#this seriously made my year already

[galentir]

My poster for MegaCon London 2024! 👻👻👻

#julie and the phantoms #jatp #luke patterson #reggie peters #alex mercer #jatp art #jatp fanart #my art #the con and the trip to london were absolutely amazing #i met so many nice people and got the chance to gift prints of these to the people I met and to Madi Jeremy and Owen! #as you can see I made this before Charlie jumped off but Owen was so kind to gift one to Charlie for me :D #they were all so happy and nice I still cannot comprehend it #I also made a keychain of the Reggie art I made (with his bass in Finally Free) and gifted that to Jeremy who was very cute about it #overall he gave me two hugs for the gifts and a high-five for my Reggie outfit :D #this seriously made my year already

[hybbat]

You know I've had a lot of posts on my dash about Lizzie including 3 fics... And all of them are about how she is ignored for the men.

I've not seen any of the content they're complaining about, and I've not seen any of the content they're asking for...

You know you can just... make content about Lizzie. Instead of content about the lack of content. You can just draw her or write about her or make headcanons and essays about her, instead of about how there isn't any.

We get it, nobody is talking about her. So, please just actually talk about her?

#id certainly love to see it but no ody is actually talking about her in favour of complaining that nobody is talking about her #its a really weird typw of irony #seriously the first thing i saw about lizzie on my dash like an hour after episode started dropping was someone already complaining #about it being made about jimmy before id even seen any posts about jimmy #secret life spoilers #traffic spoilers #but yeah just... make stuff? instead of souring the whole thing? #im also sick of hearing about the men lizzie is ignored for... and its these exact posts that are doing it and spreading it around #instead of being upset fans of jimmy are happy his 3 year 5 season long plot has concluded #posts ill def regret when i wake up but its 4 am and im so tired of not having any positive lizzie OR jimmy content on my dash #cause people are either complaining or too scared to be percieved as Part Of The Problem to make things for the characters they care about

[greyias]

I absolutely adore @caffeinatedrogue's art, and was so lucky to be able to snag a commission slot and get this gorgeous piece of art of Theron Shan and my Jedi Knight. Thank you so much!

#theron shan x jedi knight #otp: adorakble #oc: greyias highwind #seriously have been admiring her art for years #and was over the moon to be able to get a piece done #you cannot imagine my flailing and squee #this has already made its way onto my iPad lock screen #i adore this style so much #the use of color and light #and just those expressions #absolutely perfect depiction of my favorite dorks #♥♥♥

[katyspersonal]

Tumblr sorta needs a 'Mute' feature in my opinion. Like what if I don't want to block this user, what if I don't want to become enemies and in some days I'd like to interact. But also most of the time seeing how they avidly encourage everyone else whereas I get the passive-aggressive 'oh yeah very uhh... interesting... (please leave me alone I don't like your art lol)' makes me want to unfollow every single fan of these characters and never draw them again.

I remember two years ago the exact same thing happened when someone liked the same character and the same ship and I swear I was the only person in the fandom they bluntly left out and could not spare a single good word for. I can't even blame this on my art being "ugly" because this type of user always aggressively praises all art styles and all levels of skill, it feels more like 'a personal thing except we never fought a single time'. And now my toxic trait of needing approval from [cool person name] is back to haunt me years later! Add the unability to "abandon" this character/ship/whatever despite wanting to after facing so much unspoken passive spite, because I am a contrarian and the best way to trap me into doing something is to try to exclude me from it. I didn't face attempts to very aggressively bully me out of the yard/class/community/etc, sometimes with physical violence included, only to let something mid like passive aggression online finally do it.

