#with no memory of having gotten there

[shittyutmv]

love how in the utmv everyones got like. pieces of a soul. or entirely new flavours of souls. and then theres fuckin. inky winky mcpaint guy.

yeah thats basically it ink by comyet

#badly drawn utmv #utmv #undertale multiverse #undertale au #ink sans #-mod kip #🦑 #I think I’ve gotten too used to drawing ink looking terrible #i literally have been ignoring asks because they’re not ink looking terrible #and therefore not branded into my memory with a hex breaker hammer #Hes not even my favorite character #Its just muscle memory

[roses-luckride-art]

#luckride's fanart #batman unburied #the riddler secrets in the dark #unburied riddler #riddler #edward nygma #hai hello hai I'm baaack #im gonna be honest i havent gotten passed episode 4 #not because i don't love it. this series is iconic #i just have a bad attention span and even worse memory and forget to pick this podcast back up again #but while i was relistening to the first 4 eps again i decided to revamp my version of eddie #which is to say he looks the exact same as before except this time i actually have a color ref sheet to use in the future

[gummi-ships]

#kingdom hearts re:chain of memories #khrecom #riku #halloween town #my gif #long time no riku gif... i missed him #he may not have gotten his own costume here but i do like that they at least dulled his colors and added a kind of grainy texture to him

[deedala]

Colorwheel Timestamp Roulette ⇆ 07x12: Requiem for a Slut ↳Gold + 12 for @sickness-health-all-that-shit

#thank you rita i was so happy to do this episode!!! #i felt so lucky to have gotten ian telling trevor where he vanished off to (lmfao sorry ian sorry trevor) #+ the scene of all the gallaghers brawling in the hallway!! #+ that final shot of carl's memorial graffiti 😭 #when i got the kitchen scene i really tried to cut together everyone hugging carl but oh my god #how can basically one scene be so inconsistently lit and colored?? oh well i did it to myself lol #shamelessedit #shamelessnet #shameless #shameless us #ian gallagher #fiona gallagher #debbie gallagher #lip gallagher #carl gallagher #frank gallagher #giffed🍂 #s7 #07x12 #colorwheel timestamp roulette

[buttercupshands]

just some LoV sitting in the long lost bar in Ultra Impact in clothes that they didn't wear yet

#not art #bnha #ultra impact #shigaraki tomura #dabi #toga himiko #mr compress #twice #there's not enough space to put Kurogiri in there :( #I can do it but I'll have to make a sacrifice #just watching them talk is relaxing #like... they're all fine and I can literally fill the table with sushi #league of villains #got UR compress really recently #and it was raining Muscular and the other Compress before that #I have nothing against LoV rain but it was unexpected #I still wait for a day the final SR Dabi drops on the acc #for me to have a Dabi team just for fun #I think I have enough Dabi-themed memories for that #if not LoV centered once will come in hand too #I love the fact that LoV gets as much as 1-A and Pro Heroes #like accesories or ur and sr types of the characters #got second copy on Toga off the Valentines recruit #love her to bits so it was so sweet #still no other UR Tomura tho #and I keep trying every banner he gets a chance to rerun #I love the coat one but the variety of UR Tomura's is just... #I did get this one at all at least would've probably just gotten mad with the game otherwise #but I'm chill with this since I do have them #AND they have fillers

[mrbluesummers-moved]

I'm too tired to write the full Essay™, but someone said in the tags that Stampede took away Knives' fear and it made me realize that the core issue I have with Trigun Stampede is the fact that the characters lack the emotional depth of Trigun Maximum. Like, I'm enjoying Stampede, and it's emotional, but Knives and Vash especially have had their emotional complexity watered down in comparison to the manga.

In the manga, they were as much at war with themselves as they were with each other and world around them. Knives was expressive, animated, and always playing up the megalomaniac god complex in public, but in private he was exhausted and scared and even expressed guilt towards his sisters for being careless in how he orchestrated the fall. Vash was an upbeat pacifist who was constantly fighting his own urge to take the "easy" way out and kill to solve problems.

