#why do i like men and relate to them

[vacant2007]

The intersection of trauma/negative experiences related to being afab + being a trans man is so weird and uncomfortable. I feel like a double-negative in the sense that I both feel threatened by men, and like I'm a threat for being one of them. I struggle to trust or forgive men, but womanhood doesn't suit me at all. I want advice and assistance on learning how to help myself move on from the stuff I've had to deal with, but absolutely none of the readily available resources was made for people like me.

#vent #personal #my new job i think is kind of repeatedly exposing me to triggers #i work in a museum and i have to learn all sorts of history #and it's just kind of littered with casual reminders of womens' history of oppression #the scope of the museum is very narrow but theres just little things here and there that make me uncomfortable and #kind of get that worm of anxiety tunneling in my mind so i can start spiraling into unpleasant thoughts #its just exhausting living in a world where i pick every single little thing apart all day because of my experiences #and whats really sobering is that compared to a lot of afab people my experiences are NOTHING #it just makes it so hard to justify to myself even seeing myself in men or liking them AT ALL let alone being one. #and sometimes i get so upset about it i just wanna puke #why did i have to be a man i didnt ask for this #why do i like men and relate to them #i dont trust any of them and its so exhausting i just wish i could approach this with my head instead of my reactive emotions #rant #negative #cw vent #sexism #edit: this isnt an invitation to terfs. i just got nervous about that all the sudden. im not detransitioning leave me alone

[samarecharm]

i love makoto so much but fanon does her so much better (the good parts of the fandom) because in the game her character is so lack luster. they butchered her confidant it is so borning and not even about her. they made her a cop. A COP. they pushed this "canon waifu" role onto her (before sumire came along and did it Even Worse). and it SUCKS because SHE IS SO MUCH MORE!!! SHE IS SO MUCH BETTER!!!! SHE COULD'VE BEEN SO MUCH BETTER!!! the way i feel about canon makoto is the same way i feel about the canon ryuji events post komoshida where he's horribly mistreated and used purely as comic relief: i ignore them <3 my game now <3 never happened <3 my ocs <3

You are so right. I generally apply this to all characters in p5 bc the game does such a shit job of staying consistent with character arcs and personalities. Theres a desperate need to throw in perverse jokes at the expense of female characters and a need to show that the police (as a whole) are reliable people who are not influenced by things like money and power; only the BAD cops do that. Not to mention this obvious fatphobia and homophobia but i feel likes thats a given.

But back to Makoto. Shes a victim of bad writing just like everyone else. Ryuji during the kamoshida arc was fighting with self loathing and genuine anxiety, and aside from the like. One comment on Panthers outfit in the metaverse, hes more than well behaved. All of that is shelved as soon as Kamoshida is gone and replaced with him being weird comic relief (and the focus of alot of sexual jokes that were nonexistent in the beginning of the game). Anns arc about self love and empowerment is completely dropped as soon as the nasty bad guy is put away (so that its good to be weird about her w the Good Guys). Makoto loses her a chunk of her personality to be the mature waifu which is INSANE to me bc shes like. Not okay or normal at all 😭😭😭 she THINKS shes responsible and so does everyone else on her team, but its an act! She doesnt know shit! And she doesnt know that she doesnt know shit bc shes respectful and adults dont care about anything as long as u respect them!

Its very telling that for literally every single thief (and goro), you can see the exact moment the writers gave up on adding anything of worth to their characters outside of the social links. Its like they didnt know what to even do w the characters at their disposal after their main arcs were complete. No mention of friends hanging out without you, no mention of having group hangouts. Everyone is treated as a core, important member of the friend group DURING their arc, but outside of it, they are acquaintances at best. Theres nothing in the game that convinces you that these guys are legitimately friends who care for each other and do Friend Things. And i describe it like that bc there IS a game that treats them all as friends, and its strikers! Strikers/Scramble genuinely feels like the game p5 wanted to be; a road trip w your team where they stay up at night talking to each other and hanging out and doing things together that dont necessarily include you, the player. Its refreshing and lovely but it sucks that u get that kind of attention to detail in a ‘spinoff’ title

