#~ ; }} 📓 my works

[bizarrelittlemew]

i was hoping to make a post like this under happier circumstances, but here goes.

as some of you know, everything with the cancellation and renewal campaign has happened right on top of the worst part of my mom's cancer treatment (plus the show was cancelled on my actual birthday 💀). i won't go into details, but it's been tough. lots of ups and downs, mostly downs, luckily ending (for now) on as much of an up as circumstances allow. the whole thing has been weirdly tied to the cancellation for me, kind of amplifying every feeling. the grief got mixed up, and there was so much of it - mourning the loss of the kind of future i thought i'd have with my mother and the time we might not get, mourning the end of a show that means so much to me and is such a big part of my life. different types of grief, sure, and of different magnitudes, but in one big ugly swirl. i sort of had a breakdown right at the start of february, and it was because of news about my mom, but it morphed into my brain telling me everything i'd ever written was shit and wanting to delete it all. stuff like that, spilling over.

anyway. i was holding off on writing this post to see if the show got picked up by someone else. but i still want to say it. because what also spilled over was the support and community from this fandom, and being in this space (despite the rough times and high emotions) helped me through it, because of all of you here. whether we talk regularly, or you left a comforting reply or simply a like on one of my posts about having a hard time (i tried to keep them few), or wrote a nice comment on a fic, or said something funny or nice or insightful in the tags of a gifset, or was active here (or on twt) in any way, talking/sharing/creating stuff about the show - THANK YOU.

you all helped me through all the ups and downs, and i am so grateful. thank you for being here, listening, distracting, helping me feel some joy despite the horrors. i love you and i love this incredible show and all it has brought and will continue to bring and inspire, and although it should go without saying, i'm not going anywhere. just do me a favor and give yourself a big ol' hug from me, and know that you made a difference for some random guy on the internet (but in reality for many more, and for this fandom as a whole, just by being here and being you) 💕

#🐭📓 #oh wow this got long #i grieved so much in january and never truly got my hopes up even though i of course wished something would happen #that the second “cancellation” message did not hit me as hard as it did for others - like i'd already absorbed that reality #but no matter what. all the effort was worth it - even for just the slightest chance of renewal and showing the cast and crew all the love #and seeing the fandom rally and all the fun moments we found along the way in a shitty situation none of us wished to be in #and for the record - i don't think this means there is no possibility of anything happening in the future #i just think the current/immediate negotiations fell through due to the current streaming landscape #you never know what can happen even if nothing happens for years #it's just that it's not happening right now and we shouldn't be at the edge of our seats. but instead settle into long term fandom mode #instead of constant campaign mode. keep showing all our love for the show and letting it inspire us and move us #and keep supporting the cast and crew in their next works #there is so much more to come from the same creative minds #and i for one am looking forward to experiencing it with you all 💗 #ok i will stop rambling now skdjfhdjks

[urdinosaurs]

I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT THE MOVIES, I'M TALKING ABOUT THE BOOKS!!!

(the books are sm better than the movies)

#it would just be a side thing on top of my hobie brown works #📓🖋- 𝓁𝓎𝓁𝒶'𝓈 𝒹𝒾𝒶𝓇𝓎 ₊˚⊹ #tobias eaton #tobias eaton x reader #tobias eaton x fem reader #divergent tobias eaton #divergent fanfiction #divergent series #novels #divergent x reader #divergent #four divergent #four #four x reader #divergent four oneshot #divergent four #divergent four x reader

[szczylpierdolony]

there is something so taxing about living with my parents still even though generally i have nothing to complain about. like yeah we fight sometimes, but i don’t have to pay for anything myself, they can give me a lift when i need one, i don’t have to do all the chores myself etc etc, but i find the constant need to tell them what i’m doing to be sooo soul crushing. and it’s not bc they’re mean about it or anything i’m generally free to do whatever i want i don’t have a curfew, they just want to ask where i am or where i’m going which is totally normal but i wish i could just. get up and go somewhere without telling them. just decide i want to go on a trip and do it without needing to announce my plans, and this is objectively such a non issue but for whatever reason i can’t shake this off

#and i have such a silly need to be secretive about meaningless shit bc of this too #like going to the museum or to see a movie and not telling them feels freeing almost #like i’m an adult living my life and not someone stuck at home still #and i could technically find a job and move out but 1. i don’t think i could afford to live alone so roommates it is #and at this point i’ll take the my parents i think #2. im so mentally unwell there’s no way i could realistically hold a job unless i absolutely had to #and i think about how my sister moved out when she was 23 #she had been working part time for a while at a law firm and she didn’t even have a proper landlord #and she still wouldn’t have been able to afford that alone she had a bf who was also working part time in finance #this city is so expensive it’s literally a nightmare #📓

