#which isn’t gonna change

[gregmarriage]

internalised ableism sucks every dick in the world. what do you mean not only will random strangers be ableist to me (not even overtly), but my own brain will do the same thing????

#idk just lamenting #shit’s so fucking stupid bruh #i’m very much wedged between mourning the life i could be living and the fact that i probably wouldn’t be living such a life even if i #wasn’t disabled #it’s laughable really #like who do i think i am?? #congrats dad your lesbian daughter won’t embarrass you since she won’t date anyone anyways #she won’t get a man she won’t get a woman or anything in between #i will always find a way to ruin everything #genuinely curious why i waste time wanting this when it’s never gonna happen and i should just make peace with it #it’s pathetic otherwise #genuinely don’t feel attractive or worthwhile currently #like yeah yeah my worth isn’t just in my attractiveness #but i don’t feel worthy in other areas either #i neglect my friends #i cant function as a normal human being #my own body constantly betrays me #and even if it didn’t i wouldn’t have anything to offer still #it is just made worse in the situation i find myself in now #which isn’t gonna change #so yeah #i’m not much of a friend to the few i have and genuinely don’t get why they like me #i have been and will continue to be a shit romantic partner #i’m a shitty daughter #just all around shit basically #god whatever i’m being so fucking stupid #ya know what my problem is? #i don’t know what it’s like to not be unbearably lonely #and whatever reprieve i get i spoil #idk delete later

[smeltbracket]

SOOO WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT SEASON 4???

(love your art btw!!!)

smeltbracket found dead in this kitchen

#okay in all seriousness though i fucking loved it #hands down favorite episode was earth rake #but also contending is stockiverse and.. Bouillabaisse.. #i really love how family focused this season is. dont get me started on tervo. i love how much nicer everyone is to each other #except for them really juicing up korvo’s bitchiness in super gooblers (which i guess was meant to push jesse into her confrontation) #speaking of korvo his voice was a delight this season. just so expressive and is now up there with the rest of the casts distinct voices #i guess trying to ease back into finales that end with a season reset #and why didnt pupa change color?? #overall it was pretty fucking great. had black spots in my vision during the invisible kitchen scene #tervo this season was fucking crazy my god what are they gonna do for the valentine special #UGHHH. they really keep raising the bar every season. SOOOO GOOD #this isn’t a very In Depth discussion of my thoughts sorry i need to spend more time in this seasons nooks and crannies #ooh ohh and the replicants this season were so cute too. THEY GREW TOGETHERRR #i liked the shlorp lore and little peeks into their past too #anyways i got sidetracked yeah amazing season #I FORGOT TO MENTION THE ANIMATION #THE ANIMATION THIS SEASON WAS BONKERS DUDE. LOVED HOW FLUID IT WAS AND ALL THE FUN NEW EXPRESSIONS THE SOLARS HAD #THAT SCENE OF THEM SAYING DEENOSAUR WAS LIKE MY FAVORITE EXAMPLE #gonna keep adding as i remember things im glad they wanted to explore jesses character more #but i dont like how they jeopardized korvos character for them to get there #kinda made him backtrack his progress for the sake of that episode :/ just a really big shift i wasnt a fan of #and they didnt make him feel remorse that whole episode either he didnt even say sorry :/ #also terry was just chill with chris that whole episode? have we just moved past the hall of betrayals thing? #i guess jesse’s roast about him being sky blue really just set him off for the rest of the season #he needs to talk to someone professional #i feel like solars is a really weird blend of being umm. Emotionally episodic

[blaithnne]

so I’m realising my intense anxiety for Hilda’s third season to come out is PROBABLY an autism thing

