#to everybody it’s not that difficult

[luminouslotuses]

i’m gonna say it i don’t give a fuck how old you are in this situation. your age, even if you’re younger, is not an excuse to continue supporting wilbur. this behavior is fucking disgusting

#i get that those who are younger may not be fully comprehending this #but i’m sorry if i were 13 and this was happening i would open my fucking eyes and see the facts. #would i have a hard time accepting it? sure. but that doesn’t mean it gives me a right to still support an abuser & rapist #and even so keep that shit off the internet. you can feel it in private (and even then that’s still not good) and not fucking broadcast it #to everybody it’s not that difficult #abuse tw #sa tw #wilbur situation

[king-krisu]

Everybody say thank you @kiuruthings for doing the most of this already but I had some thoughts as well 😮‍💨🤚🏻

Preliminary lyrics / translations

Chorus:

Rakkauden laiva on lastattu

The love boat is loaded

Käy köysiini keinumaan

Come swing from my ropes

Kun viimeinen tanssi on tanssittu

When the last dance has been danced

Voidaan mennä hyttiisi heilumaan

We can go swing around in your cabin

En tiiä oonko/ootko se oikea, vai ootko mun vielä aamulla mut tänään

I don't know if you're/I'm the right one, or if you're still mine in the morning but today

Huh-huh-hahahahahuhh-hahh-hei

Verse 1:

Ku tuun diskoon nii mun estot tippuu

When I come into the disco my inhibitions fall [off]

Saman tien joku tulee kimppuun

At once someone comes up to me [literally "attacks me"]

Okei, sä kuiskuttelet mulle jotain (mä tuun?)

Okay, you whisper something to me (I'm coming [over]?)

Mä koitan vastaa mut ei suusta tuu ku (?)

I try to answer but the only thing out of my mouth is (?)

Ja kun (soittaa?) Ricky vanhaa kunnon Martinii se saa joka iikan haluu naimisiin niiku tyylii sillon

And when good old Ricky Martin (plays?) it'll make every single one want to wed kinda like when

Pre-chorus:

Sä, ja mä, tänään

You, and me, tonight

Okei, okei, okei, okei

Sä, ja mä, tänään

You, and me, tonight

Ja sisälläni sydän laulaa sävelmää

And inside of me my heart sings a melody

[Chorus]

Verse 2:

Okei, en pistä vastaan jos tää menee (hullummaks?)

Okei, I won't be against it if this becomes (crazier?)

Enkä pelkää sanoo jos tää menee (too much?)

And I'm not afraid to say if this becomes (too much?)

Ja kun ne soittaa Ricky vanhaa kunnon Martinii se saa joka (?) haluu mun (?) niiku tyylii sillon

And when they play good old Ricky Martin it'll make every (?) want to (?) kinda like when

Chorus

..... mut tänään jään sitä selvittämään

..... but today I'll stay and figure it out

#käärijä #jere pöyhönen #god this was difficult #everybody say thank you kiuru for doing most of the leg work #i'll be humbled when it turns out this is all wrong #oh well

[tj-crochets]

Thinking about my neurology appointment again, I have another weird question for y'all! My neurologist was surprised and said it was weird I was right handed, which I am assuming is because of the reflex and grip tests she did, not because I give off a left-handed kind of vibe Wait I was going to ask if it was weird that I, a non-ambidextrous person, hit and kick evenly with both right and left sides, open doorknobs with whichever hand is closer, and use the foot pedal for the sewing machine with whichever foot it ends up nearer but can't write with my left hand But I just tried it and I can write with my left hand??? Like, not as neatly or as quickly as with my right, but it's clearly legible and not difficult to do. Have I been ambidextrous this entire time??

#the person behind the yarn #this post went off the rails in the middle #but I genuinely thought everybody could do that #like. I knew it threw people a bit when I was in martial arts and sparring #because I actually prefer to kick from my left side a bit but use whichever leg makes more sense #and also because I could change my stance for which leg was forward very easily and that was difficult for this one guy to do #but I thought it was just a that one guy problem! #I did not think I was potentially the odd one out #wait do you guys open doors with your off hand? #people who sew use both hands so they have one hand one each side of the cloth #and just use the hand on the far side of the cloth to push the needle back up. right? #I worded that poorly but I'm hoping it still makes sense

[ridell-crimea]

something something im once again looking at the tellius artbooks. i think i hauve covid

#ARE YOU KIDDING. purple is soooo pretty on her #thinking abt it now im surprised calill hasnt made it to heroes yet..... like i know the tellius cast is in a difficult situation overall #but. aoufskfjfh :) #(@everybody who left drawing suggestions thank youuu im slowly trying to get started!!) #personal