#chattin #i hesitate to use spinoff bc its a pretty big game #and theres an amazing plot with wonderful characterization #and their handling of jails and jail owners is LEAGUES better than the bs they tried to make up w palace users #and all the thieves feel like family. and not in the annoying fandom way; like #were family in the same way a family is forged and tended to. i love you. no one is left behind. no one is made to feel inferior another #its really good and honestly if u want more interactions between everyone i really recommend a playthrough #but yeah #p5 sucks #i love it but i love the version of it i made in my head LMAO #maybe p5r did a better job w the dialogue and some questionable scenes #(i wouldnt know. i didnt play it lol) #so maybe thats what people need to be using as a point of reference #but i only plyed p5 so this is what i have; a group of people who show up for meetings and then go about their life #and that kinda sucks. why make this wholly unique experience in which these teens can only relate to each other #make them bonded over their shared experience w this unbelievable world #and then not only make them NOT interact; but have the end be ‘okay by akira.’ and leave it at that #they just. didnt know what to do w anyone #they needed their girls to be waifubait and the boys to be an afterthought #they needed a buffet of older woman for pathetic men to fuck through their self insert #and they needed a story convoluted enough to keep people stuck trying to figure it out themselves #its bad. its so bad. its so fucking bad. but i have to be here. WE have to be here. #bc who else is going to take these characters out of hell and treat them right ??!!!

[fighting-these-demons]

Hello Internet Stranger looking up G Gundam on Tumblr dot com!

This is an idea for a fic set in an Alternate Universe involving Queer Non-Canon Relationships between the characters of the series.

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Ended up outlining a completely different fic as a Segway for an explanation instead of making progress on the Royal Flush Haunted Honk AU's Clown Motel Fic like I wanted to but uh....

For y'all's review for the AU: A Prequel Outline - Divorce Saga Domon

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Hey real quick - I'm thinking of maybe changing the timeline to 2 years post canon as opposed to 3 years and change post canon.

The reason being: I had a thought that this scene could either be part if the fic or if it's getting to big then it could be a stand alone tie-in prequel fic as part of this AU but - like

Immediately Post Divorce Domon Needs Space and runs off. As one does. And he runs to Earth because he just wants to Get Lost for a while.

He has Argo smuggle him out to avoid detection.

Argo has Andrew help stow Domon in a storage hanger of a Neo Canadian supply ship that's returning to the US - they have trade often enough and share agricultural resources - which leads to Domon ending up in New York when he hits Earthside pavement.

He's privately worked on his English the last couple of months and after being dropped in New York with a different hairstyle, outfit, and accent he's unrecognizable. 

He considers making his way west to get some solitude in the wilderness, but something about that initial plan feels off now that he's on the ground.

Chibodee is also Earthside for a special series of prize fights aimed at raising charitable appeal for the US in the eyes of Neo Americans.

Domon decides to hit up Chibodee for a fight on a day between matches hoping it'll clear his head and give him the clarity to decide on a course of action. What ends up happening is an unexpected heart to heart via blows and a breakdown.

Domon is happy for Rain and Kyoji, and he knows it's not true; but he feels like he lost a piece of himself when his relationship with Rain fell apart.

Domon's instinct is to run after that but Chibodee knows this city and Domon doesn't hide out for long before Chibodee drags him back to his place to stay and just "Chill out and breathe. You don't have to be anyone but yourself here. You can take as long as you need to find out what everything changing means for you." Friends and teammates stick together.

So Domon spends a few weeks with Chibodee sparring and hanging out in New York. Chibodee does a frankly awesome job at containing his feelings because he's focusing on Domons feelings and being a good friend first and foremost. Whatever he's feeling can wait until after Domon is done going though it.

There's a bit of a twinge in Domon's heart as he leaves that he can't really place.

After he returns to Neo Japan and gets settled back into life with his family, The Dreams start.

They're mainly set in New York. Small things first like noticing Chibodee's smile and his eyes. Then sparring sessions that begin to turn lurid.

He thought these kinds of dreams would stop after he was married.... he doesn't know what to do about this.

I just figure it gives more clarity and sense of time for the journey from Comphet Marriage Dissolution to Feelings to Confession. Idk.

But I got stuck on a bit and then had this thought and needed to get it down before I lost it and it was so long it made sense to make it its own post as opposed to several replies.

The Maize and Clown Motel will probably still be 3 years and change post canon for clarification.

