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solxrsys · 6 months

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what syscourse actually is (painfully accurate and long)

syscourse is pointless. it’s a stupid debate. people say the same shit over and over again. it’s been fucking years of this.

“hey [misinformation]!”

“actually, it’s [information]!”

and then it repeats. same fucking debates all the time.

most people in syscourse are here just because they don’t want to be the ones to lose. people are here to argue, not to listen. no matter how many times you say your opinion, they don’t respond and then say the same shit a different day.

one must wish syscourse to end.

it’s the same people with their same opinions (that they repeat, over and over again despite being proven wrong.) they won’t respond to debates that actually prove them wrong (because it’s a bad look on them.)

all it is, is just people wanting to be popular on tumblr for being a debater. and they want to be liked, so, so bad, that they make a fake persona of opinions.

most syscoursers don’t think the way that they post. most of it is bait.

most of syscourse now is just attention seeking. posting personal drama in syscourse tags (not all of it), making a pro endo account as an anti endo or vise versa to make them look bad, doubling down on statements because you don’t want to be wrong, etc

but now syscourse is an actual issue. when comparing debate opinions to fucking fascists and hate groups? that’s a fucking problem. wishing death and torture of people who disagree with you? that’s a fucking problem. racism and ableism? that’s a fucking problem.

and where it’s coming from? full grown ass adults. how can syscourse turn into this because of adults?

either people are lying about their age (which some might are), or they just never grew up. it’s so fucking sad to see grown ass people acting this way and see nothing wrong with it (even after being told so).

i was a shitty person, but i changed. i learned and grew up, like an adult. and to see people older than me not doing the same? holy shit

yknow, it helps being off of tumblr. like a lot. go out, get a job, go to the bar, meet new people, it really fucking helps.

syscourse is just a reason to argue with people

#syscourse #high posting

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thelordofgifs · 1 year

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Sending an ask rather than using the tags, due to length!

High-Kingship really hasn’t let Fingon shine—he’s a champion! Point him at a monster, he’ll slay it; show him someone in distress, he’ll save them; tell him about hidden treasure, he’ll even make a good effort at retrieving it. But he can’t go about as freely as he had as Crown Prince, he’s got too many responsibilities! And he can’t be everywhere at once, so he has to run around putting out fires, setting aside tomorrow’s problems for the more immediate ones of today.

Then M&M: Shall we ever save each other?

You previously posted about not being sure what the themes of TFS are, and I think I have identified one: inevitability, the sense that even knowing things is not enough, like how Namo had already revealed the Doom of the Noldor to them even on the eve of their exile, and even with such foreknowledge they could not defy their fate, and in some ways how their reactions to it only turned it into a self-fulfilling prophecy. Curufin can recognize that he’s making terrible decisions, but he can’t stop. Maglor knows the metanarrative of him and Maedhros, and he tries and tries but still can’t succeed. And on the flip side, you have also shown that it makes a difference how you face inevitability, from Celegorm’s redemption to Maglor’s desperate hope to Curufin’s ends justifying the means/sunk cost fallacy behaviour. And maybe also Maedhros’s future deliberate consideration of death, from the sneak peak into your future writing?

And to tell the truth, I actually feel as if Calaquendi developing execution as a final solution to problems actually makes sense? Like a sort of you’re beyond our ability to reintegrate into society, off to Mandos with you, let Namo sort you out?

I think that Thingol might see Fingon’s offer as a trap though, a sort of guilt by association thing, and if the Eöl incident comes out, then it’ll really look like a trap by tricking him into acknowledging the validity of the death penalty.

Firstly this made my day, thank you so much for this incredible detailed ask!!

Fingon’s characterisation was something that stumped me for a while, and even now my view on him is evolving as I write. When I introduced him into tfs it was more for what he symbolised than for how he might move the plot forward as a character in his own right: “hope beyond hope, music in the world’s endless discord, warmth unlooked-for in its frozen wastes”, which is a line as much about Maedhros’ feelings for Fingon as it is about Fingon himself. (Still one of my favourite lines in the fic, I’m very proud of it.) But the fact that Leithian takes place during Fingon’s brief reign is so fascinating to me: how did he react to it all? What was Fingon like, as a High King?

The early Quenta Silmarillion says:

"Of all the children of Finwë he is justly most renowned: for his valour was as a fire and yet as steadfast as the hills of stone; wise he was and skilled in voice and hand; truth and justice he loved and bore good will to all, both Elves and Men, hating Morgoth only; he sought not his own, neither power nor glory, and death was his reward."

Which, valid. (Also ouch.) Fingon’s great! Everyone loves Fingon! But is there scope, within this effusive praise of him, to give Fingon a slightly darker streak? I go back and forth on this – I am not trying to rewrite the silm as a modern grimdark fantasy, and the point here is not to give unambiguously heroic characters Moral Greyness. But, yknow. Fingon’s a Kinslayer. He isn’t as morally upstanding as his father. And you can’t really write honestly about him without acknowledging that.

