#this made me cry 5 fucking times

[radiostaticcc]

Drifting Home

I’ve just finished watching Drifting Home and i am absolutely shattered. I cried like 5 times?? 

The whole movie just felt so? I don’t know how to describe it. It’s just, it hurt so much but it also made me feel happy? The movie felt like a dream idk. And all the characters are so good, like actually, all of their friendships made me sob in the best way possible. Especially Natsume, Kousuke and Noppo’s bond???? It was so heart wrenching, like?? Genuine shivers. 

The story in itself is also REALLY interesting. The whole concept of an entire building suddenly floating on the sea and no one know how it happened? And everyone seems to see stuff from their memories? And again, the relationships between the characters are so well done. Like, they do act and feel like 11 year olds, and that just made it 100 times more intense? methinks. Like they’re so young, they’re literal babies. /affectionate

And also can we talk about the ANIMATION????? Absolutely fucking gorgeous, i’ll never get over it. It had this Studio Ghibli atmosphere in some moments, especially this one!!

The color palettes, the lights, everything!!

Honestly i suck at reviews, simply because most of the time i can’t describe how i’m feeling, but yeah, this movie was so good, genuienly. It made me feel so sad for so many reasons but a good kind of sad? Is that even a thing? 

YES also the character designs??? They all look so cute ahh! My favorite one was definitely Noppo! Second fav might be Taishi?? THEY ALL LOOK GREAT IT’S HARD TO CHOOSE!!!!

Btw i’m pretty sure Yuzuru’s voice actor is also Izuku’s??? WHICH MADE ME MELT especially since they kinda have the same personality?? 

Um idk what else to add haha. I could add on about everyone’s relationship with each other and the whole found family trope that i absolutely adore, and how they’re all blushing all the time which is also super adorable!!! And uh Noppo pains me like i love him so much he’s my blorbo!!!! He needs to be hugged. THE LOVE HE HOLDS FOR KOUSUKE AND NATSUME PAINS ME SO MUCH!!! It’s soooo i don’t even know anymore. I think i should stop writing or i’ll go on forever and no one will want to read all that!! Sorry!!

#drifting home #ame wo tsugeru hyouryuu danchi #natsume #kosuke #noppo #taishi #yuzuru #netflix #please watch this movie #reina #juri #anime #review of sorts #movie review #i suck at reviews its just me rambling #this movie made me sad but again i always am #this made me cry 5 fucking times #its a lot #for a 2 hour movie

[astranauticus]

Do mechanites cry?

#rolling with difficulty #vrla rwd #mrsn rwd #vr la rwd #mr sn rwd #art i made #yet another thing i drew then just fully forgot to post LMAO #man i had to listen to 3.7 like 3 times for this. goddammit #easter egg: the 4 big infernal books in the shelf all say contract law like its a textbook series i guess #the small one next to them says Doctor Faustus bc i was looking to my irl bookcase for inspiration #and the christopher marlowe play was one of my alevel lit texts #also i think it would be really funny if the devils have their own version of the story of the deal with the devil guy #honestly this may have been the kinda. last straw of my burnout cuz this was a lot of time spent on a lot of stuff im really not good at #and none of it turned out... exactly how i wanted but oh well. it is what it is #ok the kinda annoying thing about me spending far too fucking long drawing super emotional scenes like this is i kinda #desensitise myself to whatever im drawing. like i felt it the most with the demon possession comic i casually tossed into the discord #bc thats the exact kinda angst i personally LOVE but it just doesnt have the same punch after ive been staring at it for 5 hours straight #(anyway go read cal's fic about it its on ao3 and its bloody good) #all this to say. when i first listened to 3.7 and austin had that exchange of like #'noir can i ask you a lore question' 'sure..?' 'do mechanites cry?' #i straight up got fuckin CHILLS. and sometimes i forget that but i try to force myself not to

[kazieka]

made a voluntary phone call for the first time since I was 15 today boys !!!

