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yourfavouriteflowers · 2 days

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Late Night Talks (Remus x James)

A drabble following a break up during the height of the first war. Due to little spacing, Remus and James are forced to share a room.

The crumpled bedsheets only proved to make things worse. A quick shuffling from James, his eyes piercing into Remus’ back. Soft sobs escaped his mouth, a choke of holding himself back. James took in a deep breath and looked up to the ceiling, a shake stuck in his throat seemingly blocking everything from coming up. All the words he wanted to spill, all the apologies he needed to give trapped behind his thoughts suffocating him. His head drops back and he can hear quiet sniffling and slight movement from Remus. His gaze dropped back to the otherwise still body beside him in a panic.

“Remus?” James whispered, like it was the worst thing he could have said, like it was something sacred. But how could it be? the name of his only lover now just a memory on his tongue but it was just a name. Something he should be used to by now. James could hear Remus still. Everything was still, it seemed like time stopped and nothing was force it to continue going; James knew it would eventually. It had to. He couldn’t sit in agonising silence with Remus.

“James,” Remus replied eventually, his voice even more hushed than James’ own. Quiet enough that James only just heard it. Remus hadn’t moved but James could see more of his body. His head was ontop of his arm, looking down into his chest. James assumed he had been crying, or was at least upset because of the dried tears that set on his face and the slightly red corners of his eyes even though they were shut so tightly, as if afraid of what James called him for.

“You’re upset,” James said. It was a statement really. A statement of what had just happened, him finally bringing up a topic they’d both been avoiding since the break up. “I didn’t think they’d put us in the same room.”

Remus turned and looked up, now in a similar position to James and loud out a pained sigh. “You are too. Don’t be like that, I can take care of myself.”

James let out a sob and wiped away the tears that blurred his vision. “Yeah. I know. It just… sucks that things turned out like this. Like I didn’t want to hurt you, you know? I just couldn’t put you through that shit again. And I know you can take care of yourself but…”

“It’s okay, James. I don’t blame you.”

“I think I needed to hear that,” James said and let out a laugh. “Thank you. For what it’s worth, I do love you.”

“I know. I just don’t think we were meant to be, maybe again in some distant future when we aren’t fighting for our lives and our friends are hounding us about getting into relationships. Did we ever even come out to them?”

“Maybe so. I’ll wait for you. I dont think there’s anyone who I can love the same way I love you. And.. no, don’t return it, please. I dont think I could take it. Let’s just enjoy this moment where no one’s fighting or taking sides or anything,” James said, his voice quiet, hanging onto a hope that may not be there. “I never did come out. I think Padfoot was holding out hope that I’d settle down with some girl from school or something. That is just not me though.”

“No, not you at all. Go to sleep, yeah? While we’re still being nice,” Remus said and waited for James to lie back down. The slow movements of the cover made a quiet sound and Remus quickly followed. They both laid in the silence before Remus whispered a last ‘Goodnight.’

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#moonysdrabbles #moonchaser #james x remus #remus lupin #marauders #marauders era #dead gay wizards #james potter #drabbles #drabble #writer #one shot #moonsun

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gurberousbaby · 2 years

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H-hear me out

Do ghosts with no legs but the tail thingy procreate in the same position snakes do??

#the ghostly trio #stinkie mcfadden #stretch mcfadden #fatso mcfadden #girl help #this is what happens when I dont get enough sleep #Ghosts #positions????

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kyorinrinswritingdump · 2 years

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This is just a brain fart from a sleep-deprived brain, but HEAR ME OUT! A Sett montage but with Zero to Hero from Disney's Hercules

The more I thought about it, the funnier it got (especially if the 5 muses were K/DA or whatever combination of LOL champs, sprinkle in Sett beating up other LOL champs like how Hercules beat up the Greek creatures and you got a recipe to get you out of whatever funk you're in)

#sett #league of legends #zero to hero #brain fart #it gets funnier the more you think about it #this is what happens when i dont get enough sleep

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tianhai03 · 2 years

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kinda felt like drawing 5dante but closer to how i really want to draw him and not how he looks in canon. so Behold, A Tiny Taste Of My Insane Thoughts About Dante

#most of the time i keep these more deranged and messy doodles only on twitter but #yknow what some you guys seem to appreciate it when i draw him a little cray cray so here you go #i also forgor to give him top scars pretend they were there but they healed up bc of his regenerative powers #devil may cry #dante(dmc)#doodles #tee hee when he's a little crazy and insane🤪#this is what happens when i dont sleep enough and get tired. im too powerful when i dont give a shit about what im drawing and posting #i already kept most of my other thoughts out of this those are for another day huhuhu #anyway. i should go sleep before i say anything else.#gn #allyart

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stevethehairington · 3 months

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book 5 of the year done!!!! im literally one book away from halfway to my goal and the first month of the year isn't even over yet fjsksk i am DEFINITELY going to hit it this year!

