#ya can leave now

[heyitsmemel]

hi hello gals and gays. Here is a rare wav from me struggling with the flu. The virus has mainly been in my chest but my entire body is so wrecked I was able to induce super easily. No talking bc I’m literally unable to 😭 Do not listen if you can't stand harsh coughing because it gets a bit rough. If it sounds a bit weird the first half of the recording is from yesterday and the second half is from today, bc the coughing is so much worse in the second half lmao. Ok that's it thankkk you for feeding me so good lately tumblr love u all <3

also personal rant about ableism and intentional contagion in the comments :///

#ok like I haven't been this sick in literal years and cuz im disabled i'm super mindful of spreading germs to others. #and i've had some family staying with me so I was like great leave me here to rot in my cave guys #my partner has been rlly attentive and is like i don't care about germs tehe so yesterday he comes into my room #and gives me a bunch of kisses on my head then swoops in and kisses me ON THE MOUTH #like im sorry i've been lying in a pool of feverish sweat for days and can hardly breathe what part of that makes someone go ooo gimme? #like ya hes just trying to love me but i put so much effort into being clean and now i will feel really guilty when he gets sick #sorry not sorry intentional contagion is not cute or sexy at all its just irresponsible #like i would love to live the life where my body works so well that I don't give a second thought to KISSING someone with the flu #i just feel like able bodied people never think about what its like living with a disability or a chronic illness #or have the slightest inclination of how privileged they are #my partner isn't even a fetishit he is just a dumbass #but ya i just wish he and the general population would think more :/ #snzblr #snz #illness kink #snzfucker #snz wav #snzzzzz #snz blog #anyway thats all do what u want with my horn post

[yohankang]

i officially resigned today :')

#i still have to work there bc i've got a one-month notice period. but i did it!!! #the conversation with my boss went well! she was really nice and supportive #she said she was worried about me bc she could tell i was struggling. and that she understands my decision #and in case i won't find a new job this month they can extend my contract #i cried a lot 😭 #and now i'm terrified and sad bc i really love some of my coworkers and i don't want to leave them #but at the same time i'm SO relieved. i feel like i will be able to sleep well tonight. for the first time in weeks #k.txt #also sorry guys i've been mia. and sorry for not answerings your messages #but between working full time searching for a new job doing final assignments for uni and crying. i honestly don't have any energy left #i only logged in to tell you the big news :') and now i'm back to my assignment :( see ya in a week when my exam hell is over

[im-gonna-be-weird-about-it]

Me, a casual viewer of BFU: True Crime and Puppet History, clicking on the Making Watcher playlist: Oh, its so nice that the boys got to start their own company :)

Me, 40 minutes later, no longer a causal viewer after seeing Ryan Bergara talk about his anxiety and then almost cry on camera because he is so happy that his friend agreed to work at his new company: 

#ryan bergara #as that tweet once said #there is just something about him ya know #this is mostly a joke #BUT! #like i have a pretty solid no interaction policy with celebrities #i care about the character and not the actor #so i never felt the need to watch interviews or follow them on twitter or w/e #but now ive seen ryan get emotional and almost cry multiple times and im ?????? #i still dont want to meet him in person but i do want him to tell us about his day #and i hope hes having a good time in disneyland #and I want to leave supportive comments on all their videos #and i very much want him to succeed because A) I genuinely like their shows and B) hes just so nice and relatable #ive never followed a YT channel before but I do see now how it creates that feeling a lot easier than traditional media #because YT creators do depend a lot more on engagement and views #and they interact with the audience a lot more #anyway im being really dramatic about the fact that I dusted off my twitter account after 6 years just so i can ❤ watchers tweets #and then promptly created a patron account just so i could support them #this is just a lot more involved than i usually get #just rambling in the tags to sort out my own feelings

[pushing500]

I bet T'au hooves make a satisfying clicking noise when they're being tapped impatiently...

At long last, welcome to the cult Baby Butternut Buckeye!! Once again, Magic Man is apparently not listed as her father, though I can assure you he is.

More importantly... This means, at last, we're ready to go.

... And not a moment too soon! Adiós, mechanoids!

