#this isnt my gender but its someones and whoever you are i love you for that

[fish-at-fish-fish-resort]

holds out hands . may i hear your oc lore

since this is a sequel to this unanswered ask from my main

ill give you my agents (and 2 related ocs) bc giving you all the ocs in one post will be really hard i have SO MANY. too many. ANYWAY sillies under cut!!!

lets start with 3 because thats where the timeline starts

heres a p old timeline drawing thingy that still holds up i think

yeah just read through it. holds up. three is mostly the target of self projection lmao.

smore fun facts ab them:

they were team callie in the s1 final fest

they are wildly competitive

they sleep with an eyemask on bc the scrred eye glows in the dark (it bothers eight)

they value abilities over looks on gear so most their outfits are atrocious unless someone forces them to look good.

they can speak octarian

if they had a penny for every time they let an octarian who just got to inkopilis live with them theyd have two pennies. which isnt a lot but its weird it happened twice right?

which brings us to the next one which is actually an octoling oc i made back in like 2016??? def splatoon 1 era. shes been redesigned a bajillion times but the story is mostly the same. after the octavio fight she is also one of those octos who tried to get to inkopolis. this one was found by three who was like. i jave no idea what ur saying ur coming with the the old man totes knows octarian from his divorce. this n that and they teach eachother language and culture and its sweet and cool and they probabyl had some wlw stuff going on until 3 had a wholeass gender crisis

this is her btw. the drawing on the right is more up to date. im still thinking of renaming her. ill never find a name that fits. her original name was marianna but thats too close to marina!!!!!

shes also a fashion designer! she likes to use traditional octarian or military designs in her clothes. her pieces are not meant for turf wars though. shes still in close contact with three, and they hang out a lot. she wants to get three to ask the squid sisters if they could wear some of her clothes on a splatfest. three forgets.

next up!!!!! agent 4. i have two of those. they independently became agent 4 and then unrelatedly also became college roommates.

hash is more of a canon adjacent agent 4. poser, loser, really dramatic and really loud. kidna does whatever they want and also likes to leave graffitti on the kettles they clear. theyre also an only child. they also call marie mom jsut to annoy her. also their hairstyle is the bob in the front but the back is spiky/shaved. theyre a silly lil punk.

ikarus is a cynical asshole. and also a self centered poser whos set on looking cool for whoevers watching. he has 2 younger siblings and 1 older sister. hes from outside greater inkopolis, thinks hes better than the in city inkopolitans but behaves the exact same. he sucks i love him. he really looks up to n respects marie bc she reminds him of his elder sister. his fav brand is toni kensa

ikarus got the agent job first, n got rlly mad when they found out that theres another agent 4 bc he didnt show up enough nd marie just hired someone else. they share a uniform. they try to annoy eachother by puttinf the weirdest smelling stuff in the uniform b4 leaving it at the canyon. when talking ab em as agent 4 i like to use #4 for hash and n°4 for ikarus

the two also have a 3rd roommate

she doesnt have a name though. and if she does i forgot it :(

the three actually make a pretty good unit in their apartement. hash and ikarus only find out theyre both agent 4 when its time for the boss fight and both of them show up to get it done with. theyre both very competitive. they end up fighting over it and hash wins. ikarus is on the truck w sheldon and marie and is yelling insults at the battlefield until marie shuts him up so she can sing.

thw three roommates also always do salmon run shifts together. if they fuck up on a wave they always blame it on the one freelancer. yes they also kiss.

for eight i actually made this ref here recently!

theyve always been really fascinated with inklings and also were going to become an engineer before running off and landing in the metro.

they are very well spoken but also pretty shy. they try to make a good impression on people. finds it hard to trust others.

it took a while until he got used to sleeping in a bed. still sleeps with an eye open sometimes. its a habit.

theyre usualyl the one forcing three into at least okay looking clothes. oh also this tall loser likes to wear heels n platforms. hes literally taller than marina and still wears heels.

he actually started learning inklish back in octo valley from really outdated books. after coming to inkopolis hes been given a buncha annotated language books from marina (and from three, who still had the ones they used w the other octo girlie). but they still end up using some really old phrases and words that kinda leave some people perplexed.

oh also they're not THAT good at fighting (they were never a soldier) theyre smart and persistent though. still ended up severely in debt w pearl bc of the metro. pearl offered he can just work as stage crew for off the hook for a few tours or so and theyre good. he took the offer immediately bc bro barely got income to repay that all normally.

#whew that was barely organized but ummm yayyyy thats them!!!! #i have WAY more ocs but these are the agentssss #keep asks coming!!!!! #agent 4 #agent 3 #agent 8 #ikarus #hash #eight #three #splatoon agent ocs #splatoon agents #new squidbeak splatoon #splatoon oc #splatoon #fin scratching

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--chronicallyMousy [CM] began trolling sandstormHuntress [SH]--

--chronicallyMousy [CM] began trolling sandstormHuntress [SH]--

CM: ...hello corali... (//:3 ...how have you been?...

SH: Eh, I been better, I guess. Some fucking

SH: Coward ass chicken shit's been leaving threats at my hive.

CM: ...what???...

SH: It ain't nothing to worry about. I ain't scared a nobody that can't threaten me to my face. Little annoying notes ain't gonna intimidate me none.

CM: ...corali... maybe you s-should take this s-seriously... ...did you upset or hurt anyone recently?...

SH: Just the usual rowdy drunks at the Jackhammer and the troll whose arm I snapped in half a perigee back for stabbing me.

CM: ...do you think its him?... )//:3

SH: Unless he wants me to snap every bone in his body, it better not be.

SH: He's been banned from the bar, and I ain't seen him since then.

SH: Fucker knows he can't take me in a fight, so he's trying to scare me.

CM: ...do you think a legislacerator might help you?...

SH: Are y'all kidding? Legis don't give a shit about lowbloods unless they're arresting, beating, or putting us on trial.

SH: I might as well ask my pa for help for all the good a legi will do.

CM: ...i just dont want you getting hurt... ...what if they escalate things?... ...if they already know where you live... and your hive isnt that easy to find or get to... imagine what else they must know... D//:3

SH: Don't y'all worry your pretty little head. There ain't a troll on Alternia that can scare me. You've seen your mate, and you know me and him go at it like pit fighters and he ain't killed or seriously hurt me yet aside from the occasional broken bone.

CM: ...but danny fights fair... ...whoever this is probably wont... and you might get killed or worse!...

SH: I'm telling y'all it's fine. Everything's gonna be fine.

CM: ... )//':3

SH: Ah come on, don't make little crying faces at me.

SH: It's

SH: Fine.

SH: I promise on my sobriety I can handle whatever the fuck's going on.

CM: ...just call me and check in every night for the next perigee... ...if i dont hear from you... im coming out there...

SH: Alright, if it'll make you feel better, fine. Expect to hear from me tomorrow.

CM: ...thank you... (//:3

CM: ...have you told darius?...

SH: Of course not. She's got better things to worry about, like her dress shop.

CM: ...darius is using s-she/her again?...

SH: Yeah, says it feels "right." Whatever, I ain't gonna judge her. She's my kiddo no matter what she calls herself.

CM: ...im trying to think of how to better explain gender to varoll... ...s-she only knows about cisgender boys and girls...

CM: ...and i told her that s-sometimes boys and girls look different than you expect... and s-someone you think is a boy is really a girl... and vice versa...

CM: ...but im not s-sure how to explain people that are transgender... or arent a binary gender at all...

SH: Eh, you're overthinking it. Kids will take whatever you tell them pretty much at face value.

CM: ...varoll isnt like that... though... ...not at her age... ...s-she wants to know everything in detail... and all the hows and whys...

CM: ...if i tell her that s-some people are just 'like that'... s-she might not accept that as an answer...

CM: ...but i dont know any other way to explain other genders to her...

SH: Dar's genderweird. Just scoot Varoll her way.

SH: Get her answers right from the hoofbeast's mouth. She's the one who taught me all this gender shit in the first place.

SH: I ain't gonna say I'm an expert, but I know enough. I'm sure she'd love to talk about it.

CM: ...are you s-sure?... ...i dont want to put that on her and make her feel like s-she has to...

SH: Trust me, Dar'll leap at the chance.

CM: ...okay... ...it would be a really big help...

CM: ...hows work?...

SH: Same shit different night.

SH: Throwing out people starting fights or getting handsy or giving the bartender a little too much lip.

CM: ...i really wish you would work s-somewhere else... ...im worried with you constantly being around alcohol and people drinking...

SH: Have some faith in me. It's been, what.