@thedragonchilde @amplexadversary @youreaclownnow

#Domon Kasshu/Chibodee Crocket #Royal Flush #Chibodee Crocket/Domon Kasshu #Royal Flush Haunted Honk AU #mobile fighter g gundam #I imagine he hasn't had time for a Big Gay Crisis yet but the time is absolutely now #Kyoji absolutely helps him through this crisis because he had a normal environment and university to figure his own shit out. #Kyoji has to figure out WHY Domon is imploding and explosive and avoiding everyone a second time though. #This doesn't seem related to the Divorce but it doesn't seem immediately obvious either. 🤔 #Cue Schwarz FINALLY getting a fucking break and immediately coming to stay with Rain and Kyoji at their place. #Domon was aware that they had been living together in Neo Japan briefly before Schwarz was called back to Neo Germany for questioning #Once his rank was stripped of him he was back with Kyoji for a short period before the Divorce as part of Kyoji and Dr. Kasshu's study of #DG Cells. Once they had a breakthrough - Schwarz was sent abroad with a small military group and Doctors Without Borders group to assist #With immediate infection cases on behalf of Neo Japan as part of reparations. So Domon hadn't seen him in quite some time. #Domon certainly wasn't expecting to see him in the garden when he rounded the corner of the Mikamura residence #Leaned over Kyoji who appears to have been working outside on his laptop. Fingers intertwined a hand on Kyojis jaw and locked in a kiss. #Which ends pretty much instantly as they sense Domon and break apart. It occurs to Kyoji and Schwarz that Kyoji never #Got the chance to actually tell Domon much about himself and the man he'd grown into while Domon was training in Hong Kong with Master Asia #This might be a pretty significant shock to him. #I can't decide between Domon running from his Gay Revelation or IMMEDIATELY Losing His Shit at the thought of Rain's SECOND marriage ending #And knowing for sure now the reason why his and Rain's marriage didn't work out. He really does prefer men. #Bu HOW DARE Kyoji do this to her!!! She's been through enough!!!! This will HURT her SO BADLY!!! (Projection of guiiillllttt) #Back to square 1 fir a moment like damn #And once he starts fighting Kyoji about it (Thank God the ressurection gave them the option to make Kyojis new build similar to Schwarz's) #It comes out that Rain cant go through this AGAIN and he won't let him do this to her! Her honor means something to Domon #And it should mean something to Kyoji too as HER HUSBAND #Kyoji and Schwarz catch on the Again bit and Kyoji makes it clear that Rain has known about his situation with Schwarz since they returned #That they're quite literally inseparable and that Rain married him knowing this. She's fully aware and an active participant. #Domon takes a leg sweep and doesn't quite make his recovery as Schwarz steps in #Pinning his arms and one leg in place so he can't run from Kyojis question. Kyoji grabs Domon's hair to turn his head and asks

[just-a-little-unionoid]

You know I think we can resolve a lot of our problems and moral dilemma by asking ourselves "does this really matters that much?"

#this is mostly in relation to current moral panic specifically in france but i think it van apply to a variety of contexts #like idk if yall know but france hate muslim people (specifically women) so much and it's so absurd #like... so much debate over muslim girls in school specifically #'we can't let them wear hijabs cuz hijab is a symbol of oppression*' okay well does it really matters that much? #isn't it more important to let them go to fucking school in peace instead of forcing them to remove it #(*i know it's stupid but that's the mainstream view of the hijab in france) #'but we have to stay religiously neutral at school' why? i understand teachers being religiously neutral but students who care? #wouldn't it be better to let anyone exprime their identity instead of forcing a standard‚ so‚ y'know‚ people can learn about diversity? #'well sometimes they refuse to go to swimming lessons because they don't want to be half naked in front of boys/men' #yeah i can understand that somehow not sure it's specific to their religion tho maybe we shouldn't force kids to get half naked idk #maybe we could allow them to go to female only swimming lessons if they want to #'WHAT?! but that's separating bous from girls that's sexist and we won't surrender to that backwards vie-' does it really matters? #obviously i don't believe society should be segregated between men and women but here isn't it more important that those kids learn to swim? #(yeah i fucking hate this debate) #and that works for a lot of subjects #'but trans people-' that's 0.09% of people what the fuck are you talking about #'but if we let kids transition and they regret it' yeah what if? sometimes people do shit they regret (but let's look at the stats too) #if they have regrets we should support and help them and that's it #and like‚ sometimes the answer is 'yes' and if it is you have to keep fighting for your cause #but you have to choose your fights donlt waste energy again things that don't matter that much

[basuralindo]

what I would give for transmasc to stop being inherently associated with softness in fandom. especially for trans headcanons to not include toning down the character or making them sweeter and more gentle.

at this point I would kill to see trans fan art that didn't manage to make me feel more dysphoric and distanced from the character ffs.