Anyway, I tagged a post yesterday as “make Fingon fucked up 2023” and I think I was actually so right for that? By the time he’s become the High King, Fingon is amazingly lonely. All his immediate family is gone: Turgon and Aredhel vanished to Gondolin (and Aredhel is dead, though he doesn’t know that), Argon dead for centuries, and of course his father dead after suicidally challenging Morgoth to a duel.

In tfs I write Fingon as very angry about this. Why did his father leave him, after everyone else had already done the same? Why did he despair and throw his life away for nothing like that? (Fingon is always the antithesis of despair; his own death is not a futile one, he dies trying to do the right thing – and it’s only after his death that hope leaves Beleriand.) So then comes the idea that Kingship doesn’t come that naturally to Fingon – he’s a hero, a warrior prince, not a High King.

(I absolutely cannot take credit for this idea; there are many, many excellent fics that also take this tack with Fingon. I should probably make a separate post about the fics that inspired various parts of tfs at some point.)

Which isn’t to say that Fingon is a bad High King! He’s mostly sorted out Curufin’s mess quite effectively, after all. But he doesn’t enjoy any of it – he wants to be a fearless adventurer, a rescuer, a dragon-slayer, not a politician. And he has been trying, very hard, to put his duty above his personal desires: but the decision to execute Curufin is ultimately a failure to do that. (Does Curufin deserve it? Maybe. Would Fingon have made that decision if not for his anger on Maedhros’ behalf? Unlikely. Fingon is more willing than he should be to do terrible things for Maedhros’ sake. I drew the parallel with Eöl’s execution explicitly, because although I absolutely loathe and detest Eöl, I think Turgon’s decision to execute him was personal, motivated by the fact that Eöl had murdered Turgon’s sister and not some random citizen of Gondolin. Given the canonical taboo around Kinslaying, I don’t think elven realms executed people as a matter of course. Although that’s an intriguing point about how the Calaquendi might see it!)

This is already ridiculously long: putting the rest under a cut now.

M&M! My favourite tragic darling boys!! I’m so normal about them. Your points on inevitability are absolutely INCREDIBLE, you have somehow understood my fic better than I do myself so thank you so much! Although I will add that there are two vitally important characters you missed in your musings on doom: Fingon, who walked up to Angband with a bow and a song and a prayer and won back his beloved, who tells Melian that he is good at hope and tells Maglor that he is going to change the genre of story he is in (Fingon who canonically fails tragically at this and is beaten into the mire of his blood agdhsjdj); and Lúthien, who asks Maglor whether people have the power to rewrite their own dooms and asks Finrod how tight the strings of fate are after all, who rescues Beren from Sauron’s clutches and then wins the right to give up her immortality for him, whose story is titled Release from Bondage.

Anyway, I’m very glad you picked up on the line Shall we ever save each other? because what happened was I was staring at the screen going “say something cool and meaningful Maglor” and then he absolutely delivered. Maglor in tfs – well, my interpretation of Maglor generally, but I really lean into this in tfs – is absolutely defined by his failure to rescue Maedhros from Angband. It informs every single decision he makes. And so he knows that he is not good at saving Maedhros, that there is no particular reason why he should be able to pull Maedhros out of his delusion, but he tries anyway. And expends every single drop of strength he has left on it, and succeeds.

(A detail I’m proud of: the scene between them in part 15 is a deliberate mirror of the last time they met, back in part 3. There are a lot of small repeated phrases: fingers “idly combing” through hair, musings on that one particular line from the Doom of Mandos, the final significant decision to give the Silmaril away.)

But there is still so much mutual trauma in their relationship: the fact that Maglor didn’t rescue Maedhros and the fact that Maedhros went to the parley in the first place (“I dreamed you left me, or else I you”), that Maglor was injured trying to save Maedhros from Carcharoth and then Maedhros left him in Menegroth, that Maedhros has just spent several days thinking Maglor was dead and that he did actually stab him. They love each other a lot, but that isn’t necessarily enough. (It might be! Maglor successfully resisted the Oath for Maedhros’ sake, after all. But also: Maedhros couldn’t take Thingol up on his “the Silmaril or Maglor” offer.)

ok I’ve spent well over an hour on this jumbled mess of thoughts I’ll stop here. Thank you so much for this amazing thought-provoking ask! And I am always more than delighted to get tfs asks, so feel free to send more in! ❤️

#asks #butterflies-and-fishermen #the fairest stars #meta #my meta #fingon #maedhros #maglor

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leadendeath · 3 months

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i don't want to reblog the post because my commentary is not relevant to the subject, so i didn't want to put this in said post's tags. also as i type it turned into a long...? something. vent maybe? i don't even know what to refer to it as. but i've seen a couple of posts recently that have really got me thinking.

as i'm writing this, they both just appeared on my dash. they are this one and this one. i'm definitely going to post this now (i have to) and not just save it in my drafts forever.

