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miss-ingno · 3 years

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The Thorns of a Rose

Fandom: ragehappy Ship: Turnfree, Turnwood, pre-Turnfreewod Words: 5.1k Tags: king au, Queen!Meg, King!Ryan, King Consort!Gavin, forced marriage, arranged marriage, wedding, presumed character death, grief/mourning, abandoned work

Summary: After losing the war to King Ryan, Meg is forced to marry him as part of her surrender. With Gavin dead, what choice does she have? (But is he, really?)

A/N: Posting this along other WIPs I’m abandoning in this fandom due to the reveals in October. I wrote this prior to what happened and can’t find it in myself to continue the story any longer. I still adore the premise and don’t want the effort I put into it to be wasted, though, hence why I’m sharing it with y’all.

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The sun was shining on the day of her wedding. It felt like a betrayal.

Meg stood still in front of the mirror as her handmaidens fussed over her dress and her hair. It was a beautiful thing, the dress, a layer of heavy brocade over the finest wool, with rare jewels in dark colours stitched between the golden embroidery. The overskirt was of finest silk, cream with golden pearls hidden in the folds, only peeking out as she moved. Another layer on top of that in red gossamer so fine it was almost transparent, bordered in a strip of gold made from foreign material she'd never seen before.

Red and gold. Haywood colours.

Her handmaidens finished pinning up her hair in the circlet of braids piled on top of her head. They spread out the veil behind her and Meg eyed it impassively through the mirror. It had a long train, forcing two of them to hold the heavy thing in place while a third clasped it beneath the braids. Objectively it was a beautiful piece, red silk and more of the foreign gold bordering it, smoothly transitioning into the embroidery. Splinters of a jewel blacker than the darkest night were sprinkled liberally across it.

Obsidian, it was called. Another thing Haywood's kingdom was known for.

Her nails dug into her palms. Meg forced herself to breathe through the rising heat in her lungs. She was a Queen, not a prize to be won. How dare her court sell her and her queendom off to the enemy. How dare he lay claim to her like this, each stitch a mockery of their 'union'. Remind her and everyone else with each layer, each embroidered scene of Haywood's victories, each bloody jewel that she was surrendering her sovereignty.

As quickly as the rage came it subsided. Meg closed her eyes, fighting down the rock in her throat. She wouldn't cry. She would not give them the satisfaction.

"My lady?" one of her handmaidens spoke up. Meg blinked her eyes open and glanced at her.

She didn't even know her name. All her personal servants had been replaced by Haywood, specifically chosen for their loyalty. For her own 'safety'.

The woman was maybe half a decade younger than her, Meg decided, mustering her. Pale and blue-eyed like most people from the North. She was holding up a tiara made of gold, embracing obsidian ovals in its loops. Another slap to the face, forcing her to wear the crown of a princess rather than her own. Fitting, perhaps, since they forced her to surrender her crown already. She was nothing more than an empty symbol now.

Wordlessly, she bowed her head.

The tiara wasn't nearly as heavy as the crown she was used to. The weight of the veil helped, dragging on her hair, threatening to cause her head to ache during the proceedings. Good. Maybe if it hurt enough, the ache of her heart would be less obvious.

The handmaiden stepped back, clasping her hands demurely in front of her. Meg turned to look in the mirror. She looked pretty, she supposed. Were it for any other occasion, another man she'd delight in the glitter of the jewels, the cut of the dress. She wanted, more than anything, for the door to open and Gavin to sneak in, to make a show of bowing and kissing her ring. He would compliment and tease her in equal measure, eyes dancing with mirth and open admiration, lightening her burden. Meg swallowed, blinking rapidly against the tears threatening to spill.

It could never happen again.

Head held high, Meg left her chambers, her maids hurrying to carry the long train so it wouldn't gather dust and dirt until they reached the chapel. A pure veil and a pure dress for a less than pure bride, but she supposed they were all pretending. She marched down the stairs with determination, and it felt like she was on her way to a funeral.

She should be. She was still in mourning.

Instead, she was expected to celebrate her marriage.

Her stomach twisted at the thought. She knew it was the only way to save her queendom, to spare her people total annihilation. The war had stretched over years already and they all were tired of it. With the enemy knocking at the capital, holding half her land hostage… it seemed like a good compromise, she supposed. Her council had urged her to consider the proposal, even before her love was gone.

She had laughed at them then, yet here she was, going through with their crazy plan.

She hoped wherever he was, Gavin could forgive her.

Meg stalked down the stairs with her head held high, the train of her veil and her dress dragging behind her like a heavy weight, an anchor trying to hold her back from making this mistake. Servants hurried ahead, opening the grand doors of the castle for her. The sun shone directly in her eyes, blinding her, forcing her to pause at the bottom of the stairs.

Outside, the courtyard was filled with all the minor nobles and rich merchants who didn't rank high enough for a seat closer to the chapel. They parted for her, their murmurs and whispers crashing over her like the sea.

She knew the rumours. How she had angered the gods. How she had gone against divine rule to marry a commoner. How her love had brought misfortune to her house and lands. How they would have won the war, had she not chosen Gavin.

How she now must repent for her sins by bowing to the conqueror king.

Hundreds of flowers, white, yellow, and red, were woven into garlands hung on posts along the chairs. The white marble pillars of the chapel gleamed golden and pristine in the sun, the round roof providing the only shade. Beyond the altar stood the mural of her ancestor, the founder of her line, telling a tale of victory against evil, against corruption. It was the only thing that reminded the court of her blood, of her right to rule. Everything else was dressed in Haywood colours, according to Haywood traditions. Even the priest waiting for them at the altar was of Haywood's faith, ordained to his patron deity.

The priest was talking to her future husband, drowned out by the noises of the court. Haywood himself had his back turned to her as she walked down the aisle. A dark red cloak billowed on the wind behind him, revealing dark-clad hose and sturdy, black-dyed leather boots but not much more. On his head sat the same heavy crown. It was solid gold in the back but Meg knew it held two huge rubies and an even bigger piece of dark grey opal between them in the front. As the crowd hushed, the priest glanced up, then straightened.

Finally Haywood himself turned around.

It wasn't the first time they met. A week ago she had officially surrendered her crown to him, when he arrived after the fighting had ceased. After Gavin hadn't returned from battle, that one last, desperate push to free the capital.

A week since she had officially accepted his suit.

No proper courtship nor gifts. She supposed he hadn't demanded any treasures or concessions upon his victory, and that might be counted. There was no time to prepare a wedding, and Meg couldn't help but feel suspicious how quickly a fitting dress was adjusted for her. But whether it was Haywood's arrogance that she would give in eventually, or her own court's hope she would give up Gavin for this…

Haywood's face was smooth as stone and just as expressive as he watched her walk towards the chapel. In that, she could not read him. She had expected gleeful triumph over his victory, but he'd remained expressionless when she surrendered, and it stayed unchanged when she agreed to marriage. He had barely spared her a second look once the negotiations ended and left swiftly. His advisors had shown more greed in their eyes than the conqueror himself.

With all eyes on her, Meg tried to emulate Haywood's blank expression. She wouldn't show weakness in the face of the enemy.

Too soon she was standing in front of the altar, shoulder to shoulder with her soon-to-be husband. The priest addressed the gathered nobles, his speech dry and droning as he read passages from their holy book. At first Meg tried to follow along, but how any of this pertained to a wedding she had difficulty grasping. She tuned him out, focussing on the mural of her history over his shoulder as the words buzzed at her ears like an annoying fly.

Her great-great-great-grandmother had been the youngest of many children, but had proven the most capable ruler. Twice she had rebuffed invasion by their neighbours, twice she had saved their people from starving after a flood and after a drought. Twice she had tricked powerful beings through finding the loopholes in their deals. And once she had killed a great wyrm which came down from the mountains to slaughter the villages.

Meg took a deep breath, bracing herself. She may have lost the war, but she wasn't dead yet. She would bide her time and be clever, and with time she would slay her demons, too.

The priest moved on to bestow many blessings upon Haywood, praising his greatest victories. Meg grit her teeth when her queendom was listed as the last of a series of conquests. And then she nearly broke her teeth when the priest slyly alluded to her as the next conquest. Jerking her gaze away from the priest's leer, she tried to focus on her ancestor's painted face, a rumble of laughter rolling through the crowd at the priest's 'joke'.

Busy as she was trying to reign in her temper, it took her a while to notice Haywood wasn't laughing.

Glancing at him from the corner of her eyes, she saw him stare the priest down with a slightly furrowed brow and a curl of distaste around his lips. She half-wondered what about this whole spiel pissed him off, but couldn’t really muster the energy to think about it for long. The priest seemed to catch on to his sovereign's displeasure, growing pale and clearing his throat, hurrying on with the ceremony. He flipped through several pages and read out a passage with a much squeakier voice than before.

It seemed to take forever till they came to the relevant part of the ceremony, and yet it was all a blur to Meg. Her neck hurt, and she was sweating under the heavy layers from standing in the sun the entire time.

“King Ryan, son of James the Third, son of Edward the Second, rightful king by divine blood over the lands of…” Just a trace of impatience showed on Haywood’s face as the priest rattled off his titles and titled lands one by one. The priest hastened on, “...presents this ring as a promise to be a dutiful husband to the Lady Margarita-”

Meg hissed at the deformation of her name, and the lack of subtlety in dropping her titles entirely. Anger bubbled up in her chest, and she stared fixedly ahead less she did something she’d later regret.

"...to protect and cherish as his lawfully wedded wife, should she accept."

Meg silently gave Haywood her hand, grateful that her fingers weren’t trembling. She couldn't quite meet his eyes as he slipped a band of gold onto her ring finger, splinters of ruby lining a bigger chip of obsidian, signifying she had officially joined the Haywood house under his name. That she left her family, her line, her right to rule behind.

