#today’s personal update

[adelaidedrubman]

man doctors are so fucking dumb as hell i have spent two years dealing with almost daily tension headaches/migraines, muscle pain and spasms, constant unilateral tinnitus, ear pain and popping, eye pain and blurry vision, severe insomnia, brain fog, vertigo, and balance/coordination issues.

i had consults with multiple neurologists, rheumatologists, audiologists, and physical therapists to get a ton of inconclusive test results and a “something mildly abnormal. who could say why. looks like my job here is done” and ineffective or nonexistent treatments. learned to just live with the pain and impaired functioning while secretly worrying i had some serious condition that would remain undiagnosed until i collapsed in public in some dramatic fashion and got sent to dr. house.

dentist feels my jaw for 5 seconds and says “oh yeah that’s real fucked up lol. are you also having [all of the previously described symptoms]”

and the punchline to all this is i have to pay out of pocket to have it fixed because insurance doesn’t cover adult orthodontics ✨️

#dentist isn’t off the hook as one of the good ones btw i’ve been there before and he didn’t notice and also calls me ‘‘young lady’’ so. #probably the wildest of all these oversights was the audiology testing which showed i had perfect hearing despite the tinnitus #but DID have one sided vestibular weakness/damage #to which audiologist was like ‘‘unclear why!’’ and when i gave the results to the neurologist she was like ‘‘i don’t care<33’’ #anyways. not overly optimistic treatment will fix everything that got fucked up but maybe it won’t get worse 🤞 #today’s personal update

[tapakah0]

#I will regret my life if I miss today's update. #weather person of Cass

[ebonytails]

Hey everyone! this is where the zebra is currently with the design.

It has knee braces!! I will most probably be drawing the zebra usually with them on, but it’s no requirement, for example if anyone else wants to draw the zebra :-]. I always like to make sure an animal design has official colors underneath any clothing and accessory anyway. I think this will be final! thank you everyone for your feedback!

As a reminder, aside from why the zebra was requested for this flag, this is also just a zebra with the disability pride flag on it. It’s just a deisgn to fit the flag, with input from other disabled people in our community. It doesn’t mean other animals can’t have designs with these colors, too! I don’t mean this design to be the only mascot for all disabled people. It’s just a silly series i do of pride animals, and at the time, during disability pride month, I wanted to see what everyone wanted me to start off with for this flag!

the goal with my pride animals is to take requests and make people feel happy and seen.. that’s all <:-)

#disability pride #pride animals #disability #disability pride flag #zebras #I’ve been a little stressed about this animal for the past week.. I will be honest with you #The zebra has many stripes and I wanted to try my best to make sure it wouldn’t cause issues like headaches or other things #also.. if]ve been working on this for a while now.. i want to call it done soon! #But now that this is finished #I will start designing stickers and pins to put on redbubble and also for me to print IRL! #thank you everyone! I’ve also learned more than whatbI already knew this week #Even if it was stressful it was fun to see everyone get so excited when I would show updates to the designs #Sorry for a long speech.. I am a very nervous person today #Excuse my typos! I’m a fast typer and tired from the day #ebonytailsart #Thank you yomcloud for giving me your feedback as well. I don’t have a lot of perspective on visual processing disorders and photensitivity #so it meant a lot to me #just like the other pride animals I am very open to making more animal designs for this flag! But I’d like to save it for the future instea #It’s a bit too soon at the moment. thank youuu

[midnightclover]

Summon Night: Swordcraft Story (ATLUS, 2003)

