#ugh put me out of my misery

[blob-blobsworld]

I can’t get them out of my head

#tgcf #tian guan ci fu #heavens official blessing #artists on tumblr #feng xin #art #xie lian #fenglian #matching to the fenglianweek24 #but it’s not theme matching #I love them okay #xie lian is fx‘s sun #and loosing his sun cost him everything #even himself #wait that reminds me of a quote from me ‘the cruelest thing the world can do is make you forget yourself #that’s pretty much what happened #it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts #Fx living a life without xl is like a life without meaning #they are my angels #ugh put me out of my misery #in another universe they got a happy ending #traditional drawing #traditional art

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol #this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable #im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work #property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me #like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well #and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for #Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too #like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and #down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy #last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just #feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b #put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back #down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then #that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her #i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better #on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out #dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really? #ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious. #i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles #but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol #unrelated

[anteroom-of-death]

Too sane to shift. Too ethical to do ai character chat. Too lazy to write anymore.Just fuckin pathetic enough to wank myself to death over a fictional character.

#personal #im in the trenches #please put me out of my misery #ugh

[manasurge]

Ughhh today started off so badly and ruined my mood for the rest of the day. We had two customer incidents back to back, with one aimed specifically at me for some reason, and I’m still feeling that deeply uncomfortable accelerated anxiety bad feeling you get from confrontations, and I’m just… so exhausted. I just wanna go home, but instead I’m still stuck here for 2 more hours and of course, my longest shifts of the week happen at the end instead of the beginning (aka when I’m the most tired already, making it that much worse and tiring). Bad mood bad mood bad mood

#no idea why that one dude specifically didn’t want me to help him but ugh whatever dude #still feels ughh to be singled out like that though #I hate customer service work #please put me out of my misery #my whole day just feels ruined from both experiences on top of stupid decisions being made from the higher ups at work #capitalism is the bane of my existence

[fazcinatingblog]

CPA results release but at midnight New Zealand time

#i just want to know but also i don't and ugh idk just put me out of my misery #I'm scared but it's fine i need to know #pass and i continue another subject #fail and i jump off the--- no wait fail and i move on try something else pick a better hobby

[chipped-chimera]

Ugh I honestly don't know if the midday energy crashes were better or worse anymore 🫠

#kerytalk #... no they were probably worse honestly but #idk something about being hit by the misery(tm) at night and feeling intensely lonely #is much worse #before I'd be able to idk pull myself together before bed #now I'm just going to bed feeling like shit ugh #I am sick of this isolation but I don't have the capacity built yet to put myself out there #or just ... visually #none of my clothes fit #my hair needs cut real bad #I need to see a dermatologist tbh bah #just feel very 'NOT FIT FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION' label slapped on me #lol downloaded a dating app for half a second and immediately uninstalled it when it asked for three photos #not yet #don't stop this miserable moping feeling tho #on the upside I don't think get panic attacks anymore just misery? #don't have anyone to talk to in my timezone either so I'm just here microwaving my brain until I go to bed :V #this has been a tag rant

[cutiecatsub]

what if a pretty Mommy taught me how to please her with all my holes and turned me into the perfect toy? 🥺👉👈

#kitten's posts #perv diaries #Ugh someone kill me pls put me out of my misery

[aerynwrites]

Disney World has betrayed me.

I am sick as a dog 😭 waiting on a Covid test now.

#ugh #i feel horrible #chills #fever achy all over #Someone put me out of my misery

[mjk004]

Before I realized I was trans, I didn’t really understand a lot of the things people would talk about feeling. But now that I’m on the other side of it, I completely understand. I REALLY understand how much it hurts when people make such a big deal about how hard it is to learn new pronouns. There’s slip ups. But it’s not that fucking hard. Seriously. Before I was trans, I met someone in junior high that was- the first person I ever met who was. Privacy and all that so I won’t say his name. I fucked it up a couple times. And I didn’t quite understand. But it didn’t take me too long. I grew up around none of that, and had to retrain my brain out of thinking that sort of thing was strange. But I still tried. Why can’t people just do that? Why do they have to act like it’s such a big inconvenience? I’m exhausted. And I’ve only known for about 1 1/2 - 2 years. I’m so tired. I just want to live my life. But instead, everything has to hurt. Do better cis-straight-white people. Please.

#trans pride #transgender #trans #the cishets are at it again #im fucking exhausted #ugh i hate this #put me out of my misery

[deedee-sims]

hii deedee! i got plat-asp's new mesh for wondercarlotta calypso and i want to request a recolor, please? but i have to explain why first: plat-asp also made an edit to grecadea's original conversion that is compatible with older recolors BUT: 1) new mesh is available for toddlers and is animated. 2) i saw on simpe that the png textures from the old and new conversions match so you'd only have to use your older recolors to make new files. could you, please? i tried myself but it looks bad idk y?