SH: Seven perigees now since I quit? And I haven't had a drop. I'm still going to AA, and I got you and Dar and Arri for support.

SH: Ain't nothing gonna make me blow this.

SH: I invite the universe to fucking try it. Can't be done.

CM: ...please dont tempt the universe... D//:3

SH: Y'all know I'm just messing. ;)

SH: Anyw

CM: ...corali?...

--sandstormHuntress [SH] is an idle chum--

CM: ...im going to call you...

--chronicallyMousy [CM] gave up trolling sandstormHuntress [SH]--

#pesterlogs #chronicallyMousy #sandstormHuntress #casually sets up future events #Roll With The Punches

[ratgingi]

a couple murr facts before i pass out so he will hopefully leave me alone

as ive said before he falls in love Really Easy and when it happens its hard and fast . he also technically 'recovers' from it really fast when rejected because hell just mope abt it being another tally on the board rather than the specific details of the thing itself yk. he also has an issue of he can be totally indifferent on a person but if they say they like him in that way he falls head over heels

he has three other rings that he doesnt wear that may or may not also be from past marriages he never specifies, also the rings he does wear have diamonds on them but he turns them so that the diamond is hidden / faces the inside of his hand rather than being on display. sometimes he fidgets with them by spinning them around nd stuff though. this is because he used to have Six Rings but got mugged once and learned his lesson </3

ive stated it a couple of times but he has a brother named atticus, the two are twins but unlike murr, atti is capable of getting and keeping bitches he just doesnt like people enough to do so. he will occasionally call murr with no purpose except bullying him for moving into dt and being bitchless. the two dont get along what so ever and murr does not know Why but just accepts it and returns the energy as he does with most things. this is partially why he and roe have an issue bc frm his pov roe is just mean and hates him for no reason so much like with his brother hes like fine ill go out of my way to Bother You then .

he can be pretty spiteful at times and will occasionally feel bad abt it later until hes back around whoever he had the issue with bc then it just flares back up

hes very pathetic and annoying but he can be incredibly sweet too, i wouldnt recommend going to him for advice or anything but he listens well when the situation calls for it and has a lot of compassion for those around him if they havent given him a reason not to yet or anything yk. also hes pretty affectionate obviously and gives good hugs so

he literally couldnt care less about what people call him in terms of like. pronouns gendered terms whatever the hell. he responds to it all the same bc he cares more about the intention of the words than what words are used if that makes any sense

hes constantly pouting / generally sad looking. the only time hes not is when talking to someone he likes (which does not always include friends lmao . for example hes still mopey when around charlie, charlie just tunes it out). when he isnt though he lights up pretty brightly

hes almost always twirling his phone cord (or hair in fleshhead situations) around his finger. its kinda just what he does when he doesnt have something else to do with his hands

he has a slight french accent + speaks french too but due to not using it much hes sorta rusty with it

#get out of my brain you sad sad man. let me Rest #dialogue #jack dlc #dlc wiki

[juney-blues]

gfdjghdfgh twitter is having lesbian discourse ™ (and has been having it for quite some time now!) and i am so fuckin tired lmao

istg if i have to hear any variation of “this microlabel invalidates lesbians for some reason!” ever again im gonna go postal, like who gives a shit u really think being “invalidated” is a serious threat??? you think “validity” is a measurable thing that you *need* to have?? who gives a shit if someone calls themself a bi lesbian or whatever you think that’s contradictory??? and therefore bad???? im sorry but i just cannot imagine giving a shit

like do you just have a preschooler’s understanding of sexuality and gender? where there are 3 genders: Man Woman And NonBinary? and lesbians are The Womans Who Like Womans, The Gays Are Mans Who Like THe Mens? and the Bi’s are people who like whoever??? and that is the extent of identity??? and if anyone even slightly contradicts that they’re wrong and somehow harming you??? grow the fuck up lmao identity is complicated as FUCk.

i’ve seen some of them say it’ll make men think they can date lesbians or whatever and like

im sorry but they already do??? allocishet men being shitty to lesbians isnt because they heard the term “bi lesbian” and thought “oh that means all lesbians are bis >:)” its because they fundamentally do not respect women at all lmao. i dont think like even half of half of a percent of shitty allocishet men have even heard the term.

anyway mspec lesbians are cool as hell and i have considered using “bi lesbian” or “pan sapphic” or something to describe my sexuality for a while now but whatever stuff is complicated

sapphic is a really nice word that i’d love to use for myself but it has been spoiled a little by The Shitty Lesbians shouting “just use sapphic instead!” hasn’t been spoiled as much for me as “lesbian” though lmao at this point if i see someone describe themself as lesbian with nothing else im like 50/50 on whether they’re gonna spout some really queerphobic bullshit

anyway cis lesbians Just Stop please

gfdjghdfjkgh ramble over

#discourse post #vent post #kinda long-ish post? #also can somebody explain to me why so many of them are kpop fans #like seriously i dont get it #what is the connection between kpop and hating queer microidentities #why is there so much overlap

[shit-posts-and-fanfictions]

You have dared me and I can not back down form a dare. So...hmmmm if you write liu...

can I get someeeee eh I’m so stoopid can you do some cuddling headcanons? I’m sure you like him too😂😂

Bro you kidding?? I fucking love Liu.

Sully would step on me but thats f i n e, i love that lil fucker too

The DID representation got me fucking b u s t i n '

Fandom: Creepypasta

Rating: Fluffyyy

Readers Gender: neutral

Present Characters: Homicidal Liu, Sully

Trigger Warnings: Sully being a dick, hints at after sex, hints at broken bones but not really-, Liu's PTSD,

Notes: I might do some headcanons later about Liu and D.I.D. Gotta love that accurate representation, plus i have some personal ideas i haven't seen in the fandom so keep an eye out when i drop that 👉😎👉

Liu

The first few times you guys cuddle, Liu is so tense im ngl

You may even startle him in his sleep and he'll wake up in a panic before realizing its just you

However though, when he does start to relax and get more comfortable to sharing a bed with you, he has a couple favorite positions while cuddling.

The first one is definitely facing eachother in a complete tangle of limps

You can pry that headcanon out of my cold dead hands

Just being able to feel you, to hold you and be held by you makes him feel so safe and loved.

Sometimes he'll have you with your face burried in his chest, sometimes he'll bury his face into yours if its been a stressful day

Other times he'll press his forehead to yours and just melt while you exchange soft kisses here and there on eachothers faces

Kiss his scars

I dare you

His checks, bridge of his nose, chin

Kiss👏His👏Scars👏

He will melt, completely wrapped around your fingers like putty

He is always self conscious about his scars and stitches, and at first even tried hiding them from you.

Showing him that you love him despite the scars means the world to him-

His second favorite cuddling position is him as the little spoon.

I dont take criticism on this. Liu is a hard ass little spoon.

The first time you spooned him he mightve cried a little

He is so damn touch starved-

His favorite thing to do while you spoon him is when his head is pressed back into your chest, and you cradle around his head just enough to press kisses to the top of his head and forehead.

Lastly, if its been a r e a l l y long day and it puts him in a foul mood, he loves simply walking in and seeing you laying in bed

Could be drawing or reading a book-

He will simply plop down ontop of you and bury his face into your stomach or chest

If your reading, read to him.

Show him what your drawing

He loves anything you do, and enjoys when you get all excited to tell him about it

Takes his mind off the bad day he's just had

Now- if you play with his hair

Thats a whole other story

I hope your comfortable, because he will pass tf out and you are not getting him off for a good hour or two

Sully

Prayers to whoever tries to bed this bastard outside of anything sexual

I think he really only has two settings

McStabby and Horndog

The first few times you try to cuddle him, he might flat out kick you from the bed and on the floor.

Especially if theres a switch from Liu to him while cuddling, he will shove you on the floor and roll over to sleep

He probably thinks its hilarious

The first time you guys actually cuddle is definitely after doing the deed

If you can manage to keep up and tire him out, he'd be to lazy to shove you from the bed or get up to leave

He turned his back to you, and you being stubborn or just plain cold after he hogged the blanket, spooned against his back

He would never admit the butterflies it gave him when you hesitantly drapped an arm over his waist, but he decided then that maybe cuddling isnt so bad

At first the most you get after that is just him allowing you to lean against him while your standing near eachother or sitting together

After a bit though, he found comfort in draping his arm around your shoulders

(It was totally because someone was hitting on you, but you wouldnt let him shank the creep so he resorted to getting handsy)

If you ask him about it he claims its because your Liu's and someone has to watch you while he's not there.

