#which is *sorely needed*

[not-poignant]

52/? - Underline the Black (omegaverse) - Efnisien/Gary

Title: Underline the Black Rating: Explicit Pairing: Efnisien ap Wledig/Dr Gary Konowalous Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Darkfic, Disturbing themes, Omegaverse, Alpha/Alpha, no Mpreg, Medical experimentation, Medical trauma, Dominance/Submission, Dystopian universe, Forced bonding, Forced relationship, Imprisonment, Nonconsensual medical procedures, PTSD, Flashbacks, Nightmares, Chronic illness, Mating cycles/Heats, Knotting, Miscommunication, Trauma recovery, Mind control, Child Abuse, Hope, Hopeful ending.

Summary: Efnisien ap Wledig is an omega born into an all-alpha family. Abandoned by his birth mother and raised by his aunt, he is subjected to a lifetime of medical experimentation and brainwashing and believes himself to be an alpha. But the experiments begin to fail, and he is abandoned yet again to an Omega Rehabilitation Facility, where the family expects he will be retrained into the ‘perfect omega’ and placed in an arranged marriage, or be eliminated if this is no longer possible.

The Facility don’t know about the experiments, and Efnisien doesn’t even know why he’s in there in the first place, since he’s an alpha…isn’t he? One thing’s for certain, he definitely doesn’t need an alpha companion, no matter what the staff at the facility seem to think.

Underline the Black - Chapter 52 - Dual Firsts @ AO3

In which Gary watches Efnisien making his first nest, and realises he's never experienced one either, and asks if he can join in, creating a surprisingly soft moment between them.

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#chapter update #underline the black #underline the rainbow #dr gary konowalous #efnisien ap wledig #omegaverse #mm romance #alpha alpha #hurt comfort #angst #nesting #whump #listening to sheryl crow's 'no one said it would be easy' #and like yeah y'know she is so so right #just gonna listen to this for a thousand years #anyway this chapter is more comfort than hurt #which is sorely needed

[scintillyyy]

i actually cannot overstate the fundamental damage that n52 did to tim by giving him to lobdell--completely erasing his post-crisis self--tim drake wasn't even his real name, removing his presence at the circus, making it so he chose not to be robin out of respect for jason and thus removing his personal investment in batman & robin, making him a asshole "genius" who figured out who batman was & then blackmailed him about it, removing from his base characteristics his traits of being a robin who managed and promoted team-ups and brought so many characters into the batfold & working together to instead make him a solitary outsider in the family like jason--has done to tim that we're *still* trying to fix *to this day*. like the fact that nu52 and what it did to tim started just as comics and comic panels were starting to become more widespread on the internet bascially warped an entire new set of fans' perceptions on who tim is a character that has proliferated to this day by retroactively imposing n52 traits onto post-crisis tim--it's exactly how and why tim as a lonely, friendless fan of jason came to be. a lot of the fanon-y tim traits that we still see today came to be because tim headcanons that were imposing n52 tim traits onto post-crisis tim were gaining popularity and have embedded themselves so much into fandom's understanding of tim that it leaked into canon itself. like. i do think that tim is being treated well by dc now. but i also do think re-orienting him back around his 90s characteristics is much needed for him as a character because of exactly how much damage was done to him & his fundamental characteristics that he's *still* being rehabbed from, even years and a reboot later.

#this is why i don't have it in me to entirely hate zdarsky--because while it does stem from nostalgia #it's also trying to bring tim back fully to the basics of his character #which is *sorely needed* #like i may not personally love putting others down bc i do think zdarsky could bring him back to basics without that #but the fact is. like rebirth was a start for returning tim but we're still fixing the damage lobdell did to him #now i don't think that tim is particularly oppressed or anything like that. but his character was so utterly destroyed. #we do need to reorient him to his base traits #and we're still working on that just bc of how extensive the damage was

[dizzybizz]

some memeatronic,,, if you will

#need everyone to know that i have been listening to caramelldansen on loop for most of the time while drawing these #i am losing my mind but them :) #drawtectives #drawfee #mimeatronic #uhm #tiny but there #gyorik rogdul #york rogdul #<- ??? i forgor which i tag him as uhh #grendan highforge #rosé #my art #anyways these have been plaguing my mind for the past few days #did i just sit and finish these in one sitting. maybe. is my neck sore. maybe.