I am really stupid and naive person despite my age, but in like 5% of the cases I will still understand the hint and understand what is going on. Yet I have to pretend to be clueless even in rare situations when I know someone hates me, because since they never admitted it, quitting will be perceived as me being "paranoid". But dear goooood, it hurts sometimes. I hope that one day I will be numbed to being treated as a tumor on an otherwise healthy body of society that someone is dying to amputate- and always a person whose approval I want, of all people. Knowing that this day will come is one of the things that keep me going as both a person and a creator. Things like viruses and diseases still try their best to persist, so even if I am actually one, I should persist. It doesn't matter whether I actually rot everything around me or this is just my self-depreciating delusion upon focusing on people that mistreated me and not people that loved me. What matters is persisting, I just still feel angry that it hurts. I can't respond spite with spite or passive aggression with passive aggression, I can't do the 'smug asshole' when I become aware that someone tries to starve me until I "die". I can just fall over and cry about it like a kicked dog, despite being so old, especially when it is a person I didn't have anything against.

And really.. It is as simple as turning the internet off, so I don't see The Person and can focus on doing stuff that I like, as if they never existed and can't crash my self-esteem. It is just annoying to keep doing this, a feature to not see them unless I am in the mood would be better. Like.. blocking is not an option. Not only it implies being enemies which is not my intention, but also it will be like an "evidence" that I was "crazy". They didn't do anything, right? Well, they know what they did, but it was never verbal, so it is my fault I "imagined things", right?

#/vent #/negative #/HEAVILY negative #fandomry rambles #like I started crying typing this do not read it unless you already know #it is just stupid how I don't even need any sort of drama to *just* annoy people to THIS severe point #like I said even before everything there was a very similar situation #I just evoke some primal hatred in specific type of people #it is probably what happened with maasanox but they apologized and moreover felt bad vibes from the stalker bully idiot #it is more like that meme from Lilo and Stitch #'ah yeah all artists and other creative fans deserve knowing they are liked and talented and supported...' #*katya walks in* 'EXCEPT THAT ONE!!!!!!!' #the punchline is that the two years ago guy and todays guy are fans of the same character #I swear the fictional bastard has abnormal ability to reveal the ugliest truths and bring out the worst in people #like the last time someone kinned the twink every single person here showed their true face and that was painful #not a single person got spared of showing what they were made of and me lacking spine was the LEAST of the sins brought up for judgement #you see this is why truth hurts. because people are terrible. truth is always ugly because WE are always ugly #I kinda love him for that but seriously can he stop making the worst things surface for FIVE minutes lol #in my excuse I am TRYING to kill my 'inner child' because these problems are too stupid but it seems impossible #I am a kicked dog with rabies in the past today and always

[eerna]

wait I just found out they will make TGT 2 and 3 into one season which means we’re getting the Ice Court heist in s3. which means s2 might as well cover the first few chapters of SoC, with Matthias in Hellgate. HELLO????

#TGT SPEEDRUN TO GET TO THE CROW CONTENT ALREADY LOLLOLOLOLOLOL #i seriously dont know why they did that to themselves they could have made tgt as a prequel for soc no one would have batted an eye #in any case. now i feel better abt my chances to see at least SOME of it before theyget cancelled. one year closer. yells softly #sab liveblog

[darthvaderofmiddle-earth]

Really feeling the height dysphoria tonight y'all... :))))))

#seriously there is only one grown adult man in the world alive who i know is shorter than me #most children are taller than me an adult dude of 24 fuckin years old #i can only buy children's shoes and often online because they dont really sell those in stores #i am swimming if i get an adult medium shirt and pants are always far too long for me because 30in is way too much #working anywhere is so hard because all equipment abd surfaces are far too high up for me #and then the job refuses to buy a stool or ladder tall enough to accommodate me #my father renovated the kitchen around 2 years ago and raised everything in height #the counters are now up to my neck and the cabinets are entirely unreachable but for all other folks theyre fine #even with a stool i cant reach beyond the front of the second shelf for anything #i cant even sit down in chairs unless they are table chairs and not restaurant or bar stool height #if they are i just straight up fall over trying to sit in them or the chair falls down or both #if im going to a seated event i have to research the venue first to be sure they have tiered seating and its tiered enough #otherwise i wont see anything because the person in front of me regardless of age is always far taller #the entire world already is run by folks who are against trans people like me and who dont accommodate me #doctors dont accommodate my chrochic conditions and pain at all and never have so i just suffer #and the entirety of every place house and establishment is specifically built for people above my height by tons #so i basically live in a world that wasnt made for someone like me and i just already feel like i dont belong here #and this lack of accommodation just makes it worse