But he is really so protective and its a comfort to have you under his arm, showing anyone watching that you belong to both of them

Sully also enjoys being a tease and will make you work for cuddles

So he loves doing a half spoon where he lays back comfortably and you cling to his side

He has his arms supporting his head while you bury yourself against his side and just give a cheeky grin to you actually wanting his affection, though he was sure its just because Liu wasnt there to give you any

Has definitely referred to Liu as a simp-

If you fall asleep in that position he might drape an arm over you 👀

But only after he's sure you've fallen asleep.

Once he starts getting more attached and protective of you, he loves having you burried against his chest

Often propping his head in his hand while laying on his side and watching you

He enjoys it when your facing him in this position, but is just as fine if your on your back burried under him or facing away from him with your back against him while reading or playing on your phone

He'll just watch you and whatever your doing, which can get a little creepy considering the unsettling gaze he naturally has

But he also doesnt say anything either- even if you try talking to him he'll just shrug or stare at you till you leave him alone

If he really wants your attention he'll take whatever your doing from your hand and throw it behind him while pulling you to face him.

Also

Dont play with his hair- he is not a soft lover and doesnt want to be perceived as such

The first (and hopefully last) time you tried playing with his hair he snatched your hand and damn near broke your wrist.

So really just dont touch him unless he wants you to or you know hes alright with whatever you do. He has alot of boundaries that he just wont tolerate being crossed

The last few positions he enjoys are after sex

Sometimes he'll just flop down ontop of you and pass out right there, still pressed inside you while he sleeps

Other times he'll roll over with you and have you sleep on his chest

He has a funny way of showing his affection for you, but he does care in his own twisted way-

He may be a hardass but he is your hardass and he does need to be taken care of

With the few things he does allow you to do to him, he really just melts

He is wrapped around your finger too, whether you realize it or not

He would kill for you if you asked it of him

#creepypasta #creepypasta x reader #creepypasta headcanon #creepypasta headcanons #liu woods #homicidal liu #sully #liu x reader #homicidal liu x reader #homicidal liu headcanons #liu and sully #creepypasta sully #jeff the killer #jeff woods #jeffery woods #jeff x reader #ben drowned x reader #eyeless jack x reader #jeff the killer x reader

[chloe-online]

karl comforts you after a nightmare.

i know its late but my writing got pushed back (i was gonna start this 3 1/2 hours ago) because i had to help out some family, its now 3 in the morning so if this is bad, im sorry! anyways so, im almost positive this has been done before but i'll try my best to make it unique? this was originally going to be headcanons but im turning into a short story bc im extra :). im sorry if its similar to another one. again i'll do my best to make the reader gender neutral. enjoy!

you felt the color of your face drain. he was gone. you immediately run to his side, and drop to your knees. he had to have been the palest shade of white there even was, and he felt heavy as you held his lifeless body close to you, weeping. you couldnt believe it, the man you loved was gone, bleeding out onto the factory floor. who would murder him, in the comfort of his own home? who could be so cruel. so horrible whoever did this was NOT getting away with it.

"Karl! Please dont do this to me i love-"

"do what? Kitten please wake up!" a familiar voice cried out. your eyes bolted open to feeling of being shaken awake. your eyes met his, that instant you were already clung to him like a koala, tears rolling down your cheeks. he stayed sitting up, both arms around you, rubbing your back. you could tell by his slight shaking he was worried about you, but you genuinely thought you lost him.

"karl, I-I," you hesitated, you realised how ridiculous you would sound.

"what love? spit it out, whats wrong," he purred. you settled your chin into the cranny of his neck, the gentle rubbing of his calloused hands on your back calming you. your eyes stung as the dream came back to you.

"i thought i lost you, for good," you whimpered. he gripped you tighter, he'd never seen you this worked up over a nightmare. you rarely got this anxious. his breath travelled down your neck, and into the entrance on your (it was his) shirt.

"darling, im not going anywhere, i wouldnt dream of it" he reassured you. he placed sloppy kisses onto your neck. you pulled away to look into his gorgeous eyes.

"promise?" you murmured, wiping tears from your eyes. karl kissed you on the forehead.

"i promise, now lets get you back to bed" he hummed. you smirked at him and cozied yourself into the blankets, tugging karls shirt so he comes down there too.

you nuzzled yourself into his chest, listening to his heartbeat, the familiar smell of whatever karls covered in, this was one of your favorite things to do with your lover. karl wrapped his one arm around your waist.

"you made yourself comfortable," he teased. you ignore his snarky remarks. his chest lifted up before it fell down again. he admired you. loved everything about you.

eventually you fell asleep. karl held you for as long as he can remember, he ended up passing out as well. he loved you, adored you. he finally found his person. the one who could actually put up with him. someone who loved him, you werent scared of him, you didnt think he was a monster. he'd do anything for you, as long as your safe.

hi! just a few things i wanted to say. sorry this took me two hours to write, ive been distracted haha. i stepped a little out of my comfort zone by writing a little story but im quite proud of it! my writing isnt very strong and i still feel i did a good job on this piece. i hope you enjoyed, have a great rest of your day!

#karl heisenberg x reader #karl heisenberg #re8 heisenberg #re8

[lesbiradshaw]

Genuinely interested in what you think about Bucky being perceived as female-coded in some parts of the fandom. I read that thread years ago and agreed with because it sounded logical, but now I'm not so sure. Recently found out about the existence of this Tony Stark meta essay called "Tony Stark as the most female-coded superhero" and they use the same arguments: loss of agency, playing the damsel in distress role more often than their counterpart, etc. I can't take "fm-coded" seriously anymore

oh boy ...

idk how long this will end up but to preface whatever we do end up with: 1) im a nonbinary lesbian so my perception on what it means to be a woman and femininity in general is not going to be what a lot of other peoples is and 2) im a few months out from getting a degree in gender studies. take that for what you will. no i will not be arguing about this in my inbox.

to be frank, in my opinion, bucky being female coded is bullshit. not only is it bullshit, i have seen it used as a weapon by so many white women and terfs that even if it were true, i wouldnt care! whoever came up with the term “woobify” (which i have most often seen used in reference to how tony stark is treated) needs to tell bucky stans that they aren’t exempt. a lot of them see bucky being a victim as something that needs a continuation into every other part of his life, hence why he’s so often put into these weird dynamics with his ships and given traits he’s never displayed on screen.

i keep thinking of disclaimers to make in anticipation of people coming to my inbox crying so here’s another: if you are a woman or someone who feels a close connection to certain parts of womanhood, me saying bucky isnt woman coded in no way takes away from you identifying with him or parts of his story. that is personal. a woman’s personal relation to him is not reliant on “woman coding” as i’ve seen a lot of white women and terfs suggest, not does it strengthen the existence of such coding. coding is created within the original media, not within the fandom.

i also just realized ive been using the term woman coded rather than female coded, but i think subconsciously there is a reason for that that ties into one of my main points pretty well: the mcu stan’s definition of “female” coding relies on stereotypes, not about female roles, but about what it means in their opinion to be a woman. the issue with this is they take traits they think only exist in (cishet) women and use them to deem these (cishet) male characters as woman coded when in fact these traits are not exclusive to women and enforce weird standards upon people who are women that might not be cis or het or share these traits!

tony stark being short and bucky having long hair is not what would make them woman coded. bucky being rescued by a man while woozy is not what would make him woman coded. bucky being submissive to pierce when LITERALLY BEING BRAINWASHED is not what would make him woman coded. and perhaps a harsh wake up call: bucky’s story hinging around loss of agency issues and trauma in no way shape or form is what would make him woman coded. does it perhaps make him easier for many women to relate to? yes. but is this something exclusive to women? no. a vast majority of trauma victims are going to relate to him, and chalking up trauma to being something female makes me feel really funny.

i know exactly what thread youre talking about lmfao and its right up there on my shit list next to the childlike bucky post. theyre actually very similar now that i think about it ... but anyways. now that ive listed my woes about what doesnt make a character woman coded, what actually would! AND HERE IS WHERE WE GET INTO AN ACTUAL CASE OF WOMAN CODING! mr prequel series anakin skywalker aka my shakespearean downfall dilf. why is he seen as a valid example of woman coding? i will tell you.