It's what made the manga so heartbreaking. Neither of them were entirely right, but neither of them were entirely wrong. Knives shouldn't try a genocide, but he was also a deeply traumatized child who was shown how cruel humans could be to plants. Vash should try to do as much good in the world as he can, but holding onto the ideals of pacifism in a hostile environment does more harm than good and he learns that when he's finally pushed to the point where he has to choose between killing and saving someone important to him.

I don't think it's impossible for Stampede to recover in Season 2, but the foundations aren't great. Changing Nai to being cold as child seems like such a small change, but Knives starting out as the optimist who loved humanity is so central to that internal conflict... I don't know. Maybe they'll come back to the point of Rem being important to Knives and make use of the fact that he intended for her to survive and that might save it. We'll have to see.

#trigun #trigun stampede #trigun maximum #millions knives #vash the stampede #me: i don't have the energy to write an essay #also me: #this is probably incomprehensible and I don't want to be the guy wot rags on stampede bc i genuinely love the show #and find it more watchable than the 90s anime (sorry) #but it's more fun to complain and critically analyze the characterization #and knives is just so important to me and the fact that he hasn't gotten a good adaptation is disappointing #his childhood personality is so core to his character and yet adaptations choose to make him cold rather than bubbly and hopeful #basically the entire basis for vash's adult persona lbr #anyway i had to hold myself back from writing an essay about knives and his expressiveness too #thinking about the way he reacted to the last run and seeing the plants happy memories and how he “greeted” midvalley and #him being calm and collected just feels wrong

[xoxoemynn]

In general, I really do try to assume the best in people and give them grace, even if their actions upset me. Because I do know there's no way of knowing everything someone else is going through. And I also know that even if it may feel that way, it's more likely than not that the way a person is acting has nothing to do with me. We're all just making do the best we can with the knowledge and emotional resources that we have available.

Sometimes that bites me in the ass. Sometimes an asshole is just an asshole. Sometimes I end up feeling more hurt later on. Sometimes the other person isn't interested in giving that same grace to me.

And that's okay.

Because I'd still rather hold to the belief that we are generally good people who sometimes unintentionally hurt others because our own loads become too great, or because we didn't fully understand another person's POV, or because we're just human beings and that means we can kind of be dicks at times, than to become the kind of person who views everything that makes me feel bad as an attack, and anyone who makes me feel bad as a Bad Person.

#emynn.op #just had some old feelings/memories stirred up this past week #we're in hardcore self-reflection mode over here #anyway sending a lot of love to the friends I've made in my phone over the years #in fandoms past and present #y'all have gotten me through a lot of shit and I'm grateful 💕

[fitzs-space]

TO BE LOVED IS TO BE CHANGED. THE PASSAGE OF TIME WILL SEE ME AGE AND GROW AND KNOW I AM CARED FOR AND LOVED ALL THE WHILE!!!!!!

I got bored and finally found the original make of my childhood plush. Knew it was a valentines ty beanie baby, and now I can rest knowing it was "LoveyPup". She will forever be known to me as Flower. I took her near everywhere I could to the point her one arm has a grove from where I held her. there is a thick scar along her back from where my child self had taken care to restuff her once she had become too flat and worn down. and she now rests on top my shelf in a place of pride.

#I'm having a moment shhhh #I never realized exactly how worn the fur had gotten you know? #she is a fond memory for me. I never plan to let her go #used to dress her up with hair scruncies for skirts #I removed most of the beans in her. pretty sure I had to open her up again to re add them or something