#SUUUUPER bummed to say tho that ive made it to the first book of the year i havent enjoyed :/#the worst part is — its the first in a series apparently and like. i WANT to know what happens next #but also i dont CARE enough to want to keep reading the rest of the series yknow?#like. this first book was just SOOOO disjointed #it was ALL exposition #it spent 500 pages giving individual backstories for each of the characters. as in each character l i t e r a l l y told their story #which first of all absolutely BORING way to get to know your characters and second of all NONE od these characters were even likeable!!!#and the worldbuilding was just. weird. it kind of didnt make sense and felt all over the place #and FULLY felt like he was just throwing random sci-fi-y words around to make it sound cooler but like. it wasnt.#and like all these characters are together on this pilgrimage right #but it is NEVER really revealed why/what they plan to do when they get to their end destination/anything like that #and im between each of these character backstories it feels like the same stuff one person is like oh wow what a story lets get some sleep #and then they do and they wake up and they do the tiniest bit of traveling #(which is like. described in the most lackluster barebones way) and then they eat and share another story and rinse and repeat #it was SO boring #it honestly reminded me of the movie the eternals LMAO #all these characters and you get to know a little about them but not enoguh to become invested and none of them are all that interesting #and the purpose of their journey/the purpose of THEM is completely unknown is completely devoid #like it felt like there was no plot #it was. ough not good.#so yeah would NOT recommend hyperion by dan simmons :/#mack reads

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opens-up-4-nobody · 6 months

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#aaaand thats a 3rd doctor. a psychiatrist. who listened to me ans thought: mm sounds like bip0lar lol #me: wow its so easy to get diagnosed as bip0lar. thats bc u r exhibiting lots of depression and a limit amount of mood elevation. that's #like. thats what bip0lar is. she was like yea ppl with bip0lar 2 spend like 75% of time being depressed and a lil elevated mood... which #sounds like what u r describing. me:#...yeah. but again its complicated by the 0cd and spectrum issues. but she independently brought up 4dhd. just when i was like no its all #0cd. here we r again. stuck back in the messy overlap. but whatever i got proscribed bip0lar medicine. lam1ctal. we'll see #bc everyone i talk to is like. we need to control the mood 1st. like so u dont die. and im like hm yeah good call lol #she seems super cool tho. like i would love to just talk to her. ugh. she wants to get a handle on the mood and then maybe add a stimulant #bc shes had it happen in thr past where someone comes in with debiltating 0cd and got treated with lam1ctol and a stimulant and the #obsessive rumination stopped. so well see. idk if ill actually qualify as 4dhd enough. well see. fingers crossed #my mood is a lil elevated rn so its all fun. well see if we tip off a cliff bc im getting less sleep and go go going #unrelated #ugh im scared to start the medine tho bc the ssri i got proscribed fucked me up so much. which is also an indicator of bip0lar #god dammit. if this works im gonna have to actually accept the idea of being bip0lar. i mean. it makes sense being on that spectrum #is just sounds insane and i was not expecting it despite my fucking obsession with understanding wtf my deal is #idk. whatever. doesnt matter

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androideql · 23 days

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Alright so the day started terribly today and I'm going through some turmoils so prepare for any unusual behaviour

#android talking #i swear to god that i don't fuck up on purpose and i wish i could stop it from happening #ive been feeling like a pretty useless member of this household lately and when i forget crucial stuff and everyone gets mad i just #i cant #im trying my hardest and i know it's not enough but nobody understands that when i say im constantly exhausted #i dont mean like i need to chill down and sit down for a while #i mean i cant sleep i cant bring myself to even do what i want to do and i physcally struggle to stand up some days #and it's not like i havent said this #they know im severaly weakened but they forget #the moment i cant do what i used to be able to they get so upset...#alright enough tags for now #negative

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manicpixiefelix · 3 months

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Took a nap in the middle of the day and had the most bizarre series of dreams, some were in fact nightmares, HOWEVER Ollie and Felix were in the last one??? Felix Catton continues to be the most beautiful man I've ever seen in my conscious or unconscious life???? All I got was one of the best and most real feeling kisses I've ever had in a dream, and I'm so mad I woke up. :(

cannot escape Saltburn or the Felix/Reader/Oliver fantasies even while asleep it seems...

