#this is why i shouldnt be allowed to have money ever

[sk3l3t0n444]

i want all of these

#a ton of stuffed animals that are heating packs :D #i cant decide which one i would want theyre all so cute #but is it worth 30 bucks #...yeah #theyre cute as fuck #theres one thats a fucking manatee #its so cute #i want them all #OMFG THERES ONE THAT LOOKS LIKE MY DOGGIE #omfg i cant fucking decide #theyre so cute #i need to remind myself that i cant spend like 300 dollars on these #this is why i shouldnt be allowed to have money ever #anyways since its my week of suffering i am emotionally unstable as fuck and i have shit impulse control i think i shouldnt be let outside #i have a slight problem of guilt tripping my parents into buying me shit #so i need to decide on ONE of these things #first i need to chuck my boring ass plain thingamajig that smells like rice into the microwave so that i dont ouch #anyways #idfk why i talk in the tags so much #i guess it just lets me organize my thoughts better #like theyre all in seperate containers

[stripesdrawingadventures]

hey :3

out of curiosity, can you give me an overview of your ocs? name, basic bio, anything else you feel like mentioning about them. at least for the ones you use the most? pretty please with a cherry on top /nf

and since, well, this is a drawing blog, can you please draw the oc that is most fun to draw?

awesome that's all I have for now. have a nice day/night

:DDDD

OFC I CAN :DDD

oh boy this will be a long one

also the stuff in these [ ] is the tag you can find their universes specific stuff under and I would be happy to answer any other questions :3

Ester (it means Star :3) [Spacebfs] :

Human kidnapped before birth by aliens (earth has not reached the stars just yet, its around the year 2500 and we focused on fixing our planet (I like being hopeful ok)) and genetically modified to act as a weapon (we are operating under the "humans are space orcs" vibe here)

he eventually ran away with absolutely no context on how to people or take care of himself, hes human but doesnt know what being human really means. Hes like the only human hes ever met

Ester eventually ends up on Llaon 93Q (a planet completely run by an mafia empire) and works as a freelance merc constantly breaking the "rules" the mafia established and having BEEF with them, having to constantly move due to the money on his head (hes running from the police-standin, the mafia and the aliens he originally ran away from dude is STRESSED)

his ship is named Tuhlia, he is CONVINCED she has a personality. to everyone else its a mystery how that pile of junk is still capable of space travel

his favorite color is purple

he alsi has a strange relationship with a lizard man that I wont get into here

[hes the one with the yellow poncho]

Careen [Spacebfs] :

[big tall hunky blue alien man with four arms and a tail and head fins]

Esters love interest

coming from privilege and kinda a dick and getting HUMBLED on his and Esters adventures

he ends up much healthier

Rue [Spacebfs] :

(I am actively writing a full novel length story about them so it might sound a lil weird lol)

Nero/Ghost [The Ravens Dove/emergence line (tho the stuff I already posted I forgot to tag)] :

The protagonist of that universe (its superhero themed :D)

long story short: he's undead

long story long (this is some real comicstyle whackshit) :

born to an rich (made up) swedish family (birthname is simon, we will get to that)

mom died birthing him

dad hated him for it

brother ignored him as he wasnt at home a lot but also never realized how awful and miserable Neros life was

ABUSE

very smart little guy

has a degree in bio chemistry and EXCELLED at it

but he also wants to make his dad finally love him (he got his degree so early and his dad didnt even acknowledge it)

so he fucked around with stuff he shouldnt have without telling anybody

blew himself up

(souls are allowed to witness their funeral and say goodbye to their loved ones) but there was no one, his dad didnt even hold a service

and finally something inside him just broke

he wandered the land of the dead for a while as he didnt want to go to the afterlife to face his mother (every single one of his family members shunt him till now, why would she be different yk?)

the land of the dead aint the friendliest place tho, but he adapted

after like a while (time doesnt exist there) he ran into the domain of the deity of revenge (one of the four brother gods of dead, the pantheon lore is not important just stuff I made up) aka "the raven"

stuff happened they fell in love (their ace) something something Nero becomes "the ravens dove" aka the ravens like avatar to act in the living world

this is where he really adopts the name nero

he becomes an anti hero whose really two faced

(to the heros hes a pretty silly lil guy and to villians hes a scary mf)

starts going on a real rampage against all form of abusers (specifically children) while juggling keeping his image in front of the heros

tho he keeps spiraling and spiraling he really isnt doing well

(also his brother is an hero and so is his fiance, neros real identity is under wraps and he stubbornly refuse to interact with them, the heros have... adjusted)

it all explodes one day and shit hits the fan

there are so many story threats after that point that I cannot all explain here but he will get help and his brother is trying his best to make up for everything

[White hair and close and skin as hes DEAD and yeah-)

You might have noticed other reoccurring muses of the last few drawings

these do have some lore, but I am not willing to share that as it's too close to my heart and I am not ready to share

their lore does not really impact anything on this blog, really they're just my silly little lab rats for art

other than that I just do art other series that are currently going are the custom deck of many things and Fairytales tho I am a little behind on these

request are always very appreciated even tho I might not get to them immediately :>

And your drawing request :3

(this is M/Ifer (I had to change the name due to revamping his story currently) I dont draw them a lot which is why I didnt introduce them, but they are a joy when they turn out like they did here ^^)

#ocs #my ocs #oc stuff #spacebfs #ravens dove/emergency line #what if the stars are watching?

[marciabrady]

what’s your take or do you think disney fans can still like pocahontas even though it’s faced MUCH criticism for going so far off the original story and being extremely disrespectful? or even if she should still be in the disney princess line? i grew up with the movie and still like it but apart of me thinks i shouldnt because of how (again) disrespectful it is to the original story as well as her ancestors

This is honestly something I think about a lot and- just as a disclaimer, I am not a Native American person so my voice contributes nothing to this conversation, but...personally, I like seeing Pocahontas's inclusion in the Disney Princess lineup. I think she substitutes as a gateway for people to start researching about her and Native American culture and I think, as the years go on, the inaccuracies of her film just make people that much more motivated to learn from history and not repeat it, but also make sure they do know what the true stories were? There's honestly little to no Native American representation around and...I understand pulling her, because there have been descendants of hers who have asked Disney stop using her likeness...but the voice actress of Pocahontas for her speaking parts, who is Native American and has played Pocahontas more than once on film, has said that- while inaccurate- she thinks the film captures the spirit of Pocahontas and the messages in the films are positive ones. Plus, again, by pulling Pocahontas, you are limiting the representation for Native Americans drastically both in Disney and in media in general so it could really go both ways in terms of whether the repercussions would be positive or negative.

Ultimately, I honestly think Disney is still messing up in major ways (having a white British Prince Eric in a live action Little Mermaid that's set in the Caribbean is so tone deaf and I honestly don't know why Disney is allergic to portraying black men or men of color EVER and this is an issue that's literally still going on in 2023) and, ultimately, supporting a character of color is never a bad thing in my opinion? Pocahontas brings a fresh perspective, a great design, incredible music, and- again- allows people a gateway to interact and learn more about Native American culture. I, personally, don't think they should cancel the movie- what I think they should do is make a television series about her, as they're doing with Tiana and Moana, and set it in pre-colonization times (please lol) and have it focus on Pocahontas's history and her tribe, their customs, fun moments with Nakoma, and that would be a beautiful way to depict appreciation for the culture and the people and would totally avoid the whitewashed history. I hope it retains its mature tone from the movie though and doesn't resemble the recent projects that Disney has come out with, that feel very immature, so that adults can get into it mostly and then children can use it as an educational tool. Also, if Disney really wanted to show us they were serious about respecting her, I think they should hire a majority- if not entirely- Native American cast and crew, both for the speaking parts and for other parts of the creative process. Because, again- I'm over Disney using minorities in their marketing but never putting their money where their mouth is.