Having sex with friends sounds nice! I am pro-that! (pro meaning not anti) for me it would alleviate my fears of hooking up with those I just met or haven't known for years because friends are less likely to murder/kidnap you or give you a disease! (I do not want to die from sex lmao) the con: now they know what i look like and what bodily/physical problems i have that aren't visible to the general public. no. i can't have sex with my friends. my god. it all boils down to my body dysmorphia. literally the mortifying ordeal of it being known

So I think again, like I often do, about my place on the ace spectrum. I usually do not care for labels, don't find them necessary to apply to myself, but it's totally cool if other people have tons of different labels that they use. I am pro-that too! I myself am definitely grey-ace or demi-something. I landed on aegosexual- a disconnect between yourself and your sexual attraction- for a long time. I am never sexually or romantically attracted to somebody I don't know. Not even people on the screen. What if that hot (definition for this context: visually appealing) actor is a dick? Good looks garbage personality? At least you can do research on him. Not the case with "irl contacts" (definition: non-famous and real people who you might actually meet or know in person).

I know that I definitely experience sexual attraction, and want to have sex. Based on that I don't feel quite right calling myself asexual.

I don't LIKE that I feel too bad about experiencing sexual attraction to act on it. There's this weird feeling that's hard to place, but closest to "guilt", I'd say. Disgust with myself.

That time I was propositioned to go back to a con hotel (i turned him down and he listened and respected me and was nice, it's just i stopped myself), or that other time when making out and groping (different guy different occasion; we could've gone further but i stopped myself), or even just flirting and talking about our turn-ons and things we Like with my long-distance online sort-of bf that I had. I'm even hesitating to follow the "after dark" art accounts that I want to follow on bird site because of the guilt and almost embarassment I feel at myself (I'm fully aware that the only reason most people have locked accounts which you have to request to follow is to keep out minors and trolls btw, and i'm certainly neither of those!).

All of this is stuff I want and that's enjoyable to me, but this nagging "don't do that. you're gross. why would you say/do that? you're being weird. stop. stop. stop. you're not allowed to do these things." is always there in my mind. I don't want it to be there, and it's always there.

Now, this doesn't come from religious trauma, like "sex before marriage = wrong and bad"? "gay sex = ultimate evil"? Nah, I was never told those things. I didn't even have a very religious upbringing. These thoughts can't be explained away by any of that. Even my mom has always been like "you can have a girlfriend or a boyfriend! i don't mind as long as you're happy! :)" yknow having that nice accepting approach to that time when I was like 15 and settled on bi for "what i was" at the time. No judgement, no condemnation there either.

It's not real.

When I learned that I have ocd, suddenly I started to maybe have an explanation for these thoughts. Some people's obsessions focus on repetition or contamination. A good part of my obsessions focus on condemnation. I'm scared of it. I take "beating yourself up over something" to the next level. Just like any other person who's familiar with delusions, intrusive thoughts, etc will tell you: knowing it's not real doesn't make it any better. Doesn't make it stop. Doesn't make it go away.

When I could explain this detrimental thought process away by finding this horrible disorder to pin the blame on, I felt freer. I've thought many times throughout my mentally ill life about bringing up my (questioning)asexuality to a therapist one day, and I still will, even more so now. i felt before like I'd bring it up to them and not be able to back it up with any evidence, and just be brushed off? That's a stupid way to think, I know. And a therapist who would really do that is one you'd leave immediately. You don't need evidence to talk about how you feel, that's so silly... but that thought itself comes back around, in a vicious cycle, to my needing to justify myself because otherwise I am Wrong And Bad. jeez. what a way to think. i hate that. will be so glad when i get it under control after 25+ years.

edit: oh ya there's also this. my tags on one of the above posts i never reblogged, sat in my drafts.

my disability is inseparable from my sexuality, whatever it is.

#ocd #bdd #intrusive thoughts #demisexual #acespec #aegosexual #autochorissexual #that's a retired term i know so i won't use it again; but that's what it was called when i was younger #unusual for me to remember such a long word lol! it'd be harder for me now. /old #if anyone wants to say anything or tell me they relate- that'd be nice :) i'm purely just venting but sharing your thoughts is welcome #if you want to!

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linewire · 5 months

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About that thing that you tagged me in, for which i am very thankful, i truly want to ask you about all three WIPs that you mentioned.

I’m happy with either a snippet of it or the broad aspects of them, please🙏🏻💞

omg yes of course i'll tell you all about my wips, thank you so much for asking 🥺

in chronological order:

Ikaw at Ikaw:

my literal baby, she's the first fic i started writing for lestappen since august 10. my favorite child but also the cause of so many headaches 😔 (which is my fault because i can’t seem to ever be satisfied with it).

in the broadest strokes, it’s an omegaverse fic set in the 2028 season after charles had just returned to the sport following a 3 year hiatus at the start of the 2025 season. lestappen are kinda exes but also kinda not because they had to have been in an actual relationship to be exes. there is a child oc that looks a lot like max but with charles’ eyes. he is 3 years old.