#my actual posts lol #haha what if i made a daily diary post thing like nico #..i was just thinking #today was a good day #and i thought of this song #ive been playing summon night swordcraft story a lot as of late.. though none today actually #its still on my mind though #i considered using dweller empty path's song flying through a stary sky instead.. but this is what i thought of first #i think it fits best to use it #i actually had to jump through some hoops to upload music! #cus my tumblr app is kinda old.. i cant properly upload music. i could only put a link #which isnt exactly ideal #so i tried in my web browser.. but maybe its cus i havent updated it in a while or maybe just cus its tor.. it didnt work #so i downloaded firefox and did it on there lol #now im editing it in my drafts back on the app #dont ask why im not just doing it on my computer... shes having some technical difficulties. we're working on it #but not today #... #today was pretty eventful.. even if not very productive. but ive never been a very productive person #we went and saw some light festival thing! it was rly nice.. a little simple at times but it was fun #we went and got some yummy snacks earlier too! tho ive already eaten them all hehe #and i started up animal crossing new leaf. i hadnt played it in ages! its startling how much better it is than new horizions.. imo at least #only problem is i couldnt make it the same as my island.. and i didnt remember why i named my last town #we searched for a while for some reference or somfin to name it after.. but we ended up just going with ''faraway'' #cus i liked the idea of being asked where im going.. and just saying far far away #and as beth said it has a kinda fairytail vibe! #...only after i named it did i realize i accidentally named it after the town in omori. oops! #...im about to hit the tag limit. so whoevers still listening i just want u to know.. #i love you. ok? #goodnight

[sailoryooons]

Semi-Hiatus Announcement

Hi all, due to unforeseen circumstances I will be taking a semi-hiatus from writing and Tumblr roughly until October. I am going through a very difficult time and the last thing I want to do is put my writing on pause because it genuinely brings me so much joy, but I’m trying to accommodate for very unexpected and harsh changes to my life that are super time-consuming and that just... keep coming.

I will call this a semi-hiatus because I have collaboration responsibilities and a server to help mod, but I will not be actively writing as I spend the next few weeks trying to figure out how to manage all these changes coming my way.

This is the worst post I’ve ever had to make. I don’t know. I’m incredibly sad. I don’t want to sacrifice my writing time but I literally don’t know when I can fit in any of the things in that I have to do. I am really hoping that maybe after two weeks I will have an execution plan and not still be looking for solutions but I have no idea. 

Here is to hoping that things sort themselves out and that life gets a little easier for me during oncoming challenges.

Updated: No longer on hiatus as of 9/30 - I see people keep interacting with this post but I didn't want to delete it because it's referenced elsewhere.

#halis updates #i cried multiple times writing this lolllll literally writing is like my safe place and the only thing i do for myself #and some things happened in my person life today that i just... don't know how to manage it and i have to sacrifice writing for now #idk maybe in a week i will be in a better spot to manage all of my fic projects #but as of write now i literally do not know how

[youkaiyume]

So had my consultation with the Oncologist today. (That's a doctor specializing in cancer btw) And it was a lot and also not a lot of information. But also, I finally saw the imaging of my bffs the ovarian cysts. Gross medical things under the cut:

HOLY SHIT I know the left one was huge but apparently both my right and left ovaries are sporting cysts larger than grapefruits each. They're literally shoving all of my organs out of the way what space is there for anything else down there???? And I have a small pelvis, no wide child bearing hips on this gal. The doctor said they are probably dermoid cyst which can have all sorts of things floating in there in addition to fluid like... hair and skin--and she said they detected calcium so I possibly have TEETH in there??? TEETH.

She also said that the cancer markers were high. like really high. Like normal is 30 and my readings were 3600--100x more than normal. She still said that she doesn't think it's cancer because nothing else internally looks like it's affected and there have been one other case who was like, in the 7000 marker that turned out to be nothing. But Also it could mean if it was some type of cancer that it was in the early stages. HOW FUN.

They won't know for sure though until they test the cysts themselves and that can't happen until they surgically remove them. After making sure I don't want children she says that they'll still try to leave me some ovary... nubbins? Nubs of ovaries. just enough to still produce estrogen because they don't want to force early menopause by taking out both of my ovaries cuz apparently that causes a bunch of other health issues I'm too young for. But also if worst comes to worst and it IS cancer they might have to just take all the girl bits out. The ovaries, a hysterectomy. The works. Which is fine I don't ever plan to have children and if I did I wanted to adopt anyway. Again, can't know until they test my GRAPEFRUIT CYSTS.

I have yet to hear back from the scheduling lady for a confirmed surgery date but hopefully it will be two weeks from now. They did warn me that hopefully they can just peel the cysts off and they will do their best to make sure none of it is left but there is an unlikely event that the cyst could burst mid surgery. Which they said they'll try to clean up if that happens but if it does I might have to be hospitalized again just so they can flush all the...cyst juice out. But ALSO because it is potentially cancerous and they don't know we really don't want that to happen cuz you know. the cancer could spread. And ALSO hopefully in the time that I am waiting for surgery we also hope that the cysts don't burst.

