

you should end up with something similar to this!

if you want to add a moodlet or social interaction or anything similar, it's all the same process. what you'll need is a screenshot of it straight from the game. i just press the 'c' key to capture them! i'll be working with these two:

for the blue notification i'm going to select it using the box select tool. try to get it as exact as possible. one you have it selected

for photoshop users:

click on the 'select and mask...' option located at the top

adjust the global refinements at the side as follows:

smooth: 70 feather: 0.0px contrast: 50% shift edge: 0%

for photopea users:

go to select > modify > smooth

set it to 15

select 'ok' and press 'ctrl + c' to copy it, then 'ctrl + v' to paste it into your screenshot. adjust the size and position and you should end up with something like this:

next you want to add the transparent border around the notification. if you're using my editing template, right click on the reference notif in the layers tab and select 'copy layer style' (photopea > 'layer style > copy'). from there you can paste that layer style onto your own notif through the layers tab.

if you're not using the template, here's how to set it up on photoshop:

right click your notification layer and select 'blending options'

under styles, tick the checkboxes for stroke and drop shadow

input these settings:

on photopea, it should be more or less the same. repeat the exact same process with the social menu option, but instead of selecting it with the box select tool, use the magic select tool. in the end you should end out with this!

from here you're finished! thanks for reading! go to file and export as png

if you've got questions never hesitate to ask, just make sure to read the faq in my pinned. i might edit this post soon to include the gen intro traits and aspirations bit, but this is all for now. hope it helps, my editing process post has been in need of a revamp for a very long time. i haven't proof-read this so apologies for any mistakes!

#ts4 #sims 4 #ts4 tutorial #5 anons in my inbox asking the same question after not reading my faq #this ones for you #3 anons in my inbox asking about cas pics #ones coming for you soon #okay maybe not soon but sometime #all my free time has been eaten up #i signed up for extra saturday morning classes and not having a lie in is sucking the life out of me lmao #when i'm busy i just wanna play video games and when i get the chance #to play games i just wanna sleep #its a vicious cycle #i'm currently playing resident evil biohazard tho #enjoying it very very much #i've only got 2 and 3 left to play and i've played every mainstream re game 💪💪#it was a very fun journey! i played them all within this year #long post

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shalpilot · 13 days

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temporary buddies

#ffxiv #ffxiv wol #geese art #ffxiv estinien #ocs #oc: kiriltugh #okay their whole deal. they don’t get along rn. like at all #me the player? i love estinien #kiril cannot fucking stand him and vice versa #they just no notttt like each other #when estinien is calling u a friend when ur about to. hm #heavensward spoilers #about tk fight nidhogg #i read that as him being like super passive aggressive LOL #bc kiril has background w the heretics #the entire time they were traveling together kiril would just kinda grumble abt estinien being wrong abt everything #until obv they eventually found out. uh oh kiril has also been wrong about everything #and estinien was like HAH. vindication. now u see.#n like this whole time estinien’s been like you’re wasting your strength when u could be using it for the fucking city thays protecting you #asshole.#so when kiril has no choice but to fight for ishgard w no like. alternative reason #estinien’s like yeah BUDDY. come and fight with someone who’s RIGHT #PAL.#DOES ANY OF THIS MAKE SENSE.#SORRY I GRADUATED TODAY. YOU ONOW HOW IT IS.#i’ll elaborate tomorrow if anyone’s interested. whatever #i realize i have to elaborate on my ocs if i want people to be interested in them #vicious cycle

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natsukaishii · 3 months

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i can’t help but just feel i’m slowly becoming invisible to people now

#i speak and they don’t respond #so then i stop talking in those servers #nobody checks in #they’re all so close and forming bonds and it’s like…#i was included once #i don’t even know when i started fading into the background #i don’t have a consistent friend group to have fun with and talk to #it’s like some vicious cycle?#i’m tired of being ignored. it’s so lonely.#tw vent #(‘: i didn’t mean to vent tho i’m just tired #and there’s nobody to hear it out #ig that’s why i made this blog. it’s just me talking to myself

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prototypelq · 9 months

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...do you think Dante ever realised how Vergil-like he was acting around Patty? She was quite obnoxious in the anime, did he ever think 'oh no is this what being Vergil felt like?', or 'was I ever this annoying?'...

Knowing Patty did him a lot of good, do you think it, per chance, also reminded him of happier times in his and Vergil's childhood when they just played together and annoyed each other all the time?...only to, of course squash those nicer memories the moment Patty leaves, because then the reminders of what he's done come crashing down....