(i’d love to talk more about this but i wanna save it for the actual fic yknow, tho my dms are always open ☺️)

Too Much Love Drives a Man Insane

a direct sequel to this fic set after the events of the first fic

wholly inspired by the lestappen padel date and the feminine urge to write charles getting his ass eaten while wearing this tennis dress

Part Time Soulmate (Full Time Problem)

stole the concept from a tweet from an emt talking about how they treated a member of a local gang and how he gave his calling card in case they needed a hitman (? i might be misremembering the exact details)

max is a tired emergency med resident just trying to get by and charles is the brother of a mafia leader who stumbles into the er after getting shot, cue shenanigans

#writing

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oatmealcrisp-freak · 2 years

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I love my headcanons so much! I love to talk about them an and make content an awful lot too, because it’s just so much fun! And I love other’s headcanons so much like some of the fan theorying that goes on in this tag is hella rad.

(mood)

I love to analyze the text and come up with headcanons that are supported by canon or even not supported by all, and show them off to the fandom like I just found a very shiny rock because if I like it, someone else might too.

This might improve someone else’s day the way it improved mine!!

If someone tells me they disagree with me, that’s just an excuse to ramble on at length even more about why this shiny rock is so cool and say “I love this shiny rock!”

And sometimes I’m actually wrong, in which case lol thanks quq i appreciate the correction

Sometimes it’s really hard not to call someone an idiot because sometimes the way they’re talking to me, specifically, is rude and dismissive of this rock I actually put time and thought into unearthing. Or sometimes they’ll just. Yell rude and dismissive things for everyone to see.

Sometimes I do vaguepost but when I’m mad it’s harder to enjoy what I’m trying to enjoy so. By and large, not worth it.

I am perfectly able to build a community of like minded individuals where we can pass our favourite rocks back and forth like show and tell. Doesn’t need to be tagged. Not everybody has to see it. Or hell, maybe I just don’t post it at all. I like this lil doodad - “Before you post, THINK”. It helps me be kind to myself by being kind to others.

If I don’t think the rock is going to be good to the fandom at large, it can stay untagged in the personal bowers of my blog where we like minded folk, or even just me, may enjoy it.

Why give the naysayers the time of day? That just means less time to enjoy how sparkly this rock is.

so sparkly...coffee jelly ads...........wow.........................................

My enjoyment of my headcanon is strong enough to withstand someone having fun with their own rock in their own way that’s different from mine in a shared space - it’s not like they’re hucking it at people, they’re just participating, sharing, in a thing we both really enjoy, the same way I am - to build enjoyment in a community.

It’s kinda neat, even, to be reminded that different people, by means of being different people with their own backgrounds, biases, personalities, thoughts, and feelings, can look at the same piece of media and come up with something completely different than me! I don’t have to agree. Heck if I don’t like this content even if it’s not disrespecting me, I can just keep scrolling!

It gives me more time to enjoy everyone’s shiny rocks they put on display, and my own shiny rock! That person minding their own business does not invalidate or disrespect or erase mine. Someone having a different interpretation than me doesn’t erase me. If I feel threatened by someone else showing off their rock in a way that doesn’t directly antagonize me, that’s my problem. Sometimes I’m accidentally disrespectful. That’s a learning opportunity, and a path to doing better next time, both for myself and others.

What is disrespectful, potentially bigoted, and gatekeeping, is asking thousands of people to conform to one idea, shut up if they don’t, or get out.

And now that tumblr is apparently back to using tags as tags instead of keywords in the body of the post as tags, it’s much easier than it was to perform a key piece of tumblr etiquette which is

Don’t tag the hate.

If you feel that strongly about things that you can’t stand to see it a more effective solution that would improve your experience would probably be to block people.

I know I’ll be.

And I know my experience isn’t universal but I know I have much more fun when I say “I love this! I love that! This makes me feel valid, isn’t that cool!!” instead of being stuck the negativity bias. Bit of a bummer in there, yknow.

Someone having a different opinion doesn’t invalidate yours or make you wrong. Thats for facts, not your identity or your feelings.

(That still pisses me off tbh like why are they called killer whales then huh)

Make your dash what you want to see. Have fun with your shiny rocks but lets. Yknow. Respect, manners, etc, at least don’t tag the hate.

Block Toritsuka. BLOCK HIM. He’s a HATER, did you see how fast he walked away from Kuboyasu when Kuboyasu said he went to an all boys school!? A HATER. You don’t need him in your life (unless you need him in your life i mean im not gonna tell you not to if you enjoy him, some people have different tastes and that’s okay.)

But really none of us is the ultimate authority on any of these characters unless one of us is secretly Shuichi Asou where are you. I. I just. I wanna. Can. Can you. More content please. Please. Oh please give us more Saiki K content plEASE-

#also don't be a fucking homophobe what the shit????????? cannot believe i've actually been seeing people being homophobic in this tag as a #response to people having different headcanons.#saiki k

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eiscuseme · 1 year

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I wanna apologize for the tags on my post. I don’t follow you, and I was just browsing the tag when I saw your Jolteon. I didn’t know its background as a rescue due to this. My comments were not meant to reflect on your abilities as a trainer, I promise. As I stated (admittedly a bit implicitly), there’s nothing wrong with your partner looking a bit, as you put it, yucky, so long as there aren’t any health issues. Even so, I intend to delete the post from my blog, and I’ll take this as a learning experience from this site. Once again, sorry for the upset!