There isn't very much to see at the Landed Ship, but the small makeshift colony will still be shown off, as is tradition:

A small colony backed into a teeny-tiny valley, close to the seaside with not much to see. Randy Random was nice enough to allow the snow to melt for the colony tour, not that there was much to see underneath the snow.

The centre of the colony is a cobbled-together room around a campfire, where everyone huddles together for warmth on the cold tundra nights. None of them are happy about it, but they all lived (all the important ones lived, anyway. Curly can kick bricks). There's also a sauna, a closet, a guest room (formerly a prison cell) and some bathrooms.

We don't really talk about the Ecthuctu-forsaken storage situation.

The nursery/laboratory is the only room kept at a consistently warm temperature.

We have a barn for our animals, another little bathroom area, our temple, and a deathrest chamber for newly-turned sanguophage Vasso that will never be used.

There's a field of haygrass for the animals, alongside an itty-bitty hospital for emergencies.

The colony's entrance is sealed with a chain-link fence and dutifully guarded by several turrets and spike traps—and that's it! I told you there wasn't much to see.

Next up: The End At Last...

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#rimworld #gracie plays #The Children of Ecthuctu #art #my art #traditional art #rimworld art #unpolished art #Blackthorn Bluegum and Butternut #what cute names <3 #Pro is the most excited for Butternut's birth #because now it means we can leave lmao #Those mechanoids got here too late to harm us #get rekd mechanoids #Onwards to bigger and better and (probably) more horrific things! #huzzah for the cannibal cult #ya love to see it #Have an awesome day!! <3

[alwaysneedyforsir]

back to bad habits (staying absurdly late at practice)

#like ok yes it was productive! #but it’s also almost ten pm and i’m only leaving now #ya girl’s still got to get home and finish her homework and try to get to bed at a reasonable hour #who knows tho i may stay up n bake cookies #honestly who needs sleep bffr #i am *killing* it rn on no sleep #promise!! #tired n hungry n fuckin beat up #the bruises i have on my body rn are ridiculous #plus somehow fuckin scratches?? #anyway my body’s fallin tf apart rn hehe oops #who wants to kiss my bruises better?? #taking applications rn #apply within w your qualifications n an essay of why you should be considered as an applicant #perks of the job include hugs n kisses whenever you want n probably when you don’t want #you also get a free use fuck toy who needs your attention on her all the fuckin time or she withers away n dies #n lots of flowers n books n chocolate too!! #honestly what’s a girl gotta do to get some flowers #good god idk how to shut tf up #whatever it’s not like i know how to shut up in real life anyway so #honestly if anyone’s read this far lmk bc that deserves a fuckin prize #(we can negotiate details of said prize if you don’t like my initial offer hehe) #me #my thoughts

[kanene-yaaay]

To everyone! Thanks a whole lot! It was delightful to battle at your side (or against it kjhgtfrdefgjnb) today <3 <3 <3 I shall go to bed soon and I don't think the boop-o-meter will be here tomorrow so everyone consider yourself booped a million of a billion of times <3 And a big hug as well

#got little sleep yesterday and the morning was rough but to come here and have such a delightful fun time made everything much much better #thank you so much you all defeated me because there's like 680 boops received and only 530 given and I don't think I will be able to- #-suppress that anytime soon KJHGFDEDEFGHUJ #It was a fun battle that DESTROYED my notifs forever because now I can only see one (1) of them everytime I open it KJHGFDERFGHUJI #<3 <3 #Kanene being Kanene #probably will leave a few last boops here and there but I need to finish my studies kjhgfdsdfgh #see ya!

[narwhalandchill]

btw if u equate childe and aventurines backstory in any fucking way please leave this blog and unfollow me <3 preferably block me while ur at it too uwu