Next he offered her a new signet ring, one no less obvious in meaning. The Haywood bull framed her family's insignia between its massive horns.

"In the eyes of God, and all the witnesses gathered here today, I pronounce you husband and wife."

No offering was expected of her, Haywood's advisors had explained. She was offering herself and her surrender as gifts, but no symbol of that could be exchanged at a wedding. It would ruin the sanctity of tradition, they had said. It was just another way to emphasize their unequal standing, Meg supposed, anger burning away to leave only exhaustion behind.

"You may kiss the bride."

The priest's voice tore her from her musings, and Meg tensed, bracing herself. She knew to expect it, of course, and it was Haywood's right now to demand this of her at any time he wished. But she couldn't imagine betraying Gavin like that. To kiss anyone else…

She turned to face Haywood, her heart thumping a heavy beat in her too tight chest. He was watching her from sharp, blue eyes. Meg could only hope her face didn't betray her turmoil, or if it did that it would amuse her… husband.

But Haywood surprised her by lifting her hand to his mouth, kissing her signet ring. A sign of respect, of recognizing her authority, diminished as it was.

Then he turned his back on the priest, dismissing him. He offered Meg his arm and she took it, aware of all the eyes on them. She went through the motions absently, greeting the well-wishers and leaving her husband to handle them, her mind awhirr. He had not kissed her at the first opportunity. Did he see their union simply as a political match? Or perhaps he was an inherently private person.

One by one the courtiers paid their respects, their wishes of peaceful matrimony laced with innuendo and mentions of their future heirs.

She missed Gavin with a throbbing ache. He would know what to say to these peacocks, just enough sly ambiguity to make her laugh but the courtiers unable to take offense at his words and studied innocence. None of them had offered anything similar at their wedding, their words stiff and just this side of disapproval to be acceptable. Barely. And yet that day remained one of her happiest memories.

Meg didn't want to taint it by comparing it to this farce.

Haywood led her through the crowds and into the dining hall, where she sat through the feast and endless speeches inclining her head in polite acknowledgement whenever prompted and not tasting anything but ash. Her stomach roiled with every bite she forced herself to take.

Nothing had tasted right since news of Gavin's death reached her.

The day passed in a blur. There were entertainers, dancers and jugglers and bards after the meal, and the wine flowed freely. Queasy as she felt, Meg barely touched her glass. Haywood sat like a statue next to her, so still that when he finally moved, she flinched. Haywood stood abruptly, his eyes on her as he held out a hand, which she took out of reflex. He watched her still as she rose, and she met his piercing blue gaze with a stubborn tilt of her chin.

"We will be retiring for the night," Haywood announced to the court, who cheered in response.

Meg's stomach dropped.

She followed Haywood out in a daze, trying to tune out the shouted wishes of fertility and success, praying the gods may look upon their marriage kindly. It rankled because she knew her court kept an eye on her monthlies when it was Gavin for the opposite reason. They never had a child, but they thought they'd have time.

She was so out of it, she didn't realize they'd stopped in the middle of the hallway until Haywood spoke up.

"We have no need of you at this point. Feel free to return to the festivities."

His voice was pure steel, unbending and commanding. Meg shook herself out of her maudlin thoughts and turned with Haywood to face the nobles who had followed them. Some she recognized from Haywood's advisory council, others were more familiar to her, influential elders from her own court. Her stomach swooped and bile rose in her throat. They had refused to witness her first wedding night in an attempt to throw doubts towards its legitimacy. Neither she nor Gavin had cared, then. But now…

"Your Majesty, it is traditional to witness the consumption of a royal marriage, to ensure it is done correctly," one of her nobles rebuked with a polite bow. Haywood waved his words away, expression turning towards irritability.

"There is no need. The tradition is in place to assure a virgin bride, which is obviously not the case in this union, and thus witnesses are unnecessary."

"But Your Majesty-!" the nobles protested nearly as one.

"No." Haywood's hand cut through the air and straight through their objections. "You are dismissed."

A young lady knight from the kingsguard peeled off the wall to stand between them and the advisors, arms crossed over her chest. "You heard the king."

Haywood whirled around, his red cloak billowing behind him as he stalked down the corridor. Meg followed at a more sedate pace, not really able to hurry along with her heavy dress and train. To her surprise, Haywood waited for her at the corner.

"My apologies," he murmured before offering his arm to her. Curious despite herself she took it, mustering him from the corner of her eyes.

She hadn't really paid him, or anyone truly, much attention for most of the proceedings. Perhaps she should have, if only to gain the measure of the man she was now bound to. His unwillingness to allow witnesses was both a relief and a concern. He might simply be a private man - or have depraved tastes he wished to keep from the court. She couldn't say which was more likely, and it left her anxious.

Two guards remained outside the doors to her chambers, while another two proceeded into the rooms to check them. Meg supposed she should feel grateful that it was the same lady knight who checked her bedchamber, but she simply felt emotionally exhausted. The lady knight remained inside the bedchamber, and servants followed them inside. Her new maids descended on her, giggling amongst themselves as they hastily pulled up a privacy screen between her and the manservants helping the king out of his heavy cloak and boots.

Meg averted her eyes, nerves fluttering. She handed off the tiara to one of the handmaidens while another two unclasped the veil, rolling it up to be taken to the launderers. Then they stripped her of layer upon layer of her wedding dress with practiced hands, another detangling her braids and taking a brush to her hair. Each layer she lost felt like a shield breaking, like one by one she was losing her protection from the reality before her. Finally the corset came loose, leaving her only in chemise, underskirt, and bloomers.

She could feel Haywood’s stare across the privacy screen and forced herself to meet his eyes. He, too, was left only in a loose undershirt and cotton drawers.

“Leave us,” Haywood ordered, not looking away from her.

The servants murmured acquiescence and bowed, before hurrying out. Once they had vanished through the door, the lady knight posted there took another close look around the room and then left herself, drawing the door shut behind her.

Meg exhaled shakily. They were alone for the first time.

Haywood stalked to the washing bowl, untying his shirt as he walked. Then he poured water from the pitcher before picking up a cloth from the stack next to it. The movements were stiff, awkward, and it occurred to Meg that this might be his first time. That he might be a virgin, unlike herself. Not what she had expected from the conqueror king, if she was honest with herself.

"I suppose I should apologize for the intrusion," Haywood mused, his back turned to her. Meg took a deep breath and stepped out from behind the privacy screen.

"I can't imagine why you would." She crossed her arms under her breasts, not comfortable in this state of dress around her new husband. "Are these chambers not yours, now?"

"Don't be ridiculous." Haywood snorted as he dragged the wet cloth over his neck and under his arms. "I don't intend to spend much time here. It'd be a shame to leave these beautiful chambers standing empty."

Anxiety wrapped around her chest like a vice and squeezed.

"And who is supposed to move into them, then? Whoever you name steward in your absence?"

Haywood paused mid-wipe and turned to stare at her, blinking in obvious confusion. It was the first expression she saw on his face not tinted by anger.

"...they are your chambers, are they not?" he finally ventured, folding the cloth over the lip of the bowl.

"They are the chambers of the highest ranking member of these lands." Meg narrowed her eyes. She hadn’t given it a second thought when Haywood hadn’t demanded to move in the moment he arrived, instead staying in guest quarters. And if she had, she’d have assumed it to be symbolic at best and not last past the wedding. "Which I am no longer."

"Then you can keep them." Haywood shrugged. "Like I said, I do not intend to stay long. I'm sure adequate accomodations can be found within this wing of the castle."

She wanted to ask after his intentions, but that new line of thought distracted her, anxiety racing up her spine. She bit her lip. "The royal chambers are connected to that of the consort."

Gavin's chambers. They'd remained untouched by her order since his death, no matter how much the court had grumbled. She wasn't ready for that last proof of his existence in her life to vanish, but if Haywood requested those-

"I'm certain there are other rooms that will do," he interrupted her thoughts. Something softened in his face and he reached for her hands, squeezing them. "My condolences for your loss."

A hysterical laugh escaped Meg's lips before she pressed them together tightly. How funny that he should be the first to say those words to her and actually sound like he meant it. When it was his army, his war that brought death and destruction to her lands, her people, and ultimately her love.

"Thank you," Meg murmured once she had the tears threatening to spill under control. She licked her dry lips, pulling her hands out of his grasp. He let her go, and even went so far as to step back, giving her more space. His actions were entirely unpredictable, she could not figure him out. She needed more information, if only to prepare herself. "When do we leave?"

"I was thinking of staying a month, perhaps two. Long enough to settle matters here."

His tone was nonchalant, off-hand, like her heart wasn't aching at the very thought. Like he wasn't tearing the last bit of familiarity from her grasp, dealing her fragile control a shattering blow.

"And who…" Meg had to clear her throat. "Who will be in charge in your absence?"

There were several nobles of high enough rank and with enough influence in her own court, and surely they would jockey for the position. But then, she felt certain Haywood would entrust the oversight of her queendom to one of his own people. A close cousin, perhaps, tied to him by blood.

"You, of course," Haywood broke into her musings. He was watching her with a curious tilt to his head.

"I… what?" Meg wasn't sure she heard right.

"Who better to rule over this kingdom than its rightful queen?" Haywood shrugged, and Meg bit her lip, fighting the urge to correct his word choice. Her lands had been conquered and all but annexed to Haywood's own. In all senses, it was a kingdom now, with its sovereign ruler the king before her. "Certainly you know what your people need best."

"I would hope so," Meg agreed, stalling as her brain tried to catch up with the unexpected situation. A part of her just wanted to move on, to not look a gift horse in the mouth, but. She hesitated. "Surely your council will be against that arrangement, though. It seems… perhaps not the best choice, to leave a recently conquered enemy with its governing structure intact."