[ashtraysystem]

I've been ticcing like hell all day to the point of frustrated tears, so i asked my mom if i could take some of her gabapentin (which ive taken before)

im probably gonna ask my doc if they can perscribe me some so that i actually have some whenever i need it or something. idk yet i just know it helps a lot with my chronic pain and my tics.

im working on getting a new doc bc i dont trust my current doc, so the earliest i can do anything is february 22nd or something.

i just get so done and frustrated with being in pain and being so ticcy that i cant breathe. i literally couldnt even give a nonverbal hello to my friend across the room bc i was ticcing so bad. aarrghh its just *strangles my tourettes*

existence has been extremely frustrating lately, and not in the ways im used to. im used to the every day bullshit of life, but when its shit like this thats very internal, very much like "there is no physical evidence of your experience" and its so unique to me that i cant complain about it and have people understand, i dont know how to handle that.

#i need a hug man #it feels like my body is trying its hardest to work against me lately #vent #rant #medical vent #medical rant #chronic pain #eli📓 #cole🥾

[thelastofhyde]

babessss are you okayyyy???? The new chapter can wait but you’ve been mia

sending you good vibessss🫶🏻

thank you for the good vibessss ! and sorry if i've made anyone worry, i've just been avoiding posting out of the shame of not having posted the new chapter yet <3

#( 💌 ) you’ve got mail ? #( 📓 ) the likeability paradox ! #i'm never putting a release date on anything again bc clearly life likes to get in the way of those plans #aka it has half my coworkers quit in the middle of summer.. leaving me to work like 60 hours a week covering them <3 #anon asks

[angliclamb]

the fact my bnha stuff has 1-2k notes and my fnaf stuff has 100-200 is so lame and sucks dirty unwashed ass crack

#LIKE THAT'S SO COOL BUT ALSO #fnaf is better. #i put more work into my fnaf stuff. #ESPECIALLY THAT MICHEAL FIC THAT WAS MY BABY #I WAS SO PROUD OF THAT #📓.donalations

[bastard-kins]

Ah my first non-flying Jack dream has me collapsing into a pile of snow and snickering when I hear the "POMFT" sound it made. Nice.

#/pos #tho once again. the snow wasn't cold! i think i mentioned that too. that it wasn't cold #my dreams don't know how temperature works #[❄]: lonely guardian • jack #[📓]: late night monologuing • personal

[eightsevenths]

maybe ill start writing fics again

#not like i dont have enough inspiration huh #eightsevenths 📓 #long fucking day #in starbucks working on my 7 billion projects simultaneously

[bizarrelittlemew]

how do i tell my stupid brain and body that we're ON BREAK it's LEGAL to do nothing i do NOT have to feel guilty shut UP and calm DOWN

#personal #caved and checked my work mail #it's literally the first day #why do i feel like i'm about to have a panic attack after trying to relax for one (1) day #brb going out to lie in a field #🐭📓

[urdinosaurs]

it's actually embarrassing after having re watched atsv on digital how much i miss characterized hobie. I was trying to be careful and stay true to his core values as a person when put in odd (usually sexual) situations, but yeah, that didn't happen.

my formal apologies guys, I am really sorry i did this to you, its totally my bad and I will do better next time 🙏

#my memory of how he acted in the movie faded which resulted in my work now #dw guys I'll try to make my next one as close to hobie as my possible #📓🖋- 𝓁𝓎𝓁𝒶'𝓈 𝒹𝒾𝒶𝓇𝓎 ₊˚⊹ #hobie brown atsv #hobie x reader #hobie brown #hobie spiderverse

[szczylpierdolony]

can they please leave the house oh my god

#i have things to do and i can’t do any of them while you’re still here #📓 #i need to move out as soon as possible but it also won’t be possible for so much longer #like my sister managed to move out when she was 23 but she was getting a degree that allowed her to easily get employed even when still #in uni with not bad pay and she had a bc who was also working #christ i’ll be living here until i’m 25 won’t i #and it’ll be what makes me kms for sure

[ironshrikes]

i want to develop the confidence to be a little more off putting. to make unpalatable art. to be a little unpalatable myself