#lindsey shut up #personal milestone unlocked!!! #literally my life has improved 200% since getting on medication for anxiety #10/10 would recommend #no panic no oh god moments just ‘oh yeah she had a colonoscopy today. i should call her and see how that went’ #5 seconds later ‘wait what the fuck did I just—’ #hard to overstate how bizarre that was #i haven’t made a phone call without shaking & crying like a wet chihuahua for like. over a decade? #and i just did ?? and it wasn’t even a big deal?? #reminds me of the first time getting home after being put on an SSRI

[steakout-05]

eeuuaghh i would like everyone to know that i apologise if i have not responded to your reblogs/mentions/posts on tumblr, i have really terrible social anxiety and for some reason people talking to me makes my nervous system think i'm being hunted for sport by a resident evil boss. sorry if i havent responded i'm not being rude i'm just having a panic attack :P

additionally: social anxiety is actually the reason why a lot of my old posts from late 2022 had weird spacing and spelling mistakes. i was too anxious to type properly

#sorry this seems like a random thing to post but it has been bugging me for a little bit now and i want to post it #and by a little bit i mean the entire time i've been on this website #as for the reason i have social anxiety: i went to a really terrible high school full of dangerous people- #-who were literally like. the worst most bigoted people ever. not everyone there was bad of course but 90% of them were- #-and that stunted by social development by 5-6 years and now every time someone talks to me i feel like i'm about to get murdered #also primary school was. bad. the other kids could sniff out the autism in me and didn't like me for it #this post isn't directed towards anyone specifically but also it kinda is because there's a DM from someone- #-that i haven't responded to in literally 8 months and every time i think about it i get anxious #i'm sorry!!! i'm not trying to ignore you on purpose and i want to say something but my brain literally will not let me out of fear :( #i'm not used to getting talked to directly so every time i do my entire nervous system starts screaming and running in circles #it's kinda ridiculous because it's like. come on. why are you having a panic attack over a message on tumblr it's LITERALLY just words on- #-a screen what are you freaking out about. but also it's like hhhhh unfamiliar social situation scary. help. #unrelated to that but i am very worried about what people will think of me and like i know i really shouldn't worry about that- #-because i can't control what other people think of me and it really shouldn't be any of my or their business. but also- #-i have legitimate trauma that backs my fears up and every time someone is even slightly critical towards me my brain just goes- #-''see? it happened again i TOLD you it would happen again. idiot. you shouldn't have said anything'' #and then i hide and cry and lay in bed thinking about how i'm going to die until i suddenly snap out of it and think- #-''wait hang on why should i care. i love being a weirdo on the internet why should i let my anxieties stop me'' #and then it happens AGAIN and it's just a viscous cycle at that point #be silly on the internet -> detect slight criticism -> think everyone hates you again -> go back on your bullshit after 3 days of crying #and it makes sense because that exact same pattern happened to me countless times as a child. #be silly in school -> get made fun of for it -> get hated for it -> rinse and repeat until you think everyone is dangerous and they hate yo #if i could put it in a metaphor it would be like me being a little rabbit who thinks everyone is a scary wolf because of their big shadows- #-even though they're all also rabbits and i'm just paying attention to the scariest parts of them because i only know what wolves look like #trauma does fucked up things to your psyche lemmie tell you #social anxiety #anxiety disorder #i'm literally the ''too scared to order food'' stereotype except it's not a stereotype because it's real and every time i look at the 7/11- #-at my campus i go ''hm but what if they hate me for the food i buy there'' even though they're LITERALLY SELLING IT what is WRONG with me #anyway um. social anxiety sucks and i don't mean to not reply ro everyone who talks to me i am sorr y

[clits-and-clips]

I want cuddddllleeessss and to trace his thiiiiigghhhhssss and spoooooon.. play with his beard.. I just want to be with him! !! !!!!

#idk #txt #i feel almost numb at this point idk #i want to cry #cause #like im repeating myself but i dont want to move on #or get over it #i want to fix it and be eith him #with #im sorrrryyyy im so annoying i have a psych thing booked so ill annoy them with this but #fuck i must have complained a lot to him #cause i just #wont #shut #up #atm #can time stop #or can i reverse shit #listened to some paul kelly with my parents and the two songs he sung #were like so specifically how i feel #it was odd and made me cry a lil bit #plus hes just an amazing poet #point is if i coukd relive that day id do so much differengly #differently #or yknow #the past 5 mknths #months #why am i awake