"Perhaps," Haywood agreed, a pleased smile curling around his lips. "I have two months to determine the political climate at your court and your own disposition towards your new king. However-" Here he arched a brow at her. "-I will take it as a good sign you brought that very concern up yourself."

Flummoxed, Meg gaped at him and his sheer audacity. She huffed, closing her mouth and crossing her arms, before sitting on the foot of the bed to muster him. She tried to see things from his perspective. His kingdom had expanded very rapidly in recent years, and he'd only taken over for his late father halfway through. He had finished the wars he'd inherited in his favour, but he hadn't had much time at his own court to establish himself as king, rather than crown prince.

"People will expect to see me at your court," Meg pointed out, and Haywood nodded immediately.

"Eventually, yes. I will introduce you. However, I am aware of how… unusual the situation is. Under normal circumstances you would not have remarried this soon."

Meg swallowed around the knot in her throat and averted her eyes, tears stinging in the corners. She gave him a sharp nod.

It was sweet, in a way, that he would offer her time and space to mourn.

Haywood walked up to her, hesitating with his hand hovering in the air, before carefully, gently settling on her shoulder. His warmth radiated through the cotton straight into her skin, leaving her shivering. She glanced up at him from under her long lashes, unsure how to react. Should she invite him to sit with her? Make the first move? The thought shuddered through her, leaving disgust and guilt in its wake. Perhaps Haywood was less the monster than she imagined, but to break her vows to Gavin-

She was newly wed. It was expected of her.

She couldn't.

"That doesn't give us much time to conceive an heir," she blurted out, the words rushing out against her will, driven by fear and denial both. Haywood froze for several long seconds that felt like an eternity, before falling to his knees in front of her.

"You are in mourning," he stated with insistent emphasis, his hands covering hers on her lap. "I wouldn't- I shan't-" He paused, taking a deep breath and gathering his thoughts. "I will not ask you to lay with me until you are ready. And I swear I will not force myself on you, tonight or any other."

"It's expected," Meg pointed out, somewhat bewildered, but mostly overwhelmed by relief. Her shoulders slumped, her stomach unknotting. She should just take him at his word, but instead she found herself arguing. "They, the court, they will- the servants, they talk."

Haywood's brow inched up by increments. "Then we will have to make it look good when they wake us on the morrow."

"Rumpled sheets won't be enough." Meg felt a blush creep up her neck and ducked her head. "They, uh, they've seen the state of this room in the aftermath before."

"So it's a little different when it's us." Haywood shrugged as if that wasn't a problem. "Can you recreate some of it?"

"I meant rather that men, in my experience, seem very… interested in carnal acts come morning," Meg explained with burgeoning amusement, watching from the corner of her eyes as Haywood turned red, clearly embarrassed.

"Then we will stage something… appropriate," he suggested slowly, not meeting her eyes, "and I will send the servants away for privacy. As long as we establish a pattern," he hurried on in a rush, much to Meg's growing amusement, "they will come to expect it and no longer question the validity of our… marriage."

As soon as the bubble of laughter rose in her chest, it popped with a resonating ache. This sort of mischief, of plotting around the court reminded her so much of Gavin it hurt. She missed him, she missed him so much. She wished he'd never left on his foolish errand. She wouldn't be in this situation if he hadn't.

Meg didn't realize she was crying until Haywood cautiously wiped her tears away with his thumb.

It was like a dam broke. She stared at Haywood through the hazy veil of tears for what felt like an eternity, then a sob crept up her throat. Meg threw herself forward, clutching at his cotton shirt and burying her face in his shoulder. Haywood, further dispelling her earlier notions of his character, simply cradled her head and smoothed a hand down her back, letting her cry herself out. She shook apart in his arms, allowing the memories to overwhelm her.

The fear as the tide of war kept turning against them. Report upon report of failed battles, of an army inching ever closer. The desperation as they realized they were surrounded, the capital under siege. The determination in Gavin's face as he shared his plans with her.

Lying awake in his arms that night, praying for his safe return.

The shock, the resignation when he did not. When word of his death reached her on the heels of demands to surrender. The panic, the chaos of voices cascading down on her as her court tried to convince her on the path forward, words that rushed past her ears insubstantial as smoke.

She couldn't remember when she gave in. When she agreed.

She hadn't cried, not once. There hadn't been time. When the shock faded it was all she could do to hold onto her control, to not show weakness during the negotiations.

And now she lay crying in his arms, his shirt wet with tears and snot. Her next sob broke on a laugh, and she pulled back, shaking her head. Using the sleeve of her chemise she wiped ineffectively at her face.

"Two months," she murmured, her voice breaking on a croak. She cleared her throat and repeated, "Two months. I can do that."

Two months to mourn, to come to terms with the gaping hole in her chest. Two months to linger on Gavin's ghost in her life. Two months to play the subordinate Queen, to let her new husband take the reins and not worry about anything.

Two months to herself, and then she would return to her duties as if nothing happened.

"Two months," Haywood agreed, his hands hovering in the air awkwardly. Meg nodded, lips pressed together in a determined line.

"Let's do this."

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Quick plot overview, for those curious where this was gonna go:

Gavin isn’t dead, but hiding with rebels

Meg turns out pregnant - everyone assumes it’s Ryan’s obvs

Ryan and Meg know it’s Gavin’s though and conspire to keep the secret

this + some other subplots leads to Meg trusting Ryan and slowly falling in love

meanwhile, Gavin infiltrates the castle staff as a rebel spy, plotting to kill the Conqueror King

reveals and confrontations happen. Much angst, such tension.

#turnfreewood #turnwood #ah ryan #ragehappy #king au #ingno writes #I'm considering repurposing this premise for an original novel at some point #because I had so much plot already outlined #and it's a great premise!#I'm not tagging with full names because I don't want it to show up in those tags #and the names show up in the plain text #so that should be enough for blacklist to catch it

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ganglylimbs · 4 years

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FREEWOOD (bonus edition: turnfreewood lol)

Freewood:

We got a Bingo with the entire bottom row!

The Best OTPS of all OTPs, hELL YES, soulmates, the sexist pair, I WOULD DIE FOR IT OKAY

My first and best ship for AH

Turnfreewood:

It’s so close to a Bingo, if OTP and OT3 were switched!

OT3, underrated, read fics about it, CUTENESS OVERLOAD, WE NEED MORE OF IT, hELL YES, and I WOULD DIE FOR IT OKAY

Such a good OT3 that is seriously underrated, please please artist and writers we need more of it!

#rt peeps #freewood #turnfreewood #also ignore the fact that I'm a dumdum with computers #miss-ingno #you already know this :P

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fjorrd · 5 years

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TURNFREEWOOD?

HECK YEAH!!!!!!!

listen: fahc esp. sexy badasses !

#ask #ragehappy #turnfreewood

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sailorbryant · 6 years

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Heyyy, how about first valentine's as a couple for Freewood/Egobang/Risingwood ooorrrr first valentine's with Ryan for Turnfreewood ❤️

VALENTINE PROMPT 2 - TURNFREEWOOD - RESERVATIONS

When Gavin wasn’t at the office that morning, Ryan wasn’t immediately suspicious. Once it hit noon, he couldn’t stop himself from asking Geoff, who gave him a noncommittal shrug, and Ryan shot off a text to his boyfriend which was promptly ignored. At two, he sat at his desk grumbling to himself over the loss of the lunch he planned on taking him out too, and failed to concentrate on the game he was playing as he contemplated whether he should cancel their dinner reservations. At three, he got a text from his girlfriend.

>>Meg: When are you coming over ;)

He stared down at his phone, a frown covering his lips. Jeremy, who had stopped by his desk to ask a question, saw it and spun on his feet to go back to his desk.

>>Ryan: I thought we were meeting for dinner?

>>Meg: Change of plans

Ryan only had time to let out a huff, before his phone dinged once more. This time it was a picture.

A picture of a receipt. A receipt from a lingerie store. His eyes widened, taking in the list of underwear, stockings, and garters, but he hissed in a breath when he realized that everything was listed twice.

He barely had time to catch his breath, before the next image came through. It was two legs, both of them clad in stockings, one completely bare, smooth and silky white, the other slightly tinned and covered in slight fuzz.

>>Meg: We’re waiting ;)

“I’m leaving,” Ryan blurted out, jerking up from his desk and knocking it so hard his monitor rattled. He didn’t even shut his off his computer, just grabbed his jacket and keys and rushed out the door while the rest of the guys stared at his retreating back.

To hell with dinner reservations.

#<3 #turnfreewood #hope you like lovely #ragehappy #ludomoose

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rejectedusername-trashfics · 6 years

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Shot by the Gods- Meet the Parent

Summary: A series of One Shots, Ficlets, or Drabbles from my Gods of LS AU. Gavin introduces his lovers to his mother. But his mother is not a fan of death

Chapter: 12/?

Word Count: 2,132

Note: Takes place after Causing Chaos

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About two months after Ryan had joined Gavin and Meg’s relationship, Gavin thought it would b a good time to introduce everyone to each other’s parents. Meg had been a reaper for over a thousand years and had no memory of who where parents were during her lifetime nor what happened to their souls. Ryan’s parent was The Titan, the all-powerful who created the universe. Though, once Ryan and the other gods were created, The Titan had stepped out of the picture. Luckily, Gavin was still in contact with his mother, and he was excited to introduce his lovers to her.