#havent you people done enough to systematically destroy his characterization already? genuinely curious #turning him into generic YA sadboy with no narrative purpose according to yall than to be traumatize meow meow smolbean #who has no greater purpose no greater relevance whos just a victim with 868 made up mental illnessess #and actually the fact that he canonically displays no typical signs of mental illness or distress proves he has giga trauma #because we all know the writers intention is always the thing they give 0 time on screen 0 hints at in lore 0 presence in canon #because you people are so fucking boring and incapable of basic reading comprehension that 'fantasy isnt 1 to 1 with irl psychiatry' #and 'stories can ignore real life logic of human psychology in favor of a desired narrative' #are like completely fucking incomprehensible concepts #god i am so fucking mad #like now the fact that another character hoyo wrote from a different fucking game #has some surface level adjacent qualities to ajax. and turns out to have a sad backstory #THATS fucking proof to yall? imagine reaching this hard . #none of you people have ever genuinely liked childe as the character he is canonically established to be #leave him the fuck alone #i am so fucking exhausted #but NOOOOOO listen childe is female coded with prey instinct and actually showing 0 signs of trauma is proof you have SUPER trauma #and him being mentally well off and clearly at peace with who he is in all its contradictions is just him brainwashing himself to believe i #AND IVE SEEN WORSE. IVE SEEN WORSE #god i am so fucking mad and exhausted and depressed like NONE of the people in this fucking fandom actually care abt him #as the banger fucking character he is #because he just has to be the most boring fucking YA archetype bc you ppl cant comprehend nor handle anything interesting . #anyway woops. #delete later

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[misscrazyfangirl321]

Whelp, guess I can add "Psychological Thriller" to the list of things that can set off my anxiety.

#... or maybe it was just the extra caffeine #although i didn't have much at all #much extra anyway #*sigh* #o r maybe it was reading through the whole book in just a few settings #absorbing it into my brain #anyway it's called 'the companion' and it's ya and it's actually really good and interesting #but now i'm like. hhhhh. #literally gonna leave my house for a bit so i can recalibrate around other people #which i normally do the opposite #i speak #books libraries and reading oh my

[code31-onthedancefloor]

maybe, alongside Photography With Kim, Ulixes would meet up with some of the Speedfreaks to go dumpster diving in Revachol East.

#i had the thought of uli finding a bunch of unused hair products in an east revachol #salon/hairdresser's and gifting them to steban. hairspray and conditioner. fancy scrubs. anything he could root out of there #andres like 'ah so youre the type of guy to really take care of your hair huh. or is it for ya girlfriend' #imminent ulixes implosion #i feel like uli could learn a lot from noid honestly. what exactly? i don't know. but his gender would be kaput by the end of it. #or finding a bunch of unsold bread behind a bakery. neither of them have freezers so its kind of a 'eat as much as you can' type situation #ulixes is absent for an entire day and night and comes back to steban with a massive bag filled with pastries and bread. leaves again. #or maybe he finds some freezers buried in a commercial area and starts filling them with food. yknow. just in case. #txt #disco elysium #steban the student communist #ulixes bücher #echo maker #mazovian yaoi #<- fuck it that's their ship tag now

[newtafterdark]

When times are rough, remember - you can always make a little moss jar to brighten your day. 🌱

#life doesn't stop and boi is it going Autobahn speeds for me for a couple years now #but the little joys help #(plus therapy but ya know) #my landlords removed a lot of moss from their garden so I took a few chunks; some fresh soil + rocks & put that in a jar #it'll do fine without being misted if you close it tightly and leave to its own devices... #but I will probably mist it from time to time #Maybe I'll make another jar that is a bit higher so I can put a small leaf plant in there #newt's ramblings #hexer

[anotherfabulousproduction]

She ain't done yet, buy boy is she sufferin'.

(And I am too trying to finish this piece.)

#yeah no ya girl has been busy #clamoring to make pieces for this upcoming gallery proposal #all while doing homework #and job stuff #lifehack: if youre an RA and you can #dont be in your building as much as possbile while you draw #they cant call you to attend to bullshit if youre not there! #anyway i now leave you with the hungriest and sweatiest french lady in chicago #could you tell I came up with this while sick with covid? #ink art #art #artists on tumblr #my ocs #drawing #ink drawing #microns #oc #T

[plaintoast]

I haven't slept since Sunday night so I really cannot explain how much this all feels like a fever dream I'm going to wake up from after I finally sleep