[figofswords]

wow I didn’t think reblogging that tea post and then seeing people’s tags would deal me such strong psychic damage. come over I can fix you I can find a tea you will like. “I don’t like tea” how can you say that as a blanket statement when there are so many vastly different kinds of tea. head in hands

#‘it’s like coffee but not good’ #while a cup of black tea does have a great deal less caffeine in it than coffee #it also has a stimulant called l-theanine which is NOT found in coffee #and the more complex combination of the two stimulants hit your system much more slowly #which is why tea doesn’t give you jitters like coffee does #anyone who’s like wow I need my coffee to survive but I hate that it makes me nauseous and gives me heart palpitations and bad breath #to you I say. wean yourself off coffee and onto tea!!!!!!! #but WAIT I can keep going. nauseous? ginger tea. sore throat? peppermint contains menthol which works as a numbing agent #green and black teas are both very high in antioxidants #chamomile and lavender do both have a calming affect #BUT WHAT ABOUT THE TASTE I hear you say #IT TASTES LIKE GRASS. try a floral tea or a black tea or chai or Thai tea #ITS SO BITTER you’re either steeping it for too long or the water you’re using is too hot #not to sound like I’m fucking uncle iroh or something I just apparnerlt have strong thoughts and feelings about tea #I can’t handle ppl going ugh I hate tea and it’s like. overbrewed lipton in microwaved tap water. #anyway MY favorites are jasmine and lavender earl grey #and currently I’m really into this corn silk tea my brother bought me at h mart #it’s like gen mai cha but even more #congrats for making it this far into my tea rant tags. if you comment your tastes I can give you a personalized tea recommendation

[tsuchinokoroyale]

My sister asked me to clear an overgrown area of her backyard for her to do some gardening so I put on my butch jockstrap and went to town on some holes

#which I dug after these pictures which is why I’m NOT covered in dirt like I am currently #I actually barely used the axe since there were only a few INCREDIBLY SHARP mini trees that needed to go down #it was mostly garden shear on weed action but we all know the axe is sexier so #my sister comes home and is like “why didn’t you use the chainsaw” and I was like “why didn’t you tell me you had a chainsaw” #anyways but body is so sore but I’m a top again so maybe it was all worth it #also peep that big hair it’s where I keep all my love for internet cats and dogs 😮‍💨 I’ll cut it EVENTUALLY #maybe I’ll start a new tag should I go with tsuchi goes outside or tsuchi wears clothes #both are equally unlikely normally 🤔 I think I’ll stick with #gpoy

[godbirdart]

i hate when i get an art idea that's been staring me in the face for MONTHS because i just had a brain blast over this banner i made for my tumblr early last year

i'm gonna update it with an art piece soon and i am SO excited about it aaaa

#which reminds me i sorely need to update my pinned post for 2024 oops #i'll get to that soon #so many housekeeping tasks to do with the new year + return from holiday aaaaaaa

[sendmyresignation]

i do think the recent my chem music journalism Discourse (in the traditional dialog sense.) is interesting bc this kind of weird defensiveness regarding mcr is something ive seen like since the reunion and in pieces about the "emo revival" where writers spend sooo much time offering themselves up to the altar of cringe or say shit like "well the pandemics made us all nostalgic for being 14 again" (smthing i actually read like sorry to you but i never want to be 14 again) and i think it truly boils down to people not taking my chem or any of this era like. seriously. as like intentional art. even by fans. it's so bizarre. like my chem were melodramic with a purpose not just something teenagers identified with and i have no idea why that keeps getting lost even during this recent period of like. sentimentality for the genre.

#obv by fans i mean like. ppl writing articles lmao i think we all are appreciative of mcrs clarity of purpose #like these bands. tbs and the used and paramore and panic and etc etc were all speaking to real emotion #and to see that get disregarded in this reevaluation for some yearning for better easier years when i could be more myself shit... #makes me feel crazy. like lets not pretend this subculture (which with emo is sooo fucking complicated a q in and of itself) is perfect #but to completely miss the point??? the sincerity????? esp in a time that was sorely needed both within music and societially. jesus. #my posts

[awkwardknight]

Jason, having achy pains in his legs because hypermobility and sciatic nerve is a shit combination: I want to sue my body this is so homophobic

Militia guy: Boss I don't think you can do that, unfortunately, would you like a heat pack

Jason: I want happiness

Militia: Sir I can't microwave that

#arkham knight #jason todd #arkhamverse #arkham militia #because im projecting jason's not hypermobile in his knees but he is in his hips #despite this he gets awful pains in his knees especially and all down his legs because of a little ditty called the sciatic nerve #which is a big bullshit nerve that runs down your lower back and down your legs and it hurts like a bitch #and because i dont have anyone else to project this onto and Jason already has many pains and aches i thought why not #sorry jay but my legs hurt all the time and i need to take this out on someone #also his ankles toes knees and hips are constantly cracking loudly and sorely when he walks #he stubborns his way through the pain as he always does

[uncanny-tranny]

My disability-adjacent hot take is that subtitles alone aren't really enough. I have trouble differentiating where sound comes from, for instance, so it's wildly helpful to have clarification on where sound is supposed to be coming from (right versus left, ect).