Gavin told Ryan and Meg that they would have to fly over to England to meet her. Ryan told him that he and Meg could just teleport there, and they could just teleport him with them. Gavin shuttered at the idea of turning into reaper smoke and told them that his mother was already going to meet them at the airport in London. Meg agree because she technically could fall if she wanted to. Ryan relented because he could not allow himself to fall asleep for reasons pertaining to his god duties. he shifted into a civilian disguise with short honey blonde hair, and said he would do it with no trace of the Vagabond.

After a ten and a half plane flight from Los Santos to London. Ryan shoved people out of his way to get off the plane. He ran as fast as he could into the terminal and collapsed onto the ground with a loud groan. A few minutes passed and Gavin and Meg entered the terminal. They both crouched around Ryan. Meg began petting Ryan’s hair.

“Daw, poor baby. It’s okay. We landed and you can teleport home when it’s time to leave,” Meg attempted to comfort.

“Sorry everyone, it was his first flight,” Gavin called to the other passengers exiting the plane.

“Wasn’t first flight,” Ryan mumbled into the ground.

“I know that. Never took you as a claustrophobic guy.”

“Not normally stuck in tight spaces I shouldn’t get out of. Did it because I love you.”

“I know you do. And I love you back.”

“Now come on lover boys, let’s get up and meet Gav’s mother at baggage claim,” Meg prompted. Gavin and Ryan smiled and complied. They knew at least one of the three of them had to keep everything together.

They walked to their baggage claim carousel. In the people waiting by the carousel they say an older woman with hair and eyes that matched Gavin’s. “Gavin, darling!” the woman called out as she ran up to Gavin and gave him a huge hug, and kiss on the forehead.

“Mum!” Gavin cheered as he graciously accepted the hug.

After a minute, the woman, Gavin’s mum, released the hug and gave Meg a hug. “And you must be Meg. Oh, it is so lovely to finally meet you! You are even more lovely than your pictures show.”

Meg hugged back, “It’s nice to meet you as well, Ms. Free,”

“Please, you can call me Margret,” he introduced herself as she finished th hug. Then she looked over at Ryan and frowned slightly. “I assume that would make you, the Vag, I mean, Ryan,” she quickly corrected herself.

“It’s a pleasure to meet you, ma’am,” Ryan greeted as he held out his hand to shake, nervously.

Ms. Free glared at the hand for a moment before forcefully shaking it up and down. “Right then, you ready to grab luggage and take the drive home? Think you can handle an hour and a half on the road after such a long flight?”

“I think we’ll be alright,” Gavin reassured her.

They were able to collect their suitcases and pile into Ms. Free’s car. Meg sat in between Gavin and Ryan in the back. “Alright, so how did you meet my Gavin, Meg?” she asked Meg, first.

“I was working at a coffee shop by Gavin’s apartment. We both grew to have feeling for each other but we didn’t think we’d have the opportunity to act on them. It was actually Ryan who pushed the two of us together. Now we’ve been together over a year,” Meg explained.

“Rrrriiiiiiighhhttttt... and Ryan joined the relationship a few months ago?”

“That is correct,” Ryan confirmed.

“And you’re member of the Fake AH Crew with Gavin, right?”

Ryan’s eyes widened in surprise that Gavin’s mom knew about the crew, “…yes…”

“What do you do in it?”

Ryan didn’t want to reveal that he was the Vagabond. “Uh… cleanup?”

“Right.”

Gavin and his mum continued to chat for most of way. About an hour in, Meg noticed that Ryan was sitting, uncomfortably. “Ryan, honey, what’s wrong?” Meg asked.

Gavin glanced over and noticed at well. “Yeah, love, are you still not doing alright?”

Ryan motioned for the three of them to lower their heads. “I don’t think your mother likes me,” Ryan whispered as quietly as he could.

“Bah, nonsense! She probably likes you, plenty.”

“What are the three of you kids gossiping about back there?” Ms. Free asked.

“Nothing, Margret,” Meg responded.

After about twenty more minutes, they arrived at Ms. Free’s home. All four of them entered the home. “Alright, down that hallway we have Gavin’s room and the guest bedroom at the end of the hall. Gav’s bathroom is across from his room and the guest bathroom is right out here. You can set your luggage in your rooms,” Ms. Free announced to the group.

“It’s quite alright mum, but unless you got rid of the king-sized bed I had, I think we’ll be staying in my room,” Gavin explained.

Ms. Free sighed. “Alright then,” she relented as she glared at Ryan. “I’ll go make us some tea, then,” she said a she walked to the kitchen to start making tea.

Ryan sighed heavily. “Seriously, what’s wrong?” Gavin asked.

“I’m seriously not getting good vibes from your mother,” Ryan admitted.

“Don’t be so nervous, Rye, it will all be fine.”

“You can’t let your paranoia get the best of you, honey. Everything will be just fine,” Meg added.

Ten minutes later, the tea was ready. The group all sat down at the dining room table and Ms. Free poured everyone a cup. Gavin took a sip of his and smiled. “Love the tea, mum.”

“You’re welcome, sweetheart,” Ms. Free replied. Ryan mixed some sugar into his tea and took a sip and frowned at the taste. “What, the tea not good enough for you?” she asked Ryan.

“No, no. I just normally have a fruitier tea at home,” Ryan attempted to explain.

“Like, pomegranate?” she speculated.

“How did you,” he was cut off by Gavin’s phone going off.

“Ooh, this must be Dan. I texted him to let him know I was in town with you guys. I can’t wait for you all to meet him. I’ll b right back,” Gavin explained as he got up to take the phone call.

Ryan shifted nervously as Gavin left the room and Meg began rubbing his back to relax him. “it will be okay,” she whispered to comfort him.

“Crew cleanup, really?” Ms. Free asked in disbelief.

“I’m sorry?” Ryan asked.

“Cut the shite, Ryan, I know you’re the Vagabond. Are you going to try to kill my son for that bloody cult of Vaga, because you have a death fetish?!”

“What? No!”

“Because, Gavin literally can die until he has a kid to pass the Midas gene onto.”

“I’m well aware.”

“That stupid cult is nothing but harm, anyway!”

“Ma’am, he’s not in the cult of Vaga, none of us are,” Meg attempted to explain.

“Well, his obsession with Vaga is absurd. He’s responsible for my husband’s death. I’m not sure I can like you either if you like such an evil god!”

Ryan gulped. He couldn’t tell if she knew his true identity or not, but he definitely knew she didn’t want him there. He quickly stood up. “Ryan,” Meg pleaded in an attempt to coax him back into his seat. Ryan continued to walk away.

“Back, Dan wants to meet up tonight if we,” Gavin started as he walked back into the room. He passed Ryan walking out of the room. “Wait Ryan, where are you going?”

“I’m clearly not wanted here.” Ryan explained, sadly, as he left the room. Meg quickly got up and went after him.

Gavin looked at the door, then back at his mother. “What the bloody toss happened while I was gone?” he asked his mum.

“Is the Vagabond forcing you and Meg to date him?” she asked.

“No, not at all!”

“Then why would the two of you want to date someone who’s obsessed with the god of death!?”

“It’s… a long story…”

“Why would you agree to date someone with a death fetish!?”

Gavin thought about it for a moment. “Actually, I think I’m the one with the death fetish.” Meg rushed back into the room. “How is he?” he asked her.

“He’s really upset. Do you that it would be better if we told her the truth?” she asked him

“Probably,” he replied with a nod.

“What truth? What are you two talking about?” Ms. Free asked.

Meg turned to face Ms. Free. “Vaga was not directly responsible for your husband’s death, you know.”

“What are you,”

“Vaga’s not evil at all. He’s actually an emotionally soft boy. And he assigned a special grim reaper to be in charge of determining how much time a soul has set on earth. The fate reaper decides the when and how of a soul’s departure. Vaga decides what happens to the soul after it has left the mortal world. A soul can either be sent to a heaven like afterlife, it can be used as sustenance for Vaga, or it can be repurposed and turned into a new grim reaper so Vaga doesn’t have to make more reapers from scratch,” Meg explained.

Ms. Free stared at her, “how did you, how did you know that?”

“Because I’m a recycled-soul reaper. I was originally from around ancient Greece and my name was Megara.”

“Oh yeah, I remember you telling me that.” Gavin remembered.

“But, I thought you were a barista,” Ms. Free commented.

“I do that as part of my job, too,” Meg confirmed.

“Did Ryan summon you here because of his Vaga obsession?”

“He didn’t exactly summon me here.”

“And his connection is something that he should tell you himself because we shouldn’t tell you that truth without his consent. And I know you won’t like his truth,” Gavin added.

“Want me to get him?” Meg asked.

“I think I should,” Gavin replied as he quickly got up to go get Ryan. He went to look for Ryan fist in his room, but he wasn’t there. Out of curiosity, he checked the guest bedroom and sure enough, Ryan was laying on the bed, sulking. “Rye, I think you should tell my mum the truth about your identity,” he requested as he rubbed Ryan’s shoulder.

“You sure?” he asked. Gavin nodded to answer.

“I love my mum, but I also love you and Meg. So yah, I think you should.” Ryan rolled off of the bed and rubbed his face. He followed Gavin out and back into the kitchen.

“So, I’ve been told you have a secret connection with Vaga, God of Death. I’d like to know what it is,” Ms. Free demanded as Gavin and Ryan walked back in.

Gavin bumped shoulders with Ryan, and Ryan sighed. He covered his face with his hands and let his hair turn black and grow back to its natural shoulder length. He uncovered his face to reveal glowing bright, icy blue. “Yeah so, I actually am Vaga,” Ryan admitted.

Ms. Free jumped, startled. “Oh…”

“Mum, he really isn’t evil,” Gavin stated, ready to defend.

Ms. Free looked back up. “While I’m not happy to here that you’re dating the god of death and a grim reaper, but maybe you could at least assure me that he will a long, healthy life.”

