#wow i rambled in the tags. great

[irondad-defensesquad]

“Peter.”

The boy can’t even look Tony in the eye. Not because he’s afraid, but because he’s tired. Defeated. The most he does is glance at his mentor like a sad, curious puppy.

Tony can only smile.

“You’re doing great,” he tells him.

Peter looks surprised to hear that, as he raises his head a little and actually gazes at the man.

“I know you don’t believe it with how much you’ve been dealing with,” Tony details. “You might think you’re failing, but I see your effort. You’re a hero both at school and at home… and well, everywhere. And I’m proud of you.”

It’s like Peter hasn’t heard these words in forever.

Because his eyes grow deep, his lips quiver, he begins shaking. Tony can tell there’s a lot of pain in there, as Peter covers his mouth once he starts sobbing, so he doesn’t make much noise.

Tony kneels in front of the kid, opening his arms. Peter immediately launches himself towards him, hugging him so desperately, and sobbing so much that it must hurt. Tony hates imagining how long Peter must have kept it to himself. How long has he felt like a failure?

Peter is so much more than “good enough”.

He’s doing great, amazing, even.

And the kid needs to remember that more often.

Tony will make sure of that.

#lotus speaks #irondad #fics #my fics #drabble #i might write a complete story. eventually #i wrote this bc my psychiatrist yesterday merely told me i was doing a good job #and i started crying #like #ppl often tell me i'm doing the best i can #and i get the intention #but sometimes i don't feel like that's good #so hearing someone say i was doing good or great #not just 'good enough' or 'the best i could' #wow. #that hit me like a ton of bricks #idk if this makes sense #rambling in tags

[technicalknockout]

rewatching carl

#taking this opportunity to ramble in the tags #i like this ep so much it's probably one of my favorites #it's so. it's. ghsdgjfshj. LOOK #compared to lets get shadowy ko was clearly more comfortable around venomous #ko was STARTING to think 'oh maaaybe he's not the worst dad in the world?' #and it gets thrown back at his face #i love the car scene. it has none of the show's usual bright colors or background music #it BUGS ME #which is GREAT because THATS THE EMOTION IM SUPPOSED TO FEEL #the feeling of 'it's all going downhill. darn' #and wow everything does go downhill so incredibly fast #it's like getting hit by three or four consecutive gut punches #and you feel terrible but WOW the episode is SO GOOD they sure know how to make me feel like crying! #yes i havent recovered. yes i know it's obvious. #*grabs passing stranger* CARL IS GOOD HERE'S A THREE HOUR TED TALK ON THE REASON WHY #incoherent ramblings

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

will you shut the fuck up? what if the shit doesn't hit the fan? what if we do make it? what if you don't die? can you have a little hope? just have a little hope

#stop dooming your own narrative and living under that shadow. ffs #this isn't actually vagueing at anyone here this is vagueing at my grandpa bc I've been mildly annoyed all week #that he's SO fatalistic about EVERYTHING. like yeah the world sucks. so what? stop being cynical about it #which is hilarious bc he's the SOFTEST guy ever. he just occasionally goes off on these deeply cynical rambles #in the softest friendliest tone of voice and I'm like. wow. can you maybe have a little hope please??? #anyway I'm gonna say this in the tags here bc I have a weird mental block about making a Real Post: #please pray for my grandpa bc his heart surgery went great but he's been diagnosed with a pretty bad form of cancer #so... yeah #prayers for him and our whole family and all of their relationships with God to grow instead of getting worse and etc etc etc #I'm at the OTHER grandparents' house rn and need prayer for OTHER things here but. yeh #Lu rambles #soz for the language I just needed to say this

[secondbeatsongs]

saw that there was fanfic for Taskmaster, and I'd never seen the show so I was like "oh, that's interesting, I wonder why there's so much fic for it?"

but now, having watched three seasons of it? I get it. jfc. I fucking get it.

that dynamic sure is something, huh?

#personal #sbs rambles #taskmaster #like it's a great and hilarious show and I love it and you should watch it #but also. like. wow #it's definity something #to watch the two hosts #one of whom is actually in charge while desperately pretending not to be #and the other who orders around and degrades the first one for his own enjoyment and because he commits to the bit #like jesus. after watching three seasons of Greg talking down to and being weird about ''Little Alex Horne'' #a man who is 6'2" by the way #there's just a bizarre vibe going on and I'm here for it #and what was with that ep where one of the comedians roasted Greg for being low on the kinsey scale?? like what the fuck #deeply fun weird energy here #and a genuinely hilarious show! #10/10 #love that there's fic for it #because I feel like I need it to unpack whatever the hell I just watched #rpf mention #tagging in case someone wants to block this

[jamestaylorswift]

I have complicated thoughts about atw10. I go back and forth on it - sometimes I hate it, sometimes I love it. but I think I always end up at those extremes because I can’t help but compare them.