[petrichormore]

really hope this fandom doesn’t boil down Ron’s character and Ron’s relationship to q!bbh as just “haha Stockholm syndrome” because

1. the first ‘case’ of Stockholm syndrome was literally made up by police to discredit a woman. it was made up. Arguably not real. a very misunderstood phenomena.

and 2. Their relationship is so much more complex than that? especially Ron’s motives and decision making, but also q!Bad’s motives as well. They are both completely fucked in the head and fully believe they care about the other (or rather, we know q!bbh is so twisted that he’s come to care about Ron - from what we know this is not a giant ploy to give Ron Stockholm syndrome. maybe it was at first but now he’s just batshit crazy). The toxic codependency they have going on is so intriguing and like whatever it’s funny to point and go “lima/stockholm syndrome” as a generalization but don’t be like “and this relationship is toxic because it’s just Stockholm syndrome” nuh uh. it’s toxic for a million other reasons as well. Get swarmed 🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝🐝

#sorry I’m feeling silly #qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp Ron #stockholm syndrome is an interesting phenomena but given the circumstances of the island it’s kinda #difficult to accurately apply without aknowledging the nuance #i want to remind everybody that q!Cellbit canonically ate q!Pac’s leg in the past and now they’re friends so. #Ron and q!bbh friendship literally not even the weirdest thing to happen #i mean have you seen landduo

[rickybaby]

The Ricciardo factor applies

#remember when Daniel got the seat and everyone was laughing when helmut said sometimes you need to change drivers to give the team a jolt #not surprising that this actually happened #as much as it is difficult to believe for some #both Franz and Bayer have continuallyemphasised ​the technical expertise that Daniel brought to the team in terms of extracting performance #but I think what’s truly been understated is the energy Daniel has brought #you see him talk to his engineers and mechanics and everybody else in his garage and you see how he’s able to galvanise people #Pat Fry talks about it in his beyond the grid episode - how his ability to lead a team puts him in that special category of drivers #and I’m just glad to see AT give him that mutual respect and #it just makes you feel that it wouldn’t be too bad if he doesn’t get the rb seat for next yea r #because you know he’s going to do something very special at AT and I can’t wait to see that #daniel ricciardo

[kagooleo]

only have time for some quick doodles but I’ve been doodling some of the king ohger fellers while i'm at work!

#kagoodles #king ohger #ohsama sentai kingohger #gira kingohger #yanma gust #himeno ran #rita kanisuka #kaguragi dibousuki #class projects are kicking my butt even though i'm on break #the costuming on the show is like. my main draw #but I’ve been hearing stuff about the motion sickness/disorientation cuz of the camera angles #so i'm waiting for a couple episodes to roll out mayhaps to watch with my homie :] #fun practice though!! really liking everybody's vibes so far #kaguragi or rita may be my favorites but damn if their designs are a bit difficult to actually. draw

[dumbhero]

shuro's bad shuro's the worst i'll kill you i'll kill us both he literally hasnt eaten or showered in days and has been searching for a woman he loves very dearly i think that alone entitles him to be a little cranky with laios + he ALSO doesn't understand social cues because he comes from a totally different culture and social standing. laios is a completely different kind of person than shuro has ever had to deal with before. yes they fight but CLEARLY they don't actually want to hurt each other because if they did shuro could, weakened though he is, turn laios into mincemeat. he's angry but he wants to talk to him. he's angry because if the western elves learn falin was brought back using ancient magic they'll kill her or experiment on her, NOT because he has some beef with ancient magic itself. and literally at the end he tells Laios he's not going to say anything. and that no matter what happens he can call Shuro for help and he'll literally HELP HIM ESCAPE TO HIS HOME IN THE EAST. if you don't like shuro because he "doesnt like laios" you're already wrong because that's a bad reason to dislike a character (laios is legitimately grating and awkward, we find it endearing bc we understand he's not doing it on purpose + we know he's fictional + many of us see ourselves in him anyway) but also he LITERALLY DOES LIKE LAIOS. he finds it difficult to communicate with him just like laios finds it difficult!! if shuro hated him i cannot stress there's a million things he could've done other than punching him back when he slapped him LMAO

#shuro is NICEYS. i will defend him with my life #he literally knows laios is being genuine and sincere and he's resentful of this bc he finds it difficult for himself to be the same way !! #'clearly he hates him' meanwhile he's like hey i dont know if you can actually save her #but regardless of what happens i want you to know i'll help you if you ask. i #i'll literally smuggle you to the east where i'm an heir to the throne #would you not be a little frustrated at the guy who got your name so wrong everybody calls you the wrong thing even if he means well