I'm begging fans to consider why they feel the need to change a character's personality when they wanna hc them as trans. search your soul a little on that. stop making it so fucking weird

#rant #trash talk #honestly. and i know a lotta people will be pissed to hear this #but i have never seen a community declaw and fetishize THEMSELVES more than online trans fandom #tell me why male characters getting reimagined as transmasc makes them less relatable to me #why do some trans people have it this ingrained in their minds that a man who started out living as a girl #can't possibly think feel or behave like a any other man? #and why the suffocating dumbed down softness specifically? #it's like they built the identity of trans maleness around the foundation of terf gender essentialism #being deadnamed and misgendered in public does not cause me the same level of nauseating skincrawling discomfort in my body and identity #as some of the soulless pacified shit i see online treated as trans positivity #and this is not about some idea of 'real men/masculinity' vs gnc men #this is very specifically about the dumbing down and infantilization of transmasculinity #with the clear attitude of transness being inherently Like That

[heroes-fading]

i have not cooked dinner in a solid few weeks and i feel bad about it as a partner but as a feminist yeah my husband cooks in our house damn straight i’m useless in the kitchen

#to the women in my life..........who have male partners.......who cannot cook........FRIENDS #i cannot relate babes #there's an attempt among the WIVES of some of my husband's friends to do like a girls night thing #and listen #i'm a girls girl through and through #but it devolves into omg my husband cannot even go to the grocery store right haha #don't you hate it when your husband is incompetent haha men ammiright #i don't go to those anymore because otherwise i will just tell them to dump their husbands #why are you with someone who you don't respect and who doesn't respect you heterosexuality rlly is a prison y'all #WE GOTTA DO ~SPORTS~ FOR THE ~boys~ #oh mgy do #my husband is not a sports person I THANK GOD EVERY DAY #it's just board games and video games and you know what i hole up and write fanfic and he plays games with his friends #also i did not change my last name #because 2nd wave feminism did not die for that #and the amount of shit i get with his last name.............. #from these women.......... #WHAT YEAR IS IT I THOUGHT WE WERE HAIVNG A GOOD TIME HERE #i'm having a good time personally #anyway #VENT OVER #tbh i immediately schedule wine with a friend when those girls nights happen or it's pizza night and sorry babes husband does homemade doug #h #i'm gonna cause divorces i know i am #at some point #stop having kids with him you already got a child babes

[timeisacephalopod]

I've kinda seen some pushback to the idea of representation in media and I don't necessarily think it's bad to point out actual rights are more important than Disney's thousandth first gay character that's fine, but I've had a LOT of people comment on my works about asexual characters and tell me what I wrote changed their life-and it's always that phrase- because they now have the language to describe what they feel. I've had people who ARENT ace or aro comment that what I wrote finally made a concept they didn't understand make sense, or that the way I explained things was interesting and enlightening and I'm kind of a mediocre writer who hasn't written anything in ages.

Like idk, if reading something from a writer who is fucking around and only somewhat talented can genuinely impact someone because they've not seen anything like them reflected back at them in life or media I don't think pushing for representation in media is as "needless" as some people seem to think and caring about that doesn't mean you don't care about more "important" (although if you think seeing people like you in media ISNT important it's because you already have that representation or are privileged enough to not care if you do, in which case maybe pipe down) stuff. Hell, I even got a Facebook message ages ago from someone who found a comment I left in an ace group about QPR's and what they meant to me and how I perceived them and the person no joke said what I wrote two years before they even found it changed their life forever because they finally knew what kind of relationship they actually wanted.