(my tags are for posterity lol sorry but if you wanna read the full dream go right ahead. I reached the tag limit but all that was left was essentially the main text of this post lol)

#i will say the early part of the dream was very different. i Was jason momoa for a while there. also a child. also maybe peacemaker #evan Peters as magneto was tearing apart school buses and children and also he fucked my (whoever i was as jason momoa) mom which i saw??#then there was two of me (jason momoa)?? he also may have become peacemaker i might be misremembering. we were in the jungle #no metal so he wasnt a threat #except he was peacemaker and i (artie the writer in the body of jason momoa) am not a good fighter and he bullied me for it. womp womp #then we were saved by a tribe of superheroes who lived in the jungle and were definitely pitting us against each other #but i wasnt Jason momoa anymore except i was when i was swinging through the jungle like george of the jungle #but i was me when i got to the beach and started swimming and hunting for food and shoving every random piece of food into my mouth #except the eel which i was told i had to cook 😞#cooked the eel over a tealight at the beach camp/tribe which i was apparently part of even though i was meant to have been with the forest #also spoke to some irl collegues from the festivals i worked at last year and aparently as an 'initiate' to the tribe i and the others #have to find a place to sleep in the open #also that theres some kind of game???? some weird game that happens with the forest tribe initiates???? like hide and seek #and we on the beach only have a set time to prepare #immediately me and the rest of the beach initiates are like Get Fukt were not sleeping on the sand and gravitate towards #the weird warehouse based playground?? that was there for some reason?? and had so many security cameras??? what was my mind doing honestly #its under cover but the two other initiates im close to now dont feel like its secure enough to not be found #also the hide and seek aspect now has sinister undertones for those doing the hiding it seems. its more nightmare again #im a very awkward person irl with touch (its the autism lol) so it was big of me to hold hands with this dude #because we were running out of time to hide and i was afraiddddd #for the record i shouldnt have been lmfao #ANYWAYS idk when or who gives me the tip that i should hide on the other side of these weird black bed frame situations #but im assured by a girl i went to uni with (maddy i lov u thanks for cameoing in my dream???) that it works???#so im squeezed up in the corner behind this loft bedframe and it turns out the hiders can see like it's a sunny daytime #seekers are going around in the dark #makes it much less spooky #also it means i just got to watch fi and ollie (and others) being hot and essentially hunting people down #(hm do i have a thing for predator/prey dynamics??? that's future arties problem to think about)#the point is fi and ollie find my friend maddy #who is just in front of me but i duck out of their grasp consistently but they're weirdly persistent so much that even maddy comments on it

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scaredofmyocs · 6 months

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I love it when i accidentally stay up on the night im supposed to be catching up on sleep it totallly doesnt make me feel horrible all week long

#talk post #i love this blog i want to live here #I cant!!! i just cant!!! go to bed at a normal fucking time istg #but noooooo the wild grinders wiki no some stupid bullshit no one has ever cared about before #WHEN I DONT GET ENOUGH SLEEP MY MENTAL HEALTH GETS WAY WORSE!!!!! IF I DONT FIX IT WE ARE GOING TO GET TOO SILLY #(yelling at a mirror)#seriously bothers me tho that Im always worried about how intense my negative feelings have been lately #and im like “oh ill just get more sleep” and then immediately fuck it up the next night making me tired all week #making me feel SO bad in the mornings and at night and increasing my paranoia and other such thoughts #and in trying to tune it all out just forget about it again leading to me fucking it up again #this is a bit dramatic its only happened 2 weeks in a row #but that feels like a lot because thats like 10 nights where i felt like i blinked and i had to wake up and go to school #and not only deal with my shitty social skills but the results of said thing #and also try to fight the thoughts that are like “this shits pointless im not doing this” LIKE PLEASE pretend to be normal for one year #and also that one teacher i have who demands every students attention while he teaches like i already finished the work sheet shut it #like i do well in that class just let me do what i want im not being distracting like girl i have at least an 87 dw about me #PLUS most of the time im not even on my phone he just really wants me to look at the board but girl as i said I ALREADY DID WHATS ON THERE #i feel like i never get to relax but i do all the time so i dont know what i mean #i keep saying “its ok as long as i can bury all my thoughts and just keep going while filling what free time i have with things i enjoy”#but things only work for so long #i hate the passage of time #anyawy erm wrong my guitar is in my mind (stupid ass guitar riff)#walks over to my bed and trips on the way falling asleep on the floor #ramble #hit post