the thing about woman coding is that its meant to subvert heteronormative tropes while remaining self aware of that to exploit and emphasize the change. DO YOU HEAR ME? SELF AWARE! anakin is given many of these stupid stereotypical traits i mentioned before, but they arent reliant on physical appearance at all. they are reliant on roles. padme is the levelheaded senate leader, the one with power and stability, while anakin is hotheaded and frankly a bit whimsical while he struggles for his own type of power and control. another classic example of woman coding (which i actually wrote a paper on last semester in my men and masculinities class) is heathcliff from wuthering heights, whose counterpart to his coding is cathy. both men have that whimsicality in common that contrasts heavily with how we would expect them to act. bucky does not act like them at all.

the reason that this is different from bucky and steve’s ‘damsel in distress’ argument is the self awareness i mentioned before. not to mention the weird heteronormative standards being applied as requirements for their gay relationship to be seen as valid because it “fits the narrative” but .. anyways.

anakin and heathcliff both have their subverted traits played up in a way that shows off how ridiculous the women usually written in their roles are forced to act. its tongue in cheek, because woman coding is not only about individual traits, but about how the character interacts with the story because of this as a whole. bucky is often seen as woman coded because he is put into these situations where he is “rescued” by someone that half his stans see as his love interest (steve my baby im sorry) when hes really only rescued maybe twice? at azzano and from the water when the helicopter crashed. only one of those is a real damsel in distress situation. all of the others are cases where hes fighting his own way out ????? bucky doesnt just sit around waiting for a “real man” to get off his ass as that post suggested but i digress.

anyways. mcu stans lack any self awareness that would be required even if bucky and tony were woman coded. calling them woman coded does not count as self awareness! the real self awareness comes with recognizing that woman coding doesnt actually make these characters women and it doesnt mean they forever belong in these “female” roles. mcu stans take the stereotypes they pick out at face value and use them to say “look! bucky is a bottom!” or to continue taking away his agency by ignoring all of his other actions and traits that dont fit in to this mold theyve made around the idea that he needs a man to save him or boss him around. his story as a whole is the only thing that would make him woman coded and seeing as there is no self awareness of this shown, no attempts to subvert, he displays little to no traditionally feminine traits, and loss of agency on its own is not something that only applies to women ...

in short: in my opinion, bucky is not woman coded. mcu stans just like rolling with stereotypes that rely around cis bodies and straight relationships. the end.

#oh also woman coding does not make a mape character trans lmfaoooooo #thats frankly just insulting #trans men are not men with feminine traits please for the love of god shut up #anyways this is my opinion and you dont have to agree but cis people arent allowed to argue with me

[domesticangel]

I'm sorry if this ask makes you uncomfortable, I'm not sure, if it's something to discuss with strangers. But do you think there's a concrete way to tell your sexuality?

I've considered myself straight, since I've never felt romantic feelings towards women, but I had sexual fantasies about them even before I had them about men. Your Yugioh post made me remember hoping my barbies would turn alive to do horny things with them... And now, when I'm lucid dreaming (so it's conscious), I go for whoever there is, no matter the gender.

My confusion stems from being an extremely visually stimulated person, so even fashion Items or makeup can make me h word. So I'm really not sure if I'm bi-sexual, or just find women pretty and trying to be spicy straight.

Sorry again if it's inappropriate, I'm not sure who to even talk about this. And I'm not really in a place to find out through trial anytime soon lol

NAH YOURE FINE but its the kind of ask i could see making maybe someone else uncomfortable, so in the future you might wanna ask someone before sending something like this! but it doesnt bother me personally, so ill go ahead and answer ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

cramming under a cut since it got kinda long LOL

sooo i dont think for everyone sexuality is going to be a “concrete” thing. for some people it very much is, which is great, but for some people it can be very fluid and changing. i dont think either way is better than the other; they just Are. i only mention this bc i have also very much been where you are so i know it can be pretty stressful and frustrating, feeling like you cant even really tell what your own sexuality is, especially since my brain has never been the best at handling grey areas. i identified as bi for the vast majority of my life before realizing i was actually a lesbian. and i dont say that to equate bisexuality with confusion, but rather to illustrate just how long of a process really understanding the nuances of your own sexuality can be, and how truly normal and okay it is to explore different identities

i would suggest considering why you dont think youve ever had romantic feelings towards a woman or never could; this can actually be a very common thing for wlw bc of compulsive heterosexuality--women live their entire lives in a world that for the most part tells them that love between two women could never be “real” or romantic. its kinda like that whole messy stereotype that biphobes and homophobes like to propagate about bi people being confused, and that bi women are just confused straight women and bi men are just confused gay men. it centers around men. so when women’s sexualities have always been defined by their relationship to men, it can be really hard to figure out how you feel about people who ARENT men, and can def lead to the kind of confusion it sounds like youre having. mainstream Love as a concept is really so eaten up with heterosexual archetypes that they can muddy up your own feelings on what it means for you specifically to love someone regardless of their gender if that makes sense

re: visual stimulation: i think that can differ for everyone, and may or may not play a part in their sexuality. for example, you might become aroused because you associate fashion and makeup with women you find attractive/youre attracted to femininity, OR you might find them stimulating because of a certain mood or vibe they evoke for you, like feeling sexy, the idea of dolling yourself up for someone, etc. or it could very well be both!!!

just from what i can gather from this ask, it sounds to me like youre sexually attracted to women but struggling with figuring out the romantic side of things. ill make this clear first and foremost; i dont believe in the split attraction model, so im not positing youre “bisexual but heteroromantic” or anything like that. HOWEVER sometimes certain aspects of attraction as a whole are easier to parse than others. i know for sure that way before i ever considered IDing as a lesbian i was wildly physically attracted to women but really only gave credence to the crushes i got on men  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

tbh i wouldnt worry too much about it. and i dont mean that in a brushing off kind of way; more in a you absolutely have time to figure this out and explore your options type way. let yourself feel the way you feel about people, try to think about it without OVER thinking, and just be open to things. treat it like a journey at your own pace rather than a timed exam. if you dont want to figure things out by trial as you said right now or for a long time? thats fine. that option will always be waiting for you when youre ready for it. and remember, if bisexuality is something youre considering may be a proper fit, it doesnt have to be 50/50. you could be 90% attracted to people of different/dissimilar gender and 10% attracted to people of same/similar gender and you would still be 100% bi, not a “fake,” not spicy straight. try calling yourself bi. try calling yourself straight. see how it feels and if it fits. dont be afraid of thinking youre one thing and turning out to be the other. this isnt something you can get “wrong.” sexuality can be totally messy and confusing for a lot of people, even after you think youve gotten it all figured out; one of the best things about being alive is how you feel about and interact with other people, but thats such a vast and varied experience that its totally normal imo for it to be nonlinear and not always clear cut. either way your sexuality is yours to explore no matter where you end up

#txt #sorry this is so like long and meandering and possibly. not even helpful at all HJFGDSLKHDSKJFH

[that-one-weeb-but-starwars]

Okay guys because I guess it has to be said...

Yes I am a female writer, and yes I write both Male and Female reader inserts.

But no I am not part of the LGTBQ+ community, but do strongly support it.

Like be yourself I dont really care- but Im not gonna let other people bully others because of what they like- no thats not very welcome to chilis of anyone.

BUT that doesnt mean Im gonna let people of any community bully me- a straight person for writing LGTBQ+ content, or diffrent content in general

I have been harassed for writing male x male content as a straight female, people saying:

"Your not gay so you don't understand, so mind your own bussniess"

Or

"You're just getting horny off male on male content and your a sick peice of shit for that"

You're right I don't understand, but if you'd like to explain something I wrote wrong, or I have offended someone of any community please- tell me

And I can tell you one thing. I don't write male on male content because Im horny. I write male on male content, yes E for Everyone and 18+ content because I feel like the male x male content for male readers isnt as much as female content and would like to give the people who identify or are males that like males to be able to just hop on tumblr and go- Hey Male x male content. Thats me. I can read this without having to switch out she with he, and then have to rewrite a whole sex scene because theres only female readers. Get my jist?

But as an accepting of pretty much anything (you know stuff within reason) I believe that a male and male relationship shouldn't be much different than a female and female or male and female.

All should be carring and loving and supportive, and I understand each type of relationship has its differences such as coming out, and finding who you are and just so much more.

And as a content creator in general.

I am working on all reader inserts.

Currently I have only female and male readers with a sprinkle of gender netural, but am working on more such as Female x Female reader, readers that are Bi- or curious, readers that have trama, readers maybe that figure out they don't like sex, or readers that figure out they loved being railed, or readers that find they just need a hug, readers that dont understand others trama but would still like to help, readers that snap and turn, readers that like horror, readers that we can relate too- rather than the typical "perfect reader"

Because like I said before: I like to include everyone.