[orcelito]

i

cannot

BELIEVE

myself

for absolutely ridiculous Wolfwood Lover Moments. sure yes he made me cry 5 times by himself, a feat that no other character could Ever hope to beat. yes ive long known i love him.

but

im watching episode 9 of 98 & wolfwood got introduced. and they had a mirror to the coin thing from the manga, just with the food bars.

this moment.

it's not the exact same, but it's close enough that it just KILLED ME and i was just kinda losing my shit. slapping my hand on the couch. banging my fist on my leg. but it wasnt enough, i had too many emotions, so i just. kinda.

so ok im on my computer, sitting with the side of the couch to my left. and i . i went leaning to my left. and then i just. kept. going.

I DID A SUMMERSAULT. ON ACCIDENT. OFF MY COUCH. BECAUSE OF WOLFWOOD.

i ended up on my back with my ass stuck on my TV table just laughing so hard i was nearly choking on my spit. and i had to shimmy my way back upright bc there was No Room because i was ass over teakettle on the fucking floor

and KEEPING IN MIND im watching this anime with a friend!!!!!! they heard me losing my fucking Shit & only when i managed to garble out that i Fell Off My Fucking Couch did they know what was going on

im. utterly amazed at myself. if there was ever any doubt about me losing my love for wolfwood, this has proven that that is NOT happening

#speculation nation #fanny watches trigun #HELP MEEEEEE i am still laughing so much #i did pause the anime while i was losing my shit so THANKFULLY it wasnt still going as i was Losing My Shit on the floor #but. yeah. ok. trimax wolfwood made me cry 5 times and 98 wolfwood made me accidentally summersault off my couch #IM NOT HURT BTW i actually fell very gracefully all things considered #rolled with the motion quite well #the biggest risk was me choking on my own spit as i lost my fucking shit. but i managed to swallow it in time slkjfsldkjf #but. yeah. help. helpppppppppppp i love wolfwood so much #YEA IVE BEEN IN LOVING VASH HOURS but i sure do fucking love wolfwood with my WHOLE entire heart. amen.

[lucyvaleheart]

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#delete later #hey haven't made a vent post in a while that's gotta be a good thing right #I dunno. got an appt in like a month and hopefully that'll fix me but until then...... #...sigh. tw for heavy shit for the rest of this don't read on unless you can manage with that kinda thing #is it like. nights? does my brain just shut down any level of dopamine response at night? is that it? #cuz fuck I spiral so fast. not 5 hours ago I was on cloud 9 cuddling a cute girl I may or may not have a- #anyway #now it's midnight. #and I just kind of want to carve my self awareness out of my body like a cancerous growth #and never be aware again #loneliness and jealousy and despair and self hatred and my god I can't really think of anything negative I *don't* feel #i just want it to stop #i wanna stop hurting every time I see them being so intimate with someone else I've already been rejected I need to get the fuck over mysel #ugh #I...... #i usually try to keep these vague cuz I know people follow me and despite my best efforts do tend to read these #part of me wants that? that cry for help I guess? some way to reach out without having to be vulnerable #on the other hand I don't want to guilt anyone or to make anyone feel bad for being happy cuz that's toxic as fuck #I.... I don't fuckin know I'm just kind of rambling now. #....I'll be fine eventually #maybe #god I can't even say that for certain anymore huh #what do i even do why can't i see the solution anymore #all that's there is 'stop feeling x emotion' and thats just not a reasonable thing to expect myself to be capable of #you can't just turn off your emotions as much as I wish I could #.......want to be held close and touched a lot and told it'll be ok and complimented and. wanted #want to be wanted. #.....sigh #.......i am wanted. I know I am. I know so many people want my attention that it's nearly impossible to keep up #so what the fuck is my deal why do I still want it so bad? what isn't clicking? why doesn't it fucking work

[gibbearish]

the thing with autism right. is i know if i was having a full mental health crisis what i would end up doing is going to the emergency room and being like "hello, my name is (x) birthday (y), um i was hoping to talk to you about potential mental health inpatient care? i'm currently having a mental health crisis and don't think i can be trusted on my own" like if there's one thing i can be sure will live on in me no matter how hard the brainworms try. is my fucking customer service voice