On a related note, if your subtitles are not clear, accurate, or translated in the case of foreign language, your subtitles aren't good. I don't want to read a paraphrased, censored version of what people are saying. I want to know exactly what they're saying because omitting even one word can dramatically change the tone, implication, and the entire meaning of what is said.

#disability #subtilties #like i love that minecraft had (has?) the feature where it points out where sounds are coming from and what is making those sounds #though i don't think i have access to that on my version which SUCKS #(clarification that i play on the nintendo switch because my laptop probably cannot handle minecraft) #(actually it probably could but i don't feel the need to have the PC version) #(maybe one day) #ANYWAY. i think that's an accessibility feature that's sorely lacking and lacking in terms of depth and accuracy #like i love watching breaking bad but the subtitles are TERRIBLE and i hate how censored they are... #...it's like they captioned it like a youtuber would to avoid demonitization (which is also annoying and almost insulting sometimes)... #...like sometimes it comes across as infantilizing for captioners to REFUSE to write the 'fuck' word or 'shit' or ANYthing that's ~raunchy~ #especially when you pay for the service/product!!! i HATE it so so so SO much

[gubbles-owo]

whoopsie i accidentally picked up my bass and stood up in the middle of my room like a total cringe loser and jammed real hard for the past hour and got real into it and all sweaty and-- oh look at that it is 2am! oops!

#I NEED TO PLAY BASS MORE IT'S FUN #and also a hell of a workout which i could sorely use #(and dw i only ever use the term “cringe” jokingly because cringe is stupid and also dead (i killed it myself))

[batbabydamian]

MORE BATMAN AND ROBIN 2023 #1 PREVIEW PAGES!!

#rambling #GODD THIS BOOK LOOKS SO GOOD IM SO EXCITED #you really think FUN!! seeing this art which this duo sorely needs #BUT MY ONE MAIN PEEVE… #we’re unfortunately losing Damian’s melanin once again but it also looks like his eyes are being colored blue…..😭 #i get Simone is taking creative privileges with his design but CMON……it just gives off a feeling of #’this is Bruce’s bio kid he NEEDS to be white and have blue eyes’ #RIP Talia’s genes ig 😭 #i do appreciate giving Damian KIDS THESE DAYS STYLE LOL squinting at the Nikes HAHA

[r-2-peepoo]

Thinking about that line in Rebels where Gregor says to Rex that it was nice being able to choose what they were fighting for and how that applies to Cody.

I think Obi Wan would probably tell him to not to stay with him, but this is Cody’s choice and it makes sense for him. No one can control what he does anymore and this is an important cause too but above all, it’s what Cody wants.

I expect whatever has happened with the clones will already have happened and it’ll probably be really sad, but at least they tried to stand up against the Empire. And that, somehow, has led Cody to Tatooine.

Because remember Cody still doesn’t know Obi Wan is alive. It’s not like he’s gonna turn to Rex and say “well, fighting for our right to exist has been nice but I’m off somewhere more important now”.

No. He thinks he killed Obi Wan. Finding out he hasn’t, probably after losing so much more, is so important for his character arc and it’ll take a while for him to get there but when he does, it’ll make so much sense. If Rex can end up on a distant planet, I don’t see why it’s so bad for Cody to choose a distant planet too but while also helping the rebellion in a more subtle way. It would create an interesting parallel between the two as well.

Remember Cody isn’t just a clone. Not everything he does has to be defined by that. Part of why Order 66 and the aftermath is so compelling is because of all the different perspectives it offers and Rex gives us the POV of a clone ending in the rebellion. Cody deserved more than just being in the background. He’s with Obi Wan because he wants to be, not out of obligation.

#codywan #obi wan kenobi #commander cody #clone wars #day 28382772626 of defending tatooine husbands #(it’s not being attacked im just dramatic) #but honestly it would be such a refreshing storyline for Star Wars which I think is sorely needed #AND it’s fulfilling for cody and brings his arc full circle

[bloodbathfortwo]

What does everyone think of Nigel Forbes-Colbie ever getting pregnant? It doesn't matter how you interpret it: Omegaverse, males can get pregnant Au, Trans! Nigel. Just tell me your guys' headcanons of Nigel's pregnancy: The changes, the hardships, the softness, and the vulnerabilities.