[alphadog]

killed hey chris with one line

#from a top ten hit too which is very difficult to get not everybody has that to their credit

[nerdgirlnarrates]

So a fun thing that came up in therapy is how I have a lot of trouble believing that I can be in a long-term loving romantic relationship and how that relates to being told over and over that going into medicine would make me difficult to marry. There were other things about me that garnered this criticism (I was a weird kid growing up and had the typical weird kid experiences that make you believe you're unlovable), but it mostly revolved around wanting to go into medicine, and it mostly came from my parents. There was a lot of fretting over how men would struggle with a woman having such a demanding career and how they would be emasculated by my salary, etc. There was also fretting over how I should avoid ambitious men because it would make it even more difficult to balance careers, and this concern usually came with the message that the man's career is more important. Sometimes this was implicit, but sometimes it was explicit: at the beginning of med school, my mom told me I shouldn't date a classmate because "[their] career will come first." I once had a hypothetical discussion with my dad about what I would do if I had a disabled child who needed a parent at home, and his immediate response was "you can't ask a man to quit his job." Never mind the work you put in to your career, how much you like it, how your respective jobs impact household finances--you can't ask a man to quit his job. That's that. I was also asked repeatedly, and not just by my parents, if I would give up my job if my husband asked (no additional context was given, of course). When I said I wouldn't, I was accused of being unwilling to make any sacrifices in a relationship.

In retrospect, I think my parents thought they were preparing me for realistic relationship struggles. Obviously having a demanding job can create tension, and it created tension in their marriage when they both had demanding careers and small children. Ultimately my mom quit her job, for that and other reasons. But I think that decision was also due, in some part, to patriarchal assumptions about who should be at home and whose career matters. That assumption was passed along in the concerns they harbored about my career, and instead of making me feel prepared to deal with relationship stressors, I started believing I couldn't have a career and a marriage. I picked a career.

Medicine is deeply, deeply important to me, and it feels like part of who I am, and I can't imagine giving it up to be more appealing as a wife. I can't stop being someone who loves medicine and work. I don't want to be married for the sake of it or loved halfway; I want to be loved as what I am or I want to be alone. For years, it felt like I couldn't both want things and be married. To be married, I had to be ready to give up everything at the drop of a hat, throw out all my dreams and ambitions if someone asked. The context doesn't matter--I'm the woman, so I'm the one who quits. I'm the one who gives things up.

I couldn't do it. I couldn't stop wanting things: I want to be a physician and teach and work in sexual violence prevention for the rest of my life. I want to paint and write novels. And I don't want to give any of it up unless I absolutely have to. Worse, I want someone to actually like all those things about me rather than simply tolerate them. And I want to be seen as kind and smart and funny and interesting and attractive, and it's just too much. I want too much. I just don't think it's possible to want this much from life and from a partner. I've had some people tell me that what I want is fine and realistic, and I don't really believe them.

#this is very personal but what can I say I'm feeling introspective #also listen not everybody ends up with someone #that's just facts #and I think I'm that person #I want way too much and it makes things too difficult #but I can't stop being what I am #so there it is #medblr #med school #med student #medicine #my content #my text posts

[redbootsindoriath]

I remembered today that if I want to continue my accidental Bilbo and the troll tradition I need to get cracking on a new drawing before I wake up in 2024 having missed my chance.

2023 Bert stole 2020 Bert’s hair and put it all over his face.  That’s why 2020 Bert was bald.  I just didn’t know that at the time.

#bilbo #the man the myth the legends #beowulf except everybody is short #my trash #/end classification tags #bilbo continues his 2020 aspirations of becoming a contortionist #hear me out though: it's a bit difficult to have two characters have a non-awkward-looking conversation when #one is a hobbit #and the other is a troll #and the other is suspending the one in the air by holding the one's toes #let's at least admire bilbo's core strength in this drawing anyway #trying to form a sentence while holding yourself halfway through a hanging sit-up is not the easiest task in the world #for a 50-year-old hobbit he's doing remarkably well in that area #no but this one took like THREE HOURS #(maybe more?? i wasn't keeping exact track of time for it) #and i still somehow managed to get the perspective wrong #rip me #but hey this art tablet is such a lifesaver #also just so y'all know #i've got a moderately notable and time-consuming life change coming up in august #one which will require a decent amount of preparation beforehand #so i don't know if i'll be posting much during july or august #but then again who knows #i might #(also happy belated insufferable yank day to my american followers) #(sorry i didn't get a drawing done in time) #(i have been on the road for a MONTH and only got back last week)

