#though I kinda do because of the adhd

[misc-obeyme]

My family: Hey you wanna come to lunch with us today? We’re gonna make you anyway because when was the last time you left your house?

Me: Well I WOULD but you see I’m neck deep in an obsession about my OC for a mobile otome game and even though I’m not editing his story like I should be right now, I am fleshing out his relationships with the canon characters & my other OCs just for my own knowledge and like yeah I could leave it for a bit but I am just in the MIDDLE of it right now-

My family: 🙂

Me: Yeah okay lemme get my shoes on.

This is how it would go if I even bothered trying to explain the OC stuff to them. But while my parents are aware of the shenanigans, they don’t get it & I already know that excuse won’t work. So fine I guess I’ll leave my house today.

#I’m sorry about this I’m just taking a break from tidying my house so they don’t think I live in a mess all the time #though I kinda do because of the adhd #and I can’t stop thinking about Arrie #and how I’d rather be working on his stuff right now lol #I am the worst #sorry family I love you #misc rambles

[steakout-05]

autistic coded men who have orange cats my beloved

#star trek tng #star trek #star trek data #garfield #garfield jon #jon arbuckle #jetpack joyride #professor brains #jetpack joyride 2 #this is my type. weird silly or otherwise quirky guys who have orange cats #brains being autistic is more just a headcanon i have rather than deliberate coding #but he's been shown to have a few autism-like behaviours and traits across the shorts and jetpack joyride 2 #it's kinda stereotypical but he's more of a logical simple thinker and he finds strings of numbers to be easier to remember than names #which i find to be interesting! he just has different thinking patterns from what i've seen in neurotypicals. and it's like. #it's the autism radar. i can always tell when a fictional character seems to be Not Neurotypical because holy shit they act like me- #-or another autistic person i know! #also all these characters are like. different facets of autism and i think that's so interesting #on the left we have highly logical direct and ''idk what to do with my face or my hands help'' sherlock spin autism #and then there's slightly unhinged dorky possible ADHD combo and complete lack of social skills autism #and finally there's the evil autism #and i love all three of them <3 #i just realised they're also all sitting in big comfy chairs! #jon's armchair looks so comfy though. like i really wanna sit in there #it's probably slightly dirty and most definitely scratched up by garfield but my god that's what make it more homely and comfy #i wonder how many armchairs jon has gotten over the years. i should count all the instances of him having a differently coloured armchair #anyway yeah. autistic cat dads my beloved <3

[endelerie]

i have the odd feeling to share my every thought to someone but its the middle of the night so ur all i got tumblr i love you guys so sorry for the little vent

#no im not sleep deprived #im just very confused #and stressed #figuring shit out yk #like ibknow i have adhd #but this is more stressful than going though the adhd criteria #i was sure of that #im not as sure of autism #but its popping up more and more recently #and i really feel like i need to check it out #but at the same time i dont know enough about normal social interaction to know whats differebt about me #and its so stressful because i feel like i need every little detail to even consider that i might have autism #idk why but i feel like figuring out if i had adhd felt normal #like i was always meant to do that #but teying to figure out if i have autism kinda feels like im offending someone???? #idk #im so confused about all of this #i feep so weird about it and i dont know how to make this feeling go away #its so overwhelming #vent #autism #adhd #anyways my previous post was me asking for help soooo

[bookwyrminspiration]

currently riding the high of a classmate saying "quil gets it" during a socratic seminar and saying I should interject more

#quil's unholy underworld #i love praise so so much #and that means more coming from this particular classmate because he's really vocal and opinionated about things #in like an intellectual debate kinda way #so even though I don't need validation and my thoughts stand on their own #when I do get it's just like fuck yeah I'm gonna get a good grade in whatever this is #his adhd clashes with my autism sometimes but like. analytically we are on the same brain wave #i would love to have like. an in-depth analytical discussion with him outside of the classroom context #there's like a few people where I'm like yes you get it you understand what it means to be analytical about a text #he is one of them #anyway I love compliments

[dobshands]

i am finding keeping up all this new Dylan content exhausting (that's not to say i don't love it)

i'm in the midst of training at a new job and my brain is just overloaded constantly, so my blog is even more chaotic than it usually is 💀 if you see me spam reblogging content I APOLOGISE (chances are i saw the content as soon as it came out but just haven't had a chance to actually sit down and reblog it and do tags that satisfy my brain's desire for order, despite not achieving it)