So like sure, of course there's always bigger fish to fry them diversity in media (you know, like diversity in real life lol) but I don't think it's as frivolous as some people are beginning to act like it is. At least not if you're an aspec person it's not, I STILL don't see ace characters almost ever and I'll bet my whole everything if I asked a writer of a show why they'd tell me that EVERYONE has to be in a sexual relationship and characters that aren't won't sell and are boring- I say this because in film school I had a teacher TELL ME every character needed to basically be sex obsessed and when I pointed out a GREAT MANY CHARACTERS are not revolved around sex (Supernatural stars two brothers, I pointed out) and when she asked if I had love interests I was like ??? That doesn't matter- using my aforementioned supernatural example almost all their love interests die or get mind wiped because at the end of the day that's not what the story was about. So actually I think writers who act like that teacher need like 50 reality checks, and representation in stories isn't unimportant and also support indie writers you'll probably find more funky shit there then Disney anyway lmao.

And also even the asexual characters I DO see in media don't remind me at all of myself even if I appreciate the effort, but they never feel real or genuine and their sexuality doesn't get a lot of exploration so 🤷🏻‍♀️ I actually could use more media focused on characters that I can genuinely see my sexuality reflected in in a meaningful and narratively impactful way because I've got nothing.

#winters ramblings #todd from bojack horseman im sure is SOMEONES version of asexuality but i dont see ANYTHING of myself in him #great character dont get me wrong but not relatable to me on any level including our shared sexuality #sex ed got a bit closer with their brief ace character although maybe she got more exploration in season three or four?? #the latest one i havent watched lmao. but being closer and having a moment wjere shes told shes not broken #while DEEPLY vindicating isnt necessarily all im looking for either #like i wamt a REAL character thats ace or aro or both thats written by people who UNDERSTAND what theyre writting #not just well meaning people who dont know what theyre doing its kind of tiring #also idk why theres no dating shows with gay men because reality dating shows are ALL ABOUT who fucks who and who gets together #gay men would be hooking up ALL OVER THE PLACE and the DRAMA youd think reality tv freaks would be SALIVATING #but no none of that lmao. just ru pauls drag race and thats great it is like its not my bag but people love it #back on yrack though the weord blowback representation is getting is strange and its VERY clear to me #the people writing those posts havent gotten dozens on dozens of messages from people like them who found their writing #and haf their life altered forever for the better because someone who KNOWS what theyre talking about wrote a character like them #and it opened doors they never knew existed. doesnt even need to happen with fiction either i had a friend i had in toronto #tell me the info i sent to her on being aromantic changed her life- THAT'S the phrase i keep getting thats TELLING- because it describefld #described** how shes felt her whole life but didnt have words for. how frivolous IS representation if im getting these messages? #not very i dont think if some rsndom indie fic writer who hadnt written anything substantial in years can change someones life #REPEATEDLY might i add. ive been getting a LOT of messages like this lately and seeing this new bramd of discourse latetly too #like maybe YALL have enough that you dont care anymore but speak for your fucking selves

[linagram]

so i was writing akio's vd (i do have everyone's vd descriptions, like what's supposed to happen and all, but i haven't written the actual dialogue for most of them yet) and. listen something about this is just so funny to me

#that moment when mr. “haha you really are a terrible boyfriend” finds out that you actually had a boyfriend #LIKE I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD WHILE WRITING THAT PART LIKE EIJI. PLEASE. FOCUS #also this is actually a part of a bigger meme so like. i mentioned before that eiji is more interested in women and miki likes men more #(but honestly both of them give off bi-curious vibes to me especially miki but that's probably just me making everyone bi because. i'm bi) #AND IT'S JUST SO FUNNY TO ME BECAUSE MOST PRISONERS ARE NOT STRAIGHT SO IT'S LIKE. #the third guard asks “why was i chosen” and jackalope goes “so that you can be the secret gay guard. diversity wins. pride month baby” #“but isn't it already july” “.. pack your bags i guess” #I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING OKAY I WROTE AKIO'S VD AND DREW THIS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AJSJSKKSKS #like i would draw the conversation between jackalope and the third guard too but #i feel like his design is a huge hint to who he's related to so i'm not gonna do that #📱linagram timeline 📱 #🗡️guard 001: sanada eiji 🗡️ #🌼guard 002: andou miki 🌼 #👑prisoner 001: miyagawa akio👑

[5yno]

ugh idk where to put this but i need to get it off my chest, i literally do not feel anything for this man (yet? idk) but his favourite anime charas + the fact that he matched my enthusiasm when talking abt skip and loafer makes me feel a special type of way