#i straight up don't know what to say at this point i feel absolutely unhinged #steph was like this can't be worse than zayn leaving one direcrtion and: #famously zayn leaving one direction is the straw that broke the camel's back and sent me to the psych ward in 2015 #<- deeply embarrassing to admit but anyway #if 20 year old max was dealing with this rn i don't think she'd be doing any better!!!! #ya i was a girl 10 years ago but i'm not now #anyway i'm going to sleep finally (picked up my sleeping meds) #praying i can have a normal reaction tomorrow 🙏

[savage-rhi]

🫂😪

#hey I've been on a bit of a hiatus with writing and other projects #answering this cause ive had some anons asking for updates on drabble requests #leaving a toxic job that I endured for a year #getting a new job and new enviornment #finding out I had a whole ass other family I didn't know existed #and trying to keep up with the cost of living has taken a huge toll #on my mental health and wellbeing #to the point where I had to take time off my new job and go on a peer respite #i got back the other day and I'm doing better #but my mental health isn't 100% #and my chronic pain has been fluctuating a lot cause of stress #i know i don't owe anyone details about what i go through #but i like being transparent #and this makes it easier than answering 6-10 anons asking me for an update #i am not sure when im gonna fulfill drabble requests but they'll come when they come #and you can keep sending in stuff i dont mind it at all #just know i gotta take care of me right now #and I'll be slower answering stuff #take care of your mental health and bodies the best you can #im always rooting for ya #and to end on a good note #i got accepted into a masters program for clinical counseling and therapy #only 25 people could get in and somehow i got it #idk how im gonna get financial aid for it but im gonna try #im excited and nervous #i might have more vo stuff coming too idk yet but im trying not to do too much at once #if yall could do me a solid and drop something cool in the comments and let me know how your life is going id love that #especially if you got good news to share #i could use more of that right now #love you guys and here's a hug and a biscuit from me

[iguessitsjustme]

Yesterday, 30 minutes before we closed

Manager: Hey Rae, tomorrow can you do this* and this*

Me: Sure no problem. I can get both things done tomorrow.

Today, at work

Me: Oh I have ~questions

Manager: *on PTO*

Me: Whelp

*both just absolutely awful

#rae irl #rae at work #i got both done today #well sort of because one i had to leave a voicemail for and i haven't heard back #also also also the other thing took me all day and broke my brain #it would have been so much easier to do it if we had gotten the information 3 months ago when we asked for it but ya know #why make things easy when instead we can get it 3 months later after we've already processed other things with old information #and i can have to go through and fix and process 20+ students with the new information #all while also fielding back to back phone calls #my ability to multitask is truly astonishing #anyway my manager will be hearing from me when he's back #mostly just so i can let him know it's done and to make it his problem now #cause he has to proof all my work

[bangcakes]

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#my dream last night was so mean to me. not bc it sucked but bc it was Good n now i wake up n its not REAL?????? #it was so realistic too JDJJDJDJSJS #this is mostly for my benefit to write it down like this but djjdjsjjzms #ppl were at my house. [redacted] included. and we didnt get to sit near each other n he was Upset LOL. so he makes a comment about me like #not wanting to be near him n i was like thats not true !!! so he fuckin... comes near me JDJJDNDNDND and im like oh this is too much n i #like. keep having to back away. bc im just so overwhelmed. not bc i dont wanna be near him #but just the Idea of it... NDJNZNZMZMZ n e way #and hes like SEE???? and im like no !!!! you dont get it !!!! n hes like i have to go n goes to leave. so i chase him outside n like #hes got a ride waiting for him and im like... [redacted]!!!!!!!! and he turns around n hes like. i really gotta go #n i was like but !!! its not true!!! i do wanna be near you. and his rides like... oh i can wait. so [redacted] like tries again n no ones #around so like JJZJZJJZJZZJZ AHHHHHHH i dont squirm away or anything. and hes like.... oh i cant even say it JDJZJSNZZ #hes... holding.... me HIDJEKEKSKSKSKSK and his face is really close n hes like. so this is okay?? and im just like ya.. and i think i say #that i like him??? and like idk JDJZJZJZJZJZ he says it back and THEN I WOKE UP RHRKXDOJJDJZJZM ITS SO MEANNNNN SO MEANNNNN #but actually reading it out. its not really that realistic IDK #im just.... damn. back to reality JDJZJSJSJJSJD #personal