#like. it’s been 2 years of it being the same #the fandoms been in the same place and the show has too #and now it’s gonna change and it is giving me so much anxiety #when the special interest is so intense that you feel physically ill at the thought of new content because it’s just so overwhelming #<- that’s not my usual exaggerated ‘I’m so unwell’ thing either like I have layed awake at night feeling #sick LMAO #bc of s3 #which is so frustrating because I’m excited! I love this show! I want more! #but because it’s so important to me. new content is going to have a big effect on me #and I don’t want it too cries #does that make sense? no? sick #it’s either an autism thing or there’s just something wrong with me either way I’d like this feeling to go away please it isn’t fun #hilda #textpost #it’s like I just want it to come out already so I can watch it and know what’s happening cause I hate not knowing what’s going on #i need to have. my information organised #and rn I don’t #and that makes me rlly anxious lolz #like I’m anxious for season 3 in a good excited way #but also in a geniunley bad way #I wish my brain was. normal lo #l #this got more venty than I meant it to sorryblads #might delete later #I’m sad hilda is ending bc it’s over and I don’t want it to be but #also it’s weirdly comforting to know that I don’t have to go through this intense anxiety again #cause I don’t get like this with other fandoms! dr who for example I’m living new content #but for Hilda I geniunkey feel unwell #it’s the same with the idea of there ever being new ducktales content #I care so much that it’s. bad for me lol??

[russilton]

Confession: sometimes I scroll back through George’a old twitter posts (he doesn’t have a lot it isn’t hard) to check he actually made the tweets I remember when I feel particularly insane about people on tumblr misinterpreting him

#wank/rants #why am I awake? why are you asking questions weather boy #The guys who was the first person to publicly declare support of Lewis after Abu Dhabi and Nelson Piquets comments #is not gonna be besties with Max verstappen #BEGGING some folks to realise there’s a massive bridge between #bitchy driver who gets cocky but ultimately follows rules (seb Lewis george) #and driver who breaks the rules on purpose and expects to be allowed- (max and Fernando) #and the hate George gets isn’t even remotely equivalent to the hate max does #which is why I feel like people conflate him an max to argue that they are similar #max has earned it- by proving over and over he will defend bigots and blame everyone and his team before taking accountability #George takes account of his faults and advocates for change while still being self confident #you know #like seb did #when people hated him #this is a lot tamer than the rant in my drafts #posts I will probably delete after I have slept again

[impossible-rat-babies]

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#again. I am. upset with change and have been upset with change for the past like. month #idk the friend I usually play 14 and do stuff with is hardly on and barely talks to me much anymore #which is just like. her being busy and having a significant other #but there’s a lot of stuff we started together in 14 that I’m now doing on my own #and man. man it’s fucking lonely af #I’m doing diadem alone. I’m doing anima relics on my own. I’m doing other relics on my own #dailies on my own which has gotten me much braver about playing healer and tank but man. man it’s fucking lonely #and I have other friends I can play with but it’s like when you have so many projects you’ve started with a friend only to be left #to do them on your own…it sucks #I’m not upset over her having personal stuff but I’m still missing the times we used to play together #it’s been like this for going on two or three months which isn’t a lot to really think about but still #it feels like a long time #it’s not that my love of 14 is fading it’s more that the act of playing alone when you have so much joint investment isn’t all that fun #owen talks #idk if it last through the summer then idk what I’m gonna do

[nevada-got-screwed-over]

Actually I don’t think I’ll ever forgive how Wash’s disability and subsequent ‘cure’ was handled.

#beans speaks #personal #rvb #red versus blue #the Carolina and wash plotline was a lil ehhh bc I don’t think they gave Carolina’s attitude abt his new limits a healthy foil #like it would have been see easy to have Dr Grey or Wash himself parallel her fear and frustration #and it could have gotten into such character depth too! #shine a light on her past trauma with losing people/them getting hurt to show that a lot of her perspective is ultimately selfish #which isn’t ‘wrong’ it’s normal considering what she’s been through but she needs to respect wash’s autonomy! #I haven’t seen 0 but. I heard. they gave him a. a fucking AI and it was all yippee he’s fine #as though that doesn’t go against like a major personal boundary of Wash (not a big fan of ai in his head) while also ignoring the whole. #yeah we just have to deal with this. it’s not fun and it’s gonna suck sometimes but it doesn’t change our love or respect. #sorry if I sound insane I also haven’t watched that season in a while and I’m. a lil. wooo tonight y’know #like as a disabled person w a progressive condition that is stopping me from doing things I used to be able to do #and will continue to limit my abilities as the years go by #it makes me wanna tear someone limb from fucking limb