#i am having F e E L i n g S ok ay #seriously i just thought that dante always tried to make Patty mind her own business and that's exactly what smol Vergil wanted Dante to do #and it spiraled down from there #patty's obnoxious behavior helped him to keep Thoughts TM at bay but what if it also reminded him of his childhood #i mean her entire background is Painfully familiar to dante #i am a firm believer that protecting her helped dante heal some old wounds and he was already in an obsessively retrospective mood at the #time maybe she also provoked a resurfacing of some happier memories of his #only to get hammered by his trauma even harder later of course and to get actual hammered in attempts to escape this vicious cycle #congrats now you're sad too )#at least it is bittersweet this time #patty propaganda #makes my brain go brrrrrrr #wonder if it'll work in reverse too! would meeting vergil and seeing dante go all 'annoying little brother' on him remind patty of her first #meeting with dante for the first time? and will vergil's 'moody' behavior remind her of dante at that time #i will Force patty into sparda family trauma and you can't stop me #patty lowell #patty adopted dante as her father figure #patty and nero are cousins #vergil is patty's classy uncle #dmc

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mad-hunts · 13 days

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#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study.#character introspection.#ahh... something about this is so accurate NGL like sadly barton will always have this-#immense anger in him i feel like no matter what he does to try to contain it / surpress it and this is-#because it has literally become a part of who he is as a person. ans by that i mean he ALWAYS has a sense-#of rage stirring within him that is just waiting to be unleashed and that is both kind of disheartening as well as scary #including for him. but barton is also used to it so it's like... he's grown a bit desensitized to it at the same time #even though that's arguably pretty sad to think about. barton is just not good at processing his emotions in healthy-#ways so his sadness is commonly turned into anger and the rare occasions where he does feel guilt / shame?#they also come off as anger because it is a much easier emotion for barton to process than sadness #so yeahhh. man's has definitely got some issues that he needs to work out regarding how you don't need to be-#afraid of getting sad especially if you have a good support system to help you through it... but he just JSJSJ refuses to-#show those kinds of feelings around people for a prolonged amount of time bc he doesn't trust that people won't use it-#to try to 'take advantage of him' so to speak since barton himself has cheered people up for that sole purpose before. thus it's all like-#one big vicious cycle y'know bc he fears the very thing that he practices.

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amarriageoftrueminds · 3 months

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I have to say I am hooked on your anti-peggy metas and with every single one, I just say out loud "You're absolutely correct and you should say it!" Everything that I've read so far is exactly what I've been having trouble articulating for years, and I'm so glad to find another great blog that shares the exact same sentiments.

Oh wow Anon, this is a lovely message to get!

I know just how you feel, too! Nothing better than going from wondering if you're mad for seeing this obvious thing nobody else can (like you've taken crazy pills), only to discover there are a bunch of other people who feel the same way.

Thank you for telling me. 🥰

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blackberry-jam · 1 year

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My theory here is not that HABIT and Vinny are the secret gay heroes or whatever my theory is that I think HABIT is so in love with the idea of change- a thing neither he nor Vinny can achieve- that he wills himself into believing that if Vinny kills Evan, truly believing himself to be the hero, it will break the cycle. He wants the one thing he is incapable of having, and he places all his bets on the only other person who cannot change to make it happen! It’s pathetic! It’s cruel! It’s so, so sad!

#emh #emh spoilers #idk I just think there is something so compelling about this vicious blood-spattered beast who cannot change because he cannot understand #wanting to change so badly that he etches the cycle even more indelibly into the earth #he won’t change what he does or how he acts #but he believes things can be different every time #like that’s INSANE. that is the DEFINITION OF INSANITY. and yet #he never gives up. he keeps chewing off his own foot thinking this time the blood will grease the wheel enough to escape #HABIT you are so pathetic. all that power and you can’t even change yourself. weak little man breaking under the weight of boredom #anyway. sorry

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cocolacola · 1 year

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anyone in this hell pit want to discuss alucard with a sexy amount of nuance

#conversations include anything besides calling him ''feral''#let's talk about that weird complex he has with his girlycard form #how he diminishes the meaning of others' lives so that he can remain desensitized #so that he can carry out all of integra's orders without a second thought #which just. perpetuates the vicious cycle of him serving the hellsing family #i think alucard completes his arc of overcoming his overwhelming bloodlust but i think there's a second thing he didnt achieve #that i would love to be explored #i think the only way he can really find a purpose is if integra severed his connection to the hellsing line in some way after her death #maybe that's just me (it is subjective after all! just my post-canon thoughts)#there's lots of potential in alucard finding new purpose after essentially being set loose to Go Rogue #you might think ''well he would probably just keep killing people''#i think after the time skip (and with walter and anderson's deaths) hes gotten past the need to constantly do that #it's something fun to explore i think #penny for ur thoughts #hellsing

