#this is why i dont come on this fucking site like that anymore like some of you really do not know how to ignore things you dont like

[airbenderedacted]

deathstar shippers stop going out of ur way to tell me you hate dominator being a lesbian and that you’re homophobic asf challenge (impossible, apparently)

#(cw: put under a read more for homophobia & transphobia 😬) #LITERALLY went ''lemme say the quiet part out loud'' BRO THIS IS LIKE THE 6TH(????) TIME I'VE HAD SUCH AN ENCOUNTER #except i will say that this is the first time it wasn't unprovoked. i did @ them first to ask why they were leaving replies on my posts- #-saying hater's crush on dominator is creepy bc they 'look like they have an age gap' meanwhile they've liked AND MADE #-comments elsewhere shipping her with men that are way WAY older than her and sometimes visibly so like. hater and her are the same agegroup #so i was like. what is going on here huh??? ANFD THEN THEY JUST SAY THIS SHIT why am i ever surprised anymore lmao #shout out to this person for adding transphobia to their shittiness for Spice ig /s 🙄 eugh... #i should've seen it coming bc they were referencing a page on the woy wiki THAT USES STEVENSON'S CORRECT NAME & PRONOUNDS #AND YET THEY WERE ADAMANT ON USING HIS DEADNAME AND SHE/HER PRONOUNS LIKE.. I SHOULD'VE EXPECTED THIS I SHOULD'VE EXPECTED THIS but still 🤢 #i dont ever wanna stop giving ppl the benefit of the doubt but oh my god do These people test me. every time. goes like this Every Single T- #on god only like twice or smthn have i seen [REDACTED] shippers be like.. very decent to me and literally just ignorant #and they were from here and i just ask them to not interact bc it makes me uncomfortable and they're like i dont get it but ofc #and i never see them again #AND THEN EVERY OTHER PERSON WHO IS INTO THIS SHIT I HAVE *EVER* COME ACROSS #FUCKING JUST... JUMPS INTO MY MENTIONS OUT OF NOWHERE. LITERALLY I DONT EVEN?? DO ANYTHING I DONT GO NEAR THEM BRO #THEY FUCKING SNIFF ME OUT OR SOME SHIT FOR HAVING A DNI ON OTHER SITES AND GO #''OH SO YOU THINK I'M WRONG FOR HAVING TO REIMAGINE GAY/LESBIAN CHARACTERS AS STRAIGHT SO I CAN ENJOY THEM?'' LIKE- WTF? YES? IT IS #also i kid you not this is an actual thing someone has gone out of their way to look me up and yell at me over for like an hour straiught #on twitter. it was unhinged. like they were convinced straight ppl are oppressed any time gay characters exist #bc gay characters existing makes them unlikable and unrelatable and unconsumable to straights like damn ok if u feel that way die abt it? #it's just so unhinged like bruh GO AWAY LMAO??? SHUT UP! I DONT CARE LITERALLY JUST KEEP UR FREAK BIGOT SHIT TO URSELF GET OUT #again that specifically doesn't apply to this person who technically WAS @ by me first bc i was like.. hey... hey what's going on here HUH #but oh my god they turn out to be vocally homophobic every single time. i was always hoping i was like... #over generalizing these people as being fucking homophobic just bc 1) the vibes r always like that 2) it's faster to say #BUT OH MY GOD THEY REALLY ARE HOMOPHOBIC AS A WHOLE WHAT THE FUCK I LITERALLY ALWAYS WENT OUT OF THE WAY TO BE LIKE aint no way ahah BUT NO? #BRO???? GET OUT OF HERE THIS SHOW IS NOT FOR YOU Y'ALL ARE CREEPS #THEY FEEL SO EMBOLDED TO SAY THE QUIET PART OUT LOUD EVERY SINGLE TIME WITHOUT PROMPTING. I ALWAYS MAKE FUCKING SURE TO NOT ACCUSE BIGOTRY #AT MOST I'LL JUST BE LIKE yeah so straightwashing is a thing that's homophobic so don't do that IF ANYTHING. I NEVER CALL THE PERSON THAT #AND EVERY TIMEEEE THEY JUST GO MASK OFF WITH ''BTW I DONT LIKE THE GAYS'' I OEIUFKGEJRHGUKJDFS EVERY TIME EVERY TIME WTFFFFF #usually being right about things is epic. not this THIS IS JUST.. GWORLS WHAT HE FUCK

[spectrophobias]

psa if ur seriously pressed about someone writing a fictional character on tumblr u need to get a fucking life and do some soul searching on why u think everyone else needs to cater to you and the way you think things should be written and spoken about