[neverendingford]

Therapists have two genders:

Professional Asshole and

Well-meaning Incompetent

#color says shit #text post #replying to my therapist is the most frustrating thing in the world. ma'am you think you're building rapport with me? #I hate to tell you but you've been wildly unsuccessful if that's what you think you've been doing here. #stop trying to educate me about my bullshit diagnoses that I already know about from my years on the internet. #like. babygirl I'm over here trying to build up to feeling comfortable enough to talk about the six-layer trauma cake I've got going on #and you're over here showing me a diagram consisting of two concentric circles meant to convey the idea of self versus other #you're very nice and trying to be helpful but I don't want to fucking talk about the girlfriend I want to talk about the issues that matter #girlfriend is an experiment. the other shit is stuff that lives in our fucking soul. shit that made me into the weird person fragment I am #and I had to fight for an hour. therapist kept on scheduling us for half an hour. HALF A FUCKING HOUR HALF AN HOUR ISN'T ENOUGH TIME TO TALK #I had to fight for it and even when she finally scheduled us for an hour she still tried to cut it short #I had to pull up the appointment confirmation to prove I had an hour allotted. like seriously what the fuck. #one of those people who had their own mental struggles and then is like “I want to become a therapist and help other people uwu” #and then is fucking useless and projects their own issues onto someone else and shoves their personal solutions onto you #like someone in r/aita projecting their own shitty relationship onto someone else. some of us are different Daryl #ugh I'm so fucking pissed and I'm not giving up the controller until I get this shit sorted out for now. #r wanted to hop back on this morning in the shower and we had a shouting match but our deal was she takes a week break so I'm keeping it #because too much shit has built up and she's been not doing so hot so I'm gonna get this mess cleaned up before I let her back on. #I bought groceries. I did laundry. I got the car repairs done. I got our bike fixed up. I showered. I did dishes. I'm going to #and I'm going to get even more done tomorrow. maybe then I'll go back to watching over her shoulder and backseat gaming but not for a while. #it feels nice though. like I get to finally stretch my arms and yawn real good. #and btw to answer the question she's always fucking asking. she's not ace in the slightest lmao. I am and the bleed over confuses her. #there. question answered so maybe she can stop asking about it. #I feel like in her push to find herself she kinda pushed me back into the corner. which... ngl that hurts a little. #oh well. you don't need to hear about our lovers' quarrel. I'm going to bed in these cozy fresh bed sheets I just put on the bed.

[artheresy]

Hmm, I’m so tired, but I’m happier today :]

#today was a good day #i finally met with a rheumatologist and finally am closer to getting the answers i need #it feels so refreshing to see someone actually take my pain seriously #she actually confirmed so much of what i had thought #she literally felt the inflammation and pointed out things even i hdnt realized #i swear i could cry from how happy that made me #and she suspects a few things which shes testing me for #one she didnt ask for a test for bc its hard to get #but suspects I might have is hEDS which i had already suspected #like one of the first i suspected #and to see that confirmed eithout me even initially bringing it up like shes the one who brought up ehlers danlos after hearing my symptoms #sorry just as someone whos experienced this pain since I was around 7 years old maybe younger #whos had my sleep ruined who has completely lost my energy to do anything who had my mental state worsened bc of the pain #seeing someone take it seriously when it used to be brushed off as growing pains makes me so jappy

[katya-goncharov]

apparently the doctor's appointment I've been dreading all week that was meant to be today has just been cancelled because of "technical difficulties" and I am fuming