[kaseyskat]

something about how sparrow blamed himself for releasing the doodler even though he wasn't involved at all. something about him taking lark's place and telling henry that if anyone deserved to die for this it should be him. something about him being the one to actively make the decision to swap the realms and doom people he knew and cared about in favor of his family. it was the right decision, if the main families had died nobody would be left to stop it when the doodler started poking holes into the other dimensions and both worlds would've gone down anyways. but sparrow didn't know that when he chose it, he just knew that someone had to be the bad guy and instead of making lark do it he did it himself he spared lark of that burden. knowing both of his parents will never forgive him. knowing that despite what they said, he couldn't do any better than this because he doesn't know how and the only thing henry taught him was how to love and that's all sparrow can do. he can only love. it was his love for lark that let him step up and have lark stay behind, it was his love for normal that fueled his desperate desire to make sure they all made it out alive, it was his love for henry and mercedes that had him frantically going for the amplifier knowing that his might alone wouldn't save them and they would all die in that room if he didn't do something about it. and it was his love that would doom his relationships with everyone he cared about. except lark, who is the only one that tells him he made the right choice. no wonder sparrow clings so hard to lark nowadays. what do you do when your twin is actively making you worse and you choose to enable it because you've already burned every other bridge in your life and this is all you have left?

#dndads #kasey rambles #dndads spoilers #sparrow oak garcia #my thoughts are not coherent im just rambling #i just. really do think sparrow was right to enact code purple in that moment #and im already seeing backlash from it which is CRAZY cause yall were just fine with the dads doing code purple?!?!?! #nobody lost any love for THEM when they were the ones speculated to have started this mess #and its so NUANCED #and i wish we had gotten to see sparrow lark and henry's fallout reaction after the memory ended #(if that was even sparrow to begin with)

[kyouka-supremacy]

Thoughts on akutagawa being drawn with no highlights in his eyes, hair, coat, or on rashomon,,,like everything is drawn pure black? I like when he's drawn a little bit like not-human--contrasts real well with Atsushi's dilemma of being a tiger, personally thinking. Also like when he's drawn like a void. Little bit like the cryptid creachur he is. I think you wrote something about it in the tags on panels in his introduction in the Manga. I like to think other characters also see him the way we see him so his void ass scares the fuck out of others too. Man's skeevin and tweakin even in his design

I'm OBSESSED with Akutagawa's design. Look at him. This is what he looks like on a white background:

And this is what he looks like on a black background:

It's BRILLIANT. He literally disappears in the black. He's the ultimate monster. In his appearance, he embodies what above all is most scary for the human psyche: the darkness, the unknown. The way Harukawa took advantage of the the art rule of never using pure black by breaking it in the most clever way! No light gets reflected on him, because his form absorbs everything– is absolute darkness. Visually, his figure itself is Rashomon eating everything it encounters, and it's genius.

He is so nightmare coded. I love his big, inscrutable eyes that look like two voids, two black holes. I love how oftentimes you can't tell where Rashomon ends and where he starts, I love how sick and unhealthy he looks. I love how he looks scruffy like an abandoned dog. I love how young he looks– way younger than he is. It gives the impression of a ghost, someone who was killed before growing up and is now stuck with his young appearance no matter how many centuries pass.

I adore everything about these chapter 33 pages. The way he initially appears as just a single black shape, hardly resembling a human. His crunched, unnatural stance. The staggering. The way you can feel with your senses the thick and sticky blood. The top picture is the left page of the manga, so just imagine the visual impact of turning the page to be hit with an almost full-black page- it's meant to impress, it's meant to shake. The way he's one with the darkness: no textures on him, only white making out his outlines. The way you can't tell where his coat ends. His left arm hanging numb, limp, lifeless, inhuman. The spurts of blood on his face. His smile, how you won't notice it at first and how that makes it all the more disquieting; its juxtaposition with the violence that surrounds him and that he is the cause of. The way he covers his face, the impressions of hiding and looming. His face being split, which only adds to the horror elements. Akutagawa's character design as a whole is an ode to the gothic and grotesque.