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fingertipsmp3 · 28 days

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Should I end my tolerance break tonight or should I continue and see how long this can go on for

#full disclosure it’s only been two days #i’ll be honest kitten; daddy might have a fucking problem #look it’s not even… weed is not addictive. obviously #BUT i am not in the greatest mental state right now. i am not exactly a shining example of perfect mental health #i’m a 28 year old loser who peaked in undergrad and is a self employed freelancer BUT is too lazy to make decent money freelancing #i really need a manager breathing down my neck to get me to do the bare minimum or more consistently #i’m also super not doing well regarding 1) my dad’s deathiversary 2) my ongoing grief over mabel (yes she was a dog but if you say she was #‘just a dog’ i will come to your house and throw up in your walls DON’T DO IT. DON’T TRY IT. I LOVED HER)#and also just. the crushing weight of it all.#if i have edibles i don’t have to think about the fact i thought i’d either be dead or successful by now and instead i’m alive and mediocre #am i really supposed to freeball THIS reality. THIS ONE???#but then it’s like it creates a vicious cycle because is the weed making me unproductive or do i want the weed BECAUSE i’m unproductive #and it helps me forget that i’m a complete and utter loser. 🧐#listen i’ve gotten less done during this tolerance break than i did last week when i pretty much had a weed gummy every night #i’m not saying there’s a correlation but what i AM saying is it’s suspicious #i could continue the break until the weekend. that seems like the best plan #personal

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vaedar · 7 months

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𝐎𝐎𝐂; I apparently only posted this when it was a WIP couple of years ago but never posted the 'finished' greyscale piece so I am posting here now just to share... Vaedar and his winged baby, Azaes.

#i have such an intense need to draw but when i sit down to do that....#ofc i am interrupted and it breaks the moment and i get so stressed #and i can feel how am associating the drawing with stress which is not good at all just because i can't sit down to focus on drawing #it's a vicious cycle that i am constantly working through but lately all i can do is quick line arts and always using refs #cuz that's all the time i can make for with as less interruptions as possible... it why i'm gravitating to writing over drawing cuz #dont mind the interruptions as much while writing cuz it easier it doesn't require as much focus as drawing for me #i dont have trouble i think with line art cuz that's what i can do quick but i need a lot of practice for greyscale and color #which is what requires most focus and rhythm.. but i will not give up ok drawing is when i feel alive #but wow yes anyway i rambled am sorry xD just have vae and his big dragon bby #[ d r a g o n l o r d ] vaedar #[ f i r e made f l e s h ] dragons #gallery #mine

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cockyroaches · 1 month

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Adhd being genetic and neurodivergency as a whole making it much harder to move out of yr parents home means you're gonna be living with someone who's annoying in the same way you are and it drives u up the walls. Literal dogfight

#/this isnt about anything serious #mom just nabs my charger bc she takes hers to school but even with more than one she'll eventually leave all of them there #meaning. she needs to take either dads or mine. and we are both Not happy campers about it #+ she lets her poor little thing reach 0 pretty much Every Day which is also an adhd thing definitely #you see what i mean. we r all annoying each other in a vicious cycle #bitch mantis

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sherlock-is-ace · 3 months

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#panic attacks leave me feeling like shit for the rest of the day and that seems illegal #what do you mean i go through th worst feelings ever for a number of minutes and when it ends i still feel like absolute shit #the embarrassment of being seen as you lose all control of your body and emotions #and then your brain staying foggy and shitty all day #panic attacks should be a one time thing #i hate them!#kdfhgdfg #i was researching phsychiatrist yesterday because every day it's getting harder to deal with my brain hating me #but boy oh boy are they expensive!!! mental health doctors are never covered by my health inssurance and they're one of the most expensive #types of doctors out there and you can't just go once. it's a long term thing #so i very much doubt i'll be able to afford it #specially because my stupid work is not regular so maybe i can afford like 2 sessions and then never again for like 4 months...#i hate this so fucking much #and it's sort of a vicious cycle because i can't pay for therapy because i don't have regular work #and i can't find regular work because my anxiety paralyzes me most of the time...#but it's fine... could be worse #we still can afford food and pay for services so it's fine #i just wish my entire wasn't in other people's hands you know?#the people ruining this country the people who politely say ''thanks but you're not a good fit for our team'' etc etc #angel talks #personal #please ignore this post it's actually fine. i'm fine and not in danger of doing something stupid or whatever #it's all fine i'm just venting cause as i said my brain is foggy and putting things out there helps a bit