#they offered me either a phone call appointment or an appointment on some other site at the other end of the city instead but those won't #work because A. i start my new job today so i wouldn't have time to get there and B. i just don't think a phone call appointment would be #appropriate for the situation. and it sucks because i would really like to have an appointment sooner rather than later because i have no #idea whether it's something serious or not (i've got this weird swelling of skin that may or may not be a lump and i've already been #freaking out over it for weeks and feeling uncomfortable about the idea of getting it examined and trying to psyche myself up) #and it just sucks because i just KNOW they probably didn't even look at the reason i made the appointment when they sent the message #cancelling it. and i spent so much time building myself up to the fact that i was going to get this checked out TODAY but it's like the #healthcare system in my country just really don't seem to care about individual people #(i'm already distrustful of them because of the time my dad got seriously ill a couple of years ago because he only got offered a phone call #appointment and they misdiagnosed his diabetes because of it and he ended up having to be rushed to hospital)

[theold-ultraviolence]

If anybody’s wondering, I’m still recovering from the Avenged Sevenfold show

#no words #pure neck pain and a sore throat #that hurts SO SO GOOD BECAUSE #THAT WAS THE BEST SHOW I’VE EVER BEEN TO IN MY LIFE #like yeah the Danny Elfman concert was fire BUT THIS ONE!? #LITERALLY #IT WAS A DREAM #that I had been waiting for for 10 years #I made my emotional post on instagram already and I might make it here soon but seriously #I’m still recovering #it reset my soul fr

[willowcrowned]

came down with a sore throat last night was fine this morning except for some sniffling and now I feel like I’ve been run over by a semi and the bacteria decomposing me are puppeting my dead body around holy shit you guys were not kidding about covid

#now you might be thinking: willow how many times can someone get horrendously sick to the point of being bedridden in six months? #to which I would answer THREE if your immune system hates you and has been plotting your murder for years #i am So. ————- #yeah #bringing back the #willow’s sickness saga #tag #for the record: i will be fine! because of my asthma I made a beeline for antivirals and I’ve already had a dose #so chances of me getting seriously ill are very low #but boy am i annoyed about this one

[maddy-ferguson]

i spent two hours (two hours) with my "friends" from school today and i'm MISERABLE roman voice you need to stop this (@ me)

#and like i say: brf slt #forgot to say we were literally sitting down. in class. taking notes. like there's genuinely no reason for THAT to make me feel this bad! #i'm not even bad at talking to people i never talk to again in class or only hang out with in school not having real friends doesn't bother #me because i have friends outside of school but it's my third year so everyone already has established groups of friends and it's :/ like #on monday in my first class of the year the girl sitting next to me was very nice we talked and we have more classes in common like apart #from the big ones where everyone's here the ones where it's only maybe 30 people. so i'm like that's fun i hope i see her again and i did #but she's friends with the bigger group of friends my friends who don't actually like me are friends with like my non friend's boyfriend's #friends so THEIR friends. like what are the odds. i guess not that crazy because there's only maybe 200 of us or 150 i have no idea #but still #but anyway #today we have one of these classes where it's not everyone but it was like another group of students so it was #me. this girl i've been hanging out with for two years who i didn't want to keep hanging out with at the end of the year because of the way #she reacted to something i did that was like an honest mistake she took it wayyy too seriously and said some things i didn't like i was #like girl fuck you😭 except then they kept the exact same groups AND I DIDN'T HAVE ANYONE ELSE and it was four months later so i actually #sat next to her and we were together for projects and things like that like my bad. that's on me. #and on her first day last year she met a girl who wasn't in our university the year before and they became bffs basically so it was them + #me. and i like the second girl better i think but she's insanely judgey like not to be like i'm so much better than her but i grew out of #the criticizing everyone 24/7 because it's genuinely a fun activity for me and i enjoy it mindset when i left middle school because the one #friend who liked it as much as me went to a different high school and i stopped seeing her every day. i made a post saying this in january #then during the second semester we became friends with another person i don't wanna explain how. we worked on a thing together for class #basically. them i genuinely like even though i don't think we would actually hang out out of school and have that many things to say to #each other. but they're more friends with girl 1 and girl 2 than they are with me because well i'm not comfortable with them so i talk less #than i would if i was comfortable. and there's also person 3's partner we have a few classes with who's cool but same as person 3 with the #being closer to girl 1 and girl 2 even though they're not even that close. but like. yeah idk #they just (girl 1 and girl 2) make me feel like i'm the weird kid in middle school and that wasn't even my middle school experience i'm #gonna let that happen to me NOW AT 22 YEARS OF AGE? #but last year it was like fine actually it's crazy how one class two hours made me rethink it all #but it's also awkward because like am i just gonna go sit all by myself because i don't wanna hang out with them. especially because we #still have a group thing we're gonna have to do until the end of the year that we started last year and it's not like i'd wanna switch #groups because they're a good group to work with. like they actually do the work. and i guess we only have two classes where it's. tag limi