#ask #anonymous

[qumiiiquinnquin]

it just dawned on me.

that throughout my entire life , ive been abused. its taken its toll on my mental health during my childhood , but not once did i ever think about just. ending it , or ever doing anything to myself.

this probably immediately sounds ridiculous. most kids in an abusive family do try to escape , resort to sh or...disappearing. why didn't i then? was i really abused?

but i never considered any of it , not until i was probably 15 or 16.

the first time i wanted to end it was when i was 11. it wasn't due to family , it was due to thinking a very close friend of mine no longer cared about me. yea , it was over a friendship. she claimed she did still care , and it was on me not participating in conversations. its kind of hard to jump into a conversation though where you're immediately excluded or never acknowledged though... but i claim responsibility and was wrong to feel the way i did and accuse her ((middle school drama)).

but aside from the first time that i learned i shouldnt be allowed to have friends , i otherwise never considered disappearing. the situations with my family my whole life felt normal to me. being yelled at and spanked by my dad up until i was 11 but yelled at again and him being a bit physical with me when i became chronically depressed and severely anxious when i was 16 and 17 , being a bit neglected by my mom and put into multiple situations that could have k!lled me or gotten the cops called on her , being yelled at by my stepdad and never allowed to criticize my mom and always treated like he knows everything and i don't know anything , being manipulated and emotionally abused by my nana and “aunt”...

both my parents did things that easily could've gotten the cops called on them for abuse , since i was a baby. of course , no one found out. and everyone in my family claims to feel sorry and guilty for everything they've done to my sibling and i , except my “aunt” and nana , the latter saying to me before that she's never done anything wrong to my sibling and i. and really , i dont have the guts to call anyone on my family because i know both of my parents and stepdad care about my sibling and i a lot , despite the rough childhood.

besides my parents and stepdad , my “aunt” and nana were the other main sources for my declining mental health , and its because of them that im shocked im still here. as i said , both were very emotionally abusive and manipulative. they were judgmental and strict about our appearances , what we ate , how much we ate , our weights , and our attitudes. especially my “aunt” , who would not even accept a poker face. if you were not smiling , you were automatically accused or questioned of not enjoying yourself , and guilt-tripped for making her and my uncle spend so much money to ensure my sibling and i had a good time.

she wanted things her way , and every time we “misbehaved” it resulted in over the top punishments. we would have to eat lunch that day downstairs the room we stayed in , we couldn't really talk and multiple times we had to write apology letters and read them aloud to her. one time when we did this , after we read her our letters , she brought up how she never met her dad and was raised in poverty , and along with other hardships , she would make herself cry and my sibling and i were forced to console her. another time when we were punished , she took away all of our electronics , and when they were reluctantly given back to us , my sibling and i saw the message on our lock screens that too many attempts had been made and another attempt could be made in a half hour. in other words , she had tried to get into our phones , likely to see if we were communicating with our mom and stepdad or our dad about our “aunt.” one of the days when we got in trouble , my sibling and i had enough and were downstairs , cursing about her. she had clearly been standing right there listening , because she flung open the door right after one of our comments and threatened to fly us back home and make sure our dad grounds us. i told her why she cant just give us back to our mom and stepdad , and she claimed she couldn't do that , and its either we fix our behavior or we go home - this is something she is not allowed to do. for flights to and from my mom's and my dad's , only my mom and dad can coordinate that. to anyone that needs to know the times and dates so they can make sure we’re packed and ready , they will be notified. otherwise , nobody else but my mom and dad are allowed to arrange flights for my sibling and i traveling to and from home.

but she had eavesdropped on us before , doing it an earlier visit after we went to bed and the door was closed. we were whisper complaining , but at one point my sibling stopped me and somebody walked away from the door. she would grab us by the arm or wrist a lot and sternly speak to us a couple inches from our faces , since we were 4 and 5 or 5 and 6. she told me once how we were embarrassing her. she often compared us to other children , saying the kids she would occasionally watch who were older than us acted better than us , and so did our baby cousins. one time when we were punished , she gave us a lecture on our behavior , saying when we get a job with our attitude , we will be fired and end up homeless with nobody to help us because of our behavior and disrespect. she targeted my sibling , one summer making my sibling feel bad for ruining my birthday and returned the gift , blaming my sibling for it. she made my sibling apologize to me and i had to console my sibling that night , who was crying uncontrollably and blaming themselves for everything. the next morning my "aunt" had placed a letter under my pillow , containing $20 inside and apologizing for my sibling's behavior - i tossed the letter and shared the money with my sibling. another time , my sibling got in trouble for something , and had to stay downstairs away from everyone. when they came up for dinner , they played with it , and my "aunt" said that if my sibling wasn't going to eat and just play with their food , then they could go back down to bed. my sibling left and went downstairs and i immediately excused myself too , so i could go be with my sibling. i comforted them and hugged them as they cried. one of the visits when we had to leave to go see our “aunt” , my sibling cried and screamed and my stepdad had to carry them out because there was nothing else that could be done - we had to go see them. only late last year did i realize that she was trying to live through my sibling and i , and i broke down crying.

my nana was my sibling’s and i’s favorite relative growing up until we were 12 and 13. growing up , she was nice , but was strict and oftentimes made rude comments about us , our home , or our parents ((including stepparent)). we just accepted these comments since there wasn't too much else that she was doing other than randomly being rude and self-centered. we didnt know the kind of person our nana was though until we were 12 and 13 , where we found out she was very manipulative and controlling. we wanted to spend a week , just one full week , with our mom , who is the person that i am doing these visits for , as she is the primary person we are here to see. my nana wasn't allowing it and expressed her lack of faith in my mom’s ability to parent and refused to listen to listen to my stepdad’s plea because he cussed at her out of frustration. my sibling and i cried and i had never yelled so loudly at anyone. i was just wanting to spend a week with my mom , but my nana refused to listen and said nobody had any control over the situation and my sibling and i have to deal with it. eventually she talked to my mom in private , and then came back crying and begging for forgiveness and allowed us to stay the rest of the summer break ((3 weeks)) with our mom , not forcing us to see anyone else. my mom told me though that from that incident , my nana believed that im autistic and my sibling is bipolar ((...because we were fighting back , yelling , and crying , demanding she let us spend time with our mom...)).

only after that did it get worse. she now had shown the manipulative and controlling aide of herself , so now every visit was more tense and she wasn't afraid to keep showing that side. she gaslit us , telling me back in 2020 that she had never done anything wrong to my sibling and i , right after an extremely minor situation got out of control because of her and she made it about herself , sending out an email blaming our mom , stepdad , aunt , uncle , and dad for raising us the way they did and letting us behave the way we do , and claiming my sibling and i were acting like visiting her was like getting bamboo shoved up our fingernails. our nana targeted my sibling as well throughout childhood , rarely trusting them and refusing to trust me when id try to stand up for them because ‘im just being their sibling and defending them.’ i was also only realizing shit she was doing our entire lives , such as making us visit everyone without complaints and keeping us away from our mom. although my mom wasn't well for a while , my nana kept us from her a lot because she had no faith in my mom’s ability to parent , and openly shamed her for her weight and body , once saying “do you want to end up looking like your mother?” to my sibling and i when we were younger and had wanted a snack an hour after not being able to finish our breakfast that morning. she had also tried forcing gender stereotypes on us and tried to make us grow up to be attractive women , wear girls clothing only , do housework while our grandpa doc worked , and be submissive to others. in 2017 or 18 when she learned of my hatred towards our "aunt" , she told me i need to stop holding unnecessary grudges and just get over it , because it does nothing but ruin relationships and it's not fair or respectful to people.

both my “aunt” and nana openly blamed our dad and family back home for our behaviors. my nana didnt like my dad in general because my mom’s claim that he had hit her while they were still married , and my nana had told me when i was 8 that my dad was the cause of the divorce and had expressed surprise about him being able to raise two children while single and in the military. my “aunt” just...hated everyone. she was rude to everyone , but always demanded respect in return. she would never talk to others but just watch them closely , but when anyone talked to her , she'd say very short responses in a harsh tone.

my sibling and i couldn't do anything. there was nobody for us to turn to. we knew that nobody would listen to us because we're "just being little kids" , and spring break of 2014 or 15 just cemented those worries. my nana claimed that she'd do something when we expressed to her the things our "aunt" had done up until that point , but she never did until my "aunt" and uncle got divorced in 2018 , kicking our "aunt" out of the family. our nana communicated with our dad about us flying to and from home to see our mom , and if we had opened up at all about our nana , if would've caused enormous problems and we likely wouldn't have been able to fly out to see our mom anymore. there was no escape from this family. our mom and stepdad knew about our "aunt" and nana , but couldn't do anything and told us to just go with the flow - which never worked , but nothing else could be done. my dad just excused our nana's behavior as part of her upbringing and being from a wealthy family , and we just have to be understanding of her - also didn't work because respect needs to be mutual not one-sided , otherwise you then have a controlling relationship. he did not seem to be aware of what she and our "aunt" were doing , as i had expressed one of the incidents of our "aunt" to my dad's former girlfriend's daughter in 2018 or 19 , and he overheard me , repeatedly saying "what the hell."