#im so serious if u think whiny anons or callouts are the correct response to.... #(checks notes) not liking the harmless thing someone is writing...... #stay far the fuck away from me and maybe take a step back and ask urself if u really want to be a grown ass adult crying over tumblr #get a lifeeeeeeeeeeee #this is why i dont come on this fucking site like that anymore like some of you really do not know how to ignore things you dont like #grow the fuck up #get some semblance of self respect and stop crying that not every single thing on this site perfectly aligns with your ideal world #learn to unfollow and block #but jesus fucking christ just grow the fuck up #(thank god this is not directed at any of my followers but #i know there are some freaks out here that keep an eye on content that actively upsets them so) #like obviously im not going to support people being harmful and problematic but . nobody is doing that right now. #and some of yall are really making it your mission to shit on people when you can just. not fucking follow them if you dont like their blog #please stop acting like a middle school posse jesus fuck grow up #look for the light (ooc)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#im just gonna b a whiney bby for a sec bc im tired and i spent too long out in the sun :-P #we left at like 7.30 for sampling and got back around 4 so like it was a long day. it wasnt too awful tho #only kinda awful. but thats not what i wanna complain abt. i wanna complain bc we have this project looming #bc our machines r coming back. so i have to make sure i can connect the stupid cameras thru code stuff and make sure the chambers r built #and i dont wanna do any of this bc i kno this project is gonna cause me physical and Phycological pain #like all the projects we're collecting for. last time i had to work with the samples i got a little too close to a like full of breakdown #so my brain and body dont wanna do it. and this specific project has potential to b even worse that what i usually do so fml #sigh... i just dont wanna be here doing what im doing anymore. ive stopped having fun. my boss is like wow u r gonna be the person ppl #think of on X topic once u get all this published and its like. god i dont fucking care. #when i think of the data all i can think of is how awful it was collecting it. everytime it cuts a bigger and bigger wound in me #like i think its done long term damage to my psychy. i burned out too hard too many times. #so i dont wanna do it. i dont wanna push these projects forward. and i dont wanna collect more data from 2 other sites bc i kno the more i #collect the worse its gonna be. ugh. whatever. im sure itll b fine. bc im less invested in what im doing so maybe this time ill have a #healthier way of dealing with it idk. im just sick of it. and that's really sad. #ugh. whatever. i have a big meeting with a guy tomorrow and idk what device im gonna use to zoom with him #bc my computer screen is fucked and the camera makes me look like im at the bottom of a well... #i need a new computer... agh. whatever ive gotta reread some of his papers #i hope he likes me. he's at a way too prestigious school so im like. way too intimidated. but like im sure he just wants passion #ans ive got passion. Hopefully ive also got the stuff for knicking a full ride scholarship as well #yea right... but idk ill fucking go for it bc why not #hhhh i just wanna b in a future what i have the perfect phd program and its all sorted out #unrelated

[autisticlee]

sometimes I really cant stand boomers and can't wait for their inevitable demise. i'm tired of hearing disgruntled old bigots who barely have any time left run their mouths, spread hatred, and blame us for the shit they caused for us to clean up. just go away. this world doesn't belong to you anymore.

#dont care if that sounds bad. ive seen enough good ones that i can count on one hand and we know how many there are #where i live is a town of mostly boomers #all the care about is themsleves and screwing over everyone else and blaming us for their fuckups #while being pathetic bigots who dont know how to be decent respectful people yet demand respect for themselves #why are people like this who have a decade or 2 left if theyre lucky making decisions for OUR FUTURE. when we dont want their shit #they want so bad to keep thinks like “the good ol days” and ignore the fact that we dont live in their generation anymore #they had their lives! they need to stop acting like we need to live their lives! things are different. try to improve things for us #not try to make us suffer like you did but at the same time act like you had it so good and were perfect little angels #and why the fuck are you all such horrible bigots that hate everyone different from you?????? i truly dont understand that #why do you think saying shitty to younger people and anyone you “dont understand” will do anything good? seriously #what good does that do? are you trying to make us hate you because its working. go retire into your graves already you useless sacks of meat #i dont care if im ~being mean~ some of those old freaks need to go and stop leeching off of us and blaming us for their shit #and being living pieces of shit while their at it #the good oldies can stay as long as they like tho but those are few and far between as i said #when i say boomers i dont include the good ones. theyre just sweet oldies. boomer basically now means disgruntled old bigot #lee rants #i just needed to rant after seeing comfy rich retirement fund boomers come onto this site just to scream obscenities at young people #as if that will do anything or motivate us to “want to work” or whatever the fuck they scream about. old little freaks leave us alone. #where are the good oldies? i hardly ever see them. id love to hear from them more! im so tired of the doomer boomers. #maybe i should call them doomer boomers from now on. theyre so negative towards everyone but themsleves and speak doom on us

[saltminerising]

1. ​In the midst of a lengthy ban explanation, the team member who wrote it confessed that there were several times where I broke the rules and they didn't ban me. (The accounts ended up locked for other reasons.) Was that supposed to make you seem merciful? Because hanging on to all that to trot out at the last minute comes off as petty spite to me. THAT'S why I'm leaving for good, not because I'm "out of second chances". Go take your unevenly applied rules and bother someone else.

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2. I wish FR would impliment a thing where you can just ask to have extra accounts closed, without risking your main. That would be nice

Or maybe an, idk, multiaccounter debt system, where all the stuff you've funneled gets given a FR currency value that you then have to pay off before you earn anything new to spend yourself. Probably wouldn't ever happen because it could lead to massive unpayable debts in the case of some things, but it feels unfair that literally any multi activity at any point of your time on the site risks a ban and loss of potential years of progress, even if they barely did anything with the extra accounts at all

Yes I'm aware they let you make a new account after but still. Sucks

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3. very respectfully i wish anybody who made multiple accounts without realizing it was against the rules a very get banned idiot. its right there in tos. literally right there. i dont even care if you were a wee lamb of 13. just read the damn rules!

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4. the fact that you can get banned for something you did 5-7 years ago is fucking stupid. they run such a tight ass ship for a game thats not even in semi-closed beta anymore.

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5. for the person asking about reasons for multi-accounting ; i have a dissociative disorder and often forgot my passwords/logins. these often came back recollected over the next few years. i'd log in to an old account, see i had currency, send it over and never touch it again. maybe not a super crazy reason for "multi-ing" if you can even call it that (and personally i dont even consider it funneling) but i imagine there are a lot of cases like this of just genuine forgetfulness.