Ryan nodded. “I can talk to Mica, I mean Fate, about it. But, I was kinda leaning towards letting Gavin take his fate into his own hands.”

“Daaawww, Ryebread,” Gavin gushed.

Meg leaned over and gave both Ryan and Gavin a kiss on the cheek. “I love it when my two boys get all lovey-dovey,” she commented.

“I’m so happy this didn’t turn out as bad as it could have,” Gavin pointed out as he went to kiss Ryan and Meg. As he kissed the two of them, Ms. Free rolled her eyes. She didn’t know what had gotten into her son, but hopefully it wouldn’t turn out as bad as she thought.

#ragehappy #rt fanfic #fanfic #fake ah crew #turnfreewood #Gods of LS

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lunarlover12 · 7 years

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This goes along with @miss-ingno's Skeletons in the Closet. Even though they all knew they were criminals and all about their underground personas, it still came as a shock when they found all the weapons belonging to their partners. It was bound to happen at some point considering they were all moving in together. At this point everybody's stuff had been at least moved into the house even if nothing was unpacked yet. So they each decided to tackle a room before bed. Gavin was working on the living room, Meg was doing the bathroom, and Ryan was in the kitchen. And when Meg opened up a box labeled 'Gavvy Bath', she wasn't expecting to see more makeup than even she had. She double checked to make sure she hadn't accidentally grabbed either her makeup box or Ryan's facepaint stuff. But nope. It was Gavin's. So she dumped it all onto the counter and sorted it out in a way that was organized yet chaotic which left the Golden Boy plenty of room to put everything wherever he preferred. She moved onto the next box and then the next, slowly working her way through the room. Meg was almost done when she moved another box into the bathroom to unpack. It was heavier than the rest of the boxes and quite a bit bigger. What the hell could Ryan possibly have that was this heavy for the fucking /bathroom/? She set it down -perhaps a little too rough- and opened it up to softly gasp. There laid at least 20 different kinds of weapons. 3 or 4 SMGs, too many knives to count, multiple pistols, so on and so forth. "Ryan?" She called uncertainly. She knew that Ryan was Vagabond, had gone on missions with him! Had seen first hand that the man carried a multitude of weapons at any given time. She honestly shouldn't be this surprised. "Yeah?" Ryan poked his head in. His eyes traveled to the box on the floor before pursing his lips. "Ah, those." "Yeah these. Why do you have them labeled bathroom?" She questioned with a laugh. But Ryan merely looked confused. "Cause that's where they go?" Meg couldn't help but to stare at him in disbelief. "You expect all of these to fit in here?" She motioned around to the bathroom. Sure it was big but not big enough for all of these! "Yeah it'll be easy!" And Meg swears Ryan has some kind of super power because all of those mother fucking guns were gone the next time she walked in there. And when she asked where they all went he had simply smiled and shook his head mysteriously. "Stupid creepy ass Vagabond." She mumbled as she started unloading the final box.

#luna writes #thought for the night #tftn #turnfreewood #I'm in the process of moving #and this is all i can think about #all damn day #fahc #skeletons in the closet #meg turney #gavin free #ryan haywood #miss-ingno

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ahliebe · 7 years

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You ever wonder if Meg and Gavin lay in bed and talk about Ryan (because I’m sure they are both super bisexual, which is awesome) like: “No. His eyes! His eyes!” “His arms tho…” “Tru. But what about his voice?”

#meg turney #gavin free #ryan haywood #turnfreewood #this is what i believe #and i will not think otherwise #because equal bisexuals make me happy

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cptsdgavino · 7 years

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Hello everyone happy Mother’s Day weekend time to do the thing most of you follow me for and live up to my url, and write some terrible fahc Gavin centered hurt/comfort I guess! Warnings: child abuse, alcohol, ptsd, vomit, fahc violence (??)

For their reputation, the fake ah crew is horribly domestic. Disgustingly domestic in fact.

Michael can name dozens of times he’s walked in on Gavin and Jeremy arguing over who could eat the most cheese-its in a minute, or Jack and Geoff cuddling and reading together on the couch, and there’s something to be said about the feeling he got seeing the Vagabond of all people washing their dishes.

Michael, likes to have his most personal domestic conversations siting on the kitchen counter while someone messes around in the kitchen listening to him.

“She thinks someone’s living in our attic”

Geoff stops, a few bottles of liquor teetering dangerously on top of one another in his hands, “what the fuck do you mean”

Michael shrugs, “it’s Lindsay! She thinks some homeless guy is just hangin out, eating beans in our attic!”

Geoff moves again, hiding the bottles behind some cleaning supplies under the sink, when he stands back up he looks at Michael, “We don’t have an attic”

“I know that! For whatever reason she doesn’t believe me!”

“She knows what’s above your room it’s a pool, there’s a pool on our roof and not a single room in between our penthouse and the pool. I would know.” He grabs a few more bottles

“What the fuck are you doing, Geoff?” Michael asks.

Geoff looks down at his hands and sighs, “It’s May.”

“Oh…” Michael says quietly, hopping off the counter, “let me help you.”

“Hey Gav buddy, are you doing ok?”

Gavin jumps a little in his chair, “What? Yeah I’m fine I just gotta finish this then we can go out, okay?”

Michael looks at Ryan, and Ryan walks away from Gavin, a little defeated.

“Where are you taking him?” Michael says softly to Ryan.

Ryan smiles, “We’re just going out to dinner, but you know him we’ll probably end up going dancing or robbing a bank or something.”

“Two very different activities”

“Anything to keep his mind off of it, you know?” Ryan sighs.

Michael lowers his voice, “Meg said she’s flying Dan over as a surprise in a few days,” Ryan smiles big, Michael continues, “as long as he doesn’t have an emergency he should be here day after.”

“Day after?” Ryan sighs again, “we have to get him through day of?”

“It’s not like we haven’t before, Ryan” Ryan shifts nervously, “I know, but I feel like we’re less prepared this year.”

Michael groans, “Don’t say that! You’ve jinxed it!”

“Fuck”

“Hey, what are you lads talking about and why wasn’t I invited?” Gavin pushes his way past Michael into Ryan’s arms.

Michael crosses his arms, “You weren’t invited cause you’re a prick and we didn’t want your opinion.”

Gavin smiles, and Michael let’s out a quick breath of relief, “Awwwww, Michael boi! Don’t be like that. You have to be nice to me it’s my birthday soon!”

“Yeah that’s the only reason we have to be nice to you,” Michael laughs and Ryan looks at him panicked.

But Gavin starts to laugh harder, gasps out a little “that’s fair, boi” and Michael smiles triumphantly at Ryan.

Ryan rolls his eyes and kisses Gavin quick, “Let’s go Gav, we have a busy night.”

“Bye boi!” Gavin calls as Ryan leads him out the door, “see you later!”

When the door clicks, Michael pulls out his phone and shoots a text to Ryan that says very simply “seriously don’t let him drink tonight I swear you jinxed it be careful”

Ryan texts back “I didn’t jinx it”

Ryan jinxed it.

Despite all their efforts, despite Geoff and Jack’s years of practice, Saturday night rolled around and Gavin was nowhere to be found.

“It’s not even Mother’s Day yet we can’t be too worried” Jeremy says.

Jack turns to glare at him, “That’s not an excuse for you losing him”

Jeremy puts his hands up, “I didn’t lose him if I didn’t know I was supposed to be watching him!”

Jack rolls her eyes at Jeremy and sits down next to Geoff, head in her hands. Geoff absentmindedly starts to rub circles on her back and if Michael wasn’t so worried he’d think it’s sickeningly adorable.

“You’re all supposed to be watching him that’s the rule, Jeremy. You’ve been here for like three years,” Meg sighs and leans into Michael’s arms. Even with the illusion of calm on her face he can feel her heartbeat racing. “I can’t believe you lost my suicidal boyfriend,” she says quietly.

“Not suicidal as far as we know,” Geoff says, “just massively triggered and probably dangerous to himself and others.”

“Great, Geoff” Michael says sarcastically, “real helpful”

Geoff glares at Michael, “I’m sorry would you prefer me to have a panic attack because my idiot son is probably drunk facedown in a ditch because his actual family decided it was a good idea to hit him? Cause I’ll do it.”

“Please don’t” Jack mutters.

“It’s only been an hour or so,” Jeremy says “he couldn’t have gone far”

“He didn’t,” Ryan says, walking into the room.

“Excuse me?” Geoff says.

“I found him,” Ryan says, “he’s just locked himself in the bathroom, why didn’t anyone check the house first?”

Meg pushes herself out of Michael’s arms, “You’re all fucking idiots,” she snaps, then runs to the kitchen to find something to open the door.

“I’ll talk to him,” Michael volunteers, Geoff nods and follows him out.

When they reach the bathroom door there isn’t really any sign Gavin’s even in there until Michael knocks quietly.

“Leave me alone, Ryan” Gavin’s little warble comes in response.

“Boi? it’s me,” Michael says gently “Can I come in?”

“Leave me alone, Michael” this time he’s louder, and very clearly slurring his words, Geoff sighs heavily.

“Come on, boi,” Michael says, “I’m not mad at you, I just want to make sure you’re ok?” Gavin groans in reply.

“Gav come on you know me, I’ll even lock the door behind me until you’re ready to come out, just you and me we’ll be in a little bubble? Okay?”

For what feels like years there’s no response, long enough for meg to show up with a lock pick, a crowbar, and teary face. Geoff just pulls her to the side and shushes her. Eventually there’s a small click from the doorknob and Michael looks surprised back at Geoff. Geoff, with his arm wrapped around Meg, nods at Michael and Michael nods back understandingly before slipping inside the dark bathroom and locking it behind him just like he promised.