#i don't even know what the point of this post is #i just like to rationalise my brain sometimes #even though most of the time it cannot be rationalised #because i am as ADHD as you can get #i literally feel like...uneasy if i haven't reblogged new content #but then i still don't have time to do it #so it's a vicious cycle #lol should having a blog feel like a full time job??? #probably not #personal #but also kinda Dylan related #still love this man enough to do stupid shit for him

[nimbus-tatze]

Alice in Wonderland feels like ADHD

#the nonsense #too many wild thought #the inability to hold onto things #the lack of direction OR the occasional overabundance of directions #the difficulty of following a path #the emotions #it's just a lot and most of it is pretty vibrant #it's fantastically idiotic and sure while its fun it is also frustrating to realize how much time you've wasted on things you didn't even #intend to do #or doing things just because even though they're really confusing #kinda just realized how much alice in wonderland reminded me of ADHD and so my distant but emotional attachement to it makes sense now #i wouldn't call it my favourite story or even one i think about frequently but it's a story that i care for passionately when i remember it #i dont think anyone other than my mother knows that i enjoy alice in wonderland and thats only bc she said she hates it when it came up on #tv and i was like aha funny bc i really like it

[redriverstyx]

turns out i have fasd (fabulous amazing silly disorder) 👍

#all the symptoms except the face thing #but thats actually a misconception and many people with fasd dont have the face #every single symptom matches up #every strength and weakness i have matches #which is kinda sad because it feels like my whole personality is just a Symptom lmfao #but its nice to know that there's a reason why i cant concentrate or do any studying and why im so forgetful n stuff #and im glad i found out so i dont hate myself for the rest of my life #and theres a reason im the way i am #and it isnt my fault #so yeah lol #hey guys im joining the neurodivergent gang wassup #it sucks though that theres no community for us #like with adhd and autism theres like a community because its so well known #but with fasd theres nothing #but there must be so many people who have it cuz all it takes is just a few drinks to fuck up the baby #but who get it misdiagnosed as autism or adhd because theyre similar #and cuz its such a bitch to get fasd diagnosed cuz no one wants to listen to you if you dont have The Face #i wont ever get it diagnosed probably or not at least whilst im a kid #because my mum doesnt want me to and doesnt listen when i tell her i have it even tho she has enough evidence that my bio mum drank #and i know she'll say theres no point because theres nothing we can do about it and itll just look bad on my resume blah blah blah #but it would be nice to and i would like to have it diagnosed just so its official and i can feel better about it a little #maybe one day ill do a campaign or something and spread awareness of it cuz that would be nice #and thats actually something i want to do maybe and get a purpose #and to help the kids like me who used to feel there was something horribly wrong with them and they couldnt concentrate or do anything #and who felt they were lazy and who were so miserable #because ITS NOT THEIR FAULT!!! #youre not lazy youre trying your best and doing so well #i want it to be more well known so people dont feel as awful about themselves and spend their life hating themselves #but for now ill just try to survive until adulthood #red meows

[uberthief]

Ok so this was just a funny idea that popped into my head because I drink so much caffeine. But I suddenly found myself NEEDING to know how many shots of espresso could I theoretically take before I kneel over and die of an overdose.

I'm pretty sure I could get at least 30 shots in before my head starts to hurt too much and then I collapse, so tune in next time when I buy a bunch of shots and test my hypothesis out!

[ID: A screenshot of an article, the text reads "I know you're desperate to know how many shots of espresso can kill you. Depending on many factors, a lethal dose of caffeine is between 5,000 and 10,000 milligrams. That's roughly between 75 and 155 shots of espresso." End ID]

#espresso #I do not know how to tag this #i am so sorry if you come across this randomly #i was just thinking about it and my adhd strangled me and told me I had to find out NOW #also the article snippet is kinda funny which is why i put it there #author knew exactly what kind of people who were going to read this article were #i haven't written alt text before #if it's bad and needs changing please tell me!!! #i want everyone to see the qoute #which means making sure screen readers can read what the image is #but yeah #theoretically i could probably get to maybe even 50 shots #i don't know for certain though because eventually i would be unable to drink anything more physically #make sure not to overdose on caffeine though kiddos #it is not good™ from everything I've read and heard about it