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6. The multi rules are so ass bc if you ever accidentally break them u might as well double down bc ur getting banned either way

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7. when i was 14 i wanted to get rid of some of my dragons but i was still a little attached so i made another account and just sent the dragons to it and now they sit there......hungry forever.....anyway i lost the password and i only started taking this game seriously like a year ago but now im lowkey scared if i will be found guilty of multi-accounting and sentenced to death :)

#multi accounting

[raisin-shell]

Oh boy. Oh boy oh boy. Here we fucking go again! Words just can not express how absolutely disgusted I am with this fandom! Once again Tumblr has lost another really caring, genuinely good person because of bullying and straight out meanness. Look, if you don’t want your art shared by a NSFW blog then DONT POST IT ON THE INTERNET FOR BILLIONS TO SEE. If you don’t like tcest, it’s simple KEEP SCROLLING! I have never in my life seen so many people who they themselves have everything from weight issues to mental issues that have been alienated, made fun of and chastised their entire lives, come to a place like tumblr that is supposed to be a safe haven for people like us…. STRAIGHT UP BULLYING AND ACTING LIKE BRATS IN HIGH SCHOOL!!! GROW THE FUCK UP. I haven’t lost this person as a friend which is why I’m here today to stand up for her and what is right! Tmntspidergirl and no one else who writes smut in this fandom did ANYTHING WRONG BY SHARING SOME ART THEY FOUND ON THE INTERNET. Point blank period. Also, NO ONE IS IN THE WRONG FOR SHARING MY RAPHS JOURNAL STORY which is TCEST. You don’t like it, block my ass. I don’t give one fuck anymore. I’m tired of these half brained twits on this site getting their panties in a bunch just because people are DIFFERENT. NO ONE IS PUSHING SMUT IN YOUR FACE. NO ONE IS PUSHING TCEST EITHER! The art was not presented in a sexual way in any shape or form. The tcest is labeled correctly with warnings both at the top and BEFORE ANYTHING EVEN HAPPENS IN THE STORY. So with that said…. GET FUCKED. I’ve had it. This has been a long time coming too. It just took the pain of one of my very best friends to bring the monster right back out of me and well HERE I FUCKING AM. If you think for just one moment this is directed at YOU, good! GET FUCKED. You’re the reason this fandom is garbage instead of pulling together and respecting others differences. And I get it, perhaps the artist is asexual. That’s fine too. But to stir up this much drama over a NSFW blog or blogs I should say because I shared it as well, just because we shared your artwork?!? GET FUCKED. And for those of you who dropped off her followers list because she shared my Raph’s Journal story, you can GET FUCKED TOO. This is a place for self expression. We WILL POST WHAT WE WANT. Don’t like it guess what….

GET FUCKED!!!!!!

#teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt #tmnt raphael #tmnt leonardo #bayverse #tmnt bayverse #tmnt 2016 #tmnt donatello #tmnt michelangelo #mun speaks #tmnt fandom #leonardo #donatello #raphael #tmnt donnie #tmnt leo #michelangelo #tmnt raph #tmnt 2014 #tmnt smut #tcest #rise tmnt #tmnt fanfiction #tmnt 2012 #rise of the tmnt

[mainlyjustthesims]

so im just gone have a little small talk about the community and paywalled cc i have nothing against paywalled cc creators they work hard on what they do but taking advantage of it is fucked as a creator who has put some cc behind paywalls i have made them publicly available for free after a week and a simple thing i gone say and a pure logical thing is i saw people upload payed cc on other sites and if you are the creator dont fucken want it STOP PAYWALLING YOUR CC AFTER THE TIME ITS SUPPOSE TO BE PAYWALLED! simple shit like that like will not happen but then again i have supported some creators that have put there cc after some time public i do support creators but i just dont understand why people doesnt use logic anymore on this planet NOTE IM NOT JUST TALKING ABOUT THE SIMS 4 COMMUNITY! SO DONT FUCKEN COME AT ME AND SAY OH YOU PICKING ON THE SIMS 4 COMMUNITY BECUASE YOU PLAY SIMS 3 THE MOST Fun fact is i create mods for sims 4 atm stuff thats really needed in the game

anyways enough

#ranting #sims #sims community

[tianhai03]

Can you stop being such a cunt, tranny. "I have a job and barely any free time anymore. who are you to tell me what to do. go learn some manners before you say anything under my art again" You sell prints, when you didn't pay the artist for the characters or their time, and want to talk, bitch. maybe stop selling other people's characters, and acting like a beggar, constantly giving out your inprnt store. Tell you what, since you value your time so much I value Capcom's time, and am reporting your inprnt account. Shut the fuck up, you stupid, degenerate loser. Your art sucks.

wow, it's my first time being called a slur! isnt that a big accomplishment. thanks for wasting your time coming all the way to here from twitter just to hide behind anon and say vile shit to me. why didnt you just comment on my tweet? you couldve saved a couple of minutes doing that. or is someone too scared to say shit to me directly to my face?

as for the inprnt thing, i never begged anyone to buy my stuff. i literally started selling my prints because people have been asking it for years, and ive stated MULTIPLE TIMES that no one should feel obligated to buy anything from me because its not my main income and its just a side extra thing i do. PEOPLE WANTED PRINTS OF MY ART, THEY ASKED FOR IT FOR LITERAL YEARS, AND IM JUST GIVING THEM WHAT THEY WANT. if youve ever seen me beg people to buy my art please let me know because i sure as fuck dont remember doing it. the only reason why i post my inprnt stuff so often is because the site has sitewide sales often, and if i have a way to let people pay less for my art if they want to im going to give them exactly that.

i know selling stuff with other people's IPs isnt exactly legal, its a big grey area that has no 100% rights or wrongs. but im not actively harming anyone just because i made art of a character and sold it online. the big companies arent losing any money because of me, you can always take the money youre paying for my prints and just buy official merch. i dont care. im going to repeat myself again and tell you that im only selling prints FOR THE PEOPLE WHO WANT IT AND CAN AFFORD IT. IF YOU DONT WANT IT THEN ITS NOT FOR YOU.

if you think selling fanart is so wrong, think back to all the times youve seen a voice actor for a show or a video game commissioning artists to draw the characters they voice. according to your logic, even though theyve spend their own time and effort on a crucial part of the character, theyre still not allowed to commission stuff of that character because they dont own the rights to them. does that mean youre going to report them too? are you gonna go to capcom and tell them "HEY MR. NICK COMMISSIONED SOMEONE TO DRAW A BUNCH OF RESIDENT EVIL CHARACTERS FOR HIS STREAMS AND HE DIDNT PAY BACK THE ENTIRE RE TEAM FOR THEIR TIME AND EFFORT MAKING THE GAME. THE ONLY THING HE DID IS VOICE LEON YOU GUYS NEED TO STOP HIM"? of course not, you'll look like a fucking idiot. i might not own the characters either, but ive spent my own time and the drawing skills ive developed over the past decade to draw those prints. i own the rights to my drawings and i should be allowed to do anything i want with them as long as im not harming anyone.

clearly you cant stand me or anything i do but youre still following me for some reason. please for the love of god block me right now, leave me alone and live your own life. you'll be happier that way. and also stop being transphobic its literally 2023.