first you have the og atw. perfect, no notes, whether or not you agree it’s her magnum opus it does deserve every bit of hype it gets because it’s a great fucking song. (the magnum opus conversation is intertwined with the lore about the song - that taylor wrote it all in a vent sesh with her band; that it wasn’t a single but became a fan favorite because it’s a great fucking song; that there’s A Scarf™️; that taylor recognized all this history and played it up; that by rerecording her music taylor gets the opportunity to carefully prune, as one would a bonsai tree, narratives and how her eras are remembered and how this is the one she’s cemented in history; that now the focus on a song’s lore has intentionally and unintentionally become integral to its endurance and popularity….) the original song has extreme dynamic peaks and valleys despite its nearly unwavering four chord progression. it has lines about autumn leaves and repeat phone calls so insightful that you marvel at how anyone could have been so talented as to string those precise words together. but its emotional punch is twofold: the details are just clear enough to make you recall one of your own experiences and just hazy enough to prevent the writer’s experience replacing yours. the whole thesis is about remembering all too well, forever. you can’t get rid of it. because you remember it. you remember it all. the song is a tour de force and taylor’s skillful manipulation of emotional/musical tension in this song is something that will be appreciated and studied for years to come.

then on the other hand you have atw10, which not only sounds and reads differently but could even be considered antithetical, or at least a foil, to the original song. the zeniths and nadirs are less pronounced and she expands the story with new verses largely interpreted to be about a toxic relationship with an age gap. the musical arrangement is more modern and features an expanded palette of instruments: tension and release comes from subtle harmonic differences, staccato background vocals, or a wild violin. the new verses - were they really part of the original song? or do they clearly betray the perspective of someone who’s 10 years older? the short film - it hammers home this exact expanded story and was admittedly written as a retrospective, with the insight that being 10 years removed from a toxic relationship provides. the ultimate effect is that atw10 is not about remembering it all because you can’t get rid of it. it’s about taylor remembering it all, even though she can finally get rid of it. the “it” is clearly her own experience (though this is not to say the atw10 story is not a relatable story or that it’s not a valuable story to tell or hear.) “I was there, I was there….” the memories and the pain all trail away with time. but, these memories are very clearly not yours, the listener’s. atw10 may be an expansion of the original all too well story, but this expansion does not simply intensify the same emotions from the original song—it explores a rather different emotional profile. musically and lyrically, and whether intentional or not, atw10 argues that the pain of remembering is dulled and even remedied with time.

and thus the ways that atw10 excels and fails are quite different than the ways the og atw does. whether one is “good” or “bad” depends what we value in a song, and more generally, why we enjoy the songs that we do and the extent to which we value an artist’s interpretation of their own experiences. have we been in toxic relationships and can relate to the specific story of atw10? are there traumas we can’t heal no matter how hard we try? are we moved by brash drums and isolated guitars or playful violins atop chords that chug on and on? does taylor swift’s word supplement or supplant our own connections with her songs?

I know that I personally would find atw10 less confusing if I stopped comparing it to its shorter relative. but the various lengths and mediums in which the all too well story is told make it seem destined that we’ll all be comparing the versions until the end of time. and yet just as there are shades of red for every possible intense emotion - burning, cherry, so scarlet, maroon - so are there reasons to love all too well. just as it will endure in the popular zeitgeist as one of taylor’s best, most famous, most impactful, most beloved songs, so too must all too well live on in every listener because of (and only because of) each and every one of us loving it for unique reasons.

#red #red tv #I suppose I will put this in the tag: #music analysis #yes I am aware that many of my conclusions are ‘wow isn’t everything great when we take a step back and remember that songs have merit #outside of and despite the neverending discourse of whether they’re good or bad?’ #I am aware AND it doesn’t make that less of a truism!! #(really my hot spicy opinion about atw10/the film is that it’s an extended ***** ******** about ****** #and after taking much to develop this interpretation I must firmly put myself in the camp #of being an atw10 liker despite originally it giving me the ick) #rambles

[spiderwebd]

i wanted to thank you for all ur nice words on my posts aaaa! i rly wish i could directly reply to ur tags but i don't wanna be annoying lol <:] ur seriously wonderful