since there was nobody for us to talk to or anyone that would believe us , my sibling and i kept it to ourselves. all we could do was vent to each other , cry , complain about having to visit/stay with someone , and , something i very much recall: when i was 11 and my sibling was 10 , we both took out my old tablet and opened up a notes app , listing things we believe we were , putting down things like burdens , children , wastes of time , brats , ugly , and worthless. we saw little to no value in ourselves , and i only recently realized just the kind of impact our "aunt" and nana had on our mental healths at such young ages.

but now , everything has calmed down. i dont know why , but since 2021 it feels like everything that was wrong in my family completely stopped. my nana has chilled out a lot since the passing of her husband , though she still makes unwanted and rude comments time to time. i haven't seen or heard from our "aunt" since 2018 either. earlier that year , our mom told us that our "aunt" wanted us to keep her company after the divorce ((there's a certain term for it but i don't recall it)) , but we declined immediately because we knew she'd just use us for comfort and make us consolidate her at all times. im very glad i haven't seen her again , she had been abusive to our uncle too , whom i was very surprised to see was much nicer after he divorce. we were used to him being emotionally abusive towards us too , but after the divorce and he was much more friendly , i realized it was the influence she had on him that had made him be so hurtful in the past. im still frustrated at my nana for not taking into account the impact she had on my sibling and i and only caring about our uncle , especially because we had said something 4-5 years prior.

but despite all that...i for some reason never considered shing or disappearing or escaping. there was nothing else i could do , why did i never consider it? i only have since 2020 when my mental health started declining , but it was originally due to just general sewercidal thoughts and hating being depressed. but in the last couple of years , ive been having bad memories of how our nana and "aunt" used to treat us , and it partially became a reason why i wanted to commit. when i attempted back in 2021 , the reasons then were because of them , and being tired of being depressed , and thinking ill make everyone's lives better.

i just don't understand. when i had my first ideation at 11 , it wasn't due to family , but it was in the middle of the fucking 10+ years of abuse we faced. only at 15 and 16 did it bother me , and im finding it hard at 18 to be able to just. get past it.

i just don't understand. why did it never cross my mind? my thoughts at 11 should've been about family.

and i wish i had acted on them to get out of this hell.

#vent #tw sui mention #tw child trauma #tw abuse #long post

[tinynebula]

hi i hope this doesn’t come off as malicious in any way!! i’m just trying to see the side of ur military propaganda post. do you feel it’s alright to pirate and view it critically and point out what exactly makes up usa military propaganda? or that it’s inappropriate in any state of viewing?

i don't want to spend any more brain energy over this so i'll just copy-paste you the tags someone left on the post:

#theres this whole issue lately where people took the 'you shouldnt put your money towards things that have bad contents' part of#arguments about why you should be careful absorbing bad content (mostly bc it can poison your worldview w/o you noticing) and#now think that the only issue with supporting things like harry potter or top gun or like shitty yters is giving them money#and not the This Can And Will Poison Your Worldview part which is the important part#and it results in shit like this. where people are like its fine to watch LITERAL PROPAGANDA that is SAYING THAT ITS PROPAGANDA#as long as you dont put money towards it#NO!!!!!!!!!#dont watch it!!!! why do you want to watch it so bad!!!1 its not even going to be like a good movie! its just propaganda for the military!#if youve ever seen the first one its like definitely just the same exact shit#but i feel like we need to pull people away from 'you can like shitty stuff if you dont give them money' and more towards#'if youre partaking in shitty stuff you are probably allowing it to change the way you view the world without realizing it'#at the very very very bare minimum 'if you are liking something shitty you better be checking yourself constantly to make sure that#you arent justifying or perpetuating those things in your daily life'

#now leave me alone

[csvent-2]

(terraliens / species gen)

(also sorry for the long post, i have a lot of thoughts with this)

is it just me or are closed species specifically made to be inaccessible to newcomers? Terraliens is my first closed species, ive been in it for 2 weeks (when the species was only 2 weeks old) and while there have been a huge ton of adopt opportunities but theyre all:

a.) Raffles, which is a problem because in such a big server your chances are so close to 0 you might as well not play at all, preclaim raffles included

b.) Auctions, which easily spike to $200-$300+. if you dont wanna drop a band on the artist's new NFT youre out of luck, and if you ever say anything about it you get dogpiled because "artists deserve to get paid for their work." im not saying artists shouldnt get paid, but i dont think its justifiable to constantly have these insanely high price points when you advertise your closed species as newcomer friendly and say that if people dont want to spend any money, they dont have to, that MYOs are totally free (except theyre raffles and you have better luck of getting struck by lightning than actually getting one) its unfair and tbh kinda shitty to say "if you arent willing to pay artists for their work then you dont deserve art" when with a lot of people thats not the case, they want to participate but physically do not have the budget for a $500-$700 adopt

c.) OTAs, which are so unobtainable its not even funny. How can it be fair for newcomers when people are allowed to offer fursuit commissions under OTAs? not to mention that if someone is totally new to closed species they probably wont have any other cs characters to offer, which is what most people usually want. oh great, another closed species to join, try to actively participate in, and get ignored in all so you can have an inkling of a chance at getting a character you actually want I think there should be some OTAs that have restrictions to what type of art is allowed, like maybe a fullbody w/ background only OTA or an icon only OTA so everyone can actually have a shot. though to be honest, i don't think OTAs will ever be fair in big servers. theres too far of skill gaps and people with actual businesses will always win (not throwing shade, just stating the truth) ive seen people suggest a level system which i think could work a lot better, you could survey users on things like how new they are to cs, what they self evaluate their art skill to be, and how much money they wanna spend and then divide members up that way, give them roles based on their level, and have level-specific adopts and such so everyone could get a chance. though i can see this getting abused to give all the level 1s the shitty adopts nobody wants

my point is, lots of people in the terraliens server act like its this super FTO and newcomer-friendly place, but from what ive seen thats really not the case. granted, its the only closed species im in so it might be this cs heaven compared to others, but this is just my personal observations

genuinely want other people's input on this, its something that bothers me a lot

A lot of species are very inaccessible unfortunately. It’s why they become popular. Because if you have one, it becomes a status symbol.

#terraliens #general cs #csvent #closed species venting

[oscar-piastri]

why Mendy in jail? there were trials about the cases, and at none of them he was guilty. he was acquitted in his last trial by 6 men and 6 women in the jury. so the jury is rigged, corrupted?

at some point, people should respect the decision of justice, whether they like it or not. so what Mendy is supposed to do now? be in jail to please some people, even if the justice said he was not guilty? in your logic, he shouldn't play football ever now. but i guess in that logic, he shouldn't have a regular job either because he's a danger, right?

MY (mine, cuz it's my blog so i say what i think) opinion is that he should be in jail. I am also allowed to be mad at french clubs for using this clout and sign him just a few days after he was acquitted. Clubs are literally hiring him because they know it'll bring more money from all the controverse there is around this case. They're surfing on criminal cases. And I'm sure they were already in talks with him before he was acquitted, so even if he was guilty they would still try to hire him because i believe that unless u kill someone, u dont go to jail when u have money.

Mind you, I've said the same about rugby french teams. (which is also why i said this sentence in bold in my post) A club literally hired a player we know was involved in fights, robberies and domestic abuses. There is literally evidence and yet he's still not in jail even though he has been found guilty. But a club that needed money and needed to be on the spotlight literally hired him weirdly right after his new club fired him for domestic abuse.

Clubs dont care if you're innocent or guilty they want your name and money.

Now you're putting words in my mouth, and i dont like it. I never said anything about the jury, I am literally talking about the clubs in my post. i never called him danger btw nor say he shouldnt play football ever again or have a regular job. I said he should be in jail. Different stuff

Now, that's still my opinion on my blog so please unfollow me

#cassy's answers #anons

[curedeity]

Shogun Steel Episode 6:

-alright ren got her episode now to destroy any chance of her being a serious character by letting takanosuke take her pride.

-i love that maru is number 1 in the sound off. Maru appreciation

-ren would get along with tetsuya, shed do the krabby finger things

-why is everyone so mean to ren shes just a ray of sunshine :((( like come on zyro you should be excited to have her around

-benkei: synchrome beys are banned. I dont want this show to be fun

-maru didnt call tsubasa by his title and she shouldnt! She only respects madoka!