#allyanswers #Anonymous #ask #// transphobic slur #sorry that i had to put terrible things on everyone else's dashboard. not gonna do it often i promise #long post

[tamorisana]

remember mermaid ramblings?

now listen to this. (as always credit goes to art from @mizushibart ) this is the continuation of this post but you dont need to read it for context

sirens was what took over my mind. siren rudy to be precise.

look. sirens and mermaids, in my culture are looked as someone who was unhappy with their life and took it but i think that while it does happen merfolks are a different species. and have their own culture traditions and etc. sirens feed on love, not human body. eating the human is.. a desert??? a treat??? they could but its not necesserity. and thats what is happening here. rudy and alejandro meet as young folks (maybe ale' is a nonhuman too) and totally fall for each other, both human and non-human but while its all wonderful there is fear n no trust. ale fears him bc of stereotypes, rudy fears him bc he never saw anything like that.

again, they are young and its first time siren is out of water and learns about all the sounds and how to walk and talk because he could only chip, click and make a little prrrr and just generally learns about this new world--holy fuck is what is that?!? why is it blue!?

also sirens dont sing. its a stereotype made up by stupid humans, if siren wants it can make sound close to humming but practically their vocal cords dont have the ability to speak but they over come the problems! i promise they do! ale feeds rudy his love in the end and rudy... there is a thing right. siren tears are extremely... good way of healing both for humans and non-humans

and while alejandro basically begs rodolfo not to use them on him, rudy still does that. because without ale and his love siren will wither and die. so if he had to use his powers (very draining and dangerous. could kill him) to save him he will

i need to explain a bit more

while siren is well fed (with love or blood) they are able to maintain the colour. and colour basically shows how nicely fed they are (you understand me). if they scream and use their tears in short time without any type of "snack" it can easily drain it and kill

@tavtarnish :i love this. would ale be able to see rudy fading and becoming less colorful? (writing from memory)

oh totally. rudy isnt always shining but yk what. he would even refuse to eat from alejandro since he already gave so much but generally i dont think he really dries himself out on his abilities

also take in count that rodolfo has like zero chances surviving fires. it drains him out.

now take a look at this. house fire and hassan. ale saves him and instead of medic takes him to nearby river because rudy, his rudy, is so weak, so faded basically gray, so limp in his grasp it physically pains him to look at him.

they get to river and ale feeds him, loves him, kisses him underwater, holds him gently so the flow wouldn't wash him away. holds him with one hand on hip second is under his neck near gills but letting the water flow through, letting him breathe.

thats how he escapes shadows too. river always helped him and this time is not exception. he kills to shadow that were trying to smother him into relaxing. bold of them. he never trusts new incomers. sorrow from wound they left him, sorrow from the fact none of Vaqueros made it out of base, sorrow from being alone.

he is relieved to see and hear ghost n soap. even more sorrow ale isnt with them. when soap is fall down on ghost from exhaustion, rudy lets him sorrow out crying over the wound because graves is fucker and has bullets with some kind of poison and soap is dying.

he isn't dying anymore and rodolfo goes out to river. slides off him clothes, lays down in cool water and lets himself relax, lets water talk to him. hour later be make some sort of nest in the deepest part of river and lays in it.

he almost dies when ale is fatally injured, holding side firmly, sited against side of truck and rudy dries himself. he'll die for ale and will die without him. he is absolutely grey by the time he calms down, tucks himself in alejandros now healing side and.. happy. he is happy ale will live, happy to die near him and his warmth.

again waking up in the river. maybe it was just a dream? but no. he is kissed, surrounded by water but also warmth. there are soft mumblings about something just above the waterline but rudy cant bring himself to care. he is so full and packed with love it could hurt.

#call of duty #cod #cod mwii #mw2 2022 #alejandro vargas #alerudy #rodolfo parra #simon ghost riley #alejandro mw2 #aledolfo #alejandro x rodolfo #john soap mactavish #johnny soap mactavish

[silverstonesainz]

Am I old & senile or were post goals for fanfics on here a thing??? like “10 reblogs & 30 likes and ill post the next chapter!!!!!!!” type things??? Was that a thing??? Cuz it should be I think //

they were totally a thing. they just weren’t successful overall. most people would just stop reading or engaging, which would cause the author to lower the required stats to get the next chapter out. The ones that were success already had a massive following with tons of engagement so the requirement weren’t hard to accomplish. it caused a lot of tension between readers/authors. fanfiction.net had a whole ass war in the HP and Twilight Fandoms because of it. There were whole forums posts listing what Authors did/didn’t require interaction along with a boycott list for those that did.