#like itll be busted as fuck because ill be freaking out but you bet ill be sobbing my way through verbally drafting an email #ive done it before‚ like im a frustrated crier and once i start crying i cant turn it off so ive had a couple times where i had a breakdown #at work‚ cried about it a lot‚ and my lead pulled me into a meeting room after i calmed down to check in #and as soon as i started talking it just started again so i had to be like 'sorry th-this is just something m-m-my bod-dy does‚ i-i'm calm #m-mentally but i just c-cant turn this-is off‚ just try to i-ignore HIC it and f-f-focus-s on the w-wwwords‚ #(tired of crytyping so just mentally fill it in yourself in everything else i say) #n they offered me more time to chill but im like no really i genuinely am calm‚ i calm down wayyy before my body does its gonna #keep doing this on and off all day‚ it takes hours for it to fully calm down and is on a hair trigger the entire time #so thinking about this will make it kick back up again no matter what unless we talk tomorrow‚ so if youre ok with bearing with me then cool #and theyre like. dang ok and just focused on what i said #or much more recently i was talking to my roommate‚ stopped‚ held up a finger + stood there silently for ten seconds‚ #then was like 'sorry about that‚ i think i have to throw up. excuse me for a moment. what was that? oh gotcha yeah i'll message you if i #need anything‚ thank you' #and just typing it out like that it sounds like i was fine and just saw it coming a ways away. however that is not the case #i had had my covid booster and some other vaccine earlier that day‚ lost 5 vials of blood‚ eaten Nothing‚ drank only #acidic-ass apple juice‚ and had just hit my vape too hard #keeping it in once it made its presence known was a feat of will the likes of which have never been seen before #and still my sentences prevail

[nagihonos]

finally got around to watching dragon ball super hero and

#okay db haters look away 😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️😶‍🌫️ #this movie was SO good like it was corny as hell but idgaf i had a fun time!!!!! #gohan using special beam cannon as the final move maybe made me cry a little whos to say? #i like pans little character arc also as an avid pan supporter this movie made me so happy #the only downside was no marron or bulla honestly #everyone was here and had a fun little role. goku and vegeta (love them #only show up for like 5 minutes total and have a post credits scene where vegeta wins in a fight against him #this movie was just fun dragon ball stuff and i hope they continue this tone for the series #i think ill read the trunks goten mini arc now omg #also loooove that krillin is like 'hey remember when u got really big at the world martial arts tournament' and piccolo went 'oh yeah 👍' #*gets really big* #also idk if im just out of the db loop but love the new gohan entomologist lore! #also any krillin/18 content is a win for me! #actually the real downside was the continued propaganda of blue haired trunks. you will never get me to like it <3 #also i didnt think id like dr hedo and the gammas but i did! they were fun!! ofc gamma 2 died tho. black racism 🫤 (i watched the dub) #sorry i just needed to get my thoughts on this movie out #anyway this movie just proved that gohan needs to be the main character :) #i just cant get over him ending cell max with fucking SPECIAL BEAM CANNON im crying and screaming not the kamehameha or masenko like!!!!!! #like i know piccolo taught him masenko but theres just something abt sbc okay👍 #im so normal im so sane

[lorisystem]

The nicest person in the world is the lady who helped me tie my shoes at 5ish years old so i could go play during recess. (I elaborated in the tags but theyre fairly long,,) -???