#his faves are suga and tanaka??? like if those arent green flags idk what is #i told him liking suga and tanaka gave me a good impression of him/was a green flag and the way he lit up and asked me why that is agxjsjfjd #i do find it kinda >.> that he didnt finish chainsaw man but he has admitted that he doesnt rlly like gore or horror #maybe its silly but i just find that ppls’ favourite characters say alot about them #esp when it comes to Men #also i am just…. giddy over how passionate he was abt skip and loafer and the way he matched my energy while talking abt it #we were trying to convince our friends to watch it and instead we started bonding over it lol #LIKE HE LOOOVES THE ANIME AND HE THINKS ITS SO SWEET AND SIMPLE BUT ALSO SO DEEP AHHHH #i told him that i Love shima and he said his ideal type was mitsumi #NOT ME ABT TO SAY ‘oh i relate alot to mitsumi’ HAHDJSJD but he also looked at me as he said it so idk idk idk #someone stop me from overthinking.. no someone stop me from catching feelings #i want to punch him and then myself #edit: i just found out he’s a gemini so ig that’s his red flag 👎🏽

[sysig]

This’ll be the only thing I’m gonna talk about for like a week I swear-

#The Sims #The Sims 2 #I have /got/ to figure out/remember how to screenshot while the game is in full screen #I was clearly able to do it the last time I installed it! All my previous Sims screengrabs are incredibly crisp #Well a little bit of everything is under construction yet lol #I finished reinstalling all my old mods - they're even more jank than the last time haha ♪ But they don't crash the game! #Well. Actually. I've been too scared to see if loading Ganondorf crashes it again but that's 'cause I actually wanted to play lol #Other than that troubleshooting went great! One crash is a great under/over #Featured here are v1 and v2 of my Vargas attempts lol ♪ #The first one is I think completely unmodded? Just base game and expansions #For whatever reason the Bon Voyage long hair for men is? missing?? I installed it all correctly I don't know what's up #I've only checked the debug inventory once admittedly but they should just Be There >:| Well I'll check again later #And it's not like I don't have enough modded options lol #Since the first one is meant to be a throwaway I didn't bother making them a nice house lol #Oh yeah and Jake's there too - I put down the easel for him actually but Edgar took right to it lol #After I waved him away to watch Scriabin play guitar he just kept making gagging noises and booing him lol so rude ♪ #I didn't make them any kind of related so that's probably why lol #For v2 I obviously made them married and gave them a Squee lol #I'll still need to make Edgar's shirt - and I might actually make Scriabin's too! Even tho that's Zarla's retexture hehe ♪ #But in looking through my mods I have a removable trench coat that can go over normal clothes!! Why not have the option? :3c #Getting Shmee was silly too - Todd wanted a toy but then complained about the one I got him lol #So did Scriabin but tbh that's pretty in-character lol #Just a little more construction and retexturing and whatnot and I can move them into a real town! Heck yeah ♪ #Vargas #WPTS2 #WPVG

[corpiote]

wanna change my user to smth abt fighting/beating gilbert (w/love)

#any ideas for a new user - really anything i can relate to will do #i wanna beat him with his cane then feed him soup #i love him #but hes a cocky little funky man #and while i like cocky fictional men i also wanna fight them #but i love him #text #cybird #goddamn it gilbert why #ikepri #ikemen prince #ikepri gilbert #gilbert von obsidian

[genderfreakxx]

If people could stop using the term “transmasc” as synonymous with “trans man” that would be fucking phenomenal.

#I’m transitioning because I want to have more masculine traits just by default #but I don’t consider myself a binary trans man. the binary makes no fucking sense to me. fuck the binary #this is I think why I feel so sad when people get angry at ‘transmascs’ for relating to and having gender envy over Gerard way #because I absolutely have gender envy over Gerard- but it has fuck all to do with ‘being a man’ #Gerard isn’t binary. they don’t like labels but they’ve expressed admiration for they/them pronouns and said ‘I’ve always liked he/they’ #and they do a hell of a lot of relating to she/her pronouns and girls in their music #no fucken part of me is envious of Gerard in a Man Way™ #because neither of us are binary Masc-y McMascerson men #I admire g for their entire vibe in every way they’ve presented it to us #just because I’m transmasc doesn’t mean I only admire men. I’m nonbinary #I admire queer people in every form. I’m hesitant to call g queer because idk how they feel about it #but you get what I mean #if Gerard came out as a trans woman tomorrow I would still have gender envy for them. I have gender envy over cis women sometimes ffs #I love them (parasocially yada yada) however they identify. I love them even more because they hate fucken labels. ME TOO #I just love the way they put themselves out there. #I’ve just seen a lot of folks hating on transmascs for relating to Gerard and I think it’s a misunderstanding tbh #it’s all pure love and admiration and inspiration #I can’t speak for everyone but I would never want to push a label on G when they clearly fucken hate it. #that being said; I think the way they express themselves and the art they create is inspiring as hell!! #for me gender envy goes deeper than just surface level aesthetic sometimes #wow this has been a rant. and idk if I’ve even gotten my point across actually #oh well! #gender #blithering on