So-I mean if you wanna bully me for trying to include everyone- good for you? I dont know exactly I suppose.

Just. If you dont like my content block me or stay away from certain ones you don't like: as I keep saying everyone is trying to be included.

But thanks for reading this I appreciate it greatly and just know that whoever you are- whatever you are- how ever you got there- I got you and will support you

#im an author #author help #as an author #to my followers #to my readers #literally to anyone #x reader #male reader #female reader #for all the readers

[cloneslugs]

yayoi + shinada + saejima

saejima i did forever ago just bc ik if i answered yours firsy w all 3 this would be ill but it still got too long bc im a sicko but anyway thank you this made me smile to write (:

Lady Dojima 

Sexuality Headcanon: bisexual 

Gender Headcanon: 🙈 lady . this actually fluctuates depending on how indulgent i wanna be but usually i just go cis woman -_- just bc that's my mom who would love and support me 

A ship I have with said character: erm.. *blushes* kashiwagi >_>

A BROTP I have with said character: kashiwagi as well :) that's her best friend thats her buddy, she has a really good relationship w kiryu too but it's different it's like a different tier entirely it's more familial in a sense but it isnt but it is, i also would like to explore her relationship w nishiki (apart from kiryu) but that is just (:, her and haruka would be cute too just bc <3 extended family 

A NOTP I have with said character: sera just bc the theories around it get on my nerves, any other man people pair her w tbh besides my beloved <3

A random headcanon: shes kind of a weird girl outside of professional settings i think the blunt way she talks is kind of offputting outside of those and also she just doesnt censor herself not that shes crude but she wont stop herself from saying weird or mean things, she has a really sarcastic sense of humor she delivers everything really dryly so it's hard to tell if shes serious or not also she doesnt laugh a lot you'll probably only make her laugh if you are close w her and even then she is just ._., daigo picks up a lot of his mannerisms from her if you see them next to each other in the same situation they are very very close and similar, she likes strawberry shortcake but shes very particular about it her like former bff ran a bakery and it feels homey and nice to her so <3 fond memories but now shes particular, her favorite flower bouquets are roses + hydrangeas but she doesn't really like roses on their own, she likes cats, she doesnt like cooking but she isnt bad at it, shes very meticulous about how she presents/looks, she has a similar academic bg w daigo, shes self taught w a katana mostly + she practices w it to destress, shes not social but shes kind of chatty if you catch her at the right time but she mostly just asks a lot of questions and doesnt engage in convo well, she likes dresses/skirts but mostly dresses <3, very close w daigo i think he really was one of those kids who was like "my mommy is my best friend <3" but they're very close that's her baby shes very proud of him and they are still close now, shes otherwise not very good w kids i think kind of awkward daigo was her exception everyone else she is just kind of … … …, she likes to sing/hum (: but only when alone/doing menial tasks

General Opinion over said character: i looooove her shes my everything i just care so deeply about her i cant even call her my friend i respect her too much shes a little bit above me but <3 hi lady dojima ik ive said this before and its so embarrassing but i get like >///< *blushes irl* if i think about calling her yayoi or god forbid a milf or anything it feels too disrespectful im so >_> anyway hiii i love you 

Shinada

Sexuality Headcanon: homosexual but hes so so repressed but he loves men 

Gender Headcanon: trans guy (: 

A ship I have with said character: 😏 daigo 

A BROTP I have with said character: not including daigo um akiyama (: the whole 5 party really saejima likes to look out for him and kiryu is also there and hed be a cute big bro to haruka 

A NOTP I have with said character: mine but its almost allowed bc of how laughable and mockable and ridiculous it is also any polyam ships that involve well.  you know.. 

A random headcanon: autism (: baseball special interest that started when he was like 7 and never went dormant ever, hes bad w time and remembering things he just loses track of everything, he sleeps a lot and can sleep anywhere but if hes not sleeping he has to be doing something like anything, he likes to paint his nails mostly green but sometimes he lets daigo do black, bad at math but he likes writing a lot just in general sometimes he writes little notes/poems/thoughts/stories on his scrap paper when hes procrastinating work they're nothing special so he doesnt even really acknowledge that he likes writing he usually just scraps them or forgets about them it's just for fun, he likes to impress people if someone mentions being into something he tries to get into it too i think hes just a people pleaser, he likes to sing (: also just for fun he doesnt care about being good he'll do it when walking around or when doing literally anything he doesnt care about being loud/obnoxious in public if hes in a good/energetic mood, he cant cook mostly bc he has trouble paying attention to things for a while he gets bored and forgets about stuff, he forgets to cut his hair a lot so it gets long sometimes and he just ties it up until he actually gets around to doing something about it, very friendly he says hi to everyone and is the kind of person to not disclude people ever hes just very kind, he doesnt hold his alcohol well he gets sick pretty fast, hes very good at talking baseball/batting specifically but not very good at teaching or hes not very practical about it at least hes actually better at giving pitching tips, he has weird volume control i think its actually the opposite of daigos, hes a hugger (:, kind of really bad w social cues hes really social but can be awkward he tends to talk too much, he procrastinates a lot but hes also just a "drop everything to come and help" kind of guy maybe he doesnt prioritize well but he just cares about people like he is kind of finicky for money but hes also the type to give up his jacket if someone needs it or lend things out when he can, hes not good at picking up hobbies sometimes girls/friends get him stuff like a plant or some kind of craft kir or something and it's not like he doesnt take care of it/do anything w it he just cant hold an interest he wanted to get into music/instruments once though but it's expensive and then he eventually stopped caring/forgot, he shares his food w street animals when he can, he can either sit through movies or he can't it's either like "if im idle too long ill die" or just intense focus, he smiles a lot it's like his default face but he also smiles/laughs when hes nervous, he takes lots of pictures hes the kind of person to just message out of the blue w a pic saying it reminded him if you even if you dont make the connection and maybe it's just bc he thinks about people when walking around and he'll see something pretty/nice/cute or that just makes him smile so he needs to share it w whoever was on his mind he does it w the rgg5 crew and akiyama doesnt get it but hell send like a thumbs up or some blingee bedazzled stupid pic back + kiryu usually ignores him but deep down he thinks its sweet and maybe says "thanks." but feels too awkward to send a pic of the kids or the beach back + saejima usually sends a cat picture back or just says "okay" or ignores it + haruka always sends something back and kind of does the same thing w shinada now where she'll send him things if she thinks of him bc he started it

General Opinion over said character: he makes me so happy i love him so much hes just sweet and <3 i love you you make my heart feel <3 nice and sweet and kind i love you you mean the world to me you make me so emo i wahhhh i love you <3

#asks #rgg txt #<3 i love you <3 im glad i got to do my faves w you they make me (: loses it a little.. #SORRY I DIDN'T KNOW THE SHINADA ONE GOT SO LONG WTF #i was like okay dont add more on lady dojima now it will be obnoxious but i kept going okay just one more for shinada .. but wlel um..

[venusmages]

THAT BEING SAID, heres my list of criticisms for CP2077 so far because i’m not just blindly praising it. under a readmore for a few spoilers, one major character spoiler so if you’re playing don’t read this until youre finished with act 1

this isnt bringing into the account of the criticisms console players are talking about bc im on PC, but i completely agree with frustrated console players about launch being a mess.

the fact that they cut you being able to take jackie with you to go meet with meredith is really frustrating. i wonder if they lost time and it broke something because it was in the gameplay demo from a while back.

on the same vein, t-bugs ‘death’ was so sudden and fast that i didn’t even register it as her supposedly dying until v brings it up later in the level. i thought she had just gotten hurt and booted from the program. if she’s actually dead i’m going to be incredibly disappointed and its going to be one of my few genuine sour notes on the game.

the romances are laughably inserted and shouldn’t have even been part of marketing in my opinion. from my understanding it looks like they’re all sidequests and there’s only like four of them total anyways. dont bother if your v isnt into one of the two options they have and just pretend youre kissin whoever you want lol

takemuras introduction was amazing but i feel like i missed a dialog somewhere that explained why he ended up getting chased by arasaka so fast after the events of act 1. i know his motivation but am a little confused about whats going on.

in the same vein, some optional dialog choices don’t actually feel optional if you don’t want to feel like you’re missing context for whats going on. i don’t mean this in a lore way, i mean this in a basic narrative way. 

i like that v clearly has their own personality that you kinda tweak and manipulate through your own actions, like with geralt in the witcher series. however i completely understand if people were lead to believe they’d be getting COMPLETE FREEDOM and are let down by the reality of V being a slightly less mailable character. as someone who likes witcher and the dragon age and mass effect series i’m okay with my oc having a pre-ordained personality but marketing could easily have misled people to believe otherwise and thats a totally valid complaint.