As far as people not RB anymore. That’s been a problem in ever fandom on Tumblr for the 15+ years I’ve been on this site. I do think it’s become more of a notable issue because Tumblr is one of the only platforms that require a RB, because it doesn’t have an algorithm like TIKTOK or Instagram. And there have been drove of that are leave those sites and ending up here. I can always tell when a user is new because they tag EVERYTHING. Like every driver will be tagged, thinking it’s going to boost their post when all it does is get them blocked.

didn't know there was all that DRAMA over it. as a writer, it just sucks to put so much time and thought into a fanfic/edit for people to just like it and have it not circulate the community you know?? its soooo discouraging and i would say partially to blame for why im in such a rut with my writing and content creating.

i put in hours and hours into SMAUs and days to weeks on fics its insane. and then to post and see ratios like 1000 likes to 20 reblogs is so fucking discouraging. i appreciate the bare minimum interaction but also, i just expect more. and maybe that makes me a shitty person but is it so hard to hit reblog and share it with everyone else after i've put in such a huge chunk of my time to make it?? like if you can take the 2 extra minutes to reply and come into my ask box asking for another part, surely surely you can reblog it too ya know?

i realize that this might come off as selfish and whiny and ungrateful, but its how ive been feeling. im always grateful to every person who has followed and interacted with me and my work in some form or another, but i just dont think the scales are balanced tbh. does that make sense? i should stop talking

#a-nonnie

[smolsammichowo]

I think my feelings on people arguing over if AEW or WWE is better is that one scene from the mickey mouse cartoon where Minnie Mouse finds a hat that is just the same hat she's wearing on her head & the group with her is like "oh I dont know maybe you should try it on..." & stuff ,

meanwhile Donald Duck, is like "ITS THE SAME HAT." over & over.

I'm Donald. except instead of hats, its pro wrestling. Its the SAME stuff. Its different companies & different styles of showing off stuff & different people but ITS PRO WRESTLING. ITS THE SAME OVER THE TOP VIOLENT SPORTS THEATER.

And I may say "Oh I perfer this stuff in AEW" or "I like this person in WWE" or "My favorite pro wrestler of all time is in AEW" or "Oh my gosh that match in wwe was the coolest ever!" but I just like them both in the end because they're both pro wrestling. Its more pro wrestling for me to enjoy. Same with other companies like NJPW, Impact/TNA (so happy more cool stuff is coming soon for them!) , Dragon Gate, ROH, and so much more !

I'm not saying "Oh! You dont like that company? Well you're bad!" You're fine to not like it, I'm just refering to the people who are like "Oh this guy who is super big star is signed with this comapny now! This company is trash now! Its gonna fail & die out! Haha!" & people who always focus on view counts and say "LOOK! This airing got a lot of people more watching than this show! They are failing!"

I wouldn't say that's failing. I would say all of that is pro wrestling is doing wonderful !

In the end for me, I just love pro wrestling & I'm just happy that I'm a pro wrestling fan in this age as there is so much content to watch (though a bit TOO much because I cant keep up with the fun madness AAAAA ) And I just find it silly that some people instead of enjoying it are just wishing the downfall of stuff! I

Also one more thing Im happier that tumblr has longer posts than twitter so i could talk about this!

Anyway heres a rant down below because here's a reason why I havent talked about pro wrestling a lot on twitter

I only mentioned on twitter that I dont talk about it much anymore given on twitter the fanbase there is a nightmare and people are scary (seriously compared to ANY fanbase Ive ever been in , sports fanbases especially pro wrestling where people REAAALLLY dont understand the "entertainment" part a lot of the time can be nuts. Especailly a shame given sometimes I really do want to talk about pro wrestling given its one of my all time favorite things & then I got people who just call me things just because my favorite wrestler either hasn't done much, isnt a champion, or isnt in their "favorite company"

Like bruh . If it makes you that miserable to just randomly comment on someones post talking about their favorite person like that why ya a fan . I used to be a huge fan of overwatch , still love the characters (after all i have two characters, one being one of my main online personas ) & such but I dropped the game because it made me miserable & that wasnt good for my mental health which then effect my physical. same with tiktok. I had 55k+ followers on there, that was my biggest following count on any social media site, but I dropped that shit because I was getting physically in pain from headaches from stress & being upset from that place & deleted that app & my account that had that many on there.

Aannnndd this just is exactly why I dont tallk about pro wrestling as much as I used to anymore. That above me happens. I just go off like I did lol . I apologize for that. But yea, I do still wanna do fanart for wrestlers in the future of course! After all they are a huge reason why I got back into art in a really fucked up time when I was younger in the first place .

#AEW #WWE #ROH #NJPW #Dragon Gate #Impact #TNA #All elite wrestling #New japan pro wrestling #Ring of honor #World wrestling entertainment #I LOVE PRO WRESTLING :D !!! #I can talk about it longer here compared to twitter because longer posts yippie!!

[seal-berry]

capitalism is fucked up because communing with the invisible hand of the market is weird and every single product release and decision is forced by competition to be this a b test human psychology thing. like if u are making a site, objectively the color of your buttons? can affect your click rates a LOT. why some colors "good" some colors "bad"? probably some mix of culturally specific and instinctual and individual factors that across the population, average out-- even if a "good" color increases sales overall its possible some may be turned off by it etc etc. and then theres the whole thing with specific cases and niche markets etc etc.

and the terrifying thing is like. all this stuff is fake, but it affects your real money coming in. which is significant whether you're a small independent business or a huge soulless conglomerate. and now take that button color decision and multiply that times... every other design choice on your site, products, packaging, etc. At what point does compromising your brand to fit these subconscious ideally performing structures taint the original product to the point where it loses its appeal? Are you willing to compromise any artistic decisions in the first place? Many products are built from the ground up with these constraints in mind, or at least with the flexibility to mold to fit the current constraints plus be re-buildable as they change.

Because oh yeah, they change. There is some amount of long term subconscious bias shifting, but there's also things like google's algorithm changes. A subtly different stream of people (maybe a lot more but, likely since your optimizations may break, a lot less) are going to your site. All those tests, if you did them, might not be accurate anymore. In the moment though, the catastrophic traffic loss is also the kiss of death, you have to try REALLY hard or have a lot of money to survive it. even still that money can go pretty fast if you have any overhead at all.

so, this setup where things are getting increasingly difficult in a lot of places, a some point down the line of staying alive, if you dont use these optimizations you may just not survive. (especially against venture capitalist-fueled competitors if youre unfortunate enough to encounter them, because they will jack up the price of doing business in your respective niche or even introduce flat-out harmful practices) Now multiply that instability times any other platforms or services you depend on-- any disruption to them causes disruption to you. Almost every single website I have made or seen a business make using a third party has eventually been forced to change their entire layout. Possibly multiple times.