-why does rens hair look like that from the back? I elect we never discuss this again

-benkei just accepting ren makes me think she talked to him beforehand. Though it is in character for her to just show up (or maybe ren already knew benkei ahead of time. Like she would if someone had given her phoenix-)

-cant believe we dont get to see shinobu vs ren

-ren is constantly annoyed that her rivals are gays obsessed with each other and none of them will just professionally battle her

-benkei: I RUN A SMALL BUSINESS I NEED TO OPEN THE SHOP

-MARU HAS A LITTLE PONYTAIL OMG

-ren would steal all of julian konzerns money if they met

-benkei: whats up with ren? I have vegetarian options

-takanosukes voice. Omg. His voice. I always forget the specific cadence he has and am punched in the face with how much sillier it is than anything i can imagine. Thank god for his voice actor this is the silliest shit

-takanosuke: you cant be zyro kurogane! Zyro is a manly man amazing blader who couldnt possibly be a girl!

-takanosuke is misogynist im so surprised

-takanosuke and ren could be such fun rivals if takanosuke wasnt a dick wow

-takanosuke i swear to fucking god id you say another word against ren-

-seriously the way everyone in the story ignores her in favor of zyro is so incredibly frustrating and puts a terrible taste in my mouth. Even if you dont think the show is trying to pose that as a positive thing it makes the characters come off as unbelievably sexist.

-ren gets good character development. Not that shes allowed to be the focus, theres a boy here now so lets shove ren to the side

-takanosuke your crush is destroying your ability to be a likeable human being

-shinobu gets a nice speech from benkei. Ren doesnt. Mhm mhm i see the favoritism here

-nvm what i said about hating kite. Takanosukes introduction was so shit im never gonna be able to unsee it.

-i like shinobus arc to getting a special move, he did have a good arc this episode and it builds great off of shinobus character. Theyve finally set it up enough that they can pull off his character

-takanosuke shut up, you dont deserve a good moment this episode. I want him to run away crying.

-summary: i was expecting to dislike this episode as rens downfall but i was not expecting to hate it so extremely. The way they treat ren is so disrespectful that i cannot imagine ever liking takanosuke again without remembering this. Not to mention it souring the rest of the cast. I think i complain a lot about the treatment of women to the point i worry its become desensitized on this blog but this episode left me feeling terrible. Seeing depictions like this genuinely make me feel pushed aside and depowered as they take away my ability to be recognized as a person just because of my gender. An awful episode with very few redeeming qualities and i see no excuse for rens treatment.

#deity rewatches shogun steel to bully it #the sexism has appeared #beyblade #beyblade metal fight #beyblade shogun steel #im sorry takanosuke fans but honestly wtf was this introduction for him #mfb #im used to media making me feel like shit but wow rens treatment is just unforgiveable

[angelicalbones]

im so nervous to go home after work tonight. I have genuine thoughts and concerns about our relationship and how he treats me but something in me snapped last night and I was just so cruel.

like i dunno he just threw at me out of no where that hes apparently made multiple attempts on his life recently and I had no other reaction than to laugh. Like are you serious? like I know why I laughed because this isn't the first time hes done this or anyone at all has done this to me to make me feel guilty for trying to call them to task and I just cant take his emotional manipulation sometimes but also like

that's cruel to do to anyone. I care for him so much and I am so fucking scared for his safety and well being 24/7. I have had to threaten him with baker acting him or making him stay with his aunt and uncle during the day before because I was so fucking scared I would come home to him dead. Of course he told me that was evil to do and he hated me for even thinking about it even tho hes the one who said "I can't do this anymore let me die"

Fuck I dont know I know I shouldnt have been so mean, I fucking lost it so severely last night but also he is so fucking mean to me all the time. At the slightest provacation it becomes him drilling into me about how I've done nothing but use him for his money and everything is my fault and he has paid for my entire life and I wouldnt be wehre I am without him and I owe him everything. Im never allowed to get a word in edgewise but if I dont speak im an idiot who is abusively stonewalling him and leaving him to suffer alone.

but if I do speak and say the wrong thing(which is literally everything) I'm a fucking moronic bitch who will never understand him and his guy friends are the only ones who actually care about him and I'm evil and want him to die alone and am a sociopathic bitch who can't connect with people ever.

last night I suggested we go out to a bar event we were invited to by his hair dresser and it spiralled into this multi hour long fight. He got so fucking angry at me for suggesting we go do something with other people when he was just screaming and crying about not knowing anyone and not doing anything with his life. I got fed up and told him fine I will go without him if he refuses to join me.

Which might have been the worst possible shit I couldve said I swear to god. The amount of times he said I was a sociopathic bitch who was abandoning him because he is mentally unwell is frankly what caused my outbursts. Just because I said I Was going to go to a bar thing we were invited to.

He then told me to fucking leave like 5 seperate times (which is like the 18th time hes done it in our relationship) so I threw up my fucking hands and cleaned out the car, and started seperating my clothes from his. And suddenly his tune fucking changed. He didn't just tell me to leave I'm choosing to. He never said leave I am deciding to run away in stead of work on our relationshipp.

Despite literally saing the words "Go back to fucking michigan" and "Then you should just fucking leave" multiple times. Apperantely that doesn't in fact mean leave it means beg for my forgiveness.

I then got in trouble for making a mess in the closet and he bitched while we hung my shit back up even tho I told him to leave and I would clean it bc he has to be a fucking martyr about fucking everything just like his dad.

God I cant fucking handle this, when we are good we are so fucking good it's like the universe personally crafted him for me. Similar tastes in media, music, humor, literally everything lines up so beautifully. But when it's bad I want to fucking kill myself . He hates everything about me and I am the worst person to ever happen to him.

I can never know which one is the real one. I'm so tired. I dont want to go home. I want to hide somewhere else forever.

[bunny-heels]

rambling about feeling cringy even tho i shouldnt

i genuinely do not know why on the outside i seem like someone who does not give a shit what people think of me yet on the inside i am scared of doing anything cringe and having my friends hear about it and them thinking im a weird fuck when literally all of my friends do weird shit some of them weirder than me.

first of all im already cringe for seeing myself as a rabbit made out of void matter and as a demon and as an alien and as fuckin al/yx from half life like you really cant get more cringe than that.

but secondly i want to get into rp games where i can roleplay a character through text chat and literally the only game that fits the exact genre that i want is a fucking roblox game and im like "ugh why do i want to rp in a game that was originally targeted for kids thats so weird and cringe im 22" but literally like 40% of roblox users are over 17 plus 70% of developers are over 20 years old and roblox is now allowing people to make 17+ experiences like its embracing its more mature audience.

third, literally all i want to do is rp a mute character that walks around and gets into random shit for money thats already 100x better than those people that rp nazi soldiers and civil war veterans and are absolutely obsessed with the military and are racist as shit.

fourth i literally have friends that are obsessed with playing basically roblox versions of pokemon games and spend tons of money on them meanwhile i never spend money on something unless its like cosmetic or to support a game i genuinely enjoy.

fifth i have friends that arguably do more cringe stuff than i do my best friend in the whole world that i love and adore requests commissions of fetish porn openly on twitter literally anyone would find that more weird than wanting to rp a character in a roblox game

i have no reason what so ever to feel cringe about the stuff i do when the world is full of people that are weirder and maybe worse than me and IM the one being the pussy about it? literally what the fuck. no one even knows who i am in real life nothing matters but in a good way like i can do whatever i want cause its my life and as long as im not hurting anyone its not weird i know who i am and i know im not a bad person and i have a brain thats smart enough to not do shit i shouldnt be doing.

i can do whatever i want cause im cool and i should accept that i have weird things about me and that im a weird fucker but not a bad weird im a good weird where i just want to have fun like everyone else because i deserve it.

#the bun talks

[ihateeverything101]

new girl moving in because it will help us afford bills / an apartment. i cant get approved for a lease. like you need to make 3x the amount of rent to even apply to most apartments. i probably can pay for rent and live in these spaces but i don't have enough to impress the landlord. i don't have any credit, i don't have any assets, i don't have any cash. those statements aren't accurate but they are. i have $700 i can spend on my credit card, $5000 something in debt. $1500 cash in my account, so that's a decent amount but i'm still paying into the house we're living at now and my monthly payments, and i don't have an assets. then Char and Steff have credit card debt together so we have to pay her like $1000+ each month so i'm not. sure how he expects to do much of anything or live in a decent area. i'm glad he's optimistic but. i don't know how we can afford regular rent, then credit card payments to Steff (outside of whatever the credit card company's already expect us to pay monthly), food, utilities, gas for the car, fun? basically. living is expensive and i never thought i would be so fucked.