#ive already told this story to some people but i love to tell it. #ok so when i was young i only wore velcro shoes bc i couldnt tie laces. #even now i havent learned the proper knot that literally everybody has learned. idk why i just cant commit it to memory but to be fair #i havent tried to learn it in years bc now i learned a different way to tie my shoes which takes longer so everybody is always like why do #you take so long tying your shoes. #but anyway this story is when i was around 5 maybe younger or maybe older but max 7 yrs old. #my mom only bought me velcro shoes since i couldnt learn how to tie my shoes normally and at some point trying to learn made me so #frustrated i just refused to try and cried etc. #so anyway in my old school there was this weird rule ive never seen anywhere else that we had to use other shoes in the class #i guess to avoid dirtying the floors or something. #and one time my mom bought me new shoes with laces and threw my old shoes probably thinking id have to learn it. i didnt lol. #so she tied my shoes in the morning and then i went to school changed shoes and like i had to like. put back my lace shoes on to go outside #for recess. now get that the teacher hated me. not sure why you would hate a child this age. but she was usually mean to me. #so when she saw this issue she was rlly annoyed and told me so and like the first few days she tied my shoes so i could go outside. #and idk after 2 or 3 times she got rlly tired of doing it and said i had to do it by myself. and she just like fucking left and went outside #leaving me alone on the staircase. #and now this building had a 2nd story which was like a house or flat where people lived. and they were totally unrelated to the school afaik #but the lady was always rlly nice. so she happened to be going down to go outside and about her day and she saw me crying by myself on the #staircase and said whats wrong and i told her i cant tie my shoes and she just helped me and consoled me and then i could go. #anyway she was an angel to me. #its hitting me now as i tell this that when i was a child many of the adults around me were really mean #so i really imprinted on nice adults like i thought they were really amazing and the best people ever. #anyway thank you for reading my story!! #lorisys

[sc3n3kitt3h]

MALL DATE REDRAW!!

#funky cool art #eyestrain #maybe idk #creepypasta #ninajane #janenina #jane the killer #nina the killer #i hope u guys like this one!!!!!!! ninajane fans make some noise!!!! all 5 of you!!!!!!!!! #anyways i replayed 0nesh0t recently!!! it made me cry (again) #im also SUPER SUPER SUPER excited 4 the ul/tk update!!!!!! i cant wait!!!!! literally!!!!!!!! #i replayed all the levels 3 times today!!!!!!! im an impatient little shit!!!!!!!!! #wrath n heresy....... so cool #im especially excited 4 heresy cuz im goin in TOTALLY BLIND like most ppl are probably #im probably gonna play MORE later cuz im fucking crazy #ive also been getting into h0ll0w kn1ght recently!! my fave is myl4 i miss her :( #AND CL0TH!!!!!!! i miss cl0th too #anyways ul/tk!!!!!! #i p-ranked every leven except for hall of sacred remains because i kinda hate it. #*level #not the hide0us mass tho i love u hide0us mass <3333!!! #im gonna stop talking now cuz this is getting rlly long!!!!!! bye gamerz

[cj-kenobi]

guess who FINISHED HILDA and CRIED like a LITTLE BABY over it (it was ME i will never be the same again)

#HELP #never getting over this show ever literally never its not gonna happen #i cant believe it first aired 5 years ago #wanna go tell 15 year old me it doesnt get cancelled and it doesnt get bad it stays good stay hyped #i actually genuinely cried #NOT the first time this show has made me cry like a little baby tho lmao #i actually cried TWICE in the finale and i will admit that to anyone its not my fault its fucking GOOD #hilda netflix #hilda season 3

[jiseok]

i swear some people only became professors for the power trip n not bc they actually want to help people learn

#gom.txt #bc why was i dropped from one of my classes for my grade which is only low bc i missed the exam #bc the professor didn’t even make it visible until the day of and i check assignments the day before #and i didn’t know about the course commitment policy #so i tried emailing the guy being as respectful n apologetic as i can bc i actually like the class in terms of what we’re learning #n he just doubles down on me missing the window to consult with him when he didn’t even send anything until yesterday l #and he sent it to my school email instead of directly on canvas so i didn’t see shit til my advisor contacted me abt it #like shouldn’t a professor jump at the fact that a student is desperate to be a part of the course they’re teaching #and there’s a one week window for him to recind it and put me back in the class but he just full on refuses #like now i’ve got a penalty withdrawal on my permanent record #the only upside is i was taking 5 classes so i’m still a full time student with 4/ 12 credits #but i’ll have to take summer courses to stay on track for spring 2025 graduation #this whole thing pissed me off and made me cry a little #anyways feel free to join me in sending dr. cornelison the second bad vibes #my advisor was very kind and patient abt it tho i would have had a meltdown without her #this is getting to long let me eat and then take this fuck ass exam #icb i thought statistics would be my problem class

[aks3raao1]

I just finished If We Were Villains by M.L. Rio and am in the middle of losing my fucking mind

#if we were villains #m.l. rio #This book is so well thought out and has so much symbolism and that epilogue royally fucked me over #In a good way #I can't mention the amount of times I was kicking screaming and crying in Acts 4 and 5 #This is the first book I've ever made notes in and DAMN is it a lot #Please read this and be mind fucked with me

[orcelito]

Bought the memorial plush for Cassy. It's gonna be here on Thursday

It looks pretty similar to Sammy's in style, just with a different pose. I'll see how they look when placed together.