And the thing is. There is another activity where it can sometimes involve a similar type of inferencing. Making art, if it at least gets to start out as just for yourself to some extent, is also a balance between understandability, (your idea of understandability) mass appeal, (as much as you feel is necessary) and individual vision/intent. it's just that in capitalism you are asked to do it for your survival, or work for companies and businesses which on some level are affected by it and, thus, can throw your life into disarray simply because of a change in the market or an arbitrarily shit decisions that can happen at any point in an increasingly long chain. It's really hard to escape it unless you have access to fuck you money, so in modern capitalism everyone gets the awesome privilege of knowing that their life hangs in the balance of a bunch of delicate strings, many of which are intent on optimizing for profit and survival aka squeezing rent and goods and necessities higher in a fucked up test of how much they can possibly get, or self-destructing in the name of short-term profit.

this situation is responsible for inducing a lot of the anxiety ppl have right now and i dont say that to discredit the awfulness of the condition at all, its very real. its cruel that the things that can harm us are so abstract in nature now, and that abstraction is of course a weapon to make it impossible for you to do anything to stop it ahead of time.

Self help says dumb shit like "modern stressors are not like the tiger chasing you in the jungle" but they miss that that's worse. Because the same peril exists, and in fact is worse now-- in the natural world there is danger, but a human needs to fuck up pretty bad to get thrown out of the tribe, and the brain craves that security. In the modern day you can easily slip through a crack and get ground to dust and that's a feature not a bug. (in fact that tribal security is the carrot that is used when the stick of homelessness has not yet been reached for) We feel the same desperation of survival but the walls of abstraction between us and that truth create the impression that being upset about this makes you unwell and will likely bring on the gaslighting about everything actually being ok and this system is the best we could ever possibly hope for. They didn't even have to abstract things that much, there's really only a few layers here, and yet it is enough. And the closest thing to a tribe most have now is that goddamn invisible hand (products and services designed down to the bevels and colors to scratch the brains itch for security and novelty just enough to keep you functional)

#capitalism #self help #modern hell #tbh i dont have much faith in reform #its a nasty nasty world we live in #I get that getting mad at human stupidity is like #i should be mad at those who capitalize and manipulate the ignorance and not the ignorant #and yet at times i still find myself reeling against the ignorant #especially those who i know could learn and choose not to because not acknowledging reality is comfortable

[celibate-batjokes-mpreg-yaoi-911]

regarding the reddit stories, i really wonder about the brains of radblr users who post these screenshots and feel offended by them. why do they do this? it's not just post some random pic, it's 1) go on reddit the socially inept male site 2) frequently visit the basement dweller porn brainrot and attention seeking subreddits 3) read several posts to find the rage inducing stories which are most likely fabricated 4) post it to tumblr to proudly exhibit their reddit use and enrage others. bonus points if they even read the comments specifically searching for the ones that are the most brainless to get more infuriated (even when most of the other reddit users disagree). it's like going to a famously dirty city and search for the worst sreeets to complain about how dirty it is. and then maybe opening the trashcans and sewers to clutch pearls about how bad the trash and shit is (better tell everyone about it!)

honestly i dont know.. i dont read such posts anymore (they r super long and serious and im just not in the mood for that) and im 100% sure there r individuals who do exactly what u described. i guess it could be the car crash cant look away phenomenon. it just stimulates the brain to look at horrible things and get super mad. On the other hand i think its very likely that some of these users r actually quite normal and they accidentally come across these degenerates we see in the screenshots. isnt reddit like that? like ur always only 4 clicks away from accidentally stumbling upon reddit user CatgirlXxHentaiBimboMilker69s comments even if u use relatively normal and useful reddit pages? if that happened to me, like i was fucking around on reddit and saw something insane and laughable i might post it too (so my followers can suffer with me). then again i could never spend time on reddit bc im too normal for that. sadly there r some subreddits that have really good concepts (like those fucks who still make nolan batman memes, or the sw prequel memes, or that stupid brba subreddit) but the humour in all those subreddits reeks of y chromosome and its rare that u find something actually funny so i stopped visiting them. went a little off tangent here so anyway yeah i wouldnt necessarily say that these users are equally fucked in the head but some of them might be

#ask

[cosmicanger]

I am over all the violence I got from winter and other Black folk on here, nothing to do about it and no point in dwelling it all either. I am fully in my non-practicing intellectual, no discourse era. winter, you cant deny the impact of my curation on your current blogging. nonblack folk enjoy watching any Black critique as entertainment so I will not see me calling out anyone Black online anymore. Any criticism will be intraracially. I will support other Black criticality, I am just tired and made my points. I just wanna heal before the next waves of anti-Black fascism come through, don’t have the energy to fight anyone Black right now even if they hate me and fucked me over multiple times over. even highkeyvibe, like hate me forever, you won’t see more posts from me about y’all or any Black person. there will be no closure, i just want to move on from this, it is exhausting. I know people been watching all of this from the sidelines on some punk shit and that’s fine too cause at the end of the day, this is an anti-Black social media site and i should not expect much at all. I will continue to curate the way I do because we can all post the same things, we all have different followers and different social capital. my “eye” one of the best on here, hate me but dont play in my face about that fact. Take posts if you are Black without crediting me, yes even winter and highkeyvibe idc i cant monetize social capital on here anymore so that’s why I blog how I do. I was just tryna call out antiBlackness before it got trendy to so and shouldve known better on a site that lets yt supremacists have platforms =/ it’s okay, I am on my FUBU shit & think Black folk on here should work together even more & break down the barriers of cliques & be honest about critique from Black folk we arent close to. idk I would rather not hate or drag winter and highkeyvibe and other Black folk who gaslit me on here because what was said was said & i am more than my social capital in relationship w their social capital & idk i believe in a better life than what we have here & believe that we should be crabs working together to destroy the person & systems who made the bucket in the first place. I think speaking out is important, I dont have the energy, retired from publicly hating or criticism.