ADDITION:: aggravated because of Steff and her money. she buys things all the time, which she should be able to. but i am upset i am not in her position. she gets to go and live her own life and have her own apartment and spend her money how she wants, get a car if she wants. she can do anything because she makes over 100,000 and probably has 40,000 in credit lines. which is how they got so far in debt but come on. i want to buy coffee and snacks or small things from amazon. since i moved it's not about me. it's about the house. i buy some small things, i do some fun things. but. not really. i would be spending my time, energy, and money much differently if i wasn't in this relationships

pt3: it will make the money situation better but i don't like that and shouldn't have to like that. most relationships wouldn't say, yeah let's do it! if their partner said, hey we don't have enough money. so let's start dating another person so the bills are easier to cover!! like wtf why. why did he allow himself to be in this situation and why did i allow it as well! why did / do i trust him!! it all makes sense logically but i am upset and tired. the whole time i've been with him i've been rationalizing his choices. it makes sense to sell my car, it makes sense to get a credit card and contribute to the house and the family, it makes sense to do a lot of the domestic house work when i am unemployed. it all makes sense logically but i'm honestly tired of it. when will we be able to make the decision that i want. or that doesn't have to be the perfect solution, only what i want. i don't know how much longer i can go along with these "makes sense" solutions. i want my own car, i don't care if it doesn't make sense. i want to have more time between a serious breakup and then starting to date a new person, that one, my point of view makes sense. i don't want to live with 3 people, 3 incomes - i don't care if it makes sense. i want to go on dates, even if it doesn't make sense. i want to live, actually live life and not work work work work work work work. i feel like the whole time i've moved that's the attitude. work work work work. nothings ever enough work work work. which is a kinda good mindset, we all have room to grow no matter how much weve grown in the past. but. i want to be spoiled. i know life probably doesn't work this way but i thought my 20s would be easy. i thought i would be taken care of, i never thought that i would be in my 30s still fighting for a stable house, professional life, and a good relationship. i hate that. it makes me want to throw a fit. i thought my 20s would be building my life. and my 30s would be relaxing. i know that is unrealistic but i am a cute girl. there are so many cute girls that own property and have millions of dollars by the time they're 18/20. i shouldnt compare myself to those people but wtf. i am prettier and cooler. now im getting petty and dramatic but not really!! wtf!!!! why and how did my life go this way!! the beginning of my life wasn't fun or pleasant. the middle wasn't. my beginning adult life was ok. and now my current adult life is ok. i want to be taken care of. i want free time. i want money i can spend and buy what i want without being stressed about bills. grr. mm.

[pgross144-blog]

OPINIONS MATTER!!!!........

TIME TO RANT!!!!

Because Facebook Won't Let me!!! But lets gay men create new accounts and stalk me!! My messenger was revoked for THREE DAYS!!! No warning or reason!!! All I said was my account was hacked!!!

FUCK the ZUCK!! ARREST MARK COCKSUCKERBURG!!! He condemns your account for "hate speech" against who...

I'LL let YOU not MARK ZUCKERBERG DECIDE THIS TIME if this is Facebook worthy or "HATE SPEECH"!!!!

LET'S DIVE IN!!

For those who can't read why I wrote for name on card...

"Fuck You I'm entitled to what you know about me NOW!!!"

Truer words have never been said!!!!

This rant is about unfair business practice!!!

1st off capitalism shouldnt be a system for this type of nonsense... inflation is sky high, in a system where this type nonsense is allowed we SHOULD and COULD ban inflation!!! We could force (ALL!!!! yes ALL) businesses big or small to simply and SHARPLY drop the prices for their GOODS AND SERVICES! Set a fixed price for EVERYTHING!!!

The Great Depression was the worst economic crisis our country has EVER been through AND you mean to tell me my pocket change was WORTH something then!!!! NEED the list for perspective...

1. THEN... Double feature and Stage show 11 cents..

NOW... I'm guessing for a measly 1 show you pay 25+ dollars!! you do get a reclining seat that (almost) works for the price!!

2. THEN... Candy 1 Cent..

NOW...$1.25 is very cheap these days even for "Share Size" aka "shortchange size" Haribo which if you want better go to CVS to get a true "share size" for $3.25 because the portions are reduced at the Dollar (Twenty Five) Tree... even the candy friend got me yesterday $4.50!!! FOUR DOLLARS and FIFTY CENTS This is not even movie size!!! This a double Reeses yes 2 (TWO) large cups!!!

3. Lastly the most damning...

1 reasonably priced CAR!!!!...

THEN... any guesses $100 or $200?? (too low) or $5000?? (way too high) think, think, think oh wow lets assess (take a zero off thats better) $500 yes I wrote that correctly FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS!!! SOME setback!!!

NOW... $31,000 easy is what it costs now.... for a stripped to the bone Toyota SUV (because god knows you wont own the road without it!!!) (or have as much or enough space to match your neighbors loaded $65,000 gmc) WTF!!!

I would give it ALL UP!!, whatever it takes, if i could bring all my NOW USELESS pocket change and never run out of money never go hungry to live in 1930s because.....

Capitalism can EASILY survive in a system like this REALLY??? with $25 plus movie, $1.25 or $4.50 candy, $31,000 toyota...

NOPE!!! im talking about the society were 11 cent movies..., 1 cent candy and $500 cars exist!!!

Now people could say I'm CRAZY but the TRUTH is evident that we once lived in a society were pocket change WASN'T USELESS!!!

So WTF changed!! Inflation and COVID are simply no longer a working excuse anymore!!!

Time to fix this economy honestly like congress needs to pass a bill that fixes a price limit on all categories of goods and services! That would completely destroy and eliminate the concept of "overpriced" and "overcharging". Like my sneakers costed $1.00 or $2.00 to make!!! That's ONE DOLLAR OR TWO DOLLARS!!!

I was with someone fueling their car today gas prices are $4.05... A GALLON, it simply doesn't matter anymore!!! End price to fuel the WHOLE TANK.... $68.97 that's SIXTY EIGHT DOLLARS AND NINETY SEVEN CENTS!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!! I YEARN FOR THE DAYS IT WAS $50.00 EASY!!! BUT AGAIN MY OPINION NEVER MATTERED!!

MAIN POINT.....

The inspiration for this post was the fact I couldn't do a simple background check on myself on a website that had stated locations of me that I have honestly been before!! REALLY now what does FREE even mean anymore they claim to be a FREE service!! TAKE THE "R" OUT DUMMIES!!! "FEE" SERVICE SOUNDS MORE THE FUCK LIKE IT!!! LET ME GROW MY MONEY ON MY MONEY TREE DUMMIES!!!

THEIR RHETORIC....

"Oh it isn't hard to earn a single dollar "

"Oh we know, you wish you knew what we know for free"

"BUT GUESS WHAT DUMMY!!"

"OPEN YOUR WALLET!!! EVEN IF YOU CAN'T!!!

BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO PAY, PAY, PAY!!! EVEN IF THE PRICE ISN'T RIGHT!!!!

EVEN IF YOU FEEL ENTITLED TO HOW WE HAVE STALKED YOUR EVERY MOVE!!!!!

MY RHETORIC....

"THAT'S NOT EVEN CLOSE TO UNFAIR ENTITLEMENT, NOT EVEN CLOSE!!!"

"I OFFICIALLY NEED TO KNOW WHAT IS CONTAINED IN MY "REPORT" BECAUSE FOR..

NOT A CENT" THAT'S THE GOOD OLD GOOD OLD PRICE OF $2.95 HOW BOUT A DOLLAR $1.50 FINAL OFFER!!!! THAT SHOULD OK RIGHT??????

WRONG!!!!!!!!

FREE, ZERO, ZILCH, NADA....

EVER HEARD OF THIS PRICE?????

ZERO DOLLARS (AND IT GETS BETTER) ZERO CENTS!!!!

THATS FOR IN NUMBERS....

$0.00..... REALLY??????

REALLY, REALLY, REALLY.... ARE YOU SURE THOUGH THAT'S THATS PROFIT LOSS RIGHT????

"NOPE!!!!!!!" BUT IN SHORT "YES" BECAUSE CAPITALISM CAN'T SURVIVE IN SYSTEM LIKE THAT RIGHT????

WRONG!!!! WRONG!!!! WRONG!!!! BECAUSE GUESS WHAT????

IT CAN!!!!!! IT'S CALLED SOCIALISM AND IT WORKS LIKE A CHARM!!!! SO DUMMIES STOP ELECTING THESE

REPUBLICANS WHO "GOT THEIRS SO GO GET YOURS"

AND....