[scarletcomet]

i am so normal and not mentally ill at all

#ok so im sorry to ppl who see this post before i delete it later but #i really want to sh and the only reason im like holding back is because scars #i have too many already and even if i tell myself i'll only do a little bit in an area that's easy to keep hidden i know that it's like #an addication and it's so hard to stop once you start and then the next thing you know you're out of space #the 2nd reason is because i don't want to break my 62 day streak on the calm harm app #i'm really out here having the same feelings about my days clean from sh as i do about my snapchat streaks or duolingo streaks huh #lmao #i'm really fucked up huh #i just need a few cuts but i know a few turns into 10 which turns into 50 and so on and then the same thing the next day #i know what relapses are like for me. 6 years of this shit now #maybe i should have thrown away all those blades back in september when i got clean again after a really bad relapse #i know exactly where they are hidden in the back of the drawer of my bedside table #i didn't throw them away because i wanted to have them 'just in case' #i guess having them there makes me feel idk safe? #anyways so sorry for posting this #im truly fine other than a little stressed and the overall self hatred #maybe i need to remember that i kinda freaked myself out several times the last relapse from like the severity of the wounds #i don't want to cut that deep though. at least rn. but i know once i start each cut just isn't 'bad' or deep enough so i keep going #ugh sorry for posting this idk what is wrong with me (other than the anxiety depression and adhd) #self harm tw

[reimeichan]

Signs of having DID that I ignored (note that these are not exclusively signs of DID but they were for me):

I don't have amnesia, that's just short term memory loss because I have ADHD!

I actually have a very good memory, I'm great at memorizing things (what do you mean that's not the same thing)

sure it may seem like my mood changes drastically but I've read online that's common in people with ADHD! it's hard for us to regulate our emotions!

so what if I have different preferences from time to time? that's normal right? like when your mood changes you may prefer different foods? what do you mean that's not the same as going from "I hate spicy foods" one day to "omg I LOVE spicy foods!" the next?

yeah okay I tend to space out in the middle of conversations then come back to and need you to remind me what you said for the past 10 seconds or so. that's just my ADHD inattentiveness. what do you mean that I only do this when stressed. what do you mean that's a form of dissociation.

speaking of dissociation, sure sometimes I feel like I'm watching myself say and do things without my own input but that's just because I was tired/stressed out

yeah sometimes I go on autopilot. my autopilot seems to have its own agenda sometimes though. weird.

sure I changed usernames a *few* times but isn't that pretty common? yeah I also wanted to change how I presented online and also my pronouns and stuff but again isn't it common for people to want to start over sometimes?

*making multiple accounts to play the same game because I play the game differently on different accounts and don't want to mess things up on one account*

oh yes, I'm genderfluid! I say that because my gender absolutely changes from moment to moment and sure it seems kinda tied to other aspects of myself like color preferences and energy levels and personality traits but I'm pretty sure that's just par for the course with genderfluidity?

"you're so different when you're around your parents vs when you're at school/work vs when you're hanging out with friends!" yeah that's called being a complex person we all have different masks we wear in different social situations and I'm no different even if it seems more extreme for me

"how was school/work/the hang-out/going to visit your parents?" I don't know I'm tired and have a giant headache and can't remember

"you said this to me the other day and it made me feel <x>" what????? I literally have no memory of this and that's so incredibly out of character for me wtf I would never do that I was probably just really stressed out and tired and had no filter on.

#did #dissociative identity disorder #actually did #actuallydid #did osdd #osddid #cdd #there's like. so much more but I have therapy right now and honestly this is a pretty good list #by green #by gray #by purple #putting this here in case other people may see this and relate and not feel as alone in their own journeys #we're going through a denial spike rn so it was helpful for us to write some of this stuff down

[windy-wonko]

IS THERE DISCOURSE ON HYLIA BEING THE VILLAIN AGAIN

#ganon rambles #i cant tell if the fandom is mad about it because peiple are making her genuinely evil for no reason or if people are making her morally #grey- a common thing for gods to be in mythologies #a god can be good and make mistakes and not truly understand EVERYTHING #thats kinda what mythology was all about anyways #having higher beings that humans can relate to #SORRY IVE BEEN HEARING A LOT ABOUJT THIS LLATELY AND THATS JUST MY TWO CENTS #like i genuinely cant tell if her being morally grey is being thought of as 'evil' because people are bad at media interpretation #or if peiple are just like she IS the bad guy #DEMISE is evil. hylia is human #there argument over #but yeah i hate demise for what he cursed ganon to be #a monster in every life #hylia is just meh to me cuz my adhd dont do tha same tingle when i see her #evil hogs make my adhd tingle though #even still i think we can coexist without fandom argument #plus i have to say it wasnt her who genocided the shika it was the old king after all #and i personally theorize that hylia took so long to lend zelda her power because her own children used it for violence against eachother #sorry im a god nerd

[skeletalheartattack]

Mr.Skeletal, can i ask question? Have you ever seen Trigun?

i haven't actually! tbf i don't watch a lot of anime all things considered. looking at images of it though, it looks neat!