i love jackie to DEATH and hes one of the most likable videogame characters ever. however i do wonder sometimes if he suffers from ‘bilingual people don’t talk like that’ syndrome. it can get kinda muddy given how translators work in this universe.

in the same vein i think some of the calls for the game being transphobic or misogynist are overblown but i feel like part of it is the game might not be properly relaying that the overly sexual, violent, objectifying advertisements in 2077 is actually part of the lore and not CD trying to be cheeky ala Saints Row. Its a crit on consumerism and how desensitized the populace of the future gets to hatred, violence, and sex that it has to be overblown to the point of ludicracy. it might not translate for someone who hasn’t taken the time to look into the lore or familarize themselves with the vibe of the series before picking up the game. YES it is incredibly gritty and dark, but thats the point. However I think that fact needed to be communicated better because it just won’t be palatable for some people. Its stuff like this that makes me think we really need content warnings ALA fanfic for... all media, really. its a good idea. i could see the ‘fuckable piece of meat’ line being genuinely terrifying for some people and it comes out of nowhere. I like dark media and content but i don’t know if the game properly conveys beforehand that this is a BLEAK. world. BLEAK. 

i also think, unfortunately, its clear the team was crunched and ran out of time for a lot of things they wanted to add into the game. i feel like tying gender to v’s voice was the most elegant solution they had considering all of the voicelines in game. not saying it’s the best solution, but i’m glad they did that rather than tie it to body type or genetalia.

that being said i wish you could have a biotic pussy or dick in this game just bc that would be some cool transhumanism. same in general i wish you could replace limbs or eventually get more cyberware options that changed how you look.

I’m glad they’re gonna fix the epilepsy trigger but I’m also surprised and disappointed no one caught that might be a problem earlier on. I wonder what play testing was like.

Also glad the dev team isnt going to be treated like the new vegas team and they’re getting their bonus regardless of the game’s review score. that’s some stupid bullshit but every publisher does that shit unfortunately.

the fact you cant change your makeup, cybernetics, or hair after the start is dumb and i hope they fix that.

the c key being for crouching AND skipping dialogue is inelegant to say the least. you can fix it in settings for skipping dialogue to be ‘hold c’ but it shouldn’t have been an issue in the first place.

ai definitely wasnt finished and it shows. largely in how theres clearly no AI driving and how cops feel half-implimented.

managing stash is CONFUSING. so is the hacking minigame until you get used to it.

it is a LITTLE apparent that you’re going to go into Cutscene Time because characters tell you to sit somewhere specific. However once you’re in those locked scenes the game is still super immersive and beautiful so it’s not too bad.

i don’t understand why youd buy a car when you have one already and a motorcycle but i’ll still probably shop around for funsies

combat definitely feels floaty but ive played bethesda games and nothing can be as bad as those so its fine for me.

i know there’s more but thats what i have so far. I’m having a great time but those are my Thots.

#cyberpunk 2077

[smllgrlbigwrld]

25 Reasons To Love Harry Styles.

just a few of my own personal reasons why i think harry is the best human to ever exist in this world.

1. He accepts people for who they are no matter what and doesn’t discriminate against any of his fans or just people in general. And he proves it when he said this, “I love every single one of you. If you are black, if you are white. If you are gay, if you are straight, if you are transgender. Whoever you are, whoever you want to be. I support you. I love every single one of you.”

2. He isn’t afraid to wear bold articles of clothing and that really encourages me to do the same. As someone who lives & breathes fashion, it means the world to me that he expresses himself through clothes and does not care one bit what people have to say. It’s so powerful.

3. His songs (anything he’s written before his solo career as well) speaks to so many people on many different levels. Music itself is so compelling in general so I think its beautiful that Harry allows us to feel a variety of emotions through his music / lyrics.

4. He treats people with kindness. That alone is amazing and shows how much love and sympathy he has for people around him. Harries are honestly the best and kindest people ever because like....look at our teacher!!! :’) 

5. His sense of humor is the best. His jokes are iconic and he’s honestly a living meme. Such a relatable king!!!! I love when he says slang words haha he knows all the terms I know he does!!! When he says “sis” it’s the cutest thing ever.

6. As much as people like to treat him like absolute shit sometimes and say cruel and obnoxious remarks at him, he never retaliates in a way that hurts that person. He is such a strong person and he handles negativity so well which is so hard I bet, but he does it. He is such a good person and it makes me want to cry.

7. His confidence. I remember that video of him crying because he didn’t know why people hated him and I remember feeling his pain because of how much he was hurt by it. But Harry now? Such a confident and carefree person that knows his worth. “I’m still the only one who’s been in love with me.” 

8. He is soooo incredibly wise for his age and just in general. The way he formulates sentences and his intelligence amazes me. He knows exactly what he’s talking about and what’s going on in the World. 

9. He does everything he can to make us feel safe at concerts and even when people are hugging him he makes sure to make them feel loved. Always. 

10. His speaking voice can calm so many people and its true!!! There are literally videos on youtube of harry talking for like 20 minutes straight haha. He would be so amazing at ASMR lol. I especially like this interview because he’s talking like the whole entire time w no interruptions!   

11. He knows how to put on a damn show! If you’ve been to a show of his then you know what I’m talking about! (and if you have not, I am sending you so many good vibes rn that you can go to one next time!!!! <3) 

12. The way he loves his family is so beautiful. He is so respectful to Anne and Gemma and I’m 10000% sure everyone else in his family. That right there is a MAN!!!!! 

13. He doesn’t start drama or spill “tea” and honestly I think that’s the best thing about him. He knows what to say and what not to say, especially being in the public eye. Like yes he can be sneaky but he doesn’t start like full on beef ya know!!! (I’m sure as hell he spills tea with his friends though! good for him tbh) 

14. He has this vibe about him that makes people automatically feel happy and safe. Anybody that talks about him always says nice things about him and when friends and fans dedicate posts to him, its always nothing but great things! 

15. He isn’t afraid to break gender norms which is freakin’ AMAZING. 

16. He always dedicates an instagram post to every show he does and even shares photos of himself backstage so we can have a little glimpse into his world. It’s so intimate and special to me!!! :’) they may not be selfies but the kissy photo was good enough!!! Like BTA was a gift from God tbh!!! still salty ab the tour doc tho.

17. Anything he does is actual gold. He takes his time on creating music and perfecting his craft which is hot... lol. He knows he has talent and he wants to put out his best work and abilities. He always manages to do so!!! That’s why he’s in Japan still yall ;) 

18. He proved to everyone that he is a good actor!!!! He really did that huh? And that was his first major film like damn... he really made jaws drop and people fall even more in love with him. actor!harry RISE!!!!

19. He is the same exact person on stage AND off stage. I am so endeared by this omg. Like when we got the Christmas hontent??? He was literally the same goof ball that we all know and love. He is completely himself and I love him so much for opening up a little more to us. *cough medicine cough*

20. He goes through little phases in his outfits and accessories and it is the cutest thing in the world!!! His hats??? UGH I CRY!! I love that he tries new looks for awhile and switches back & forth with some pieces :’) esp rings!

21. The way he dances!!!! Especially the wmyb dance during every show! PLEASE!!!! I am so happy I was able to witness this iconic dance of his. He really isnt afraid to jump around and sway his hips to the beat and show off his fantastic moves.

22. He wears glasses that we very much deserve to see him more in. Like why do people suddenly have flip phones when he’s wearing glasses?? IDGI. Like we have a few photos of him in his glasses yes, but Im gonna need a few more y’all! He probably wears them all the time though :( 

23. He loves CHILDREN & BABIES!!! He is going to be such a great dad one day and god my heart cannot take it at all. He is going to teach them so many things and be such a role model to them. They are going to adore and cherish him so so so much. 

24. His tattoos are another way he speaks. They each have stories I’m sure that are either silly or serious and I think that’s beautiful! He can share these stories with his children or just simply look at them and remember a time in his life. 

25. He loves us. He absolutely LOVES us. I think he loves us more than we love him to be honest. You can tell how genuine he is when he says he loves us and he’s is thankful for us. He loves to perform for us, talk to us, hug us, and know us. 

#harry styles #25 #IF YOU READ THIS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I WANTED TO CRY THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME!!!!!

[nacrepearl]

Thank you for being open! My biggest question is about understanding your gender. I know it’s probably different for everyone, but, do you feel like something is wrong in your body? Also, is the word transgender offensive? I’ve seen some things saying that FTM, MTF, trans*, and transgender are words that are touchy/offensive for people. Would that be a case-by-case basis? As in, whoever you’re talking to tells you what they’re okay with?