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curseofbreadbear · 5 hours

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vent under the cut 👍👍👍

i'm just so tired and so done. i hate having an invisible illness (chronic pain, MAYBE fibro) and not being able to properly explain how debilitating it is, even WITH extensive notes. i hate when doctors misunderstand what i'm asking for. i already feel like i'm faking it even WHILE experiencing it and it frustrates me + makes me feel more invalid than i already do when a medical professional acts like i'm being irrational. at the very LEAST i'm getting tests done but i don't feel heard by the one doctor who's supposed to help. my therapist and psychiatrist are making me feel more understood & supported than a pcp and that's not even their specialty. i think they just listen to me more and better understand where i'm coming from. i have ocd and i literally would not bring it up without doing EXTENSIVE research, but all a doctor hears is "i googled it" and that automatically makes it sound like i'm being a hypochondriac. and i swear, i SWEAR, i'm not. i do research to try and talk myself OUT of it!!!! that method has worked with everything else, but not fibro!!! i have just about every symptom and co-morbid condition and it's driving me crazy!!!

i'm so tired. i don't know how i can keep working or walking or LIVING like this, but i force myself and PUSH myself to act normal and functional every fucking day. and it's like. i feel like professionals will see that and be like "um you can walk AND work so clearly you're fine" except that i'm not!!!! i take excessive amounts of ibuprofen just to function and it's still not enough to completely prevent or numb my pain!! and STILL my mental illnesses like to do this terrible thing where i convince myself that i don't need breaks, i'm useless if i even take five minutes to sit down, i'm wrong and invalid and clearly i'm just pretending to be in pain!

and to top it all off, i asked about a mobility aid and he told me that i would do better without one because being in motion helps. and i agree!! my pain is significantly less noticable when i'm in motion, it mostly hurts when i stand still. BUT. i don't move at work! they force you to stand in place all day! the only thing i can ask for is a break to sit down, but THAT triggers the part of my brain that's like "no you're useless if you take a break, you can't do that, just push through it like you always do!!" and i just. i CAN'T. i can't keep working like that. the best i can do is request a position change so i am not STANDING all day, but i don't know if they'll let me do that or use a mobility aid without a doctor's note.

i'm so tired. i'm so fucking tired

#🎬 || time for bear. (ooc.) || 🎬#{ this doesn't even include the cognitive impact of what i'm dealing with which. }#{ is one of the biggest things keeping me from writing. }#{ it is so fucking difficult to keep track and understand where i'm going when i keep forgetting things MID-THOUGHT. }#{ i can barely concentrate on writing and that is my coping mechanism!!! i'm so fucking miserable not being able to focus on- }#{ -something that would make me feel better!! }#{ i'm fucking miserable rn. and the summer depression is not helping lol }#negative #{ sorry for venting i just need to get all of this out SOMEWHERE because my stupid fucking ocd keeps ruminating on- }#{ everything i COULD have done for my doctor to believe me }#{ my brain is in this vicious cycle of 'you're faking it' and 'you could have talked about this and this and this and they'd believe you' }#{ realistically there is nothing more i can do aside from doing this test and hoping it proves Something }#{ just UGHHHH. }

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road2manjuumaster · 12 days

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take a shot every time i make a new draft for yet another art post about azuma

#🌙#listen i keep putting them in styles i like to wear #which gives me irl outfit inspo #which i then immediately draw azu in #its a vicious cycle man #but i cant put em all in one post cuz the styles are different and my brain says No #this is exactly what happened with naru and ienzo #i just couldn't stop dressing em up and before i knew it all i could draw was my favorite little guy ( gn ) in cute little outfits #sigh

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flowercrowngods · 10 months

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doing okay? thinking of you 🤍

hi lovely 🌷🤍 yeah i’m fine, just found my brain replaced by fog a while ago, so it’s a little quiet here until the fog lifts (it will, it always does) 🫶

#aj darling 🤍#there are 60+ messages in my inbox but i’m not a person so they’ll have to wait 🫶 and you will you will i know #not st #asks #problem with the massive brain fog aside from like genuine inability to be social and at times even work is that i don’t really have words #and not having words is also what keeps the fog around so that’s a fun little vicious cycle but all i can do about it is wait :D #so that’s what i’m going :D but y’all can still ask me all sorts of shit about my wips or fics or the blorbos #and perchance the fog will lift for just a second

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