As his eyes adjust he can see Gavin sort of come into view, laying curled up in the empty bathtub, bottles of liquor fallen on the floor and a few lined up on the rim of the bathtub.

Michael smiles at him, “Geoff didn’t do a good job hiding them this year did he”

Gavin, smiles up at him, Michael can see he’s been crying, and his heart breaks just a little. “It would help if he- bloody didn’t keep ‘em in the same spot each year wouldn’t it?” Gavin slurs.

“Move over you fuckin alcoholic let me come cuddle” Michael says, squishing himself into the bathtub with Gavin. Gavin laughs a little bit as Michael gently elbows him, it’s a broken laugh, like he can’t bring himself to laugh completely. By the end of all the shuffling somehow Gavin’s on top of Michael, his head resting sort of on Michael’s shoulder, their hips pressed together, legs tangled.

“There,” Michael says, and Gavin lets his head fall against Michael’s. His breathing is shaky, Michael can feel it. The two of them just sit quietly together for a while, Gavin hiccuping quietly against Michael and Michael’s thumb absentmindedly rubbing comforting circles on Gavin’s bicep.

“M'sorry boi,” Gavin mutters quietly.

“Hey hey,” Michael says, and Gavin picks up his head to look at him better, “don’t say sorry, okay? You don’t need to, I get it”

“It’s every damn year” Gavin’s voice breaks.

Michael smiles, “Yeah that’s what holidays are”

“That’s not what I mean,” Gavin starts to tear up, starts wiping angerly at his eyes, “every year I feel like this every year I want to drink until I die and I scare you and Meg and Geoff and Jack and everyone! Every damn year!”

“It’s okay, Gavin” Michael whispers, masking the shake in his voice.

“It’s not,” he’s crying now, hot tears spill over his eyes and stream down his face,

“It’s not okay, it’s not fair it’s not fair it’s not fair!”

Michael chokes back a sob, “I know, boi”

“I just-” he hiccups again, his entire body shakes, “she did this to me. My own fucking mother. And I’m supposed to be thankful?”

“You’re not-” Michael starts to say but Gavin cuts him off

“She hated me. I hear her scream at me still it’s in my head it’s always been I’m a worthless, stupid, lazy arsehole who will never be anything other than that. I’m a liar and disrespectful and that’s all I am and look at me it’s all I still am I made a damn living out of it!” Michael watches him cry, there’s nothing he can do now.

“She hit me for lying. It’s all I do now and I’m good at it because she would hit me whenever I got caught. Tell me I wouldn’t get hit if I just told her the truth, right? God forbid I do that and have her hit me for the truth.”

Michael moves his hand up to wipe some tears off of Gavin’s face.

“I’m supposed to be thankful. Every commercial every billboard ‘say thanks to your mother this mother’s day for taking care of your awful disgusting arse! Appreciate all she did for you!’ It’s a little overwhelming don’t you think? You know, considering she didn’t fucking love me.”

“Gavin-” Michael tries to comfort him, but his voice breaks. He’s crying too he realizes, it’s too hard not to.

“It’s all my fault too” Gavin sobs, “if I was just better if I didn’t lie if I just tried harder she’d love me… she would.”

“Shut up,” Michael cries, gently holding Gavin’s face in his hand, “shut up you know that that’s not true” Gavin looks at him, shuts his eyes tight. “She doesn’t matter anymore Gavin, she’s not here. You have Jack and Geoff now and they’re not joking when they call you their kid, alright? They love you, no trying, no lying none of that involved, okay?” Michael takes in a shaky breath, “Besides this week isn’t even England’s Mother’s Day it’s America’s. You already missed yours.” This time Gavin doesn’t laugh, just lets his head fall into Michael’s shoulder,

“It’s not fair” he says quietly

“It’s not,” Michael replies, “and you don’t have to be thankful for her, ever.”

Gavin takes a shaky breath, “I want her dead”

“Next time I’m in England, I promise” Michael smiles.

They fall into silence, Gavin’s still crying. He cries quietly into Michael’s shoulder, hiccups occasionally and Michael squeezes him tighter with every jolt.

Any time he gets louder Michael tells him it’s okay, kisses his head, let’s him cry as much as he needs. Michael’s arm is numb by the time Gavin calms down enough to talk again.

“Hey Michael boi?” He whispers.

Michael kisses his dumb bleach blonde hair, “Yeah Gav?”

Gavin laughs weakly, “I’m gonna vom”

Michael laughs and sits him up in the tub, “Okay but probably not in here ok, come on let’s get you the four feet to the toilet!”

Michael pushes as hard as he can to get out from under Gavin and out of the bathtub. He grabs Gavin’s arm and pulls him towards the other end of the small room, “Up up lets go I don’t want to be puked on!”

Gavin makes it to the toilet, empties his entire stomach, and when he’s all done he curls himself around Michael, hanging on to him like a little kid. Michael would hate it if it were any other situation; Gavin’s hot, smells like vomit and is practically vibrating he’s shaking so much. But Michael clings just as tight to his best friend as he clings to him.

Eventually Gavin stops shaking so much, his muscles relax, and Michael breathes a sigh of relief.

“Boi?” Michael whispers against Gavin, Gavin hums in response, “I’m gonna go give you to Geoff now ok? He’s a lot better at taking care of you than I am and I’m sure he’s really worried. Is that okay?”

Gavin nods into Michael’s shoulder, and he lifts them both up off the floor, legs wobbly. He leads Gavin out of the bathroom, his eyes are far away and he doesn’t look quite like himself anymore.

Its dark in the hallway now, Meg and Geoff are sitting on the floor a little ways down, they practically jump up to greet Gavin. Meg reaches him first, wraps her arms around his torso and kisses every part of his face she can reach. Gavin smiles a little bit and leans away from Michael to hug her back, whispering he loves her.

When she lets go gently, she picks up Gavin’s bunny off the floor of the hallway and presses it into his arms. Like clockwork Gavin presses his face into his stuffed animal and lets out a sob, his legs wobble and Michael catches him. Michael leads Gavin past a teary eyed Meg, right into Geoff’s arms. Gavin basically falls into him, and Geoff holds him tight, already crying into his hair.

Michael backs up, grabs Meg’s hand. He watches as Geoff peppers kisses all along Gavin’s forehead and hair. Michael can see even from where he’s standing that Gavin melted into Geoff’s touch. Meg squeezes Michael’s hand and Michael looks at her.

“Thank you” she whispers.

“Course,” Michael whispers back, “he’s my boi, I love him.”

#kit writes #haven't in a long fuckin time wow have fun #fake ah crew #fahc gavin #turnfreewood #child abuse /#ragehappy #fahc michael #my stuff

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achievement-hunter-fic-rec · 5 years

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AU: Meg, a prominent member of the Rooster Teeth Crew is handed the job of seducing The Vagabond, from the rival Fake AH Crew. But Detective Free is hot on her case, aiming to take her down to stop the impending war between Rooster Teeth and Fake AH. But both Meg and Gavin’s plans go to shit as they find themselves in a tangled web of lies and love.

#fic rec #bellaspeaks #ragehappy #turnfreewood

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dreamed-for-not · 7 years

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I miss reading RT*AH fic, can someone recommend me some good (newer) fic? I’m down for about any ship/pairing at the moment.

#rage happy #jeremwood #micheoff #ramwood #jeremichael #freewood #turnwood #turnfreewood

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vagrantblvrd · 4 years

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I had a whole Thing about ~rival CEOs Ryan and Gavin, but with superhero/supervillain AU and then Tumblr ate it.

So highlights?

Ryan is Batman-ish superhero/vigilante because I cannot get enough of that trope-thing/whatever it is words are meaningless to me at this point, sorry.

Gavin is heir to family suspected of having criminal ties and came to Ryan’s city to expand US operations for his family’s business.

Ryan thinks Gavin’s there for Nefarious Purposes and goes all paranoid about it, because of course.

Still has to have brunch/business meetings with Gavin because Plot Reasons and wonders if maybe Gavin’s not a baddie? (But still paranoid, because of course.)

Gets caught by Gavin who’s working late when he breaks into Gavin’s office and oh, wow awkward as hell?

And then Gavin’s assistant/bodyguard show up because Gavin’s been working long enough and does he want her to kick Ryan out?

Lol, Gavin does not, but than you anyway Fiona.

And then like.

Meanginful Looks and double-speak as Ryan flees into the night and Gavin lets Fiona bully him into going home and getting some sleep.

Ryan does investigating and finds out one of the reasons Gavin was sent to the US was because there was a Thing in which power struggle and someone trying to kill Gavin being a motivator for his family breaking off personal/business ties with a majority of their criminal buddies.

It was decided Gavin should oversee things in the US while his family dealt with the shenanigans at home, move them into a new era where they leave their criminal dealings in the past and all that.

Ryan developing feels for Gavin as they continue to work together as CEO-types and awkward flirting as they run into one antother while Ryan’s doing the superhero/vigilante deal.

And then hitmen/assassins come after Gavin, something Ryan is made aware of when Meg ambushes him on patrol one night and they have a ~sexy fight (because Plot Reasons) and she’s like.

“You know someone wants him dead, right?”

Ryan playing dumb because who, now?

And Meg rolling her eyes because her day job is a freelance reporter and she and Ryan have this on and off again relationship that the tabloids love and just.

“Sure, Ryan,” because right.

And then it turns into this weird, awkward thing of Ryan realizing Meg also has this on again off again relationship with Gavin and him being oh, no, they’re both hot. (Which to be fair, was true of Meg ages ago, but the Gavin thing is new.)

Shenanigans in which Fiona cannot with Ryan and Gavin (Meg’s cool because she teaches Fiona new ways to fuck people up and it’s totes awesome) while they realize they’re allowed to have ~feelings for one another and Meg?