Some trans people feel gender dysphoria, which is the feeling that something isnt right with your body (in simple terms, if someone was born with a vagina but is a boy or vice versa, theyll feel like their AGAB is wrong). It does depend on the person with some terms, but typically “transgender” isn’t offensive since its a descriptor word. Words that ARE offensive are slurs ofc, misgendering (he thinks hes a girl!! or she thinks shes a boy!! etc), or saying “transgendered” (that ones just,, an Irk for me. it doesnt sound nice). but yeah, id ask on an individual basis to be sure!

Nonbinary identities are more varied because theyre a whole spectrum of gender identities that are defined by the person themself–agender, demi boy/girl, bigender, etc are all under the umbrella. Nonbinary means “not a binary gender” so not man or woman, trans or not. Enbies fall under the trans umbrella though.

Personal experiences for me were more of an experiment, i was never really happy with my body because i knew after i finished puberty id be different and looked at in different ways (some not nice ways). im afab, i like my body generally, but my nonbinary experience has been “i want nothing, i want to be sexless” and “i like when people dont know what gender i am when looking at me.” my “wrong feeling” is also heavily defined by trauma which made me feel unsafe having a vagina, and i think a bit of my upbringing had to do with it since most of my cousins are boys (i have 13 cousins, only 2 are girls and only three are younger than me (2 boys and a girl though); and i have a brother) so most of my handmedowns were boy’s clothing and i would play rough with them and look up to them instead of doing girly things. i still loved my barbies tho. but that isnt to say bringing your child up as a certain gender affects them completely, but in my case i think it had a hand in doing so. 

#asks #anonymous

[mechecolomar-archive]

"wyman wouldnt have been a THING" oh hey there's a shitty thing to say about a nonbinary character, just sayin'

this is so funny... wyman is a terrible excuse for representation because the few mentions of their existence is entirely missable, you can go throughout the whole game without ever knowing emily has a love interest, and they dont even have a canon appearance/gender.

AND wyman being nonbinary isnt even a concrete fact, adam christopher specifically said: “Wyman's gender is purposefully left unsaid, yes. Let your headcanon go wild” saying whoever can headcanon wyman is just christopher/arkane studios not wanting to take a stance. you obviously can headcanon them as nb, but as he said, its a headcanon... someone else can say, “hey i think wyman is a man” Christopher could have said “wyman is nonbinary and doesnt use he or she” but instead he basically said “its up to you!!”

my point is you could have had a much much better, memorable, character, but no

#ask #tumblr...is really just something else #me: i dont like this character bc they add nothing and is a poor excuse for representation #this anon: so youre saying you wan to get rid of this character.. BECAUSE THEYRE NONBINARY?! #next time maybe say 'why dont you like the character wyman' #but no gkjdfsd #gotta send a message on anon #tumblr!! #i mean if im wrong about what he said somehow then ok but like #still could have had the character show up?? #given them a face maybe?? #but idk i looked up his exact words and #also wyman's been misgendered as a man multiple times in versions of the books/games so they probably feel that way anyways #Anonymous #anon

[thegurlbehindthesmile]

Head Storm.

If i don't take minute to write these things down they just weigh so heavy. where do i begin.

i'm frustrated.

sometimes its like a repeating nightmare. Its me and brian and we are on a 13 hour flight to Germany. this double decker plane is huge and filled with strangers and i cant see their faces. i know our destination is a long way away. im tired. and there we are in the middle row. u next to me and me on the isle. We're sharing your blue ipod with music i never really listen to and this is the moment im stuck in.

for a minute my body goes into drive. at first you think the dream would play out as i remember, but this isnt a memory its a dream and now that im more aware- more awake within the dream; im always asking myself.

why am i here? wheres juan? wheres julian? (thats right this is a dream/ im sleeping)

and i realize im meant to doo something. and i go and look at brian and its not the same. i can barely see his face and i no longer remeber the sound of his voice. its as if im stuck in my seat.

the dream is almost paused- as i struggle to put these pieces of the real memory back together. its like im waiting. im waiting for brian to speak first. im just sitting here. on this plane.

i went to russia in 2005. the trip was from philly airport to germany than germany to russia.

it was for a youth peace team mission. we met up with kids our age over there and talked about religion and life. it wasnt just us two- we had a team of our friends and it was amazing.

It was the first time i had left the country- it was the first time i had flown without my mom. first time i felt homesick. the first time i saw how big the world really is. how there is so much to see and so much going on. it was an experience.

i never knew Demisexual was a thing. (The term 'demisexual' comes from the concept being described as being "halfway between" sexual and asexual. ... The gray-A spectrum usually includes individuals who very rarely experience sexual attraction; they experience it only under specific circumstances.)

i didnt even know what sexual was- i was young naive and anything i did know about sex and beauty most likely came from the wrong place. i managed to get all the way to freshman year of highschool without really relationships that included sexual and non sexual.

freshman year was horrible. i was the new girl becuase i didnt attend the same middle school as the other kids and my prior school was MUCH smaller than the highschool i went to. but i was excited for the change. i asked for the change.

its easy to say "well idk?" when u have lack of experience. Idk why i was single so long. idk why i never wanted a bf. idk why i have never kissed anyone idk? idk? idk? (...now i know) my first thoughts were always like omg maybe noone wanted to kiss me? maybe im the weird one. less desired. not wanted. i was the problem. i imagined my body was less than perfect and i guess my attitude and demenor wasnt the dating type (lies) i just felt weird and alone.

sometimes people cant make a sexual connection unless they have an emotional connection with someone as well. it isnt prude it isnt wierd its just how it works (literally) the better and more i get to know you i can finally start feeling any real connection at all especially sexually.

this new demisexual wasnt even a thing until i was half way through my twenties...THAT and pansexual (not limited in sexual choice with regard to biological sex, gender, or gender identity.) people would ask "well whats ur type?!" idk id say?? i didnt even realize internally i found both sexs appealing. not even just sexs just ANYone. hearts not parts we say now.

i was basiclly lost ,frustrated and didnt understand a damn thing about myself.

brian and i were friends. we went to the same church- we lived in the same town. our families knew each other. it was a very safe space for me. i didnt think brian liked me. ( i didnt think ANYONE liked me; that way anyway) i had guy friends i had girl friends i just felt like we were all at the same level. most my girl friends had kissed people, most had bfs; same with the guys. i just didnt... it wasnt that i didnt like brian- i just had no idea what any of this stuff was. how to even begin "liking someone" i wasnt stupid - i was scared? i felt scared. worried that becase i hadnt had the experiences - that i wasnt good at ANY of it. i got to know brian because he was around. youth group trips and church events ; school- we were always hanging around each other.

i was never a physical person. honestly self pleasure was the only pleasure i knew and i thought id be going to hell for masturbating so theres that complex. a secret i held tight forever.

i didnt know the more i talked and was around brian i would fall inlove with him. people SAYYY that- but in my world it was a must. it was inevitable. as long as he was open with me and vulnerable- i began to want him.

he was my first kiss. and he let me kiss him. it might of seemed innocent ( i mean it was really) but it was big for me. the only person in the world i had let in. and he was ready to reak havoc on my new world. kisses lead to make outs- making out lead to sex- and that was that. id say i was his or he was mine but i guess we were each others. i wasnt ready to do this with anyone else. i didnt think i even could. it took so long for brian to become this person for me. i was..postive; id make this love last a life time. but that wasnt the case it was a rocky 3 years but at the end of it i personally learned alot.

i still didnt know all that i said above. on my rocky one relationship road... i was frustrated. i didnt know these things existed and while life seemed easy for brian- it was not for me. i struggled and argued with myself resulting in very poor communication with brian leading to only end in sight. if i wasnt making an emotional connection with my person then it had to be the opposite; i wasnt interested at all. almost the opposite- i felt nothing.

i let the hurt find its way in- i let it block any form of fix. the emotions were turned off. and the result was sexless.

i went on a rampage and found a random lover. Peter was ..peter. i didnt know him prior to meeting him- i barely knew much about him at all. all i knew was i was numb and needed to feel again. ( now if only i had known who i was i would of tried to build and talk through these emotions, break some walls down. reopen the lines. reconnect and succeed. but i didnt know that. all i knew was i was hurting and i nolonger had my person- i wanted to feel again.) i wouldnt even say i was attracted to peter. i really wasnt "looking" at all. i wasnt looking with my eyes or my heart.