#ask #anon #honestly i dont watch a lot of media in general outside of youtube/twitch #theres so many movies ive never seen #im just very bad at watching stuff. or wanting to watch stuff #though. i always run out of things to watch cause i binge watch twitch streams a lot. its a vicious cycle.... #maybe ill look into watching trigun sometime!! #i started watching jojo part 6 but paused on episode 3 last week... #its not bad or anything! i just get really distracted with what i watch is all #i want to get around to watching Our Flag Means Death. i have no context on it beyond it being about pirates #ive also been watching some of What We Do in the Shadows! #its very good :) though again i kinda lose attention after a few episodes because my adhd #i cant wait for better call saul to return.... #ive had a dream of how it leads into breaking bad and it made no sense #july 16th is so fucking far away!!!!! #anyway! thank you for the ask :) #i might look into it some day if my adhd allows it :)

[alpaca-clouds]

Schrödinger's Disability

"Stop using your autism/adhd as an excuse!" I cannot tell you how often I got to hear that. Because here is the thing: Most people do not perceive either of those two diagnosises as "real". Even if they know they are real. Even medical professionals do not quite... understand it. Even those working with neurodivergent people.

Of course, if someone is the kinda autistic person who has also some sort of mental impairment, people perceive it as a disability - but if it does not come along with that kinda stuff, a lot of people treat it, as if we make an active choice to do or not to do something.

I told this story yesterday: When I was a kid, the following thing would always happen. When we would have art class, some of my pencils would drop from the table. Most likely because of dyspraxia. Now, when that happened I was simply not able to stop what I was doing. Because my brain cannot handle "stopping one thing to do another thing even for just a moment" very well. And it could handle it even worse when I was a kid. But also, I do not have object permanence. So, if an object does not exist within my field of vision, I just... forget about it. So, I often would just forget to pick the pencil back up. And teachers would be: "Oh, this boy is too lazy to pick up his own things." Which was not at all what was happening.

Another thing that happened to me too often is a very typical autism thing: Someone tells me something. But they do not tell me this in plain words, but rather imply it. So... I very much just not understood it. So, for example, I got told on a Discord Server by one user: "I have muted this channel." Which I understood as: "They muted this channel (maybe because it is very active)". What they said was, though: "I do not wanna see this channel, stop tagging me in this."

And mind you, this happens at work and university, too. A good example is the good old question of: "When are you done with this?" Which I usually understand as: "When are you done with this?" But what they mean to say is: "Hurry up, I need this now."

Last semester I had this happen at university even. Basically I misunderstood the final assignment, because it was not spelled out. Thankfully the professor was less of an asshole about it, than most people. I explained it to him, he understood, still got a good grade. But that tends to be more the exception than the rule.

As I said, this is a thing that even medical professionals do not really get. Even therapists do again and again fail to just communicate with autistic people clearly. They do not think about us usually being unable to understand implied meanings. We only understand the literal meaning for a lot of stuff.

And again: This is especially harsh with people like me, who superficially seem to function well in society. Heck, I have been told by professionals that I could not have ADHD or autism, because I archived a master's degree at university. Because they cannot comprehend that both ADHD and autism are a spectrum. It is not something you "either have, or have not" but it is a wide spectrum of symptoms that are differently strong in different people.

In Germany this also shows harshly when it comes to disability benefits. Because autism on its own rarely ever qualifies for disability benefits at all. Mental disabilities that might be linked to autism do. But autism on its own? No. Same goes with ADHD. And this... is kinda silly, right? Because we have studies upon studies that people with autism and ADHD often cannot work fulltime - at least not permanently. And we also know that generally neurodivergent people are more likely to be fired for a plenthora of reasons. So, yeah, we should kinda be treated like disabled, right?