And then more shenanigans in which there are a lot of fights and Meg’s two idiots and near-death situations as they thwart the baddies after Gavin before Serious smoochings happen.

Because Gavin is legit trying to get his family to leave behind their criminal past, but it’s not easy, simple, and he’s maybe not just a soft businessman or whatever. (Not at Meg or Fiona’s level of dangerous but plenty capable in his own right.)

And Ryan is kind of fucked over Meg and now Gavin but that’s fine because they’re in the same situation with him and just. Just as well they’re stuck with one another, you know?

(I mean, sure. There were smooches here and there before then? Meg using them as distraction to get away from Ryan when he’s being all Superhero/vigilante at her and it’s just dumb at that point, so yes. Plus fond little smooches with Gavin - usually in full view of Ryan who is boggled at what his feelings are doing.

Also, also.

Post-near death situation with Ryan and Gavin in some rundown little hovel somewhere. Probably patching one another up and feelings too strong to ignore and then the :O of thinking they’ve overstepped/made a terrible mistake because clearly the other one doesn’t like them like them and intend to never speak of it again?

But yes.)

Fiona’s like, “Fucking finally,” and goes off to get coffee with Lindsay and whoever to leave the three of them with their idiot feelings and complicated lives and all that.

Also, also.

Gavin who’s got a totally awesome hitman/assassin girlfriend in Meg and dorky but still awesome superhero/vigilante boyfriend in Ryan and utterly terrifying assistant/bodyguard in Fiona and other things.

#ragehappy #turnfreewood #another superhero au because of course #also batman-ish because again of course #technically not a fic #vagrant fic #shenanigans galore #long post

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In Somnis Confundo

Fandom: ragehappy Ships: Turnwood, Freewood (eventual Turnfreewood) Words: 3.5k Tags: demon!Meg, demon!Gavin, demon!Geoff, human!Ryan, demisexual!Ryan, dream sex, nsfw, mental health issues, flirting

Summary: Ryan is still looking for a solution to his wet dreams about Meg. He makes a discovery on the way and has a meet cute.

Read here on Ao3 or here on Patreon. Part 1, part 2, tag.

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Meg didn’t follow up on his invitation to hang out, and Ryan took it as the rejection it was clearly meant as.

Meanwhile his dreams didn’t get the memo. He kept dreaming of Meg, in ever more vivid detail. They were especially strong on days he ran into her in the hallway or on the stairs, making him lean towards the theory that she had some sort of pheromones. He was relatively sure she wasn’t a siren, at least - he tied one hand to his headboard one night, to make sure she wasn’t luring him to sleepwalk towards the nearest body of water.

She wasn’t.

Sirens were known to drown people, particularly men, by tempting them with forbidden knowledge. They didn’t always use sex as the forbidden fruit, though it was the one temptation foremost in the public conscience in regards to sirens. Easy, too, in a culture so obsessed with who was and who wasn’t having sex, despite the large taboo placed on talking about it.

So she wasn’t actively luring him into a trap (and Ryan felt a twinge of guilt for even assuming that, just because he couldn’t keep it in his pants in his dreams. It wasn’t Meg’s fault.) Geoff had suggested nymphs as an alternative, which lead Ryan to his pheromone theory.

At least he was relatively sure it wasn’t Geoff’s theory that Ryan just needed to get laid.

Water was still a recurring theme in his dreams ever since he looked into nymphs and sirens. Ever since he dreamt of Meg drowning him, and then she didn’t. He thought that was when it started, at least. He couldn’t quite remember all his dreams, the nights blending together. The one constant was waking up either after coming in his pyjama pants, or with rock-hard morning wood.

His laundry was piling up, and he’d given up on washing his sheets after every night.

No matter how hard he tried to stop the dreams, they kept on coming. Even when he was aware that he was dreaming, something about Meg kept pulling him back in, made him forget his resolution to dream of something else for once. He tried staying up beyond his usual bedtime, hoping if he was too tired, he might escape a night without dreaming anything.

The sun is hot on his neck, the sand hot under his bare feet. The beach stretches out in front of him, the distant crashing of waves the only sound. She’s lying on a towel in a purple bikini, arms crossed under her head. It’s not until he’s straddling her that his shadow falls over her form.

It’s a sign he’s dreaming, he realizes. It doesn’t seem important at the moment, though.

She pushes her sunglasses up and smiles at him, stretching her arms above her head and arching her back. His hands skim over her sides, thumb coming to rest on the little purple bow holding her bikini bottoms together.

‘Hi there.’ She wraps her arms around his shoulders, and he hovers over her, propped on his elbows, legs entangled. ‘I’ve been waiting for you.’

‘Have you know,’ Ryan murmurs even as he leans in, lips brushing over hers, and then they are kissing, rocking forward and back as if moved by the waves. They lose time just moving together, his mind slowly blanking out, as if drifting off. Meg’s hand on his cheek pulls him back, her voice in his ear as she chuckles.

“Stay with me now,” she says, winking at him over her shoulder. She’s lying on her stomach now, Ryan straddling her thighs. ‘I need you to get my back.’

‘Sure.’ Ryan spreads the lotion across his palms and starts with her neck, her red hair pulled up into a messy bun. He massages her shoulders, rubs the cream into her arms while she hums contentedly under him, skin warmed by the sun. His hands slide down her back, stopping short of where her bikini top is tied into a neat bow.

‘You can unwrap your present, you know,’ Meg tells him conspiratorially, her grin sly.

Ryan pulls on the free ends, and the bow falls apart under his touch, cloth pooling to either side, leaving her back free. His hands move without conscious thought, exploring the skin, even as he leans in, brushing a kiss to her shoulder. Meg moans under him, rubbing her behind against his erection. With barely a thought, he pulls on the tiny bows on her bikini bottoms, and they unravel, the last barrier between them dropping away.

Her cheeks are slick with sunscreen and he drags his hands over them, kneading the firm mounds between his fingers. Then he pulls them apart, his dick sliding between them easily.

She is warm and wet and perfect under him, and Ryan presses his chest to her back, pinning her down as he fucks her into the sand, her quiet moans swallowed by the crashing of waves lapping at their feet. His hands wrap around her waist, trail up her stomach until he can cup her breasts, kneading them between his fingers. He thumbs over her nipples and she arches her back, tossing her hair over his shoulder with the motion.

It’s wet and clings to his back and he’s sinking into her from behind, with her sitting in his lap, back pressed to his chest. Her legs are spread to either side of his thighs, her hands propped on his knees, her boobs bopping in his hands from the force of his thrusts.

‘Oh, oh- Ryan!’ she cries, and he buries his face in her neck, muffling his groan as he comes.

Meg keeps riding him, and Ryan remains hard, because this is a dream and he doesn’t want it to be over yet, not really. Her laughter rings in his ears, full of amusement and approval, even as she pants against his throat, pushing him down to lie on the towel as she lifts and sinks back down on his cock. He’s floating, and he gives up control, lets Meg dictate the dream for a bit. On some level he’s aware that those thoughts are penetrating because he’s about to wake up soon, in that in between state of still dreaming but lucid enough for awareness to process.

It still feels like an eternity until he wakes up fully, slowly drifting into consciousness, the feel of Meg clenching around him branded into his mind.

Needless to say, it didn’t help. It only left him more tired come morning.

Work was a slog, a hazy fog. Ryan drank too much diet coke, desperate to stay awake enough to do his job. Thankfully it was a slow day, no IT problems cropping up, leaving him free to focus on the never-ending busy work. There were piles upon piles of old files still waiting to be digitized, and Ryan spent most of his day saving photocopies to the digital archives and tagging them appropriately.

Geoff showed up during his lunch break to drop off the paperwork he’d promised to do a week ago. The demon took one look at Ryan, before stopping in his tracks and cocking his head.

“You look tired.”

“Thanks,” Ryan drawled, rubbing a hand over his face. “You, of course, look fresh as daisies, as always.”

Geoff ignored the dig (demons don’t do anything as harmless as daisies unless they wanted to lure in victims, and Geoff wasn’t that kind of demon. Not anymore.) He dropped the file on top of Ryan’s work pile and hopped up onto the desk, tail toppling an empty can of coke.

“Hey!” Ryan protested, catching the can and tossing it into the trash. He glared up at the demon. “What do you want this time.”

“Well, originally I just wanted to drop these off, hold up my end of the deal,” Geoff explained, holding up the file, blithely ignoring the stink-eye Ryan shot him. “But now I think I should’ve come by earlier to check on you.”

“You’re not my mom,” Ryan muttered, snatching the papers from Geoff’s lax grip and paging through them to check everything was in order and properly signed. “And these are late.”

“Not as late as they could be,” Geoff returned, shrugging unapologetically. His tail swished behind him as he mustered Ryan, cocking his head to his side. “What happened with your siren girlfriend anyway?”

“Not my girlfriend,” Ryan objected immediately, and Geoff’s face broke out into a wide grin, eyes twinkling. Ryan glowered at him. “And not a siren either, so stuff it.”

“Aww, come on, no need to be like that, big guy.” Geoff nudged Ryan’s shoulder with his tail, which zipped out of range immediately afterwards. Ryan’s glower intensified. “Hey, you need to relax more. No wonder you’re tired if you’re all work, work, work.”

“Are you telling me as a friend,” Ryan asked, enunciating carefully. If he flubbed his words now, Geoff would never leave him alone. “Or as a demon?”

Geoff shrugged again. Put on a lackadaisical grin, but the look in his half-lidded eyes was sharp as he watched Ryan closely. “Can’t it be both?”

Ryan groaned, dropping his head in his arms. He heard Geoff shift, push off the table, and fervently hoped he’d leave him to his misery. That hope was dashed when Geoff bumped his hip against Ryan’s shoulder, his tail settling down across his back in a friendly squeeze. Ryan lifted his head just enough to peek up at the demon. The moment Geoff noticed his attention, he levelled Ryan with a serious look.