(Speaking out of character, I didn’t mean any offense! I saw the picture and was struck with the inspiration that perhaps Eevee’s volatile DNA might be sensitive to physical and chemical impurities in evolution stones, and that too many could cause mutations within forms that some trainers might find undesireable. I’m speaking as someone with a Bachelor’s in Geology, btw, not as a crystal healing person. Like I said above, I’ll delete the post. So sorry that I upset you!!! Feel free to DM me about anything. You already know who I am)

Ur fine man just read up before commenting . Plus ive had ppl saying other nasty shit abt him its all soooo -_- if he was a 'cute' jolteon nobody wld b saying shit we all know this (tho. I mostly like jolteons bcuz they are in general just kinda.... yknow...)

((🤝science . Im going for bio rn auh😭 ur fine lol no hard feelings. The ppl who r tagging my stuff w genuinely insulting comments r the problem, no shade for goofin ❤️

#eis.txt #((do i. also tag this as ooc... suuure #eis.ooc

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star-ocean-peahen · 2 years

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so I went through the tag to see if you had posted more for my new favorite bastard man and read this post and. ANGST ANGST ANGST

YESSSSS

I desperately want Link to be like really actually pissed off that the Fae King has even a piece of the Goddess Blood Essence, especially after how she lost Shei. How dare he desecrate his memory! ...That might be one of the only things keeping her going while this is going on; Shei's memory.

I also think it's really funny that it's the Essence of the Skies that he's got... especially with all these Girahim vibes he's got going on lol.

I really like Link's shattering-sound trauma coming into play- I bet that hurts culling the herd of pottery tho :')

Here's an angsty thought: how does Shei's sudden absence affect Link? I bet since the Fae King's already trying to make her feel vulnerable, that doent help any... I'd love if she tried to find strength through Shei, or even vice verca.... <3

It'd be funny if Link and/or Stella were made to do menial tasks/chores like mending and tending the fae nobilty hand and foot, just for Link and Stella to pretend to but really they're sabotaging like. seams to fall apart or for dough not to set right or rinsing dishes in dirty dish water... petty stuff like that- stuff that Shei would probably (definitely) teach them. What, he was locked up in a dungeon for five years, they had to give him something to do!

I really really like the part when Link stands up to the Fae King I'm. Feral.

very cathartic, that part building up to the Fae King's demise, thats god tier.

I think it'd be kinda funny if Stella went to stir up some dissent amongst the fae subjects while Link was busy being yknow. tortured, maybe instill a new ruler to take the Fae King's place before she and Link peace out ajnsfksd

One more nugget of angst tho... I wonder if the Fae King could idk... glimpse anything from the Goddess Blood Essence of the Skies... Maybe a line about Link's "poor little friend" before BITE KILL MAIM!!!

If the Fae King weren't yknow. Fae folk idk I feel like zelda theories would try really hard to say he was twili maybe... which ofc have ties to the sheikah and gerudo and bad blood (cough goddess blood cough pun cough) with the Royal Family so 👀👀👀👀👀

not sure if those are all of my thoughts I kinda tried to just. dump my brain in here after re-reading the thing bc I. missed it? somehow??? :(

but!! it was a very fun time! I hope you enjoy my thoughts and I look forward to more of this au! :D

Bonus: Fae King looks so fun to draw

AK;JWBEFIFBwiealRFBAIWELHFBWA,JERFHBAE

I WAS SO FREAKING HAPPY WHEN I SAW THIS IN MY INBOX THESE GIVE ME LIKE AN ENTIRE DAY'S WORTH OF HAPPY BRAIN CHEMICAL-

yessssss i absolutely picked the essence of the skies for a reason!! paralleling sksw zelda falling into the hands of ghirahim my beloved

hhhhhhhhhhhh link having pottery-related trauma is Something. she doesn't want to smash the pot because that would be Bad, obviously, so why are every one of her instincts screaming at her to do it

akjfkejw maybe hyrule has transitioned away from the use of pots or something maybe the screen shudders every time you smash a pot maybe she flinches but does it anyway because gremlin instincts cannot be ignoredddddddd

ooooooooooooooooooooooh what if the fae king pretends he can hear/sense shei in the piece of GBE but hes lying cuz hes a dirty lying liar