I'm totally not an anxiety puddle HAHAHA. I'm staying optimistic but it's still a big waiting game of I don't really know and I won't know for weeks. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

#DID I MENTION HOW MUCH I HOPE IT'S NOT OVARIAN CANCER #like if that's the case the longevity rates are #well they're not good guys #text post #personal #gross medical things #update #they retested my cancer marker test today and it shot up to 12K!! #don't mind me I'll spiral

[prince-kallisto]

You know…with Rook’s new SSR card depicting him in his first year uniform, I wonder…it’s very likely that this card may be from Rook or Vil’s dream lol 😭 But I also wonder about the slim possibility about this being from Leona’s dream.

Not that I’m saying this is Leona’s ideal world or anything 🤣🤣 But Leona has had a theme of being “aware” when he’s dreaming or sleeping, which he showed a bit during Book 6 against the Lachesis System. Because so far we have Silver, Sebek, Yuu, Grim, Ortho, and Idia united and aware of Malleus controlling the dreams. The idea of them wanting to get more allies throughout the dreams make sense (although maybe not everyone?), but it feels very…Leona to hijack the dreams somehow because of how *aware* he is- knowing all of this is a dream orchestrated by Malleus. Idia hints at Leona “ALWAYS knowing he’s dreaming.”

Why Savanaclaw Rook would be there in Leona’s dream I’m not sure (his ideal world was getting Rook out of Savanaclaw najxds /j)- but just a random thought by me. I feel like the dream sequences would be the perfect time to bring back Leona, whose has been standing out in a unique way for quite some time now in official art or art gallery stuff- which may imply a vital role from him in the end game👀

#allergy season finally hit me today lmaoo #kallistopost #kallisto rambles #twst spoilers #twst jp spoilers #twst book 7 spoilers #twst rook hunt #twst leona kingscholar #this is just my personal opinion and a bit selfish of me lmao but #I sort of hope we don’t go through every single one of the dreams and get Ssrs for all of them #idk I feel like it would reach of point of drastically dragging out book 7 and even less malleus screentime and progression :0 #but that’s just me ^\^ I’m still excited to see a book 7 update ofc

[dreaming-in-seams]

I know today’s updates about Tumblr’s AI deal are looking catastrophic and we all need to take a deep breath before we blow everything out of the water

But please for the love of God, if you can turn on the third-party opt-out for your blog, DO IT NOW FOR THE SAKE OF THE ARTISTS YOU FOLLOW AND REBLOG

#PSA #anti ai #tumblr update #clearly reblogs are except from the toggle #1000 could reblog your art with the toggle on #but all it takes is 1 person reblogging with the toggle off and it looks like your art is up for scraping #I have a rant in my drafts #I am extremely upset today

[lonesome-witching]

For anyone who cares: I did pass my exam today, not with flying colors but I passed and that should be enough.

#if you like this post I’ll assume you care #but yeah #that was today’s life update #personal stuff

[prince-liest]

I think I've written myself into a corner and I'm going to have to edit the ending of Transmission 666, Emergency Broadca—ca—ca—zzzzt so that it resolves in the two chapters already posted instead of three like I intended. I've written, like, a few hundred words of what would have been chapter three but it just feels like it would work so much better rolled over into a specific sequel idea instead of being part of this particular fic. Which is unfortunate, because it's been sitting there marked incomplete for a few days and I absolutely was like, "Sure, this one will definitely also have smut!" and now it's like. No. No, it will not! Oops.

I issue a heartfelt apology about this to one person and one person only, and that person is terrified of missionary anon. >:)

#personal #my writing #terrified of missionary anon #anyway normally I'm really not into people editing the publish dates on their fics but I think in this case it's. probably the move #once I edit it at least #AND NOW THAT I'M OUT EARLY I CAN DO THAT TODAY #time to semi-accidentally bury the fuck out of this fic by “updating” it on early morning on a thursday lol #ETA: I added like 400 words to it so I don't feel bad updating the date #also Liu if you are reading this. that hug is for YOU!!!!

[royalarchivist]

Tomorrow's a big lore day for the QSMP!