[missingn000]

#AHHHH OH MY GOD #i commissioned my fav getou artist to draw his domain expansion and it's DONEEEE #i'm in shambles. i'm a mess. it's the most beautiful thing i've ever seen in almost 26 years of life #i hope she posts it so yall can see it because i am NOT doing that. i hate when my posts blow up im already annoyed my #silly satosugu twitter one did #seriously i. i have no words you guys. CRYING #gonna see if i can get it made into a poster today after my office hours for the class i teach #[lies down on the ground in a puddle of tears] #i ams sososoososososososo happy. WHAT A GREAT START TO THE DAY #GOOD MORNING PARTY PEOPLE

[silhouettecrow]

365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 177

Adjective: Bioluminescent

Noun: Deer

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Bioluminescent: a living organism, such as fireflies and deep-sea fishes, that have the capabilities of emitting light biochemically; of the light emitted by organisms such as fireflies and deep-sea fishes

Deer: a hoofed grazing or browsing animal, with branched bony antlers that are shed annually and typically borne only by the male

#two of my favourite prompts that ive made so far back-to-back? #maybe this is a sign that things are turning around after a long and stressful and scary week #or at least i hope so #and seriously i fucking love this prompt #i have always been fascinated by bioluminescence #and i have always (and especially in the past few years) felt a special connection to deer #so this prompt feels like a beautiful marriage between two of my favourite things #but also now that im thinking about it #ive already kind of written about 'bioluminescent' 'deer' in a short story i wrote while in college called 'metanoia' #(maybe i will post that short or an excerpt from it on here someday) #but maybe i can expand on the ideas i explore/play with in that story in my poem for this prompt #thanks for reading #writing #writer #creative writing #writing prompt #writeblr #trying to be a writeblr at least

[todayisafridaynight]

Especially because in the end... Arakawa loses his son in small ways that just Accumulate... but Jo's the one who even gets to outlive his son... AUGH. THROWING MYSELF INTO A WOODCHIPPER

Also while going through old messages, I saw I actually had a dream back in 2021 that Jo came back in LaD8. I mean sure he had "longer hair" and "a new outfit NOBODY liked except me" and was Unserious like RGGJo whereas in the actual teaser he sounds more depressed than ever but I'm still taking credit alright... the vision came to me...

And in a Hell Will Freeze Over Before This Happens I Just Like To Think About It way. I want him in my goddamn party and I have for all of Y7 so it's not related to the new game. I don't care. I want to find out what his favorite flowers are I want to take him to Every Movie and get his commentary on all of it I want to take him out to eat and watch his little itadakimasu animation play out I want to have the most light-hearted and inconsequential conversations and I want him to chime in I want to exhaust every option on his Drink Link I want to unlock his sickass tag-team moves I want to wear True Hero and fight by his side I want to shower him with so much love and affection he won't know what hit him (<- channeling Arakawa tbh)