AKJSBFIUWABE;F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAOCHGSHHS!!!!!!!!!!! YOU SOLVED THE PROBLEM THATS WHAT STELLA'S DOING THE WHOLE TIME SHES WORKING SEPARATELY (LIKE IN A BOILER ROOM OR SOMETHING) BUT SABOTAGING EVERYONE AND HHHHHHHHH WAIT WAIT WAIT WHAT IF SHES ALSO HELPING THE OTHER CHILD SERVANTS ESCAPE WITH LIKE SOME MAGIC OR SOMETHING (suddenly got spirited away vibes. no idea where that came from but BRAIN GO BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR)

and. im Thinking. about what the fae are in relation to the zelda lore. because unlike all the other races that pop up which are at least human-based in pysche faerie are so Not Human at all everything they are is human but a little to the left so What. could have happened to cause that. im thinking of stealing something from the fic i got all my info from (Miraculous Ladybug fic called Spellbound) where a bunch of humans tried to use power that didn't belong to them to become something elevated from humanity and their wish got granted but like not in the way they wanted because they ended up gaining the power they wanted but losing their humanity in the process and that would be So Fucking Cool because in Zelda there's mortals and then there's spirits/gods and nothing in between the fae would be like that bridge between them but instead of being a true bridge like this (forgive my absymal drawing)

they would be a bridge like this

between both but not anchored to neither and it fits even more because you know who's supposed to be a bridge between things LINK its literally his NAME so link being brought up among the false bridge but becoming the actual one between mortal and immortal is oagh ooagh ooooaaaaaaaaaaaa

(i think thats the longest run-on sentence ive ever written forgive me)

but then i have to figure out how that actually HAPPENED

like which people were they?? what power did they use to try and abandon their humanity?? what motive did they have?? cultists of the goddesses who strayed too far?? greedy outsiders unaware of the scope of hyrule's power?? would they be kokiri who grew up or something?? IS THAT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU GET LOST IN THE LOST WOODS YOU LITERALLY LOSE YOUR HUMANITY??? i like that last one actually

i appreciate your brain dumps so?? much?? seriously im so happy you're into this au i didn't think anybody would be and now i have a buddy to yell with and its the Best Thing so thank you sm 🥺🥺🥺

#fae king would be the BEST to draw #i have a friend with an artstyle that he would look absolutely STUNNING in #i know she would draw him if i asked (shes way to nice for her own good >:( won't even let me compensate her) but im wary about asking #again. thank you so much.#Legacy of a Millennia #spam in the slammer

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pretty-little-martyr · 7 months

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hi I'm sorry if this is. idk awkward but I saw your tags on that post about changing how people talk about getting gynecologic care and you might want to look into vaginismus. It's a condition that causes those muscles to tighten up often very painfully anytime any sort of penetration is attempted. Physical therapy, dilators and muscles relaxers can help but ofc its something that should be discussed with a doctor to make sure you're getting the correct treatment. ALSO! You can request laughing gas for pap smears and other invasive gyno procedures. It is something they do. Usually if you tell them any insertion at all is extremely painful it'll be offered but if not you can ask for it. Some places might be able to do full sedation but I think that'd just depend on the facilities since that would require an anesthesiologist as well

and also vaginismus is like extremely super common (iirc at least 20% of people with vaginas experience it at some point in their lives) the problem is just that nobody talks about it because well. Society. this is not something abnormal or wrong with you in a bad way, it's just a medical condition that you happen to have and need accommodations for. if that helps at all

hey thank you for reaching out fr, it's not weird at all! ive been trying to figure out if it's that or just general "pelvic floor problems" whatever that entails. im getting HRT/gender care from Planned Parenthood these days, and they have told me i would Have to get another exam/smear next year (which i am terrified about tbqh) and they've mentioned they'd give me something or other to help, probably laughing gas like you've said (which ive never actually had).

i did tell that gyno that i'd never put anything in me and that even tampons were horribly painful, and their reaction was to act like i was crazy and lying and that never happens to anybody lmao the woman literally stared at me as if she was waiting for me to say 'haha just kidding' and asked me like 3 times over if i was sure i was a virgin at my big age (21 at the time). even after i was crying and bleeding and having a panic attack they were incredibly apathetic towards me. so! yeah. to be quite honest i'm not interested in dilators or physical therapy--not to knock them, i just want my whole shit removed, so why put in that effort and (probably) gain new trauma from putting things in me, yknow? the mere concept kinda makes me ill. im considering looking into surgery sometime soon-ish. my family might lose their shit about it, but, i dont think they can stop me now that i live by myself, and unless their insurance blocks it, i should be good to go on that.

anyway. id be so down to get fully sedated for it. put me under for like 30 minutes to get all that shit done and i dont have to be present for it or acknowledge it at all thanks. also might help in general, if the muscle tightening is something semi-voluntary/if that even is my issue. ive also considered if i just have a very small hole. i think thats referred to as a neovagina? i dunno.

i really appreciate these asks <3 very kind of you and. somehow i did not really register the potential of asking a different doctor about their thoughts on it i guess ASDFGHJK i just sort of. the initial event was traumatizing enough i still sometimes have nightmares, which is super dope, and remembering it too hard makes me feel very violated, so really i try not to talk about it so much. i was super fucking stoned last night, is probably why i even left those tags jhgvbhnjkm.

tldr thank you for your kindness and i am really hoping my next exam will feature me either Unconscious or Off My Ass On Laughing Gas Or Something. if theres some chance i HAVE to keep my equipment rather than getting surgery i may genuinely look into therapies just for my own convenience but beyond that i just really ... really do not want any items up in there.