And the worst part? In the parts where you get legally discriminated because of disabilities? Yeah, we still get that. We cannot immigrate into all other contries. Like, I cannot immigrate into New Zealand, for example, even though I would like too, because New Zealand discriminates against people with autism when it comes to immigration.

So... yeah. No, this sucks.

Nobody would tell a blind person overlooking a visual sign: "Stop using your blindness as an excuse". But with autistic people? It is the norm.

#autism #adhd #audhd #actually audhd #disability #disability rights #neurodiversity #neurodivergent

[greenunoreversecard]

HEYYEYHEY CAN I REQUEST LLOYD (ninjago) HEADCANONS PLEASEEEE (ty :3)

A/N: Ofc!I'll do general character ones, as well as x reader ones :) hope ye likey likey:pp

Lloyd, The Greenest and Geekest mf.

General character headcanons:

Half Japanese half Chinese

His hair is box blonde dye and you cannot change my mind.

Left handed

Severely dyslexic and hands off all scroll reading and just reading oriented tasks to kai.

Def gen z vibes. Like, the others give off more inbetween z and millenial, so they dont always get his humor. And sometimes he uses that to his advantage and "Speaks in code" (uses as much slang as possible)

Has LED lights in his room set to forest green.

Has given himself a smiley face tattoo.

Cried over a dead goose once.

OK, just to preface i see cole as a stoner of Sorts and uses the excuse "it gets me closer to my element"

With that in mind cole let lloyd try it and now sometimes when he is told to unwind, of feels like he needs to take a chill pill he and Cole spark up

in the beginning of his leader ship role, he used to Say;"kick ass and take names" and if things went wrong he had the fuck it we ball mindset, but got better with time. There are still times they wing it, though.

if he isnt in his gi he almost exclusively wears his pajamas (aka a Hoodie, tshirt and sweats)

Vv tired, and now has a raging addiction to energy drinks due to his lack of Sleep.

He used to eat worms as a kid bc he Thought he it was evil.

Has a eyebrow piercing, and wants a tongue piercing.

Wears "reading" glasses, that he should technically wear all the time because he can't see up close and has a astigmatism,, but he says yolo. Zane then make him contacts after he almost ran into a moving blade and got his head severed.

Adhd and OCD, as well as the normal line up (anxiety, depression, cptsd)

Lloyd in a relationship:

Hes very distant in the beginning, it'll take time to warm up to you.

He tends to be orage cat vibes.

On the cat trend, he gets close for a bit Before becoming distant. Going through waves of affection, kinda.

He hasn't had like, any good relationships in his life so he tries to "protect" himself when he feels he gets to close to you, and so he pulls away.

He does the fuckboy face when your sad bc it makes you laugh, as well as That weird dice roll

He actually does the face/dice roll combo whenever he Sees you as he walks over, it's an inside joke now

primary giving love language: acts of service and quality time

Primary receiving love language: gifts and words of affirmation. But physical touch is also high up there.

Also, not expensive gifts. He hates those. Give him a stick you saw on a walk that made you think of him. He'll cherish it forever. And maybe cry.

He will cry.

will make noises at you and expects a noise in response or he'll be sad.

Also randomly bites you. He's a nommer

also sends you memes throughout the day.

As well as random pictures with the caption;"BABY LOK THIS IS S. US IF WE WHERE *insert whatever item here*

Called you babe, baby, love, shitface, asshole.

Expect kind and loving gentle bullying.

Doesnt know how to express his emotions to just expect him to come up to you, lightly shake your shoulders and aggressively say;"I love you bitch.i ain't Evea gon stop lovin you. Bitchhhhhhh" (vine reference)

Sends you .5 of everyone, himself included. He's addicted to Taking them. You will not get out of it.

Also sometimes just walks around in nyas stilettos for fun.

You two have fashion shows.

You also take over the Living room sometimes and build giant ass forts to watch shitty reality tv in and make fun oF The people

Overall, once he realizes you won't leave he's the most funniest loving chaotic guy.

But expect it to take a hot minute for him to realsie this

give him time,, but also have some deep talks..

Let him vent

and for the love of God don't hurt the baby's heart.

Expect inside jokes

#no beta we die like jason todd #greeny's inbox #Ninjago x reader #lloyd garmadon #lloyd montgomery garmadon #lego ninjago #Lloyd garmadon x reader #Ninjago x you #Male reader #gn reader #ninjago lloyd