Its 1 am right now thank you thank uou thank you slash gen

#SJDJBTJEJS YOU'RE SO NICD SNJFJFHD #Ure not annoying dw :( intact I'd be phyckin jumping off the walls if u interacted with me literally in any way #THIS INCLUDED BTW... /silly #It's like. Have you seen that Twitter meme where an artist u like follows u and urr like wow that's insane I peaked my life is great now #<-/silly #THAT'S ALWAYS ME #ANY ARTIST THAT FOLLOWS ME BACK I WOULD EAT A PIPE FOR YOI/silly+pos #YOU'RE INCLUDED YOU'RE SO COOL UR ARTS SO INSANELY GOOD/GEN #also u run that sword blog right or am I thinking of another artist #<- I go on the phiighting tag too often and reblog yoo many shit/lh #If u are and I'm not being stupy I love that blog he's so goofy silly /pos+gen #Gah pls dont be scared to interact with me this goes to anyone and everyone who sees this too btw #I'M the one that's supposed to be afraid not YOU /silly #Anyways ramble over sknfjfjdjs no problem idhddhdj tytytyty this is giving me serotonin at 1 am HAHA/silly #Polkka post #asks #Pibafish #<- I srsly need to stop for getting yo tag the usernames sjjfjrjeks

[that-jack-kline-bestie]

ive been doing this meditation thing where i identify my feelings. ive never really liked meditation, it would be boring or id get cold or i wouldnt get much out of it or the instructions would be so vague or not applicable to me or id start ticcing a bunch bc i had to hold still.

but recently ive been getting really angry, and overwhelmed, all the time and it just kind of sucks. so a few days ago i laid down with a blanket and closed my eyes and counted my breaths and let myself tic freely even though the tics disrupted my focus. and i let myself feel my emotions in that moment and i let myself shudder and cry out. and i took those emotions and separated them so i could feel them one by one. and i tried to figure out what each emotion was. i didnt need to know why, i didnt need to try to change it, i didnt even need a name for it if i couldnt think of one.

and just sorting through that tangle of emotions so i knew what i was feeling gave me a sense of control, or more it eased the feeling of a lack of control. and it gave me a safe space to feel and do nothing but feel. i think im gonna be alright someday

#meditation #my thoughts on it i guess #hope #mental illness #autism #adhd #wow thats a lot of tags for me #like specific tags vs just rambles #sometimes when theres a lot of emotions i put them on a shelf for safekeeping so i can get to the rest #theyre still there just not obscuring other emotions #sadness kept turning into this great big ocean with no visible edges. so i just decided it could still fit on the shelf. and it did #this was inspired by spock of all people

[moinsbienquekaworu]

It's thundering outside right now and I'm right next to a window reading some Thor fanfic

#impeccable timing on the lightning #i'm having a great time #wow i have a ramble tag now

[seventh-district]

#there is a Severe lack of gif sets for Dermot Kennedy music videos on this site #come ON tumblr this used to be The Place To Go for gifsets! what happened! #like for real am i not looking well enough or is it really a wasteland out there in those tags #for such popular music i am shocked i cannot find one (1) gifset for this video #got me out here posting the link to the video like a fool #i should get back into learning to make gifs but oh boy it is time consuming and i don’t have the time!! #anyways. wow dredging up old reblogs /And/ posting music videos?? i’m being Extra annoying on the dash tonite #it’s a bad night okay gimme a break. let me be cringe #anyways anyways. rewatching this & crying for the millionth time again for no particular reason :))) #there are many reasons that Dermot has been my most listened-to artist for 3 of the last 4 years #many many many reasons. many beautiful songs. but this video alone is enough reason honestly #one of the most important things to me of all time. on the list of stuff too impactful for casual consumption #it always gives me motivation to keep pushing and fighting for myself #the song alone is great but the video frames it in such a light that just.. means a whole lot to me #hence me being extra Extra™️ and posting the video instead of my usual just rambling abt lyrics and stuff #dermot kennedy #Power Over Me #music stuff #video #Seven’s Favorites #Youtube

[chqnified]

Tiktok kpop stans are hilarious. Besties could argue with air

#poor souls need to realise that there's more to life than arguing who's 4th gen leader #or who is kpop ace or who did the cover better. #nobody cares. have opinions- that's great. but wow some of these 12 year olds are passionate af #rambles tag #also anyone who says 4th gen leader group that isn't skz because they are an anti. embarassing. they literally won the award for it. #everything else is subjective though. #i just find it funny tbh. because these arguements will be so child sounding. the replies are 💀💀

[thethingything]

ah okay apparently we've reached the time of night where we start to feel really weird and not great but I guess the best thing to do is just go over our self care checklist and if all else fails, lay down and try to get cosy and rest for a while to see if that helps

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #admittedly I forgot just how much doing lots of activities through the day wears us out even if it's ''low energy'' stuff like reading #I still feel mostly alright. it's just that weird anxious/empty/homesick feeling we tend to get between roughly 11pm and 1am #I think doing a lot of different things also feels very different to our normal routine and that was fine throughout the day #but then I think once it gets to this time of night we're worn out and can't do much #so the shift from doing a lot to doing very little combined with the house suddenly being very quiet from people going to bed #probably does something similar to when you've been out all day and then get home and it's quiet and you suddenly feel empty and weird #it's that feeling of ''wow so much happened and I've had a great time but now it's quiet and I'm alone and suddenly I don't feel good'' #oh look I think I figured out what our brain's doing by rambling in the tags again... huh