[badolmen]

Started knitting a kufiya pattern piece (solid bars, olive leaves, fishnet) and I’m actually really happy with how it’s coming out so far :]

Very early progress pics below cut - excuse my pyjamas

#ra speaks #personal #needlework #knitting #I tried a few different leaf patterns but ended up frogging them bc they were proportionate to the rest of it #I’m going w a more simple leaf pattern which means it doesn’t show up well until I get a few dozen more rows in #but bc I know they’re there I can see them and it’s like yessss yesssss #I’ve been planning this pattern for weeks bc I couldn’t find a pattern out there #and I hate changing colors and stuff so this is just a mono color textured pattern #which tbh I think will look nicer even if it isn’t a solid piece of fabric (eg. the net is lace instead of a pattern on solid fabric) #if I was gonna start over I’d make the bars a smidge thinner but the netting section is pretty big so maybe it’ll look fine once I’m done

[glitterxfemme]

Fuck off and stop interacting with my blog you fuckin terf

gotta be one of the more confusing asks i’ve gotten for 2 reasons, the first being if you don’t want me to interact with you block me then lol, the second being calling me a terf which is literally laughable

#i think both my trans roomates (trans man and trans woman) #and all my friends who are trans women who love me and i love in return #and not to mention my COUSIN who is a trans woman who i love so much #woukd think this is very funny #im not gonna go and make a whole post explaining why i’m not a terf bc at the end of the day i know i’m not and the people in my life know i #im not and someone on the internet who’s never had a conversation with me yet thinks they know me isn’t gonna change that #anyway i love trans women and their presence in our community #trans women belong in the lesbian community and their presence makes it better #also? when have i ever posted or expressed having radical feminist ideologies #weird #if ur gonna accuse me of being a terf which i am not then at least know what terf means #also not a single clue what prompted this #also i feel like this was sent to the wrong blog LMAO bc i also haven’t interacted with many posts the past few days at least not on this #blog #so perhaps they’re just confused bc that’s really the only explanation at this point #AND ANOTHER THING #im sure there’s afab non-binary ppl that are terfs but to me that sounds literally idiotic being non-binary myself and trans exclusive

[adrift-in-thyme]

Wow there’s really a shortage of Time sick fics isn’t there?

#by which I mean there are like NO time sick fics #sick time isn’t even an ao3 tag #how do I search for the fics I want if it’s not even a tag?? #well this can only mean one thing #I’m gonna have to write a time sick fic #be the change you want to see in the world I guess #trin rambles

[emjee]

Almost done with Ariel Sabar’s book Veritas about the Gospel of Jesus’s Wife forgery and I think I’ll do an immediate reread of From All False Doctrine when I’m done because these two books belong to a genre I like to call Gnosticism Is Not Going To Fuck You (a phrase i almost said in conversation with my father earlier this week)

#to be clear my father is extremely orthodox #he agrees that Gnosticism isn’t gonna you in dude #which is what I ended up changing my phrasing to #mg says stuff #the means of grace and the hope of glory

[maiteo]

also!!! I hope you’re doing well!!! always wishing the best for you 🫶🏽🫶🏽

you’re the sweetest, muito obrigada amor🥹I’m like a sponge rn sucking up all the positive energy I can get🤭💘

I hope life’s being kind to you and the beginning of spring brings you nothing but blessings!!🫂🫶🏽