If you weren't aware: Cellbit, like Felps, seems to have been abducted by the Federation, and half the server is going to attempt a rescue mission to save him.

Your friendly neighborhood Royal Archivist here loves to help people catch up on streams they missed with the VOD Timestamp Archive, but I'm just one person, and a lot will be going on tomorrow.

If there's a streamer you're planning to watch during tomorrow's event, consider writing down a few important timestamps or a summary of the stream!

Not only would it help me a lot, but it would also help other QSMP fans. Please submit your summaries or Timestamps to me via DMs or via Submissions so I can add them to the archive. Thank you in advance!

According to Cellbit, the June 1st event will be around 2pm PST || 5pm EST || 18h BRT, but keep in mind that many streamers are likely to start earlier than that.

VOD Timestamp Archive || Submit Timestamps

#QSMP #Blog Announcement #Allowing submissions just for tomorrow as a test run #since some folks couldn't use DMs #Prayer hands please help me out I covered 6 people today and that SUCKED #I'm still adding stuff so the Archive hasn't been updated yet but hopefully I'll at least have part of it updated before tomorrow #If anyone's planning on covering a particular person ahead of time please let me know! #so I can know not to prioritize doing timestamps for them #please & thank you

[crowleyholmes]

#reading corner update bc I'm so happy with how the pictures turned out!!! #personal #ordered a new carpet today can't waitttt

[payasita]

logically I know I'm neurodivergent and I feel absolutely no shame in it as an adult, but I never got over the habit of searching for deniability. like sometimes it's "nah I Can't have this thing. I don't have any big textural issues or anything like that."

and then I think shit like "wow isn't it amazing that the human race has gotten so far even though being out in the rain feels so bad the immediate urge is to peel one's skin off like an orange and bite anyone who gets near chimpanzee-style" and some dots connect again. And also I remember it would have been worse off the meds

#personal #its raining #whys it have to be cold and wet. i want a lawyer #on the plus side they canceled my shift today! that means fic update day tonight or tomorrow

[nocaptainonthisship]

The Festive Seasoning

Advent 2023

Haladriel (M)

Galadriel Noldor is a talented chef, with a cowboy-cute boyfriend who drives her up the wall.

Halbrand Mairon is a cutthroat TV producer, with a small-town pretty girlfriend who makes him a little crazy.

Celeborn Sindar is a dedicated data reconfiguration specialist, with an arrestingly gorgeous girlfriend who makes his life hell.

Shelob Webb is a gifted textile artist, with a cunningly-charming boyfriend, who makes her question everything- but most of all herself.

Or: a slanted Hallmark AU where one person’s villain is another’s hero.

#haladriel #haladriel fic #saurondriel fic #my fic #ok so ive been thinking. horrifying i know but i cant help it. #anywayyy. the bird site is getting an updated calendar graphic everday but that seems unweildy for tumblr. #im just going to reblog this every day after ive updated #and as a special little whatever for my little tumblr boos i will be sharing something stupid and special in the tags just for you #so todays fun fact is: #adar was originally going to be a MUCH more terrible person. like her was gunning for real life Bad Dude status. #i dialed it back a TON and now in my head he is played by noel fielding. #no shade to our friend joseph mawle who is wonderful and made adar so special. #but read this and youll see what i mean. #until tomorrow friends!

[missjoolee]

if you could only see

*read tags for fun facts. mostly written while half asleep. not edited.

"Oh," she says, the corners of her mouth drooping into that familiar frown that accompanied the majority of his high school career. She sets her mug down on the coffee table.

Oh? A similar frown is quick to replace the elated grin his face had adorned when he arrived. "'Oh' is what people say when they get socks on their birthday, Mom. Not when their son tells them that he's engaged!"

"It's just..." she hesitates, as if looking for the correct words. "...you're still so young."

"I'm almost 22. I--"

"Exactly! Only 22!" Emily interrupts. "How can you be sure?!"

"What?! Mom! This is Julie we are talking about!" Luke can't sit still and stands up from the couch. Resentment builds within him. Why can't she ever be supportive from the get go?

"Well.. You've only ever had the one relationship. You can't know what you want really, never having experienced other relationships."