[sapphicflower-ao3]

i thought i’d share this here and get the sweet serotonin of 0 notes on this post

#rani’s rambles #i feel more seen and loved on tumblr #it’s like talking to a wall it’s great #anyways #writing this chap is so hard bc i forgot how to be funny and i don’t have any jokes so far #what kind of fluff and humour fic is this if there isn’t a joke in every chapter! #my fic #taof #wow can’t believe im making a tag for this now

[divinemackerel]

Do you think fridgebur has an instruction manual. Like did he come with one

Probably not? In my head like- idk exactly how he was created (pushed out the ice dispenser? Is that the. Equivalent of birth for a fridge????) but however it worked, he does not have a manual. That being said! His surrogate mother, does! As it’s a samsung family hub fridge with four doors and a fingerprint register :-)

This kind of played into Phil not really being sure at times how to raise Wilbur, but he didn’t make any attempts to really figure out or find the manual? And he kind of just, yknow, standard shitty dad Phil.

But! When Wilbur meets Tommy and they start traveling together, Tommy finds a fridge repair manual, and basically with Wilbur’s help, finds out what type of fridge his surrogate mom was.

Tommy by the time of the DSMP is an expert in fridges and fridge repair, to the point where he would probably disassemble Wilbur entirely then put him back together (<- he would never though, he understands there’s a lot of trust in letting someone repair you and he would never break that).

The thing is though, Wilbur is a bit clueless sometimes on how to repair himself, and he doesn’t really see a need to learn because well, Tommy’s there! Which only plays more into their codependency.

#i say codependency/neg in this instance #thisd be like wilbur not knowing how to. idk. clean and wrap a wound bc well. he always has tommy with him! #its not great. and only adds to tommys anxiety about wilbur getting hurt/sick somehow and dying bc they/*he* cant repair him #wow sorry this kind of became heavy and rambly #fridgebur #<- tag

[welcometogrouchland]

At least I can sleep normally again

#ramblings of a lunatic #i was fully expecting to not sleep from excitement tonight but knowing that i actually have another day til the episode drops- #-has made me sleepy again! #just gonna. fuckin. get through ONE more day. wake up late. work til i gotta go to the party. go to the party. maybe leave early we'll see. #get home. try to sleep. wake up. owl show #''wow are you really planning your entire routine around a tv show rn-'' YES. I'M AUTISTIC!!!! #also heads up for ppl I'm gonna be tagging posts as ''toh spoilers'' until I'm sure all my mutuals/friends have watched it #I'm not great w/ tagging tho since i don't tag most things so like let me know if i miss anything #i am excited! scared™ but excited!!!

[wiredalienvampire]

I just finished watching the cutscenes for frontiers and... holy shit/pos

#ian flynn knocked it out of the park!!! i was blown away by the story!!! #i wont spoil it but it has so many good moments. especially when sonic banters with tails and knuckles. and sage is so interesting!!! #and the story itself is so intriguing and entertaining. and the lore we got is pretty interesting #and the animation is pretty good surprisingly! the cinematography is more varied and theres more expressive character acting #admittedly i wish that there was more squash and stretch in the movements to make them more alive. like these are rainbow colored furries!- #-take advantage of that!!! #and i love the mystery aspect of it. it does lead to the story ending with some unanswered questions it mostly utilizes it in a clever- #way so you can stay engaged with the plot. #and wow i love how the characters were written. especially with tails #i wont spoil it but they were done justice!!!! #i have so much more to say but ill talk about that later #overall. the story may not be perfect. especially during the end because the pacing is a little off and what i stated previously. but its- #great and i loved it so much #*ramble txt #i dont know if i should tag this as spoilers or not

[moinsbienquekaworu]

The true pain of reading a good AU is you want more of these specific guys but that characterisation only exists in the one specific fic/series

#brought to you by my love for pacify and the fact i've just finished a great sherlock/james bond crossover #i came for the johnlock and stayed for the 00q #which by the way. how fucking incredible is that as a ship name. how cool is it. it's so cool i fucking love it #like do i care about james bond. no! does the ship name appeal to me a whole lot for some reason. yeah! #i kept having little bursts of surprise because q called him james (of course) so okay fine it's james #except that's James Bond. The James Bond. and every time i remembered i simply couldn't make it work in my head #i think after - 92k of them i got more used to it though #btw it was the 'jealous gods' story if - anyone is interested in that? for some reason? #dunno it just hit the right spot and i don't want to go back to Normal fanfic now :( #i need my emotional support unhealthy relationships born of trauma but full of love :((( #and i know the characterisation was so very specific to this one fic i can't just pick a random johnlock/00q fic to read next #cause i don't want canon them i want This specific version :((( #i've been daydreaming about stellar and lineth because i don't feel ready to let go #wow i have a ramble tag now