#tryna figure out who i am so i can do it on purpose #but also i dont want to make 'my little art' #i want to make art that is an inarticulate scream #overwhelming and colossal and obfuscated #i dont want it to be made into a diminuitive #i dont want to be a diminuitive #im not good at it yet but im working on it #this post brought to you by the phrase 'my little (blank)" #theres nothing inherently wrong with it but its stuck in my brain like grit in an oyster #i am thinking about rothko also #lab notebook 📓

[strangestcase]

man Im so glad classic literary characters don't have Tumblr could you imagine. What the fuck would Frankenstein post about…

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She Cornelius on my Agrippa till I perform the Great Work

📓 miltonreader Follow

I just killed your cousin btw

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Make your own post????

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🪳 saamsa

I hate my dad

#gregor rambles

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🐶 wardogz Follow

THINGS MY ROOMMATE KNOWS ABOUT:

-identifying tobacco brands by the ash

-disarming men in close combat

-creating cyphers

-the complete history of English crime

-forensic chemistry

THINTS MY ROOMMATE DOESNT KNOW ABOUT:

-heliocentrism

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Cats are the opposite of dogs. Cats are autistic. Therefore, dogs are neurotypical.

🌼 curiouslittlegirl Follow

You might be onto something here

♥️ croquetfreak Follow

Who painted my roses red ⁉️

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🔪 choirboy Follow

Im so running this island call me Usain Bolt

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Putting gummy worms in blue rum to create a cocktail called “the pussy fucker” . Complete with pickle juice. Forflavour

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UPDATE: don’t do this

#laboratory logs #ooooh fuck my stomach

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Crawling

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Crawling

👰🏽‍♀️ brideintheattic Follow

My stupid cunt husband is remarrying I’m burning his fucking shit down

👰🏽‍♀️ brideintheattic Follow

Crawling again

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im gonna fight these giants

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They’re fucking windmills

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Im gonna fight them

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🫅🏼doubtful-prince

#fakeposting #fake posts #unreality

[valorascult]

⭐️ RESET ⭐️

——————

- delete contacts you no longer speak to, old notes on phone, playlists you no longer listen to. 📱

- unsubscribe from podcasts, channels, music, remove apps & accounts that you no longer absorb. (replace these things with content the person you’re becoming would consume) 🎵🤍

- go through your wardrobe & create a donate, sell, & keep pile. don’t keep things you haven’t worn in months. before purchasing something, ask yourself if you’ll use it more than 5 times. for every item you bring in, 2-3 items should leave. 👚👙👟

- start adjusting your diet to fit your personal goals. remember that slow motion is better than no motion + discipline is necessary. don’t force yourself to get healthy / fit in one week this is a steady win - avoid burnout. writing your goals every week helps. ✍🏼🍳🍎🫐🥑

- practice detachment. i don’t mean from emotions & becoming ‘stoic’ but from materialistic objects, remove yourself from labels, become nothing so that you may become something. detach yourself from people that no longer serve you, stop dwelling on the past; there is only ‘right now’. detach yourself from the future, it is not promised & only creates anxious emotions. 🧠🫀🦶🏼

- learn to become comfortable with the uncomfortable. train yourself with breath work. I recommend pranayama, morning & night. I used to be anxious about anything that is ‘new’ until I started simply breathing properly & quieting my mind first thing when I wake up, I swear by it. 💆🏼‍♀️

- journal morning & night. track your mental + emotional patterns. write down why you feel a certain way & if you don’t know why, break it down instead of looking at the bigger picture. 📓

I could list more but I will end it here. There are levels to a reset. (lvl 1)

#affirm #affirmations #void state #law of abundance #law of assumption #positive affirmations #self concept #desired reality #self concept affirmations #law of detachment #affirmyourreality #manifestation #manifesting #master manifestor #life coaching #lifestyle #dream life #loa tumblr #loa #law of affirmation #law of attraction #law of manifestation #subconscious mind

[angliclamb]

eye twitch

#MY TEACHER HAD ME TO WAIT AFTER SCHOOL TO GET THE WORK I MISSED #AND TAKE THE TEST #AND NOW #I MISSED THE BUS #BOOOOOOOOO 🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅 #📓.donalations

[bastard-kins]

Holy shit it's time to change my theme again actually

#CLUTCHING MY CHEST. NO PLEASE. ITS SO MUCH WORK #I HAVE TO...DRAW SOMETHING OUGHH #at least an island ttheme shouldn't be be too hard to find #[📓]: late night monologuing • personal