#wintercorrybriea #highkeyvibe

[waitingforminjae]

wait why do you think some of the members didn't like j*y p*rk? I remember there being rumours of 2pm bullying him and while that's very fun to think about alot of the rumours came from people who biased him and hated the other members so i dont rlly believe those rumours 😔I like your thoughts/meta on kpop idols so I just want to know why you think some of the other members didn't fuck with him

I've always thought he did something really stupid (not the MySpace thing) because even after the MySpace thing he hadn't left the group and jyp even went on a show to talk about how he went to america himself to make sure he was practicing his dancing and singing and also said that he was fundamentally a good person then a few months later he was kicked out because of a serious personal issue in his private life or smth.

Like i feel like insinuating that he was gonna come back then kicking him out obviously is going to cause more backlash and is just more work in general then kicking him out straight away soo🤔

The members were alll sad and left his space open during their mama performance, said things like let's walk together and that 2pm is one on some site then deleted because of the hate that they were getting and talked about him during their speech and everythingbut idk the idea that they secretly hated him makes me happy so I wanna know your thoughts

People also genuinely think he knocked up hyuna and while I don't think he did that I do think he either did something in those few months or confessed to something in those few months of "self reflection"

they did giggle when taec said smth like the hip hop guy who isn't with us anymore and junho did call him the dirt that's been filtered or smth like that so I feel like they don't like him atleast

Maybe it's like an exo situation where the dynamics were a bit off at the beginning and the traumatic experience of losing a member while you have deranged fans and are just getting popular made them all closer because watching old clips with him in them make me cringe and I just can't imagine him sitting doing a vlive with them or him just fitting into the group in any capacity

okay so i got four hours at a dead desk at work so let's get into this lol

(this got soooooo long so i'm putting it under a read more </3)

tbh i'm only joking when i mention 2pm hating him lol i actually don't rlly know anything abt their dynamic w him beyond the one (1) episode of wild bunny i saw with him </3 which i described here and here.

iirc the official story is that he took a hiatus from the group, and then after much discussion w jyp he left the group bc he was unhappy as a kpop artist? which i think is probably true i mean the dude was obviously miserable and as messy as he is nowadays i do think he's happy.

god the rumors abt 2pm bullying him are so funnyyyyy i need to hunt down the article where i read them and read it again lol but i do remember whenever me and my roommate watched that wild bunny episode (after binging soooooo many 2pm fan compilation videos) we were SO shocked by how different and terrible their vibes were aksjdsdkljfflgglhjkl

it really made me realize how much group dynamics are like tetris tbh. like removing that one person made the whole rest of the dynamic fall into place?

like obviously, there is no way to know what their ~real~ personalities were like at the time, because they had just debuted so they all had a persona that they were pushing + a character for that show. but he certainly came across as incredibly immature and irresponsible, and it was frankly rlly uncomfortable to watch......like idk but i think jun.k and nichkhun were genuinely pissed off at him for stealing nichkhun's wallet and ditching them at the karaoke room, going to a club with taec and chansung (who had JUST turned 20), and then not answering the phone. he rlly came across as an older friend who could get you into trouble, but can't get you out.

i also remember the others came across (especially taec) as being "followers", who would just go along with his shenanigans because it was funny or interesting. ofc they were all really young then, and like i said before, this show obvs had set "characters" for them to play, so who knows how accurate my opinion was! but i definitely left that episode feeling very grateful that he left the group, or else he would've gotten them into some real serious trouble.

i think one of the most important aspects of a group's dynamic is their ability to keep each other in check. i think it's important for members to be able to be honest and call each other on their bullshit if they're getting to cocky or arrogant or otherwise becoming an asshole. after all, a kpop group is a brand that you are building together - one person's integrity becomes synonymous with the group's integrity as a whole. that's why scandals are kinda serious business: groups are pushing an image of closeness, ranging from "besties" to "found family". if one member is exposed to be an asshole (or just downright evil, i.e. burning sun) it immediately casts doubt on the other members character and integrity.

i also think that the leader of a group is really influential on the vibe of the group as a whole, and we've seen what a mess jay park is. i think if he had stayed with the group, they would've had a lot more scandals, and had a very negative image as a scandal-ridden group. to be clear, 2pm members HAVE had scandals (incl pretty serious one's, like a couple DUIs), but they've managed to shake them off to have a pretty clean image.

2pm's dynamic as 6 just.....works? like they're fun to watch and it seems like they all genuinely like each other and like working together. i've never really gotten an ~off~ vibe from them, or that they secretly hate each other. especially after seeing them w jay. it just felt wrong and off and uncomfortable. also yeah, i think the whole ordeal of losing a member would naturally create a trauma bond amongst everyone else lol

ik that fans voted jay park the leader bc he got first on their pre-debut show but i have always felt like jun.k should've been the leader the whole time....like again it's hard to know bc wild bunny was obviously very contrived, but he certainly came across as much more responsible and level-headed than jay. i think him and nichkhun are a very solid "hyung/leader" line tbh like ik they've each had a DUI but in general they come across (to me) as very stable guys who take their job and their image very seriously, which is important.