DEMOCRATS WHO DON'T DO SHIT THAT SAY AND BARELY KEEP PROMISES

WAIT WHO DO I VOTE FOR?????

I DON'T IM NOT A POLITICIAN I WRITE TUMBLR POSTS OF COURSE!!!!! I VOTE FOR DEMOCRATS BECAUSE I HOPE ONE DAY A PROMISE WILL KEPT...

AND...

THAT WILL TRULY MAKE OUR COUNTRY "GREAT"

I KNOW RIGHT.... IT'S REALLY POSSIBLE WITH ORANGE TONED, TOUPE' MAN, "CORRUPT", NAME CALLING, DRUNK, SCANDAL DRIVEN, DECEPTIVELY NOT CLEVER BUSINESS MAN WHO WENT BANKRUPT 5+ TIMES, GUN-NUT, RACIST, FACIST, I RAN FOR PRESIDENT SO SOON BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I DO IM ALWAYS ABOVE THE LAW (EVEN THOUGH YOU AREN'T ACTUALLY) PATHETIC, DISHONORABLE EXCUSE FOR A PRESIDENT, NEGATIVE ATTENTION SEEKER, SOLE DESTROYER OF THE U.S.A., SEX OFFENDING - SO I PUT ONE ON THE SUPREME COURT!!!..... WHO COULD IT BE I STILL DON'T KNOW??? WHY CAN'T I.... TOO LATE HIS ASSHOLENESSS A.K.A.

DONALD JOHN TRUMP!!!!!

CASE CLOSED....

OR IS IT EVER?

(AGAIN AS ALWAYS)

I'LL LET YOU DECIDE

(END)

FIN

#CREATE A 3 PARTY SYSTEM

[sserkets]

So it would become evident that Grandma Lalonde could not help either Dave or John. This following conversation would occur between only John and Roxy, alone after Grandma leaves to go home, explaining how she meet Jasper and her childhood.

"Well, my coven was... well it was ran by my great grandmother who was very old and set in tradition. We had several generations of family living together and we sort of group raised children. It takes a village right? But anyway, Witches are born with their gift, and it's prevalent at birth, but there can only be one coven leader. A leader wants to lead. It was only a matter of time until I did want I did."

"So I wanted to go to California. I just wanted to go. No reason why I picked it. One day I just decided I was going, took out all the money I had ever saved and took one of the cars that I was allowed to drive and left. We lived in upstate New York then, so I drove across Canada and the bridge here in to Michigan and finally after hours I had to stop. I needed to sleep."

"So I pull off the highway in Port Huron, this is like, in the late eighties, so there's no need for a passport. I'm looking for a motel and I drive right in to Pheasant River by accident. I pull in to this all night dinner to ask for directions and who do you think is working second shift on a Saturday night?"

"It was Jasper?" John asked.

"Sure was. I knew he was a witch as soon as I walked in, and I'm sure he did too. I ended up ordering twenty bucks worth of food and ate it all myself. He brings me the check and asks me what I did to work up that much of an appetite so I told him."

"He tells me that he lives in town with just his mother, his father, and himself and they would love to open their home to other magic folk. Again, it was the eighties, and I wasn't scared. I was so surprised how warm their home was. There was only three of them but they were happier than all of my extended family put together. I talked to his mother about how she'd got an education and she worked, and to his father about nothing, and it was so... comforting. Welcoming."

"The next morning he wakes me up on his couch and he's made me eggs, and I knew right then I was in love with him. I only went home one more time, just to gather my things and break my coven bond."

"Breaking a bond is hard work. It makes you feel empty all over all the time. It makes your chest ache. I almost sobbed the entire way back to Jasper Strider. I lived in his house, with his parents at sixteen. We went to the same high school, I went to college. I wouldnt have gotten that opportunity with my great grandmother. Then I married him and we had Dirk. We had Dave years later, and Rose right after him, and now we have you, John. I hope that we can make you as happy as they made me."

"I just, one question. What happened to Jasper's parents? Shouldnt I be able to feel their bond too?"

"No. Unfortunately they died when Dirk was still a baby. When Dave talks about his grandmother he means my mother. We speak occasionally."

#incantation

[give-grian-rights]

you and your anon's are so incredibly misinformed and offbase that i physically cringe when reading through your blog. please look up the definition of a competition, and while you're at it please remember that everyone competes in them differently (as shown by smajors distinction in the mcc sign up). just because dream doesn't compete the way grian does, doesn't mean he's deserving of being kicked from the competition...a lot of you like to pick and choose who you bully for making any constructive remarks about mcc, but when wilbur and philza are regularly calling noxcrews maps shit, I don't know why dteam is the only one getting reamed for making MINOR commentary....have y'all ever watched a real sports game in your life...you obviously wouldn't last a second with real life trash talk... and additionally, if this side of the fandom is supposedly so open to nuance and hot takes, why can't you accept that most of the posts you've made about dream and sapnap haven't been valid criticism, but rather just hypocritical jabs coming from a place of anger. when did dream ever belittle his teammates, or sapnap not add to the team dynamic? maybe try to be a little less biased when making overarching derogatory posts about a cc holy shit

i'm a fucking minecraft blog . i am gay, disabled and home schooled no i have not watched a real sports game it doesn't take a critical mind to come to that conclusion LMAO

i dont know a lot of the examples one of the anons used and the full context behind them, and thats my bad i shouldnt have blindly posted content i dont know the full context to.

that being said i do know im allowed to be upset at two youtubers who bursted to the top, making little to no effort in setting boundaries or expectations with their fanbase- made up of people who have doxed, harassed, stalked, and sent death threats to people over minor shit.

also mcc isn't a place for fucking trashtalking. its a minecraft tournament. that sometimes raises money for charity. made to bring the community together for a fun day. i hope they had fun and were good teammates as some as you said they were. i personally just dont think they add to the atmosphere of mcc in any positive way, and they take it to seriously for a fun minecraft tournament.

and this is the last time that i'll say it, as i'm mostly responding to this because of the bit about watching real sports because... look at where you're at and who you're asking its kinda fucking hilarious to me

you can block tags. if you're so passionate about them then just go and block the correct tags and dont worry about it, because a few people on a social media almost no ccs are on, ain't hurting no one

#deleting every other ask this nature. thanks for the support i see in my box because i do read almost all of them #cc!dream critical #cc!dreamwastaken critical #cc!sapnap critical #mcc discourse #mika-posts

[nyan-koii]

Hashira ft. Sabito as genshin impact players

aunotes : Bad grammar ahead! I didnt proofread it so be aware of brain damage. plus i initially wrote it at the 1.6 update

PART 1 : T.Muichiro, R.Kyojuro, K.Shinobu, S.Sanemi, U.Tengen 

Muichiro : he probably would be uninterested at first. He's more to first person shooting game or anything other than this concept of farming or investing. So that's why when he saw yuichirou banging his fist on his desk, trying to get his fav character, he would simply just watch

"Fck this game, i've had enough,"

"But you havent finish your wishing things yet,"

Stares. "How about you give it a try mui. You might get the character i want,"

"You sure about that? You might get angry at me," "better than nothing. Now go go, get em you donkey,"

His first ten pulls on the game brings out a light we all want to see

"Eh is tha-" "AAAA A FUCKING 5 STAR FCK FCKFCK,"

Apparently, it was one of the luckiest wish yuichiro had ever seen so far

"OHMYFUCK, you GOT A GODDAMN KLEE, QIQI AND SUCROSE WTFF???"

"I think i get your fav character?"

"Yeahh!! More than that to be honest. I want klee but you brought me two more person," sniffles and cries "you're really lucky mui. You should try and play the game,"

"It's probably the system. I doubt im that lucky tho,"

Nah, he really is lucky. Apparently he wished for his friends and got what they all really wanted for so long

"Thank you for getting me the aquila favonia, muichiro,"

"It's nothing really. I just simply press the button. It might be the system that's giving you the thing you want when i wish,"

"But still, even if i were to wish, i can get really scared and paranoid over it,"

"That's bad. You shouldnt invest yourself that much in the game tanjiro. It's just a game,"

"Ehehehe, i guess so. But you're really good at it muichiro! If you download it, we can play together :D!"

!!!!

It took the word "play together" to get muichiro down on his knee for that game. Usually the idea of playing with your friends is not that interesting. So when tanjiro said that, you bet he's going to play it

Type of player

Extremely lucky it's not even real. He got a five star on the beginner's banner

Fast farming. He probably will complete all the quest and become an endgame player within one month

"I just wanted to play with tanjiro..." bashfully

He's really good with whatever he's doing. Attack combo, dodging, elemental reaction and all sorts of stuff. If he invest more of his time on artifacts, he would probably even one shot it!!