#murderous intent #like minds 2006 #like minds #alex forbes #nigel colbie #Alex Forbes X Nigel Colbie #Nigel Colbie x Alex Forbes #If you guys haven't noticed my recent posts I've been feeling way too soft for this fandom #Like #Too soft #And it's both Nigel and Alex's fault for making me too soft when all I want is to cause chaos and do crimes #To be honest I'd like to Imagine Nigel's pregnancy as an arduous one: Swollen feet . Sore back. Weird cravings. Mood swings. Everything. #And he isn't used to seeing himself get swollen with life each and every day. While Alex is so gullible first thing in the morning because #of the baby bump growing every single day. And Nigel getting rounder every week. #Sure. Nigel is enjoying being pampered by Alex with all these services and gifts but sometimes he thinks that he isn't that attractive #Anymore for Alex. And that while he's carrying his children he will leave him like a used toy. #He'd have instances where he'd feel conflicting feelings for their child and think of possibilities of removing her from his body #But he'd soon regret it. He just breaks down into tiny little pieces of ever thinking of their daughter that way. His and ALEX"S #He can never stomach killing her. He can never stomach ruining her beautiful life that he has yet witnessed. #He still has his self-harm tendencies but he avoids it. He avoids harming his angel. His miracle. His life. #He wants to be a good father to his child. He wants to nurture her. Feed her knowledge and love. Cater to her needs and be at her beck #and call: be a father. #Alex knows what's happening to Nigel. They talk. And they talk everyday. He knows how much it can be hard for Nigel during his pregnancy #And he will always be there to protect his spouse and his unborn child. #He will spite their original purpose in order to create their own purpose. Which Nigel had a hard time letting go of. #It was hard. Seeing the history that made them into the people they are today. But it had to #they had to change #change for their family. #For their miracle. #And Nigel seeing Alex being this doting makes him fall for him ten times more

[mamawasatesttube]

indecision time again lads!

on the one hand. writing action hard. on the other hand. reworking my outline also hard. you see the problem here

#rimi talks #the genderisms will move along a lot faster once i actually get the outline fixed. which is cool #but also tim getting the shit kicked out of him yaaaay!!!! and practice writing action scenes which i do sorely need kasjdhf #i just have to .... choreograph it .... . .. . .. . .. . 😭

[rohirric-hunter]

I'm actually so concerned for the safety of all the non-Azagath-or-Nakasi members of the Kindred of the Coins, especially Belondor, since he was right there with them when everything went down. But Azagath clearly knows that Kholtekh and Harmelak have turned against him and Rothog seems really close with Harmelak so he's probably incriminated by association. Tathata might not be in hot water with Azagath but we did accidentally-on-purpose set an assassin on her. And come to think of it the PC is kind of indirectly responsible for Azagath realizing that most of the others don't like him too well either. LotRO's masterful writing struck once again, hinting throughout Umbar that most of the Kindred are not actually bad people but only fully explaining everything just in time for the player to realize how royally they've fucked them all over, whoops.

You bet my business in Umbar isn't done, I have to clean up this hot mess I've made. I will feel so guilty if they get hurt because of this.

#lotro #spoilers of umbar #like yeah throughout basically all of umbar the people are like 'the kindred of the coins are the Best' #but i mean idk for me at least the devs didnt even have to write in the doubts. they just naturally occurred #i was like 'okay but there werent many places to go that werent up from your previous situation' #and 'but theyre trying to start a war. they kidnapped a child. what is the song of waves and wind.' #but as various quests in the city proper played out i was like okay there has to be something else going on like #these people are not bad people. theres no way #the one member of the kindred that we knew for sure was a bad person was nakasi #and people didnt even talk about her that much. mostly they talked about tumuldo #which #huh #i mean obviously tumuldo was the more level headed of the two of them #and nakasi was driven by grief and a need for revenge after he died #but like. okay hear me out #did azagath set tumuldo up to be killed #like did he arrange that #or at least send him off to gondor in the hopes that he would be attacked there #because he knew an unhinged vengeful nakasi would be an ally he sorely needed when he unveiled his plan #for that matter how long had he been in contact with them? IDK if harmelak said anything about his history with them #but like. its very possible that he was grooming her for that specific reaction #not the kidnapping a child part. he clearly did not want the child #but the part where she wanted gondor destroyed and was willing to do anything to get it? #like he needed someone who would be okay with umbar going to war immediately after finally kicking all the haradrim out #idk wild theory but very plausible imo

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

have pressure sores or am just sore: invention of new coin toss

#really only apply to mild pressure sores probably lol #for when hurts to sit but too difficult do maneuver n check #just sore this time which good but ow #‘ehhh don’t need new cushion’ also me: #🍞.txt #wheelchair user