its just insane because from a metaphorical sense arakawa 'outlives' masato in that he becomes aoki and like. That's One Thing, but then Of Course. There's Jo. //stuffing my mouth with wet cement// like OHHHH the pain never stops it never ends,,

mate i think your brain was just tryna manifest RGGJo to make a come back through y7 ☠️☠️ CREDIT WHERE CREDITS DUE THO BUT DAMN would have been. THE MOST interesting change to his character though.... on the real.... because yeah he just sounds so tired from the trailer so far （；´д｀）would be hilarious if instead of entering a Super Depression arc bro's just. Yeah Alright Fuck It. What Can We Do Now Amirite. walk right out the cell with the white suit and snake-patterned lapels and all ☠️☠️

OK BUT MOST VALID RANT EVER. MOST VALID WANT EVER. would really just have the vibe of dragging your jaded uncle around the city i would died to have that,,, 😭😭

#snap chats #ON THE REAL THOUGH JO PARTY MEMBER WOULD'VE MADE ME YELL #it too is a part of my This Is Guaranteed To Never Happened But What If wish list..... #i still stand firm he shouldve at least been left with tendo for five minutes. JUST FIVE THEN EVERYONE ELSE CAN COME IN #first he necks his boss then he fucks up his office like LET HIM. GET A FEW SWINGS IN. it's what he deserves i think... #BUT REAL PLEEAASSE I WANT THE SAWASHIRO SOCIAL LINK GIVE IT TO ME RIGHT NOW SEGA #id die and throw up because you just know he and ichi'd have to talk about arakawa at some point during it... #if the whole SL not JUST being about meetin arakawa or his early days in the family #also forgive me for calling it 'social link' i unfortunately played persona a lot years ago and just. Its A Social Link ok ik im a monster #persona's one piece of media that was crucial to my developmental years its in my dna now... #IN ANY CASE NOOOOO I COULD SIT AND THINK FOREVER ABOUT JO MAKING LITTLE COMMENTS... #its my mental illness... its my weakness i think..... just thinkin of silly scenarios... #see while im cringe at being intelligent i AM adequate at making funny scenarios... hehe even... #its a dangerous thing to put an idea in my head as Creatively Ambiguous as that one oh no i feel my brain being eaten alive already #PLEASE I NEED THE PARTY TO REACT TO JO 😭😭 IN A NON VIOLENT SITUATION 😭😭 #i hope when jo's forced to be in social settings he's just Weird. like not Weird weird but its painfully obvious he's never had friends #like he just doesnt know what to do with himself the closest friend in age he has is adachi and He. Is Definitely A Character (affectionate #i hope theyre all out to lunch and someone makes a lighthearted joke and jo takes it too seriously and one other mate gotta just #'my guy relax. it was a joke. see [explains the joke]' and bro just Hm..... Not Funny Didn't Laugh about it right #he's not gonna flip the table now at least #UGH why would you remind me of the timeline of jo being a party member. im gonna drive myself mad thinkin bout it （；´x｀)（；´x｀) #ITD BE SO SWEET JUST SEEING JO BE NICE FOR FIVE SECONDS. NOT EVEN 'NICE' JUST CHILL #jo karaoke wouldnt exist but it'd be cute to at least see him in the crowd... #I REPEAT IM GONNA THINK OF LIL SCENARIOS LIKE THESE ALL DAY NOW NOOOOOO im ruined 😔

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

is it true that sofia wylie is dating the dude from the school for good and evil. if true happy for them or whatever but the existence of that movie still makes me want to bomb netflix hq and track down the author of those books hunter gatherer era style and tie him up on a spit and roast him alive over a fire. and feed him to wolves. or something idk i’m like a normal girl lmao

#already mad enough to be into a different show with another guy from that movie in it. #like i would never turn my back on sofia wylie i’d rather die than say a bad word about her. but i can’t believe she made such a movie…. #that was such a betrayal. and in the same year as hsmtmts s3? she hates me fr #beth.txt #no in seriousness i just think she’s got really shit taste. love her to pieces