#sorry if this is super rambly ive had a HELL of a day. i have an awful headache rn and am just trying to be coherent jihuygbvuhj #i left this sitting for the day cause i was too busy to give it a proper response but i did not want to wait so long that i forgor about it #anyways. there was also so much malpractice at that gyno office its insane #i had a horrible reaction to a birth control and they could not have given fewer shits about it #i got a blood test there once and the woman administering it was like 'im bad at these haha' and then proceeded to #1- miss my vein 2- not re-try it and 3- instead squeeze my arm like a go-gurt tube to force blood into the needle. i nearly passed out #i probably had enough shit there for a lawsuit but my mom gaslit me into thinking it was all my fault somehow

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trans-xianxian · 3 years

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looking for places to live as a trans person is so stressful like lmao gotta make sure I pass well enough to not experience housing discrimination 🥰

#(DON'T RB)#esp w/o having my best friend this time like.... they're not cis but they're not Obviously not cis #like I am legally a man and my name is legally ben and everything was changed before I was 18 #so there's no official documentation on record saying otherwise #but I look like. well... yall know what I look like #not exactly the most masc guy around #there is an obvious incongruence between my appearance and my legal documentation #and my best friend does not have that same problem #and yeah there are laws preventing landlords from denying me housing for being lgbt but that doesn’t mean they Won't #like they could deny me for things they'd let pass for other people yknow #like the fact that I literally do not have a credit score might be a problem for me but wouldnt be for a cis person #esp since like.... a live in a pretty 'liberal' city so I doubt it would be a conscious decision anyway #like obviously thats not to say that there aren't plenty of people here who it Would be conscious for #but it seems more likely that they'd just unconsciously find reasons not to accept my application #anyway wish me luck today!! I'm really hoping this goes well :^)#ghost posts #text #not mdzs #ask to tag

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selkiecoded · 4 years

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its almost comical how when you get into something directed at your age group/w main charas from your age group that if you engage w the fanbase literally at all there is bound to be a discussion abt their attractiveness/their sex life/smth equally weird and you just have to sit there as literal adults talk abt a character around your age like that and its like. okay.

#its a general problem i just mainly see it in pjo ohshc and af fanbases bc thats the content i engage w.#im just saying its weird LMAO!#like even if u engage in the 'dont like dont look' rule (which i do!) its literally impossible to escape as long as adults r weird abt it.#okay like i made a post abt artemis' uppity cussing n an af blog rbed it and referred to the action as 'hot' in the tags n its like okay ma #im p sure theyre an adult (i could b wrong) but it wigged me out lolll especially bc artemis was arnd 14/15 in that scene aka my age #and if an adult referred to literally anything i said/did as 'hot' i would punch them in the throat #i might make a joke abt some chara finding smth hot (see my nb tamaki fic) but im also around their age so. yknow. bit of a difference!

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thebuttsmcgee · 2 years

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Been thinking of how things were this year as I was having a possible mental breakdown once again and then got exhausted so I checked my old life posts and holy fuck I completely forgot that mundo war 3 was something we were genuinely afraid of in 2020

#Im not ready for another year #the butts chronicles #man. I wanna watch or rb fan content of el owled housing. Ive been going thru the tags every day and it still is my go to thing every day #and I do think about it at least once every day. but yknow. I wanna rb the funny lil thingies.#FUCK MAN. I JUST REMEMBERED HOW THINGS WERE #I had reblogged nearly every post I could find for it until I thiiink during sept 2020 #cuz I had been a bit tired and I literally havent been able to rb everything else since then #AND WEVE BEEN THRU S2A SINCE THEN LMAO #FUCK. I HAVE MISSED SO MUCH REBLOGGING #Dude what. like what.#I literally missed out on so much stuff to rb from late 2020 and onwards like holy shit.#like. I liked DooM stuff and DK stuff and Villainous stuff and SU stuff and Metroid stuff and MK stuff and so many stuff #but its all under the owled housing stuff cuz I literally am fixated on it fjwbabdb #gosh. I miss yall.#this day has been tiring. the toilet is being wonky rn and its been stressing me out cuz it might be more money problem inducing.#Im just so tired. even parts of my own rooms ceiling looks concerning.#fuck man. this year. these past years. Its all been. tiring.#I was honestly close so many times. to giving up. I am so tired of living. I dont want death. but I really am so tired of life.#things arent consistent unless its troubling for me. sometimes things will be okay for everyone else but other times theyll be stressed.#but Ive always had some kinda worry. the thoughts of giving up. counseling helps but thats what it does. helps. not fix.#granted thats a whole topic but. Im just really tired.#anyways. ah. hope you all had a great day tho. or at least an okay one. hopefully the rest of the week treats ya well as well.#I fell asleep at 9am last night so. I dunno whats in store for me now for this night.#3am btw lmao #EDIT: NOOOO GET THIS OUTTA THE MAIN TAG FOR THE GAY WITCH SHOWWWW

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ettawritesnstudies · 3 years

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Do you have any thoughts/advice about writing siblings? Especially for characters with more than one sibling,,, like how their relationship with each other might be different than if they had only one sibling.

oh you bet I do anon, I've practically got this down to a science haha. There are a few key aspects of the family dynamic you'll want to keep in mind that will influence how the different relationships form!