And then this. Hello??????????????? The progression from how Akutagawa used to be to the last time we saw him alive is astonishing. It's upsetting. It really makes me wanna cry from a technical execution standpoint alone (imagine from a plot related standpoint). All the black is now replaced with predominant white, everywhere. His shirt is white and candid and pure, emphasizing contrast with the splash of blood in a way that almost results sickening. The blood on him is his this time. His face looks rounder, and healthier, and he overall looks more mature. His smile is sincere and genuine, it's light, it's affectionate. This scene is the culmination of Akutagawa's character both visually and thematically: the monster, Akutagawa, too, can be good, and arguably had good within him since the very start. Does it really matter if he lives after this? His character already developed to be the best version of himself‚ and this panel here is the proof.

Further readings: (1) (2) (3) (4) (5) (6)

#Sorry I blacked out and now it's been three hours #Don't kill me over the last line akdbfjksndjeks I love Akutagawa I swear #No wait I think I got it: Me 🤝 Atsushi → bullying Akutagawa as love language #ryūnosuke akutagawa #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd ch 04 #bsd ch 33 #bsd ch 88 #Me: I will NOT compare chapter 88 panel Akutagawa to an angel. That is NOT something I'm willing to do. #bsd analysis #people asks me stuff #Thank you for the ask!!! #Actually someone reblogged a post from me with a very clever addition about Akutagawa's physical appearance #I haven't gotten around to reblogging it yet because I wanted to take a good read to it but it was very clever!! #I'll try to reblog it as soon as possible #I also love how half the time his coat will just look like a gown. I adore it. #I love his heels. He does have a very feminine figure‚ in a way– especially in how thin / feeble he looks. #It's real fuel for my transmasc Akutagawa agenda #Back to Anon's words– I only have a very very vague memory of writing tags about this it must have been from a very old post?

[viiridiangreen]

#plagiarism #james somerton #hbomberguy #just wanted to give it its own post #it was kinda lost under the absolute unit #(of good commentary and a much needed summary of the More Absolute Unit that is the video in question) #of lrb #i was conflicted abt this dude for a while like. i wasn't A Fan Subbed To His Patreon right #but the way he 'said' some really insightful shit and also dropped some really nonsensical rancid comments randomly in the middle of it. #yeah #guess it's because he Wasn't Fucking Saying Anything But The Rancidity Himself HUH? #nomás que eso fuera 😹😹 #& like i'm laughing rly hard at the audacity but also it's really fucking sad & infuriating to have had the actual authors of the commentar #that i enjoyed obfuscated like that. and obv not just bc of the individual enjoyment or insight i might've gotten from them but #they were fully robbed of an audience #or just fucking. recognition of their memory in the case of the people whose words were stolen who died from fucking aids #like???? #yeah i hope this fully ended this man's whole career for good #but more importantly that the authors of the works he ripped off get the attention they deserve #it's the fucking soulless business major of it all innit #/j #viitalks #gayplagiarismgate

[elric-art]

Fullmetal Mangatist

Episode 20: What information are you trying to collect?

#fullmetal alchemist #edward elric #roy mustang #edmod and royfriend #royed #elric-art #fullmetal mangatist #i realize some of my recent comics have gotten a little too real but these are just things that actually happen #i want to preserve the memories

[51ft]

i keep thinking about the one line dark justiciar shadowheart says when shar returns all her memories right before she kills her parents

and u can be like, do what u think is right!! (even though u probably picked all the worst options for the nightsong to die)

and she

she acknowledges and is aware of how messed up her whole situation is but shes in too deep to stop!!!!!

and im

ooOOOUUUUGGGHHHHH

#bg3 spoilers #THE SELF LOATHING!!!!!!! #anyways then she loses all her memories again and has a grand evil shar time #but i like to imagine that deep sense of unease whenever she even thinks too hard about those huge gaps in her memories #which ofc dark shart will cope with by simply not thinking about it and following her faith #BUT BUT BUT shes still the same person with the very charitable reading of shar's doctrine #so naturally those deep seated misgivings will never go away #probably #my brainworms wont free me #im also just thinking how cool it wouldve been to have gotten this scene with a genuininely good character #but its most likely u get it on the murderhobo runs.. #can i just say if i were shadowheart it doesnt even make any sense not to stab the aasimar #like shes just goading her and shittalking her the whole time?? #AT LEAST TELL HER ABOUT HER PARENTS FIRST?? #also that scene is the only time she will actually acknowledge herself as jenevelle to her parents... #when she screams shes not jenevelle its not bc she believes it but more like she wants it to be true #mmm the angst...