He's very lucky. Very

Kyojuro : he wouldnt even know the existence of this game. Well, he took a glimpse of it one day and boom, heart stolen. Maybe it was the fiery burning passion in bennett that made him play the game.

'oh wow!! What a determined young boy! Even though he has a very bad luck he still keep pushing forward! Amazing!!'

'I want to be like him'

Kyojuro's the type of player to read and pay attention to every single lore of his fav character. Bennett, oh my how he wish he could've had bennett in his team. Every wishes he made would make him a c6 bennett main if only barbara wont stop coming home

"I really like you barbara but i dont want you!! Thank you for the c6 though!! I promise to use you in the future but just-" he prepares to wish

"not NOW!!" Clicks

The highest con of bennett he had ever gotten is probably c1. One day the paimon's bargain shop offered bennett as their monthly character. Kyojuro had never been so excited over a game before. He usually perks up over academics and not this kind of thing. But it's bennett, the character he admires the most.

Unfortunately he couldnt get it due to low currency. He had never feel so sad in his life.

"I shall not give up. Dont worry, i will be a c6 bennett main!!!"

He will be a c6 bennett haver!!

Type of player :

Carefully reads every stories and listens to their lines attentively. He finds it amazing how the company spent their everything on this game. It amazes him. From the stories, lores and lines, he truly appreciates it.

Balance his team pretty well. He mains bennett so he doesnt need that much of a healer in his team.

Enjoys bennett's hangout very much!! He tried to not get him killed by the dungeon's trap but ended up having to sacrifice him which ultimately ends the route. He had never felt so down and guilty before.

Not much of a damage dealer. He prefers to play it in normal mode and doesnt care that much about one shotting monster.

He feeds his character three meals a day!! If only there's a sleep option, he would be sending bennett to sleep first before the rest.

Everyone loves his teapot

Shinobu : found the game while she's scrolling through the app store out of boredom. Initially she played it on her phone but due to the fps and a really bad ping, so bad that douma wouldnt find her interesting anymore, she finally downloaded the game on her pc where things has starting to get real

"Ara, shinobu chan, it's lunch time already. Come downstairs please,"

"Sis give me five more minutes, JUST FIVE PLEASE I NEED TO KICK CHILDE's ASS,"

"he's not going anywhere sweetie,"

"yEAHH BUT MY BP IS,"

'Bp?'

"DIE DIE DIE!!" Aggresive clicking intensifies

"Shinobu chan dont hurt the keyboard that much!!"

She got lucky on the beginner's banner too and pulled a 5 star along with bennett and noelle. Who's the 5 star? Diluc Ragnvindr in all of his glory. Shinobu benched him sadly. She prefers sword over any other weapon

"I mean he's cool i guess but i just really dont get that 'WOAHHH COOL' vibe from him you know?"

"then give your diluc to me! I really want him so bad shinobu chan!"

Deep sighs "yeah sure. You can have my c2 diluc mitsuri..."

Loses 50/50 to diluc everytime everyone would think she either is lucky or cursed by the amount of that man greeting him on the screen. She still bench him though, sadly

"Im begging you, give me jEANN THE GRANDMASTER I NEED HEALER iN MY PARTY TO DO ABYSS

Type of player :

Suffers a lot in the abyss because she just want the primos which is a valid reason to do because that's the only thing that keeps her going

She's a sword character main. She'll properly build every character as either support or dps. The support would be kaeya and bennett, and her main dps ayaka

Ayaka main btw

Honestly at some point she wanted to quit the game because of how tiring it is but then inazuma came out

Fragile resin = 0

Resin = 160/160 happens once in a blue moon

"i should probably control myself with the amount of resin i've used,"

"But i cant,"

Hates domain but always can be seen playing in there

Only coops if mitsuri is there

"So that someone can calm me down,"

"That's not a really good reason shinobu chan,"

Sanemi : dude probably know the game through obanai. He watched the latter play and finds it interesting on how high the numbers he dealt. He loves challenges so a game like genshin impact would probably satisfy his need.

"Obanai, are you hearing this shit?"

"What is it sanemi, im busy doing this event,"

"That loser giyuu is also playing the game,"

"Oh yeah i know,"

"YOU KNOW? WHY YOU DIDNT TELL ME??"

"i just know right after you told me,"

"...."

Sanemi's a meta but a mediocre one. He's meta but he doesnt show it that much. Probably buys welkin once in every three months or when he really needs it same goes with battle pass too. Honestly, he really just use his money when he really needs something

"Donno if my allowance can buy me a welkin so i'll probably skip,"

"But the next banner is zhongli's,"

"....."

"Ah fuck it," buys

My man cant dodge after he got zhongli. Its very painful because he used to studies the enemies movement in the early game so that he can utilizes it on the team but zhongli's shield is so tank he forgot that dodging exists

"Im gonna kill you and you and you hhahaahhaah just you wait im gonna shred all of yo- oh shit zhongli's shield. puT IT BACK PUT IT BACK ON,"

That one event where zhongli's shield plays an important role in the domain? Yeah, he felt like a god at that time. Even got his c2 on his rerun. Sanemi just really like zhongli because it kinda reminds him of himejima. Calm and wise and strong too. He looks up on that kind of person

"Zhongli sama, im in debt for all of your hard work protecting my team," bows and wipes tears

Type of player :

Spends a little money on the game to get what he wants

Zhongli main

Is that one player that has hoards of food but doesnt even use it

"Why need healer when you have zhongli's shield,"

Compare to kyojuro, he doesnt even touch the teapot because he finds it ridiculous and bothersome to create and design everything in it

Loves one shotting bosses and compares it to giyuu. He ask for advices from obanai regarding team build supports and stuffs

Doesnt do character's story quest. The key is full every single time. He unlocks it but leaves the quest like that.

"Ah shit, i accidentally activate the quest,"

His friend list only has obanai in it. Whenever people sent him friend request, he wouldnt hesitate, more like wouldnt care to accept it

They either have to coop in obanai's world or his world and after that, unfriend immediately

Says thank you after coop because he has manners and then completely disappears

"Zhongli main forever,"

Tengen : played since 1.0 this madlad has been staying loyal to the game ever since. Quite huge amount of money he spend on this game to be honest but he never gets broke by it. You can see his regular donation to the game by purchasing welkin and battle pass and some genesis crystal too. He's loaded with money, he didnt know what to do with it.

Uzui also plays honkai impact and guns girl Z so when he saw the unknown god at the intro , he was not surprised.

"Oh we have to pick between the siblings? Cool cool co- oh hi kiana,"

"Thats so herrscher of void hahahahah,"

Although he is a loyal fan to MihoYo games, he lost his composure when he saw the 1st genshin anniversary reward because what was that. Imagine getting billions of money and they give us this? Tengen cant believe this shit

"Oh god wtf was that reward, i have to draw to get a welkin and some primos?? aND I ALSO HAVE TO BE LUCKY? WHAT-"

"WHERE'S MY FREE MONA,"

In need of mona. He needs mona so bad he literally spent his money on standard banner to get mona but always ends up with qiqi. Not that he's complaining but he just wants the astrologist to complete the support team

"GOD QIQI YOU AGAIN? WTF WFF WTF-" converts genesis crystal to primigems

"Tengen, you should control yourself!"

"SHUT UP KYOJURO, IM GONNA WASTE MY MONEY TILL I GET HER,"

"yeah but my f2p ass is hurting with how many bennett cons you got," droops

Tengen sees potential in every character. Everyone has their weakness and strength so when kokomi comes out, he diss her at first but then realize maybe its a new way for a character. Adds the uniqueness if he may say so.

"Meh i dont care honestly. You guys should pull whoever you find nice or beautiful. Like me ;)"

"Who do you main uzui?"