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cosmicdisastr · 8 months

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don't you just love seeing 1 tiktok about something that can be wrong with your body that you resonate with which leads you down a rabbit hole of research and diagnosing yourself with a new thing that explains everything you've been dealing with but didn't have the words for but you don't want to bring up official diagnoses with your doctor bc you either can't afford the testing or you're afraid you wouldn't be believed and/or told you're wrong even though you KNOW something is wrong w you but dont have the mental energy to pursue it and so you just walk around with a bunch of shit in your head about things you may or may not have but cant/wont do anything about and scream

#first it happened with adhd #then autism #then sleep apnea #now its joint hypermobility syndrome causing the pain in my hands bc ive ALWAYS been told im double jointed #turns out that can fuck up your fingers and wrists and all your joints in general #which yeah usually hurt #ive also diagnoses myself with mild restless leg but that wasnt bc of tiktok and really usually only affects me when i take melatonin #having a body is bullshit tbh #im also fully aware of the possibility that i have absolutely nothing diagnosable wrong with me and im just weird and in pain inexplicably #but having words for what it COULD be is fun and helpful #bro theres just no other explaination why at 22/23 i began having intense muscular and joint pain in my hands my FIRST YEAR having a job #and ive been told its not carpal tunnel its just inflamation but like I DONT USE MY HANDS ENOUGH FOR IT TO BE A CONTINUED YEARS LONG PROBLEM #there has to be something else going on dude and i dont think i have full blown EDS so JHS makes more sense #idk #i just get so frustrated with the way my body refuses to work properly #and at least calling it something helps me rationalize it #like 'im not lazy or overreacting etc i have this thing thats CAUSING this'#/rant #im just having a day

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synth-spinner · 1 year

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so, does your superior ever try to change the way the body looks? like shaving, getting piercings, or dyeing his hair?? also, can i get a funfact about him <3 (your version of him btw im always gonna be referring to that one)

THAAANK YOU FOR ASKING WAAHHH UR ALWAYS SO NICEYS TO ME !!!

AND YAYA YIPPEEE !! My version of otto had long hair with the fringe slicked back while he was a supervillain and after he took over the body he kept his hair slicked back too :3 and i imagine he let his hair grow longer at first cuz he didn't really care + out of habit ^_^ BUT!!

After he turns his life around and tries to be a good hero, he really fears that he will inevitably end up doing bad things and hurting people again like he used to </3 so when he has his hair longer he sometimes starts seeing his old self in the mirror </3 and like he sees this new life as spiderman as his second chance!! to do good and be better!! So even tho he knows he's grown since then and isn't a bad guy anymore, seeing stuff that reminds him of his time as a villain seep into this second chance is NOT helping ^_^ he cuts it short and keeps it that way after that </3 ALSO he dyes his hair darker sometimes but there's nothing deeper to that other than style and covering up white hair from stress ^_^ and it never stays that long cuz I imagine his hair grows faster and all the natural colours just come back anyway :3

FOR FUNN FACT in my version his mechanical spider legs were originally cuz he felt weird without the weight of his ock arms behind him so he built them just to feel more comfortable when he went out as spidey :D and only afterwards did he start utilising them for combat :3 he does still appreciate not having obstructions constantly stuck on his back tho !! he was so relieved that he could lie down comfortably that he nearly cried the first time he did </3 Best of both worlds ^_^

#superior spidey #UR ALWAYS SOO NICEYS TO ME.... BWAHHH #I REALLY REALLY APPRECIATE UR ASKS FOREVER AND ALWAYS AND UR INTEREST IN MY SILLY LITTLE GUY AWGWHHHHH #U MAKE ME EXPLODE INTO PIXELS THAT HIT THE FLOOR LIKE CLIK CLAK CLAK AND THEN FLICKER AND DISAPPEAR !!!#WAHHHH #also also >:3 ur acau miles seems to be the cozy sleepy sleeper !! what happens when they dont get enough sleep :00 #do they go scary mode or do they just operate on low energy till they can catch some Zs ?? or a secret third option??

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emptyspace-warmtea · 2 years

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I have a very stupid idea

So we have Henry Stickmin and Henry Stickman right? Everything is the same except the last part of their name, min and man, i and a.

So imagine, Henry with all the vowels (like Henry Stickmon lmao) and all five of them joined different factions like:

Henry Stickmin faction is none/other

Henry Stickman faction is Toppat

Henry Stickmun faction is Government

Henry Stickmen faction is The Wall

And lastly, Henry Stickmon faction is CCC