“You’re sure she’s not a siren?”

Ryan nodded, pushing up enough to prop his elbows on the desk, palm on his cheek. Geoff cleared his throat.

“And you’re certain you don’t just need to get laid?”

Groaning, Ryan collapsed back into his huddle of misery. His voice was muffled by his sleeves, but he knew the demon could hear him anyway. “I don’t know, Geoff. Maybe you’re right, but… it feels. I don’t know. It just feels off. I like to get to know people better before crushing on them, okay? I never went straight to-”

His words trailed off into strangled noises. Geoff patted his head, fingers carding through Ryan’s hair. It was a nice feeling, though the patronizing air was entirely unappreciated.

“Alright, alright. Calm down, buddy.” The hand left his hair, and the tail gave him one last slap before curling away. “How about this? You can come out and meet me and Jack at the bar and grill downtown this Friday. See if anyone catches your attention.”

Ryan really, really didn’t want to. But he also knew Geoff would nag until he agreed, so he gave in with bad grace, muttering under his breath, “Fine.”

Geoff ruffled his hair, hip-checking his shoulder as he pushed off. Ryan glared after him, watching him swagger towards the door. Geoff stopped with a hand on the handle, twisting his upper body to look back at Ryan, tail stilling for once. His expression was serious, and the unholy light in his eyes burned bright.

“Why don’t you check the directory,” he suggested, voice one part concern and two parts mischief. For a police demon, Geoff rather loved encouraging rule breaking. “That way, you’ll know for sure.”

“I don’t know.” Ryan’s glare softened into a considering look. “I shouldn’t-”

“Then don’t,” Geoff said dryly, shooting him a wink before sashaying out of Ryan’s small office.

It was a terrible idea. Ryan was tempted.

He managed to push it off for another half hour of mind-numbing busy work, his fingers slowing more and more and eyes starting to dart to the desktop shortcut. It was just an easy click and a quick search. And if Meg wasn’t listed, then no harm done. And if she was… surely she wouldn’t blame him.

Right?

The supernatural database comprised all beings and creatures within the city, so Ryan filtered by area code and then control-searched for his street. There were three tenants in his building listed, two male sounding names and one Meg Turney. Ryan rolled her surname around in his head, unsure how demons or other supernatural beings chose them. It suited her, he thought.

Ryan hesitated before opening her file. This was a breach of privacy on a level that made him feel queasy, like stones rolling through his stomach. But… Geoff was right. Now that he knew for sure that Meg was supernatural, he could put his worry to rest by checking what kind - or prove his feeling that she was somehow involved correct. Either way, it’d give him a new path forward.

Except the clarification box was empty. There was the checkmark classifying Meg as supernatural, but no species listed.

Under the category for supernatural nature was another entry, one that drew Ryan's attention away from the disturbing lack of information in the former. It was innocuous, pro forma really, because when dealing with the supernatural it was always important to be aware of the people they claimed for their own. It was a simple number, followed by a link to the related case file.

Ryan didn't need to check the legend to know. Number four, living with a domestic, supernatural partner.

The stone in Ryan's stomach sank deeper.

***

Ryan spent the rest of the day in something of a fugue state, like he was sleep-walking with his eyes open and his brain technically online, but set to autopilot. He couldn’t quite remember finishing up at work, or the trek to the bus stop. The bus was filled at rush hour, but Ryan couldn’t really muster much annoyance at having to stand for the entire drive.

Meg was in a relationship.

Meg wasn’t available. No wonder she hadn’t taken him up on his offer to hang out, she probably noticed his crush and decided not to encourage him. He must’ve been painfully obvious, and he couldn’t really blame her. He felt like a creep.

Now if only the dreams would stop.

Somehow he made it back into the apartment building, standing in front of his mailbox. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d checked for mail. He should probably do that. Except he ended up staring at his keyring for who knew how long, wondering why he had so many keys.

“Long day?” a sympathetic sounding voice asked, and Ryan opened his eyes, turning just enough to glance at the man next to him. He stood maybe five feet away, about three mailboxes down the row, key in one hand and two envelopes in the other.

“Yeah.” Ryan cleared his throat, suddenly too aware of how rough he sounded. The man had beautiful, lightly tanned skin and artfully tousled blond hair. Hazel eyes mustered Ryan, had him straighten under that intense gaze, smoothing out his work shirt. Ryan was all too aware of how rumpled he looked, a stark contrast to the purposefully messy, yet sexy appearance the stranger was rocking.

“One of those, innit,” the man said in a commiserating tone, closing his mailbox and locking it. He left the keys sticking to hold out his hand to Ryan. “I’m Gavin. Just moved here recently.”

“Oh, uh. Welcome,” Ryan said, shaking his hand automatically. Then he realized he hadn’t introduced himself in return and felt like melting in embarrassment. “I, uh, I’m Ryan.”

“Ryan. That’s a nice name, Ryan.”

He really hoped his blush wasn’t too obvious, his cheeks burning at the simple compliment. Gavin’s accent fell somewhere between cute and hot, though Ryan was leaning more towards hot as Gavin broke out into a sly grin.

“Ryan, don’t blame the mail, Ryan. It’s not its fault it’s probably all spam. Or maybe bills, it’s bills, innit.”

That startled a laugh out of Ryan, and the grin widened, equal parts smug and proud. It reminded Ryan of a cat that got the cream, and the thought made his breath catch. Was Gavin flirting with him?

“Guess I’ll have to burn it then, instead of feeding it to the shredder,” he offered, his heart beating hard in his chest, hoping the joke would land. At Gavin’s light chuckle, he added, “The ads, not the bills. Though maybe I should burn the bills, too.”

“Be nice, wouldn’t it?” Gavin shot him a wink, finally pulling his keys out and pushing off the row of mailboxes. “Well, I hope the rest of the week will be… nicer to you. Be a shame to hide that smile from the world.”

Ryan ducked his head, the corners of his mouth tugging up, even as his flush spread down his neck and up his ears. Gavin laughed, light and carefree, and the sound shuddered through Ryan. He returned Gavin’s wave, feeling sheepish and invigorated and foolish at the same time.

Back in his flat, Ryan dropped the mail on the counter to deal with later, and absently setting a pot to boil. He’d just make some quick noodles for dinner with package sauce, his exhaustion catching back up with him. Maybe he could catch some shut eye tonight, knowing that not only was Meg way out of his league, she was already spoken for. Might even be married, or mated, or whatever her kind did.

Nothing could chase the soft smile from his face, though.

His thoughts swung from Meg to Gavin as he ate, and as he dropped the dirty dishes into the sink to soak, too tired to start the dishwasher. The way he’d smiled at Ryan, the flirty gleam in his eyes as he joked with him. Ryan felt flustered just remembering it. He’d take a quick shower before bed and do his best to forget Meg and her insistence of showing up in his dreams.

Ryan leaned back against the cold tiles, let the spray wash over him. His hand slid down his chest and he closed his eyes. Maybe, if he jerked himself off beforehand, he wouldn't seek pleasure in his dreams, wouldn't seek her company. His fingers danced over his shaft, which started to show interest in the proceedings.

He could almost imagine that it was her hand on him, could almost hear her giggle as she pressed up against his back, her soft breasts squished between them. Felt her breath on his skin and heard her voice in his ear, 'Why, hello there.'

His breathing hitched and his cock twitch in interest. He dragged the nails of his free hand over his nipples, playful in the way he wished Meg would…

'Let me help you out there,' she murmured, her fingers tightening on his cock as she stroked him to full hardness.

But that didn't make sense, Ryan had to remind himself. Meg wasn't tall enough to hook her chin over his shoulder. He concentrated on the rough callouses of his palm, the bitten short nails on his fingers. Meg's hands were smooth and perfectly manicured and, more importantly, not for his pleasure. She lived with her fiancé, for fuck's sake, just down the hall. She wasn't meant for him and he needed to stop.

What he needed, he thought, was a distraction.

Ryan squinted his eyes shut tight, ignoring the vague feeling of surprise turned offense his subconscious was ascribing the imaginary Meg. He focussed on his hands. Brought, calluses, short nails. As unlike Meg's as he could envision. Male hands, dipping down his stomach, wrapping around his cock.

Like the cute blond with the British accent from the mailboxes. Gavin.

Ryan focussed on that memory, tuning out every reminder of Meg and zooming in on that smile, hazel eyes glittering with amusement. Let himself imagine asking him up, inviting him in for coffee. Pictured him naked, kneeling in front of Ryan in the shower with him. He'd have a smug expression, looking up at Ryan from under long lashes.

'Don't worry, luv,' Gavin would say, laughter in his voice like triumph. 'I'll take good care of you.'

Ryan leaned back against the cold tile, a reminder that Meg didn't stand behind him. He thumbed over the head of his cock, exhaling shakily. The warm water left him wet, slick. It didn't take much for his mind to conjure the image: Gavin's breath hot on his skin, his tongue twisting up and down his length, leaving trails of saliva. His mouth, hot and wet and tight-

Ryan spilled over his fingers with a squeeze, embarrassingly quick. Which was probably why he felt like Gavin was laughing at him. He could almost hear his teasing tone, beyond words or care. A part of him felt guilty for shoving Meg out like that, replacing her, even if it was just his imagination. Ryan shoved those feelings to the furthest corner of his mind, telling himself firmly to stop. She was engaged and wouldn't be happy with him perving on her.

He shut off the shower, quickly rubbing himself dry. He would grab some late night dinner, and then he would sleep.

That night he didn’t dream of Meg for once.

He dreamt of Gavin instead.

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