i was already pretty good at hurting myself just plain jane. but this was a whole different world. what if i could just have sex and not care. just do it and live. just feel something. and i did it. i found peter and yeah we had sex. i was postive i didnt want a relationship ( i was heading down the wrong road in the wrong direction WITH no directions) it was a mess. a mess that didnt last long (thankfully)

i look back at it now and would like to have lunch with peter. although im sure im a spek of nothing in his life stream; he was a pretty big rock in mine. mainly to say sorry. sorry for using him. more sorry that i had no intentions at all. i was a shell of person and im sorry he never got the chance to meet the true me. cuz im not that person at all. and i think he was geniune and we could of learned alot from each other.

i am 30 years old now and still to this day brian and peter are the only people ive slept with except my current husband.

ive trusted 2 (brian and juan) of those souls with my heart. my whole heart. ive been with them to the extent i lost myself. my body has craved them and known them. and they will forever have a piece of me. they took with them what insecurities i had and threw them out the window. i was engulfed and loved and it didnt stop. i had alot of sex with brian as i currently have alot of sex with juan (my husband)

if i had known who i was then i would of talked to more people. resulting in more meaningful connections. resulting in more stories and experiences to tell about. girls guys gays all different kinds of souls i would of touched and danced with. but i didnt know what i know now.

time has given me the learning ive neeeded and now i know alot.

as my nightmare continues its me and brian sitting on a 13 hour plane. i want to ask him how he is, and what hes doing. what other souls hes experienced and what life is like for him now. we would laugh and joke and unerstand that life goes on and although we are not lovers any longer we wouldnt be who we are without having known each other. on this plane its noone but us. reality doesnt hit because its just a distraction and we just want to catch up.

its like a clock is ticking and were anxious. as if he too knows this is a dream, a mear astroprojection into a memory. and noone talks. we both stay silent. its almost like i cant breathe.. its almost like im drowning.

i havent spoken to brian in atleast 10 years possibly. not a single word. across the universe is a soul i once loved wholefully and now were strangers. i think a piece of me hurts still today. like a lost limb. how can i go through life and succeed at only making connections that count when my first connection is fried and dead.

how do i begin to process the things i now understand when one small piece of me is gravitating through space.

i was told not to long ago that you are infact alive. simply living- trying to stay to urself.

as this new person i am. as i am learning and growing. you were a big part of who i was- i wish u could see who ive become. my soul acknowledges your absence and i am aware of it.

i hope love and light find you on ur dark days. and that you follow that light to become whoever you are meant to be.

[guac-da-human5]

Thinking about a movie thing where this girl finds a girlfriend that’s like kind of immortal and they’re happy for a few centuries (immortal girlfriend passes on a bit of magic to her). But then something happens, and immortal gf has to leave/sacrifice herself to save girl and so she resides forever in this like otherworld.

Girl is left immortal until she finds another lover, but she’s so desperate to find immortal gf she doesn’t give up for centuries. Eventually she does give up and lives miserably in an apartment with a new life as an, i dont know, realtor. But she bumps into this guy one day and they become friends and she finds herself falling in love but she’s scared because of the guilt she carries from immortal gf.

She partially confides in the guy, and to her surprise, he feels the same. His mother passed away a few years ago and he had never been able to scrub off the guilt of it. He then very carefully sprinkles in the idea of magic to travel to this world so he can meet his mother again, and the girl is like, “wow that sounds great” thinking about immortal gf and her baggage so she’s a bit aloof throughout all this.

After like a few months pass, they still aren’t really dating, their relationship is pretty ambiguous because they’re both still dealing with their shit. The guy takes it upon himself to travel to this otherworld a friend told him about to see his mother again so they can finally move on in their relationship, because the guy thinks it is his fault they are static as of right now.

So he travels to the otherworld (he lets the girl know and she’s like okay, she either thinks he’s going to take drugs??? Or he’s actually going to do magic and she wishes him luck with maybe a charm).

Bam he’s in the otherworld, he meets his guide and friend for the rest of the way and is warned about the big scary monster/deity that resides here to protect everything. Guy is freaked out a little because he thought it was just going to be an easy get-in-see-mamá-then-get-out kind of thing. They go on an adventure of course (yall can add details to this mess if you want) and they reach some kind of climax where they run into the big scary gender-ambiguous deity.

They go “oh shit” but yay character development the guy bravens up and is like “i know you’re like a god so please dont hurt us we all know you’re a bug softie uwu” but it doesnt work out the first few minutes and they play hide and go seek for a bit before he drops his charm. By now his character goal has gone wonked a bit so he actually is a bit resolved already, he doesnt really need to see his mother. He yeets over to save the charm the girl gave him even thought gnf deity is right there ready to s n a t c h him. The deity snatches him anyway lol and inspect him. I dont know, she has some kind of purpose she needs to serve like taking souls or whatever but something else less cliché.

The deity then sees his charm and instantly recognizes it. Deity snatches the charm and drops the guy (from like 10 feet high big oofa). The charm turns out to be a fragment of the deity’s necklace?? thing that is really long and big so it covers their entire chest (binder??). Deity goes through a whole ass thing, which for us watchers we see a big flashback of someone’s life—sURPRISE SURPRISE IT’S THE GIRL’S LIFE.

The deity is the long lost immortal gf and before she had to live in the otherworld forever, she gave a charm to the girl so if they ever meet again (which she thought would most likely be in the otherworld) the immortal gf could see the girl’s life and see whoever the girl loved after her. The deity ceases its monsterly behavior and transforms into a being recognizable to the guy (because he’s human and they’re another species duh). They (yeah their pronouns are they/them now) talk a bit about the girl and kind of cries a bit thinking about her. They turn to the guy and they ask if he is her lover now. The guy is a little hesitant, but shyly says yes. The deity thanks him for taking care of the girl and returns the charm to him. They say to capture more memories so when they come to the otherworld, they can all look over it happily. The guy is a little freaked out because he didnt know that the gf the girl was talking about was an immortal god but agrees to the idea anyways (he takes it pretty well lol).

He does finally meet his mother and they talk and have their moment of “it’s not your fault, mijo, i died because people are stupid. It was years ago, please move on. Te quiero con todo mi corazón.” (Major feels, his character is now completely finished). But all that’s left is now the girl.

The guy says bye to his friend, mamá, and the immortal gf, and goes back to his world. He gets back to wherever he first went into the portal from, maybe one of his bros’ home. He says later and runs back home, but stops right in front of his door (idk if i said this before but even though their relationship is uncertain they did move with each other, idk what the reason might be whatever you think makes sense). He wants to just stop and take everything in, before entering his home. The girl isnt home yet so there’s a bit of pause in the movie so the audience can have this cooling down.

It’s late, the environment is dimmed, not dark enough for the lights to be on yet. The girl finally comes back home and she’s like, “oh hey you’re home! Welcome back, how was it?” but she says all this very gently and warmly it just makes you feel so fuzzy. She sits where he sits on the floor (idk country they are in but in my mind they’re sitting because i grew up in an asian household). They talk about the guy’s adventure and how he saw his mamá and all that. But then he pauses and very carefully tries to tell the girl about her immortal gf.

Here’s a line that really got to me when I was first thinking about this whole thing:

“I also saw her.” His head is down but his eyes look up to the girl, carefully studying her reaction. Her face falls flat and she stares past him, to the point of zoning out.

“She remembers you. And she still loves you.”

She hears this and tears instantly form in her eyes. He rushes around the table and lets her collapse in his arms as she starts sobbing, using his rounded body to give her as much comfort as he can in this moment. They hold each other tight as he begins to cry too. He doesn’t know why, maybe he really is a big empath. But he remembers the words of his mamá and understands. He whispers them to her.

“Thank you,” she chokes out.

AND THAT IS IT. THAT’S IT. THE CREDITS ROLL AND THERE’S PHOTOS OF THE TWO AND THE LIFE THEY LIVE.

THEY HAVE DOGS. THEY HAVE KITTIES. THEY GET A BIRD BECAUSE WHY NOT. NO KIDS THO NO MORE OF THAT TROPE.

And then after credits, it shows the otherworld, and immortal gf becomes friends with that friend the guy meets when he first came into the otherworld. Their boss or whatever (again idk how this world works) is like, “yo there’s two people that want to see you or whatever.” And immortal gf smiles.

And that’s it. Thanks for reading this -3-

#im so sorry this is so long jdkskhd #but i needed to get this out #i would write a fic but im not really into writing for the time being #have a nice day i love you whoever is reading this 💖