#answered #not gonna ramble but it’s been a hectic time rn😭 life’s flying by and things are getting REAL real fast absbsns #like lots of changes happening which is a good thing ofc but that doesn’t stop the nerves/doubt/fear etc #I even took off work today (which I never do) to go in recovery mode #idk i think my anxieties are manifesting itself into something physical for me which isn’t fun but im confused.. #bc I though I was calm n accepting….guess my mind n body say otherwise #anyways! one day at a time thank you for your message meu anjo im very appreciative🫶🏽🫂

[shadowslocked]

Helluva and Hazbin being criticized for not being accurate to biblical lore has to be the weakest and oddest criticism to me

#helluva boss #hazbin hotel #idk man #I’m not sure what you expected #and it’s not like Viv is the only one to do stuff like this #and it’s not like people’s understanding of such things #doesn’t change person to person #these shows always seemed more interested in their own stories #than being accurate #which like okay if that’s not your thing #completely valid even #but like #this is gonna be the only post/time I talk about it for a bit #because to me it isn’t useful #and is just anothe excuse to say the show is shit #without just saying that and instead attaching a moral failing

[no1ryomafan]

Worst fucking thing ever when you consume new media is when the vibes are PERFECT like designs, music, basically every visual element aligns perfectly with your taste and tickles your brain but then the writing is utter SHIT so it’s just style with no substance despite the POTENTIAL being there. Cause even if you do end up finding something similar or already did and go just go back to that it just sucks when it’s like “damn this one thing that looks cool isn’t that good” since your just left with a bitter after taste especially when your gonna go through with finishing it anyways because it’s either so short that it wouldn’t hurt even if you know nothing gonna change about it that it probably won’t have the turn around you hope for or your just so bored and have nothing else to consume.

And I don’t know how people consume trash for FUN because when it’s like THIS when you can tell there was EFFORT but not in the part that truly matters it fucking stings more.

#meg text #im not gonna elaborate what I’m vaguing because I’d get killed for it #but I can say I expected it so I’m less mad compared to my last big disappointment which even then I mellowed out on #and before anyone tells me some content can be mindlessly enjoyed I’d say fuck you to that lmao #it’s fine if your not analytical on everything and prefer watching stuff as a way to unwind but half of my fun is analyzing #writing is in EVERYTHING no matter how small it is #bad writing is allowed to be called out even when the media in question isn’t trying to be super deep #if the humor isn’t legitimately funny or if the plot that doesn’t exist isn’t strung together well your allowed to criticize it #never shield anything from criticism because yes even if people are too negative media SHOULD be approached this way #my media view has been improved on with taking classes but also just writing in general even if it’s been fics #just don’t be a “urm achtually” person lmao some things you gotta accept people like even if it confuses you #but you are entitled to hate something and don’t let people change that even if just don’t be too much of a dick

[apollo-kid-writing]

This is a really old topic but I’m re-reading Titan’s Curse and I think I’ve finally come to a conclusion about Bianca.

The thing is Bianca isn’t wrong for joining The Hunters, that isn’t the issue. She’s allowed her own life outside of Nico and if she wanted to find family and friends in The Hunters while serving Artemis that’s completely valid and she’s allowed her own choice. She’s not selfish for wanting a life, despite what Percy says (he’s an unreliable narrator, we all know this).

The issue is the timing. Bianca and Nico have just been rescued and introduced to Demigod life for the first time, after an attack that (supposedly) killed Annabeth. They’re roughly twelve and ten years old, and while they seem to take it well enough (or at least Nico does) you have to acknowledge that would have shaken them up a bit.

Personally, I think it was really messed up Zoë and Artemis suggested joining immediately without even giving Bianca the time to learn more about Demigod life or even just talk to her brother, but beside that the issue I take with Bianca’s decision is how she joins immediately, without even seeing camp. We can argue all day about her ‘abandoning’ Nico but the reality is, he would have been fine if he’d had some time to acclimate to camp.

It’s mentioned when convincing Bianca to join that Nico will be taken care of but Bianca and Nico don’t know this for certain, they’ve never been to camp. Even if Artemis says he’ll be looked after that doesn’t guarantee Nico will get along with anyone there or that he’ll adjust well without Bianca there to help. Not to mention, I find it really strange Bianca is fine to leave Nico in strangers care when Nico mentions she’s strict about him watching PG content. She’s protective and yet she’s happy to essentially leave him on his own?