His mouth drops open in disbelief. She cant honestly be suggesting what he thinks she might be.

"I thought you liked Julie!" His hand flies up with the statement, emphasizing his frustrations.

Emily stands, no longer able to remain seated as the conversations heats up.

"Luke, Julie is lovely. And lord knows she's done you a world of good, but you could really benefit from dating around a little!"

Oh, so she is saying what he thought she was saying.

He let's out a humorless huff of a laugh. "Are you insane? You think I should give up the best thing in my life, a sure thing, on the chance I might find someone that can make me just as happy somewhere down the line? Yeah, that math doesn't check out."

She is getting visibly agitated now as she takes a step closer to him.

"Julie will always be your teenage girlfriend. Your relationship will never be more than that of children!"

"God. Do you hear yourself?! Julie's not in her teens anymore. Our relationship has grown with us. We have supported each other through personal growth, and continue to challenge each other to be the best we can be! We've already been there through hardship together." Luke leans into Emily's  personal space, not wanting to back down. It's a familiar dance at this point, these arguments with his mom.  That thought gives him pause but he never drops eye contact.

His mom claims that Julie would prevent him from flourishing as an adult, but in this moment,  with Emily, he feels the most like he's a kid again in the worst way possible. Suddenly, he feels very tired. He takes a step back with a sigh.

"You're unbelievable." His normal volume voice sounds quiet after the heightened pitches from a moment before. He turns and heads for the front door. There is no point in staying.

"Luke? Luke! Get back here!" Emily follows after him. "Most marriages at your age end in divorce! I'm just trying to help you not make a mistake that will ruin your future!"

Luke's at the door but he spins suddenly to face Emily one last time. "It's not a mistake, mom! If you could just see all the ways she loves me, maybe you would understand why I feel this way. How I know this is the right thing to do."

"But Luke--"

This time he interrupts her, not caring to hear anymore of what she's likely to say. "I mean, if you could see how bright her eyes get when she says she loves me. I just.. " Julie's smile, eyes full of mirth flashes in his mind, replacing a lot of the angerfilled responses he wants to shout at his mom. "There's no way being with her could ever be a mistake."

He opens the door and steps outside. "If you can't be happy for us, don't bother joining in on the celebrations."

He closes the door behind him. His mom might have tried to say more but he honestly couldn't care less anymore. It's time to head home. Back to the welcoming arms of the woman he loves and can't wait to marry. She makes him a better writer, and a better man. She supports him and his dreams more than his mom ever has. This exchange has proven that all his mom will ever be good for is giving him great song ideas. But the one starting to ruminate in his brain this time promises to be a lot happier than Unsaid Emily.

#i was unsure if this song by Tonic was a juke song #i would listen and it would shout #Juke Juke Juke! #but it also is kinda sad? #so i looked it up and #this song came about from the singer telling his mom he was getting married #and she thought he was too young #and i could see emily doing that #also #i mixed in some of my personal stuff into it #I married my highschool sweetheart #it's weird calling him a sweetheart though lol #and after graduation i worked at the same big box retail store as his mom #and one of my work friends overheard her telling another coworker in the break room one day #that she wished her son would date around more and hadn't gotten so serious with the first girl he dated #I don't think she ever said it directly to him though #also also #my old dog is having surgery today and i'm an anxious mess so please leave comments in the tags or something #also also also #today is when my tumblr dash updated to the stupid twitter style layout D: #very rude #juke #mentioned juke #happy juke jeudi! #jatp #julie and the phantoms #sorry emily #you haven't had 25 years of remorse to develop your character #joolee attempts writing #i made a thing!

[darehearts]

good morning bbs  !  things are not looking great at work 🧍🏻‍♀️

#my company asked everyone to fill out a sheet with their #primary and secondary skills-- and the person who was #setting up project related items and meetings for us got #fired this morning also. i am not sure how long i'll have this #position. there's a meeting with my own company tomorrow #and i'm starting to feel like they will announce then what our #last day is gonna be lol. so needless to say i am freaking out #today is 'update my resume' day but yeah i have!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #a lot of anxiety / insecurity over this rn. bc the job market is #not the best lmao but what can anyone do but keep trying #am i right?? hopefully this leads to good things i cant see yet! #tbd #vent tw