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

donna "it was never that far from the surface mate" noble not having a worry in the world leaving 14 and yaz alone in the living room at night to finish their movie while she goes to bed entirely unaware of the tragic lesbian romance of the century that those two concluded about an hour before donna re-met the doctor

#rose having pried into the situation and gotten like a hundred 'it's Complicated's from yaz looking at them like.................. #donna meanwhile 'that boy is gay and that girl is a lesbian it's just two homos being homos you know' #rose 'i dont think those are the words you want to use mum' #'what is it offensive?' #'well yeah but thats not what i meant' #in the end donna is right of course she neednt worry #in the end rose is ALSO right of course theres gay drama going down 100% #i just think it's interesting that like. youve got all these different interpretations of the doctor right? #theyre like this whole spectrum of things. theyre the light and every colour is a different doctor but they all exist next to each other #simultaneously #and in this specific setup the way that donna is both right and not #and the way that 14 exists and 13 exists and theyre not the same person but also they are #its very holding two things at once #wait does donna know abt yaz bc of the metacrisis thing? i dont really understand the memory sharing #however if she 'cant remember' bc it's like 'looking into a furnace' im just gonna take that at face value bc it fits my purposes better

[rainbow-beanie]

Even a month after reading it, I’m still taken aback by how dark the metal virus arc was, cause not only did all the main characters go through tons of grief, but we also see a glimpse into how other characters feel that aren’t apart of the main cast.

The poor girl, who knew she was infected, and despite that she tried and pleaded not to be left alone, cause the world was falling apart, she was losing everyone she loved, and she was scared. So the last thing she wanted was to be alone. Seeing this kind of feeling displayed in a sonic comic of all things filled me with dread, cause it felt oh so realistic, cause I know people in rl would react the same way.

What makes it worse is that she was screaming and crying up until vector, who definitely didn’t want to do this, but knew that if he didn’t, more people would be hurt, picked up a car and slammed it onto her, crushing her. And if she hadn’t turned into a sombot after this point, that impact would have killed her.

#no. I don’t thank I’m gonna get over this arc for a LONG time #so much happened #so many characters were ‘killed’ and everyone was handling loss in all different kinds of ways #but all of them still felt just as realistic #but even when the world was falling apart and everything stood against them #they kept fighting. cause that’s all they could do #especially sonic. who felt especially responsible for all of this happening #cause shadow had oh so helpfully reminded him tjat if it wasn’t #for him letting ‘Mr tinker’ go. then none of this would have happened #which is a load of horseshit if I’ve ever heard one #cause it was starline that had gotten eggman’s memories back. sonic had nothing to do with that #anyway #sonic the hedgehog #sonic idw #sonic idw spoilers #sonic idw metal virus #sonic idw metal virus spoilers

[usedtobecooler]

i hope what’s gone on the last day has served as a lesson and reminder to people that this affects our entire community and to cause drama and distress, even if you think its only aimed towards one person, means others will filter out and jump ship to avoid the same treatment. how many times must we continue to reiterate that this is the reason our fandom is dying and continuing to die — it costs nothing to be a decent person and at least then this community would still be thriving. hopefully whatever fandoms you all go onto next get the grace that our one hasn’t.

#candy has thoughts #it’s been a shit show and honestly it makes me sad because this show is so much more to me than this #i literally have it tattooed on my body it’s gotten me through rough times #it reminds me of the last time i lived with my little sister #being postpartum with my daughter #watching season four for the first time with my dad and him falling in love with it #it means more than you will ever know and hold some core memories #tarnishing the comfort that it brings for your own drama and agenda pushing is just rough and wrong #there’s hardly any joy in this dying world as it is and to strip away one of the small gleeful things in life… truly how horrid