[californiannostalgia]

sometimes I think

hey maybe it's that time again

it's that time to write an abuse survivor mental illness fic with lester papadopoulus and maybe that will help me figure out what the fuck is going on in my brain

maybe my obsession with normalcy and potential dangers and spiraling late at night and being suspicious of people and the hollow disgust at the desperately cheerful person I become around my (changed behavior) parents isn't normal people stuff

maybe I'm gonna be afraid forever incomprehensible forever non-normal forever and maybe apollo wants to say a few words on the subject

#lester papadopoulos #my thoughts #child abuse #I can't though because I suck at writing -> see I know this isn't strictly true but this is the first thought I go to #it is fucked up how I've internalized the concept of writing as a waste of time #feeling sort of insane hah when have I not felt insane #merry christmas and happy new year everybody somehow it's that time of year #I can't even figure out whether I want to keep going on this life trajectory bc most of the time I can't guage the misery level difference #is this academic student thing more difficult? less? what am I comparing this with? #is the fact that I was abused and so easier to take advantage of gonna be obvious to everyone I meet? how mentally ill do I seem to others? #vent post #trials of apollo

[koko2unite]

I'm so mentally ill I can only draw in my cheaply bought pre-owned tablet from 2015 using my computer in my silly little room in my house and not anywhere else

#what the hell #also idk how you guys can do it but drawing in ipad is so difficult #screen too tiny every button is so tiny half of my shortcuts doesnt work #sobbing #i wanna go home #oh i never told people but im at my parents house right now and i cant go home until uhm indefinitely #so not only my work commute is much more longer i also cant game #but also #i cant draw #even though i brought my ipad with me #because???? idfk #my brain suckssss #and if i push forward and keep drawing the result ended up looking shit and my mood just got worse and AAAAA #Also everybody here is on diet so no snacking!??? #im gonna cry #also i have 2 comms right now in the work but i didnt upload both in the cloud so i dont have the files rn and im crying and aaaaaaaa

[green-mug-tomato-juice]

odo's whole "i don't choose sides, i'm the outsider, i'm not a collaborator - i investigate crimes objectively, only if someone is guilty i turn them over to cardassian authorities" is so weird to me. because by letting cardassians decide the fate of bajoran criminals, he acknowledges them as having authority on bajor. which they should not, because bajor doesn't belong to them - their claim to power over bajor is inherently violent and is by far the biggest injustice in this whole situation. and since odo defines his whole being by his own sense of justice, you would think he would see that.

#ds9 #every time i rewatch i like odo less and less :( #not in a 'odo is a shit character' way #it's more like... personal disappointment #odo is the archetype of a stern guy with a very soft and empathic and loving core #but the more plainly i look at all the mistakes he makes the more difficult i find it to look past them #because the thing is he's NOT a bad person. he made those mistakes out of pure ignorance and lack of self reflection #and that is almost more inexcusable than being knowingly evil. because you just think HOW could you not have realised #and he doesn't really realise later either. he just goes about he keeps being ignorant in his own way #and sure he has learned things and sure he knows things that will help his people become better #but at his core he is still ignorant about some important things that could very well be the cause of him becoming a collaborator #in another massive injustice #(that's why i'm not sure about the ds9 ending. i'm not sure the founders will really change. not sure odo alone is capable of that) #so you see odo you make me very sad #thats GREAT character writing everybody

[warlenys]

hallucination kutner literally calling it “five months of wilson” just not ok

#rewatching everybody dies. bad idea #gonna try not to constantly pause it to make posts #but. difficult #house md #hilson #+

[kukekakuningaskris]

A tiny painting inspired by Everybody's Waiting💡

(explanation of the symbolism below the cut if you want to read about it!)

The lightbulb itself is made out of the symbols used in poetry analysis to portray stressed and unstressed syllables (macron and breve notation). There are five of the stressed symbols (straight lines) and four of the unstressed symbols (curved lines) between them, because that's the rhythm of the main line that is repeated in the chorus (everybody's waiting at the ball). Inside the bulb there are the five straight lines for the stressed syllables because in poetry the focus is almost always on the stressed syllables, thus being the thing everyone pays attention to - the light. Then at the bottom of the bulb there are four curved lines for the unstressed syllables, since they are not focused on as much, but they are still important and hold the whole line and verse together.

#something about this song has inspired me to create in several different ways #this was also inspired by the cover art for the single #joker out #everybody's waiting #making my visual art be about the art of the written (sung) word #why is taking pictures of paintings so difficult it feels like i'll never learn how to do it properly