TLDR: Bianca isn’t wrong for joining The Hunters, she’s allowed to want her own life and The Hunt is an option for girl’s. The issue is really the fact she joined without even making sure Nico acclimated alright, and that’s what’s selfish about her decision.

#nico di angelo #bianca di angelo #pjo series #pjo #someone is gonna take this the wrong way I know it #I get Bianca is 12 I’m not saying she should have to be responsible for Nico #and her making a rash choice like that makes sense for her age #but people calling her selfish are calling her selfish for the wrong reasons #Bianca isn’t selfish for wanting her own life #anyone in her position would want that #I just think she’s selfish for essentially putting her brother’s safety in the hands of strangers #and not acknowledging that Nico would probably suffer having so many drastic changes in his life all at once #the reality is he needed her and she left #that’s what makes her selfish #which makes her a nuanced character! don’t misunderstand I like Bianca #like if she’d joined The Hunt a few weeks after getting to camp I literally wouldn’t have cared #because at least then Nico would be comfortable and even have some friends #and anyone who makes the argument Bianca probably thought she wouldn’t get the offer again is right #but that just brings up my issues about how she was recruited and how manipulative it felt #which I won’t get into here #erin’s thoughts

[theamazingannie]

Finally listened to GUTS. Top 3 are vampire (my favorite OR song overall and probably won’t change), love is embarrassing, and the grudge. I like it but i don’t love it the way I loved SOUR but I’ve only listened to it once and considering how vampire quickly grew on me, I’m sure these ones will, too

#olivia rodrigo #guts #(that tag surely won’t be a problem😅) #bad idea right? is my most conflicting one cuz I both love it and hate it #i genuinely cant decide #idk the album overall gives me such strong sour vibes #which isn’t a bad thing cuz sour was a good album #and not everyone needs to change their sound #but it also leads to lots of comparisons and I don’t think it measures up #a good sophomore album I think #It’s what we would expect from her #which again is not a bad thing #It’s a very safe album #don’t think I’m gonna listen to it quite as much as I did sour #but i did enjoy it #just my opinions that don’t matter to anyone but me

[kuiinncedes]

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#bruhhh is it bad that i #my friend keeps texting me like ‘how are you doing’ / ‘how are you’ which like i appreciate it #but she does it so often and idk why i’m lowkey a little annoyed by it #which sounds so bad and sndbfjdhdhdj god like i’m grateful that she #makes the effort to reach out bc i used to never feel like anyone would reach out to me #and i’ve told her that so maybe that’s why idfk #but idk like she asks me almost every day/every other day and i’m just like djfjdjdjd #miss girl ily but pls my answers not gonna change lmfao 😭 #i’m not doing shit how i’m doing isn’t interesting i’m also like not gonna tell u #that like i’m bored af of my life rn i’m tired i need to fucking create sm or do some fucking art soon or imma lose my mind a little #i’m just fucking chilling i’m not doing anything interesting i’m literally just fine lmao #like i’m just chilling like the last 10 times u asked 😭😭😭 #idk idk 🤡 she asked me tonight and then said sm else so i answered the other thing and ignored the hru lmao #but then after the conversation abt the other thing she asked me hru again :’) #idk if any of this makes sense LOL i also feel bad abt complaining abt it 😭 #idk WHY i’m lowkey annoyed by it. maybe i’m so fucking used to friends not reaching out to me #that her doing this makes me hhfhjfjdhfhffj lmao #like yeah i ofc love her texting me i just don’t wanna answer hru so many times lmao and ik i could tell her that or like ask why she asks #how i am so much but i don’t want to c: #ANYWAY LEMME ANSWER HER LMFAO GIRL #🤡 anyway also yeah i need to like start drawing sm or do a lettering thing soon #:D #jeanne talks