Hi! Ugh, I knew someone will request this 😩 I'll try to update the old post with the new version, but I hate redoing things

#anonymous #replies #and i hate clay hairs still #i still have some hairs i promised to update years ago but never got to them #ugh #someone please put me out of my misery

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ok. so the guy from school i visited emailed me today like: good news! we unanimously voted to extend u an offer here #so expect the formal offer in the next week. and im like uuuugh i wanna say yes so bad #bc in the us i would have more flexibility in the program than i would in the uk #and my options in the us r either to b a big fish in a small pond at this schoolor a little fish in a big pond at the other #bc this school is underfunded and a bit isolated out in the mountains but the staff r pretty great and big egos dont seem like a big issue #but if i go to the other school its like a big well funded school. the application was like 75 dollars. fuck u and really annoying #and i mean id have to live in new jersey. so in the city with city driving and prob a more high pressure school environment #and more of a chance of dealing with big egos. but like career wise im sure it would b good. assuming i don't mentally collapse #but i mean that doesnt seem as fun as spending 5 years out in the rocky mountains #like thry have fucking moose and bears! there were deer and turkeys in town! #and my dad just sent me a video of all the spring peepers singing back home and im like 😭 bc froggies and he was like i bet u could find #frogs out in [redacted city] and im like 😭 ur right. it just seems like the better choice for my poor overtaxed brain and the project is #so cool too. i want to get the cyano species as my computer background asap. and the guy is nice and apparently super supportive #and i could probably walk to hiking trails. god. i mean i have to say yes to that. i wanna say yes so bad. send me the formal offer bro #ill fucking take it before i even hear back from the other schools lol. ugh. i hate making choices #oof i am so excited to kno where im going and plan my departure. its gonna b such a pain moving tho i pray that my mum or dad can drive #with me bc otherwise the 20hr drive by myself might kill me. thats almost as bad as my initial move out here lol. the us is so big #ugh. again choices. is this the right choice? probably one of the biggest decisions of my life. the project feels so right. cyanobacteria #my algal group of choice. and hot springs. how tf do u say to no to that? i mean. id b doing that in new jersey too but with red algae #ugh. put me out of this misery lol. also as an aside. shout out to my fucking disaster brain for not being able to focus on a single thing #my boss in a meeting: so glad to have students and staff so excited to b working on this project!! me: lady i hate that im on this project #bc im just sitting in until they can get an actual student. i just do what im told but appreciate the enthusiasm lol #ay. im so tired. i wanna see the snow and mountains. and fix my head. and get outta the desert. and listen to frogs 🐸 😌 #unrelated

[dead-insidee]

AHHHHHHHFFIFYSYWUDLGLGHCU 🎀🎀🎀🎀

#mental illness #mentally fucked #mentally unhealthy #mentally unwell #mental breakdown #ugh help me #mentally unstable #mentally ill #actually mentally ill #put me out of my misery #i cant #i cant do this #i’m gonna cry #i’m gonna throw up #this time im really gonna do it

[this-was-a-terrible-idea]

desperately grasping for the fervent productivity that the ac2 score filled me with two terms ago, allowing me to write 12 short essays in a 4 day period. i need that again...

#using apple music this time so my spotify wrapped isnt dominated by the ac2 score though lmao #rip to my 2022 spotify wrapped... irreparable damage done in a 2 week period in february by me blasting the ac2 score on repeat #ive learned from my mistakes #BUT ONLY ON THE INCONSEQUENTIAL THINGS NOT THE THINGS THAT ACTUALLY MATTER!!! UGH. #i have 16 essays to do in a 10 day period #i should be fine... right?? #😅😅😅😅😅😅😅 #somebody put me out of my misery #the inherent struggles of having adhd and being enrolled in an online degree program where the only deadline is the end of term #im this 🤏 close to dropping out of school #im TIRED #bean speaks

[thebeths]

sooooo crazy... I got no fucking clue man

#but like everyone is like haha that's imposter syndrome #but i don't HAVE imposter syndrome when im genuinely not qualified and don't have the skills #that's just imposter #ugh wish they'd kick me out right now and put me out of my misery #i feel like I'm trying so hard and ppl are just watching me fail and feeling sorry for me #AND I'm gaining weight sad #it shouldn't be a problem but it is because I'm fucked in the mind!!! I've got dysmorphia or whatever jesus Christ

[screechwhisper]

Feeling like absolute hell today boys (/gender neutral)

#personal #my ears hurt so much #my head is killing me #the air quality in my city fucking sucks #ugh #kill me please #end my fucking life #put me out of my misery