Parental Roles:

(I'm using the term "parent" loosely, since it may vary depending on the story, but "legal guardian" sounded weird. Yknow what I mean)

Good parents will encourage mutually respectful relationships between their kids, avoid playing favorites, and work to settle bickering quickly and fairly. Siblings might get on each other's nerves, but they'll also be friends and whacky in-jokes abound.

Poor parents will either create an incredibly tight bond between siblings (to compensate for the lack of a reliable/safe adult support structure) or will drive siblings apart (probably by playing favorites, creating a rivalry)

Another thing to consider is if both a mother and father figure are present. Kids being raised by a single parent or a grandparent will have a different dynamic than if both were around. Divorce or parental death can be a major traumatic early life event, and will affect how each child relates to their parent and to each other. I can't really speak to this because I didn't grow up in a separated family, but research by reading first-hand experiences. If the kids are orphans, or both parents are neglectful, a sibling might step up into the parenting role, creating a complex, interdependent relationship.

Birth Order:

People will argue about this for aaaaagggess, but broadly speaking, the following personality traits are accurate:

Oldest/Oldest available (when the actual eldest isn't around)/Oldest Daughter (when the older brothers are useless around the house):

Strengths: organized, responsible, leader, probably half-decent at babysitting, cooking, and cleaning, may be a peacemaker between younger siblings.

Weaknesses: bossy/opinionated, default center of attention OR invisible depending on the situation, may bully younger siblings

With great privilege comes great responsibility

Middle (depending on place in the middle and age gaps, may lean more towards oldest/youngest behaviors in the family dynamic):

Strengths: flexible, independent, more laid-back attitude, probably makes friends outside of the family easily

Weaknesses: flighty, deliberately annoying, might feel inadequate or looked over in older sibling's "shadow"

Youngest:

Strengths: "Go-get-em" attitude. They want to run with the older kids, and parents are too exhausted to stop them, so they learn a lot young. If the eldest was allowed to stay at home alone overnight at 16, the youngest is probably doing that at 14. Confident. The other default center of attention.

Weaknesses: Tag-along, loud/obnoxious.

When someone only has one sibling, it's only the oldest/youngest dynamic and since both are so independent (and the parent's attention isn't split so many ways), I've noticed they're usually not as close? Especially if there's a age gap, they function more like only children that live in the same house, idk?

When you have a large family, pretty much everything in your life rotates around the family's schedule, when are your parents available to take you to X event, do you have to be present at Y event, who's babysitting tonight? Each person has a defined role within the family and the relationships are reflective of that.

Shared Life Experiences:

How much time did they spend together growing up, and was that a positive or negative experience? Did their family experience a traumatic event? (probably in the protagonist backstory). How did they react and support each other through that? If there's common ground, they might not talk about it because nothing needs to be said. They lived through it together.

Personality Dynamics/Clashes:

Depending on how you built your characters from the above questions, this can be a highly story-specific question to answer, but I'm just going to throw some generic dynamic ideas together inspired by my own siblings and stories:

Oldest and 2nd Oldest sisters are mistaken as twins because they're on the same mental wavelength 80% of the time. Lots of affectionate exasperation and mutual complaining/info dumping.

Middle was the youngest for 5 years until a younger sibling was born. Finds themselves caught between youngest "immaturity" and new expectations to be a good example of an older sibling.

two middle kids (2 years apart) bicker as small children but grow into being chill friends as teenagers once they both mature a little.

younger middle (10M) has different favored older siblings to go to for different problems when they can't get mom or dad's attention (asking oldest for help with school, older middle for help with friends, etc.)

the impartial sibiling mediating arguments between overly concerned but justifiably frustrated parents and overly defensive but justifiably irritated sibling.

parents mediating arguments between overly concerned but justifiably frustrated older sibling and overly defensive but justifiably irritated younger sibling.

younger middle and youngest siblings being absolute agents of chaos together, and that insanity factor growing exponentially for each added person involved.

The house is just TOO NOISY with all of this chatter, you're banished outside until dinner time. Go play.

The dynamic of: "oh my gosh they're such a dumbass, but I love them too much to let them get away with this bad decision.

protective of each other against outsiders, even if they bicker a lot: "The only one allowed to punch my sibling is me."

complaining with each other about their parents

so many dumb in jokes

I think I've rambled enough but I hope this helps!

#writing siblings #writing advice #writeblr #siblings #etta rambles

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