and tbh i'm always a little skeptical when groups w/ a member who's on a scandal hiatus say stuff like "let's walk together" or "2pm is one" or do things like leave their space empty.....like i mentioned before kpop groups are pushing an image of "best friends" or a "family" and when the person hasn't left the group, the idols are still having to deal with and interact with that member's fans. when things are unclear or it seems like hiatus is only temporary, it would be soooo bad for their image to be like "fuck that guy", you know? fans would lose their SHIT and it'd only embroil the group in more drama tbh......but i do agree that if the company's going to cut ties, it's better to do it immediately rather than get fans hopes up.

that got soooooo long sorry </3 but tl:dr idk if they hate him or not but i do think they look at him now and think "man, we really dodged a bullet" lol

#m: 2pm #the asks and the answers

[egg-emperor]

My dude, its not that your content is boring, or you are a bad writer, or that people hate you. Quite the contrary, you are incredibly creative and passionate and that is always a delight to see. The thing is you are on a dying website on a fandom that tends to be the butt of jokes (so most people dont want to be associated with it) and you write about one of the last popular characters there. Its a niche community, thats why your posts dont reach a big audience. (1/2)

I can't help but feel that way lately ever since my instrusive thoughts came back bad the worst they've ever been and it feels like everyone is proving all the horrible things my mind is telling me about myself and my work to be true. It just seems like people don't really care about what I have to offer anymore, like I can't entertain anymore so now I'm worthless. The idea that my creations that make me happy makes others happy too is one of the only things that kept me going and motivated to share more but it feels like it's dwindling. I appreciate you and everyone else that has been supporting me and I'm glad you still enjoy my content. I don't want to seem ungrateful but my mind is being nasty to me and seeing how a lot of people seem to be losing interest across all three of my blogs more than ever is getting me down even more.

It's a shame that the site is dying when Twitter is garbage that kills the passion and creativity of many. Yeah that might be a part of it but I definitely have a more active follower base than it seems most of the time. I notice this when a bunch of people following me only like/rb/interact with stuff I reblog and clearly scroll past my self made posts in between. And yeah Eggman isn't that popular, especially not modern/game canon. But I'm even starting to feel like an outcast to the Eggman fandom space here (despite being here before most since 2015 when there were barely any Eggman posting blogs. I was the one accused of gatekeeping for not liking jimbotnik but I'm the one feeling pushed out and alienated now lol) because I don't like the movie and I'm not big on the popular romantic ships, headcanons, and fanon interpretations now. It just feels like everything I do is wrong and what I have to offer is never good enough, or the interest doesn't last because I don't do all the new things that are considered cool now.

Undoubtedly part of it is also that I write more. But fuck man, art is hard and even harder when you have to digitalize it on a phone. It's become more stressful than fun so I can't do it a lot. I just wish that fandoms didn't always make creators feel like writing doesn't matter and isn't as good as art. I've seen people entirely disregard writing and automatically assume it to be trash just because it isn't art. And a lot of people don't tend to support writing like they do with art, even if they do like it. But I wish people understood that creators need at least some support if they want them to keep creating, otherwise they won't think it's worth it or anyone cares. We're not mindless content machines to pump out content and entertain until people get bored of us. Both art and writing takes time, passion, and effort and a bit of support goes a long way but sometimes you get nothing but silence and it can be more crushing than hate at times, left to wonder if your creations were even worth your time to create or anyone else's to consume.

But aside from that, what also gets me down is that I do actually see people supporting other's writing and encourage more from them but I don't get any of that type of support, feedback, or criticism from those very same people when it comes to mine, despite them being so similar. I tend to get brushed off or ignored or nowhere near as much hype. And I know it sounds like jealousy but it honestly just makes wonder what, is it just my stuff specifically that's just not good enough for them? And it just never seems good enough, no matter how hard I try. I realize there are times it is in fact personal and I have no idea why because they don't tell me and I feel terrible when it ends up confirming my fears, then I worry if it's always the case. That's the stuff that hurts the most, more than people just outright telling me if they don't like or aren't interested in my stuff anymore, which would hurt less.

I know not everyone thinks I should die really but it's easy to think that way in times where I get insults and suicide bait from people shitting on me and what I do more than I get positive or supportive comments. So that's why it feels like people just want me to die, I'm told so in my inbox. I'm not saying I demand endless high praise but just someone simply saying they enjoyed something I posted instead of just silence has a way bigger positive impact than they think but some don't anymore. And if there's a reason why or it isn't personal, I wish they'd tell me so it puts my mind to rest, instead of pretending I don't see blatant disinterest or the ignoring that drives me mad and kills motivation. The hateful people are more vocal and then it feels like nobody else cares and it drags me down.

I swear some people, both general followers and some people I'm closer to are just losing interest and getting sick of me personally and it's hard seeing it happen and seemingly being unable to do anything, making it feel like my time of being capable of doing anything good and likable in their eyes has passed. And it's just hard accepting that and letting it go, especially when you never get the real answers and you're left wondering what went wrong and why you're not good enough anymore. I've had moments of realization where my heart sinks when I present something I'm proud of and I get unenthusiastic responses or silence. And feeling either people drift away or being insulted more often than anything positive gives my sick brain a lot to work with in further attacking me with nasty intrusive thoughts too. But like I said, that last part is on me and I feel I'm just genuinely too mentally ill to handle being on the internet.

I appreciate all of you that do support me and my passion and creations, it might just look silly on the surface with my rambling and gushing but what I create is important to me and it means the world to me that it's enjoyed by anyone else. It gets tough with my mind and negativity I receive but I try not to lose sight of the positive things or forget people enjoy my work, which makes it worth turning my passion and ideas into something I can share. I'm trying to get better at not letting negative and hateful stuff matter and only value the good but sometimes when I'm already dealing with enough privately and come online and see this happening too, it's the little extra push I need to reach the breaking point. But at the same time, when I'm in some of my darkest places with things I don't talk about, coming online and seeing kind words and knowing my stuff is enjoyed means everything and manages to put a smile on my face, no matter how awful I feel. And that's what keeps me creating and sharing for as long as I'm here. Thank you. 💜

#asks #vent