"Beidou,"

Type of player

Spoils the storylines, lores, leaks A LOT THE REST HAVE TO BLOCK HIM ON SOCIAL MEDIA

Speed runs the game and has become an endgame player ever since but he still does his daily commission and helps people with domains and stuffs

R5 every battle pass weapon

Fights azhdaha for fun and to test out his characters rather than ruin guards and stuff

Mona wanter

Puts traveller as the pfp and doesnt display any showcase of his characters and namecards. You can only see his achievements and spiral abyss ( 12-3 ). Says its for fun and mystery

Throws a lot of pickup lines and roleplays a lot. Spams your chatbox messages with stickers and censored stuffs

Probably steals your ores and exotic things like violetgrass, qingxin and silk flowers

Screams in the chatbox whenever he saw Mona until Kyojuro had to calm him down

Changes signature every single time and sometimes put spoilers in it

In every survey he would complain "MihoYo where the fuck is my Mona,"

Doesnt heals his characters

#demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #demon slayer hashira #kny hashira #tokitō muichirō #shinazugawa sanemi #shinobu kochou #uzui tengen #rengoku kyojuro #kamado tanjiro #kochou kanae #iguro obanai #demon slayer headcanons #kimetsu no yaiba headcanons #hashira headcanons

[anniefournier21]

Do you know what its really like to be depressed?

i am a 21 year old girl, living in the city of fredericton. moved here in 2018 so i could have more opportunities to make my life better. more chances to prove to people i am better the the roumors.

what i have learned living in the city of fredericton for 3.5 years is that no matter what ido in life.... its never enough. its never enough to be congratulated by family members. at 19 i was a supervisor at a clothing retail store, i was also act in manager until one was hired in later on. NOBODY congradulated me on being able to handle that at 19!

i come from 2 very small towns. well ones a village and ones a town. neither place did i ever feel very welcomed....

i often tried to portray my self as this perfect girl, dressing like the "cool" grils inorder to be noticed by anyone. that didnt work! i tried being like everyone else, i wanted to go to parties and hang out with "rebel" kids in my grade.

however i wasnt allowed! i was isolated from the "bad kids" growing up, i wasnt allowed to go to parties or hang out with anyone who seemed to have some sort of bad reputation.

All for what? im 21 and i have 1 friend whom of which didnt initionally want to be my friend but i sort of made him.

21 and my social skills are absolute garbage.

21 and i can count on one hand how many times ive drank alcohol.

21 and im still told how to live my life by my family.

i live on my own with a boyfriend and my family still tells me how i should spend my money, how i should spend my time, whom i should and shouldnt hang out with.

a life of orders and rules

i suffer from severe depression and anxiety.

i have what i call depressive episodes. where for long periods of time i absoluely hate everything about my self and my life. these episodes last longer when i am under stress.

i am currently on week 3 of my third known episode. my last one was 2.5 years long.

during these episodes i often dont eat, or i eat very little. i dont drink water, i dont bathe, i just forget how to care for my self completely.

i slowly distance my self from people often just not wanting to be around anyone for any length of time.

during these times i ALWAYS think of new ways i could attempt to take my own life. many of these ways go untested.

while in these episodes i am a danger to my self but nobody knows how bad it actually gets.

i have planned my death many times. i have written my will many times. i have written my letter many times.

i have been so tired of fighting and trying to hold on to life when i see no reason on me being here.

i am 21 and i have tried to take my life 4 times.

all 4 have failed or i was caught before i did it.

a lot of people say the understand what im going through.... but i find that hard to believe. you might be able to relate to some things, but nobody truely understands exactly how i feel.

3 out of 4 years i spent in highschool i was taking counsoling trying to figure out what was wrong with me. why kids didnt like me, why i wasnt happy.

i could never understand why i was always so depressed.

then one day very recently i understood why.

i lived with my mother until i was 16, from there i was with my grandmother until i was 18. next place i was, was with my biological dad for less then 6 months. at that point he let his wife kick me out, mid november 11:30pm with snow outside.

i was left to figure my shit out on my own.

at 18 i lived on my own. i struggled every day with trying to work enough to pay all my bills. 50% of the time my rent was never paid.

i had nobody at my side who was willing to help without fighting with me.

at 19 i learned that my own mother would help me financially but i had to get bitched at first.

she had to belittle me for how i chose to spend my money. for how little i was working, for never having my stuff paid on time or at all.

at 19 i realised i had no emotional support from anyone in my life not even family.

i envied the familys who looked so good together who seemed like they were they for each other.

i lost my self trying to please my family, i tried so hard to be the perfect child all for what? the mental struggle to keep my self alive?

here i am on week 3 of my third know episode and i have been in the hospital once for extreme stomach pains. (most likely from lack of eating). two days later called my self an ambulance to my work because i couldnt move i was in so much pain.

since then i have missed 4 shifts at my second job and struggled very hard to go to my shifts at my primary job.

i have ate maybe a total of 20 meals in the last 3 weeks (that i can remember that is). i have lost about 10lbs.

i am severly sick and i feel so alone.

like i have said i live with a boyfriend and even though im never entirely alone i always feel like i am.

i dont want to bother him with my problems..

i dont want him to feel pitty on me.

i dont want anyone to feel for me. i cant even feel for me.

when i encounter i problem i run, i never try and fix the problem i just leave. i figure it better for myself and everyone around me if i leave.

the urge i have to pack what will fit in my car and leave is very high... but i promised my friend i wouldnt leave.

i feel as though i have nothing here, as if i have nobody in my corner rooting me on.

i feel empty, i feel drained, i feel as though there is nothing i can do to save my self.

nothing i say or do is every enough.

no matter how hard i try to be okay its never enough.

i am not enough

nobody goes out of there way to make sure im always okay. but i do it for everyone.... even people i dont get along with.

because i never want someone to feel the way i do. i dont want people to feel as if they have nobody.

i have been the shoulder for many people to cry on, but when it comes to me the most i get is a message saying " you will get through this" or " everything will be okay".

but its like how would you know? how does telling me it will be okay make it okay?

i sit here and hype people up make them feel special when they are feeling sad. i make them feel worthy of this life. i make sure they know life is worth living.

when deep down i dont even believe that myself. but i know it helps.

now even though i am going through my episode nobody really knows i am. i have gotten very good at hiding it where in my family you dont have mental health issues. you just "think" you do.

i come from a very large family. from both sides, and i can assure anyone that not a single one can tell when im depressed as all get out.

not a single one of them are there for me. often times their making it worse by trying to control my life.

most times i am left wondering why i am even here.

why anyone has ever put up with me for as long as they did.

ill never understand why my support system is not really there. why i have nobody in my corner backing me up.

making me feel like i serve a purpose here. like i mean something to anyone.

ive got this thing called attachment issues. basically for me that means i do not like to be without someone for long periods of time.

i also have a problem with being left completely alone.

i suffer from childhood trauma, and child neglection.

now my family will deny that but i know what i went through on every moment of every day. i know how i felt everyday.

that being said the smallest of things can trigger a panic attack. often a fast movement or a raise in ones voice.

anyone who seems angry with me i will cry and cripple like theres no tommorow.

i can not stand up for my self because if someone so much as raises their voice at me i cripple. i feel like im 2 feet tall.

i love my first name.... Annastasia.... it just sound sso elegant. however i only ever heard this name when i was about to get in trouble. which was just about every day as a kid.

i am terrified to hear my full name because i truly believe that anyone who uses it is mad at me and its about to yell.

i cant even hear my own name.. let that sink in for a minute.

i lack the proper understanding of family.

i love you was not a sentence used often in my childhood. only time i remember it being used is if i got in trouble for something and later my parents found out they were wrong.

thats right id get in trouble for things that i didnt do or had no part in.... and be told that im loved because they fucked up. thats not fair to me.

so now when people tell me they love me i feel as though i did something wrong and they realised i actually didnt do anything.

thats what the words i love you mean to me.

its a was to say " im sorry i was in the wrong not you"

i have tried for so long to shelter my emotions, keep them pressed down in the dark but i cant do that forever. i shouldnt have to. nobody should.

i am here writing this today ( december 8th of 2021) so i can stop explaining my self to people who never understood why i am the way i am.

i will put my self in the middle of peoples drama just so i can feel included in something for once. nobodys every understood why....

im not envited to stuff. nobody ask me to go hang out.

i always ask, i always invite.

im so tired of trying for stuff that will never happen.

everytime i wake up in the morning i wish i hadnt because its another day of dissapointments, arguments, failure.

im tired of always being tired. im sick of always being sick.

im tired of trying to please everyone around me when i cant even please my self.

im tired of never being enough for someone

im tired of never being enough for my family

im so damn tired of being the disapointment in peoples lives

im fed up with always being labeled the problem everywhere i go

i have nothing left in me to keep fighting

i have no motavation left

all my dreams are shot out the window by everyone

my life is controlled by everyone around me

i am the problem always have been and probably always will be.

this is is what its like inside my head on a daily basis. this is the struggle i face in my every day life. this is what its like to be in my shoes.

this is my story. and aint nobody going to be able to fix it.

#depression #anxitey #my life #childhood #trauma