#speculation nation #animal death ment/ #fuck dude literally just looking at his Name made me cry again #typing out Cassy made me confront that yes. this is about my boy Cassy. my sweet baby boy who wanted to be a fat cat so bad #and swung his tail as he walked when he was happy. to which i would always comment 'that shit Swangin!' #and who would stuff his entire nose in tally's ass to sniff it. to which i would remark 'oh he's Snuffin!' #and who would always use the most garbled meows when begging for food. so he was my Garble Boy. #i already miss his obnoxious yelling. the way it sounded like a Mraaaaa. the way he would sometimes draw them out super long #i wish id taken videos of it. i dont think i have any. because i didnt think id Need to look back on them like this. #he wasnt even 2 years old yet... i didnt think id have to worry about this for at Least another 5 years... #sometimes life is really unfair. he deserved to live a long and happy life. i wish i couldve given it to him. #negative/ #sorry for posting so much about this. it was just super sudden and im kinda wrecked by it lol #this time yesterday i knew something was wrong but i Never thought he'd actually die. he was so young... #im just glad i got him to purr in the end. made him happy one last time at least.

[jankwritten]

Actually, I don't think I'll be altering it, necessarily. I think that what I'm going to do is exactly what the show did - some Fuckshit that allows People to Come Back. Because Altea randomly reappears, and I think that Allura's energy should be allowed to come back too. The episode is titled The End Is the Beginning. I call bullshit that the lions just DISAPPEAR. I call bullshit that there is no more need for a defender of the universe. ALL realities were reestablished, and we had SOLID PROOF that all it took was one person, one event, for everything that happened to happen again. There would still be war. There would still be need for something like Voltron, even with the Atlas and the next generation of fighters. Even if it's not the current paladins - Voltron shouldn't just disappear. That ending is dumb, sorry.

That being said - holy shit. I genuinely loved that whole experience and I feel kind of bad for the people who let expectations and silly plot points blot out the whole show for them. Was it dumb at times? Yeah. Do I agree with the way that things went and how it ended? No! But that doesn't mean the show itself sucks or anything like that. This is the whole reason fandom spaces exist, or, part of the reason: so people can love the source material, and change what they don't, if need be. Like, that's the whole reason fanfiction exists IMO.

So, uh, anyway. If anybody has a pirated copy of VLD just lying around and uh....wants to just kick that my way in case it ever gets demolished off the internet.......i would love you forever and ever LMAO.

Wow. Just wow.

#vld #voltron legendary defender #was I crying the whole time I wrote this? yeah lmao #I just can't believe I made it through and that I *liked it* #after all these years!!!! 5 years of hearing to never watch past season 4 to just ditch the show and never watch it!!!! #and it was so fucking good!!!!! #i've literally NEVER been this inspired by something before. i've NEVER fallen this hard into a hyperfixation. #Not even percy jackson or OMGCP or Hockey itself grabbed me like this #I DON'T LIKE SCI FI!!!!!!! #and yet here I am #weeping like a kid over a show everybody told me i was going to hate lmao #it's so ironic to me that my favorite seasons were 5-8. it's SO ironic that my favorite parts were amongst the most hated #(i didn't even REALLY mind the Shiro/Curtis wedding at the end) #i don't know #i think i'm overwhelmed right now and tired and i haven't eaten in days lmao so maybe i'm just Being Weird About This #i feel like my life just got changed and it's silly and dumb but idk. things you love change you. shrug #woof. okay. currently stopping myself from restarting the entire show over which would definitely be a sign of madness #(i'm really considering it guys lmao) #it's even funnier because the fic that I want to read right now would be all about the politics and shit #like I want to read CONTINUATIONS of the show #GAH. #okay i've cried so much i feel sick so i'm gonna go Calm Down Now #thank you guys for sitting through all of my posts