[call-me-maggie13]

If you have ever wanted to do the job of a biology teacher without getting paid for it, might I recommend working with men?

#I love them #I truly do #but I do not get paid enough to explain anatomy to them #like no afab people do not get to choose when their period is #I need a raise #don’t even get me started about pregnancy #they were shocked to learn organs get rearranged during pregnancy #also one thought afab people could choose the gender of the baby #he didn’t understand why people had gender reveals if they get to choose #he’s twenty four #not wn related #I work with men #they’re trying their best #and they’re eager to learn #but I am tired of teaching them

[zhuhongs]

i need more dramas abt lesbians just living life and having normal jobs....

#watching kinou nani tabeta and like. its good but im always sitting here with gay dramas like... why are there only gay men in this world #why does this story enforce heteronormativity even though its abt gay men... why do you never even allude to the fact that women can be #homosexuals too?? like idk. its like. such a strange feeling i often get. esp here. i feel like everyone acknowledge lgbt ppl here #i mean same sex marriage is legal. which is great. first in asia but yea . its just always. gay men and im here... closted woman... yea #i always feel the need to like men. i always feel like aesthetically men are attractive but i really cannot feel anything past that... #its just incredibly apparent to me living with these roommates and going to school and everyone just reinforcing heteronoemative ideals. #girls talking abt wanting a bf and to get married as the end goal and im here like ahahaha. yea. that will never happen. all my roommates #talk abt male idols and getting a bf and how ppl hit on them and im like ahaha thats great. can't relate on any level bc im gay and no one #here will ever find me attractive. and i dont want them to!! but its like. how do i talk to u 😔 very alienating #alothough i feel like every 7/11 i go to has a bitch cashier and i love it sm. i hope they all know i adore them. sorry i dint pick up my #stuff fast enough. i hate using paper money but i gotta #🐌.txt

[chiarrara]

so yeah, what happened to ash is super tragic and unfair, but what happened to Shorter, is like, the most horrifying thing that could happen to anyone and the only thing worse is the entire rest of the narrative where ash survives it

#that was his best friend #literally horrific #this is the worst story of all time #why do i watch this #banana fish #ok but literally the consequences of shorters death affect the entire rest of the narrative #it happens in ep 9 yall #ep 9 #and then you start wondering #where did all this start #could it have been avoided #or were these poor kids all just swept up #in the horrible machinations of evil men with power #like it didn't start when ash met that man in the alley #he was watching his guys bc dino was involving them in all this #ash didn't hand the drug over because it was related to griffin #and because he wanted his freedom from dino #and the horrible life he was a part of #which all started because he was assaulted at age 7 #and griffin went to war #and suspected the wrong guy #it's all so horrible

[inkykeiji]

do u listen to mitski? i feel like you���d like her :)

i don’t listen to her, actually!! i’ve heard some of her music (only her most popular songs sent to me by you guys!) and while i think she’s a fabulous artist, her work isn’t for me :(

that being said, if you have any song recs that you think might change my mind please don’t hesitate to send them over (along with any trigger warnings, pretty please) <3

#i’m gonna be honest with you; i have an issue with listening to women who write sad and very relatable songs #like nicole dollanganger for example #an incredible musician and lyricist; i literally love her work #but i cannot listen to it without being sent into a trauma spiral like 95% of the time which is honestly really upsetting #i hope one day i’m at a point where i’m recovered enough that her music doesn’t make me sob #mitski’s music doesn’t affect me to nearly the same extent as nicole’s #but it does just make me feel so very sad #i don’t know why women artists do this to me while men artists don’t #however!!! like i said if you have any mitski recommendations i’m totally open to them!!! #have an amazing day anon <3 stay safe and healthy!!! #inky.bb #clari gets mail